#just gotta endure it

[skunkg1rll]

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#ughhhhhh i got a bit too brave w food #so now i got a gallbladder attack :((( #for the first time in 5 months #and the pain killer i got prescribed for it isnt working...... which is suspicious but what can i do #just gotta endure it #sucks that it's the exact day i have to go to school #but if im in pain i simply wont #im not someone who can do that 💀 i simply cannot #so i'll email my teacher and just stay home today #hope it'll pass soon and not last for like 12-24hrs #and i'll have to eat very carefully :((( #i wish i didnt try eating what i ate earlier bc i've been able to eat quite a lot of things #so i got too comfortable and too brave #now i got to pay for my mistake rip

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Having the Pool Dream again, handsome?

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #MDZS disco elysium au #[Pain Threshold - Formidable 13]: Endure it. #I am once again putting my brain ramblings on display to give me a bit more time to finish the comic this is based off of #I promise this will make sense in context. Maybe. #Disco AU gives me the opportunity to explore the idea of 'what if wwx and lwj were even *more* neurotic and haunted?' #LWJ absolutely would have repetitive nightmares about wwx with the themes of inevitability and helplessness. #Sometimes its him dying as wwx stands by. Sometimes it is him - unable to move as wwx slowly fades away. #Haunted by the past....Lost to the pale tides of mourning. Welcoming the pain just to feel the memory nearby. #See you all tomorrow for the Real Comic (manifesting it by saying it over and over again) #side note: I think wwx would be a great lifeguard. He would love heckling teens and helping out kids and old folks. #Goofy but takes the health and safety aspect of his job very seriously. #There's gotta be an AU for that out there....right?

[turkey-sandwich]

which idol/s do u guys think has the most annoying fans (as in both in-game and irl)

#annoying as in they would just be everywhere and make it everything about that idol even if it doesnt relate to that idol #and u just gotta endure seeing them on your tl/dash #to the main tags u go #enstars

[laguzmage]

Potentially hot take but I don't think I'll ever understand the social media trend of americans equating "But I hate both candidates" to living under authoritarianism or being disenfranchised when people that have been disenfranchised by the US or an authoritarian government exist and also have access to social media. Just embarrassing behavior all around

#Like all my european friends/mutuals will talk about how you gotta vote as a participant of society #while having to endure basically equally shitty candidates #To say nothing of my friends/mutuals that live in places that actually have repressive governments #It really is just What if I Rebranded American Individualism As Based

[steelthroat]

I was thinking about the fact that it's very funny that my parents had more problems with me being atheist than with me being queer.

Like:

"Sure hon, you have a weird perception of your gender and you could possibly bring home women, men or everything in-between... fine, love is love we will take you to the pride and stuff ^w^. BUT WHAT ABOUT JESUS CHRIST HUH?????"

And when I say they had 'more problems' I mean they were like "ow... so you won't come to church on Sundays with us anymore? At least the holidays?🥺"

like idk it's so funny to me

#sometimes I gotta acknowledge the fact that I'm lucky #if my catholic parents were bigoted I would have had such a shitty childhood and adolescence #I mean adolescence sucked anyway #but it could have been so much worse with shitty parents #steel rambles #also lol I forget how much having been a religious person influenced me? #like lmao “local tumblr user discovers that going to church for 15 years every sunday influenced them in some way” #but like not in a negative way #just in weird ways #funny ways? #like I read the bible thrice in my life #once because I wanted to know the story in general and the book I had was full of pretty pictures so nice #I've always been curious about religions an myths anyway #the second I was 13 and I was proving a point #yes I read the bible to win an argument #one about lesbians never being demonized or even cited in the bible #the third time I read just the apocalypse because it was cool and I wanted to impress a girl with cool references... #“local tumblr user tried to impress a girl with cool quotes from the apocalypse” you can laugh but I have no regrets #I also “complained” to God a lot lool #like dude if you actually exist I'm so sorry for the 15 years of gossips and complaining you had to endure #like idk for example my teacher was being unfair? #me mentally: “see God? see what I have to put up with??? like I can't belive she said that!!!!” #I treated God like an imaginary friend or something I think? am I being blasphemus?? #ahahshjshdhfhg

