#is this even coherent im feeling deranged

[heartslobbf]

people will be like ‘yeah it’s really relevant that utena is an orphan haha’ and then not even recognise how utena being a character without living blood relatives is hugely significant in a show where almost all of the most atrocious relationships are ones that have been spurred on by the notion of familial/blood obligation. and utena herself clings so tightly to what is essentially a romantic ideal of ‘the family’, ‘the blood relative’, telling anthy she’s jealous of her relationship with akio, insisting to nanami that she should persevere with her relationship with touga because you’re still siblings. in ohtori, family is something you can only be born into. in ohtori, family is the way you gain power. i mean for the love of god it’s right there, revolutionary girl utena is a family abolitionist masterpiece and it makes me claw at the walls!!!!!!!!! read the palace perspective!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! engage more with these aspects of the show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kill any and all people who go ‘why are there so many weird sibling dynamics i only came for the lesbians’ her NAME is kiryuu nanami and she does both!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#is this even coherent im feeling deranged #i love you rgu i LOVE what you said about family it was so crazy fr fr #it’s just like. gestures wildly at the entire show. and i was like aaaaaaaaaa #who wants to hear all my thoughts about the kiryuu siblings and utena and anthy and akio hanahahahahahaha #and monarchies and sacrifice and obligation and guilt and resentment etc etc etc #the we should live to help each other of it all. throwing up and screaming #why should you live to help each other? because you’re siblings????? like. like. utena says ‘because i love you. because i love you’ #and she actually does. and that’s not a manufactured love she’s been told she should feel #it’s in fact the opposite bc it’s queer #‘everyone loves their siblings because you’re siblings and that’s how it works tee hee’ vs queer love as a destructive force #god anyway im normal (lie) #rgu #revolutionary girl utena #shut up daisy

[fipindustries]

(sorry if this is barely coherent, im coming down from being high on weed) now that im catching up with full metal alchemist: the good one, i get a really cool chance to compare and contrast the homunculus with the demiurges from ksbd and it truly is fascinating.

envy/gog agog: lets begin with my favourite demiurge, both have actually quite similar powers and both are technically worms which is really cool. character wise they are very different though, where one is this androgious sadistic sassy bitch the other is a completly deranged clown girl. i would say gog inhabits the sin she represents a bit better than envy does since she is the one who is constantly immitating everyone else and she is the one who desperatly wants to be admired and paid attention to.

sloth/jadis: these two on the other hand took their respective sin and went into completly opposite directions with it. while they do have in common the fact that both of them stayed pretty much at the sidelines during the entire proceedings, only to show up at the ending climax, one was sloth in the sense of the nihilistic academic who knows so much that is paralized by predetermination and the sheer wheight of her knowledge, whereas the other takes it in the more ironic direction by being this unstoppable hulking force who none the less is burdened by the hardest tasks by their own sheer density, the one who has the power to work the hardest and the fases being the one who is constantly tired which gives it a delicious ironic turn.

gluttony/mottom: gluttony went the more direct, obvious route of the fat guy who eats everything, he is kind of a dullard and kind of a joke and also kind of pityful (albeit one of the more disturbing by how dehumanizing is the way he treats everyone). whereas mottom took it in the direction of an ever exapnding ever conquering queen who bleeds words dry and who has to constantly eat to preserve her youth, trapped in a life she no longer wants, and yet continuing to eat no matter how full of it she feels.

wrath/jagganoth: both are actually pretty similar pretty direct warlords with a genuine poetic soul underneath (or at the very least hidden depths) but bradley is more the simmering, barely restrained rage of a profesional dictator who knows when to realease at the maximum tactical moment, whereas jagganoth is more the prepetually boiling caustic furiousness that burns everything in his wake, who hates everything, who just wants to destroy everything.

