#it’s okay to be genuinely upset

[lost-in-sokovia]

I am a Paul Dano girlie first and a Stranger Things fan second so if you’ve got Dano content you’re withholding I could really use some of that right now 🥺

(I’m half kidding by the way you post what you want when you want when you feel comfortable ❤️)

no no no of course if i can publish something to make y’all feel better i wanna be here for you i just don’t wanna take away from the stranger things fandom today because i know this is huge for you. like if someone was trying to like post random stuff when like let’s say avengers endgame came out i would’ve been ticked so i just want to make sure you guys have the time that you need. maybe i’ll post something today just incase you guys like, need to take your mind off of stranger things just know that even though i don’t watch it and maybe don’t care about it like, the super most, i understand the impact this show has had around the world and id never do anything to take away from y’all💘💖💕

#btw soph #stranger things #i might not be super active today just because idk how to react #i know some of y’all are really hurting #it’s okay to be upset over a tv show #that’s what the directors want #they want you to become attached to these people and give you another reality to escape to #be kind to yourselves today #it’s okay to be genuinely upset #let me know if i can do anything

[shepscapades]

He could not have said anything worse, actually.

Don’t touch me i might explode

#crossing my arms pouting in a corner sobbing right now don’t look at me /silly #limited life spoilers #limlife #24lsmp #limlife spoilers #limlife smp #jimmy solidarity #solidarity #solidarity gaming #solidaritygaming #canary curse #art escapades #I’m so upset about this don’t get me started #refer to my last post for more info /what DTHJDFGHKDHN #genuinely hoping cc!jimmy is okay about all of this #his character is SO tragic and I hope he knows we all love him and his character very very very much #much love to u mr. gaming

[arthurtaylorlester]

controversial i know but yes, malevolent is a queer story.

no, jarthur are not /r gay.

yes, malevolent is unintentionally queer.

no, this does not take away from the queerness actual queer people have found in it.

#sorry i woke up today and chose to cause problems #and i needed to get this out of my system it's been eating at me for so long #i know there's people in this fandom who are going to disagree with this so please remember #this is my opinion and it's okay if you don't agree ❤️‍🩹 #actually if you disagree i'd rather have a constructive discussion about it because i think it's a genuinely interesting topic to engage in #rather than idk getting upset about it #masked #malevolent #malevolent podcast #arthur lester #john doe #unhinged aromantic

[youphoriaot7]

just saw a heart-wrenching edit on tiktok (sad music and all) about q!cellbit and the way he interacts with the eggs and i just...

i remember when i was still getting into the qsmp (which i did from cellbit's pov) and was scrolling the wiki on the daily, trying to figure out past lore and relationships and everything

and every single time i clicked on an egg's page i would end up seeing cellbit's face somewhere in the relationship box. and it always made me grin so wide because it was just...cute. and then i realized a lot of them had even mentioned things like him being one of their favorite tios or whatever and i'm just so. fucking. soft. about the idea of just-

this guy. comes to this island. in the middle of nowhere—doesn't really know how he ended up there, doesn't remember much about where he came from, nothing. and, like, it's natural to be a bit skittish or at least defensive, especially when there's already so many people here, because you don't know what they will do to you, how they'll react to anything: they are essentially unknown entities.

and if you really think about it, that completely includes the eggs. because although they're just kids, q!cellbit was canonically in a war at, like, age 15. he's definitely not one to underestimate someone because of their age—he is damn well aware of how scary people can be, regardless of what their age is.

but then they start interacting, and, like—tallulah gives him flowers, and ramon picks him for a partner in the boat race, and he's able to joke and play around with chayanne and bobby, and...in a way, it's like seeing himself, or rather, what he could have been.

because he never got that; he never got to do that. he can see the relationships they have with their parents—tallulah and chayanne with phil, ramon with fit, dapper with bbh, bobby with roier and jaiden—and he sort of comes to realize, like, "these kids don't know." they don't know what it's like to be at war. they don't know what it's like to end up in jail. they don't know what it's like to not be able to live because you're too focused on surviving. whether it's been that way in the past and they don't remember or not, they don't know.

and, inwardly, he decides he's going to make damn fucking sure it stays that way.

