#its too quiet. its far too quiet

[quartzitess]

They're still there. They're in there. They're in they're body but yet they're so far gone. the infections like a parasite and yet two was trying to fight it, they were scared and they wanted gaty. Not just to protect her but to feel the person that they felt close and comfortable around, and to take them both to the couch, they could've went for anyone. But they went for GATY. they could've killed her but they didn't. There's something so strangely endearing about that. Truly. Even when they're voice is being used to lure gaty in a sense I feel two geniunely wanted to help, they're so far gone, the little details, not just with how they move but with how they SPEAK. they're practically the host for a parasite and yet. They're still there.

#osc #object shows #tpot #tpot 9 #tpot 9 spoilers #two tpot #tpot gaty #something about this episode makes me so unnerved. maybe it's the voice acting. maybe its the change of tone. #or maybe ITS THAT DAMN SOUNDTRACK #it sounds so eerie. it isnt even necessarily even scary. theres nothing DIRECTLY scary about it #but you wanna know something? its so simple. its almost. too. simple #its too quiet. its far too quiet #theres so much left for our brains to just fill in the blanks #its like your own living hell. it really is one of those ost’s that sends off your flight or fight instincts #theres nothing and yet theres something there. you feel it in your bones. it sends a chill down your spine and its just .. nothing. #its nothing but you. your making it up and your brain is filling in the blanks and it's. terrifying.

[herebecritters]

Fun fact comics take a long time to make

The drunk one belongs to @ickyguts

#I have drawn NINE pages so far #currently drawing page 10 #htf #happy tree friends #htf be brave #htf nergal #htf oc #loretime #htf ocs #here’s a little sneak peek screen shot from each page in order #without giving too much away #this has been taking a mass amount of my free time so sorry I’ve been quiet #I’m SO PROUD OF HOW ITS COMIN ALONG THOUGH #I LOVE MAKIN COMICS #AND THIS IS SUCH A GOOD SCENE WE WROTE

[finalfroevo]

let him do the akira bike slide at least once

#if they haven't planned it already #unicorn warriors eternal #copernicus #adult swim #genndy tartakovsky #its late here but #interesting show so far #and I do like the signature 'letting quiet moments' happen always always always #very excited for weekly ep releases too

[quietzones]

some quiet works from a few years ago

#2020.? 2021…? #these ar far enough apart that improvement is evident #was particulary enamoured with her living to the 90s in outer heaven #Ive been meaning to keep writing my fic on that but damn Its been a. while… #these are some concept designs i made for the idea :-) #the chest scars are from removal of those strange outer lungs that come from the parasite infection #like that one patient in the warehouse if Im remembering correctly #doesn’t make sense but i think It looks sick as hell #might ramble more about this in another post this is getting a bit too long haha… #metal gear solid #mgs #quiet #my art

[goatpaste]

really loVE @scribblesugar lil Giorno and Trish fused kiddo, their design is SO good and the concept is so fun,, i know they said it was a bit like gappy whole deal which i know lil bits and pieces of,,, but i just needed to draw them,, very fun

also just doodling out two other concepts their sparked for me with similar trish and giorno being the same person sorta,,, just think, not gonna take them anywhere but their just thoughts and ideas i wanted to doodle out,,,

#been calling their fusion kid angioletto makes me smile to say lol #also i can imagine in the princess in the pauper story telling giorno pretending to be trish like #REALLY wanting to help when ppl get injured but trying no to give away he isnt trish as well as the rest of the squad trying to keep trish #like #out of danger #so gio just trying to stealth heal people #also giono being backseat and quiet throughout p5 making more sense because hes trying to not get caught #also in the au where its just trish pretending to be someone else #id like to think giornos real and she stole his wallet and took on his identity #trish has giornos wallet and the picture of dio in there and is like ?? wtf is this?? #lil funny to have him show up some way into the part to be like #!!! the girl who stole my identity!! #anyways #im not gonna take this too far because i cant but just some thoughts the scribblesugar drawings had given me... #jojo #jjba #giorno giovanna #trish una

[craycraybluejay]

Bruh I be having literally the worst urges and I feel bad that I don't feel bad at all. Like damn. Guess I'm really like that. Well, anyway.