greed/mammon: i would dare say these two are the most different conceptually out of all the other sins, since one represents more the begging of greed, the bluster of a young man who has the world open to him and he wants it all for himself, whereas the dragon is more the place where all greed ends, alone, pathetic, depressed, having lost and sacrificed everything that truly matters in the world. the do share the fact that they seem to be the ones who are the least antagonistic/malicious to the heroes

lust/incubus: other two who are fairly similar, except one is a sexy woman and the other, in a slight detour from where this trope is taken, is a sexy man. another difference is that lust is at the end of the day not that deep of a character whereas incubus life is the one we have probably examined the most. the gimmick underneath him is that even though he shows himself as the most glamorous, attractive and seductive of the demiurges, deep down he is a disgusting leech like gremlin that lives in a pit of blood and mud, who came from shit and hasnt gone much further than it during his life. beyond that i would say incubus backstory is not all that tied up to his sin thematically speaking beyond the concept of the lust for power and the seduction of control. but that is certainly more that lust who, besides being a sexy lady, seems to be even less thematically realted to her sin.

pride/solomon: another two who are fairly different in execution. lust, much like sloth, takes it on an ironic spin by showing him as an arrogant prepotent child, which is essentially what everyone who has ever fallen to the sin of pride looks like, an immature kid. which i personally find really clever. solomon takes it on a more conventional direction by being a genuenly powerful selfrighteous formidable emeperor. although both of them are pretty tied on the "insufferably smug smile" department.

#full metal alchemist #kill six billion demons #ksbd

[t00thpasteface]

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts on Nemo and arronax because none of my friends get it and im here feeling deranged

someone's gotta nemopost on this godforsaken website and it's an honor to do so. i have so many thoughts about him and aronnax i can't even articulate them coherently. it always devolves into incomprehensible ramblings about deception and violence and gazing into the abyss and becoming the mask. aronnax didn't know nemo at all but nemo is genuinely losing his own sense of self so i'm not sure if it's even possible for anyone to really know him at this point. and he's become the exact force of violence he's sworn to destroyyyy oh my goddddd i'm insane about him

#shebbz shoutz #20000 leagues under the sea #ask

[monstersinthecosmos]

okay so i just finished IWTV....... oh my god!!! oh my god. it's embarrassing how insane this book made me. for the last 50 pages or so i was regularly taking breaks to run laps around my apartment like a lunatic because i physically could not handle all the pain and angst and despair coursing through my body LOL. i got so immersed in the story i forgot pretty much all of the background for armand you'd given me (and i can't remember most of it even now!!! my mind is in shambles) and still, very organically...... he became my favorite. even despite all of the. you know. and maybe even more so BECAUSE of it. i've just never witnessed an evil so heartbreaking!!!!!!!!!!? THE ABSOLUTE DEVOTION?????? DERANGED AND UGLY AND UTTERLY BEYOND REASON????!!!! FUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!! i'm sorry for vomiting all over your inbox i genuinely cannot conjure up any resemblance of coherence atm!!! THANK YOU FOR POINTING ME TOWARDS SUCH LUXURIOUS PAIN i LOVE it i want MORE! <3 <3 <3

oh my god OH MY GOd ,... omg... 🥹🥹

WELCOME WELCOME YES THIS HOW I FEEL EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE I WISH I KNEW WHERE TO EVEN START 

(I really feel like just answering with this meme and not subjecting you to a wall of text but I'LL TRY !!!)

GOD LIKE WHAT THIS BOOK DOES SO SO WELL AS LIKE IMMEDIATELY GROUND FLOOR OF THE SERIES LETS US ALL KNOW THAT ALL CHARACTERS COMMIT EVILS AND ARE NOT GREAT PEOPLE BUT THEY ALL WANT TO BE LOVED AND ARE TRYING LOL. 

LIKE LOUIS MOVES FROM ABUSIVE PARTNER TO ABUSIVE PARTNER UNTIL HE’S FINALLY SO DEAD INSIDE THAT HE CAN BE BY HIMSELF AND WALK AWAY.

AND LIKE IT’S SO HARD BECAUSE YOU SEE HOW CLAUDIA FREED HIM FROM LESTAT, AND THEN ARMAND FREES HIM FROM CLAUDIA. AND SOMETHING THAT ALWAYS FUCKS ME UP SO BAD IS THAT ARMAND HAS SUCH A SKEWED MAP OF APPROPRIATE BEHAVIOR BUT HE’S NOT EVIL. HE’S TRYING HIS BEST, IN THE BEST WAY HE KNOWS HOW.