so he starts collecting flowers, to give some to tallulah the next time they meet, and the way she beams assures him he'll continue. and when ramon makes a mistake in the boat race and starts beating himself up about it, he empathizes and reassures him. (practically makes the poor kid cry.)

he sees the way chayanne takes the lead around the younger eggs and takes note, making sure to joke around and play with him whenever he can—because he may be the oldest, and the most responsible, but he deserves to have fun, too.

all of this includes richas, of course. in fact, it's even more exaggerated, to the extent that (in some ways similarly to fit) he mostly lets richas do what he wants, only growing concerned or stern if the kid's life is in danger. (because he saw what happened to bobby, and he's not going to let it happen on his watch.)

because there's enough pain in the world. chaos runs rampant on the island, from the federation to the codes, from the kidnappings to the tasks, from the bombs to the capybaras. there is death at every turn, and this island can be deceiving, because it doesn't seem like it. it seems perfectly fine.

but he knows.

he's been in this position before, where everyone and everything is trying to kill him. he's familiar with the concept of survival. and this island is survival.

but these are kids. they don't need that. hell, he had that as a kid, and look how he turned out. no, if he has anything to say about it, nothing will seem out of the ordinary. as much as he can help it. he will gives flowers to tallulah, he will make jokes with chayanne, he will explore with richas, he will spend time with ramon and dapper—all to offer even a semblance of normalcy.

so uh the fluff part of this train of thought is over so click off now if you don't want the hurt <3

but then things start to change. bobby dies, and the federation teases them about it, dangling the child above their heads. the codes ramp up their attacks. the kidnappings start to increase. people die and respawn more frequently. and the more he tries to get free, to get away from the island, the worse things get for the current inhabitants.

he meets pomme. this terrified egg that's been trapped behind a wall since before he even got there. and he realizes that he won't be able to shelter them forever.

things are going to happen, one way or another, to shatter the fragile illusion of reality the islanders are trying to create for these kids. in some way, the curtain is going to fall, and it is going to hurt. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when he was thrown into battle. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when he ended up in a top-security prison when he was barely an adult. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when the wool was yanked away from his own eyes by that white bear not a week after his arrival on the island.

so whatever you do, don't think about what it must've felt like to find that book. don't think about what he must've been thinking as he flipped through those old, yellowed journal pages. don't think about him reading that lost egg's words, and just thinking, "god, this could've been me."

because it very well could've been.

the book literally talks about not wanting to survive, but wanting to live, and all he can think about for the rest of the day is how it was abandoned. same as him—only one was on a battlefield, and one was in this tiny-ass room. and there was no warrior in shining armor, no police officer taking pity to pull this egg out of there. he had someone. this egg had no one.

so of course he switches out the keychain on his backpack. because carrying that egg with him is like carrying a piece of himself, in just the same way that all the eggs feel like a piece of himself.

he can't protect the eggs forever. he knows that. but that doesn't mean he can't try.

#i'm just- i'm just really not okay thinking about the relationship of q!cellbit and the eggs. #long post #they genuinely make me so upset :( <3 #qsmp #qsmp drabble #qsmp headcanons #qsmp cellbit #qsmp eggs #ev;memory #character study #i don't even know if all of this is a hundred percent accurate i'm just. #spewing words and having feelings.

[riddlerosehearts]

thinking about floyd and riddle spending their first halloween as a couple together... i think floyd absolutely loves how varied and lively all of the different halloween traditions he's learned about since coming to live on land are, and he wants to try out as many of them as he can each year. so when riddle tells him that his mother always made him stay in his room studying on halloween, and that the only halloween activities he's ever done were those that NRC students were required to participate in, floyd decides that the two of them are just going to have to spend the day doing everything they possibly can. riddle tries to say he's far too busy for such things, but floyd will not let it go and honestly riddle is only half-heartedly protesting anyway because he secretly did always dream of doing the things that other kids got to do on halloween, and maybe it wouldn't be such a big deal to take one day off and spend time with his boyfriend.

