#ive spoken too much

[todayisafridaynight]

ohoho you have opened the gates of hell... (you dont have to reply to this btw!! im just spouting hcs at you via ask to stay anonymous heehoo)

so i think aoki realized he was a guy when he was pretty young, was very insistant on it, and the dilf arakawa was fine with it ofc he just wanted his kid to be happy (sawashiro didnt really understand it at first but was never shitty about it.) he probably started hrt pretty young (clearly didnt learn much about syringe safety though). at some point ichiban finds out and hes supportive as hell but he also doesnt know that much so he is like a little over the top but its okay because he just wants to let his brother know people support him!! not that the bitchboy really appriciates it. aoki binds, probably for unhealthy long amounts of time despite his family's protests, and eventually gets top surgery when he goes to america for his other treatments. also as a trans daigo truther, i like to believe they bonded over that :)

im taking notes in my funny little spiral notebook and im ripping the page out and sticking it to my brain because this will surely be a surprise tool to help us later

#snap chats #of COURSE arapapa's ok with his kid being trans of gender !! he just wants his son to be happy !!!! #ok but ichi 1000% would be The Ally you know what i mean. just gets out a megaphone to tell you how cool his BROTHER is #yeah that kind the Lowkey Annoying And Embarrassing kind but its ichi so we're letting it fly #bruh i know sawashiro would break into a CVS to get his boy his juice #ngl ive thought of masato not being able to bind due to his lungs and that adding fuel to his anger #but i can equally see him harming himself if it meant passing <-- speaks from experience #RAHH i could prob talk bout trans aoki all day if prompted theres just so many things that work with him #honestly this is such an ironic/funny/awkward time for me to be talkin bout the arakawa family lovin and supportin masato #since i just got kicked out because my mom Was Not supportive BUT HEY #thats probably why its fun to hc aoki as trans cause at least he can get all the love and support amirite #even if he's an asshole and doesnt appreciate it you BITCH YOU HAVE IT SO GOOD #ive spoken too much #BUT KNOW I'LL BE THINKIN ALL NIGHT. as i redo the ending to Y7 because steam HATES ME

[ruporas]

kiss the pain away

#vashwood #trigun #trigun stampe #vash the stampede #wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #ep 10 was crazy bc vashwood was literally the plot goodbye #i like how the most intimate moment between these two was in the goddamn sewers #i feel like that alone symbolizes so much in their relationship. im half joking BUT ITS JUST LIKE #the SPONTANEITY the PRIVACY they get in such an open Space while being literally chased / hunted after.... #and vash is out here showing his scars.............. and ill always lose my mind that they gave this spotlight to wolfwood instead of #meryl and milly like in the previous versions. i dont know how else to read this other than that wolfwood is the romantic interest of stamp #it makes sense even aside from this scene. u know. wolfwood was technically the damsel in distress in ep 5-6 and vash saved/helped him. #and who stayed in the bedroom with vash................. #who rushed to his side when he got shot...... with that worried ass expression.... #i dont have anything smart to say at all im just gushing over vashwood thru stampede bc its just so blatant. and its great that its blatant #bc it was blatant in trimax too. like so blatant. the romance was written in every chapter they showed up together #god #ive never witnessed a pairing more canon without being spoken as such its soooooo much theyre so much #ruporas art

[komabaichirouu]

listen i know arakawa vehemently refused the idea of introducing a love triangle/a love rival in silver spoon

but heres the thing

she already did

her name is ayame minamikujou

she is introduced as mikage's childhood friend. shes loud and condescending and annoying. but most importantly she is viscerally jealous of hachiken's spot in ezo ag because it means he gets to go to school with mikage.

she believes he took the place that belongs to her. she treats him poorly. refuses to remember his name and picks whatever number comes to her mind instead. to a point that becomes ridiculous. like what the fuck is this

she shows zero respect towards him but she. compliments mikage a lot? under the guise of being a rival of course but like we know how gay rivalries tend to be. she shows a lot of faith in mikage's abilities and pushes her to be better. she's even the whole reason mikage becomes less nervous and competes as well as she did.

