#just two people who set things up + me

[ante--meridiem]

Socialised successfully today!

#it was an lgbtq coffee meetup #i think it went well because it was an extremely small group #just two people who set things up + me #& they were probably happy to see me because they were starting to worry no one would show up #but i did & it went well! #though i may have gone a bit overboard on infodumping maths when someone asked me a question about it #need to remember to preface my answers with that wikipedia article warning #you know the one. 'this section may contain details that are only of interest to a very specific audience' #I got a small houseplant out of it! #.....not technically sure i'm allowed houseplants but it doesn't say in the house rules that i'm *not* allowed #anyway. think this will be my social group for the next few years. just occasionally dropping in for coffee with some nice older students #so i don't *completely* lose touch with the existence of people beyond my lecturers #personal #oh i almost forgot! they have a big plush shark in their office!

[ereborne]

What is a Monday? A miserable little pile of obligations.

semester turnover restructure

generate/send out error reporting

figure out how to separate out unique counts

create polite reply to Massive Dick Move email

finish the bad book >:(

bò kho (not an obligation. dinner)

laundry

lizard bath

#yapping tag #I spent my weekend trying to sleep and now all my chores are due today and I wanna complain. grump grump grump whine. #the semester turnover restructure actually is a pet project so that part I like! I wish I could take my time with it though #the error reporting is. well it's easy to generate (it's actually running now) and it's tedious but uncomplicated to send out #but then I'm going to spend the rest of the day getting passive-aggressive responses from everybody #in a just world my coworkers would respond to careful itemized lists of all their fuckups with 'thank you Alexis you're so helpful #we really appreciate you flagging our mistakes two weeks before the system final-saves them forever into stone. have a cookie!' #but alas #if I'd been any less stressed and frantic when I first established the error reporting I'd have set up a separate address to send them from #write up some template emails and let the reporting all come out of the mythical 'automatic system thing' #--every 'automatic system thing' in our college is me or IT on my behalf. even the people who hired me for this don't seem to realize #if only I'd known from the beginning that nobody would ever connect me and my systems! I'd be exploiting the shit out of it-- #the unique counts is going to be a headache. no idea how I'm going to structure the coding for it. might be fun to invent? we'll see #the Massive Dick Move email response also will be an invention. 'hello Mr Massive Dick I am karma here to smite you' but polite #the bad book >:( I don't want to read any more of but the deal I made with my friend is he sends me free books and I report back #we did not discuss a special 'get out of book free' card for when the main character is a godawful shit sibling. (should've done though) #beef stew is good! mostly it's on the list so I don't forget to set the timers #laundry and lizard bath can wait until tomorrow if they must but they shouldn't wait any longer than that. lizard and I will get stinky

[jakeperalta]

spent weeks psyching myself up to stand up to my mum and then immediately got shot down by her 😃👍

#vent incoming i apologise in advance for the long tags #we've lived together just the two of us since dec 2021 (although her boyfriend is here like 2/3 of the time as well) #and since i got my job in march 2022 i have been paying half of all the bills (literally down to like tv license when i barely watch the tv) #which is £300 a month #plus i buy all my own food + pay for the amazon prime she uses + contribute to various household things like toilet roll etc #and she doesn't have a mortgage so i am paying the same amount as her to live in her house #(and it is very much her house not our house) #and I've never been very happy with any of that but never complained either #but then recently it turned out she never set up the water bill when we moved in (it's one of the only bills i didn't sort for us) #so we have a huge backdated bill from dec 2021 and i knew she was going to tell me to pay half #so for the past month or so I've been preparing myself for this conversation and sure enough today she came and said 'we owe £700' #so i was like 'oh i thought maybe it would've been covered by my £300/month' which is the biggest stand I've been able to work myself up to #and she immediately started going on about how i live here too and use water too so it's just as much my responsibility to pay #and how when we're both earning i should be paying my share and i was like yeah i know that's why i never complained about paying before #but also i already pay more than most people would to live with their parents #and she went off about how actually most people charge their grown up kids rent on top of the bills so really i'm lucky i don't have to #(when she got the original £300 figure it was actually rounded up from like £240 to include 'rent' but i wasn't gonna bring that up now) #and in conclusion she doesn't see why she should be subsidising my bills #like i don't know maybe because you're my MOTHER and i am your CHILD who is just starting out in the adult world #and maybe that entitles me to being treated better than some lodger???!!!!! #anyway i paid the bill and now i'm trying and failing at not crying at my desk 😃 #talking

