#it’s just way more straight forward

[offkilterkeys]

The world isn’t ready for my alpha kid readings.

#jane crocker #jake english #roxy lalonde #dirk strider #homestuck #alpha kids #Jane is the struggler don’t you EVER contest that #many might argue it’s Jake but he doesn’t struggle inherently #usually he just vibes until he’s forced into situations wherein he struggles #Jane struggles from the beginning #her entire arc is a struggle #also had to change it from “the fujoshi” mostly cause I don’t like that and also cause it’s not as versatile as the other labels #I don’t actually think Dirk is boring btw i just think that when put up against his friends he has a lot less complexity going on #like his arc is fairly simple as opposed to Jane and Jake’s #and even Roxy’s #His problems seem inherently a lot more straight forward to me simply because he’s articulate enough to realize he has problems #Jane and Jake are almost there #problems are like on the tip of their tongues #and Roxy is kinda like the John of the team where she isn’t even gonna acknowledge the possibility of problems #girl is like “problems? haha not me #I’m the put together one in this group :)” #and just ignores all her internalized misogyny and heteronormativity #she is a mirror to Vriska in that they both put a lot of emphasis on preforming romanticism as a means of affirming their gender #anyway my alpha kid readings are way too boring so I feel like nobody would really be interested in them Sighhhh

[elcucurucho]

I really do think everything is going to work out, so much care has been put into this project, both by creators and admins, a restructure is disruptive short term but so incredibly necessary for the long term continuation of the server. It’s clear everyone working on the project believes in what they’re doing, and it’s unambiguously a good thing that going forward everyone will be fairly compensated for their efforts.

#qsmp #on a personal level however if there is ONE more situation that is difficult short term but productive for the future I’m going to SCREAM #it’s been literally on a weekly basis for a month straight I’m exhausted #I wish we could jump forward to when things are better without sitting through the ugly in between #but! not how life works! no way forward but through and all #however unrealistic it is I just want everyone to be happy. surely we’ll get there eventually

[timothylawrence]

im always so very confused when i see people say playing with wyll in the party is hard because he's a warlock... i thought warlock was one of the easiest classes?? Coming from a background with 0 knowledge on DND and games like this, I struggled infinitely more with Gale and Shadowheart than I did with Wyll? If anything, warlock was one of the easiest classes to pick up.

#ewbie.txt #maybe im missing something? but idk. it was straight forward. he does magic sometimes + hits with a rapier #eldritch blast is also stupid strong. like seriously. #idk i just see that complaint everywhere when Wizards/Sorcerors/Gale was infinitely harder to understand #idk . #no meant in a diskhorse way but like. wizards are infinitely harder with so much more to understand imo

[quietwingsinthesky]

thinking about lucifer post-cage, in pieces from it because nothing could come out of that isolation whole, begging sam to let him in. and it doesn’t sound like a voice, obviously, it’s a whine of tv static and the creak of a window opening and crunching glass spilled on the floor and a knock on something hollow and the last echo in a cave before it’s all silent again. but sam hears him, and he hears him saying, help me help me help me. you spend a couple million years in a locked basement and remember more words than that, and then you can talk. day in, day out, everything sam hears is lucifer, all the rumbling, hissing, coughing, crackling noises of the world, lucifer’s in them. no vessel means that all he can do is surround sam (is it suffocating? yes. lucifer would like to be suffocated. he would like something, anything, to press itself so close to him that he can’t breathe, but nothing does, so he does it to sam instead.)

a wounded animal. and sam is so, so human. he can’t just leave lucifer like that, in pain, not after weeks trying to block him out. weeks where lucifer just got more desperate, louder, screaming at sam because he couldn’t tell if sam heard him at first (if sam was even real, if he was even free at all.)

he’s got to let him in. if he can’t do anything else right, maybe he can stop one being from suffering. just one.

