#its painful to think about omg

[heronpoxed]

The fact that Kurt Sutter wrote the lyrics to The Day is Gone (the song that plays in the S6 finale but y’all probably already knew that) is literally one of my Roman Empires because when you listen to the song knowing this, you also understand what and who it was actually written about. That evil man knew exactly what he was doing!

#i feel SICK #‘i would take it back for just another minute just another chance with you’ #you cant tell me that this isn’t what jax is feeling at that moment #that song from start to finish is literally just jax regretting not being there for tara enough #‘love is bleeding i curse my breathing’ #aint no way that’s not about his self loathing over what his life did to her #they deserved so much better #its painful to think about omg #soa #sons of anarchy #jax and tara #tara and jax #jax teller #tara knowles #tara knowles teller #kurt sutter #jara #charlie hunnam #maggie siff #sons of anarchy season 6 #soa 6x13 #noah gundersen #soa fandom #samcro #jax x tara #tara x jax #gemma teller morrow #gemma teller #katey sagal #roman empire

[hanzajesthanza]

i am the staunch defender of regis’ sobriety i will never not take the chance to remind everyone he doesn’t drink. from the most depthful analysis to the character fic to the throwaway jokes and incorrect quote posts. i will not let anyone forget about this

#thinking of that ‘oh this drink is really bad [gives it to friend to taste]’ #geralt’s soda gets passed around dandelion and the hanza #dandelion passes 2 regis who is about to take a sip then remembers to confirm its nonalcoholic and they’re like yeah yeah #idk. casual little acknowledgements #such that he pours the wine at yule for the rest of the company… #when i write or draw him at breakfast i always give him water #‘omg the others drink wine for breakfast 😳’ its extremely diluted #conversely whenever i see regis depicted with a glass of reddish liquid i go ‘that better be ribena motherfucker’ #‘that’s such a peculiar thing to focus on’ if you knew me you’d understand my pain #the elbow-high diaries

[jacarandaaaas]

“the most unrealistic part of encanto is the magic” NO. The most unrealistic part of encanto is how mirabel only whispers “ow” during this scene:

like that looks so painful and she’s like “oh it’s just a cut” GIRL LOOK AT THE SIZE OF THAT CUT😭 I’m so sorry but my dramatic ass would be crying and screaming that looks so sore!! Like that’s not a small paper cut that’s a full on sharp cut from a tile!?

#encanto #encanto disney #mirabel madrigal #disneys encanto #seriously how is she so chill about that!? #yeah the house started cracking but like that won’t stop me from complaining of pain #I literally find papercuts painful thats like a giant papercut #mirabels pain tolerance is unmatched ig? #also why was only julieta concerned about her giant cut on her hand😭 #like imagine having to move that omg the pain #unrelated but I love how they actually showed the blood like it’s not just a little scrape its DEEP #lesson learned dont pick up tiles that just fell off the roof #also kinda dark but like do yall ever think about the fact that tile could have landed on her head!? #like what if another one fell and she just gets knocked out but nobody would know until way later #wow that was off topic anyways I envy how nonchalant she was about this

[bmpmp3]

i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness. #plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english?????? #people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me..... #a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

[themyscirah]

Wait omg..... Jessica Cruz probably did rifle... my specialized sports knowledge coming in CLUTCH

Okay so I barely practiced and made it to regionals like once so im NOT the expert here but uh headcanoning that Jess did air rifle when she was a teen. Like idk if it would be as part of a team like with a high school (what I'm familiar with) vs like an individual thing vs like a travel/competitive team (it depends on the sitch in her area growing up) but she definitely went to some national matches (probably including JOs/JO quals like i think she was GOOD). I think she probably would have quit competitively following a bad shot at nationals (relatable) along with anxiety about competition (ALSO relatable) but still kept up with shooting casually for fun and relaxation and to hang out with friends etc.