i dont have the panels but did i mention that she founded an equestrian club at her school and is its only member? going through all that trouble just to see mikage in competitions? probably getting hounded by faculty to get more members or to give it up? all that for a girl? interesting. very interesting

anyways the day hachiken collapses she drops by to be a general nuisance, but when aki asks for her help, she calls her dad to bring her horse with zero hesitation

the second she hears aki intends to go to college, she decides she wants to go too (once again under the guise of "competition", which is fooling absolutely nobody by now)

when she fails and shingo pushes her to try again, she complains that it means she would be aki's junior.

what this means :

a- confirmation that just like many other things literally her only motivation is to be with aki

b- as pointed out by hachiken, she fully believes that aki will get in through her recommendation

when aki's recommendation is accepted she brags about knowing aki had it in her all along. and like, she's right. she believed in mikage the whole time (even though she shows it in her weird ojou-sama ways)

bonus: she hates men

the entire thing is hilarious in and of itself (imo she is THE funniest character) but what makes it funnier is the idea that arakawa didnt put in a love rival at the request of her editor, just to write a character that is essentially a mockery of the idea.

even funnier than that is the fact that hachiken was sitting there, worrying sick about the possibility of aki and komaba being together because of a few misunderstandings, when this girl is essentially claiming that she will steal his gf whenever she's on the page

ok ive spoken my truth time to hide away for a few more months

#silver spoon #gin no saji #silver spoon spoilers #silver spoon manga #ayame minamikujou #aki mikage #hiromu arakawa #character analysis #queer coding #im supposed to be making a video but all i could think about was her #responding to this ask about komaba made me realize that i dont think ive spoken about ayame very much on this blog #shes one of my favorite characters and silver spoon would not be the same without her #i aspire to be this much of a menace #sometimes i wonder if my thoughts on queer coding in silver spoon arent plain delusions or headcanons taken too far #but like when i see this panel of her complaining that aki got tricked by a man im like. yeah. thats a lesbian #alternatively : narcissistic personality disorder and aki is her favorite person but thats a post for another year

[radioroxx]

yargh. complicated characters save me complicated characters…

#im thinking about ceroba… #im thinking about how ive seen so many ppl (in ‘hot takes’) call her a bad mother for what she did to kanako #and im thinking about how its. silly to base the entire view of her as a character around one mistake #yes sure a very BIG mistake but still one mistake #i dont know if i would even say shes a bad mom. to do so would require me to make some kind of criteria to actually define #what MAKES a bad person #ive spoken before to a friend about how our concepts of good and bad as a whole r subjective anyway #but thats besides the point #i think ceroba as a interesting character becauseee of her mistakes because of her flaws #i think (er. KNOW) that she was a very caring mother. she loved kanako lots lots lots and did everything in her power to fix that mistake #but that doesnt take away that it still happened #im just rambling at this point. nonsense probably #but i think the reason i dislike the bad mom ceroba takes so much is that its reduction to her character in a way… #and that it cant and shouldnt rlly speak to her characterization before and after. yknow the incident #sorry thats a big mess….. i have thoughts i dont know how to speak them #i could say the same abt the other characters too… how ppl like to equate their whole view of a char #to only a few moments with that char #weve forgotten star tried briefly to take clovers soul </3 but oh well #ok im done jfkdkd this is disorganized

[thatoneluckybee]

Tell me about your OCs! (if you have any)

Good grief I have many an oc… I’ve spoken vaguely about my mains online BUT I keep it vague for privacy stuff lol. The main set are from a story me and a close friend began IRL years ago that was all but abandoned after the pandemic. They aren’t really into it anymore so essentially I’ve been given free reign over them. However… I have no set plan on what we’re gonna do. We both love art so we’ve considered making it into like a webcomic or a book but neither of us know. It’s just this series stuck in my head. I keep things vague with them love in case we ever do get around to making this a real published thing (also because I am… 60% sure said friend has a tumblr and Do Not Want Them To Find Me.)