#lets him in and lucifer. is not gentle. gentleness does not survive hell. but he loves sam. chokes him with it but loves him all the same. #tries not to hurt him (can’t see all the ways he is but the ones he does. the ones he understands. he tries not to. he tries.) #sam catatonic on the floor for a week straight while the devil tries to settle inside him and he tries to. help isn’t really the right word. #it’s more like soothe. while lucifer slowly learns from him how their nerve endings work. #the first thing they do is drag themselves across the floor. drag. lucifer hasn’t figured out how to walk yet. #but. crawl on his belly? he can do that. sam helps. hands over lucifer’s at the controls. moving them forward inch by inch. #until they reach the small bathroom beside sam’s room. curl inside it. cut themselves on broken glass from the mirror lucifer shattered when #sam said yes. #cutting their palms up lifting shards high enough to look at themselves. #and they stay like that for another few days. at least. the amount of effort it takes just to see themselves is tremendous. #lucifer spn #sam winchester #spn #samifer

[aroacehanzawa]

saw someone say that kazuki's backstory about his ex-wife felt like just a filler sub-plot in this episode, and i have to respectfully disagree

#the whole point was that he's been afraid to change and afraid to seek happiness elsewhere and only hanging onto her memory #he said it himself #and until he accepts the past and accepts to change himself and move on with his life the plot wont be able to move forward either #we've seen him take the steps to be more responsible for miri and all. and now is the next step for him to also be 100% emotionally present #which he is able to do after getting closure thanks to his sister-in-law. and it ties in well with the family dynamics plot too #because he's not just playing house anymore .he needs to be there fully for miri .and rei also needs to realise a similar thing #that he needs to put effort into the family #anyway it was in no way 'filler' and i do suspect whoever wrote that post might just be unhappy about kazuki being given such an important #and emotional straight marriage backstory. some people are weird like that #buddy daddies

[rayofmisfortune]

How high are the chances of tsams uploading another lore video today? this time with Ruin Clipsy being the main focus all like- "YOU FOOL! I HAVE BAMBOOZLED YOU ALL INTO BELIEVING MY LITTLE CHARADE! WHO'S THE MASTERMIND NOW, MOON?!"

I mean- I wouldn't be opposed ykyk, cuz it's pretty clear their character is heading this way, but at the same time I just want them to have a good time not being Ruin pretending.

Imagine if the only way to properly cure them is to just shoot them off into space where they can't access the internet. Like- that was how we found out about their existence back in... july I believe? When Ruin "rescued" Foxy.

I'm still holding onto my theory of them needing more dosages of the antivirus to be properly back to themself. Like, yes, right now they are reverting back to their Ruin self, but if they have the cure copied over somewhere... I believe Sun sent Moon a copy of the cure? So at least Sun should have the antivirus still stored somewhere, it is highly possible that they could just make more coppies of it and upload them into Clipsy's systems until the virus just won't come back anymore.

I said this in a previous post where I also geeked abt this but- if that were to happened, they would've needed to involve more with Clipsy and not shove them into the ballpit or wherever tf to just be done with them. If they spent time around them, at least ONE of the daycare family, be it Sun, Moon, Solar, Lunar, Earth or even the COMPUTER. They could've had the computer scan them or just keep an eye on them to alert them if anything seemed off, right? That's the bare minimum they could've gone with. Yes no one would've still bothered to even look at them unless Clipsy straight up went up to them and asked, but even then they haven't done that. Clipsy kept to themself. Sun probably spent the most time around them while they were being a shark in the ballpit on halloween, but STILL!

If only they kept a closer eye on them, gave them the attention when it was clear they were definetly going through a lot. Like... they literally woke up in a strange yet familiar place after who knows how long, were met with people they didn't know and were told they could never go back home again. Not to mention.. coming to terms with the fact they've DEFINITELY killed someone in that window of unawareness? They needed someone to talk to, and they haven't even been given the opportunity to let it all out, get the comfort they clearly needed.

Imma stop it here else this gets longer than it already is lol

#ray's ramblings #fnaf dca #fnaf daycare attendant #sams ruin eclipse #ruin eclipse #tsams ruin eclipse #sun and moon show ruin eclipse #tsams #sams #sun and moon show #i'm just so mad they've decided that this was the way to go with Ruin Eclipse #not even giving them a chance at recovery and going straight back to “oh yea actually #it's just ruin again“ #LIKE- NO??? #we don't do that #or we do if that's what ya'll like ofc but just- #they shove them to the side #ignore them #and THEN when they show up with viewers looking forward to more of their sweet traumatized bean #we get Ruin #again #don't get me wrong #I LOVE ruin #he was such a joy in the earlier episodes #his chsracter was just YES more of that #hhhhh

[13eyond13]