so, riddle never got to make jack-o-lanterns? floyd decides to "borrow" about half a dozen of the pumpkins jade and azul had bought for mostro lounge and takes them to riddle's dorm room. riddle is terrible at trying to carve them at first and floyd can't help but laugh at him a little, but since he knows it's not riddle's fault he's never gotten to do this before, he says he'll show him how to do it. unfortunately floyd isn't nearly as good as he thinks he is on account of having lived in the ocean for almost his whole life and now riddle gets to laugh right back at him. they probably both get the hang of it right as they're down to their last two pumpkins.

riddle never got to go trick-or-treating with his childhood friends? floyd texts trey and convinces him to get in touch with chenya as well so that they can all go together. when they approach the first house, in the costumes they had prepared for each of their school's halloween events, riddle starts to get nervous and asks if they aren't all a little too old to be doing this. floyd shoves several huge handfuls of candy from that person's bowl into his and riddle's pumpkin-shaped buckets and tells him it's not like there's any rule that says they can't, and besides, riddle is such a cute little goldfish that he practically looks like a kid in his costume anyway! chenya stifles a laugh while trey has to stop riddle from committing murder that night.

riddle's never gone to a haunted house before? floyd and chenya both think it would be hilarious to make him go to one, so they do. riddle absolutely hates it, but it honestly does make him happy to see everyone else enjoying it--even if floyd and chenya both keep trying to egg him and trey on and get them to go down creepy corridors and check around corners by themselves, and even if floyd keeps running off to different parts of the haunted house and then coming back and hugging or even lifting riddle from behind knowing full well that he'll get freaked out by it.

riddle never got to play the apple bobbing game that's traditional in the queendom of roses? turns out there's a place right by the haunted house where they can go to do it! predictably, floyd is great at it while riddle ends up drenched without getting any apples, but just giving it a try is more fun than riddle expected.

riddle's never gotten to make candy apples before? luckily, trey knows an amazing recipe as well as what combinations of toppings work the best, and he's willing to teach them both! riddle gets very confused at imprecise directions such as being told to use "a few" drops of food coloring on the syrup or to drizzle "a little" white chocolate over it, and keeps asking trey exactly how much he should use. floyd thinks this is adorable. he also thinks it's adorable when riddle tries to scold him for ignoring half of trey's directions and just doing whatever he thinks sounds good.

riddle's never done a horror movie marathon before, or even seen any halloween movies in general? floyd insists that they marathon at least 3 movies together. after the experiences he had at the haunted house, riddle doesn't think he'll enjoy horror movies, but he tries to keep his cool throughout the first one anyway... which does not work out, because he really can't handle jumpscares or excessive gore. during the first movie they watch, floyd (who loves slasher films so much that he laughs and cheers every time the monster gets a kill) is happy to let his goldfishie cuddle up to him and grip onto his arm to keep himself from knocking the popcorn bowl onto the floor, but you know that once it's over riddle is getting teased relentlessly about how scared he was. floyd decides to be nice and put on something tamer for their next two movies, and riddle actually ends up really enjoying coraline and especially beetlejuice.

by the end of the night riddle realizes that they've stayed up way too late at night and a small part of him wants to scold floyd for keeping him up so late, insisting on having him do all of these silly activities and eat all of these terribly unhealthy snacks. another part of him wishes he could scold his mother for keeping him from doing any of these things as a kid, with his friends and the other kids in his hometown, the way you're supposed to do it... and another part of him still is just incredibly happy and grateful to floyd for finally giving him the chance.

#twisted wonderland #twst #riddle rosehearts #floyd leech #florid #floyddle #floyrid #floydriddle #floyd x riddle #riddle x floyd #man i wish the twst fandom agreed on ship names and tags lol. i think that's all the ones i've seen. #also YES i AM still posting halloween headcanon posts after halloween #sorry if this post is dumb and ooc. i may have a canon url but i do not claim to be a riddle expert much less a floyd expert #BUT i really do think riddle would enjoy animated halloween movies and more lighthearted horror comedies like beetlejuice #especially since beetlejuice has Rules. the ghosts have rules for the afterlife and even beetlejuice himself Has to follow rules. #so it's comforting and easy for riddle to understand #and i think floyd enjoys slashers and thrillers and such MORE than those types of movies but he will make compromises for his bf #because as much as he loves teasing him he doesn't want riddle to be like Actually Upset or to have a bad time #plus maybe i'm just a baby but i think coraline is genuinely pretty creepy even as an adult lmao #okay anyway. if it wasn't already obvious i love them <3

