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keplercryptids · 2 years

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okay, here’s my official list of items that were extremely helpful to me after top surgery, with links if applicable. I limited it to five (plus some additions at the end) because these items were must-haves for me. for accessibility reasons, the links are mostly to amazon, but obviously if you can find these or similar items elsewhere, please do so!

1. U-shaped body pillow, sometimes marketed as a "pregnancy" pillow (link)

I was *glued* to this thing for the first three weeks post-op. It helped prop me up during waking hours, with cushions for my arms (which is a must), and it helped me sleep more comfortably both on my back and eventually on my side (by wedging one of the sides underneath me). I actually still sleep with it because I like to be surrounded by pillows even when I haven’t just gotten surgery lol.

2. *large* ice packs (link)

I don't know how i would have recovered without these lol. From about Day 4 until about Day 16, I was using them frequently every day. Great for soreness and swelling, but excellent to keep the itching at bay. (the itching was by far the worst part of recovery for me.) The extra-large size made them great for covering my whole chest, or one half my chest and underarm area (my usual preference). Obviously, never put ice directly on your skin, and you should probably ask your surgeon if you're getting nipple grafts because there may be special ice pack rules for that. but yeah!!! Get ice packs please it helps so much. (also! benadryl!!!! i cannot stress this enough take benadryl for the itchiness)

3. mastectomy shirt (link)

i only got one of these because they're kind of pricey, but i wish i'd had a couple to rotate through for the first week or so. these shirts are super handy for your drains: having interior pockets with loops to hold the tubing in place was great and kept the drains safely out of the way and out of mind. any soft button- or zip-up shirt with interior pockets would work well, if you're able to sew pockets into an existing shirt.

my other advice is not to worry too much about buying new clothes for recovery. I got a cheap pack of extra big T-shirts that I cut the arms off to make tanks with extra-big armholes, and those were the most comfortable things for me. after about a week, i was able to wear normal baggy shirts (with help getting dressed). bathrobes, button-ups, zip-ups, they’re all good choices.

4. post-op compression band from etsy (link)

this was an absolute must-have for me from weeks 2-7 or so, after I was allowed to compress using a binder or ace bandages. Ace bandages were okay but very difficult to put on/take off by myself, and i actually found this band to be more comfortable anyway, in addition to allowing me to put it on by myself. highly, highly recommend!

5. neck travel pillow (link)

This was fully the only reason I was able to sleep on my back for the first week. It kind of allowed me to turn my head to the side in a way that was still comfortable and let me “feel” like I was on my side, if that makes sense. I honestly didn’t think I’d use the neck pillow much but it was great to have.

Other stuff that came in handy but I either had on hand or were gifted to me: long silicon straws, baby wipes for sponge bathing the first week, a back scratcher, a mastectomy pillow (mostly for weeks 2-6 tbh, i didn’t use it much at first, though it did come in handy for the drive home from surgery), and squishmallows. seriously, if you’ve been looking for an excuse to get a squishmallow, let top surgery be that excuse. surround yourself with as many soft things as possible lol.

#teet: the yeetening #top surgery #medical stuff

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quirkwizard · 1 month

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I've been wondering how medical care would be involved with quirks and what you thoughts were. Some thoughts I've had were if there are specialists for certain quirk types, such as fire quirks or physical therapists for strength enhancement quirks. Would checking the ability of a person's quirk factor into medical practices, because I doubt many quirks would be at their best performance at all times.

I've already talked about the medical field before, but I can always go over it again.

I could certainly see there being a lot of changes and advancements within the medical field. Quirks are biological in nature and would be covered by doctors. Surely, there would be to massive adjustments to have doctors are trained into to work with this whole new aspect of the human body. I can't imagine all the training doctors would have to go through in order to work with all the new parts a human may or may not have. How do you determine how Since we know that Quirks can be affected by psychological blocks, they are bound to be affected by physical issues of it. Besides very direct examples of it, like Gran Torino poor lungs weakening "Jet" as he ages, I think there are kinds of ways how your physical health could affect Quirks, even something as small and common as a cold. And while I'm not sure if there is any singular way to check someone's Quirk factor, as they are far too varied to fit under a single test, I'm sure you could run a series of tests based around the Quirk's functions. Like a doctor could test and compare the potency of someone's armored shell to a previous visit or see how potent someone's fire is on a dummy.

That being said, I'm not sure if there would be such specific fields for Quirks. I doubt that something as basic or common as a fire power would have a whole field dedicated to it. Besides being too specific of a field to have any kind of doctorate based around, I believe that Quirks are a whole are too diverse to really teach anyone. Then again, the medical world can have super specific surgeons and doctors, so there could be a chance that is a thing. I think it would be more likely that you'd need some equivalent of a general practitioner for Quirks, going to them for any and all medical issues related to Quirks or that whatever field that'd study in would be expanded to include those Quirks. Using the physical therapist examples, they would turn learn how to handle and get the equipment to handle people with hyper dense muscles. Otherwise, I think there would be specialists, just with a broader net. Like there could be a doctor who specializes in people with major mutations to their body, such as "Sludge Villain" or people with Animal Mutations. Stuff like that is such a massive deviation and a common enough issue that I could see it requiring that level of dedication to work it.

#My Hero Academia #Quirks #Kyudai Garaki #Chiyo Shuzenji #Recovery Girl #Sorahiko Torino #Gran Torino #MHA Meta #MHA Theory

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peonierose · 1 year

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For @openheartappreciationweek I decided to share two snippets from two of my Open Heart AU‘s I’ve been working on 🧡💚

Amber

Book: Open Heart

Type: AU fic

Rating: Mature

Series: Chapter 1/?

Summary: Bryce has had superpowers ever since high school. Surgeon by day, superhero by night. Though he’s not the only one who’s got skills. His nemesis Lady Ambrose is just as skilled as Bryce is.

A/N: Thank you to @mvalentine for inspiring this story with your ask. I would’ve never written this AU or even come up with this superhero vs. villain story if it wasn’t for you so thank you 💓

Boston

12 years ago…

Bryce

I was still in high school when I discovered I was somehow different from the rest of my friends. I could do things with light that they couldn’t. I thought I was just seeing things. Boy was I wrong.

You probably ask yourself what makes me so special from the rest?

Slowly over time I developed photokinesis. It’s the power to manipulate light. Cool huh? Well when it comes to learning and training? Not so much. I’ve had to learn all of those things on my own.

It was pretty fucking scary for me, because there was no one I could ask for advice. No one handed me a manual or helped me correct and improve on my mistakes.

Slowly I discovered some of my powers. Over time I got better with my skills and abilities.

I know I know. It doesn't sound all that impressive at first, but when you think about it, it’s actually one of the coolest powers there is.

I can fract, bend, or move light.

Create holographic images, turn invisible, and even move at light-speed simply by adjusting the properties of the light that surrounds me.

Trust me I’ve tried out many things. Simply to see what’s possible with light manipulation.

Soon after I finished high-school my parents got arrested for financial fraud. I never saw it coming. None of our friends and family did.

Life got pretty lonely after that. When everyone stares at you. Silently judging you.

You were basically unfollowed overnight everywhere. From picta, from any social channels. No more party invitations, no social gatherings.

Soon you were shunned by everyone.

That’s when I vowed to do better and to provide my sister Keiki with a different life.

One where she isn’t judged by what our parents did. I graduated from Stanford with honors and became her guardian. After that we moved to Boston.

I was the only relative she could stay with. Not that I’m complaining. I love my little sister more than anything in this world, but I was scared to death.

Juggling university, two jobs, taking care of my sister. It’s an awful lot for a 21-year-old guy.

I didn’t want Keiki or anyone else to know what kind of powers I have. Imagine ending up in a lab somewhere, because they want to figure out how your powers work and profit off of you.

After everything went down with my parents I got into an emotional turmoil. Everything was just too much. So I started running. Exercising all the time. Just to put all this restless energy somewhere. At the same time I was getting my body into shape.

I feel a lot calmer afterwards. Running helps me clear my head. It also helped me to improve on my skills.

The girl turns her head and I catch golden blonde hair in the dimly lit street lights. She looks like an angel who fell from heaven.

Yeah I know sounds super cliché, but it’s true. She has this soft, feminine aura that clings to her. An inner light that’s so radiant you always want to be surrounded by it. To bask in that light every single day.

The Royal & I

Book: Open Heart

Type of story: AU fic

Rating: General

Series: 1/?