[exopelagic]

I need to go to bed I’m just gonna shout a lil

#ice hockey needs to chill the fuck out #I had such a good night tonight!! was ssosososossososososo happy #but afterwards people started shouting in the group chat #and they all have very valid reasons for being angry but my god the us vs them mentality is STRONG #I am concerned abt how much people want to escalate things and how quickly they’re moving to do that #I am aware I am a doormat and a people pleaser or whatever but #I mean for one this is a tense political situation and we don’t wanna burn bridges #(there is no real politics i am being dramatic to be clear) #two clubs. alike in dignity. in fair Verona where we lay our scene #and I am personally managing at least 4 fragile egos that are all highly volatile #as well as an internal divide that’s threatening to cause problems very soon #I also should not be part of this anymore! and yet. #also why are specifically men who play team sports so dramatic when you get them all together #like that’s a whole shitstorm that is so easy to set off #anyway with my club I can’t blame the committee for being dramatic (different way to what I just said they’re not the same people) #bc I sure as fuck was overdramatic which fed into other people ramping up BUT that normally snapped me the fuck out of it #so I tempered the worst of it yknow. but I don’t think this new committee has that #/is not willing to listen to the person who would play that role #anyway if people don’t play nice it’s going to start some actual shit which will be deeply unpleasant for everyone #particularly the people who are in both clubs and do not deserve this bc they’ll be getting it from both sides and theyve done nothing wrong #anyway! bedtime now <3 I’m just frustrated bc the person who maybe would’ve calmed everyone down is out of commission #and I should not and am not willing to have the power to tell people to stop even though I probably still could #it’s whatever. sleep #luke.txt

[sunbedo]

Hey guys. gay rights

#i already made the sonic one a while bc yknow. kinnie stuff youve all seen my blog theme #but then i was wearing my Fearless Year of Shadow(tm) shirt along with it and my irl bff was like. #'why are you wearing a sonic bracelet with that shirt if you love shadow so much 🤨' * #(he doesnt know much about sth stuff but ive infodumped abt shadow and his backstory to him many times) #and i was like 😭😭 BECAUSE I DONT HAVW A SHADOW KANDI BUT I WANNA MAKE ONE. I WILL SOON #so. now i do!! taking my ad/derall on the weekends always make me want to make more kandi. its great! #and yknow what else it makes me want to do...... talk more on here >:3333 #me and my dad are gonna go to a local jazz festival this afternoon bc our jazz combo is playing at it!! #itll be fun. my dad said hes gonna get some food from this really good breakfast place on the way thwre #which is not the best part. the best part is outside the shop there is a wonderful kitty cat who hangs around the parking lot #bc hes owned by the ppl who own the bar right next door #its so great. everybody knows him (the cat) and loves him. the v/ape shop next door has a tip door set up for him even though the #bar owner ppl take care of him and take him to the vet nd stuff. my dad found a faceb/ook page somebody made for him #and apparently it just has pictures of ppl at the bar holding him. its so great and hilarious. this cat is so loved #by the v/ape shop people. by random people at this beachtown bar. by the breakfast shop people. #anyways uh. this post was abkut kandi wasnt it 😭😭😭 lol #cherry chortles #anyways the add/er/all also usually makes me want to look at and sort through my pkmn card collection. so imma do that #because my dads friend (and my friend too i guess! me and him exchange cat photos bc he has this adorable chunky cat named gremlin) that we #play bar trivia with on tuesdays (dw its not really even a bar. its mostly a restaurant) asked me abt my pokemon card collection #bc the final question was to put a few franchises (it was like. dora the ecplora and spide/rman etc. and pokemon) in order of revenue #and obvs pokemon was the top. bc of factors like the trading cards so thats how that came up #we didnt bet any of our points btw but we almost! got it right! the order was pk/mn dora spidamen friends (the tv seies) but we had spidman #as second. but we still won!! our team is on a two game winning streak!!! we always split the money so next week ill get another 8 dolla >:3 #wow i havent hit tag limit yert #lol. yall'll open the 'see all tags' thing and boom. do you love the color of the sky type shit 😭😭😭 #sorry that sounds too much like aave. i (white baby) cant be sayin that #cherrys kandi #okay well i had a tag with a verse from the ultimarw showdown bc i didnt know what else to say #but with my kandi tag and these two tags i have hit tag limit. thank you folks ill be here all night

