#is what i like to tell myself

[thegraininessofitall]

“What about Tolya? Aren't you worried about how he'll find us now?” “Unless he starts reciting epic poetry to Zoya, he'll be fine.”

Lewis Tan as Tolya Yul-Bataar & Sujaya Dasgupta as Zoya Nazyalensky

Shadow and Bone season 2 (2023 ) | E05

#lewis tan #sujaya dasgupta #shadow and bone #season 2 #sabedit #tvgifs #tvedit #showgifs #showedit #2020s #me myself and gifs #well now they have to include a scene of tolya reciting epic poetry to zoya if the show gets a third season #i'm sorry i don't make the rules #if it's mentioned it must be foreshadowing #is what i like to tell myself #apparently these two are not a pairing i should be absolutely obsessed with yet here i am

[buggachat]

something so fucked up about Chat Noir’s whole deal is that he is in a lot of ways Adrien playing a character. Like Adrien picked up his miraculous and was told he’d be a superhero so he was like “ok, time to act like a superhero!” and he lets himself have fun w it and play up the role and let loose and kind of just allow himself to be silly and goofy and have fun and for once in his life not care about performing Perfection™.

But. But none of the other characters KNOW THAT. So everyone just sees Chat Noir and is like “look at this guy’s ego. He’s so full of himself. Surely it’d be fair to knock him down a few pegs” without being aware of how few pegs he actually HAS. He’s like the “insecure character who overcompensates in ego” trope except he’s really not doing it unironically, he’s just having a fun LARP pretending to have self worth in his off-hours but nobody else is on the same page about it being a game and he refuses to tell them. He just dramatically pouts about it and lets them laugh and pretends like he’s not internalizing it and it is almost 3 am and my brain forced me to write this instead of sleeping I’m gonna take a melatonin

#writing this my brain was like: what if he actually likes it? #what if he likes people openly criticizing him in ways nobody actually does to Adrien agreste? #because Adrien Agreste is perfect and can do no wrong. maybe he enjoys being insulted or something #and then I remembered chat noirs multiple breakdowns about feeling unworthy and yknow what yeah I don’t think he likes it LOL #do normal people actually fall asleep when they lie down #if you can’t tell I recently decided to make my random ml musings your guys’ business instead of keeping it to myself #hope you enjoy

[strangestcase]

becoming a furry nonhuman otherkin objectum genderweird relationship anarchy freak has made me immune to weird conservative whatifs. "what if people want to identify as animals" let them "what if people want to marry furniture" let them "what if-" is it hurting YOU? personally? or are you just so joyless that you can't conceive a living thinking person that isn't as repressed and deprived of whimsy as you

EDIT: Incest and pedophilia (including simulated pedophilia) don’t count because they do hurt people. I can’t believe I have to say this but things that hurt people aren’t part of the list of things that are weird but don’t hurt people.

#doc talks #proshippers don’t interact!!!!!!!! you’re gross #I always tell myself im above pro/anti shit and then YOU come in all like ‘yes! incest doesn’t hurt anyone!’ fucking what #top ten sentences said by a person that thinks real life incest is glamorous like the incest on tv

[gammija]

the real reason tmagp is on break 'til april 11th is so sam can observe ramadan without being chased by a murderous clown blob

#tmagp #tmagp s1 #tmagp spoilers #the Magnus protocol #if for some islam-related reason this joke doesn't work plz tell me - i was thinking. i would like to see some content #exploring/including sam possibly being muslim considering his name and VAs ethnicity #and what better way to support that than make it myself? #joos yaps #samama #samama khalid #tmagp sam #but i am v much an outsider so lmk if i missed something #tbf. i cannot think of any way this could be somehow misconstrued. but you dont know what you dont know!

[still-snowing]

smooch!

#wow remember when i was an animator yeah me neither #wangxian #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mo dao zu shi #I love them your honor #this looking rough was an ✨artistic choice✨ or at least that’s what I tell myself #mdzs #my art #I’m so sorry I’m not online more but I’m trying to avoid tears spoilers like they’re the plague

[sems-diarie]

death is insane. wdym i’ll never see my grandmother again

#she’s in her chair in the den cant nobody tell me nothing ok #death tw #grief #what’s this house without my grandmother in it? (all the people she left behind) #i cried this morning while eating grits she taught my mother how to make. love is so big when i think of it like that #i thought i heard her walker clack in the hallway last night. #she wears glasses & we have to decide where to keep them #grief is so strange #i can’t keep crying by myself (i’ll be crying for the rest of my life) #love is carrying on. i think.