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#so far in my sporadic picking away at various manga series i feel i have the weirdest reader relationships with JJBA and Attack on Titan #when reading JJBA i am not really that invested in the characters or even whats happening to them and yet i still never decide to dnf it #and i dont even know what it is that keeps me reading except that its just very unique i suppose? #such an odd combo of different things that somehow manages to eventually have its own sorta cohesive logic and charm #also the art is just fun. its ornate and goofy and macho and flamboyant and gross #but as soon as i put it down i stop thinking about it too #and dont feel like picking it up again for at least several more days #with attack on titan i found the art style mostly really bad at first ngl #it reminded me of awkward drawings a high schooler would make like the inconsistentness #of like there are good action poses here but the people also look weird ugly bland and stiff and the backgrounds are often so empty #idk i was feeling pretty blah about it but something about how starkly straight-forward the story is was interesting to me #where its literally exactly what you heard its just #theres a bunch of humanoid giants attacking our city #and we have to stop them. that's it #and also the awkwardness of the art style i find works extremely well when it comes to the titans #like they are genuinely creepy to me. and they do actually feel massive the way theyre drawn. and the mystery around them interests me too #anyways im like 60% through part 1 of jojo(also read most of part 4 a few years ago) and only on vol 3 of AoT #but yeah those are the 2 series i have the most mixed feelings about so far #wouldnt say i love or hate either of them but still also continue to want to find out more #13readsmanga #p

[kjzx]

I've been thinking a lot about my sexuality these last few years, I'd even say sometimes obsessing to an unhealthy degree, and I think I've come in terms with the fact I almost certainly am bisexual and denying that is pretty lesbophobic and frankly dumb in many ways, and mainly cruel towards myself. Gonna be reading up on internalized biphobia and whatnot

#Turns out men around me just suck #And men that are thirsted over most of the time do too #Alright they don't meet my preferences** #No toxicity here everyone's valid #I have had my reasons to think I'm gay and I don't think I was that 'delusional' (idk a better way to say it) thinking that I am gay #But the more I move forward the more I realize I'm just lying to myself #I don't have to date men or be interested in what most people think is attractive in men to be bisexual and that's alright #I am a little disappointed in the way bisexuals are treated in certain lgbt+ spaces specifically chronically online ones #Is it cringe to admit that the thing that broke the camel's back was a fandom meta post where the author said that people in fandom #can't tolerate bi characters/HCs because the idea of a character having history is repulsive to younger fans that want there to be one and #only love interest. Or smth along these lines. That resonated with me. I have no clue why tho. I don't have much history with anyone myself #Aside from a homoerotic childhood friendship or two (celibacy sweep) #Not just that there were a lot of good points made but yeah. Fun things #I have a feeling I'll continue obsessing over this stuff #Obsession grind never ends babyyy 💯💪 #It does feel nice to admit to things I like without feeling like I have some sort of reverse religious trauma #the center of it being one ultimate queer experience and if you've straighted you're condemned to be seen as a straight by gays #for all eternity #Bisexual #Bi pride #//rambles

[mothocean]

Watched the amazing digital circus btw it's pretty good

#i think the concept n story are interesting. im a bit afraid thisll turn into a h*zbin h*tel type situation #where the fandom will get really Bad but like. idk i ended up liking it more than i thought i would #i think it helps that none of them seem like they're straight up the villain in the situation #like they're all trying to cope w the weird reality they've been thrown into in some way and it feels. different #than just having one sole 'evil guy' that trapped them all there yk #either way it has potential to be really interesting. def looking forward to the rest of the series #probably not gonna interact w the fandom much tho im still really scared #roseflower.txt

[descendantofthesparrow]

The captains gift

warning; kinda spicy art/mini fic ahead~

Evie gets a special commission just before Uma’s 20th birthday, and she happily obliges, squealing when her client tries on the top for the first time. And the night of Uma’s birthday, Harry disappears for a small bit, waiting within his captains room as she searches for him. As she opens the door to her room, her breath catches as she sees her first mate leaning against her desk, his pants unbuttoned and his chest on full display, his arms covered with a sheer fabric that shimmered and folded over his tattoos.

Harry smirked at her, tilting his head “Uma~” he purred, giggling as Uma slammed the door closed with her foot and launched herself at him, pushing him down into the desk and kissing him stupid.

closer look at Harry’s tattoos (dont @ me for any of them i never draw tattoos!!!)