Summary: Luna is a Princess about to get married off to a Prince from another kingdom, to strengthen the bonds between the kingdoms. Then she meets Bryce and falls in love with him, but he’s not from a royal bloodline. What will Luna do? Follow her heart or her duty?

A/N: A huge thank you to @lilyoffandoms Who inspired me greatly for my AU The Royal & I @starrystarrytrouble Who not only inspired me for my AU The Royal & I but also allowed my to use her name in my story 💚🧡 Ruby is a very special friend to Luna. So hopefully I did her justice ❤️

Waking up in a comfy bed and the softest sheets you can think of. This is truly marvelous. I sigh and sink back into my bed.

I just closed my eyes to linger for a couple more seconds when I hear a stern knock at my door.

Well looks like the moment is officially over. I get out of my bed, pushing the sheets aside. Getting into my slippers and putting my pink satin robe on.

I open the door and see my PR manager Ruby standing outside of my room. Ready to knock again. In case I haven’t heard it the first time.

“Good morning your highness,“ she says holding a clipboard close to her chest and dressed in a suit in a light sage green. Her auburn hair glinting in the light of the hallway.

Smiling at me.

“How many times have I told you to call me Luna. Adding the highness feels unnecessary,“ I say and open the door wider to let her in.

She walks in and closes the door behind her.

“So what’s on the agenda today?“ I ask opening my closet.

I’m dressing myself. I don’t like too many people in my space.

Ruby starts reading off of her clipboard.

“Breakfast with your mother and sister. Dinner with your father, where you will discuss the arrangement between Rosario and Aldana,“ she says.

I groan at that.

I’m supposed to marry this guy. Prince Phillip from the kingdom of Aldana to strengthen our political bonds. To unify two kingdoms. Showing people we can coexist together.

I’d rather eat turkey - which I don’t like - than spending time with the prince, much less marry him.

“I wish I could be normal for one day. That’s all I ask,“ I mutter which Ruby doesn’t comment on. Bless her. I’m glad she’s here.

I pick out a magenta dress, that ends at the knees, with thin spaghetti straps. Get my pink heels on.

Put on some light make-up, leaving my long blonde hair open and wild just the way I like it. Then I turn around to face Ruby.

Ruby looks at me with compassion.

“I can’t imagine how you must feel. Maybe Prince Phillip isn’t so bad. I’ve heard only good things about him,“ Ruby tries to reassure me.

I nod and put on a fake smile. Though Ruby sees right through me. I smile softly at her and give her a hug. Rules be damned.

“So what else is on that list of yours?“ I ask as we get out into the hallway, down into the garden to have breakfast with my mother and sister.

“As requested we’re visiting the animal shelter today. I’ll take some picture of the animals to post on our social media channels,“ Ruby grins her hazel eyes shining with glee.

I smile at her. I love that we’re donating to the local animal shelter. All those animals deserve a home. If I’m a princess then the least I can do is use my title to make the world a better place.

We walk into the garden.

Freshly mowed. Its bushes and trees are being manicured to perfection. Like everything else in the palace.

I try not to let that upset me. Breathing in the fresh air. The flowery scent of peonies and magnolia trees tickles my nose. Spring looks beautiful. When new leaves and flower buds are blossoming, it feels like a fresh start. Like a beautiful new beginning.

Seems as if my mother and my sister Taliyah Aurea of Rosario are already seated. Or Tally as I like to call my sister. She’s my younger sister and so mischievious all the time. I love her.

Ruby excuses herself and lets us have breakfast. I wish she could join us, but it wouldn’t be proper for her to sit with us. I hate it. She’s my friend. She should sit at this table with all of us. My mother would say the etiquette doesn’t allow it. I think that etiquette is bullshit. Unfortunately I have to follow the rules just like everyone else.

“Good morning mother and Tally,“ I say and can’t resist adding her childhood nickname.

I sit down and smile at my sister and my mother who are engaged in a heated debate about spring colors, not really acknowledging my presence. I roll my eyes at that and shake my head.

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#Open Heart AU‘s #open heart appreciation week #Sneak Peeks #Bryce Lahela #Luna Auclair

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theresattrpgforthat · 1 year

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Hi! First of all thanks for running this blog, it's a goldmine. So I've been running Spire and spy fiction is obviously a major touchstone for it but I'd like to know if there are more games that scratch that itch, regardless of setting.

I have a preference for the less "spectacular" kind of spy (more intelligence-gathering and political intrigue than stealthy gadgets and action scenes) but any suggestion is welcomed :)

THEME: Spies & Intrigue

Thank you very much for your sentiments! I feel very good about the options I’ve managed to rustle up for you today.

Uneasy Lies the Head, by Adam Bell.

A cracked throne, an imploded sun, revolution at the gates: disaster looms over the realm as self-serving nobles plot and scheme to shape the world to their liking. When those visions clash, turmoil erupts and the court is thrown into chaos.

Uneasy Lies the Head is a GM-less tabletop RPG where everyone plays a member of a tumultuous royal court. Each player chooses a playbook to define their character, and weaves a web of alliance and animosity with the other players.

This isn’t necessarily a spy game, but it will give you the intrigue you’re looking for, and there are mechanics built-in for a betrayal of some kind. Each player has their own playbook with special moves associated with their role. Using resources such as tokens and dice, players will attempt to fulfill their agendas by bartering resources, making alliances, and forging deals. The game is also setting-flexible, so you could play as a space oligarchy, a feudal monarchy, or a high school lunch table! If you want social intrigue, I recommend Uneasy Lies the Head.

Shot Through The Heart, By Roll for Romance.

Go undercover and get under the covers as you take on a top-secret mission filled with danger, desire, and deception!

Drawing inspiration from sexy spy tropes, Shot Through the Heart is a Caltrop Core game where players are secret agents on a mission and looking for love. With 4 classic agent types, over-the-top code names, and messy interparty romantic entanglements, each agent plays a unique role in the mission. Will you play as a seductive Fatale who charms their way past danger or perhaps a Tech Specialist who has yet to see a code they can't crack?

Secret Objectives add intrigue and player vs. player dynamics that will leave players wondering if a fellow agent is a mole working to sabotage the mission or just flustered because they're secretly attracted to them.

This game is about literal spies and therefore will expect dramatic heists and stealthy conflict, but it adds a layer of personal entanglements, which will provide obstacles as they attempt to complete their dangerous heists and super-secret missions. The social aspect is highly personal, and threatened the party just as much as enemy agents. You definitely need player buy-in when it comes to the romantic entanglements, but if the players don’t mind wrestling with secret heartaches and heartbreaks, this might be the game for you!

Shadow Protocol, by Club Xero.

An ultra-lite ruleset for running espionage thrillers, Shadow Protocol is designed to fit any setting or era. Character creation is meant to be fast, stateless, and freeform.

The biggest risk in spy games is getting caught, and you’ll be fighting against that throughout an entire game of Shadow Protocol. You’ll have to do your best to avoid suspicion, manage your stress, and stop yourself to do something that brings unwanted trouble or personal harm. How much of the obstacles presented to the party are physical or social depends on both the characters all of the players decide to play, as well as the objectives set out by the GM. If you want to battle the pressure of keeping an operation under wraps, I heavily recommend this game.

The Service, by Rocket Surgeon Games.

It’s the height of the Cold War, and the world is divided into two competing superpowers. On the frontlines of this ideological conflict we find the spies and intelli- gence officers that use information, disinformation and coercion to any sordid ends their masters command.

The United Kingdom, having lost much of its for- mer influence on the world stage, still actively uses its intelligence agencies to further its national interests, even if the Secret Intelligence Service (SIS) can’t compete with the KGB or the CIA in terms of budget or power.

In The Service, players take on the roles of intelligence officers working for a the UK Secret Intelligence Service. It is meant to emulate the kind of unglamorous, bureaucratic and morally grey spy fiction of Le Carré, Len Deighton or The Sandbaggers.

Your characters in this game are not high-powered, fantastic individuals, but rather special officers doing the best they can in an extremely high-stakes scenario. This game is set in a very specific time period, and uses the Powered by the Apocalypse System to purposefully emulate WWII fiction.

What I really like about this game is that the playbooks are designed to look like British passports, which immediately helps players understand what kind of game they’re playing, and also helps them immerse themselves in their characters. This game may only be in playtest, but there’s already a lot to love about it.