[covertblizzard]

a prince on a green horse, a knight in green armor if you will

#kyle rayner #green lantern #dc thoughts #mypost #sorry just gotta say it a prince on a white horse doesn't have the same ring and vibes to 白马王子 #but i endure it for the english speaking audience #but anyway... 绿马王子 lol #sounds silly in both languages

[bunnihearted]

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#rlly not looking forward to tmrw ughhh #it's almost 3am.. and i need to get up at 8am... #then i have to call the surgery clinic at 9. hopefullt i get thru immediately nd can have my obligatory pre surgery phone call #then i have to hurry and WALK to school (around 1hr) bc i dont have a buss pass #nd they have started using controllants who are dressed in civil clothes so we cant recognize them. i dont need to be fined again. #it's like $150. half my monthly moneyyyy. so yeah i cant risk taking the buss. im gnna walk... #i will be late for class bc class starts at 10. but i have to call before bc class ends at 12.30. and their call times end at 12 lmao #so thats gonna be fun!!!! #then i have to sit in class and try to concentrate bc if i dont send in assignments in each class they're gonna suspend me :(( #but ig then i can go home and crash #i just have to force myself to do it and endure it even if it will suuuuuuck #ugh i wish i could at least get sleep before that.. but i just cant fall asleep. nd the hours pass me by whoops #well.. life sucks a lot sometimes thats just how it is i gotta power thru it #why cant nothing ever be easy sigh

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Doing a little bit better than I was earlier but jfc waking up to a meltdown has knocked my battery out for the whole day. Thankfully The Terror seems fairly calm today and I'm working with someone who's spent more time around him

#very much hoping the anxiety and dread earlier was an overreaction #i just. i NEED to be okay. #almost said so earlier to Alfie and had to stop myself bc like #it doesnt matter if i feel good about this or not? i still need to do it #i NEED to be functional enough to grt through it #leaving this job is not remotly possible rn unless i magically found something both significantly less stressful #and better paid #so i just gotta. endure. however i can bc i know Alfie is doing the exact same thing and they shouldnt have to fucking #hold me while i doubt my entire life

[soldier-poet-king]

Stop thinking and wanting, it's never gonna happen you stupid idiot

#franposting #it certainly. is a monday #like usually when im feeling like this past 10pm sleep fixes it #if i WAKE UP still bad. well. then u know its bad #its not even like romantic pining. i don't GET crushes really. or not often #its like #pining after the concept of being loved and cared for and doing so in return #romantic. platonic. qpr partner. idc i just WANT #i mean. mistkis one good movie kiss does make a compelling point. and i am just.nobody on repeat #but its a broader want than that #anyway im metaphorically beating myself upside the head with a rolled up newspaper #STOP WANTING! its about duty and goodness. who care about your lonely soul we strive towards a larger goal. #gotta crack open the grief of stones again. i got distracted. lost focus. thara celehar is the only one that matters maybe #ughhhhhh #ok. i log out. i have to go to work now #idk. idk #a combination of things. but the comfort and kindness velasin received in a strange and stubborn endurance. certianly isn't helping #im early book vel. a false dutiful creature.

[deva-arts]

No better way to end your day than to have your eye shanked by your boss' son! without any safe way of receiving medical attention! Then smiling about it to your last remaining family!

...Being a variant in this world is hard.

#amontag #adratag #featuring amon's shitty apartment #woa bad words #Amon could REALLY use a break. And actual rest. And money. Lots of it. poor boy's 17 and his only inheritance from his dad was $500k of deb #in which working as a mafia grunt is not cool and cash money #oc comic #oc lore #oc backstory #Amon's muscle/bone structure is SUPER dense! (contrary to birdpeople) most of the punches were reserved for the tender spots of his face. #he is violently holding back the urge to kill Mr.Richard Wucci here. Gotta stick to his grits because otherwise they can destroy everything #sometimes even having the advantage of immense strength means nothing and does nothing. talk about salting wounds! #needless to say Amon has built up an insurmountable amount of self-restraint. Not to mention endurance to obvious disrespect. #“Auntie” is actually not related to them at all. She and her husband run a local bodega and are close family friends. free dorto's! #Amon's fridge is holding on for dear life. Almost everything in his home was thrifted or just refurbished by him to try making things cozie #Both of them smile in an attempt to keep things light... But they're both painfully alone in a world that is entirely uncaring for them. #they need a hug. #If only someone short winged and angry could come and break them from this situation... but that doesn't come for two years or so. #ARK_SYSTEMA