[fingertipsmp3]

The sims 2 is so funny because you can do everything right, you can make your sims study cooking and go to work on time and micromanage everybody so that they don’t die in stupid ways, and then the goddamn nanny burns your house down

#AN NPC CAUSED THE FIRST FIRE IN MY NEW NEIGHBOURHOOD I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS #so i’m playing the prosperity challenge right. which is basically where you randomise some families and play them in rotations #i’m on the third family atm and it’s a single mom with a teenage son; child daughter and twin toddler boys #she has an ltw to become media magnate but i got her a job as an EMT in the meantime because it didn’t show up in the paper #and hired a nanny to take care of the kids while she and the oldest son were out #nanny was fine at first. she just made sugar cookies and made sure the toddlers didn’t get taken away by social services which i massively #appreciated. but then my sim came home from work and immediately got a promotion #to paramedic; which meant she had to switch over to nights right away. so the nanny came again a few hours later and immediately proceeded #to set my kitchen on fire #thankfully they have a smoke alarm but she sent the two older kids into aspiration failure. SHERYL WHEN I CATCH YOUUUU #bizarrely the person who is absolutely coming in clutch for this family is none of the family members and nor is it the nanny #it’s gerald who is the grandpa of a different family i created in the neighbourhood. he works with the mom (although he’s an intern now) #and she brought him home from work and he has just been here all night #it’s 4:20am and he’s sat playing with one of the toddlers helping him learn words with his bunny 🥹 #gerald we looooove you. platinum aspiration for gerald. GOOD THINGS FOR GERALD #the most annoying people in this challenge so far are sheryl the nanny who burns stuff down and jackson; a kid in one of the other houses #who keeps calling everyone at 2am even if he barely knows them. and also at 10am on school days #jackson’s mom also irritates me because she came to pick her daughter up who was just playing chess on a porch at 8pm; bothering nobody #but doesn’t stop jackson from spamming everyone with calls. where is the logic #personal

[starsandthorn]

wghat. the fuck

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #narzissenkreuz lore. man #all the alice and wonderland stuff. aughugh. #like i know if i sat down and read it in order it would make more sense #but like. huh. it's just not knowing how many people there are in this cast that's tripping me up i think #the only point where i went ohhh this is that thing!! past the Very Beginning was when we collected the two artifacts #from the nymph's dream set #OHHH THE NYMPH'S DREAM SET. CAUSE IT WAS. HER. DREAM. AH #anyway. narzissenkreuz as a whole just makes me want to blow up. in my brain #everything that happened with rene in the sumeru desert and their connection to the abyss #paired with all the abyssal corruption related stuff in the institute. #but it seems like the ordo itself was run by at least one oceanid which was mary-ann. who created ann #ann's own role is not clear to me but maybe we'll get to see more of it in time #anyway. traveler crumbs #mary-ann saying that lumine looks like a princess. this is now the second time this has happened i'm lying down #mary-ann asking what flowers grow ''where they're from'' and lumine responding with the flowers in her hair.................... #accepting her connection to khaenri'ah. explodes #like the only connection she has to those flowers is that aether put them in her hair. #really curious to see what the aether version of that conversation looked like