#asks #game recommendations #tabletop games #indie ttrpgs #spies #espionage #intrigue

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wonderlandleighleigh · 2 years

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He has already been ruled out. She made up her mind long ago that she would never date a man with his title comic

And she never expected to go back on that vow.

Not ever.

She knows the guys from the Stage Deli, after all. Goofy. Funny. But not quick enough to keep up with her.

And Midge doesn't need the man she's with to be overly sweet or generous or kind. She married Joel, after all, and he was none of those things. If he hadn't cheated and left, she'd still be married to him.

But someone who can keep up. Someone who gets it.

Benjamin had almost gotten it, but even he, Mr. Hopkins-educated super-surgeon had looked downright befuddled at her Gaslight set that one time.

And while Joel keeps presenting himself as an option, these years after their divorce, he gets it, but he's not happy about it.

He wouldn't be happy with her. Wasn't happy with her the first time.

And then there's Lenny.

Keeps up like a champ. Doesn't get mad about how funny she is or how mean she can be onstage. Wants her to succeed.

Is kind in the most bizarre ways possible.

And here she is, three months after Carnegie Hall, out on a real live actual honest-to-fuck date with the man, sitting across from him in a dimly lit restaurant in Harlem, where most people don't recognize either of them. Just a couple of white people out for dinner.

And he looks so handsome and...

Happy. Which is different for him.

Midge is used to seeing him a little more maudlin all things considered, but he looks happy. Healthy, too. He's been clean since December, and there is something a little sharper about him. A little less glazed over.

She likes it a lot.

"I wasn't supposed to date a comic you know," she says with a grin as she sips her martini.

Lenny chuckles a little, an eyebrow lifting. "Oh, really? Afraid to date one of your own?"

"Well, the guys at the Stage Deli aren't exactly an eligible group," Midge jokes back. "But you..."

"Me?"

"You, Susie will absolutely murder me for dating," she tells him. "For so many reasons."

"And yet...here you are."

"Here I am."

"Why?"

Midge takes a breath. "Well. Free dinner."

"Always a plus."

"And...you're...you."

"I'm me. What does that mean?"

She laughs a little. "Lenny. You know what that means. It's the same reason you're here with me, despite the fact that I am nowhere near the type of girl you usually go for."

"How do you know?"

"I'm not blonde, I live on the Upper West Side, I have a river view and my father offered you a blintz."

He takes a breath, looking caught out. "Right."

"But here you are," she points out.

Lenny nods. "Here I am."

"Because you're you. And I'm me. And there's just..."

"Something," he agrees. "But what is it?"

Midge shrugs. She knows what it is. She's just not willing to say it out loud until he does. She knows that at any moment he may cut and run out of shame or fear or...

So she holds it back.

Lenny narrows his eyes at her. "You know. I know you know."

"No idea."

"You're a terrible liar, Midge."

"Well the sex was good," she comments lightly, taking another sip of her drink.

He nods in agreement. "Very good."

"Glad I didn't disappoint," she smirks.

"You'd have to try very hard to do so," Lenny tells her. "But it's something else."

Midge smiles mostly to herself and looks down at the dessert menu. "Everything here look incredible."

"Midge."

"Chocolate cake sounds nice...we could split a piece."

"Midge, I think I know what it is," he says softly. "But I need you stop talking about cake so I can tell you."

She looks at him, slowly setting the menu down, folding her hands in her lap. "Okay. Hit me."

He gazes at her; the same way he did back in Miami, across that table in that strange, smoky club. "See. I uh. Think I might be in love with you a little."

"Only a little?" she asks teasingly. "Way to make a girl feel special."

He just keeps staring.

Midge shrugs. "it's possible that's what it is. It's possible I might be a little in love with you, too. We've known each other for a few years now and every time we see each other we get closer. And...that very blue hotel room was..."

"Something."

"It really was," she breathes out. "Okay. So let's say we're in love with each other, what do we do about it?"

"I think were already doing it," Lenny points out.

"Right. We're on a date. Are we in a relationship?"

"Could be. If that's what you want."

Midge tilts her head. "Is that what you want?"

He stays quiet for a long moment before responding. "If I say yes, what does that mean?"

She grips the napkin in her lap. "It means...meeting my parents formally. Meeting the kids eventually. Run-ins with my volatile ex. Dealing with the other side of my life other than just the comedy and career side."

Lenny nods, thinking that over.

"What does it mean for you?"

He shrugs. "Dealing with my bad moods as well as my more charming ones. Meeting my terrible mother. Maybe meeting my wonderful kid. Having to put up with my frequent arrests and my going back and forth out of town."

"It sounds like we both bring a lot of really grown-up things to the table," Midge comments. "And I guess the question is-"

"Is it worth it?" Lenny finishes the sentence.

Her brain immediately tells her yes, but she doesn't say it. She knows the way she's looking at him says it for her anyways. It's hard to hide how much she wants this.

This person.

All the time.

In every way.

When she looks at Lenny, his eyes are more vulnerable than she expected to see them, and it dawns on her that he needs to hear her say it.

Midge reaches across the table, resting a hand on top of his, leaning in. "Yes, Lenny."

The ghost of a smile crosses his lips as his fingers grip hers gently. He nods, letting out a slightly relieved breath. "Yeah."

"You know," she smiles at him. "If you don't like cake that much they have pie."

"Do you like pie?"

"I love pie."

He nods again, his thumb rubbing the back of her hand. "Pie it is."

#fic #au #tmmm #Midge/Lenny #Midge x Lenny

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hebby-arts · 2 years

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KICKS OPE NTHE DOOR. ME AND @pumpkinpyre TALKIN ABOUT SR, REPO AND CANNS AND ELBY.

I... DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE FORMATTING SHDFJSHKJH JUST TAKE WILD GUESSES AT WHO’S SPEAKING AND IGNORE THE BULLET POINTS

I think SR, when he does get Rick Age, would be a lot more calm and down to earth about things. And a hell of a lot more openly affectionate of his family. Hell, he might even be one of the ones that comes around to Jerry relatively quickly, if that's where Elby winds up.

because

No other Rick that we see really has anybody. C137 didn't really have anyone after Diane. He had flings and crushes but nothing long term, and most things he either got rejected from or got scared and ran

SR gets a chance to heal with Repo really early on compared to other Ricks after losing his wife

IT'S TRUE THOUGH

LIKE. POINTS AT CANNS

HE HAS PEOPLE BUT HE'S ALREADY A WRECK

AND HE TRIES!! BUT HE ALSO EXPLODES AT THE SLIGHTEST SIGN OF REJECTION

and doesn't want to look like he needs anyone

in him there are two wolves shdfjks one of them is like I want to Help undo the pain I've caused, and the other is, DONT SHOW WEAKNESS FUCK EVERYONE ELSE THE UNIVERSE OWES ME NOTHING AND I OWE NOTHING TO THE UNIVERSE

YEAH

And Repo out here with SR and both of them are like "maybe it's okay to show you need people because holy fucking CHRIST does it feel GOOD to be needed"

and then SR lets him have some of his blood despite knowing that Canns could lose control and eat him. it's trust. it's love. and Repo keeps coming back willingly to hang out and have a beer with Canns and invite him to crazy shit, even if he knows that Canns could fuck him over if he wanted. it's trust. it's love.

YEA

YEAH!!!!

feeling needed is important to a retrieval unit because they aren't needed they have functions and they have nothing. they are nothing to no one.

SR will happily get into screaming matches with Canns over the shit he does but at the end of the day those aren't relationship ending arguments. He's still gonna hang around and let him hang around his daughter and keep him in his life

and for Canns, who may not have lost his daughter and wife like c137 did, he still lost his wife because he refused therapy for his problem. but he brainwashed his own daughter because he didn't want her to suffer like he has. he destroyed his own body just so he could commit to his problem rather than seek help for it because that would be outside his control. and then there's this little Beth who is so eager to learn stuff and gung ho about violence and whatnot and he's just like. i wont fuck this up this time.

he's so nice around Elby. like, he's adorably nice. he gets so excited when she makes discoveries or comes up with stuff. high fives and cheering and stuff.

listens to her ramble about her traps and he's just like. rests chin on his arms and C: at her

Elby probably doesn't even really realize he's such a huge crabby brat because he's always so excited and happy to see her and listen to her rant about whatever thing has caught her interest.