She definitely would have shot smallbore competitively too but I never did that bc I was lazy so idk to much abt it competitively

#and by bad shot i mean a 0 #it hurts me to even think abt doing that during a match actually esp at fucking JOs #a girl on my team did that and im sure it was devastating (we never let her live it down after too) but like dang. i feel that pain #im just saying she would vibe sooooooo hard with rifle. like canonically they just said she did it but im talking air in particular #also in the panel they said six which first off. humphries bro thats TOO young ik youre trying to be impressive but youre talking abt rifle #here. if someones let their kid have a gun at 6 theres actually smth wrong with them. and not even a bb or smth wtf #ANYWAYS you guys haveeeee to understand this. jess would go so hard for rifle she would fit right in w every competitive shooter ive ever #met istg- #she would be out there on the porch 35° weather in full gear mid match crying w the rest of us it would be great #wait wait shoutout to the time i had to get smth from my car and there were like 4 ppl out there crying during the middle of standing #like i literally FEEL THAT SO HARD (weve all been there) but also like... awkwarddddddd #4 is an unusually large amount though. normally its like 2 ppl at a time first relay. with more 1st relay ppl crying after than during #gosh rifle omg this is making me miss it #<<<<freshman/sophomore me would kill me for saying this btw. i HATED practicing so bad then omg #OH and Jess would be a kneeling girlie. fave position. why ? bc i said so shut up #no but bc its my favorite position (yes i know its the worst okay. im aware of all the reasons kneelings sucks and why everyone hates it. #but you know what? kneeling hates everyone equally and i respect that) no but uh yeah ✌️✌️✌️✌️ #top 10 posts that are 80% jargon and only i care about 😘 #anyways this is canon to me now actually #like idc what you say she was down in the trenches (the range) w the rest of us #also ik she almost certainly would have shot paper but in my mind she practices mainly w electronic bc thats what i used (even if its super #uncommon and is only used at the nice ranges) if she was super competitive she would probably have driven to shoot electronic. lets just say #there was a paper nearby and an electronic scoring range a bit farther or smth #anyways yeah #WAIT OMG SHE DEFINITELY MET HER FRIENDS FROM HER BACKSTORY THROUGH RIFLE #and the dating drama too omg rifle drama was INSANE. like i was almost always out of the loop bc i never practiced and didnt have snapchat #but like the drama was INSANE. fucking wild. at least to my nerdy ass self. so her relationship drama makes total sense now okay babe fr #jessica cruz #blah

[comradeboyhalo]

the thing w the qsmp is that i genuinely hate the thought of signing up to be part of the admin team like AAAA SPOILERS!!!

#whoever signs up is so strong #imagine getting all the story beats spoiled if ur on the writing team tho #omg its painful #to think about

[the-acid-pear]

One of the most beautiful things Deltarune story has is the fact that you cannot remove its tragedy, because it's thru that very same that hope and love is born. You cannot change the past but you can take what you learnt and thru it build a brighter future.

#luly talks #some things are rough and nasty but they need to happen so lessons can be learnt and so one can grow from them #its a game about the importance of mistakes and you see it everywhere #like i tapped on this lightly today in a post about spamton #for as tragic and painful as his fate was it needed to happen #he needed to try it. to try reach heaven #se tenia que sacar el gusto como quien dice KSJGHBNUY #half joke because yeah like.he had to do it and realize thru his own actions that he was reaching for the impossible #and thru that he grew and was like well maybe i can at least do something else #same with the ending of chapter 1 #ralsei had to heal the king to understand that you cannot be good to everyone. even if it costed everyone's lives. #hell EVEN WITH US in one moment i adore in the ending of chapter 2 #when you're talking to catty (katty?) and threre's that dialogue option about family #and i dont remember the specifics but its so normal to pick the ah family is good tho <:) option #bc taht's what we would think yeah. but she makes it very clear that that's not something kris would say #and when i first saw that i was MORTIFIED like omg im gonna get a bad grade in being Kris #but... i think its part of this all too. because we are learning how kris is. how they even were before us. #had we not fucked up maybe we'd have not know that #this is a game about doom and hope both <333333333 #deltarune

[x-letsbreaksomerules-x]

can’t sleep. plagued by fenhawke thoughts

#thinkin about spirit healer hawke #like come here my chronic pain king let me use healing aura on you #like i know fenris has a thing about magic but Also #i think the idea that he trusts hawke enough to let him use magic on him occasionally is really good #and also the only magic hawke will ever use on him is healing spells #obviously in battle its kind of needed but like outside of that i think. hawke would ask every so often whenever the pain starts to get bad #or when cuddling. eventually he’ll use it casually because he can read his partner pretty well. #listen i have a lot of feelings about spirit healing magic and auras and i think it is severely underutilized #‘omg blood mage hawke’ yeah yeah whatever. let that man be a walking painkiller for his husband