[castrovulcant]

What a time to remember that I am superhero trash

#specifically Superman and Spiderman #had them both on the brain for the last two days #they're my favourite #honestly tho #if you give me a hero character that just wants to do good at the expense of themselves #i will fall head over heels every. single. time. #well #maybe it's also the secret identity thing #i didn't really care much for the mcu characters #none of them had a secret identity and it didn't feel like they were there to help people #i mean #to be fair #they did very well help people and save civilians #but most of their movies were centered around themselves and this one big bad person who didn't really do anything until the final 15-30 #minutes #ah the issues of setting up a cinematic universe and establishing everything for the main bad guy to be endgame #however i am saying this as someone who only knows the avengers through the cinematic universe not their comics #but spiderman and superman are just *gestures wildly* #they have their hero persona and they choose to do good whilst keeping their identity a secret #it is the perfect formula for me

[foe-of-fate]

I have so many fun facts about myself that aren’t really fun. They’re just like… mediocre. So I’d never bring them up when someone asks me for a fun fact, and they are too short to really be entertaining stories, so I just have a books worth of little events in my life that are only somewhat intriguing but they compose who I am. And I think everyone is like that to a degree. We’re all little stories that we don’t think are worth telling. Not because we don’t want to, but because we don’t think don’t think they’re worthy of being heard.

#no clue what to tag this #random thoughts with rowan #existentialism #random thoughts #so anyway have a few of these little tid bits about me #a stranger #as a child I cursed when I cut the tip of my finger off and my first priority was apologizing for cursing #I once pretended to be interested in the Navy and made an appointment with a recruitment officer just so I could take his mug ☕️ #I’ve had to pull tarantula fangs out of one of my coworkers #I once told a teacher that they couldn’t call my mom on me because she was in prison #I learned how to juggle because I thought it was imprsssive and then stopped practicing once I leaned that people thought it was lame #I had a bird named Devil who I only owned for two days before returning to the pet store after he attacked my mom #I set a bag of popcorn on fire by accident and the first thing I did was grab it with my hands #during my freshman year of high school I collected chapstick because I thought my future girlfriend would want to have options… #cont. and I never once wore any of the 60+ chapsticks of mine while kissing someone #instead of selling lemonade I used to sell painted rocks on a street corner #during a group project I forgot how to pronounce Ohio #In elementary school I told the lunch ladies I was allergic to wheat because I hated whole wheat and now I actually am #I know most of the lyrics to the songs from The Greatest Showman but have never seen it #as a child I thought plums were a made up fruit #I planned on joining the military out of spite against people telling me I would not have enjoyed it #I flooded a classroom and got doused by a chem shower on my second day as a lab assistant #and uhhh there’s more but have this for now #fun facts

[transbee]

having did and being online in any capacity is so fucking exhausting because you literally can't go anywhere without seeing the most heinous takes about your existence or validity it's like. can we be normal. can we please be normal and Chill for like two seconds.