@sephiralorange​ 

#harry hook descendants #disney descendants #huma #im so much better at drawing Male anatomy when its like-a crooked pose #i cant draw it for shit when its facing forward and straight #like fuuuck its gotta be sexy or dynamic or i cannot draw it #art #my art #Uma inspired tattoos #yes that is a rose in the crook of his neck #its for harriet #the tentacles on his hip go down into his thigh #i fucking love how the shell one on his shoulder turned out tho #its so cool #the ones on his collar bone is Uma and I lived #he has a moon tattoo on his nape #and i think he would have way more on his torso but im horrid at tattoo placement/design so i just-stopped here lol

[horrorlesbians]

Why’d you like Lake Mungo?

because it's one of the best ghost-centric horror movies I've ever seen, a dreadfully raw depiction of grief and loss. also the theme of being able to see the horrors that will befall you but not being able to escape it is so horrific

#written in blood #i just love it sooo much #also the way its shot is a really good idea instead of a straight forward film #it's really sad and tragic but in a very real and grounded way that hurts somehow more than most horror does for me

[musical-chick-13]

One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."

#like. okay. for example. 2019 me: 'better do cleaning compulsions because oh no what if I get the Plague™' #fast forward a year to covid and that was genuinely a very real possibility. I could LITERALLY catch the plague #or on a smaller more personal scale: 'no one is going to screenshot a Bad Line™ of your fic and publicly make fun of it online-people #don't do that it'd be so extra why tf would you be afraid of that happening' except I JUST saw someone literally do that. so we engage in #Avoidance Compulsions™ as a protective mechanism because the only way to avoid a feared outcome is to never do anything! 🙃🙃 #and okay yeah these things are not created equal and one of them probably doesn't actually matter the point I'm trying to make is that #this shit affects my life on EVERY level and I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE FOR IT NOT TO DO THAT #I AM TIRED OF THE BRAIN DISEASE BEING HERE I WOULD LIKE TO BE A MENTALLY HEALTHY PERSON PLEASE #*sigh* yeah yeah the answer is erp the answer is always erp that doesn't mean it's fun #mc13 and her ocd #I'll probably delete this later because it most likely makes me look completely and utterly absurd if not straight-up stupid #(no one ELSE with this disease or fears is absurd or stupid btw. just me. it's only me who is A Problem™) #(yes I know how that sounds. I know okay.)

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

ik Doing It Scared is a massive part of helping anxiety and just life in general but I'm still mad about it

#doing a conservation thing tomorrow with a new organisation and a new group if people #using my new name and being a dude for the first time with people i don't know and trust #so scared and not looking forward to the gonna puke feeling tomorrow #but i gotta remember that its some kind of miracle that i am just grumbly and vaguely apprehensive about it right now #instead of one giant anxiety spiral for two weeks straight beforehand #and i have some kind of grasp on the concept that anyone would be nervous with new people in a new place #and its fine to feel that and it doesn't say anything about how its gonna go or my ability to cope #and with the trans thing thousands upon thousands of trans people have been through the same thing #and it will get better and easier to be myself and assert myself the more i do it #and the more positive and neutral experiences i have #i have the right to exist!! #i have the right to exist as myself without question #and to be addressed and respected how i choose #n e way wish me luck lmao im just very rusty ín the field of Doing Things #bc of the hermit crab shell i had to retreat into to figured my shit out

[vexahlla]

they never bring up that “it moved but it didn’t change” is a mirror to “you can mess up even if you stand still”...

#there are rymin parellels you cant even imagine #anyway i think ppl wont notice bc 1) ryans response isnt confronting his own problem the way his 'i was rushing myself' is later on #so the number obvs doesnt respond to it automatically like min's more straightfoward revelation #and 2) astro queue is SUCH A GOOD EPISODE at showing BOTH their flaws not just min but min's is easier to spot #bc he's straight up being an asshole #but ryan is moving moving moving out of pure spite and not getting ANYWHERE #and it's only when they come together at the end!! that they move forward!!! RYMIN...

[sharkneto]

1, 6 and 16?

.1. fave book? MEAN why did you ask me that when it was one of the options, hard question. My default answer is Aron Ralston's autobiography, Between a Rock and a Hard Place (what the movie 127 Hours is based on). I've read it quite a few times and Twin gave me a signed copy for Christmas one year. Idk, reading about a man's mental and physical survival journey to cutting off his own arm (and all his adventures before this moment) hits me in the right spot. Books I've read recently, as I'm getting back into the whole reading thing, I supremely enjoyed Six of Crows and The Goblin Emperor.