...She starts loving horses more because she gets to talk to Canns about it and he tells her fucked up biology facts about them

YEAAA

oh man. oh man. him being like "you- you know, there's horse surgeons. they. they specialize in treating horses. helping them have gross wet babies and shit like that. th-they're kind of badass, even if they're super niche. but- but they're whole thing is they know a shitton about horses and they put it to good work. i-- i know a shitton about rick biology, it's what i do, but- but horse surgeons??? they're helping so many horses out there. s-so if you ever find yourself in that, uh, in that position, don't, uh, don't be ashamed of yourself, sweetie. y-you'd be saving these fucked up creatures."

Elby grows up to be one of the least fucked up Beths because she has so many supportive (grand)dads

YEAAA

and one of them is never growing older or anything. always comes to visit, shoot the shit. hes good for that.

#about The Fambly #not art #hebby and pyre screaming into the void

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diamondkrusader · 6 months

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Claudia Kingsman and Leo "Rena" Kingsman

A four main characters of a Dragon Kingsman who's named Claudia Kingsman, Leo Kingsman, Natasha Fangmeyer and Joshua "William" Fangmeyer. But it's like Twokinds and Zootopia meets Star Fox, Team Fortress 2 and Clive Barker's Jericho (including adult rpg Wildlife) but with action/adventure to action/horror.

The edit images is in the bottom or HD images in the link— https://www.deviantart.com/diamondkrusader/art/Claudia-and-Leo-Reference-Sheet-993149363

Or this— https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/s0yo3ywttdun3v0mktwe4/mr-and-mrs-kingsman.jpg?rlkey=1t2gi76m8ppudb7ffn0ejxs6m&dl=0

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Name: Claudia Kingsman

Gender: Female

Age: 24 years

Species: Snow Leopard

Race: British Taija

Nationally: English Beastman

Rank: Commander

Occupation: Dragon Kingsman Commander/

Nurse Medic / Surgeon

Class: Medic

Relations:

• Leo "Rena" Kingsman (husband)

• Three Mayu Snow Leopard sons

• Seven Mayu Snow Leopard Daughters

Personally- kindness, softness, funny, smart, loving, overprotective, and vicious serious scientist

Shocking Secret Facts: Claudia is an huge fan of Medic from the tf2 game. When she decided to bring her dream fantasy to reality, Claudia first came up and invited herself a HPRG 10000.

Bio: Claudia made be main Commander leader of Dragon Kingsman, a Nurse Medic and the most extremely vicious mad scientist. But no Human and Beastman cannot survive without a real life adventurer healer. Claudia first met Leo at the age of fifteen in a middle of DKTF (Diamond Kingsman Task Force) and IAM (Iron Arms Marine) meeting war against the Dark Brotherhood of deathbloods. Well it depends on how the family of Kingsman keeps their bloodlines passing on through generations, they decided to get Claudia and Leo married in the age of seventeen and started a family. When Claudia watches tf2 meet the medic, she always dreamed of owning a Medi Gun from medic himself. So she built her own Healing Pulses Ray Beam 10000 (HPRG 10000), so that both DKTF and IAM mercenary will be unstoppable just to ensure that she was ready. But life is created there own military force Called Dragon Kingsman is kinda pointless without a team of mercenaries, so they recruit the best of the best.

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Name: Leo "Rena" Kingsman

Gender: Male

Age: 24

Species: Mayu Human

Race: Mexican

Nationally: Latino Mankind

Rank: Special Force

Occupation:

Dragon Kingsman Special Force (DKSF) / Formal Iron Arms Marines (IAM)

Class: Soldier

Mayu powers: fast strong healing factor - telepathic psyche

Relations:

• Claudia Kingsman (wife)

• Three Mayu Snow Leopard sons

• Seven Mayu Snow Leopard Daughters

Personally- kind, funny being boys, troublemaker, and vicious super soldier

Shocking Secret Fact: Leo spending most of his time reading his favorite webcomic book called Furkinds with his friend Joshua.

Bio: Leo was elite psychic telepathic and a strong healing factor Mayu soldier in IAM. Leo got recruited and started IAM military training in the age of ten. During surviving the war against Dark Brotherhood of Deathbloods, Leo and his good friend named Joshua are among those who have won the battle for their freedom, but when comes to friendship he found out that Joshua had a secret relationship with the unknown girlfriend. Leo first met Claudia and got married to start a family on their own. When Claudia got themselves a new military called Dragon Kingsman, Leo finally got to recruit one of his good old friend Joshua. But it turns out that Joshua has a wife who is an Russian Siberian Tigress named Natasha.

#anthro #snep #human x anthro #nurse #female

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Ngl this sounds perfectly on brand for the Krakoa era to have brain fart moments like these even this late in the game

Reminds me of the "Healing Gardens" the writers introduced at the start (2019) that are supposed to provide healthcare for everyone as the only infirmary on the whole island thanks to the 6 beds, the 1 certified surgeon/md in emergency medicine and 1 mutant with healing abilities they have.

You know, 6 miserable beds, 1 experienced practitioner and 1 active staff member for the 250.000 mutants and some more that could potentially require special medical devices or contraceptives (they still have those saucy-funtime spots around the island), need a specific kind of diagnosis (psychiatry, pediatrics, ophthalmology, ...), get pregnant and require a midwife (following the 1st law), start a medical record or be hit by a big scale epidemic (*cough* Margali's magic illness *cough*) at any time

Btw, the Healing Gardens are also used to perform the autopsies of strangely deceased mutants

... I'm no germophobe but if I get sick on Krakoa, I'd rather wait it out than go to the Healing Gardens and catch something worse

Super weird I haven't read anything about the healing gardens yet.. do you know which comics they might have discussed this in?

But yeah I would have to agree with you, I can't help but try to place myself and my own personal situation into Krakoa (pre or post fall) and you just can't ever win🤪

DKLSJDFJKFKSFJ That doesn't even sound like a retcon or miscommunication it really just sounds like the writers saying "reality can be whatever I want" 😭😭😭😭

#text response #ask for admin #ideally if you get cursed into the marvel universe #do NOT be born as a mutant #also this is why you can never stay pressed on canon #the mfs owning the ip #are doing whatever they want to!!

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mymedtrips · 7 months

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AND DON'T YOU EVER FORGET TO LET ME KNOW ONCE YOU FINALLY GET TO GO... (doesn't even have to be in sk only... if you ever have a trip to wherever and feel like sharing it with me... PLEASE. im all ears(or eyes lmao)) you heard it right because those girls are really so sooooo. so. pretty. idk if i wanna be like them or HAVE them for myself instead. they're also really fashionable even if it's the simplest of clothes they can make it look so good yk what i mean? i'm starting to take it as an inspiration lmao i'm gonna have a wardrobe change NDHDHD and ykno when we were in the amusement park we were taking a rest these two cute kids passed by wearing a gown and all and they just... bowed like a real princess (like shouldn't we be doing that to them first at least NDHDHDH) THEY'RE SO FREAKING CUTE AND NICE GODDDD. (really lucky to have encountered such nice people there even if there were few rude ones but hey we wouldn't really survive there if we just let it get to us..) NGL IT IS DRAINING.... but you'd still think how much fun it is to be with your dear friends doing all the fun stuff. when you're in a different place with them it's really like you're suddenly having this new life :(((( i would so love to have that feeling again.

(several days later and i'm still bitter i wasn't there lmao) there sure are a lot who share their streams but yea it would be a much better experience if it's uninterrupted. BUUUUT you are also right it's kind of on the expensive side... although this one is encore so i really think it's going to be extra special aside from the fact that there's def going to be at least a couple new songs/perfs. SORRY I CAN'T EVEN BE MUCH OF HELP. IT'S NOT ME BUT I CAN'T EVEN DECIDE NDHDHDHDHJSUEUEH

I STOPPED subscribing (i couldn't choose one (mk, jm, jn, hc... yeah.............) so i just stopped altogether. that's adult life. even if you love what you're doing, if you're sick and tired that's it. that's why (REAL) worklife balance is super important. i wish you and your friend would have so much fun <3333 that'd be super nice.

i'm still in the middle of catching up with all the shows i missed and i'm already dreading this team lunch we're having tomorrow. 😫

OKKK i will definitely let u know if i end up going on the trip w/ my friends!! "idk if i wanna be like them or HAVE them for myself instead" WELCOME TO MY DILEMMA!! omg the fashion in kroea must be insane (but also i have a friend from there who says she really hates how everyone loves to follow fashion trends and like the LACK of individuality... did u notice that too...) i think the new life things is so true. i often think about what it means to be friends with people or even partners... and it all comes down to this openness to experiencing life together and having them by your side...wanting their point of view and craving their comfort...something sososo romantic and lovely about getting a taste of another life w them!!