#HEADS UP: this accidentally turned into a huge rant/vent feel free to get the hell out el oh el #i try reallly hard not to talk about it too much here because you can. offhandedly mention the mere concept of did or osdd or any #dissociative disorder and its like. people will not shut up about how its not real or how its people being delusional or kids being cringe #like. can we go. two seconds without treating people with mental disorders like a spectacle. please. you dont have to have a ''take'' on it #idk and i also avoid online did communities bc theyre the most exhausting spaces you can ever be in and theres constant fighting about #literally anything and everything. like. maybe i would like to find a space to meet other people with similar experiences to my own. #and we dont get that!! we literally cannot get that. and this goes for a lot of mental health related stuff but like my god #and im very lucky to have other people i know in real life who also have did so i can in some amount have that support system (hah.) #but it is EXHAUSTINGG that people cannot go literally a day without saying something stupid about systems #or i can be following someone for years and unprompted they will saysomething heinous thing about did and hide it behind something like #get a load of how weird and cringey kids are getting online these days. #and CHRISTT thats a whole OTHER issue i REALLY dont wanna talk about because it has its own whole set of nuances but like jeeeesus #is it really so hard for people to grasp that brains when exposed to traumas at a young age will be affected by it in weird ways. #idk man ive been seeing a lot of offhanded disregard for systems recently and it's so normalized and it's starting to get to me i guess #i wish people could just go well this is something i dont understand and dont need to have an opinion on and move on with their lives. #what the hell ever this is all to say having did has impacted my life in a lot of complicated and intricate and hard to explain ways and it #sometimes painful and awful but other times is an incredible experience and ALSO. most IMPORTANTLY ! #i should be able to make jokes about BEING FRIENDS with SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG!! in REAL LIFE!!! #and not have to deal with SUICIDE BAIT IN MY INBOXX BECAUSE OF IT!!! #WHATEVERRR !!! RANT OVARRR I HAVE NOODLES TO MAKE AND EAT #.... WITH my friend SHADOW!!! #.txt #and btw this isnt about anyone ik here so dont worry im not upset with any mutuals etc etc and all that. #in fact i love getting the chance to chat about it n it can be fun to teach stuff to people who know how to like...be normal about it LOL #<3

[arthur-r]

falling asleep worked i did it for three hours. now what i’m still tired i just also wasted the day and looked stupid to my roommate….

#like im glad i slept but also. same problems as before #although my french teacher emailed me back said i should go to office hours. which is a proper response to my email #wikipedia guy texted me back with details like an hour after i texted but also like two or three hours ago #gonna settle the score by bringing a $20 bill tomorrow then i won’t feel so weird and guilty #but no i feel so fucking stupid and gross for like. i was crying so close to my roommate so i had to fall asleep #or else i’d be standing up with tears in my eyes next to my roommate which is worse #but i just. i dont know. like he thinks i’m just lazy. i’m always asleep i never tell him why #i dont know. good morning i hope everyone is doing well #there are two people i usually get dinner with and one is out of town and the other i think his parents are here and also things are weird #translation things aren’t weird i’m just weird and feel guilty for being such a weird person #anyway i just. college?? what am i doing here???? #i talked to my mom this morning she says that she felt the same way during college and that she should have dropped out way earlier #which. not helpful?? what do i do after i drop out?? i am someone who can’t hold a normal part time job and my only HOPE is ending up being #i mean anything really just something that requires a lot of prior experience!! #and the college is paying me really good to go to school but only if i stay full time #so i cant just lower my course load because that will actually make everything worse instead of better #idk. going to french teachers office hours tomorrow and will figure out time for linguistics teacher too and will get my LIS grade back up #(that one is just simple that one is i missed two discussion posts but there are ten more to come and also tests and stuff. i’ll be ok) #idk. and i still want to go to my LIS teachers office hours and ask how he became professor of rare books print culture and information bias #that is a good set of things to be a scholar for. and he’s curating collections at the same time as being my teacher #so idk. professors don’t seem as stupid and uppity as they used to. and i think i want to do that someday #plus with the salary jump from librarian i can feasibly become a major donor to local libraries to keep that influence around shdhdf #(although. if i get paid by the school (!!) to get a phd in print culture who says i don’t become a fancy librarian with that??) #i dont know. this is so stupid because i get so excited about the prospects and then i go back to the present and i’m flunking out of school #my grades haven’t been this bad since the height of COVID i thought something about me had gotten better but apparently not #like literally who went and made me traumatized?? why did you have to do that?? now i can’t be a normal person?? shut up!!!! #idk. just feel like if i weren’t having panic attacks about the fact that people are safe and kind here (and therefore must be hiding their #true intentions and taking advantage of me) then maybe i would have remembered to take my french test #idk. i’m tired and want to go home. sorry for venting all day i hope everyone is doing okay #vent cw