#i am apathetic to whatever monstrosities lie within my mindscape #or rather i enjoy them and am apathetic to the idea that they are evil #unfortunately the fact that I'm excited ab them makes me rly rly rly want to talk ab them #which would be bad #but if it gets bad enough i think its time i let my therapist in on the next circle of anouther hell #i know she will be kind no matter what i spring on her #but this. i dont know how to feel or what to think about all this #its pathological. i can fix it about as well as i can fix the fact that i adore music or get turned on by fear or am consistently- #-platonically or otherwise pulled to murderers and the like #i know its some psychosexual nonsense-- some fixation rooted in some perverse symbolism that i cant fully grasp #its so difficult to be a BadWrong thoughts and desires person #bc even tho i have like. some level of control and ethicsband whatnot. even tho im not doing the guilt ocd thing. #even though i know im ok the way i am #i also know i cant talk ab it. cant be excited about it. cant vent or happy rant about it. stay quiet. let it eat ya #cause ppl cant accept some things cant like. come to terms with things. again and again #i find myself relating more to 'good people' but being able to talk more openly and honestly with 'bad people' #like im too far from either side to ever be fully myself but i must let it out #and so i find i cant trust the people i love most with some of the most personal things more than i can trust a complete stranger #because at least that stranger has no spare room to judge. and i cant give af about losing a strangers high esteem of me #i share something truly heinous and sure i may be threatened but. disappointment from ppl u love is worse than murderous rage from strangers #which came first- the fixation or the corruption? i think it was the fixation #i was like that before. whatever false indulgences i have given myself will always sate the beast and not create it #i am not a bad person. but i will always have a monster inside me. a balancing act between #being a somewhat polite functioning member of society and completely losing myself to the dark #i dont hate myself. i wish i did sometimes so i wouldnt have the urge to vomit it all out #i wish i hated myself and felt such guilt over all that so i could be happy with being quiet. i wish it was only good that excited me proper #or rather i wish i knew someone like me in the right ways. irl. no phones no danger. who i could share with excitedly and not feel like ill #be told that im a freak who deserves to die. someone who will share equally horrific things with me and will keep me in check #i want talk therapy but with someone that has something SO wrong with them. a friendship that is nasty and fun and grossly honest #someone to say 'i know what ur talking ab/how u feel' when i say something pitch dark

[sodiumvaporss]

hmm someone should tell me about the magnus archives because im curious about it but im never going to listen to it

#talk #i know i have a couple tma followers and mutuals #feel free to bother me about it #the episodes are too quiet and british for me to hear well so its very unlikely ill ever listen #and its like. transcripts do exist but also its 200+ episodes long DJDZLDJ #even if theres transcripts for all the episodes thats. far too much effort im willing to put in HFJSF #i have a general idea of??? some things #from reading the hermit archives #and just general dash osmosis #but yeh

[apollo-zero-one]

Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!! #or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head? #This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch. #No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings. #bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!! #and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck. #Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he? #was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board. #Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself?? #'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person?? #Are you just living in some other reality??? #callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

[lightfulonion]

thank you @skijjiki for tagging me!!!! i love these types of tagging games so much!!

last song: Tokyo Calling by ATARASHII GAKKO! (pls watch the music video. its so good 😭) im kind of, sort of, obsessed with this and i have been listening to it non-stop like my life depends on it. anyway

fav color: hmm im really feeling brown right now (wow! that sounds awful! im not changing my answer tho. brown rules.)

currently reading: im able to read only fanfics at the moment because anything that involves a book and new characters feels like too much work for me for some reason and also like im cheating at my classes in university. both of these suck big butt and i hate being like this but it's true. anyway please read a million times along the way by starsqwub. its a bokuaka fic, it hasnt updated since 2022 and it made me cry every chapter. its about love, its about friends, its about being a weird person in a normal world and, more importantly, its about bokuto and akaashi. oh! also manga like chainsaw man and toilet bound hanako-kun!! and some webcomics as well too.

currently watching: the wall mostly but also dungeon meshi! and ive been trying to be up-to-date with the one piece anime!!

spicy/savory/sweet: sweet <3

relationship status: i was reading a bokuaka fic and i was crying. take a wild guess.

current obsessions: listening to Tokyo Calling and ATARASHII GAKKO! apparently and im starting to feel like reading the ending of Haikyuu!! which is probably a bad thing?? (im scared. i really dont want it to end :'((( )

tagging: @livingonyoghurtandspite, @horson, @clementinethekitten, @pierogish, @alcieside, @mars-matrix, @peachybeesplease, @mangatxt.

