#its just easier to go to bed

[marblerose-rue]

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whaddaya think makes tracks like that? / needletail and violetpaw

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #needletail #violetshine #warriors #warrior cats #wc #waca #wc art #squints i think i have all of the tags #THIS TOOK feels like WAY SHORTER THAN THE OTHER ONES #but probably bc theres like. way less grass in this one and more snow and thats way easier to do #THE WAY I DID LIGHTING U CANT RLLY TELL I MADE VIOLET A CALICO </3 hell on earth #IM RLLY SATISFIED WITH HOW NICE THIS CAME OUT + HOW FAST I WAS ABLE TO DO IT #it was on/off all day bc i have felt just physically weird . not bad but not good but not sick #anyway wish me luck on my exam and my paper ^_^ more worried about my exam than anything #its mostly monomers im worried about x_x i can tell u the most out there biology fact but i cannot tell u shit abt carbohydrates #anyway i am going to bed goodnight yall <3 its only like 12:30 rn WHICH ISNT BAD TBH #would u guys believe me if i said i was a little nervous posting because i feel like i forget something every time #i always get the nerves before i post and then i post and its fine AHBDLFHGBD #OKOK goodnight for realsies #tag edit carbohydrates arent monomers theyre fucking polymers THIS ONLY ILLUSTRATES MY POINT FURTHER

[courtney-deserved-better]

telling myself i can't start another tdwt rewrite but dear god do i want to write one focusing on alejandro and courtney in this weird situationship thats a lot more nuanced than just alejandro manipulating courtney and her falling for it. like theyre best friends they dont trust each other theyre the same person they dont know anything about the other one theres a mutual attraction theyre pining for other people theyre codependent they dont care about each other theyre platonic soulmates like i just want to do a deep dive into how messy that relationship couldve been building off of their friendship that exists in my head except the line between romantic and platonic is so fucking blurred they have no idea what they are to the other person

#they live rent free in my head as you can tell #ive been writing some intense moments for them in amicus curiae and im having a lot of Feelings about platonic alecourtney #tbh the whole concept of them replacing the best friends has been a great avenue for me to do a deep dive into their friendship #aughhhh i just. love them so much #and i do want to explore them in a situation where there is relationship potential even if that relationship never actually happens #because everything between them during tdwt could be so MESSY!! #like alejandro says he's just manipulating courtney but he's also doing it to make heather jealous but he's also genuinely worried about he #after the duncan thing but this is the only way he knows how to express that concern without making himself look weak #meanwhile courtney is falling for the act but she also knows its an act and is going with it for the emotional support it provides and shes #just doing it to make duncan/gwen jealous but she also is starting to see the real alejandro underneath it all because he does care even #though he doesn't want to and they do feel a strong connection that they dont know whether its platonic or romantic because romance is bein #shoved down their throats on this show and theyre both in complicated romantic dynamics with other people that theyre the easier option for #one another but they dont really want to be with one another like it just doesnt feel right #okay okay i legit have to stop and go to bed but just. them. im thinking so hard about them #platonic alecourtney

[plulp]

*ahem* can you draw the love interests with swapped personalities? Like they all had some type of BIG concussion and now they all swapped personalities I have an example (i really don’t count the uhh … animals it’s very questionable to me but ya know you don’t have to take my request)

Robin and Kylar swap … that’s all the rest I DONT FUCKING KNOW 😇🔫

robin and kylar? dont worry ive GOT YOU 🫵

#asks #my art #anonymouse #dol #robin the loner #kylar the orphan #?!?!?!?!?!?! BUT hes not an orphan. so it doesnt make sense. #sorry i didnt draw the other lis its because its ITS 2 AM>? SINCE WHEN #im outta here guys #if you want me to draw more you can send another ask but for me? bedtime #sorry i dont know that much about robin or kylar :( wish i could do more #if you have anything specific then ill draw it #i just have an easier time with specific prompts #goodnight everyone dont go to bed too late have a good day at work or school or whatever

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[skenpiel]

i filled a whole canvas with shitty little rose doodles te other day and this was the only one that came out even half decent LAWL. can u tell i lik e stylizing -_-

#my art #doodle #rose lalonde #WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I PISTED A draAWING THAT WASNT LIKE. FOR ANYTHING. HUH????? #ages ages its been Ages #i havent like. drawn. like i used to for almost a full year now. idk wats up w that #but anyway mostly i make a lot of silly shitty low effort doodles nowadays #almost all of them will never be seen by anybody. the other ones from this drawing for example #or like. i drew alpha rose too. nobodys gonna Ever fucking see that. i think it makes it a little easier 4 me 2 relax knowing that #like just focus on having fun or whatever. maybe #also thats a lie 1 person has seen it and thhat was my friend matt. but thats only because he was sitting behind me as i was drawing LOL #anyways. its late and cold So im gonna go to bed bye forever everyone #i am every canon compliant homestuck character fans worst nigjtmare 💪💪💪

[kingtankgirl]

about half of my apartment is packed up and in a week im going to be living in a new state for the first time in my life. kind of surreal n scary but extremely exciting. this has been in the works for like 8 months now so its incredible to finally be at the precipice of such an awesome life change

#going from living in a shitty part of sacramento to a small city in oregon #and im going from an old shithole apartment to a townhouse on the edge of a nature preserve that was just built like. a year ago #and i get to live with my wife and kevin and my sibling again which is such an ideal support system to have #3 bed 2.5 bath!!! and its HUGE its like 600 more sqft than my current place and theres so many windows #and theres a shower in my ensuite bathroom... :spoiled: #idk its been a lot of work and im extremely grateful to have my parents support as well #bcuz theyre moving with us and like. sold their house n almost everything they own so we can have an easier life out of this state #idk its so exciting but its so crazy!!!!!!!! #i feel so grateful to no longer have to work opposite schedules from my wife n i get to see my family more often. its gonna be really good #MAYBE I CAN EVEN START COLLAGING AGAIN LMFAOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

[slutdge]

im having a fibrocsystic flare up and cramping and depressed cause therapy days are always bad and i had another revelation that something i thought was just silly that happened to me as a kid was actually abuse and i wanna scream and cry and throw up WHEN DOES IT GET EASIER

#let me fuck that old man for my mental health pls im gonna have a breakdown #anyways the ''when does it get easier'' is a rhetorical question i know the answer is when i stop having to deal with violent people daily #but that day is not going to be soon or maybe not even ever so #idk just shoot me lads im tired i wanna go to bed ive slept like shit for the past week #maybe ill log of and just read a book for a bit instead of doomscrolling #i hope yall are having a good day #anyways can we talk about how much doctors and just people in general downplay fibrocystic breast disease? #like i genuinely thought i had breast cancer before i was diagnosed its painful and scary

[child-ofdust]

i wish i could just sleep forverr or maybe just be able to rot in bed every day every hour but i cant and it makes me so sad

#vent #vent in tags #<- yah #im just so #im so miserable #all i do is think about suicide and sleep #its all i really wanna do anyways #i get out of bed. i brush my teeth. i drink water. i eat if i feel i deserve it (i dont). i pace i walk. i feed my dog i let her out. #and what else #nothing interests me anymore but then again thats like. thats been the norm for awhile i guess #i make myself do the things i love because i hope it'll make me happy but it just #it doesnt #it distracts me #just for a little while #but once i stop i immediately go back to nothing. #when i was younger i never understood when therapists asked if i felt 'empty' i thought it was silly but now #that's the only way i can describe it #if im not miserable and suicidal i'm just nothing #the only thing i can really feel anymore besides misery is guilt that fades faster than it comes and anger #if im lucky i'll get a taste of adrenaline but #kicks rock #is it too much to ask to just feel something other than #yeah #just for a moment #thats all i want #im so sad #i dont want to get better anymore but i do but wouldn't it be so much easier to rot? #i'll die before 20 either way so what does it matter

[rowan-ashtree]

golly gee i sure would love it if my roommates would tell me when they're inviting people over for a super late movie night

#this happened on friday night too and i just. im upset #im super uncomfy w ppl i dont know being in my home bc it's my safe space!!! it's MY safe space!!! #and if i have some warning before it happens it's much easier to be ok with it #but im like. trying to get ready for bed and i wanted to go refill my water bottle #and it took me a couple minutes to psych myself up enough to go out there. into my own goddamn kitchen #its so gross im gonna try to mention this to my roommates tomorrow. grrr #rowan vents

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes #and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on #ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done #and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well #im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them #and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right #its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried #i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway #im just. this is gonna b a difficult week #and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend #nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia? #how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru #but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep #ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway #and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week #sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems #but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed #unrelated

[myrmica]

vitalasy going WHO IS INFLUENCING YOU ? DID YOU TALK TO MAPICC? as his immediate reaction to the zam betrayal and you can hardly even hear him say this because his mic cuts out is top 10 craziest eclipse moments to me

#this in combination with subz telling zam that he's proud of him for being able to betray them because it means that they did help him #bizarre things going on here like 1) subz is coping so hard. he is saying that to make himself feel better #2) i would argue that subz overstates mapicc #as a responsible party for zam's behavior at times because it's easier that way & so much weight gets put on subz being zam's savior in bot #of their minds #and Also zam is never able to fully work through his mapicc baggage because despite everything he still wants to hang out with mapicc and #this will just always be true but he also knows that it's somehow wrong and weird of him to still want to hang out with mapicc after all of #that because everything subz and vitalasy signal to him about it is 'FUCK THAT GUY!!!!!!!!!!!' (reasonably so) #my thesis statement. 3 million reasons for why zam is not capable of being honest and vulnerable with them ever and this is one of them #and in place of being honest with each other they all form this habit of performing a grand gesture (trust apples etc) to reaffirm their #relationship but it's suuuuuuuuuuuuch a bandaid over a crack in a wall that is about to fall the fuck down #and a lot of his behavior can be attributed to mapiccissues yes but it's about the way subz frames it #can i say also why was vitalasy scheduling meeting times to speak to the dude he sleeps in the same bed as every night. minecraft roleplay #logistics create the funniest situations on earth. i'm only pro 'its a coherent world and not a minecraft server' when it's funny #m #lifesteal

[newtness532]

why can't i just do things when i say i will do them?

#to make paying the monthly gym subscription worth it i need to go at least 7 times. its been 2 weeks and ive been twice so i need to go #at least 5 more times in the next 2.5 weeks #i can go tomorrow directly after uni and then maybe ill be able to force myself to go on friday again #then I'll just have to go one time next week and 2 the week after that #and i mean i still have time to go today but i dont have the energy and im also getting hungry sooo thats not happening #but since im not goimg to the gym i have to stufy. which is easier bc i can do it from my bed without getting dressed and leaving the house #and if i start crying while doing that there will be no one there to judge me #okay im glad we agree #I'll just get up and go bring my stuff now #i can do that #why am i like this #okay im going #bye see you later #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[skyeateyourdonuts]

weeoo

#this is gonna be me talking in tags today #ive been rather sleep deprived lately trying to keep up with everything around me #and its been taking a toll on my health like #if i go too long like this i tend to feel more lethargic and my allergies kick in #i got a sore throat bc my room has been Freezing and then i get headaches way way easier #often times my face will flush but its just my nose and idk why #well anyways lmao i just aint feelin great due to lack of sleep #so i emailed my teachers and stayed home and others might say this wasnt it #but i can barely get to sleep at all these days and just bed ridding myself #seemed like the only way for my body to be like #'fine 🙄 u can sleep' lmao #thats actually one of the worst symptoms is im restless i just Cant grt to sleep no matter how hard i try #ive had a couple days where i was running on 2-3 hours bc i spent even longer Laying there #anyways i hope this makes a difference im tired of feeling tired and shitty #luckily my mood has weirdly been high #its just my sleep and health that are low #i think when the sleepiest soldiers are unable to get sleep thats when u know smths wrong #i think also so much is happening and me trying to keep up is taking more outta me than i expected #im a gal who gets overwhelmed easily even if im happy w whats happening lmao #tho im not Happy im more In a Good Mood lmao #side tangent but i HATE being an adult who doesnt have like idk Help lmao #like my dad was so nice to me sometimes and helped me sometimes #i could go a whole day sleeping bc id be fucking exhausted #and hed qake me up and ask me when i last ate and if i couldnt decide but itd been too long #hed make smth for the both pf us or hed make it For me and id just be able to like recover lmao #ah adulthood is hard lmao #alright im done #gata #no need to read <3 yall

[toastsnaffler]

after I've worked thru my current library stack I think im gonna reread tlt for the millionth time. bc I deserve it <3

#i just wanna feel smth... ive been suppressing the hyperfixation too long I need to get rly annoying abt it again. and make so much fanart #fortifying the defences before the seasonal depression properly hits..!! #my flatmate was saying it would probably help to have a project or smth and shes right its just difficult for me to start things atm #so it might be easier to go back to smth familiar but interact with it a new way. i want to annotate more and draw a tonnnn #and dredge up the half finished art I drew 2 years ago when I first read gtn..... #I definitely have a list of personal projects id like to work on somewhere but maybe this can work as an on ramp to that. we shall see #anyway going to bed early bc i have parkour tomorrow morning and also i wanna read a few chapters of smth before i sleep.. byeeee #.diaries

[darkwood-sleddog]

been trying to fully detox from using caffeine and i gotta say. i feel a lot better.

#not dogs #i mean its not good for me to have anyways with my high blood pressure but... #i got an air up waterbottle and it's been incredible honestly #i hate feeling sluggish in the morning due to lack of caffeine or dependency on caffeine to wake up #it'll make early am runs with the dogs a lot easier if i'm just....better about going to bed on time #ah. being in your 30s be like..