[yououghtaknow]

they weren’t lying, that going outside, talking to people, going on a walk to get a little drink from the gas station really helps your mental health

#went to the writing thing!!! got a GOOD amount of work done did a Quick Sweep of my second act to edit more in depth later #and talked to some cool people about art and gender and disability and politics and stuff!!!!!!! #it's Nice being around people who aren't My People because i feel like i'm allowed to have opinions #ANYWAYS my bpd has been spiking because of [redacted] doing [redacted] and [redacted] and [redacted] #BUT i have evening plans of watching adventuring party and planning out more Long Term work <3 #ALSO I BOUGHT MYSELF A NON-SAFE DRINK AND I LIKED IT #as in not one of my safe foods #i got a little strawberry yogurty drink thing and it was really nice!!!! AND it was only 90p!!!!! #and i walked home as the sun set and it was really nice even though i got lost because i was in a part of the city i'm not used to #BUT i managed to navigate all by myself (by following bus stops of the bus i got up to the place) #currently feeling very in my bejeweled era. feeling very i miss you but i miss sparkling!!!!!!! #i love discovering myself again after Trauma and Horrors. sadly this will probably all go away on saturday but we stay silly!!!1 #i just feel more like a Person when i'm on my own or with people i'm not close to #ALSO I BOUGHT A BOOK TODAY #it was one of my favourite poets and i got to talk about him with the bookstore owners and it was so nice to have people Understand #AND I TALKED ABOUT WRITING PLAYS WITH A GUY WHO WAS ALSO WORKING ON HIS PLAY #we talked about being actor-writers and Bridging The Gap of the two mediums #he also recommended me some workshops i was going to sign up for anyway but it was nice of him :) #i LOVE being in queer and neurodivergent spaces!!!!! #i was very shy and socially anxious but i was able to approach people and have conversations the whole time!!!! #i did sit on my own to do my work but i preferred it that way :) i also needed so much table space for all my pages #ANYWAYS. rambling over. had a nice evening. this is my little journal entry :)

[byanyan]

me two years ago: byan has always been a little bastard. awful nasty child who intentionally used their big doe eyes to manipulate people

me now: byan used to be a soft baby who just wanted love and acceptance, who slowly became hardened and selfish in order to survive when they realized they'd never get what they needed

#'two years ago' I say like I wasn't still holding onto some of these headcanons at the beginning of this year #tbf a lot of the shift has come directly from translating them from their original setting into a more realistic modern one #original byan's setting was a lot more doom and gloom and a lot more pessimism and cruelty consistent across everyone within it #they grew up fully on the streets and taking care of themself so they learned from a VERY young age how to get what they wanted/needed #and felt no qualms bc like. literally everyone was just trying to survive however they could #so they kinda had to be nasty from the start #but NOW...... ironically I feel like their backstory is more tragic bc they're in this 'normal' world where people all around them #have things better than they do. people around them have everything they want and need and they just have to watch longingly #all while being told that lives like those of most of the kids around them are the norm #THEY'RE the outsider. THEY'RE the one who's not normal. #so growing up they actually try SO HARD to be what people want them to be while also trying to fight to be who they are #and it's just. never good enough. THEY'RE never good enough. #it really changes the entire vibe of the character (': #hi good morning don't mind me I'm just emotional over byan's development as a character over the last two and a half years #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[elizabethrobertajones]