[figofswords]

so like. nyah (based on real pictures of my cat)

#I love her. when I tell you she is Exactly my cat. like she doesn’t just act like A cat she is so distinctly My Cat #same color same behavior roughly the same equivalent age. they are the same #izutsumi #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #izutsumi dungeon meshi #pen doodles #this was supposed to be super quick and for fun to remind myself what the hell my style is #and then I spent forever agonizing over teeny tiny almost unnoticeable color alternates

[dead-core]

part of knowing me is watching me self-destruct. you cannot save me, you cannot fix me, and you cannot stop me.

#actually mentally ill #actually borderline #actually bpd #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd feels #bpd vent #bpd mood #this is so dramatic and like edgelord but fr! #not good at taking care of myself and self-aware about it! plus stubborn and spiteful and defiant so your concern just fuels me #sometimes i can be very 'oh you're worried? shut the fuck up and don't tell me what to do' #so that's not great

[spiraling-trap]

drew a cover photo for the lawlight playlist i made. yes the reference was magnet vocaloid

the playlist is 2000s emo btw. obvi

#death note #l lawliet #light yagami #lawlight #i wish i could go back to myself from a few years ago and tell them that i’d be drawing emo lawlight magnet. like what is my life #emo #2000s emo #mcr #emo lawlight

[gloriousmonsters]

love when you can ask the Narrator why the Princess is a Princess and he's like 'well i uhhhh YOU did that. maybe it's because uh... something something about her being above you... but still approachable... look i don't want to analyze or anthropomorphize your--' my guy. i am a primal being of Order and Eternity and Shaping. You're the one who convinced me I was some dude and were quite willing to take credit for shaping my view on the world through narration five seconds ago. Are you gonna look me in the eye and tell me the desire to interpret something worthy of adoration and more powerful than me as a dommy princess is written in the very nature of the universe or are you going to show me your browser history like a man

#this is a joke but the 'so where did i get the Idea of a princess from??' still stands #since we remember nothing and don't seem to have many ideas about like. what the world looks like #but when given the conception of 'we're a hero' from the narrator's Quest #we immediately go to 'so the thing you're telling us to kill is a Princess' -> i.e something I'm not SUPPOSED to kill #and in fact am supposed to respect and cherish #and/or pledge eternal loyalty to #(and then on a deeper level we KNOW that we're the dragon #we're the biggest threat to her we're what has the power to trap her and keep her here #we're a monster just like her) #but my point remains. as a god-entity stripped of memory where did we get the idea of a (human/like) Princess. do we still have like... #the threads of common narratives sort of built into our structure b/c we're the god-half concerned with Shaping and Naming and Order? #that would kind of slap #anyway uh. dragging myself offstage now #slay the princess #slay the princess spoilers #stp spoilers

[ddocson]

i'm self-indulging at this point — but i wanted to explore more of the expressive-tango-hair-thing, and i wanted to draw ranchers (ofc), and it became... this, 4am comic

since i made a point of "blue hair tango = sad," my thought here is that dungeon master tango has some connection with the wardens of the dungeon. since theyre "mourners," their feelings seep into him, and he's just. perpetually feeling their sadness. which is why he's always blue.

(also this would take place during the crossover in ranch 2)

#this is so self indulgent like this didnt need to be ranchers. but also it did. yes it did. #thats what i tell myself #tangotek #tango tek #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #team rancher #rancher duo #solidaritek #double life #double life smp #trafficblr #trafficshipping #hermitcraft #hermitcraft x empires #idk? is that the tag #mine #its finals week and i stayed up until 4am to finish this lmfao #ALSO IM SORRY FOR MAKING JIMMY LOOK SO SMALL???? He is taller than tango hes just being small spoon in this. prommy #ddocson hits

[chiricat]

(don’t) hold back

#souyo #yu narukami #souji seta #yosuke hanamura #p4 #persona 4 #cat’s art #persona #i did like. ten different lighting drafts for this one aough #internal monologue for this one was like ‘i HAVE to push myself harder i HAVE TO PUT MYSELF OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE’ #always in fear of falling back on what’s easy for me and never learning because of that #every so often i’m like… have i even improved at all? have i even been trying #very cool thoughts to have. not #yearly cat struggle of ‘wow my art hasnt changed at all and everyone can tell and i look like a joke’ #enough moping. ENJOY THE SOUYO THEY MAKE ME CRAZY

[vilevampirez]

[ID by @princess-of-purple-prose: Mairimashita! Iruma-kun fanart.