#i have so many little people and characters in my head from things ive made over the years i love writing #there’s also a book i stopped writing cause my parents got too involved and it wasnt fun anymore but who knows i may finish i have too much #lore in my head. #my notes app is CLUTTERED with ocs and game ideas and comic ideas and book ideas and— #hmmm. ive been working on a new idea for a bit amnd there’s one thing ive had for over a year but it isnt fleshed out enough for me to have #like. oc introductions. #maybe i should finish fleshing out one of these half-finished prompts so i can tumblrify it. #OH AND #i DO have VERY vivid dreams often and if a character appears often I name them #so i guess those people count as ocs? #because theyre dreams they are very strange #i think dreams are so interesting. they can be such a deep dive into your inner self OR just essentially shitposting behind your eyelids #its so cool to me. maybe i should talk about those. #aight chat what do i do. who are my tumblr ocs gonna be. #flesh out the horror idea? flesh out the other milder horror idea? or talk about the dream characters? #those three i havent spoken much of irl who will be my Tumblr Ocs #i love them all so #asks #anonymous #I DID NOT MEAN TO RAMBLE i may screenshot this and make these tags a whole post

[bmpmp3]

i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness. #plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english?????? #people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me..... #a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

[endofbeginning]

@eiqhties and @ytptennis tagged me to post 5 songs ive been listening to on repeat lately (thank u guys :D) this is the best tag game ever ok lets go...

the sensual world - kate bush

born to run - bruce springsteen

deep water (& go away) - strawberry switchblade

try me, i know we can make it - donna summer

president gas - the psychedelic furs

special mention to stars are stars by echo & the bunnymen and sabbra cadabra by black sabbath which i only added recently but ive basically already got them on loop 👍👍

(no pressure) tagging @uranium @parasprite @spinecutter @skunkstripe @s1urpee @boowomp @keemitthefeog & anyone else who wants to join in :]

#theres so many more i could have added 😭😭 i tried not to go too overboard #anyway soz if anyone i tagged has already done this and i missed it #or if its weird of me to tag ppl i havent rlly spoken much to x_x i just feel like ive seen u guys musicposting here n there so #thought yall might be interesteddd #music

[20dimensionsoftangerine]

I put some Very subtle foreshadowing in the latest posted chapter of Properties and I desperately wish I could point at it with a giant sign so you can all pick up on my fun foreshadowing

But I can't. That would be cheating. And spoilers.

#its more subtle than i would have liked #essentially one word spoken by a character #but the dots are connected okay! #if take a few things from canon and a few things that happened... #ive already said too much #properties of adaine #fantasy high #dimension 20 fanfiction

[imelht]

Bro pls tell me more of your Meta Knight Vampire AU i really like it

Sure thing. I appreciate the interest.

So, in my Vampire!Meta Knight AU, there is one major focus which the AU encapsulates: The internal clash between Meta Knight’s vampiric nature, and his knightly one.

(I should mention that there are also heavy themes of metadede present in the AU’s plot. Their relationship (slow burn in nature) is that of a vampiric knight’s and a mortal monarch’s, and it delves deep into the dilemma the pairing of a vampire and mortal and or knight and king may have caused at the time period of the AU (middle ages). (To note, whether it be romantic or platonic, it is no exemption as I am simply an enjoyer of this trope. It has my heart.))

(Additionally, if you are interested in hearing about my headcanons regarding (Vampire!)Meta Knight, King Dedede, or their relationship you are free and welcome to send an inquiry.)

Though I digress. The AU incorporates medieval elements. To clarify, Dreamland acts as one large province which makes up the other kingdoms of Popstar within it. The AU still keeps Popstar’s respective and canon locations, and as far as medieval elements go, the kingdoms of Dreamland are large and obviously medieval in nature, though, it goes further as to add specific traditions, social aspects and elements in medieval culture such as castles, caste systems, middle age hierarchy, dungeons, mills, grindstones, horse riding, cavalry etc etc while also including more specific elements from the cultures of the middle age such as the values treasured in said cultures, the oral passing down of tales, grand halls for celebration, (think the Anglo Saxon’s mead hall), medieval cuisine and mythologies present, branching back to kingdoms of a distant past. Most if not all of this finds its way in the AU.