[scribefindegil]

god. i’m still real fucked up over Manga Mogami Arc, and not for any of the reasons people warned me about. like, Mogami’s world ramps up the violence above what they could show in the anime (which, thanks Bones, I personally could not have handled watching that so I’m glad they toned it down), but that makes sense for him. he’s a powerful evil spirit who’s created a hell dimension. it’s brutal, but it isn’t unexpected.

what got me was what happened before that.

[Image ID: A partial page from the Mob Psycho 100 manga. Panel 1: A psychic picks up an ornate staff and says, “So she beats us to death, one by one ... or we beat on her, all together.” Panel 2: Another psychic, sweating, asks, “You really think the client would agree to that ...?” Panel 3: A closeup of the first psychic, veins bulging and eyes narrowed. He says, “The client is currently bleeding out on the floor. Open your eyes. This is no time for questions about morals and ethics ...” Panel 4: Dialogue continues, “It’s looking more like ... kill or be killed.” The crowd of psychics looks distraught. Panel 5: Reigen, with a horrified expression, thinks “Things were already bad, but ...” End ID]

So for those of you who haven’t read the manga, there’s a point after Mogami has trapped everyone in the basement and revealed the extent of his power where some of the other psychics decide that their best strategy for getting out of this situation is murder! Cool! (Does someone point out that Mogami’s spirit has already jumped into a different vessel and there’s nothing to stop him from doing it again? Yes! Does this give them pause? No!)

I think this is really interesting, because in the anime the real threat in this arc always comes from Mogami himself, even if it’s enacted through his spirits in the mindscape. But in the manga there’s this part that still takes place in the real world, with regular people who aren’t being controlled or possessed, and because their lives are in danger they’re willing to try to kill a middle-school girl to save themselves. Mogami must have been so chuffed. Here are these people all ready to prove his point about the darkness at the heart of human nature and how no one really cares about anyone but themselves, and he hardly even put them up to it! It reminds me of the part with the astral projection stalker, where it’s one thing to see this kind of behavior from an evil spirit, but it hits harder when it comes from living humans.

Also really important to note that they got this idea because of Reigen. Obviously he was not encouraging murder! But it was his successful knee-strike exorcism of Jodo that gave the other psychics the idea that they could defeat Mogami by doing physical violence to his host.

[Image ID: Jodo lies unconscious on the floor. Someone says, “You saw what just happened. Jodo was possessed ... but that dude’s kick took him down! We can try the same thing against her.” End ID]

And Reigen can tell that he won’t be able to talk them out of it! He freezes up! It’s Shinra who, very bravely and very stupidly, runs forward and tries to stop them and gets his face bashed in for it (i’m not screencapping this because it makes me too upset).

It just. It’s already so much in the anime when Mob refuses to accept Mogami’s worldview after six months in his world. It’s even more when the last things he experienced in the real world were so bleak. But he’s so, so brave and so, so stubborn, and he’s willing to believe that all those people deserve the chance to change too.

#*lies down on the floor* #i love mob! #i hate mogami! #i'm genuinely so upset about shinra he was BRAVE he was GOOD he was TRYING! #mp100 #mp100 manga spoilers #also #ALSO!! #after Mob's first attempt at an exorcism doesn't work Reigen tries to convince him to leave the rest of them behind to get help #bc he clearly thinks they're all going to die but he wants Mob to be safe and i #ugghghghghghghghhhghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! #like you can watch Reigen completely lose his composure throughout these scenes #and then once the exorcism fails he puts his mask back on #and it's obvious that he doesn't think there's any way he or the rest of the adults are getting out of this #but if he can just convince Mob to leave it'll be okay #(i'm fine i'm normal)

[shaykai]

Not that I’ve been keeping up with lore or anything, but I don’t feel like Nightmare or Error would let anyone else kill their respective nemesi