[juleteinthrum]

Its been a few month since I've been out of headspace why is everything like That. /half joking

Like i knew things would be different but damn, like my arms? My hair? Even my smell is. Off. Everything is off. Its okay, i know whats going on im not disoriented or anything mostly its all surprise but im just. So this is what its actually like to not be out for a while and see things change

System stuff hits a little different sometimes

#actually plural #zims stink #fictive #invader zim #rant #osdd fictive #like. mitten is still in charge in fact shes been cocon for a week almost now? #GOOD for her when i was out before she couldnt even do that for some reason and its real nice to come back to her thriving #my relationship with kiba is firing back up bc im not a mopey bitch anymore and being in this form doesn't suck like it used to #its really nice #im getting over Cincinnati. the thought of it isnt crippling like it was last time i was out so thank you team for working with that omg #its sunny and warm and fall out and im going to a party at my uncles as a pirate im very excited #i havent dressed up in like a decade and ive never had contacts. my family is about to be introduced to me having them. #trying to think of a new name for myself #something nature and universe themed but quiet and small and about growth #something like limabean but .idk maybe bean IS perfect its mine now? it always was. but. they. made it ours. idk. #it stings still dont get me wrong the whole thing is aggravating and painful regardless of position but. #yeah i can think about it without that pit or anything

[hafwen]

I had the energy for the first time in months? I was able to exfoliate my skin while I was taking a bath and do a face mask

I feel so fresh and clean

#i try to do a face mask once a week to keep my acne down and it does work #unfortunately my skin is so sensitive it only likes very gentle products #and those dont always cost the least #fuck my skin #it gets mad if i think about touching my face #hello I'm disabled and trying to keep my painful acne to a minimum #but i smell and feel so good right now #omg I'm clean clean #not just washed #its different #personal

[sleepless-crows]

the storytelling in this album i will die

#growing pain is about falling headfirst into reality #then chasing that feeling is about running on the ground after you fall trying to find like something #then back for more is the feeling of wanting to go back to before because reality is too hard #then dreamer is about finding your dream and getting your name back. and it becomes your motivation to continue on #then deep down is about how these people were the reason you came this far. and how your struggles or your horns were really your crown #and then happily ever after is about realizing life isnt a fairytale and our endings are all unknown and isnt that better that we make #our own future? that we dont know what happens next? #and then skipping stones. OMG SKIPPING STONES THE METAPHOR UGH. its about how the ripples on the water when you skip stones #those wounds on the water. one day they will disappear and the water will calm again. so head towards that ocean. and stop dwelling on the #thoughts hanging on your fingertips. stop thinking about what youll be losing. LOSS IS A UNIVERSAL HUMAN EXPERIENCE. instead go forward #LIKE UGH WTH WHO GAVE THEM THE RIGHT TO KAJSDHFLKJDH #and then blue spring and do it like that #LIKE UGH #THIS ALBUM #I CANNOT #THE ALBUM PREVIEW I NEED TO STAB MYSELF

[thinkingnot]

wait, you guys do know that having braces means the possibility of metal nails nailed into your jaws right?

#and they may be like #idk they hurt really bad at the start #and then later hurts #and then you get used to them #but then one day they hurt again and you go to the destist like yo so theres this thing with the nails in my upper jaw on the left its #bleeding? and smells weird?? and its inflaming?? but it doesnt really hurt :] #and then your doc be like omg thats a lil reaction thingy yk so we gotta get a thingy to violently pull it out now #and then its gone #but now the one on the right of your upper jaw is kind of also screaming for help via pain and aches? #tw dentist #my friend also had braces but didnt have the funky bone piercings #you dont wanna hear about the installation process it was also very violent i forgotten bout it me think but there was lots of blood but #luckily the numbing injection thing they poked in before worked except it stops working about 45 mins later and then its agony?