Speaking of, Meta Knight’s vampirism stems from the mythological aspect of the AU. Though, this is not exclusive to vampires. Werewolves, necromancers, dragons, wyverns (like Landia), demons and a plethora of undead species also come into play in the AU. There are also bandings of hunters that actively work against Meta Knight as an external antagonistic force.

In vague short, Meta Knight found himself attacked, put at the mercy of his assailant, and felled for three days before he rose, turned by an unknown perpetrator. He spends his undead days seeking the malevolent force out, all while striving (and struggling) to acclimate to his newfound nature. Meta Knight struggles as his savage vampiric nature claws at his conscience, that very same conscience that was brought up and born in the disciplined knighthood, an order that puts first the upkeep the innocent first while his vampiric one seeks to do the opposite of just that. Much happens between these points. (It is an AU with much to unpack.)

There it is. A few key concepts in regards to the AU. Thank you for your interest, and a good-hearted thank you to anyone who stopped to read this. Have a good one.

#spent way too long typing this up just for my tumblr to crash. saw my life flash before my eyes as my work was gone #sobbing #i just retyped what i could recall though #this au is just an amalgamation of the things ive a passion for and or interest in #apologies if some things have changed. it has been awhile since i have spoken on the au #this is a solid overview though #i have fanfiction relating to this au but i just need to gather the courage to get it posted to archiveofourown #goodness ive much to say on the in betweens of the au. so much i am excited to tell via fanfiction #writers block. go away #vampire meta knight au #IMELHT’s asks #helpmeiminthevoid #long post

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[saulbaby]

My toxic trait is that I kinda ship Garrus and Miranda

#fully convinced that the only reason they never actually talked in the games #is bc theyre both speak in such a sexy aloof way #that both of them talking that way to each other would just sound like theyre gonna bang #i wrote a couple scenes wjth them a while back in a shakarian fic and had to cut them #bc it was like effortlessly sexy and forth banter #and i couldnt even make them friendly with their me2 vibes without it turning shippy #i am. convinced the me2 writers ran into the same problem. #ik a lot of ppl dont talk much but they really really never do #the only thing is that if you dont have jack hes like half of us dont even trust you and objects when miranda #volunteers to be squad leader #but it doesnt make any sense bc when hr first gets there hes like cool guns shouldve joined up sooner lol #and clearly never has an issue with the cerberus thing #so whys he the one who randomly doesnt trust miranda and not tali who has spoken to miranda #and does not trust her #anyway. garrus and miranda is a secret ship that they dont want you to know about bc it makes too much sense to not happen #and then neither woukd ever get romanced bc youd see them together and be like no they beling together actually #i feel like i should be writing this much more ironically but im really not i think ive come to ship it more as i wrote this #theyre basically neo noir femme fatale and vigilantr detective #send post #what if i wrote a fic #......... #god i wanna write a fic. why do i wanna writr a fic and do art? #like suoer slinky sexy femsheps kinda annoy me in art tbh bc no matter how u play she never really has that vibe in game #but it does work next to garrus is the thing #miranda fits that bill #im gojna write a fic #what would it even be about holy shit #ok like. i honestly always habe shep push back against the vigilante thing bc if theyre anti cerberus they should probably #also be against what garrus is doing #depending on the reasoning but overall they have similar goals

[arrowpunk]

You know it kind of sucks to see discourse about whether or not me and people like me should exist. Like just the fact that it's even a question in the first place sucks.