omg no i get you. because every time i see a video from my friend who went to the concert i literally cannot watch it out of PAIN and regret. ITS SO HARD im sorry for being spiteful but CANCEL THE TOUR!!!! WHY IS HAECHAN JUST GETTING hotter and sexier and cuter I CANNOOOOOOT deal w this!!! i'll wait for the encore prices and see ;-; maybe i'll invite my friend who didnt go and we'll make it an EVENT!!!

omg... i lowkey ended up picking based on who would be the most active (didn't pick jaehyun bc he NEVER posts) work life balance is so important :( might pause on work for a little while and go back to trying to get my driver's license... I HOPE THE TEAM LUNCH WENT WELL!! ur so sweet everyone must LOVE talking to u as much as i do irl <3 ALSO WHAT SHOWS!! i've been getting to dr romantic 3 and im so HAPPYYYY i missed my surgeon shows

#thanks for coming here againnn and chatting w me heheh i hope ur doing well!!!#813ths #asks

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overlyimmersed · 1 year

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Dude oh my god XD

(I kinda wouldn't help this turning into a live react :p I tried to keep the commentary to a minimum cuz that's not what this post was supposed to be about. But if you're only interested in my discussion about voice actors, look for bold text and skip italics.)

Ok, so, been a while since dragon ball was on this blog, but hey I don't control the hyperfixation.

So I'm watching Dragon Ball Super: Super Hero for the first time. Bad name first of all, but otherwise I'm actually loving it! XD And it's like 80% the voice cast!

So I'm weirdly good at picking out voices. It makes watching anime weird cuz there's like 6 people who do extra voices for dubbed anime. Like period. So everyone sounds like everyone all the time.

BUT

It's not extras that have me all fluffed up. It's the main cast. The new additions rather. Of course I'd recognize recurrents I've been watching dragon ball literally my whole life.

ANYWAY

So first! Dr. Hedo, is freaking Arthur(7ds)/Tanjiro(Demon Slayer)

And like sure, anime to anime, that happens all the time. Like do you even know how many background nobodies is Seven Deadly Sins are voiced by either Tien or Gohan? It's obnoxious for someone who has those two character in her top 5 faves. What's really funny, is-

Gamma 2 IS FREAKING HUNTER FROM THE OWL HOUSE! XD That's so cute I picked that up literally on the first word out of his mouth! And sure, I know Zeno Robinson does voices in other anime too, he's also in Demon Slayer. But *I* know him from TOH so that's just wild to me!

Gamma 1 is god. damned. Lancelot! That's funny to me. But not as funny as that that actor also plays Zenitsu(Demon Slayer), Those two character are so opposite. XD Though honestly, I have to commend Aleks Le for his range, I DID NOT pick on that for A WHILE cuz he uses a totally different sound for Zenitsu when he's awake vs when he's asleep.

Cheelai is Jericho(7ds) guessed that one straight away, but also Emira from toh. Never picked up on that. The elder Blight girl just acts too different I guess. So Erica Lindbeck gets a point from me for her range :p

Y'know, I've seen some complaints about the animation for this movie. And I get that, I'm really not a fan of this 3D model trend either. But honestly most of these look quite good... Except Whis for some reason? Like I don't know, something about him is just...off. Like his face looks a little uncanny and his whole body moves weird.

Just a little aside about me personally -this post is supposed to be about voice actors- but it just occurred to me. Anyone who's seen enough of my posts lately knows that I almost exclusively call King(7ds) by his true name "Harlequin". And I just noticed that that's actually kind of a trend with me. It started back in my teens, when I started referring to Goku by his Saiyan name "Kakarot". At least inside my own head. My brother and father were also into dragon ball back then and would have looked at me funny if I'd done it out loud...

on a different note, I'm absolutely going to die from cringe. Beerus having a crush is killing me.

KORIN'S EARS!!!! They never used to twitch so much! That's so CUUUUTEEE!

As cool as that sky diving shot was, why is Piccolo still dressed like that... Also love that they're just casual with Shenron now. It makes sense but it's still cute.

XD!! Shenron is Bulma's plastic surgeon XD

YES YES YES!!! HOLY SHIT! GOHAN FINALLY USING PICCOLO'S SIGNITURE MOVE!! SPECIAL BEAM CANON FUCK YEAH!!!!!!

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subbyenbywitch · 2 years

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[theme park review] halloween horror nights 29 (2019)

this year’s halloween horror nights will be my third! it’s turned into a pretty awesome tradition for me and one of my partners. we went to halloween horror nights 29 in 2019 on our first date. and i just love that this was the case? it combines one of her biggest special interests (theme parks) with one of mine (halloween). how perfect is that?

2020’s was, of course, canceled due to the early stages of the covid-19 pandemic when the powers that be were pretending to actually try to prevent its spread. we went again in 2021 with her husband and our mutual partner (who is also my fiancx, it’s okay if you need to draw a diagram to follow this), and this year we decided to go again just the two of us because we had such a nice time together the first time.

anyway i’m a giant dork so i figured i’d share some review-shaped thoughts on the previous two before i leave for this year's.

we actually got to the park a bit early to check out diagon alley and ride gringotts before halloween horror nights actually started. obviously me and harry potter aren’t really friends anymore given j.k. rowling’s entire deal about people like me and my loved ones, but i gotta say as a theme park experience what i was able to see was pretty damn impressive. i just wish it were for literally any other franchise. but yeah we rode a pretty cool rollercoaster (it was tame enough for me, a noted rollercoaster wimp) and i tried butterbear which probably everyone needs to do at least once if they used to be fans of that benighted book series, and we got to see the dragon shoot fire out of its mouth so yeah now i never need to go back there again.

… unless i want to see the islands of adventure part of harry potter world at some point which, let’s be honest, i guess i might as well at some point. j.k. rowling fucking sucks and whatever love i once had for those books was totally sucked out of me like by a dementor’s kiss, but i like theme parks and the harry potter stuff at universal is just a kind of a historically amazing theme park experience, so i should probably check it out once and then never go back.

before you even get to any of the queues, one of the most readily-apparent changes for horror nights is that much of the walkable area of the park is divided into themed “scarezones” with outdoor sets & props, as well as costumed scare actors. despite my enthusiasm for the whole thing, i scare kinda easily so i was often hiding or half-hiding behind my partner (gaining partial cover, in d&d terms), and to my delight this seemed to encourage the scare actors to target me specifically, and obviously that’s kinda exactly what i wanted anyway so it worked out pretty well! (this also happened in the haunted houses, but idk, it seemed even more obvious in the scarezones!)

the first scare zone we encountered at the entrance to the horror nights event was zombieland: double tap, because i guess that was coming out shortly after horror nights? i saw zombieland in theaters with some friends in college and enjoyed it at the time but prior to rewatching it for this silly little review i hadn’t seen it again since, and i hadn’t seen the sequel at all, but i still really dug this scare zone. there were some burned out cars and whatnot to give you the feeling of walking around in a zombie apocalypse, and the scare actors were all covered in blood and zombie makeup and did a really great job scaring people. even though zombieland is hardly my go-to for zombie movies, it’s pretty hard to go wrong with zombies as a scare zone theme.

aside from the rob zombie one which i think we skipped, the other scarezones were all original concepts and i really enjoyed all of them! vikings undead was exactly what it says on the tin. viking zombies are like torturing bound prisoners and whatnot, and yeah obviously that super worked for me. the other two were the vanity ball where surgeon “artists” turn people into living works of art and the anarch-cade where a blacklit arcade was full of scare actors clad in neon-lit clothes and wielding neon-lit weapons.

all of these really added to the ambiance of the whole thing, and really made it feel like a much more complete experience instead of just like waiting in line for an hour or two, doing cool halloweeny stuff, and then walking through normal universal studios stuff to get to the next line and wait in line for another hour or two and do another cool halloween thing. especially since a lot of the queues went through hilariously non-halloweeny areas like the jimmy fallon race through new york or the curious george playground. we had a kick talking about how scary those sorts of things were gonna be while we were queuing through them.

of the licensed property haunted houses, stranger things was a pretty easy skip because it had huge lines and i loved the first season but lost interest after that. i don’t think we made it to the universal monsters one, which in retrospect i kind of regret but that’s okay!