[evanthefunky]

Is it just me getting older and realizing how icky it makes me feel or have we always sexualized vulnerable and traumatic moments for characters?

#this is about dream (ote) being naked while being imprisoned and loki kneeling begging sif to chill out during the time loop specifically #but also ive noticed it for tom holland's spiderman in nwh and ffh... and hoco even. #those are the three examples i can think of and just. gosh. it makes me so uncomfortable. #like. loki is kneeling but everyone was like 'omg hes so submissive' yALL FORGETTING TO CONTEXT OF THIS SCENE??? #having to relive a moment he comes to regret and experiences physical pain and emotional pain REPEATEDLY???? #no of course not why remeber the non sexy bits when omg hes kneeling and flips his hair. #also its lowkey not sexy when his clothes are lasered away but thats because the whole tva thing is to treat variants #as objects and not people who matter... yeah. anyway #i could go on and on about this. #the sandman #loki #dream of the endless

[pepprs]

ok update i just finished making my card and i said / drew (lol) basically everything i wanted to say in it (except for the things i definitely can’t say now that this is happening lol). so i think maybe i might be ok with not saying what i want to say directly to her. but then when i say that im not ok with it at all LOLLLL so i think i need to sleep on it and maybe see what tomorrow brings

#purrs #sobbed hysterically writing the message and that was like 4 hrs ago (yeah.) and im still like dizzy and puffy eyed from it. i am not having #a good time lol. and it’s only going to get more intense this whole week and i don’t know if i can handle it. ive been overstimulated / #sleep deprived for like 2 straight days bc yesterday i was doing everything in my power to avoid thinking abt it and today i was doing #everything in mt power TO think abt it including being subjected to things that were hard and ofc the walk being a flop kinda lol. but omg. #mutuals i know it’s so deeply cringe but i have been vagueposting abt my work life since before i even got the fucking job. i know i look #mentally ill about it and i definitely am but my colleagues past and present are my best friends and my number 1 reason to be alive #actually. so this is just. idk. this feels very……. especially when this is someone who was never supposed to leave this suddenly. who i thou #thought i had years and years left with. and it’s just over like that and we have to say goodbye and i know it’s not even that big of a move #but it’s actually killing me. like physically. that this is happening rn. i don’t know what the fuck im going to do. and we aren’t even f #gonna be able to grieve openly at all but we are grieving and she doesn’t even.. like idk. maybe it just hasn’t occurred to her that we are. #but we literally are and its soooooooo bad. it’s so bad. i feel like im having a bad dream every day. i already felt like nothing was real #anymore and this helped abt -50000% with that sensation. like wtf is going on rn. she’s LEAVING. ON FRIDAY. FOREVER. FUCK! #but uh yeah the point is i do want to talk to her and if it was anyone else i would. but when it comes to emotional stuff and being honest #w each other abt how one makes the other feel… we are incompatible im afraid. she doesn’t want to talk abt it and all i want to do is talk b #but im shy and weak so i cave and just do everything in my power to give her what she needs and then i feel shattered for the rest of the #day / week / whatever. it fucking sucks and im not like that w anyone else in my little irl world (except my p*rents ofc LMAO) but it’s like #onmgggggg. can we please just talk abt how it is so painful you are doing this and comfort each other in it somehow. LOL! like i am in so mu #much pain i can’t even speak and she didn’t even look at me when i flicked my eyes over to her during the silences. CRINGE! girl she doesn’t #care about you 😭😭😭😭 except she does. idk. it’s just sooooo. idk. my brain is not right it hasn’t been since i got the news. i think im dying #delete later #OMG ALSO it is now the wee hours of july 26 which means that 3 yrs ago right abt now i did something so very stupid that made me have my #first very bad breakdown ever and it led to me realizing i needed counseling again. so maybe in the spirit of this anniversary i will do #this stupid thing (of asking to talk and then saying what i want to say even though i wrote it out) and then have a very bad breakdown and t #then go to counseling 🥳✌️