#not to say that they don’t let other people hurt them. ink gets into too much trouble for error to keep him out of it #and nightmare I feel has no qualms telling his lackeys to beat dream up #buuuut I feel like if one of their lives was genuinely being threatened these two would intervene somehow #could just be soft headcanons on my end but ink and error are weird friends. as in like. they tolerate each other because they can’t #actually kill each other- and if anyone did find a way to permantly kill one of them they would shut that down #I could see nightmare managing to kill dream? but I don’t think he’d be okay about it djdjdjdjjd (and I do think he’d be very upset if #anyone else managed to kill dream) #doodle #sketch #utmv #undertale AU #undertale #error sans #ink sans #nightmare sans #dreamtale #inktale #errortale

[blood-orange-juice]

I think the point of Yae Miko's character is that she is chaotic evil. The only reason she acts even relatively okay is her love for Ei who is lawful evil (which is only moderately better).

Personally, I think it's a beautiful dynamic.

#yae miko #raiden ei #I am genuinely upset that she isn't worse #and that her actions can be passed for mere pettiness #it's neither here nor there #but okay I guess #as a lawful evil person with a chaotic evil ex I still appreciate them #I don't even like them separately but their relationship is perfect

[areyoudoingthis]

it isn't about the crew finding out for me. the crew will eventually forgive ed because they'll see that he's changed and stede will want him back home, plus this is a comedy about found family after all

i need what izzy did to come out because ed isn't a crazy man who went insane and violent when his boyfriend left him. he's a man who keeps being revictimized over and over by the angry men in his life and who has never been able to fully escape that, because even as an adult the only way he found to escape was to build himself a facade of violent masculinity that effectively became a prison. and the one time in his life when he found softness and thought he could be allowed to be who he really wanted to be and not who everyone else has been forcing him to be since he was a kid, izzy stepped on him and showed him he wasn't safe at all. I need izzy's abuse to be addressed because i need to see ed heal and that bit's kinda crucial to it, to ed finally embracing the softness he's always wanted and learning that he is, after all, capable of giving and receiving love, that he isn't broken and the violence he suffered was never his fault, was never caused by anything being fundamentally broken in him

#okay I'm taking a nap cause I'm genuinely upset about this now and i need to step back #but i needed to get this out #because a lot of us are still experiencing the horrors and i think we need to hear this #izzy's role in ed's suffering wasn't minor #and an essential part of healing is hearing that you were in fact abused and it wasn't your fault #night night #(it's noon lmao) #ofmd spoilers #alex watches ofmd

[yellowistheraddest]

ahahha hope the upcoming episode of one piece doesn't have the character that in my mind i dissect 5 times a day in

#it's not even funny anymore im gonna get genuinely upset if they dont give dragon any more backstory or let him talk with luffu #luffu??? okay sure

[basilbots]

I don't pretend Eclipse isn't a really shitty person who's actions are okay anon, but with your open and unwarranted hostility towards seemingly anyone who likes the character I take joy in knowing that the show has and likely will continue to show sympathy for him. A level of nuance you can't hope to understand, and I'm sure you had a lovely time hearing Moon apologize to Eclipse. Happy watching ^^

#'how are you going to excuse and justify eclipse doing x bad thing as okay' I wasn't going to lmao #also hop off anon coward #genuinely though I don't get upset with people who don't like eclipse thats completely fair #but if you come into my house acting like an asshole for no reason accusing me of things I'm not just gonna take it

[writingjourney]

I hate that this even needs to be said but there is something deeply wrong with you if you think sending death threats, death threats using neo-nazi rhetoric even, is in any way okay. Nothing warrants this sort of behaviour.

The base of discourse and criticism is mutual respect and the will to understand the other person. The internet is NOT a lawless place. Hate speech and death threats are illegal. Please remember that you actually CAN report anons on tumblr. Make use of that.