we actually started with the ghostbusters one, and it was a really great warmup because it obviously wasn’t too scary or anything but they clearly put a lot of effort into it. it started strong with an awesome recreation of the library scene complete with moving books and even slime on some of the shelves that you could touch. again this wasn’t particularly scary but it was still a heck of a lot of fun.

as far as other licensed property houses, we also checked out the killer klowns from outer space one and the house of 1000 corpses one, mostly because i had seen both movies when i was doing a horror movie challenge on letterboxd. both of these houses… sure were haunted houses based on these two movies!

honestly my ulterior motive for wanting to check these out aside from familiarity was that both movies had a ton of bondage imagery and i figured that might be reflected in the houses, but it mostly wasn’t the case? but the killer klowns one in particular had quite a bit of obvious effort put into its production values and really did reflect some of the rather impressive set design of the movie. there were also some pretty cool effects with uv lights and blacklights, as well as some great jumpscares involving airhorns and sudden loud air jets, so that was awesome. also, both of them had fairly cool facades at the end of their queues, whereas the ghostbusters one was just kinda in a giant studio building with no real exterior decorations, so i guess that’s exactly one (1) thing they did better than that one.

but by far the actually scariest of the licensed property haunted houses was the one based on jordan peele’s us. either this one or ghostbusters was definitely my favorite of the licensed properties ones, though they’re super hard to compare since they were going for drastically different experiences. the scare actors in the us house were on point. like, i basically knew going in what one of the last scares was probably gonna be, and it was basically exactly that, but it still totally got me.

i learned that first year that the real stars of the haunted houses were the ones not based on any properties, though! the ones we experienced were:

nightingales: blood pit, where roman gladiatorial games have been attacked by a race of opportunistic predators that look like humanoid vultures. i loved that a good portion of this took place in the gladiators’ prison, but the scenery through the whole thing was just super impressive.

depths of fear, which is kind of like the aliens franchise but underwater, with fish-like parasitic monsters attacking an underwater base. i super love underwater settings, so this was for sure one of my favorites.

yeti: terror of the yukon, which i wasn’t super looking forward to since “you’re in the northern wilderness and there’s a yeti” didn’t really sound as exciting as the other scenarios but the execution on this was so phenomenal i ended up really enjoying it anyway. and a lot of the scares really got me! especially the ones where the scare actors waited until i had already passed and jumped out from behind me. and the “outdoor” portions were just super impressive.

graveyard games, where some kids defaced a graveyard and now the ghosts are hella pissed at them. you get a lot of imagery related to the backstory in the queue (once you got past the kids zone the line started in, that is, lmao). i don’t have as much to call out about this one as i did about the others, but it was another example of them just going all out with the design of the setting and the costumes and everything.

halloween has been my favorite holiday for the longest time, but i frequently found myself in the position of not really having anything to do on or around halloween, so i love that this has become a tradition for me & my partner. that first year is also just a really special memory, it was just really cool being there with her and like… killing time in line together and all that good gay stuff. i can’t wait to go back.

#halloween horror nights #halloween horror nights 29 #halloween #universal studios #theme parks #the wizarding world of harry potter #zombieland #zombieland double tap #ghostbusters #killer klowns from outer space #house of 1000 corpses

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ambulatingcorpses · 2 years

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list of shit i should probably briiiing up in therapy

- i was in a codependent relationship for six years and yeah it was on the internet but we sent physical mail and skyped and talked about living together and getting married and we had promise rings. he was my first boyfriend and i don't want to say it was abusive because i was probably just as bad as him which would make me abusive too. which is why i hate talking about it because i don't want everyone who's told me my anger is out of control and i'm mean and vile as a person to be right . i've intentionally never told a therapist about him and if i had to mention him just referred to him as 'an internet friend'.

- i've had a suspicion for several years now that i'm autistic but i mostly ignore it because it makes me feel embarrassed to say so because it feels like every time i try to advocate for myself in that way people either think i'm a hypochondriac or offer me misplaced validation and reassurance that i'm totally fine and it's like no i get that everyone's different normal isn't real but i KNOW that there are things that make ME different that are fine and valid and whatever whatever sure!!! that also make my life harder than other people's in a variety of ways. that patting me on the head and saying "you're valid" DOESN'T ADDRESS lmao sorry it's just like i'm not trying to be #special #unique i'm asking for help. accomodation assistance . and i know some of those symptoms are probably my ADHD but hey! there's another thing! guess who's had ADHD this whole time and didn't know until two years ago because i seem so normal because i'm really good at blending in! :))))

- sex dysphoria kind of makes life feel unlivable more than like. basically anything else. it's hard to leave the house when even though you're super bored and painfully soul crushingly lonely you still cannot stand the thought of being perceived because every person is one more person who thinks you're a fucking girl. i know you're not supposed to put all your eggs in one basket like this but i seriously think if i woke up tomorrow with a flat chest and a penis that would instantly obliterate a fuckton of the obstacles to improving my life. i know i have to face the music but Jesus if i could like go live in a cave for a year or two while taking testosterone and getting yolked and having a surgeon come sort me out in my cave and then re-enter society as me. well i'd still have some problems but dang if they wouldn't be easier to actually deal with

- i feel helpless about my whole situation. as you have likely noticed. i don't want to. i don't prefer helplessness. i would love to be responsible for myself. but i don't know how, and i've been asking every applicable person for help for YEARS and no one will teach me. everyone either ignores me or doesn't understand what i'm asking. it's hard to have the willpower to keep describing the same problem to every psychiatrist psychologist therapist teacher counselor that comes along only to have them gently assure me "you'll figure it out" like dog. i won't. i won't. i got hospitalized once because i'd been trying for months to get a job and the first interview that "hired" me was cutco knives and when my mom told me it was a pyramid scheme i had a nervous breakdown in the parking lot. i will not figure it out on my own. i need help. i've even crafted a whole daydream of what i want since it doesn't seem to be something that really exists. in my daydream i have a consultant i can contact whose job it is to guide me through goals that seem insurmountable and teach me - hands on, practically, and with hands on assistance if need be; not theoretically - how to achieve them, step by step, over and over, until i'm so confident in my ability that i can do it myself without their help.

#july 10 #time for a nap

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nothisis-ridiculous · 3 years

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Take Me Home Now: Chapter Eight

Chapter Eight: They Are Cryin'

Set after the events of ME3.

A rewrite. Ao3.

FemShepxKaidan

"Fuck."

It wasn't a painful awakening; she actually felt damn good. Clearer, like the tiny neurons in her brain fired without a jolt of pain. The sweet moment of clarity after the removal of an infected tooth. Bliss. If only a familiar face could loom over her, a happy embrace of the one she loved. A blissful reunion.

The aging woman who looked over her with a sour expression erasing her gratitude and any field of butterflies illusion. Along with the confusion of waking up in unfamiliar territory.

Right, she was dying just a moment before.

"Where am I?"

This sloppily white-painted interior was not part of the shopping center she recognized. The medical machine that counted out her vitals was also out of place, but that was a minute detail. Jane had woken up from the dead once already, just not inside of a shipping crate. Make that one low she had not yet met.

"Just outside of London," the woman's scowl relaxed, "you're with the Special Operations Biotic Company. Luckily for you, I understand you had a rattled implant."

Her hand was grabbed before she felt her spirits utterly bottom out, the woman's dark brown eyes peering out at her from behind black and white streaked hair. A moment of shared pain passed between them before Jane could not manage to keep up the contact, "how about the LT? My home?"

"The latter is in one piece. I'm not familiar with the person you speak of," the lady spoke gently, "you were rushed here after an injury. But let me introduce you to the person that saved your life, Doctor Balcan."

Jane's gaze shifted to the person arriving on the other side of her bed, the most beautiful creature she had ever beheld. Dark brown hair and eyes loomed over her; the soft smile set upon full brown lips looked perfectly primped without a touch of makeup. The simple doctor's smock hung perfectly on her body, the garment unable to smear an ounce of the poise this woman possessed. As the female nodded in greeting and her long lashes crested her cheeks, Jane was infected with jealousy.

"Thank you, Helen," even her voice was sweet, not in an artificial way, but in the vein of the sweetness of a ripe strawberry, "I think I can handle Jane for the moment if you wouldn't mind grabbing her meal."

The woman waited for Helen to leave before speaking again, "how long have your biotic powers been misfunctioning?"

"Since the Reapers fell," time was a funny thing to Jane anymore.

"Just shy of seven months," the minuscule movement of her eyebrow hardly seemed surprised, "though, I wasn't expecting to be fixing an L5n implant."