#get tagged #guys. we get (got?) the movie this year. really scared to ask whats next. #i had goofy funny things to share but i forgot them while writing this im sorry u_u #i went home to my mom for a few days and i had 'the end of the beginning' by djo stuck in my head the whole time #and i visited my friends from high school and im kinda sad about the years passing. a quiet kind of sad but sad nonetheless. #like 'my childhood room is too small for me now' kind of sad and nostalgic #i have many things in my brain that are rolling around like pointy rocks and i need to get them out somehow without hurting myself #anyway #pretend i said something really funny and truly profound here instead of. whatever that is. #also i have listened to ATARASHII GAKKO!'s whole discography and its really really good #and i STILL havent been able to read bnha!! :(( #i havent been able to be up-to-date with chainsaw man or toilet bound hanako kun and i also NEED to read dungeon meshi AND haikyuu and- #i really love dungeon meshi so far. its so good and i got so excited on the last episode when they put falin's bones in order. that was #so cool. and the bath scene............ yeah. #if you dont want to do this guys is okay btw. im always saying this but i do need you to know because i feel anxious when i dont do them bu #also when i dont tag people. i dont want you to feel like that. #onion talks #ok thats all! bye bye!! hope you have a nice day!!!!! #Youtube

[theygender]

Me: idk... maybe I don't want a hysterectomy. it seems like the recovery would really suck... maybe keeping my uterus... isn't as bad in comparison?

My uterus: aww, thank you 🥰🤗❤️✨

My uterus: THOUSAND LIGHTNING BOLTS BLAST

#endometriosis #youre really not helping your case here bud #i just got hit with a wave of cramps so bad that i literally almost screamed out loud #i had to physically stop myself bc its quiet hours at my apartment and i dont want someone to think im being murdered #4-8 weeks of recovering with open wounds in my abdomen... vs ~30 more years of living with endo pain and sickness #neither one of those sound good. but at least hysto recovery would have a definite ending? #but it would hurt a lot and i would be fully out of commission for a while #but endo hurts too and already puts me out of commission frequently? #ughhhh idk #but the pills didnt help and the shot isnt helping #this is my third dose and im currently on a period that has lasted a full month so far 🙃 and still going #rambling #menstruation mention

[captain-kraken]

i'm so bored it hurts lol

#maybe im just lonely tbh #this house is far too quiet #its only been 2 weeks since i spoke out loud to someone which isnt bad so not sure why its bothering me so much today

[feline-evil]

The fun thing about playing mgs5 again is playing through thinking you have plenty of time left, that it's not gonna happen anytime soon; and then seeing the mission names appear in the list and just. Knowing it's almost time, that it's almost over. And almost for a second thinking maybe it'll work out different this time? Maybe it can be fixed this time and someone, ANYONE involved can get a happy ending? And you know it won't and it can't, and you know you can just. Stave it off for as long as possible by not doing the missions, by just waiting. Doing literally anything else. But you won't you'll see it through to it's bitter end, because you have to.

#jay talkin #metal gear #incredible game. incredible game. i have to complete the man who sold the world snd a quiet exit when next i play #dear god help me. im not ready for it to come to this again yet <3 #teehee i love this game im also lying face down flat on the floor about it #cant i have more takes of funny kaz and ocelot moments. more laughing and joking #cant i have a few more happy birthday songs and cute diamond dogs moments #the answer is no this is a game about grief and loss and the horrors of war. but. #for moments there are shining diamonds in all of that sorrow and my god does it make you yearn for them #ANYWAY <3 being far too poetic today. hi. its good game

[minglana]

idk what kind of stress im currently in that i cry just bc of the fact that its 12am and i can hear people speaking in the office next to my room