#i did not want to say anything on here but i am genuinely so upset #ibi rambles #send ribz some love please #this shit is not okay

[gomzdrawfr]

I get hella nervous whenever I post Gaz because I've seen other artists(my friends even) being bashed or dog piled when their version of Gaz doesn't align with their vision or straight up saying "its drawn very badly" so im glad to read everyone's nice reblog comments on my latest Gaz doodles <3 thank you, I appreciate it truly

I know I shouldn't really be scared of those kind of comments, but lately I've been struggling a lot lol but im learning and trying my best :] ((despite it taking a whole year to actually dare to draw and post him)) Elliot's very pretty!! handsome man!! so sometimes I feel like im not doing any justice if i dont draw him well enough

BUT

its okay, ive learned to live with it and draw him the way I like without trying to shape it in everyone's idea

because let's be frank, you can't satisfy everyone, no matter how sweet or shiny the apple is someone's bound to hate it

anyways yeah just wanted to say i appreciate yall

#there's been a trend where i see artist getting unwanted comments and feedback on their art in a way that are rude #there's a fine line between criticism and being mean and i feel like no one knows the differences anymore these days #you'll see what I mean in my latest reblog with gira #I too have been receiving a few of them #which is why my tumblr ask is closed off because im genuinely upset by them #happen recently on twitter too hence i havent been very open there #it hurts okay even if it shouldnt #please bear in mind that the artist are also human they have feelings too #gummmyspeaks

[ghosts-cyphera]

YOU’RE SO PRETTY 😭😭😭😭😭 can your bf fight /j

I asked him and he said he's willing to share as long as I promise to come back home to him 💗 !!

#THANK YOU I LOVE YOU #lo answers #(I haven't spoken much about our situation lately but please I need to scream real quick because he's been so lovely lately and things are- #-looking much better and I'm genuinely happy with him again. we've focused a lot on going on dates and doing things together- #-and it shows. obviously we still have issues but I feel like we're back on a stage in our relationship where we are able to work on- #our issues together in a fair and safe and healthy way. that feels really good. okay rant over !! mwah I love you all) #(this is not to cancel out any of my earlier posts but to say that we're working on all the little things that made us both upset <3)

[apollos-olives]

I’m sorry your story got cancelled that SUCKS. Is there any way you will be able to share it otherwise?

yeah so basically they're refusing to air it because it was too controversial and dangerous, but my producer told me that to story was so well done and was so perfect that he told me i should submit it into video and journalism competitions that my local community does. like, he said it was PERFECT- he showed it to every single producer up the food chain and they said it was fantastic, but just too "controversial", so they refused to air it. they didn't like that i didn't have the perspective of "the other side", they didn't like that i wore arabic on my shirt, they didn't like that the protesters were using posters that condemned zionism, so they just told me it's not airing. despite that, it was genuinely so perfect that my producer told me i HAVE to put it on my portfolio and submit it to different events and competitions to make it get recognized. so i guess i'll be doing that instead. it's just not airing for my studio.

#which genuinely guts me because i gave up WEEKS of my life to get the story done #i lost friendships. i missed out on events. i skipped a billion classes. i lost DAYS of sleep #i busted my ass so hard for this story to be perfect- AND IT WAS- but they refused to air it #so now weeks of my life are gone to waste #and now it'll take weeks to get things back to normal #im so upset #we did a run through for anchoring and they told me that i wasnt energetic enough and i should act happier while on air #and i for real am gonna lose it. tbqh. #i fucking hate it here #my studio partner was there with me when my producer broke the news and i was so upset i didnt know what to say #partner asked me if i was okay and i just said yeah and looked away from him #and he stood there hovering as if he wanted to say something but he just sighed and walked away #im fucking up my entire life right now and idk what to do

[running-in-the-dark]

my in-laws put our two cat trees that we still had at their place outside at least a couple days ago :) they've just been standing there. under a roof, at least, so the constant rain presumably hasn't ruined them. but, we just found out about it because they sent us a picture of the neighbour's cat on one of them :) because that's funny :) I'm very very annoyed :)

#to be clear - they specifically said it's no problem at all if we pick them up later #which we had/have planned to do this weekend #BUT now I'm just. I don't want those in my home now??? who knows what has been walking all over them??? #or if it had fleas that are now on there??? #I have massive issues with dirt and things that I perceive as dirty so I can't tell if I'm overreacting or if this is reasonable but it is #absolutely freaking me out and I'm genuinely very upset about it #I will never be okay with those cat trees again and it's really distressing and our cats LOVE one of them especially (it's the first one we #bought for them) #I'm really spiralling over nothing rn I think #personal