[volivolition]

Idk if you saw or not but a new chapter of the fury of a shattered mirror dropped last night! I haven’t read it yet but I thought I should let you know 😎👍

awughgh HELL YEAH!! ive been away from my laptop for a while so i didnt see, thank you birdy!! :] this is the best news ive had all day hkjgh <33 excited very excited going to read it now <33

#volta transmissions #SKILLS ARE BACK BABEYYYYYYY!! ehehehehe :] oh i LOVE seeing them come back from just ''??????'' SMILES REALLY HAPPILY #welcome back to the world little ones... oh im so happy to see them... :'] ''You do you softie'' EHEHE... skills interactions :D! yay!!!!! #okay i'll add more liveblogging in the tags as i go probably hkjhg <33 i appreciate you very much birdy <33 #''the avant-garde prick is just making shit up again'' HAKJDHKJ... ''You did us proud holding out til the end'' WAH... ENDURANCE... ;O; #WELCOME BACK ENCY SMILES!!! no motorics skills yet though thats to be expected hkjh <3 ency ''you have the facts'' and #empathy ''and the emotions'' HKJGH IS THAT A FACTSFEELINGS SKILLSPOSTING REFERENCE /J lots of voli talking!!! very happy about this <3 #VOLITION - ''if we had the logician here...'' ''...'' ''damnit i thought that would work'' HAHAJKSHDSKJH SMILES. HA. #''Punch something. maybe Coach will show up'' HHFKJH... oh my god this makes me so happy... cmon we gotta get the gang back together... #half light!! hello!! my darling!! LETS GO!! ough buT NOT ENOUGH TO GET ARMS BACK NOOUIGHJ MOTORICS WHERE ARE YOU LITTLE BUDDIES??? #''try to get eyes back online'' ''come on come on--'' OUGH I LOVE... i love how theyre all supporting each other as they come back online.. #TEAMWORK!! CMON LETS GET EVERYONE BACK!! YEAH BOI WE GOT A MOTORICS BACK UP!! HELLO PERCEP! calm down! you need composure in here!! #THE JOYWIRE... OUGH STOP STOP IM SO FOND... VOLI CMON. nooo ourgh takes damage... ''You were really gonna cut me out?'' AWAH... WAHHH!!!!! #ow my heart my HEART. chemi baby my little darling... hugging him kissing his forehead... THERES OUR LOGICIAN HELLO DARLING!! #hkjh trying to cue in interfacing DAMN :'] good metaphor anyway concept it was very well laid. voli keeping track of each of them too hehe #HI DRAMA YAYY! platonic love story! friends!!! ''Neuroplasticity's off the charts.'' ''I'm surprised you know a word that long that isn't- #'''amphetamines''' ''Dextromethorphan asshole'' HAJKSH YOU FUCKING TELL 'EM! YOU'RE NOT E-CHEMISTRY FOR NOTHING!!! #again with trying to get Phys back in hkjhg INLANDDD SMILES HI THERE DREAMER!! Logic just like ''yeah. i hate it here.'' ''have you tried?' #okay this is the 20th tag. hopefully a reblog will be enough to finish out my thoughts but god knows i have so much to say hjhg #esprit: Birdy

[whimsycore]

I do not understand how people can wake without a weight on their chest or go throughout the day without their heart sinking to their stomach

#I tend to isolate when doing bad but like. #I gotta know what’s going on I actually refuse to be ignorant of this #the way Palestinians have no choice but to suffer and endure #along with Syrians that the US just airstriked #the way it’s a CONSTANT attack on Arab people #whether it’s that #ignoring the genocides in Eritrea Somalia and Sudan #or the way the U.S. has admitted to lying abt Iraq I just

[lexicog]

ohhh LOL i get it im getting April Fooled (lol!). trans day orf visibility is tomorrow.