"Who else would be stupid enough to bullrush a krogan," any vanguard worth their salt knew how other biotics could view them. Rash. Stupid. Bullheaded.

"I think your stupid luck is what saved your life. You should have had severe seizures attacks, if not died from them, months ago."

Jane continued with a snarl, "but the mall. How... did everyone make it?"

"It was unkind of us not to tell you immediately, but only one civilian casualty," the doctor proffered a soft smile, "the Special Ops group got to your compound in time to repel the brunt of the attack. We had heard there was a pocket trying to rebuild; we just weren't sure if you were friendly, so the entire team did not come along. They had to rush you back here. The equipment is too fragile to move quickly."

She was even nice, gross.

"I was asked to pass on the message that you keep your ass down," at least the swear word brought her down from the utterly ethereal.

Jane's smile cracked, slightly painful against the cybernetic scars that littered her cheek.

"Your body is a curious piece of work; the sheer amount of upgrades and scarring at a microscopic level is fascinating," the woman pulled out her datapad, scrolling down what Jane assumed was a list of medical notes, "synthetic weaving to reinforce bones, microfibres in your muscles, synthetic skin fibres as well. I can't imagine the cost of that modified biotic amp."

Jane looked at her blankly, "you certainly poked around."

"Somebody wanted you alive," strawberry remarked, undeterred, "I'd think you're some sort of mad scientist experiment -that's a foolish notion. But I have my bets on Special Ops... N7."

Jane's eyes snapped into a glare, setting her jaw hard. Teeth grinding into her following biting statement, "don't attempt to bite off more than you can chew."

The woman returned the statement with tempered pity, lips tucked into a frown. The kickback from her calloused words came back twofold as a sharp pain seared across her orbital bone, requiring a hand to staunch the heat before it ended out in a cry. Jane should be thankful, instead, she was pissed. Most of the angst directed inward, some at the patheticness of the situation, little at the well-meaning doctor.

"Can I go?"

"I'll need you here for a couple more weeks minimum."

Fucking perfect.

The doctor continued before Jane's snarl turned into an attack, "you know you need to keep your biotics offline for a while. During that time, we can prepare to merge our groups as one. We'd like your help in escorting us back."

The last line was a platitude, but the LT's message made more sense. The guilt of their previous encounter started to trickle into her psyche before she squelched it away with a flinch, "any more orders, doc?"

"As you are The Commander, I think I should be deferring to you."

"Come again?"

The female laughed behind her hand, "it's obvious who you are. You may fool everyone else with the fancy scars, wilted demeanor, and blonde hair -which by the way, looks fabulous- but your unique physiology and enhancements give it away. I struggled with the thought briefly because how could the savior of the galaxy be here? You charged in with the strike team that went to activate the Crucible. But by God's grace, you're here."

"You can't be-"

Strawberry waved away the protest with her hand, "I'm more than some yokel surgeon. I don't get to be a spec ops field doctor without further training. You won't fool me."

"You bitch."

"Language, miss!"

The sharp crack of the older's woman's words snuffed the faint glow Jane had unconsciously started to accumulate. But it did not dim her glower, blue eyes pinned on the female tapping something into a datapad. Jane was still, frozen in the moment until the second snap of warmth from a small body clambering into her bed shook her from a blind stupor. The little hands and the mound of mousy hair looking at her with barely disguised disdain.

"But I already know those words," Evelyn murmured, only to increase the scrutiny Helen placed on her patient.

"Why are you-" the room immediately thickened with another aura, a solemn shake from the salt and pepper haired woman stopped her question, "are you here because Pater sent you?"

"It is my job," the girl declared bravely, "Pater said that I was to stop you from fighting with anymore krogan. Or just fighting."

"It was my fault, Evelyn...Helen," Strawberry squeaked, "I poked Mar- sorry, I meant Jane without telling her."

Jane's attention returned to the Doctor, pupils narrowing. That was no longer her name.

"I'll excuse it this time, Rahna," Helen's voice returned to a gentle timbre. Handing over the plate of rations, prepared in a manner that was meant to be appeasing. Simple rations that Jane was not thrilled to consume, "eat up. Biotics need energy. I've seen you guys crash before. I don't want you accidentally breaking something expensive."

Rahna.

Rahna...

Rahna.

The woman raised an eyebrow in her direction, plump lips playing into a smirk. Jane was had. Jealousy sunk deeper into her guts, bordering on hatred. How could Kaidan call her beautiful after seeing this divine creature? Beautiful on the Citadel. Beautiful after the first night they had bunked together. Beautiful every time they fucked after. Beautiful in the small moments. Beautiful in the big and the in-between. Had he meant Rahna all along?

"Two weeks."

"What now?" Jane snapped away from the grip of her thoughts.

Rahna crossed her arms, Evelyn giggled, and Helen spoke, "biotics."

"All of this commotion is probably a little too much for her, right now," Rahna cautioned to a sulking child, "let Jane eat in peace while I run a few more tests."

"Yup, super hungry," Jane murmured under her breath.

The patient's gaze did not stray from the Doctor, laser-focused on the slightest movement she made. Waiting for her to do something rash, her temper barely holding behind her tongue. Violent thoughts collided in her head, the desire to do something impetuous a string she had yet to completely cut. It was the easier way, the brutish way- but it was not the way Shepard did it. Shepard would resist, The Commander famously turned the other cheek. Chose kindness. Some of her could still seep through.

Even if it was in the form of stony silence.

"Why hide who you are? You are the one person who could reunite everyone."

A bloody icon. Hero. Butcher. Madwoman. Lover. Terrorist. Murderer. Savior. Pathetic.

"There's nothing to explain," a surly statement only dampened by a flinch, "I don't owe you anything."

"So, it wouldn't matter if I told everyone?"

Jane's silence was the answer.

"This is Major Alenko's squad, I'm sure everyone would be interested," Strawberry continued, placing her first foot away from the bedside, "Let alone you being Shepard, the Major's fling is a very juicy topic. I'm sure meeting the woman would be a top priority."

Rahna took several steps away, gliding out of the retrofitted container. Someone pulled her back, Jane regretted the breeze against her exposed backside. Luckily nobody seemed to pay them much mind in the moment.

"No," her eyes lit with tears, "don't. I can't."

Kaidan knew it was the end; Mary couldn't bring herself into accepting that. Luck. Stupidity. Credits. Spite. They had all stopped her death, had prevented her from reaching a low she could not climb out of. The brutal murder of her parents. Losing her unit on Akuze. Hell, even the deaths of friends during her campaign against the Reapers. They hurt like hell, but it never brought her to her knees. Now... in this moment. In the reality of losing Kaidan, she crashed. Tears, sobbing, railing against the ground. It was pathetic.

Was it the loss of her entire family aboard the Normandy, or just one man?

Dark brown eyes met her on her level, gentle the hint of moisture in her deep eyes, "everyone here mourns him."

"Fuck you."

Rahna laughed, offering out her hand and pulling the woman up to her feet, "I won't tell your secret, but I think you should talk to someone. We have-"

"No, nobody else."

"You know the risks of PTSD; you can't push through it."

"I'm fine."

Jane's stare hardened the emotions out-drying the tears riveting down her scarred cheeks.

"Or how about a deal, my silence for a few talks? Nothing official, just friendship."

She considered for several long moments, biting back each bitter comment that fought to come out. It wasn't the time for resistance. Talking wouldn't hurt, especially if it meant Rahna kept silent. What was she supposed to do for the next two weeks? Stare at the wall? Teach a child to swear? Avoid Kaidan's squad as much as humanly possible?

"Friendship may be pushing it."

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@febuwhump day 20: betrayal don’t say clown

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“You’d be dramatic too if you were about to get your teeth stolen and ripped from your mouth,” says Peter, shoving his phone in his pocket.

“Uh, ripped is not exactly what happens, and no I wouldn’t,” says Tony. “And I didn’t. As you constantly like to remind me, I’m a dinosaur. I’ve already had the privilege of having my wisdom teeth taken out.”

Peter huffs and digs his back further into the seat, as if he wants to disappear into it. “But do I really need to get it done today?”

“Do you want to be in pain when they start growing in?”

“No but-”

“Then yes.”

Tony tricks Peter into actually attending his appointment to get his wisdom teeth removed, after him bailing several times.