ranking my past lives on a scale from Haldrath to Tenzen

#idk maybe in his wandering era Haldrath had whimsical creature spirit friends who he helped people with #but we only got the grim bit where he did atrocities that helped start a 1000 year war then renounced his throne in anguish #don't mind me just amused at going back to NG+ Heavensward right after the new Tataru quest #they're much more direct about Tenzen having been a past life of the WoL's #but I still think if you do the dragoon quests it does also imply it like you accidentally got the same job stone in two lives #and it trips a switch XD #.... what if you accidentally get a soul stone from every past life #and you get your MCH jobstone and that's your first new one and you're setting that up for your future self :') #anyway I also think Estinien is descended from Haldrath so that makes a hilarious dynamic #this is also something Frog experiences in canon #although I think she's more told what Alberic saw than experiencing it herself #it's what made her believe in past lives long before they were truly confirmed to her and how she rolled with that info #like yeah sure of course this is true I have the same job stone I had 1000 years ago for Dragoon tell me something new #it's nice that there's ONE thing I have convoluted theories for that Frog gets to know about though #she's so oblivious to the worldbuilding XD #but she did feel a shade responsible (literally) for starting the Dragonsong War even though she wasn't Ishgardian #it explained why Halone was her patron despite growing up in Rhalgr territory #ffxiv #bounding frog

[princekirijo]

Finally getting round to reading the Scarlet Pimpernel (free eBooks my beloved) and while I am really enjoying the story and everything is pretty easy to follow, the sheer royalist tones the book has is a lot

#i mean i knew that would be in here #given that pimpernel is a noble who rescued “innocent royals/rich people” from the guillotine during the reign of terror #and the book is set in england AND france #but its still a lot lol #its honestly nice so far #im managing two chapters a day which im really really proud of considering i cant remember the last time i read a book #well ok last one i read was beowulf but that wasn't too long (version i read anyway) #this book has like 29ish chapters? idr #its also worth noting the author herself was a baroness #and that her backstory involved her fleeing to england when she was 3 because the locals rebelled against her family and burnt down #the family home #which while im sure it was justified must have been terrifying for her #i cant lie either its interesting reading from this and seeing her perspective on things as much as i despise royalty i am very interested #in the whole system if that makes sense? its just fascinating to me #i think im gonna blame tlk for this one LMAO #but yeah good so far #also yeah im sure you guys know why im reading the book LMAO #if not well im sure you could probably guess 💀 #to be fair the reign of terror was a pretty fucked up time so like i can see the need for pimpernel... somewhat #also fun fact for anyone interested but this book is actually what started the whole hero with a secret identity #and pimpernel is said to have inspired the likes of zorro and batman! #idk i just thought that was pretty cool

[cheesey-rice]

Hmmm the drama I'm watching is losing me a little bit.

#personal #at the start I really liked it bc FL has a lot of protagonist qualities I like. its kind of like a loser meets high spec ML and somehow #gets the impression that hes more of a loser than her. which was fun because you get to see ML who is an asshole get dunked on constantly. #but the dunkage has sadly reduced as of late. there was a part where FL had to play therapist for ML that i was like yelling at her not to #do. bc i talk to people on the TV. but it resolved in the funny way of like. she fixed his emotional problems and it just made him more #capable of accomplishing the evil things he was going to do instead of stopping him from doing them all together. #which was hilarious obviously. but now theres kind of been this long arc where theyre trying to set up another couple and honestly #the narrative does like. not have me convinced that she has a reason to like him anymore. he has to do more. i want her to marry the other #guy. like. tired. this is how I felt while reading the straight love triangle manhwa about makeup too. #like I feel like authors of love triangles always come up with like two guys and the first guy is always the worst but by narrative #convention hes the one you expect the protagonist to be with bc one true love or whatever. #no. divorce. please. you dont have to just date one person. if he sucks hit the bricks. #has turned into that thing straight romance does where its more like a horror movie tbh. like girl noooo dont be nice to him #if you do then the narrative will try to make us think he should be forgiven 😫😫😫