6. fave trope? Another hard one. For this I'll say... main character denying that they're Special as they figure out they're Special. I'm listening to The Way of Kings at work and the few chapters it took for Kal to realize something was up, making excuses for why x or y happened, was delightful.

16. fave day? Fan of Thursdays. Something about it being over the hump of the week, get to look forward to the fact that tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend. It's nice.

faves ask game

#i appreciated the goblin emperor for how straight forward it was #loved the main character and you were absolutely rewarded as a reader for paying attention and predicting things #and then obviously six of crows - kaz is a blorbo and that heist is french chef's kiss #this is now just books i enjoyed and gideon and harrow the ninths both get mentions here #gideon was just a great ride and then harrow had the *best* twist. the pov reveal i had to pause and walk around for a minute #it was So Good #and i've been enjoying Way of Kings! #my friend sent me the audio book because she and another friend are obsessed with it #so i report to them as i get to different parts and have thoughts about what's happening #fun for everyone #kaladin has the worst fucking time guy can't catch a fucking break #i have a whole prediction for where he ends up but i dont know the pacing of this series for what happens when in what book #or even what the necessary overarching plot is of the entire series #the war obviously and uniting the kingdom i suppose - and the return of the knights radiant and the implications of that #but again idk the pacing of it - i'm almost done with book 1 and Kal is still having a terrible time with bridge four #and my prediction is that he's obvi gotta get out of there and end up in a place of prominence in the army #probably with dalinar because he's not a sack of dicks - and get a shard blade #(even though he doesn't want one I know - so it has More Implications when he does accept one) #my pet theory is he gets Dal's #but - again - first he has to get out of being a bridgeman #which assume will be a terrible time for him yet again and all his fellow bridgemen will die on their escape attempt #ah fuck and then however Shallan fits the fuck into all of this what is she even doing #any way if anyone else has read way of kings/stormlight archives enjoy my probably very wrong predictions #please do not spoil it for me i'm having a great time listening and guessing #ANYWAY thank you for the ask lizzie lol #ask game response #ask response

[monster-noises]

I love this phase in 'writing' something (thinking about writing it) where I psych myself out about it and become convinced i will never be able to write it because the things i'm trying to write are Impossible to find a solution for

But like.. the things i'm trying to write are 'make a character who struggles to appropriately express himself communicate a vunerability without point blank communicating a vunerability' and 'make it clear the character being communicated to picked up on that without point blank acknowledging the vunerability verbally to the person or reader'

Which is like

Normal Writing Shit

And i am simply stressing myself out for No Reason and yet i Cannot Stop

#monster noises #thinkin about FaHI things #though this applies to everything i've ever tried to write #including Haggarty #most basic and straight forward of fantasy tales #i think the fact i haven't Solidy Written something in... probably nearly a decade #is showing its hands here #if i had more experience digging my hands into the nitty gritty it would probably be less intimidating #but once again when it comes down to whether i want to spend my limited time writing or drawing? #drawing always wins #and i just never get to the writing #i mean FaHI also has the added layers of defining how i'm characterizing Karl and working within the confines of what's shown in the game #but also within the parameters of what i want the story to Be #and that can be a tight needle to thread #i don't want to Hard And Obvious 'he wouldn't Fucking say that/act like that' the audience #but also my karl isn't going to be everyone else's individual #(or collectively understood) #karl and that's just how it's gunna be #and to be more specific i mean i both don't want to do the 'therapy speak' thing #where a character who doesn't or shouldn't have the means to emotionally grapple with something in that aware or mature of a way Does #but i also have no interesting in making the relationship between lazarus and karl at any point directly abusive or highly toxic #largely because this is my little flight of fancy i'm writing for me and in this version of the story i don't want to explore that #if i want to write a genuinely toxic relationship with a similar dynamic i'll write about virgil and thomas #laz and karl aren't Good and Perfectly Healthy And Functional Obviously but they aren't Awful to eachother #but the line is hard to ride #at least in my head #i've got a few instance laid out where i've nailed what i'm going for #but there's a lot of in-between and lead up that needs to be addressed that i'm like #'ahh??! hmmmn???? wha??? !!' #best solution though would be to just start writing but gjdkks good luck with that.....