Wait hang on I’ll take caps off I’m so sorry lmfao I’m just really worked up. 

I think there’s a sort of meme-ier version of this like Armand going “hi 🙂 I killed your daughter 🙂 you can kill all my friends if you want 🙂 I won’t stop you 🙂 do you like me? 🙂"

But it’s actually SO TRAGIC god. Like I read IWTV as a story about domestic abuse and the family cycle, personally, and I see Claudia as an Oedipal figure. Louis is unable to get away from Lestat until Claudia makes it happen, and Claudia winds up being so cold and cruel and he’s stuck with her until Armand frees him. And there’s a lot of conversation about like, Armand being manipulative or what he did to CREATE this, how did he push them both where he wanted them, etc, but the thing that gets me is that when Louis wants to break up, Armand lets him leave.

And like SKIP WHAT I’M ABOUT TO SAY IF YOU DONT WANT A SPOILER BUT LIKE I DID MENTION THIS IN MY OTHER POST  —— but if you read Lestat’s book and get the background on how he and Armand met, it’s sort of the opposite where Lestat destroys Armand’s coven and Armand is so devastated about it, vs 100 years later he ALLOWS Louis to destroy a coven. AND HE GETS THE GUY!!!! In TVL he like BEGS Lestat to be with him and Lestat isn’t interested lol but he gets to keep Louis this time.

IDK IDK IM JUST REAL EMOTIONAL. 

And like !!!!!!!! God idk. If you read more of the books you get so many indications about how people in Armand’s life don’t respect him, and a lot of times people write him off because he looks like a teenager. They don’t take the danger of him seriously, which makes him even more dangerous. But it’s so heartbreaking reading IWTV and seeing how Louis respects him so much, and sees him as wise and calm, and needs him! 

And like maybe Louis is uniquely qualified to not judge people for looking like children because he has spent the last 90 years with a vampire child and respects her as an adult, you know?

If you keep reading you’ll see how much Anne Rice like retcons or how much the continuity flops around so like EVERY book will have a Doylist vs Watsonian conversation like, she never comes out and says that Armand looks like he’s 17 in IWTV and in the later books it’s a huge point every time he’s on the page just HE’S SHORT HE’S 17 HE LOOKS LIKE A CHERUB etc and maybe that’s because she hadn’t decided that yet but also maybe Louis is the only person who fucking respects him. :) 

#im DEVASTATED HELLO #i'm sad about armand again good morning! #armand's trauma hole #trauma hole theory #vampire chronicles #interview with the vampire #armand/louis #deep ass thoughts about vampires

[stormyoceans]

Can you talk a bit more about their smiles? Pete's smile looks almost deranged? And Vegas smiles, then it just drops, he almost looks in awe.

I CAN AND I WILL BUT IM AFRAID I STILL HAVEN'T REGAINED ANY SEMBLANCE OF COHERENCY SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S GONNA COME OUT

but see, it's not just about their smiles at the end, it's about their smiles at the beginning too

it's vegas' smile after pete kisses him, astounded and ecstatic because he gave pete an out, because despite goading pete until a second ago he didn't really believe pete was going to want him back, because he was ready to walk out of that room and pretend like nothing happened, because everyone he loves leaves him, but pete STAYED and pete CHOSE him

it's the way pete can't see vegas smiling because he has his eyes closed but still smiles back, quick and instinctual, because yes, he wants THIS, he wants VEGAS, and he's finally allowing himself to feel and act on this want

and then, at the end, when they're face to face, forehead touching and staring into each other's eyes, their smiles tell everything words can't