#ramblings of an arrow #I really need to make more friends that just arent christian at this point #like I still love my religious friends very much #but the fact that its an actual question being asked and that the majority answer is no like SUCKS dude #like holy shit and yall wonder why ppl leave the churh in droves #why there are so few queer christians #like its so fucking difficult to exist in a space where your right to exist is up for debate #its exhausting #like even if you arent outright saying it you make it so obvious you dont want ppl like me around #that the fact that I exist is either abhorrent or just too awkward to acknowledge #also sorry not sorry that my marriage is healthier that all but like 2 christian marriages ive ever seen #my lesbian ass is better at having a healthy loving marriage and good sex than most of you will ever be #youre gonna look at me and tell me that its wrong? really?? #can you look me in the eye as you treat my existence as something to be ignored or spoken about in hushed tones #oh hide your children I might corrupt them because I exist being a loving caring adoring spouse to my wife #you dont like to talk about us or acknowledge us unless its to debate our right to be #as if that should even be a fucking question in the first place #im sorry i just.... this gets exhausting sometimes #im not gonna apologize for existing or try to hide the parts of me that make you uncomfortable #I am queer as hell I am a dyke I am a faggot I am a tranny and thats not gonna change no matter what you want #I adore my wife she adores me and I never felt this level of deep abiding compassionate love in christian spaces #your love comes with strings attached even though I know you want to believe it doesnt

[kirbyddd]

why does wikipedia have the review from Games Workshop's own magazine about its own game as critical reception

#“hey if you need motivation to buy minis check out this new ruleset Warhammer that's got everyone talkin” wink wink #super vindicated to see all the reviews from back then saying how inane so many of the rules were #Warhammer was always that way right from the beginning huh #i always dreamed of painting those medieval minis though. i wish they still made them and not this new generic Age of Sigmar thing #ah-- looks like i may have spoken too soon. wargames foundry has the rights to some of the old scuplts and still produces them to order?? #ive just always wanted to paint some stout lil dudes with shields and banners. seems most the medieval minis today are much more realistic

[thelov3lybookworm]

Ho ho hello... Mrs Santa here 🤶

I'm in charge of writing the smut because I don't trust a man (santa) to do it and not just talk about boobs and ass...

Questions... What level of smut are you comfortable with? Just like you, I'm not into the daddy-mommy stuff. Are there any other kinks you'd like me to stay away from? Or even some that you like??

Hope you are doing well dear ♥

oh hello my lovely mrs santa, how are you?

hope mr santa is not too sad about not getting to talk about boobs and ass lol 😂

hmm, I'd say I'm comfortable with the amount of smut sjm books normally have, ya know?

Like, I'm into loving, cute things, though not praise kink, because i dont remember rhysie poo being like 'oh look at you feyre darling taking me blabla'

i dont know it feels weird, but not much talking is what i like, because im very introverted and shy, and if my future partner were to be like, 'use your words' i would simply walk out

#lol feels like asking for too much #but ive never been one for too many words during intimate moments when reading #usually when i read fanfics that contain smut i usually skip over the dialogue lol #i love canon typical smut for acotar like books where there is not much spoken except mindless curses #also i was about to reply like an hour or so ago but then i had to help with packing lol #sorry to keep you waiting mrs santa

[girl-bateman]

Crazy how many kids grow up afraid that someone else will find out abt their parents substance abuse issues when it is something that literally affects 1 in 8 families.

Crazy how many kids grow up feeling lonely and misunderstood while there are likely several other kids in their class going through the same thing.

Crazy how many kids grow up isolating themselves and lying to others for the protection and comfort of parents whose job it should be to protect them.

#obviously this is somewhat generalising bc everyone handles substance abuse differently #but for every single person ive spoken to whos been through the same thing i have growing up #the statements above have been painfully accurate #anyway it makes me so profoundly sad thinking abt how much energy i wasted constructing a world of lies to protect my dad #which like ? protecting him from what? the judgement of my friends? i think he can live with that #i was so embarrassed abt it when i was a kid- i thought the whole world would fall apart if ppl found out #but like why? that shit has nothing to do with me. he embarasses himself. im not to blame for his actions #i remember doing a school project in 8th grade and my friend made a joke like 'dont worry my parents arent alcoholics' #and this boy was like 'no. dont worry. my dad is an alcoholic so i dont judge you' #and im still not sure if he was joking too ? but it didnt feel like a joke #but i still wish i could have reached out and said something. or just acknowledge each other in some sort of shared pain #idk. i still think abt him #hope hes doing good. he was a sweet kid :) my mom rly liked his mom lol