Colored art of Iruma wearing dresses. The left shows him wearing a purple dress with a glittery purple-to-pink skirt, doing a peace sign and looking flustered. The right shows him as Irumi, wearing a pink dress while winking and smiling widely. The center has small icons of his face for each version.

Uncolored line art of Irumi smiling and doing a rock hand.

A sketch of Iruma looking startled and blushing.

Irumi looking flustered.

Iruma with a big smile.

Iruma smiling happily, a heart floating next to him. End ID]

woe. mairuma art be upon ye

#artists on tumblr #mairimashita! iruma kun #welcome to demon school iruma kun #suzuki iruma #mairuma #m!ik #iruma #iruma suzuki #irumi chan #irumi #vile arts #fun fact. two of these doodles r from last year. u can tell by the diff background color. I just never bothered to post them until now #another fun fact is that u can see I drew a very similar iruma this year. over on the left. this was not intentional #and u can see how my style changed and got. more cartoony ish ?? I'm not sure if I like it #what ever #my painting skills improved tho I think. compared to the irumi drawing that I drew last year this version looks cleaner #and cuter #they're in very similar poses too #copying myself from the past over here #illustration #digital art #art #my art #mairimashita! iruma-kun #mairimashita iruma kun #mairimashita iruma-kun #welcome to demon school iruma-kun #welcome to demon school! iruma kun #welcome to demon school! iruma-kun #wtdsik

[floweroflaurelin]

🎶 The Crown…

Pix now wears the Crown… 🎶

—

The moment of recognition when that ancient and powerful thing deep in the catacombs… discovers the Crown.

#empires smp #pixlriffs #empires smp fanart #pixlriffs fanart #empires fanart #empires pixlriffs #empiresblr #floweroflaurelin art #mcyt fanart #mcyt #mcytblr #gif #animated #aha! by making that post about not having time to make fanart I tricked you all into not expecting any #thus freeing myself from the pressure of feeling like I have to get fanart done for major story beats #and allowing me to have the motivation to procrastinate my thesis and make stuff for fun instead! #anyway this is the same crown design I did AGES ago but it’s all tarnished now #I’m so excited to have it back the way everyone covets it is so good #I mean THEE historian sees it and instead of preserving it he puts it on his head and comments on how well it fits?? #he’s never had any interest in telling people what to do and then declares himself king and threatens those who disobey with ‘punishment’?? #everyone who sees it is driven to do anything in their power to get it for themselves? #what does the Crown want. what does it get out of this. it is so very much a cursed object and I love it

[sergle]

also I consented for my doc to use photos / video footage of my reduction on social media and shit and he's ALREADY posted my before/after photos on his instagram. and I'm experiencing an emotion unknown to mankind, reading a bunch of insta comments about how great the results are and how wonderful the new boobs look

#just tons of comments calling him a miracle worker and being like WOW what a transformation!! #and I'm like yOURE DAMN RIGHTTTTTTT #I initially thought about not signing that consent form but I want ppl to be able to find before/afters of GIANT. boobs. #and not the ones where you can hardly tell there was a reduction. #so I like to give myself a little credit by imagining that somebody could see my results and feel confident that they can still get good #results #with biguns #sergle.txt

[teaboot]

(I'm a security guard.)

#There is an overwhelming number of traumatized people who work in security #So many of us have histories of abuse #Or other things #And I wonder so often #I'm good at my job #But am I attracted to power? #I like helping people #I don't like hurting people #Or picking on anyone #But it's hard to know what the right answers are sometimes #Part of my job is working with police #Even if I disagree with them #I tell myself it's better that I'm the guard here #And not someone malicious #Or cruel #But how much am I really changing? #And am I using my power correctly #Or will I become the unreasonable authority that made me the scared person I am #Is it already too late? #What if the calls I'm unsure of are the warning signs #Maybe I'm already too late #Maybe my sense of morality and justice is eroding #To fit the hole I've placed myself in #Maybe I'm not chipping at the walls fast enough #Maybe I'm being reshaped #Just being here #Maybe my conflict of conscience is the internal monologue of a sympathetic villain #Maybe I'm the bad guy