#maybe its the fact that the woman aggravates me so much #bc she follows /some/ of the dorm rules and she doesnt follow others #or maybe its just that things have changed so much around here that im no longer comfortable #or that /ive/ changed and im far too strict w everyone in general #or maybe that ive grown up way too used to quiet and i need my quiet time #and i cant even get ONE hour of silence in the day. not even at 1 or 2am anymore #that used to be my study hours bc thats when no one was awake in the dorms and there was complete quiet #but i cant even get that anymore bc apparently following rules is too 'hitlerian' and what do we care abt other ppl. right #and im not even talking abt myself! obviously im the one thats affected the most by it but theres like 20 other people on the same floor #that go to sleep EARLIER than the rest of us. and if you talk a LITTLE bit too loudly they can hear it too #but anyways the more i think about it and like. even if i had my required hours of quiet time. i dont think id be happy here anymore #what made me happy abt being here was having friends. and i dont have any anymore so whats the point right #actually i do (or did) have friends. but they dont seem to care that much abt me since they never even care to talk #even last yr they never asked me to sit w them or hang out w them. i always had to take everything into my own hands #and tbh that friend dynamic just doesnt rly do it for me. if you dont tell me that im allowed to do things. im simply not doing them. #as much as id like to. #ok i seem to have calmed down from crying now. i swearrrr im so done with everything. i think its seasonal depression #but im so close to wanting to end it all (as in everything. not just myself) #suicide mention #z xarre

[rainingmbappe]

I think I'm dropping maths and taking a second bio

#ive been thinking about it for a long time but ive been too scared #cause i feel as if ill be judged #and im quiet far into my semester but atp im gonna fail matg #its simply not for me #i rather change now and be under pressure to comple the syllabus of a subject i want to do #rather than be dying and suicidal to complete maths

[pinkseas]

this is just silly little introspection dont mind me

#mostly im okay with who i am now? #but sometimes. Sometimes. i get in this like Mood. #and it is So Fucking Strange to think about the kind of person ive become #and how far it is from who i was/what i envisioned/what i wanted #i always wanted to be quiet #i used to be like. to a degree? #its hard to remember #on one hand i was wildly obnoxious esp around certain friends #but in a lot of other situations i was silent #i used to wish something awful would happen to me and id go mute so i could just. stop talking #if i did speak i wanted to be articulate and concise and say nothing beyond what was strictly necessary #and im still very like. idk. #im SO outspoken online #im silly and ridiculous and i never shut the fuck up !!!!!!!!!! #especially like #even in discord servers of just friends theres a level of 'dont be too much of a bother' #but a tumblr blog where people can unfollow or ignore anytime? #i am NOT shutting the fuck up #my turf #but whenever im with friends irl #even if i TRY to be outspoken and dramatic and silly #my default is just kind of. #to bend over backwards making myself as small as possible taking up as little space as possible physically verbally emotionally #i dont know what to do in most situations i try to just be quiet and listen dont speak unless spoken to say what they wanna hear etc #and i always wanted to stay that way. i wanted to learn how to do it better actually i wanted to learn to be quiet and not a bother #and only contribute when necessary #but now #now i want to be big i want to smile and laugh and lounge across my friends #i want to be silly i want to be bigger than my body bigger than myself i want to be grounded #solid real whole content

[megatraven]

i want to write. coffee shop aus for mc and all the astoria LIs. ive got some ideas bouncing around my head for most of them, the problem comes in azctually writing them all down oogh

#meg speaks #ok blah blah blahu guys already know about my alex x mc coffee shop aus so im not gonna get into them #but medusa x mc coffee shop au where medusa starts to frequent this one shop that typically makes pretty good tea #it's quiet and out of the way of most monsters. no gang fights. far enough from HERA to relax a little #and it happens to have a very cute barista who (admittedly) doesnt make the BEST tea ever but she's receptive to #helpful criticism and she and medusa start to hit it off #or or or a hades x mc coffee shop au where hades has a meeting at a shop nearby HERA and hes like #'i dont even like coffee oh woe is me where r my green smoothies' but then this girl who works there is like 'omg you should try THIS' #and its the worst drink he's ever had it's some tiktok drink (he doesnt know what tiktok is) and its full of sugar and he tells her so #and shes like. oh :) well maybe you should come by again and i can make you something better #and he does and all this time there's something nigglign in the back of his mind re: her and then it HITS HIM #she looks just like his bestie who is deceased #so he goes back again and again and again and #i was going to say more aus but honestly laughign too hard at the hades one #im so fuckign tired LMAOOOO im gonna stop now #hades x mc #medusa x mc #astoria #lovestruck