this time pete is the one to smile first and it's wide and satisfied and yes, even a bit deranged, because y'all are gonna be tired to hear me saying this but pete is just as fucked up as vegas is, just as crazy. this is not an 'i can fix him' storyline, because they're one and the same, and pete KNOWS and accepts it and that smile is the proof of it. i know i keep repeating myself, but there's a darkness buried deep within pete that no one else ever saw and that he never allowed himself to let out until vegas asked him to, and pete LIKED it and he's feeling elated of this sudden power he is wielding, because even if he was the one to give up control during sex, everything happened because PETE was the one who wanted it

and vegas can't help but smile back at this, surprisingly small and soft, but the smile quickly falls and all that's left is this look of pure wonderment as he stares at pete. and not to bring up my own gifset, but that's the same look as these: it's fascination and attraction and astonishment and, now, love too. and how can vegas not be completely awestruck with this man? this man who saw behind vegas' mask since the beginning, who saw him being powerful and cruel and manipulative but also sad and weak and pathetic and still wants and accepts and chooses all of him, still holds the rope for vegas to tie him up with and lays himself bare for vegas to take

that last shot of the two of them staring at each other is them finally seeing each other truly and fully and knowing the other does too, is them realizing that there will never be anyone else, that there can't ever be anyone else, because only together they can unleash that part of each other they keep hidden from the world and actually be themselves

#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE PROBABLY NOT #MY THOUGHTS ARE GOING TOO FAST WORDS CAN'T CATCH UP TO THEM #vegaspete #m: ask

[philtstone]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love ❤

finally i have a moment 2 breathe so here is my list (thank u bestie zainab but also you know ive written too many fics to only pick five. so these are in no particular order and i broke the rules a little bit)

Title: bedclothes the child of the mountain

the first installment in the scarborough fair au (aka my somewhat manic pandemic era outlander fix it series), and one of my sudden and wildly inspired attempts at writing with different form and style -- it will probably always have a special place in my heart, simple as it is

Summary: "By the green o’ the moor behind them, the lad took the faerie’s hands in his own, an’ he told her that he loved her, an’ that he’d offer her the riches of the land if he could but all he could give her then was that which he held in his heart.

The faerie lass knew in her soul that she loved him back, but she was of the fae folk, an’ she missed her kin somethin’ fierce. So she told the lad, I cannae marry ye --”

A loud, irreverent giggle bursts from the place between his arms.

2. Title: my daddy was a prominent frogman

this is simply not my best prose at all but who needs tight prose when the concept is this iconic (aka the lotr hippie camp counsellor au)

Summary: Gandalf has been standing at the front of the room in a customary drapey grey t-shirt and flip flops all through Eowyn’s impassioned retelling, puffing wordlessly at his pipe. Frodo wonders if he is allowed to smoke indoors, even in this time of crisis. Uncle Bilbo always takes his pipe outside when they’re back in the city. But then, Frodo (who is sitting beside Gandalf -- he was in the back phoning hullo to Uncle Bilbo before lunch was over, and on his way out got accidentally caught in the middle of this emergency meeting) suspects that a converted campground in the middle of the woods is not really a place that abides by any rules.

Another two puffs from Gandalf’s pipe. Camp’s going on for nearly a whole month still. Maligned bulldozers tearing Camp down is a terribly unproductive development.

3. Title: i believe in you and in our hearts

zainab you KNOW this is an all timer! valkyrie holds a baby! the guardians are there! they ROADTRIP! i debated putting the og baby meredith fic here instead but i like the prose in this one better. ive never properly been a thor girlie but id be lying if i said this fic isnt one of my favourites

Summary: "A road trip," Thor says. "That's what the Midgardians call it."

"That's a stupid name for a thing," says Brunnhilde, but she's grinning as she does.

Or: nearly a decade after, Thor gets up one day and decides that they need a vacation.

4. Title: hopeful/summertime

phils magnum opus (another mildly deranged endeavour used to exorcise personal feelings, but which of my fics doesnt dabble in that, really) aka the first chapter fic i ever actually finished aka the first plot-coherent thing i ever finished aka the sam and bucky open a bar and adopt a bunch of kids dystopia au! phew

Summary: In which the world ends, Sam Wilson opens a bar with his best friend, accidentally adopts some children (also with his best friend), and figures out how to grieve his own life and move forward, not necessarily in that order.