[isitovernow-ootw]

vent in tags

#omg a fellow aro :) #sometimes I'm afraid in a couple years I'll realize i was a woman the whole time #or even just that I'm a woman now even if i was really nonbinary all these year #i know its ok and gender is fluid and identities don't need to be there solid forever things and labels aren't that important #but I'm still often sad about not being part of the aro community anymore and its been almost a year since i realized #like theoretically its great to change labels to whatever fits you #but these labels have been big important parts of my identity for like 5 years #and its a really bizarre feeling to just. not be able to define myself with them anymore despite them being such a bog factor in molding me #like im happy i know who i am now #but whenever i see a post talking about being aro i reflexively am like and then i remember and im not gonna lie #its fucking sad #all these people i used to relate to and be a part of a community with i have to suddenly disconnect from #and like even though i realistically probably was never really aro i still FELT that pain from arophobia and amatonormativity #because i really believed i had never had a crush or romantic attraction in my life and that still made me feel broken #and alons #but i feel like i definitely shouldn't try to like talk to aro blogs i used to talk to about these feelings because well im not aro #and like what do they care about some ex aro person's struggles #they have no reason to be interested in that #I probably wouldn't care about some random straight chick's story who used to think she was a lesbian unless we were like friends #and it fucking sucks because that still feels like it should be my community #and I can't imagine how much worse that would be for actually being cis. like being trans has been such a fundamental part of my experience #all the online circles I've been in for years have been almost entirely trans and most of my irl friends have been trand #if i were to realize i was just a cis lesbian I don't know how I'd cope #like trans discussions wouldn't be about me #my experiences wouldn't be relevant to them #i can't imagine how hard it would be to accept that #god #end rant i geuss #lmk if you relate to this weird anxiety #*when i'm screaming at the sky

[hauntingblue]

I loved this movie about nami and her ex situationship reconciling and also anti capitalism

#i have one question are the episode 0 of movies just fanservice am i reding this right. also zoro looks jealous and petty #can they in like love action make zoro chastize sanji bc he is an ally and not just letting him sound jealous and petty like i enjoy both #but clarificaiton sometimes you know. like sanji stop that its dehumanizing and disrespectful also i want you #why are they worried about money when they are in a casino. nami was great at playing cards wasnt she #franky and luffy bonding sumo time.... nami gets the title hell yeah lmao i have been saying she is the strongest #omg the children sellong flowers... dont tell me luffy is going to defeat capitalism in this movie. hell yeah #i was gonna say cant believe they let luffy bet but he does have good luck tho. the stomach ache lmao #sanji is so stupid akdjsksks the guy who likes pain also....don't let sanji think too much about it omg the golden dust.... #zoro is going to be executed sanji and luffy are unlucky and all of them are broke and in debt. damn. how are you broke as a pirate even #nami and carina ex situationship talking about trusting each other again looking at the sunset... exactly #that was such a nasty betrayal and nami trusting her again so easily and fast like damn. #also what is the cp0 koala and sabo doing there like damn. jesus even #also what is absalom doing there.... #and WHO let luffy infiltrate. FRANKY GOT IMPALED!! gold is really malleable and not resistant and strong like this is getting me out of it #sanji got a cleaning man fit instead of a cleaning lady fit so why is usopp wearing one ajdjaka.... i mean he is the crews babygirl.... #also second movie where zoro gets kidnapped. the peoples princess. #omg they are in the pipes. also why is there pipe for the entry of seawater in a boat. maybe i don't know enough about boats #franky getting luffy out of the fan.... cradled like baby jesus for an instant #omg they have been bamboozled BY CARINA?????? OMG AGAIN??? NAMI!!!! OH NVM!!! WHAT??? #luffy didnt know they were doing all this cause he would have fucked it up akshaua him being thrown half dead out of the tower ahsuakaia #this reminds me of super mario wii where bowser turns into a bigger bowser when you kill it. damn #also another good guy turned villain because of tragedy. two in a row #the kid with the metal pipe omg... sabo is coming #i heard hikken and the voice was so similar i wondered why ace was there.... for a millisecond he was there..... 😞 #the red hawk and everything..... should we all kill ourselves.... omg carina didnt betray her actually #tesoro dumb asf for taking nami look how he is going down after that lmao didnt expect gear fourth tho. damn #still thinking about how gold isnt that strong so this shouldn't be necessary but alas shonen be shonen. luffy saving namis gf too <3 #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies