#it's so stressful for me because i don't want to tag someone who doesnt like them!

[scribbling-stardust]

Hello! If you want me to tag you in writeblr tag games could you please interact with this post? Like, reblog, comment whatever you like!

I always forget who likes tag games so hopefully now I can just check this post :)

#it's so stressful for me because i don't want to tag someone who doesnt like them! #hopefully this should fix that though :) #find later #tag post

[its-the-sa]

it is serious. the ship just comes off as nasty to me and i dont understand it

oh, then I'm sorry for being dismissive. I thought you were just a hater lol.

but in all seriousness, if a ship seems nasty to you, then a logical explanation of it is probably not going to change your mind. squicks are just gut reactions, so it doesn't really matter whether or not you understand the thing that squicks you. and that's ok! if the ship makes you uncomfortable, you should just block the rw regicide tag (or in my case you should probably just block me entirely lol )

but since you did ask sincerely, I'll at least try to explain why I ship it:

basically, I'm just a sucker for the 'enemies to lovers' trope and the 'villain redemption' trope. show me any two characters who fit both of those, and I'll probably ship it lol

I like villain redemption, because I like tragic villains. I like villains whose actions are inexcusable, but understandable. villains who lash out due to grief and end up doing horrible things in the throes of rage. and I like making them feel bad about it. I like villains who know they are monsters, who know they have done despicably evil things and truly hate themselves for it. and I like giving them a second chance. I like to see them feel remorse and turn away from evil and try to become better people.

and I like enemies to lovers because... well, for a lot of reasons that would probably take several thesis papers to unpack, lmao. but basically there's just something really intimate about two characters who can handle each other at their absolute worst, when no one else can. arti is like an unstoppable force of rage until she meets scav king, who is like an immovable object to her. he's willing to fight her and kill her as many times as he needs to, but he never strikes first, and he always gives her the chance to back down. and since he does have min aggression and max sympathy, I see him as the type of person who would easily forgive someone who is genuinely remorseful. he doesn't want to keep the cycle of violence and hatred going; whenever arti is ready to let go of her rage and stop the bloodshed, so is he. when she's ready to face the consequences of her actions and try to become a better person, he would rather support her than condemn her. he doesn't necessarily expect his people to forgive her, and he doesn't try to make excuses for her or downplay any of the harm she caused. i just think he could personally look at arti and find someone worth caring about underneath all the rage and hate, and in turn she could look at him and find someone she can trust enough to let all that hate go and admit she was wrong.

obviously, this type of relationship could never happen in real life (or if it did, it would be a fucking toxic disaster). but they're just characters, so their relationship doesnt have to be realistic, and I just want their story to have a happy ending I guess.

idk if any of this makes sense to you, but it's fine if not. you don't always have to understand why people like things that you don't like, it's ok to just block them for your own peace of mind. so if this ship still makes you uncomfortable, feel free to block me, I wouldn't take offense. stay safe and remember that fandom is for having fun , so dont stress out about it too much!

[meowzilla93]

Hello! I saw your rant post and I wanted to ask if we could get the context behind it? It seems kinda out of nowhere and I saw the tag list on tumblr and didn't saw anything negative towards any character. I also just want to know to avoid this person, I really don't want to interact with toxic people ://

Thank you for your answer

hello anon!

i hope you are doing well ᓚᘏᗢ

first and foremost, i won't be naming any names here. yes, my post was vague, and that was the point of it. because the truth of the matter is that no matter the fandom, this sort of behaviour is evident in all of them and i was calling it all out. identifying the people directly can cause more harm than good, and it is not my intention to victimize anyone.

it just so happened that recent events regarding a specific community pissed me off to no end this time round, and it was a long time coming.

in a way i am glad that you have not seen anything yourself from specific tags and the community, but the reality is that people who choose to target a set group or a set character and don't want blowback from it wont tag their posts to make them easily accessible. however, if you interact with enough blogs, basically the '6 degrees of separation' rule comes into affect, where blogs that interact with that fandom start to link to each other and you unfortunately will end up with a blog that doesnt align with your taste or morals on your feed and you get an unhealthy dose of toxicity from it

this happens on all forms of social media; where i have been seeing this kind of activity is more so on twitter, but it has happened here on tumblr too.

i do want to stress that when i do see this kind of toxicity i do block/mute them from my feed so i dont have to see it, but it doesnt stop it from existing. and then seeing how it affects the people around me because unfortunately its not so easy for them to get away from it, it just hurts me deeply

if you know my blog well enough, you know i am a massive fan of OLBA currently, and thats typically what i post, amongst other fandom stuff that interests me, however its typically OLBA.

the OL series is all about acceptance and understanding and openness with one another. discrimination, bullying, anything like that doesnt exist in the story and shouldnt exist in the fandom either.

its unfortunate to see that regardless of the type of community it should be, that negativity and toxicity exists regardless. as some one as part of the LGBTQIA+ community, i have unfortunately seen comments that are against what the community stands for. i have seen commentary that is essentially bullying of one account or a collective for the sort of content they produce. hyprocritical comments, calling out someone for their content but going ahead and making that content themselves.

if you have not seen this sort of activity, im grateful for it. truly, its not nice to see this kind of stuff, and if you do, blocking and muting it is the best option to avoid them and keep to the healthier side of the fandom

please note, this blog will always be an open blog, other than calling out this poor behaviour, the entire purpose of this blog is to be positive!

to share fics and and art and headcannons and thoughts about all characters in the fandom i am a part of, because i am trying to share the love i have for the series with others and have great discussions around them

i know this was a vague answer anon, but i hope you understand the reasoning behind why and wish you all the best

your friendly neighborhood kaiju,

ᓚᘏᗢ

#meow ask #meow rants #fandom culture #fandom etiquette #be good #do nice #its not that hard to be a decent human being #olba #our life #our life beginnings and always #our life now and forever

[crackedpumpkin]

Ohmygod bro good job getting your coffee cause I would’ve barely survived that too!!! Good looking people in general really just be paralyzing people for some reason 😭

Cafe hopping really is fun tho, now that I think about it I have a similar story too with fumbling words. I went to this craft store for the first time and was tryna look for string cause I wanted to make those necklace bottle things, I asked the two people working in English, and since they had a hard time communicating with me they literally ran to another working person then running back to find me in the small shop! I didn’t get string in the end but I got the bottle! Could’ve avoided that if I just spoke my native language- but I didn’t cause adults (the older ones in my family) usually made fun of me for it 😭

The little moments really make the big things!! Both of you, amazing writers, no lie. I’ve been thinking of writing too so is it okay if I ask what the advice was? /nf

Michael gets arc’d! No more chip docking! But genuinely based of you to put that much care into your characters and stories 💖

Yes please I didn’t even know fruit-ade is an actual word- I was just making things up-

i aspire to one day be that pretty.

Please the way I wheezed- fr though, never be afraid to speak your own native language! My second language is Chinese and I am horrible at speaking it under pressure. I even got laughed at by my boss - that's how bad it was lmaooo, but honestly i don't really care. I'm just happy it makes people smile and laugh at it alongside me^^

As for the advice given by blake, it was focusing about the small things that led up to the big moment! This is purely my own interpretation though, but essentially always justify their actions. For example, if i make babes fall for miles outta nowhere then it's a little sudden, right? There's gotta be some form of catalyst that caused it in the first place.

Especially in the situation theyre currently in. Neither are entirely sure what they are yet, besides employer and employee. Before even progressing to being lovers and stuff they gotta form some kinda bond first, right? So the main thing for me was how to justify each step in their relationship.

Aka, is it reasonable for them to warm up to each other by this stage?? Or are they still on rocky terms with each other? It's honestly a fun challenge for me to write, because it gives me a chance to put myself in their shoes more thoroughly.

Even irl, there's gotta be a catalyst to make you fall for someone in the first place, right? Maybe one day you notice their eyes are really nice, or maybe you like the way their laugh sounds. Even before that, it's the little things that they do to make you feel safe in the first place :) relationships dont form overnight, after all~

"i would need to read the full thing through but a good rule of thumb for progression is either feeling it out and reasoning through if their reactions make sense or making it clear that time has passed between chapters and giving it a little suspension of disbelief" - @buthowboutno-spamming

bro, when you start writing please tag me in it!! I would love to read your work, and i know you can do it!! Honestly take it from me - dont take things too seriously. Writing is meant to be fun, not stressful. Like, when blank canvas started out it was just for shits and giggles and goofy and fun. thats what i was aiming for the whole time, and i wanted people who read my fic to hopefully smile or even do the lil nose huff thing we all do when we find something on the internet funny ^^

I'll add on a little advice of my own - feel free to ignore it lolol, but essentially:

I find it really helpful to have some form of plan or outline for your fic. Mine s constantly being adjusted, but it helps so much when you write your chapter and maybe realize oh wait iwanna do this here and do that there, and you know where everything should go like a puzzle piece! Something else I'd say is that there doesnt always have to be drama lmao, sometimes a sweet heartwarming fic is enough. You're enough.

Again, the little moments matter, right? That's why in chapter five i just kinda did a little hangout session :)

And omg when i say i am thrilled to write michael's character arc fr. an eureka moment hit me outta nowhere and immediately i RAN to tell @theblindhag because she has been honestly nothig but supportive and an absolutely lovely human bean. Which also kinda reminds me: having a good friend listen to all the crazy ideas in your head is so amazing fr, and i hope you have/will find that friend. Honestly, feel free to send in asks whenever - id be more than happy to have a chat or chill out!

I'll make a post on the fruitade soon, its like 1am where i am rn lmao. keep your eyes peeled for it anon!! it's the actual easiest to make, trust.

As a little bonus extra, allow me to share a little moment from upcoming chapters :)

#CPRambles

[alanshee-keeper-of-realms]

Serious issue someone in the Ninjago Fandom is Impersonating Me

Look I may have done a lot of stupid shit and have toxic habits that I'm working on but at least I admit so, I'm not perfect. I'm never going to be perfect I've done a lot of damage and I've had a lot of damage done

But to learn somebody in this fandom is impersonating me in order to slander my name because why else would they do that, that is an absolutely new low

I have had somebody say that I am a mod in the Largest Ninjago server on Discord and this somehow proves that I was stalking my ex whom I hadn't spoken to for 3 years before this happened. My ex came to me in summer 2022 claiming someone with my name had messaged saying I was looking for her, but I willingly showed my dms and Discord servers in order to disprove that it wasn't me.

I would also like to put on record I'm not that type of person and I will say this till the cows come home,I really don't care after a breakup what you do with your life I'm not about to stalk you because logically where does that leave me? In Jail or you hate me more, it just doesnt make sense. I'm not about to do any of that creepy crap.

I don't know how far and how long this has been going on so imma put down evidence,

First is the message that says I am a mod in the Biggest Ninjago Server

Then showing my evidence of that being False Information and most likely an impersonator or someone is lying

I have been IP banned from this server, I do not remember if this was a result of 2019 but most likely it was. I was banned from like six servers because of that Blacklist, I would not doubt if this was one of them but that disproves that I am a moderator in that server let alone that I wouldn't want the anxiety and stress of that.

I can barely handle a small server let alone 3,000 people no thank you, all respect to the mods of that server for doing that

That means either somebody is impersonating me that is a moderator in that server or this was a lie that has been since spread around.

Again this is a big issue in the Ninjago Fandom the only reason I am tagging the tag because I have no clue who this may be but I don't want these rumors and gossip propagated.

I'm putting my foot down I'm putting out the evidence and I have more behind the scenes so please contact me if you know possibly if anybody is impersonating me or if you've heard these rumors and want to get the full story.

Thank you for reading, Alanshee-Valera

#ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago discord #fandom issue #impersonation #lies #gossip

[taegularities]

hey rid, i was hoping i could vent/get ur advice on smt? u don't need to post this if u dont want to!

im an elementary education major and i rlly want to be a kindergarten teacher... like rlly bad. i still remember my first day of kindergarten and i knew from that moment that's exactly what i wanted to be. i changed my mind a couple of times (mainly because of family pressure) but i always came back to teaching. my dad is so not supportive about it and it usually doesnt get to me, but it rlly is rn. he's one of my favorite people in the world and i love him to bits, but it absolutely destroys me that he still cant be supportive of it. i want nothing more than to make him proud but i dont think i can as a teacher.

it's been getting to my head and now im uncertain if i wanna be a teacher or not.. like i cant see myself being anything but a teacher, but knowing all the cons (the low pay, the amount of people leaving the field) it scares me and is rlly discouraging me. i feel like i need to choose my head and be practical rather than choosing my heart and following my dreams, but i almost feel like i would be betraying myself if i did that. im genuinely so lost and dont know how to feel about it :( any advice would help!

- wife from war anon 💂‍♀️(side note, why do i feel so nervous signing my tag on this ask HAHA)

hey babe !! don't worry about it, you can vent anytime <3 i'm sorry it's been affecting you like that :(

it's a difficult situation you're in, and i understand how it must feel to not have someone's support on something so important, especially when that person means so incredibly much to you. but that said, in the end it'll be you who'll be stuck with a job for the foreseeable future.

the problem is that, in life, you can't always satisfy everyone, right? and if you keep trying to do just that, you might end up neglecting your own needs and desires and that might affect your mental health in the long run. so what i'm trying to say is – if you feel like that's the job for you and you really can't be happy anywhere else, then you should stay. ugh i know, the pay in this area is a full disappointment, the entire teacher body has been complaining for years lol i guess that's something that's a constant.

but are there perhaps courses or people you know that could go through opportunities that you might like? something or someone professional? oftentimes, there are jobs out there that cater to your interests, but you just don't know it yet. or perhaps you could be a tutor on the side, for some extra money?

it's a tough situation, but i hope you get through it and know that your stress is valid – still, please remember, that in the end it's your life, and it's you who you need to make happy. if your gut's telling you you'd betray yourself if you did something else, then that probably means something. i found a few links (i'm not sure if they're good, but maybe you could try?): 1, 2, 3.

i'm so sorry you've been feeling that way, love 🥺 vent anytime you need... i hope things get better soon 🤍

#and i hope that helped in any way #life choices are hard to figure out #notes for rid 🌹 #wife from war anon 💂🏼‍♀️

[itzmangoyumego]

@omori-aus-archive, @pyroanime2k16 i've noticed you wrote my main user url (its @itzmangomori by the way, you've missed a 't' there.) and a few several others, it seems like you didnt even bother to tag us. It hurts me to see that someone who i thought supported me is actually talking shit about me behind my back. When i found out about this, i became very stressed and nervous because i didn't know someone out there who was so displeased at what i do, they didnt even bother to talk to me about it. i don't want to regret doing a request for you. So i hope you can answer me this.

What is it about Mari and Sunny that i "mischaracterized and made them literally the opposite of what their character actually/canonically is." What is it that i did wrong? if im not mistaken, all of us are allowed to have our own headcannons about Mari and Sunny.

Its not like i've headcanon them to be abusive as well. if you have your own headcanons, that is fine, if i have my own, that is fine as well. You don't have to say stuffs like this just because you don't agree with my point of view. Just because i'm new to this fandom doesn't mean you get do this. it doesnt mean i'll just turn a blind eye and let it slide. i don't want to cause a drama, but i need a reason. i was panicking when i saw the post, i was stress and anxious. i know you talk about other people behind their backs as well, i'm sorry that you yourself had to experience that in reddit. i've seen the reddit post, its not cool, but no one was talking bad about you, they were just criticizing your fic. Atleast from the one i saw. I'm posting this on a side account that no one knows about so we can talk this out in a civilized manner. I hope you will reply me before i reblog this to my main.

#will come back to this later #my words

[bonny-kookoo]

Jungkook: Deep Breath (1)

In which you're on the hunt for a roommate - and he might be the perfect candidate.

Tags/warnings: Alien!Jungkook part 9643 I guess, human!Reader, futuristic, Angst, Fluff, strangers to lovers, eventual smut, jungkook is VERY touchy, Alien shenanigans and scary human things

Additional Chapter Warnings: fluff, cute alien boy

Chapter Length: mid/long

Next ->

You've been searching for a fitting roommate for months by now- but no one seems to fit.

You don't want someone who does yoga all day, unintentionally guilt tripping you into doing sports again just to not seem as lazy as you are- but you also don't want someone who doesn't clean up after themselves. At the same time, a clean-freak would drive you crazy- while someone who's home all day every day could prove difficult to handle if you want to have visitors.

But just as you're about to delete the post on the website, giving up, a message pops up in your inbox.

He introduces himself as Jeon Jungkook; a 25-year old Kumya from planet Paras, currently searching for someplace to stay for the time of his exchange. He's working for a coding company who you know occasionally exchanges their workers to gain experience- so he's got a stable income, meaning he'll most likely pay rent on time. His words are casual but formally friendly, no profile picture can be found; but from what he tells you, he seems like he could be a good fit.

You answer by telling him some info about the apartment, making sure to include rent as well, and the small damages here and there with pictures do he knows more details about what he's getting into. You also make sure to stress the fact that you're, well, a girl- and that if he's uncomfortable with that, it would be a deal breaker.

It takes a couple of hours, but he eventually replies- this time a lot more casual, even using smileys at certain points, to underline statements like

'don't worry, I even do my own dishes, I heard humans hate that task a lot ๑^ᴗ^๑'

Or

'Gender doesnt matter to me to be honest but I hope you won't be intimidated by me cause I've heard human women tend to get scared by men very easily- I promise I'm nice! (๑•w•)و✧'

And he really does seems nice enough- so you send him the last details, before you both agree to try it out.

Now, obviously he doesn't move in right away- it takes a course of weeks for his work Visa and everything to be sorted out- but once he stands in front of your door, he takes your breath away.

While half of his face is hidden behind a mask, and you've already done some research on what to expect from the Kumya-race when it comes to behavior , culture and looks, he still looks a lot different than what you've expected. His eyes seem to glow- reddish-pink in color, while his hair, buried underneath a black beanie, is pale and an ash-blonde color. He waves a little, eyes turning into half moons as he smiles underneath his mask. He'd told you about this habit of his, and you've read online that it's common for his kind- force of habit, since the air on Paras isn't very clean to breath a lot of times, and the mask helps them to not get sick. You've told him it's fine- even though now, you're slightly curious to know what he looks like underneath.

"Hello. I hope I'm not too early?" he asks, and it makes your eyes widen because holy shit, he's talking inside your head. It's odd, and he seems to pick up on that. "ah, yeah, most people here have that reaction. I hope its okay-" he starts slightly worried, before you wave him off with a smile, letting him in.

"no, it's fine, just.. A little odd?" you giggle, making him visibly less tense as he walks into the apartment. "i hope your flight was okay?" you ask, and he nods.

"it was great, thanks for asking. I'm less exhausted than i thought I'd be." he chuckles, making you smile as he takes off his shoes.

"All your stuff had been delivered and I've put the boxes into your room for you to unpack." you say, as you open the door to what would from now on be his room.

"that- was really not necessary, thank you so much." he answers with wide open eyes, before they turn a bit concerned. "there's some heavy stuff in some though. I hope you didn't struggle too much-" he worries, as you wave him off.

"ah, it's nothing." you said, before he drops his backpack to rush inside, inspecting one of the packages with an alarmed face. "oh- did something break-"

"did you hurt yourself?" he asks, brows furrowed as he looks at you. "i can smell blood on this one."

"just a papercut, I'm a bit clumsy, it's no big deal." you tell him, as he gets up to walk over to you, hugging you.

Ah yes- another fact about his kind.

Men of his kind are typically the main caretakers of the family's; highly emotional and very touchy, they tend to be very protective of their partners and friends, while simultaneously never backing down in the face of danger. Their kind of like the definition of the term 'Lion moms'; fierce, gentle, protective, and loving.

They also make friends very, very fast, and they love skinship a lot. It's normal to hug anyone they like right away- it's like shaking hands to humans.

"thank you, I really appreciate this." he hums out before parts from you.

"ah uh.. Yeah sure. I'll.. Leave you to unpack, just holler if you need anything." you say, making him nod with happy eyes, before he turns around to open the first box of his things.

Well- this could certainly become interesting.

#bts imagine #bts fanfic #bts fic #jungkook imagine #alien jungkook #alien!jungkook #deep breath au

[evertyun]

OPPOSITE ATTRACTION - ♯kang taehyun [ 1 ]

[ 1 ] — what goes on

PAIRING : kang taehyun x reader

GENRE : college au! fluff, maybe angst like 2%

"y/n, im a visionary not a dreamer, and if i want you, i want you"

"i am sorry but what??" you replied in utter shock unable to process what is going on right now.

"do you not understand?" taehyun pushed his brows together looking at you waiting for a reply knowing too damn well you are in all girls dream right now, if anyone of them witness this, you could lost your life on sight right here.

"i-i... i think luna is calling me! bye!" you panicked and ran off leaving the poor boy standing there after confessing to you.

you ran off straight to the girls washroom and look in the mirror quickly touching both your cheeks, no way this is happening, the kang taehyun yes kang taehyun just straight up said he wants you?

the next morning you treated the day as normal, of course not forgetting what happened yesterday, you went straight to your locker to get ready for first period.

"y/n!" you turned to where the voice came from, to see a girl linking arms with a tall black haired boy like drunk mates

"luna! morning, and who is that?" you asked seeing a new face not so familiar at all.

"oh him? that's beomgyu, we are part time colleagues unbelievable!" luna snorted out laughing and beomgyu greeted a small hello, being cheeky as usual he wink at you

"we getting some coffee and milk before heading to class wanna tag along?" luna asked you, while you were just packing and closing your locker door, agreeing like what could go wrong getting a morning beverage.

you were so wrong.

"tyun, strawberry milk in the morning again?" beomgyu coos out

"stop babying me before i make sure you can't speak again." taehyun turn and hissed at the slightly taller boy and to make eye contact with you

panicked you just nervously laugh "oh morning!" you smile and raising one hand slightly up at him

"morning y/n" he greeted back slightly smiling, and you swear to yourself that's the first time taehyun ever smile kinda at you? or you've seen

"woah woah woah am i missing something? l/n y/n" luna jokingly teases

"a whole season of penthouse 3" you replied jokingly giving your signature meme smile that got beomgyu laughing out loud.

after getting your drink, you notice taehyun wasn't with you all anymore, he must have left for his class. when you turn to your right you noticed taehyun was with yeonjun the school soccer team captain.

of course they have a match coming up too.

the bell ring signing its time for class as everyone disperse to their class, when walking to class walking up the stairs to class when you felt a tug causing you to turn to meet with the cherry headed boy.

you suck in all your breath

"t-taehyun h-hi?" you clearly are trying to hold in your emotion and laughter because what in tarnation is going on right now

"i hope you could watch the match today... even if sunghoon isn't in the line up" he said holding an eye contact with you

"i can try!" you replied getting ready to escape this unwanted attention you know you're getting from some girls right here and now. but he didn't let you go yet

"just think about what i said, there's no rush really, but yea have a good day" he said before walking off in a different direction, you know for sure you are embarrassed to even do anything right now

walking to class now you're just thinking, what kind of mess you got yourself into. you never had any memories with taehyun that's for sure besides the fact you both were in the same school since kindergarten til now.

what's more was the way both of you are built differently, personality wise. deep down you don't know what taehyun is feeling but you know for sure you don't feel the same, mainly because sunghoon the love of your life (self proclaimed) exist.

classes was okay besides the fact you keep wondering off thinking about what taehyun said, sure he is nice and all but no way you would like a stone, worst of all the man of every girls dream? just no, but you didn't have plan to turn him down because you're shy and scared to reject someone

noon came fast as you decided that maybe you should just go watch the match, i mean what could go wrong, although it means there's no sunghoon to look at but a cherry headed boy, how bad could it be. you left your class and look out the window from the fourth level, directly towards the field you could see everyone stretching and practicing, your eyes wonder to finally stop and follow a cherry headed boy jogging in circle next to the so familiar just met today beomgyu.

"oh who you looking at now sugar boo" you turn so quickly to be facing your best friend luna, denying with the "no one in particular" answer she just laughed off

"can't be sunghoon since he went for debate so, is it perhaps lover boy yeonjun?" luna teases as usual and there you go back to your insult

"yeonjun? seriously, i in no way would look at that flirty cheesy vicenzo boy" you said out loud with your whole chest causing luna to crack out loud "you mean casanova, not vicenzo" she couldn't stop laughing causing your cheeks to turn full on red from your mistake.

4pm came by fast, which means it was the soccer match, you decided to just go and watch, walking towards an empty spot at the spectator area, you sat at the empty spot at the back along with your bag and a bottle of soda.

the players came out greeting each other before starting the match, and you got to admit this was your first time watching a match sunghoon is not playing and looking at someone else, you felt ad though you were cheating on sunghoon. just embarrassing.

the match started, your focus was on taehyun after all he invited you to watch the match in a sense, seeing him kicking the ball and passing, god he was good and how come you didn't know of sooner. his stamina and physique was perfect although he seems kind of short. he was no joke a good player, you cheered unknowingly when he scored and you swore you felt his eyes on you after celebrating his score.

the matches end not long, the team won with a 2-1, a great match indeed, you decided to wait until everyone leave before you take your leave but no, you should have left first because what happened next, is what's going to ruin you for the next few days.

you sat there drinking all your soda before living the field, when you heard a few girls talking, sounding like praises towards a familiar name, when you finally take your attention to where all the talking was from you were greeted with a red headed boy bending down to your eye level blinking.

your cheek turned red immediately, you mumbled a hi, hoping it doesn't make the situation awkward, but no you could feel a few pairs of eyes watching you right now, and it doesnt feel friendly either.

"hey, i didn't think you would show up since sunghoon isn't here" he said

no way he knows?!?!

"w-what do you mean sunghoon ha ha nah i came because you asked you know, friendly support in a way right yea ha ha yea ha ha" you replied and that was your most awkward experience in your entire life

"well if you say so, but thanks that score was for you anyways" he said sounding emotionless before standing up from his bending position, you kept looking at him, until he gave you a pat on your head and smile slightly "get home safe, bye," his final words before leaving, going back to the team

"no fucking way..." you mumbled to yourself, the way you froze through whatever he said. kang taehyun impact is real. when you heard someone calling your name, a hazel medium length hair girl standing next to you with her sunglasses on her head, looking utterly shocked. it was none other than the one and only hyewon

"y/n since when were you and tyun close even" hyewon asked crossing her arm and god you swear you didn't want anything to do with her right now but hope she leaves you alone for good. but nope you pretended to be deaf and decided to walk away as she grab your wrist.

"i am asking you a question?" she said with a stern voice, turning to look at her your reply was simple yet unsure mainly because you wouldn't want to go through hell caused by her "and i chose not to answer?" you simply replied and left.

-

on your way home, you dropped by the near by tteobokki shop you have your dinner, while scrolling through tiktok and your instagram feed, to land on sunghoon post. your heart did a flip, the way you felt guilty for watching a match he didn't play, and luna would laugh if she finds out as well. now you're stressed not from your depressing grades but also how to sort your crush feelings for sunghoon and reject taehyun.

by the time you reach home it was late and you decided to take a shower and just head to sleep early since tomorrow there will be morning class might as well. you switch off the light and lay down on your bed, setting the alarm on your phone, before closing and going off to sleep suddenly you received a call from an unknown number.

you picked up hesitantly, and answered a tiny hello, then voice on the other line seems calm, "is this y/n" the person spoke, the familiar voice you swore you recalled somewhere. "y-yea?" you replied. a sudden pause on the other line, and you feel like shitting your pants, "it's taehyu-"

you panicked so fast and ended the call by accident.

a/n : no this is so bad but its the best my brain stopped but ,, in advance if i drop this series its because i feel like its going nowhere or something ;-; also english is not my first language so sorry for bad grammar and words

#txt #txt scenarios #txt fanfic #txt ff #txt imagines #txt x reader #taehyun scenarios #taehyun x reader #taehyun imagines

[cosimuhs]

What?! I love historical romance and I am mad. To have nicole be a nazi?! How is that okay? It's disgusting and you should say it. Plus, even if you could pretend that it was okay to be racist and to diminish people's humanity and struggles like that, they clearly don't know the characters. Nicole is the show's moral compass and proof that without powers you can make a difference and be a force for good. I've seen that fic and the description made me uneasy, thanks to you I can avoid it.

i read the first line of this and was STRESSED that you were like why are you upset but thank goodness ahahah 

i havent and will not be reading the actual fic itself because its frankly sickening to me and just from the tags and the description it makes me feel nauseous tbh

youre so right about the characters and im sorry but just because nicoles a cop doesnt mean she would be a literal facist nazi murderer?? on that level i cannot comprehend thinking its like a good juxtaposition

also fandom and fictional characters aside, just like how the fuck is that romantic and respectful in any right lol like im glad that the genocide of 11 million of my ancestors is a cutesy AU for them :)

if anything its glorified stockholm syndrom and at worst its straight up falling in love with someone who ideologically (and literally??? idk abt in the fic but like concentration camp guards murdered and inflicted so much fear in ppl in real life lmao) wants you dead ?? how is that appropriate in any context 

im just still so astonished someone thought any of this was okay in any capacity

#tw: holocaust #anonymous

[killerqueenjoy]

99 Question Tag

okay okay I know i got tagged to do this like a month ago on my main blog by @santonicababy iM SORRY LIN ILY BUT THIS WAS SO DAMN LONG

1) DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED

I sleep in the room where everybodies closets are and they all gotta be closed goddamn do you know how spooky it is to even have one open during the night

2) DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS

my parents do, but alas I don't use them in case they have silicones or sulphates in them because I got a whole lotta curls to protect

3)DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

if this refers to the sheet protecting the mattress, then my answer is in because how the fuck would you be able to sleep with that moving around???

4) HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE

NO SORRY IM BORING

5)DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST IT NOTES

heck yeah, but for random shit

6) DO YOU EVER CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM

nee my parents are fancy fuckers who use the coupons on their phone (our local supermarket has a damn app skskksksk)

7) WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES

a bear because its one giant son of a bitch and not millions of tiny motherfuckers and also I've never been stung by a bee and intend to keep it that way because majority of my family seem to be allergic

8) DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES

nope! I have a couple beauty spots on my hands and face but thats kinda it

9) DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES

not really but if I've been told to smile then its 200% dead inside

10) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE

i find many things annoying

11)DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK

only when i go up and down stairs, but i also try to make sure i step with each foot equally (if that makes sense) and i step on only certain colour tiles when im bored

12) HAVE YOU EVER PEED IN THE WOODS

the real question is have i ever been in the woods? both answers are no

13) HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS

refer to question 12

14)ummmm idk what this question is meant to be curse you Lin

15)DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS

nope, the idea weirds me out

16) HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK

none, this week and in general

17) WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED

one person and a long yet smol doggo size

18) WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK

Eddie from the Rocky Horror Picture Show has been stuck in my head for the whole week so yeah i guess that

19)IS IT OKAY FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK

HeLL YEAH DUDE HAVE YOU SEEN RAMI MALEK IN PINK

SKSKSKSKS END MY LIFE

but yeah, anyone can wear anything they want to wear (although a suit made out of meat might not be wise)

20) DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS

dudeeeee scooby doo and tom and jerry are my jam I watch them on the regular (among other things)

21)WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE MOVIE

uhhm idkkkkk I tend to repress bad movies sksksk

22)WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME

idk shove it in the closet ig at least it will be hidden behind my sexuality

23)WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER

I usually only drink before or after but ig water??? cooldrink if I'm in a restaurant

24)WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN

depends on the nug

25)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD

How dare you assume i only have one favourite

tbh it depends cos i love pizza and pasta and stuff but then i cannot live with my granny's curries ksksmks

26) WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE

borhap, sing street, rhps, the natm movies, the harry potter movies, any mcu movies

27)LAST PERSON YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU

ahhahahahahahha bold of you to assume anyone wants to do that

28) WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT

nope but I was a catrobat which is basically my preschools acrobatics team that was actually really terrible

29)WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE

nahh m8

30) WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER

this week for a transactional task at school (It was in Afrikaans and I got a C skskskks)

31)CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL IN A CAR

omg no

32)EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET

not old enough to drive!

33)EVER RAN OUT OF GAS

my parents never have for as long as i can remember

34)WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE KINDA SANDWHICH

cheese because I am actually John Deacon

35)BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST

MUFFINS!!!!

36)WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME

school nights its 11pm otherwise i dont have one lol

37)ARE YOU LAZY

YES BUT MY LAZINESS MAKES ME ANXIOUS OOF

38)WHEN YOU WERE A KID WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN

we dont celebrate that here but i rly want to it seems fun!

39)WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN

Ram, which is really cool because im an Aries, so I'm sheep squared

40)HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK

English, Afrikaans (at a basic highschool level), I could speak very vERY basic isiZulu when I was younger but I'm not sure about now, I know a bit of French and Telugu, and I'm gonna start learning Hindi soon!!

41) DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS

nee

42) WHICH ARE BETTER, LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS

i didn't play much with legos and i have no idea what the second one is rip

43)ARE YOU STUBBORN

to an extent

44)WHO IS BETTER, LENO OR LETTERMAN

I kept reading Leno as Lenin ffs

45)EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS

I watch them occasionally with my granny, but I don't keep up with them very well (Kasamh Se is my shit tho)

46)ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS

no, im afraid of falling in general tho

47) DO YOU SING IN THE CAR

My dad and I bop frequently to Never Gonna Give You Up in the car, and also classic bollywood songs (we have even learnt the choreography for some)

48)DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER

i perform

49) DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR

well theres not exactly much space

50)EVER USED A GUN

nope

51)LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER

not sure

52)DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY

most are but thats why i like them

53) IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL

we don't celebrate because we're not Christian (we still eat a lot and exchange presents tho), but it can get stressful if we have to visit extended family, mostly because my extended family loves to insult everything about me so thats great!

54)EVER EAT A PIEROGI

not i good sir

55) FAVOURITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE

never had one, it doesnt appeal to me

56) OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID

a vet

57)DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS

i am a ghost

58)EVER HAD A DEJA-VU FEELING

not that i remember

59)DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY

yes, I take a multi vitamin, a vitamin D pill because I'm vitamin D deficient, and im not sure if this is a vitamin or not but i take evening primrose oil so that im not outwardly a bitch due to pms

60)DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS

i wear slipper socks, because my doggo got jealous of my doggie slippers and murdered them in cold blood

61)DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE

i have one and rarely use it because i forget it exists

62)WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED

a random shirt and pants, though ive been known to kick pants off (ive been doing that since birth), occasionally i manage to get the matching pj set

63)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT

ive unfortunately never been to a concert before

64)WALMART TARGET OR KMART

ive never seen any of these stores in my country

65)NIKE OR ADIDAS

i own neither

66) CHEETOS OR FRITOS

neither

67)PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS

Peanuts because thats my doggos name!

68) EVER HEARD OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN

no sorry

69)EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS

i went to a bhangra class for about a year, and we performed for our parents at the end of that year (i was in one of the few groups that didnt have to dance in lehengas thank goodness)

70)IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE

YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING

probably something creative, but I don't mind as long as they're happy with what they're doing and its not harming others!

71)CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE

yep

72)EVER WON A SPELLING BEE

never entered one, having to spell out loud makes me anxious

73)HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY

i think so

74)OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS

nope

75)OWN A RECORD PLAYER

i wish

76)DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE

my granny burns incense while I'm at school because my mom and i both get really sick when its just been lit and the smell is strong. Going to the temple is a damn nightmare because of it

77)EVER BEEN IN LOVE

no, too busy fangirling

78)WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT

oof a long list

Queen, Twenty One Pilots, Waterparks, Frank Iero and the Future Violents (ffs fronk stop changin the name), Panic! at the Disco...to name a few

79)WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW

refer to question 63

80)HOT TEA OR COLD TEA

both

81)TEA OR COFFEE

coffee

82)SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES

sugar cookies

83)CAN YOU SWIM WELL

i wouldn't drown, but im no professional either

84)CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE

im doing it right now

85)ARE YOU PATIENT

eh

86)DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING

I've only ever been to Hindi,Tamil and Telugu weddings and lemme tell you 90% of the time bands flop at those weddings because they can't sing the classics without failing miserably, so DJs are generally better. However, in that case, if a band can perform those songs, then I'd prefer a band ig

87)EVER WON A CONTEST

yep, a couple of reading contests

88)HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY

nope, not planning on it

89)WHICH ARE BETTER, BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES

dont like olives rip

90)CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET

i can knit!

in fact, my friends and i are so cool that we're in our schools knitting club (which besides myself, @grandfunnyemopainter and @imjustabruh , only has 2 other members)

91)BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE

lounge or study/library

92)DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED

i guess, its not on my goal list tho

93)IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED

no

94)WHO WAS YOUR HIGHSCHOOL CRUSH

currently in highschool, and in love with the borhap cast, sebastian stan, stephanie beatriz and band members (theres more but yeah)

95)DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY

nope, i have only two ways to deal, be a total pushover or a total bitch

96)DO YOU HAVE KIDS

nope

97)DO YOU WANT KIDS

kind of undecided, but i do want more pets

98)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR

Dark Blue

99)DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW

my dog, shes been ignoring me for about four hours now because I stayed at school for an extra hour (for knitting club!)

@softspaceboibrian @roger-taylor-owns-my-wigg @im-inlovewithmycar do it cowards

[thedumbdeputy]

I posted 1,642 times in 2021

121 posts created (7%)

1521 posts reblogged (93%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 12.6 posts.

I added 582 tags in 2021

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Introduction

This is my little introduction about me, my page and my interest!

Check me out

Name: I go by X or Rae

Gender: Genderfluid

Pronouns: Prefer They/Them, also go by She/Her

Sexuality: Heterosexual, yknow men

Fandoms: Far Cry 5, Far Cry New Dawn, Red Dead 2, Green Day, Furry(?)

Interest: Art, Music, Vulture Culture, Crow Core, Gardening, Cooking and Baking, Nature, Witch stuff (specifically Druidry)

Chaotic Lawful

Lonely but uh

I like to do art, I don't have any commissions because I like to keep my art lighthearted and fun but maybe one day I will start them. If you are interested in any of my art I am always open to request and will draw almost anything within my fandoms

If you're interested in any of my characters and their stories and family I have a huge family tree connecting my Red Dead oc's all the way to my Fc5 ones so go check that out

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33 notes • Posted 2021-04-16 14:52:02 GMT

#4

My mom just saw the pictures of Jacob seed i have as my background and she was like "whos that" and i said a video game character and she said "hes not real right" and i said no and she said "cause hes nice looking"

I know mom, i know

34 notes • Posted 2021-04-29 19:32:06 GMT

#3

How you're supposed to beat jacobs boss fight: "Go up the mountain and fight him up there"

How I beat jacobs boss fight: *shot him with a roclet launcher behind a rock*

50 notes • Posted 2021-03-15 14:29:08 GMT

#2

My Headcannons for Jacob and his S/O

Im bored and was reading so heres some of my personal HC's, you dont have to agree. Just sharing

Actually enjoys cuddling, like he acts like he doesnt but when theyre alone hes all over them

Not a fan of PDA but if no one is around he will hold their hand or if they're in the woods he may hold them very close or pick them up

If he see's someone getting a little too friendly he will become very posessive of them and make it known they are his and his is theirs

Likes to mark them and make it known to everyone

Good at comforting them when something is wrong but doesnt know howto accept when they comfort him

They still try anyways though and it eventually gets through, just takes longer

They're his stress relief, after a long day he just wants to be with them cause they feel like the only good thing in his life

Hes always worried about them and cares for them alot

If theyre a very soft S/O he always wants to protect them and keep them safe even if he didnt like that when they first met

If theyre a strong S/O he is always very proud when they take things into their own hands but still wants to keep them safe cause he's soft boi

He can be very rough and tough or gentle and loving depending on his or his S/O's mood

Very good with his hands in more ways than one

Enjoys going out into the woods and exploring with them, normally brings the judges along as well

Doesn't always know how to express his love but tries too

Doesn't know how to accept the love his given cause hes never experienced it but slowly learns how to

Generally very confident and, of course, strong but gets nervous the first time him and his S/O get to bed

Worried what they'll think of his scars they can't see

Maybe I'll start writing again but if any of y'all sre interested ill write headcannons for anyone requested

91 notes • Posted 2021-04-16 00:02:53 GMT

#1

That moment when you keep thinking about men who are emotionally damaged and just a little too old for you

110 notes • Posted 2021-09-08 01:04:54 GMT

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[artislifeevans]

Chat Para → Say No To This

Tagging → Sam Evans and Mercedes Jones featuring Mila 

Time Frame → March 15th around noon … 

 Location →Evans Enterprises in New York 

General Notes →Mercedes goes to visit Sam and they try to end things between them.

I wish I could say that was the last time I said that last time, it became a pastime A month into this endeavor I received a letter From a Mr. James Reynolds, even better, it said Dear Sir, I hope this letter finds you in good health And in a prosperous enough position to put wealth In the pockets of people like me down on their luck You see, that was my wife who you decided to (fuuuu) Uh oh, you made the wrong sucker a cuckold So time to pay the piper for the pants you unbuckled And hey, you can keep seein' my whore wife If the price is right, if not I'm telling your wife I hid the letter and I raced to her place Screamed how could you in her face, she said No, sir Half dressed, apologetic, a mess, she looked pathetic, she cried Please don't go, sir So was your whole story a setup I don't know about any letter (stop crying God dammit, get up) I didn't know any better (I am ruined) Please don't leave me with him helpless (I am helpless how could I do this?) Just give him what he wants and you can have me (I don't want you, I don't want you) Whatever you want, if you pay You can stay (Lord, show me how to say no to this) I don't know how to say no to this 'Cause the situation's helpless And her body's screaming, hell, yes No, show me how to say no to this (whoa) How can I say no to this There is nowhere I can go (go, go, go) When her body's on mine I do not say (no) yes Say no to this (Yes) say no to this (no) (Yes) say no to this (no) (Yes) say no to this (no) Say no to this I don’t say no to this There is nowhere I can go (go, go, go) So? Nobody needs to know- “Say No To This” From Hamilton

Sam: had been in office all day trying to get his presentation ready to show to Mr.Wong and their investors. This was probably one of the biggest deals that he had to prepare for in a while and it had to go well. Because if he didn’t he was putting his family in more danger then they already were. He was suppose to have lunch with Mila, and honestly Sam was looking forward to it because it had been awhile since they have spent time togetherness. But at the same time all he could think about was Mercedes was doing. He was pulled out of his thoughts at the sound of his assistant beeping in. “Mr.Evans.. Ms.Parker is here to see you” said Kendra. Sam sighed looking down at his work load there was no way he could go to lunch for two hours. “Okay let her in”he mumbled, standing up from his cheer as she walked in “Hey baby.. um I can’t go to lunch.. I have all this shit to do. An-” he said seeing the disappointment in her face “I’m sorry. I have to work.”

Mila: was really looking forward to having lunch with Sam. She had so many ideas to show him for planning the wedding, especially after talking with Charice and she was eager to show him. But as soon as she walked into his office, she could tell he was busy and that meant he was stressed. She tried to hide her disappointment but before she could he was apologizing. “I know you’re busy and I’m trying really hard to be understanding about that I just… I feel like I haven’t seen you. You work late, you aren’t home most weekends. I mean last weekend I didn’t even see you for days and I know, I know Mr. Wong is an asshole but I dont feel like I’m a priority…"

Mercedes: had to end things. She decided it after talking to Charice. Hearing how excited Mila was about the wedding and how she wanted to include everyone Sam cared about, it was eating her alive because she was getting in the way of that. She loved Sam. So did Mila. But sleeping with him wasnt going to change the fact that he was marrying someone else. No matter how much fun they had and no matter how she felt about him, she needed to end things. Which was why she needed to talk with Sam. They couldn’t keep this up and she knew if she suggested they meet in private, at her place, she wouldn’t have the courage to push him away. And right now that was what she needed to do. Mercedes walked out of the elevator and headed towards the front desk. She smiled thinly at the receptionist, drumming her nails against the desk. “Hi. Is Mr. Evans in? I’m here to see him. Um I’m Mercedes,” she said shakily.

Sam: felt his guilt hit him hard. He hated seeing her so upset and more importantly he hated that he was hurting her in the worst way possible. Yes he loved Mercedes with everything in him. But he wasn’t good for her, she deserved so much more. And he could see that it was time to let her go completely. Sure it would be hard but was for the best, he couldn’t do this to her anymore. Sam walked over toward Mila, cupping her face “I’m so sorry baby.. you are a priority.. it’s just…” he sighed, knowing that he couldn’t tell her what was going on with Wong. He didn’t want to worry her. “I promise.. tomorrow my day will be all about you and our wedding. We can do whatever you want.” He suggested. Kendra smiled up at Mercedes and nodded “Well he is with his fiancee right now. But I will see if it’s okay for you to go in.” She said reaching over to buzz Sam “Mr.Evans.. Mercedes is here to see you.” She called into the mic. Sam tenses up and not quickly telling himself to get a grip “oh okay! Tell her to come in” he replied. Kendra hung up the mic “You Can go in now.”

Mila: hated quilting him into anything. She knew he was busy and she didn’t want to whine but she also didnt want him to think him completely ignoring her was okay. She looked up at him as he cupped her face and sighed. “Babe don’t make a promise you cant keep,” she said with a frown. She winced when the intercom came on and smiled because she’d been wanting to talk to Mercedes, she just hadn’t found the time. “We can pick this up when you get home okay?” she whispered, standing in the food of her toes and kissing Sam.

Mercedes: flinched when Kendra mentioned Mila was there. She went to tell her never mind but before she could, she could already hear Sam saying it was okay. Mercedes nervously walked into the office, feeling her heart drop when she walked in as the engaged couple was kissing. It broke her heart but she needed to see it. She needed to see that they were in love and that she couldnt get in the way of that. “Sorry. I didnt know you were here Mila. I can come back,” she said with a shrug.

Sam: sighed “I-I can keep this promise.. I just have to move somethings around. That’s all”he said realizing he was making things worst. He hate disappointing her or making her feel like he didn’t care. He was glad that Mercedes Was there because they needed to talk and with Mila about to leave this would be the perfect time. He looked over as Mercedes open the door and smiled nervously “Hey.. no come in.“ he said motioning her to come.

Mila: shook her head as Mercedes spoke. "No I was just leaving. Actually I’m glad youre here. I had a question to ask you,” she said glancing back at Sam. “Sam doesnt know this but I am actually one bridesmaid short and I know youre more his friend than you are mine but if it hadn’t been for you, I wouldn’t have given him another chance. So I was wondering if you’d be my last bridesmaid?”

Mercedes: honestly wanted to leave. She felt uncomfortable and she knew she’d intruded on an important conversation. She started to feel even more uncomfortable as Mila asked her to be her bridesmaid. “What?” she asked, shocked. She suddenly felt dirty all over again. Here was this woman who was kind to her, looked at her like she was some kinda old friend and now was asking her to be her bridesmaid. Mercedes felt like a bitch compared to Mila because here she was, sleeping with her fiance. “I.. Uh…” She glanced at Sam before turning back to Mila. “Honestly that is so sweet of you. Really. I just… I wouldn’t feel right. I mean I wouldn’t wanna take someone’s spot…”

Sam: was shocked that Mila wanted Mercedes to be her bridesmaid and honestly he thought it was a bit weird since he was once engaged to Mercedes. And besides he knew if Mercedes was there he didn’t he could get through the wedding “um honey. I don’t think..” he trailed off nervously not wanting Mila to get suspicious. He glanced over at Mercedes seeing just how uncomfortable she was and he wanted to save her from this but he didn’t know how with out making Mila feel bad or hurt her feelings. “You don’t need a lot of brides maids I mean it’s a small wedding”. He pointed out.

Mila: waved her hand. “No you wouldn’t be taking anyone’s spot. And I know it might be weird because you two were engaged before but… You guys are friends and you saved our relationship Mercedes. We wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you.” She looked up at Sam and shook her head. “Sam you have one more groomsmen than I do and I’m not gonna tell you to choose between your friends because I couldn’t make one more bridesmaid. Besides the only person in our wedding party on the bridal side from your side is Allie. And I’m sorry but I cant take no for an answer,” she laughed. “Please Cedes? At least say you’ll think about it?” She glanced down at her watch seeing that if she wanted to grab a lunch and make it back to class she had to go now. “I should get going. Let me know what your decision is okay? Charice is designing the dresses and she needs final measurements and everything. Just… Let me know. I’ll see you at home,” she said pecking Sam’s lips once more before leaving the two friends in his office.

Mercedes: felt like she had swallowed a frog. This wasnt happening. This all felt so surreal and all she wanted to do was beg for forgiveness, especially after seeing him overjoyed Mila was about this wedding. She nodded her head tensely as the woman spoke, practically begging her to be in her wedding. What was she supposed to say. She couldn’t say no without raising some suspicion. But she couldn’t very well be in the man she loved’s wedding. Mercedes waited until Mila was out of the office before letting a breath out she didnt realize she was holding. “Oh my god,” she gasped, finding it difficult to breathe. She placed her hand over her chest and dropped her head, gasping for air. She hadnt had a panic attack since leaving the hospital but now it was like the worst one she could remember. “I c-can’t..” She was trying to say that she couldn’t breathe but the words wouldnt come out. She stumbled over to a window and opened it, the cold air hitting her face and filling her lungs. She inhaled deeply, steadying herself as tears filled her eyes. “We’re gonna kill her Sam,” she turned around and spoke. “She’s gonna find out and it’s gonna destroy her.” The wind blew her hair out of her face and she sniffled. “We cant do this anymore… I cant be the reason that your marriage fails before it even starts. I’m sorry… I can’t…” she trailed off, walking over to the door.

Sam: could tell by the look on Mila’s face she wasn’t going to take no for an answer. He sighed softly glancing between them as Mila spoke. Mercedes literally look as if she was going to pass out. Sam smiled weakly when Mila kissed him, nodding his head “okay..” he said watching her leave. He was getting ready to apologize to Mercedes but before he could she was already in freak out mode. He raised an eyebrow at her comment about not wanting this affair anymore “You don’t?” He asked as his eyes followed her to the window. “Cedes.. I can’t either” he said but he was pretty sure she couldn’t hear him over her freaking out. He wanted to talk about this and assure her he felt the same way. But she was already trying to leave. Sam quickly grabbed her hand, turning her around to face him “Hey! It’s okay… I agree.. I can’t do this anymore either.. I can’t hurt her.. she’s been great and if we don’t stop it’s gonna be the end of all of us” he said softly.

Mercedes: spun around when Sam grabbed her hand and quickly pulled away. A part of her was happy that Sam agreed with her. She wanted him to but another part wanted him to fight for them. She wanted him to tell her that she was all he wanted and that he was going to tell Mila as soon as possible. But it dawned on her that Sam didnt want her. She was sex and that was all. She was a pleasant distraction that just happened to spread her legs for him. She felt nausea take over and took a giant step towards the door. “Good… we’re agreed then. I wont use you to forget my bullshit and you wont use me for an easy lay or whatever the hell you were using me for. You got me out of your system and now you know what you missed after these years and I know too… goodbye Sam,” she said, leaving the office before another word could be spoken. She practically rushed to the elevator, jamming her finger against the button as she fought tears. “Stupid, stupid, stupid!” she hissed at herself as she got on the elevator. Of course he didnt want her. Why would he? He had Mila who was perfect and she was just fucked up, so fucked up. He didnt need the work. Mila was easy, she was everything anyone could want. And Cedes was a mess. She pressed the closed door button and felt herself shake as a sob escaped her lips.

Sam: looked down between them sadly. He loved Mercedes he really did and everything in him was telling him to tell her that. But he couldn’t, he had to think about what was best and he wasn’t the best for her. He licked his lips and nodded his head in agreement. What she said was Partially true. Being with her helped him forget about his problems, but what she didn’t know was that he was also with her because he loved her. He winced at her words hating the way that he came out “Shortie I-” he tried to say but before he could she was already out the door, heading to the elevator to leave. He didn’t want things to be like this, he wanted to make sure that they still could be friends because he couldn’t live without her in his life. He thought maybe he should give her space. But he knew if he did that the next time they spoke things would be awkward and he didn’t want that between them. So he grabbed his coat walking out of the office “Kendra I will be back in an hour” he rushed out, running down the hallway. He could see the door closing and started to run even faster “Shortie” he called after her.

Mercedes: could barely see through the tears in her eyes. She always thought she’d avoid this pain if she never was in a relationship again but here she was, feeling like her heart was cracking and her ability to breathe was leaving her. She placed a hand on her stomach, inhaling deeply as the doors got ready to close. She could do this. She could live without him. She’d done it before. She just didnt want to. She looked up, hearing her nickname and frowned in confusion as Sam ran to the elevator, stopping it just before it closed fully. “What’re you doing?” she asked, her voice cracking as she wiped at her tears angrily.

Sam: finally got to the elevator stopping the door before it could close. He slide in, hearing the door shut behind him. He turned to look at her, seeing the tears running down her face “Y-You’re crying” he whispered, feeling like his stomach was dropping. He didn’t know why she was crying, they ended things as far as the affair went, but she would always be his best friend. And it was killing him to see her cry “Shortie” he said sadly seeing the anger in her eyes “please don’t be mad at me. I can’t handle it” he said honestly reaching over to thumb away her tears. “Please talk to me..”

Mercedes: shook her head. “I’m not, I promise,” she said, wiping at her eyes shakily. She didnt want him to see her like this. She already felt pathetic as it was and crying in front of the person she wanted more than anything after he’d just said they shouldnt be together was a low she didnt want to reach, even if she had agreed with him. “I just.. I want you happy. That’s all I want for you. i want you happy and Mila makes you happy so…” She sniffled as he wiped away her tears and nodded. “I could never be mad at you. You’re my best friend Sam. I’m mad at me. Just me. I promise. Seriously, go back to work. You looked busy… I’m fine I swear. I’m okay.”

Sam: smiled sadly, knowing good and well she wasn’t okay. She could lie to anyone else but he knew her, just like she knew him and she was far from okay. “I know you want me to be happy and I want that for you too. You have to know that.” He said not wanting to leave her like this. He needed more time with her, so he could figure out what was wrong. So he turned around pressing the emergency stop button. Jerking toward her when the elevator stopped. He reached out to her to keep himself from pushing hard into her. He looked into her brown eyes, seeing the tears that were threatening to fall from them. He knew he should be this close to her not after they both promised to stop this. But he just wanted her to be okay. He swallowed thickly, running his fingers down her face “You know you don’t have to be so strong with me Cedes.. you can tell me what you want or what you need and I’ll do my damnest to make it happen”.

Mercedes: opened her mouth to tell him that she was fine, one final time but before she could, he pressed the emergency stop button, halting the elevator in placing. She felt her heart skip a bit as he nearly fell into her at the sudden motion of the elevator and looked into his eyes, her cheeks growing warm and her chest rising and falling quickly. He was so close that if she just angled her head a little bit more, they would kiss. But they couldnt, they’d just stopped whatever this was and she needed to have a little bit more self control. “Oh but I do,” she whispered, trying not to fall under his spell once more. “Sam what I want, you cant give me…” She let out a shaky breath and leaned into his hand, her lips grazing against his callous fingers. She wondered how many paintings he’d done with this hand. How many sketches had he started and torn out of his sketch book out of frustration with this hand. How much paint had covered this hand that was so lovingly on her cheek. She reached up, taking his hand from her face and placing it over her heart. “You once told me your heart only beat for me,” she whispered, staring at his chest. “You said no matter what it would always beat for me. That I was the reason that you got up in the mornings to face this awful world. That I was the reason that you didnt just drive off the road sometimes,” she scoffed with a shake of her head. “You said before I broke up with you when my dad found out about us and I never understood. I never… I never got it until right now. Until I realized that I wake up happier on days when I know I’ll see you. I think better when I see you. Hell, I write better songs when I see you.” She finally looked into his green eyes and felt a tear drop from her own. “I didnt realize it until now that my heart beats for you.”

Sam: didn’t understand what she meant. He didn’t think she had feelings for him again, sure she told him a few times that she would always care for him. But he didn’t think it was on a level of falling for him again. But he was wrong, he was dead wrong. She loved him, just as much as he loved her and it made him feel like shit. Because he didn’t think he was good enough for her and he didn’t want to hurt her again.But from the looks of it he hurt her anyways. “Cedes I-” he trailed off, closing his eyes at her words. He did love her and he did feel as if his heart only beated for her. That has never changed and it never will, but he didn’t think he was right for her. He looked down as she placed his hand over chest. “It does” he muttered feeling himself on the verge of just spilling everything to her, his feelings, his love for her, everything. He stepped closer to her, running his thumb over her softly lips. Damn it to hell if he didn’t love her with everything in him. He felt his own tears forming, not knowing what to say or what do at this point. All he knew was that he wanted to kiss her. “I’m not worthy of you” mumbled, leaning down to kiss her lips softly, feeling her how fast her heart was pounding against his hand.

Mercedes: went to tell him that he was wrong. Whatever he thought about himself and whatever he though about how good enough he was for her, he was wrong. He was right for her. He was the only person right for her and if he didnt believe it then she would prove him wrong. She met him halfway as he kissed her, pushing upward as he leaned down to kiss her. As horrible as it was and as much as she knew this was wrong, this was all she wanted. All she wanted was to stay right here with Sam and never leave. She could feel her tears falling from her eyes as they kissed and she brought her hands to rest on his cheeks, pulling him closer.

Sam: knew this was wrong and that he should move away from her. Especially since he now knew how much she felt about him. He wanted her, just like she wanted him, but he didn’t deserve her. She deserve so much better than he could give him. He moved closer to her, running his hand down her body, lifting her up without stopping the kiss. The more they kissed the more passionate it became. He was kissing her as if his life depended on it. He couldn’t allow himself to tell her that he loved her but maybe she could feel it from his kiss. He broke the kiss, running his lips down her neck as mindlessly grind his hips against her “I need you” he whispered against her skin.

Mercedes: let him kiss her like there was no tomorrow. Her head felt light like she was floating each time their lips passionately glided against one another. She sighed heavily, trying to catch her breath as he broke the kiss and trailed down her neck. Her head lifted with a small groan of encouragement before she nodded. She didn’t ware that this was an elevator. She didn’t care that this was wrong. She wanted to be selfish. She wanted him for herself.

Sam: continue to assault Mercedes neck as he ran his hands to the hem of her shirt yanking it off her. His conscious was telling him to stop, this wasn’t right. But he fought against it, he couldn’t stop, even if he tried. He locked eyes with her, never looking away while, he dropped the shirt on the ground, taking off his own doing the same. He cupped her face, searching her eyes for a second. All he could see in them was love, and he so badly wanted to tell her that he felt the same. But before he could push himself to do it, he was quickly reminded why he couldn’t. Sam leaned down to kiss her lips heatedly but gentle, running his hands down to the he buttons or her pants, to unbutton them.

Mercedes: was aware that her shirt was coming off. She was aware that Sam was kissing her all over, making her head fuzzy. She was even aware when he reached for her jeans and started to do that but all she could do was close her eyes and rest her head against the elevator wall. She wanted this so badly and she was sure she’d feel the guilt when this was over but right now all she wanted was to feel all of him. She moved her own hands down his bare chest and started to undo is belt blindly as they kissed. His slacks came undone with a quick tug and she pulled him closer, her body aching for his touch.

Sam: tilted his head, deepened the kiss, gently probing his tongue past Mercedes lips, brushing the tip against her warm tongue. His hands skimmed down her neck, running over her shoulders, traveling down the side of her breasts before resting them firmly on her soft hips. He grunted softly against her mouth as she pulled him closer to her. Sam usually wouldn’t have sex like this, don’t get him wrong he likes being adventurous but he thought they would be better off in a bed. He just always thought that it was a quick way for a guy to get laid and he didn’t want to ever treat a woman like that. But they were in an elevator and there was no way he was going to stop touching her and he from the way Mercedes was acting she would kill him if he did. Sam ran his hands down to her pants, pulling them down a little. “You’re a bad influence on me Jones” he breathed, kissing the side of her throat. He slid his hand in her pants, moving it between her hot thighs, rubbing his fingers over her wet slit. His thick fingers slowly teasing her puffed lips apart to brush over her slick clit. He pushed his thumb down hard on her throbbing clit, rubbing the nub in slow teasing circles. He kissed the corner of her jawline, reaching up with his free hand to squeeze firmly to one of her beautiful breasts. He groaned against her neck as he worked his thumb quicker over her clit. As much as Sam loved to tease her, he wanted to taste her and bring her pleasure. His mouth moved down to her collarbone slowly traveled his lips lower down her torso as he dropped to his knees. He stopped his movements long enough to pull the rest of her pants and underwear off, jerking her forward a little as he did. He looked up to look at her giving her a grin, he could literally smell her arousal from where he was, and it was making his dick twitch. He growled against her hips, he moving his mouth right in front of her hot cunt. His tongue flicked out, grazing it over her damp slit. “Mmm.” He licked his lips, savoring the sweet taste of her juices.

Mercedes: could only manage a small scoff as he whispered into her neck. “Me?” she breathed, her words being cut off by his hand in between her legs. Her eyes instantly closed at his teasing fingers and she reached over to grip the corner of the elevator, her head against the wall. She let out a small hiss, trying her hardest not to fidget, but soon failing as his thumb started to move faster. Hearing him groan in her ear damn near made her knees give out as she tried to catch her breath. “Oh god,” she breathed, licking her lips. She could feel him moving down her body, his lips kissing a trail down until he pulled her jeans fully off. She knew what he was going to do but she didnt think he was actually going to do it until she felt his warm tongue right where she wanted him most. She gasped, her hand sliding off the wall and landing in Sam’s hair, gripping it tightly. “Shhh,” she hissed, her eyes fluttering open and closed. “Dont… stop…”

Sam: Listening to Mercedes moan, letting out a sigh each time his tongue and finger touched her clit, made Sam’s dick twitch hard in his pants. He groaned deep in his chest when her fingernails pulled his hair . She could get as rough as she wanted with him. He locked up at her as he continue to pleasure her with his mouth drinking in the sight of the woman, writhing above him, her breasts rising up and down with her panted breaths. His calloused thumb was still rubbing her damp clit in fast, vigorous circles. He didn’t want to stop as he watched her glistening arousal glaze over her warm folds. Sam grinned hearing Mercedes’ rushed out words of don’t stop, enjoying every little sound she was making from his touch. He leaned in closer, breathing hotly over her pussy before his tongue licked both sides of her puffy lips. He wanted to tell her how amazing she tastes, how after all these years he still couldn’t get enough of her. But Sam knew if he stopped or try to tease her Mercedes would get annoyed. He finally slipped a thick digit into her entrance. “Fuck…” He groaned as she tighten around his finger. He slowed the rough circles on her clit, now taking his time to push the swollen bud back and forth while he thrusted his finger deep into her wet heat.

Mercedes: felt feverish. Her body shivered quickly, her eyes rolling to the back of her head as she let out a few strangled moans and dug her fingers through his hair. She let out a small gasp at the introduction of his fingers, her desperation growing. They were going to fuck in this elevator unless one of them stopped it and frankly, she didn’t want to stop it. She bit down on her bottom lip and moved her hips in sync with his fingers. “Ugh,” she groaned, feeling her orgasm building. She adjusted a bit, to feel more and winced when Sam’s fingers hit her spot.

Sam: slid his hands up to Mercedes’ thighs, feeling her them shaking against his cheeks, as he continue to work her over with his mouth and his tongue. She had to be close to her climax just from the way she was loudly moaning. Sounding as if she was going to burst in any minute. He moved his head away from her pussy, adding a second fingers into her entrance, looking up to watch her as he increased his fingers, making a come here motion. Sam wanted to make Mercedes crash hard into her orgasm. He knew that the security would eventually see that the elevator isn’t working and will more likely call from the speaker. But he didn’t care he wanted to finish each at he started. While he kept moving his fingers in and out of her tight hole, he took one of her leg with his free hand, resting them over his shoulders so he could have better access to her pussy. He sucked roughly on her throbbing clit, grinding his face between her slick folds holding her tight so she would fall over. He was going to make her cum first with his mouth, hand and then he was going to make her cum with his dick.

Mercedes: arched off the wall once her leg was draped over his shoulder. Her breathing became labored and she stared up at the ceiling of the elevator, blinking quickly as her orgasm crept up her spine. The faster his mouth and fingers moved, the closer she got to falling over the edge. She hissed as he sucked roughly on her clit. “G-gentle,” she inhaled, finding her breathing become shakier and shakier before she tumbled over the edge with a slow howl. “Oooohhh,” she cried, dropping her head.

Sam: couldn’t help but chuckle against Mercedes clit at her words, removing his mouth from her, letting his fingers bring her over the edge. He thrust a few more hard strokes into her pussy, smirking as she hit her orgasm head on “good girl” he whispered. He pulled his wet fingers from her tight hole, dipped his fingers into his mouth, sucking her arousal clean off his fingers. “Mmm.” He licked his lips gently putting her leg down, standing up completely.. While Mercedes was coming down from her high, Sam unzipped his pants, pulling it down along with his boxers. He wanted to ask her if she was okay but he knew that would be a stupid question and that it would ruin the moment they were having. So he simply moved closer to her and without saying a word, he wrapped her leg around his waist using his free hand to wrap around his dick holding it at her entrance. He kissed her lips softly, moving his hips back a bit before thrusting his dick deep into her “shit!” He growled against her cheek. He could feel her walls clenching around his member already. He slid his hands to her ass, squeezing hard as he lifted her off her feet.. He pressed her back to the elevator wall as he began thrusting hard into her into her.

Mercedes: felt like she was floating and the only thing that brought her back was Sam’s lips on hers. She breathed sharply through her nose as he entered her unexpectedly. Her body sang as they connected, his warm breath on her cheek. She wrapped her arms around his neck as her feet left the ground and swirled her hips in match to his. Every time they were together it just felt like it got better and better and while she wanted to come once more, the rails on the elevator were digging into her back and distracting her. “Wait,” she breathed, climbing out of his arms. She was silent as she spun around and brushed her hair over her shoulder. She took his hands and placed them on her waist, lightly bending over.

Sam: was so wrapped up in the feel of Mercedes pussy wrapped around his dick that he didn’t even hear her tell him to hold on. It was only until she climbed out of his arms that he realize that something was wrong. He gently pulled out of her as she turned around, adjusting herself before grabbing his hands to place them on her hips. He moved closer to her, bending his legs as he entered inside of her once again. Sam pumped his hips hard against her bare skin, thrusting forward into her heat. He hold on to her tightly, jerking her forward and then back onto his dick. He groaned in pleasure each time she sucked him back into her warmth. “shit” he muttered.

Mercedes: licked her lips and closed her eyes, her hands clutching the rail of the elevator as she used it for balance. A moan escaped her lips as she squeezed her eyes shut even more, her breath shaky with ecstasy. Her body was already buzzing and she knew it wouldn’t be long before she completely fell apart. Just as the thought crossed her mind she felt her thighs tighten instinctively before she dropped her head with a growl. “Fuck!” she hissed. This was dirty and wrong but she liked the way she felt. She wouldn’t admit it But being Sam’s dirty little secret was better to her than being nothing to him at all.

Sam: squeezed Mercedes waist harder when a loud moan escaped from her soft lips as he continue to fuck her from behind. His dick felt so good buried in her pussy, hugged tightly by her smooth walls as he pumped in and out of them. His hips jerked into hers faster on instinct. He a loud grunt came out of his mouth. “SHIT” he groaned running his hand up Mercedes’ body cupping around her throat. Sam raising her up to where her back was against his chest, kissing down her her neck, nipping at her skin as he did. Sam couldn’t help but think about the fact that he was engaged to be married yet here he was having sex with his ex fiancée. Being with Mercedes yet again in this was was a reminder that with her he always felt an unparalleled closeness to her, holding her securely against his body like this, their bodies fit together like pieces of a puzzle. And some would ask if this is the perfect for him why doesn’t he just end this and be with Mercedes. Hell he was thinking the same thing. But then he remembered exactly why that could never happened. He couldn’t allow himself to go back down that road with Mercedes. Especially with his habits of always hurting her, unintentionally, but still some way he hurts her. He was pulled out of his thoughts from the feel of Mercedes leaning back on his dick “fuck” he huffed moving his hips at faster place, pushing her harder on his dick. The way she would go down his dick at a fast pace, tightening around him tightly caused a loud whimper “Cedes”he breathed hard against her skin. Sam could tell from the way she was moaning loudly that she was so close to her orgasm and if he was truly honestly he was too. But he was trying to hold on, long enough for her to cum first. But if she kept pumping her hips harder against him, he was going to lose.

Mercedes: could feel her hair covering her face as she dropped her head I’m pleasure. She moaned and writhed against Sam, her legs shaking as she pushed back against him. Her breathing was shaky and her heart was pounding as she got closer and closer to her release. She breathed Sam’s name and could feel her toes curl in her shoes as they continued to move in sync. She couldnt allow herself to think about how wrong this was or how she had lowered herself enough to have sex with her engaged ex in a stalled out elevator. All she wanted to think about was how Sam made her feel and right now he made her feel good.

Sam: moaned loudly feeling the constant, intense squeezing rhythms of Mercedes’ pussy around his dick made his green eyes roll back underneath his lids. Pumping his hips more diligently against hers, his orgasm was quickly approaching and he didn’t think he was gonna be able to hold back much longer. He ran his hand down Mercedes’s body until it reached her clit, running his thick fingers down her slit. He massaged her clit at the same paced of their hips, letting out a long heavy sigh. The pressure building between his legs, was more than he could bare at this point . He used is free hand to hold on to the rails of the elevator “fuck!” He choked out.

Mercedes: felt herself finally tumble over the edge as his fingers gingerly teased her. Her heart was pounding in her chest, her throat felt hoarse from moaning and her skin felt prickly from the heat coming off of her. She let out a screech and felt her body go limp as warmth burst from the center of her body all the way to her fingertips.

Sam: continued to massage her clit, while moving his dick deeper inside of her. It only took a few more thrusts before he slammed his lids closed and bucked his hips hard against her’s,cumming right along with her . “Fuuck!” He growled, leaning his body against hers, panting hard against her skin.

Mercedes: dropped her hands from the wall and felt her body go still as Sam finally came. Her head felt light and she wondered if maybe she was floating. This was what she always wanted to feel. She wanted to be close to Sam, to feel safe in his arms and floating. And if that meant being with him while he was engaged to someone else, then so be it. She’d spent her entire life doing what other people wanted her to do and right now, she was going to do what she wanted for once. She said she was going to take control of her life in 2017 and she was actually going to do it now. She wanted Sam and if this was the only way she could have him then so be it. She slowly stood up, her legs feeling like jelly. She really wished she’d thought this threw and brought a napkin because she was honestly a mess. It was worth it though just to have this moment with the man she loved. She pulled up her jeans, not bothering to buckle them and sighed, leaning against the wall. “God,” she breathed running a hand through her hair. “I guess you can say you had sex somewhere weird now.”

Sam: stood there for a seconded as he collected himself. He silently told himself that he knew he couldn’t stop sleeping with Mercedes, even though he knew he was wrong and that he should end it. But he loved her and at this point he was addicted and he couldn’t stop what they were doing. He sighed, stepping back a bit so he could pull his boxers and pants up, leaning down to grab his shirt. He chuckled nervously at her comment, buttoning up his shirt, tucking the hem inside of his pants “Yeah I guess so”.

Mercedes: watched Sam get dressed and bit down in her bottom lip. “Do you hate me now?” she whispered, feeling herself shake nervously. She hated how she constantly feared his rejection or that one day he’d end whatever they were doing, especially now that she felt so vulnerable. She knew she wanted him, even if he wasnt fully hers, she’d take it. But she didn’t know what he wanted. She never really knew what he wanted. “I’m not asking you to run away with me or something stupid like that but… I need you…”

Sam: was getting ready to fix his tie but stopped what he was doing, when she asked him if he hated her. He locked eyes with hers for the longest time and he hated that she wouldn’t even think for a second that he would hate her. He walked closer to her, running his fingers through her hair “Don’t ever ask me that again” he said softly shaking his head “I-I could never hate you Cedes.” He said honestly. He wanted so badly just to tell her how he felt about her, how much in love he was with her and how he never stopped loving her no matter how hard he tried. But she deserved better, but yet he couldn’t 100% let her go. He smiled sadly as she spoke, thinking what life would be like if they just picked up everything and left this life behind because right now it sounded like the best life ever. His heart was pounding so fast when she told him that she needed him. He looked deep into her brown eyes,“I-I need you too..” he whispered, running his thumb a crossed her beautiful face.

Mercedes: let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding as Sam touched her face and nodded at his words. It was a relief to know he wasn’t going to fight this. Whatever ‘this’ was. “Good,” she smiled softly. “If you want… I mean if you can. You should come over tonight? Sammy misses you.”

Sam: returned the smile and nodded “Well I usually sleep at the gallery on this day, just because I have to be there so early the tomorrow. But I can stay with you tonight.. I miss Sammy too and plus I want to be near you.” he said honestly, leaning down to kiss her lips.

Mercedes: smiled, standing on the tips of her toes to return the kiss. “Good because I was using Sammy as an excuse. I’ll even make dinner,” she said, earning a look. They both knew she couldn’t cook. “Okay I’ll order take away. Besides, you’ll need your energy.” She kissed him once more and licked her lips. “We should stop hogging the elevator. I’m sure people have been waiting for it.. And I have to get back to running my errands. Not all of us are big shot CEOs.”

Sam: squinted his eyes at her playfully “Should have known you would use our dog against me.” he chuckled against her lips, running his hands up and down her shoulder. “mmm that sounds really nice and I can’t wait..” he said returning the last kiss. He sighed dramatically, as he stood back, reaching over to press the button. “It’s a tough job but someone has to do it.” he winked, jerk forward a little as the elevator moved down.

Mercedes: rolled her eyes playfully and reveled in the last few seconds they would spend together in this elevator before taking a step back. “You better delete the footage from the cameras,” she nodded towards the ceiling before raising a brow seductively. “Or use it…” The elevator doors opened when they got to the ground floor and Mercedes picked up her bag and adjusted her jeans and shirt. “I’ll see you later Mr. Evans,” she smiled, giving him a nod and walking off of the elevator and into the lobby.

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