Tony feels a sharp pang of guilt as he turns the car into the parking lot of an oral surgeon’s office. Peter’s face is still buried in his phone, so he’s got a little time before the gremlin discovers his fate and tries pulling out the puppy dog eyes.

But it isn’t long enough.

He parks the car, and Peter jerks head up from his phone. His eyes go wide as he reads the letters printed across the giant, glass double doors. “This is betrayal, Mr. Stark. Betrayal of the highest order.”

“Dramatic, much?” asks Tony, shutting off the car.

“You’d be dramatic too if you were about to get your teeth ripped from your mouth and stolen,” says Peter, shoving his phone in his pocket.

Peter huffs and digs his back further into the seat, as if he wants to disappear into it. “But do I really need to get it done today?”

“Do you want to be in pain when they start growing in?”

“No but-”

“Then yes.”

“They probably don’t even have an aesthetic strong enough to put me under.”

“They don’t,” says Tony. “Which is why I rented out the office today and paid the Avengers medical staff to assist. They have the good stuff Brucie invented.”

“Okay, but I have school -”

“-May’s already told the school you’ll be out a couple days.”

“You guys are awful,” says Peter. He unbuckles his seatbelt, and Tony knows that means Peter’s out of his excuses and arguments. All he has left is whining and pouting. “You could’ve given me a heads up.”

“Sure,” says Tony. “And then you would have conveniently disappeared and missed your appointment, like the last three times.”

“I see your point,” says Peter. “But to be fair the last time was a real emergency. The lizard guy almost destroyed me and MJ’s favorite coffee place.”

“Why does every person who fights you have a ridiculous name?”

“I’m called Spider-Man. I’m kind of asking for something ridiculous.”

“That explains it,” says Tony, with a nod of his head. In full agreement.

The conversation stalls, and Peter looks truly miserable. Another pang of guilt ripples through Tony, though he knows it isn’t logical. It’s better for Peter to get this over with, rather than wait, but there’s something written across the boy’s face that gives him pause.

“Okay, let’s talk about it,” says Tony. “Why all the avoidance?”

“I dunno,” says Peter.

“Perfectly natural to be afraid -”starts Tony.

“-I’m not afraid,” says Peter. “I just don’t wanna be out of commission for days while I recover. It’s so boring.”

“You’ll likely be medicated so I don’t see you having enough coherency to be bored.”

“That’s worse,” mutters Peter.

“If it makes you feel any better,” says Tony. “You’ll probably be healed up and ready to hit the skies as Spider-Man by morning, with your healing factor.”

Relief washes across Peter’s face, but it’s there only seconds before it’s replaced by another perplexing frown. This time it’s better. This time Tony doesn’t have to pry to get his answers.

“...You’re gonna stay here?” asks Peter. “While I’m… out?”

“Yep,” says Tony. “Pepper made me bring a bunch of SI stuff I’ve been neglecting.”

Peter swallows. “And you’ll be there? When they knock me out?”

“Knocking you out is a harsh way to put it,” says Tony, with a frown. “But yeah, if you want me there.”

“It’s just - I dunno, what if I don’t wake up for another five years?” asks Peter. “And the world passes me by again?”

“I’d never let that happen,” he tells him immediately, and with confidence he doesn’t understand.

Tony’s seen enough tragedy in his lifetime to doubt he’d have control over a situation like that, but the words had come automatically, and they seem to smooth the worry creases on Peter’s face.

“Ready?” he asks him.

“Yeah,” sighes Peter. He grips the door handle and pops it open. “Let’s just get it over with.”

Tony follows through with his promise. He’s there when the medical staff inserts the needle into Peter’s arm. He holds his hand, tells him he’ll see him in a few hours, and watches as Peter’s scared, lost eyes slip shut.

His anxieties catch him by surprise. Seeing Peter lose consciousness like that brings him back to Titan, and although he allows staff to shuffle him out of the operation room, his fears beg him to stay, as if holding onto Peter's hand will keep him from dissolving back into dust.

Tony doesn’t concentrate on the work Pepper had given him.

His mind terrorizes him with illogical fears and his leg starts bouncing.

There isn’t a sturdy thought for his mind to dwell on, so it’s like his mind is swimming through varied traumatizing outcomes to Peter’s very common procedure. He’s like that the entire time they’re extracting the kid’s wisdom tooth, and he’s mentally berating himself about forcing Peter to go through with it.

And then the nurse pops her head out of the door. Tells him that it’s fine. That he should go on back to the operation room, because Peter’s about to wake up.

Tony holds his hand again, and Peter’s eyes flutter open. They’re dazed and confused, but still hold that soulful Peter Parker look inside them, so Tony breathes.

Something inside him snaps back into place. Something’s been corrected and healed.

“Hey, kid, you’re back,” he says. He squeezes his hand.

“‘Ony.”

“How’re you feeling?”

“I don’t like it,” says Peter.

He wrangles around in the dentist chair, and Tony puts a hand on his chest. It’s enough to stop him, at least while Tony takes instructions from the oral surgeon, and collects Peter’s super special painkillers.

“Okay, ready to go?”

Peter slowly nods his head, and Tony wraps an arm around his back, helping him to sit up without the help of the dentist chair. Tony helps him swing his legs over the stand of the chair, and does most of the work transferring him to a wheelchair provided by the staff.

It’s the same once they get outside and it’s time for Peter to leave the wheelchair and climb into the car.

Tony offers his arm, and Peter uses it as a guide and as a way of lifting himself from the chair. Tony doesn’t let him go, keeping his hands firmly locked on his arms until he’s sitting in the passenger’s side seat, looking every bit like the lost Golden Retriever puppy he’d once tried convincing Tony to home.

He takes the wheelchair back inside and quickly zips back to his vehicle, climbing into the driver’s seat.

“You left me,” Peter accuses, as Tony sits behind the wheel.

Tony starts the engine and switches the air on. “I wasn’t even gone a minute.”

“Felt like an eternityyyy,” says Peter. He lets his head rest against the window. “Don’t like feeling this floaty. Like I’m in IT and the clown’s got me.”

“Don’t say clown.”

“Clown,” says Peter, defiant even in his drugged state. “You’ll float too, Tony.”

“Okay, clearly it was a mistake to let you watch that movie.”

“Maybe they should’ve stolen Pennywise’s teeth,” says Peter. “Dentists could’ve ended that movie before it started.”

Tony laughs, and the smile’s still on his face while he watches Peter try and fail to insert the end of the seatbelt into the connector. After a couple more misses, Tony takes over and buckles him in.

“Can’t even stop making movie references when you’re dopey, you fiend.”

Peter lets out a noise that’s between a growl and a whine.

“Which is good,” says Tony. “We can watch lots of movies while your gums stitch themselves back together.”

“Yeeesssss,” says Peter. “I love movies.”

“I know, kid.”

“We gotta watch IT.”

“Okay, veto,” says Tony. Knowing the type of villains Spider-Man attracted, Tony’s convinced it isn’t long before his kid is facing off against a serial killing monster clown. He doesn’t want to tempt the fates. “How about something nicer-”

“Ohh, the one with the dinosaurs,” says Peter. “What’s it called…” He trailed off, lost in thought, and Tony imagines those drugs must be strong if the kid’s forgetting movie facts. “Jurassic Park!”

An image pops into his head of Peter fighting an actual dinosaur, and he begins to wonder if fatherhood was going to ruin movies for him. Damn kids.

“I want a red balloon,” says Peter, out of nowhere.

“Pete,” says Tony, with a breath. “Please move on from IT.”

“But I’m floaty.”

“How about a sit-com,” offers Tony. “Nothing bad ever happens in a sit-com.”

Tony wishes life were that way, that he could move his family inside of a bubble that he controlled and where nothing could touch them.

“Okay,” he agrees. “As long as I can still have a balloon. I went to the dentist. I deserve a balloon.”

“Fine, but it’s not going to be red,” says Tony. He lets himself be consumed by hatred for this fictional clown for stealing his signature color.

He pulls the car out of the parking lot, and just before he turns onto the street and joins traffic, he notices Peter’s eyes fluttering closed.

“Tony,” says Peter, voice quiet and dazed. “Thanks for being here, you know, when I came back.”

He doesn’t know whether Peter means after his surgery, or after he was stitched back together from dust. He decides he must mean both.

“Of course, Pete,” says Tony. “Thanks for coming back.”

Peter flashes him a grin, before nodding off, and warmth fills Tony’s chest. So live isn’t a sit-com, but in that moment, everything was great and for now, it’s enough.

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