#trans day of visibility #trans day of eating food #i love bein a fuckin transsexual... and i love food #breakfast was almond butter + strawberry preserves + butter sammich. more filling than i thought it would be #ouuuhh i have so much celery and spinach i need to use before it goes bad but im almost out of miso paste #pro tip for you people out there make very hot miso broth. put raw vegetables + spices in it. cover it and let it sit maybe 10-15 minutes #add a carbohydrate & or protein and maybe some sort of dairy or sauces (naysayers and haters may bring forth vitriol and venom for this but #an unsweetened greek yogurt goes great in miso. tangy creamy & savory flavor. it awesome) #consider adding oil for flavor and for the absorption of fat soluble nutrients oft found in vegetables #and there you go big breakfast warm healthy and no cooking tastes good every time #well you might need to cook the carbohydrate/protein but the method goes great with big batch cooking / using leftovers #its not the definition of high cuisine but breakfast must come and go each day and some days the stove is an enemy of the people. #OH I GOTTA SAY. SCRAMBLED EGGS TASTES SO GOOD IN THERE. YOU GOTTA IF YOU WANNA. you just put it in #it circumvents the scrambles 1 fatal flaw by stopping them from going dry and becoming a torturous texture to endure. kind of genius. #art #drawing #digital art #my art #transgender art #transgender artist #transgender #trans #trans pride #lgbt #this year i would like to. somehow get out of where im currently living. so i can finally start transitioning. #another year gone by without it and it's weighing heavy.

[msommers]

i'm doing a lot of finding out for very little fucking around, actually. would love to fuck around more and find out less, if possible.

VALERIYA DE CLAIRMONT II ↳ the vigilant campaign

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#campaign: the vigilant #ch: valeriya de clairmont #graphic #graphic: valeriya #almost went for a red theme bc her colors are purple and red but it's me. it's tabby. i caved #purple and gold it is #remember when she was gonna slowly have development but then she got smacked in the face w reality lol #first her lover and bestie die. then she's gotta give up her cool outfits for the warden uniform :/ what more could she endure :// #anyway i don't 100% like this but she's my baby and that's what counts #her aesthetic is lacking bc 1) i'm lazy 2) what else is she gonna have besides cool outfits and her sword #dummy doesn't do any actual mage studying she just vibes all day (or she Did lmao)

[autismvampyre]

watching supernatural feels like homework sometimes. like i gotta watch all this shit to get to the stuff i'm gonna like in... what, two seasons???

#genuinely i hate the leviathans #also they've killed off every fun side character so its just three toxic men #season 7 i will endure this but only so i can understand wtf people mean by ''the bunker'' in fics #everyone is talking about the two gay actors from spn and i haven't even seen their characters yet #like this is fan homework i gotta do it. but god it sucks #nydias post #spn posting #supernatural

[savage-rhi]

🫂😪

#hey I've been on a bit of a hiatus with writing and other projects #answering this cause ive had some anons asking for updates on drabble requests #leaving a toxic job that I endured for a year #getting a new job and new enviornment #finding out I had a whole ass other family I didn't know existed #and trying to keep up with the cost of living has taken a huge toll #on my mental health and wellbeing #to the point where I had to take time off my new job and go on a peer respite #i got back the other day and I'm doing better #but my mental health isn't 100% #and my chronic pain has been fluctuating a lot cause of stress #i know i don't owe anyone details about what i go through #but i like being transparent #and this makes it easier than answering 6-10 anons asking me for an update #i am not sure when im gonna fulfill drabble requests but they'll come when they come #and you can keep sending in stuff i dont mind it at all #just know i gotta take care of me right now #and I'll be slower answering stuff #take care of your mental health and bodies the best you can #im always rooting for ya #and to end on a good note #i got accepted into a masters program for clinical counseling and therapy #only 25 people could get in and somehow i got it #idk how im gonna get financial aid for it but im gonna try #im excited and nervous #i might have more vo stuff coming too idk yet but im trying not to do too much at once #if yall could do me a solid and drop something cool in the comments and let me know how your life is going id love that #especially if you got good news to share #i could use more of that right now #love you guys and here's a hug and a biscuit from me