5. Title: heavily, the low sky raining

i am simply an anne of green gables girlie forever. another pandemic era fic. i think i produced some of my best work holed up in my parents basement lol

Summary: "Anne’s feeling that word where you’re missing something you never had,” explains Diana, as they come to a stop outside of Terran Outpost AV1883's lone lab entrance.

“Weltschmerz,” says Gilbert immediately.

“I am not,” says Anne, “feeling weltschmerz.”

HONOURABLE MENTIONS (i have simply written too much and love many of my children equally. im not deluded enough to say "all")

Title: you've got the run of the place, now that you're running around (and may kindness, kindness, kindness abound)

i had to include an annamis fic in there it simply wouldnt be fair not to!!! ive had so many fast and loose with history eras. and i will have more!

Summary: “Grandpère,” she says, firmly, because they are all but alone amongst the hedges and Papa says it is alright to call him that when they are alone. She is not sure if he is really her grandfather, not truly – but she feels right, calling him so, and he always looks so pleased when she does. She has been doing it all afternoon for just that reason, in fact, and each time – well, Marie thinks, there is a warmth. Her fingers tighten around his, and he does not move to take his hand away, but rather squeezes firmly back. “Tell me the story about the princess in the castle.”

Title: kannum kannum nokia (cappuccino coffea)

speaking of playing fast and loose with history. im including this because its the most insane fanfic ive written to date. objectively. (affectionate).

Summary: He’s waylaid in coming up with a fun and possibly clever response because Kundavai has reached such a point of despair in her lecturing that she turns away from the locked bathroom door, pins her flashing eyes on Arunmozhi, and says,

“Tell your idiot brother to unlock the bloody door!”

Arunmozhi grimaces. Aditha is only ever his idiot brother when circumstances are truly clownish.

Most of the rest of the time Kundavai is content enough to claim ownership of the both of them, no matter how useless she thinks they are being.

#my writing #i just have a lot of affection for a lot of stuff ive written!! this was so hard!! #i skipped entire eras! #outlander #mcu #anne of green gables #the musketeers #ponniyin selvan #lord of the rings

[boxwinebaddie]

i was thinking about you today and hoping that youre doing well! sorry if thats weirdhfjfk. anyways i wanted to wish you well and remind you that self imposed deadlines are not real and i think everyone on here is more than happy to wait as long as needed <3

d'awww!!!! <333 :'}}} nonono! this is so sweet and kind! i'm so...omg

( this touches my heart in a way i cannot explain coherently rn ily )

if i'm honest, i'm finding that going fully into writing and not being able to answer my asks is sort of isolating and makes me sad because i feel like the same way that you all can't really check in on my ( unless you privately dm me ) i can't really check on you either!

( i think i'm gonna sneak back & answer some for stress relief shhh )

so it means a lot to me every time you guys write in and keep me company in the box, haha! i know it's kyle-piling up in there, but i swear i'm getting to them, i have read/enjoyed every single one and all of your deranged thoughts, big or small, make my day so lovely :)

also as we know i am working on my self confidence, so when you guys pop in, it's exciting for me because i'm glad you still care rip!!!

i know that its been a while, but i'm glad it's worth it for...ncu!style?

( i chatted a lot abt how i'm feeling abt writing rn! you don't have to peak if you don't want to hear me squeak on forever! but i'm processing a lot which is nice <3 )

you are all seriously so sweet and kind to me; i could not ask for better readers and human beings scattered around the world. <3 for all of you, i promise to be gentler to myself...i think i will feel much better when rm6 ( or, idk, sigh, part of it...ig ) comes out.

( btw no deadlines i promise!!! just ansty to post bc i'm v tired

and excited!!! more excited than tired!!!! )

BUT--

what i fear is happening ( and what i'm understanding ), is that because it all plays in my head like a movie which goes by way quicker than writing, i over-estimate how much can plausibly fit in a chapter upload...it becomes a list of things/scenes/dialogue so long that it's almost impossible for me to finish...and then i get stressed out/panic/get burnt out and never finish.

( aka something i assumed would fit into like 11k bc it's just blank lines of dialogue...actually ends up being 20k-30k with words fml )

so for my sake ( and possibly all of yours ), i'm thinking of maybe writing smaller updates...which will be more manageable for me than committing to months worth of work. they might flow less well, but that way you guys get content, i feel happy that i could post something/share stuff with you, my chest feels lighter. which is not to say the quality will be worse...it'll just be less daunting for me?

a lot of my stress unfortunately comes to sitting on all this writing and lore and not being able to post it until im Done...so i'm hoping that shorter chaps plus the relaxed formatting...and doing nice ask memes w/ breaks will really make me less stressed!

and i hope you too! ajhashdlsd thank you for checking on me! i also want to get something for pep out soon...even if its just posting a weird snippet of...whatever i have and spoonfeeding you all your cherry nyquil slowly but in pieces i can manage...seems better?

but tldr: thank you for checking! i'm okay! i just want to post my update/s because seeing them in my drafts is daunting. i think i'm going to post smaller chapters, so if they look weird! you get content/progression, i can relax and vibe with you all! peace on earth!

and of course, thank you for waiting and supporting me. i dearly miss doing my memes, it's lonely and boring in writer girl jail.

-uncle nina, who loves you all so so so so

p.s. slowing down in the sense of understanding plot is good for me tho! i think deep comprehension, but shorter, surer posts are in the near future <33333

#MWAHMWAHMWAHMWAHMWAAAAH #thank you for sending this seriously #this just like briefly freed me from writer girl jail #i needed air and to see the light #thank you for checking on me #I HOPE YOURE WELL I LOVE YOU YOU ARE SO SWEET #over the last few days i started processing a lot of stuff and i think im understanding a lot more abt what is reasonable #and what is just putting myself thru crazy amounts of horrifying stress for no reason #so im just gonna...do what i want i guess #whatever that means #we just kinda get what we get bc if i do not post something soon im gonna yell im sick of looking at my drafts #i want to vibe again #let me know what u think if u would like but i hope #this makes sense help hsadlksahd #LAST THING I THINK BC OF STANS TOOL POWER #HE CAN KIND OF FUCK W GEARS OR MACHINERY #so when they test him or check people for mutations he makes the machines malfunction #RANDY IS SUPER RACIST AGAINST MUTATED PPL AND ALIENS BTW HES EVIL #so if he found out stan would be dead lmao #so stan just is a secretly mutated person he fucks up a lot tho

[junebuggeryy]

The thing about Apple White is that the story sets her up to be deranged in such a way that makes perfect sense for the lore. I feel like the desire to follow the previously established story isn’t entirely something that’s invalid, but I feel like the royal storyline clearly kind of drowned in its own initial conflict especially as like… The lines got blurrier, but like. The fact that there are enough details in world to understand why Apple might cling to it, like the fact that she’s got an immediate connection to the Charmings and her mother’s incredibly industrious background as well as just like…

The promise that she’s going to live happily ever after, the fact that her story is considered the epitome of fairytales in setting and how she essentially can’t imagine how anyone wouldn’t want that for her. She easily stands out as a character because of the fact that she obviously has a lot of toxic traits, but I feel like they do come from such a like “pure” place to use language from an earlier post. She can’t imagine why people wouldn’t want what she wants at first and wants to help even though her idea of helping is a flawed premise. I think Apple as a representative of the Royals is really interesting in that way with her and Darling serving as an excellent potential frame work for like… The “rebranding” of the Royals in a sense where they get to play out their roles, now changed, rather than oppose the Rebels.

But yeah like, the dichotomy really did fall apart because by the end of the Wonderland arc they all have to agree its too dangerous for the facilitating artefact to even exist and that fundamentally it’s better to let people choose their own fate so like. If they wanted one then they really needed to build around it a little more coherently, but I think just letting the initial dichotomy die and replacing it with something else would have been fine! It might even have given them excuse to rebrand their dolls and update their designs and sell more of them if that’s the point. Anyway, hi again

Hello Lovely Followers It's Still Ever After High Hours.

hi again. these are some damn good thoughts, and i think you're completely right? this is perhaps an ironic point, but stories are supposed to evolve. i could absolutely see a version where the initial conflict of the royals changed shape, and Apple and Darling got to rewrite what it means to hold the power they do. i would have loved to see the "royals" name change to mean something new rather than peter out, and im sure it could have even been worked into whatever marketing/doll design goals were required to keep the show running? but these things are easier said than done, i suppose

anyway, im ECSTATIC you bring up the wonderland arc, as i have a comical amount to say about it. in general, the wonderland arc feels like the point where the story stops being about challenging oppressive power structures, and starts implicitly preserving them. it makes sense for raven to want to help protect her friend's mom, the Queen of Hearts, and i dont think it was even a bad story arc? but i do think its notable that Courtly is the first time we see someone trying to change their world's power structure is painted as unequivocally bad. and it's not as if EAH's Queen of Hearts is a particularly kind version of the titular ruler, either? then, by the time we get to epic winter, the villains are explicitly servants that no longer want to live in servitude, and are acting out, and this is not commented on at all.

idk. maybe you could argue that Courtly is someone taking advantage of an unstable system? but i am biased and Courtly Jester is forever my #problematic fave. i have a known soft spot for clown terrorists.

i do wish they had written different exit for the storybook of legends? if i recall correctly, Apple finally voted to get rid of it because she was afraid of someone signing their name into the wrong page and stealing a destiny- which, honestly, i still find to be a fascinating piece of worldbuilding, and to be a concern in-keeping with Apple's character? but it feels like only one piece of a larger puzzle. it just, feels weird to have the defeating blow to the Storybook of Legends™️, and it's societal hold over people, to be the preservation of tradition. maybe the writers felt they had already done a thorough job of tackling the ways being trapped in tradition was bad for these characters, and needed a new reason to get rid of it? but- IDEK. i feel like there may have been better options.

honestly, it feels like the thing that's missing from EAH are the Royals expressing empathy or understanding for situations outside of their own? which, honestly, isn't really a complaint- the show's about teenagers, and it makes sense they would be a little myopic! hell, that's why Apple takes it so personally.

that being said, i do think its notable that i can't think of a single Royal that didn't turn over to the Rebel side for a reason outside their own destiny, from wanting to date a non-prince charming, to not desiring to be comatose for a century. maybe this could have been Apple? our girl with nothing to complain about, our girl being offered the most heavenly future she could imagine, deciding that her guarantee at a perfect life isn't worth it if it requires that her friends must suffer.

again, that's the Apple in my heart. idek. i feel like im talking a lot about broad strokes potentials and story building rather than canon characterization? even through all this, i still love what we got of this dumb silly fantasy highschool show, lol.

#ever after high #[bugg chitters] #im. im adding a read-more to this because theres just So Much Words #i would like to thank my EAH followers. and especially. my non-EAH followers

[piulblood]

ayo so just makin a small post, just saw the latest episode of spooky month (im really late ik ik) and oh my GOD WAS IT A TREAT AND A SURPRISE--

⚠️ Tender Treats spoilers below the cut ⚠️

considering how i have a cannibalistic deranged oc with creepy smiles, Bob Velseb was fucking AMAZING to see, AND I LOVED HIS ATTITUDE LIKE HE WAS WILLING TO AMUSE HIS VICTIMS, He legit played along a couple times for fun and allowed a hide-and-seek game before his patience ran out-

and HE LOOKS LIKE SUCH A GOOFY GUY WITHOUT THE COSTUME TOO!!!- and when I heard the first fact he gave I was like "OMG YESS!! I KNOW THIS ONE!! IT'S KURU!!" because i ACTUALLY searched up that shit while looking up stuff to make my deranged oc a little more unhinged ❤️❤️❤️ IM SO GLAD HE KNOWS THAT STUFF

dude and related to the fun facts, i noticed how his last fact wasn't even finished, he couldn't coherently speak anymore after how beaten up he was - bro speaking of his voice it was PERFECT, my favorite part was when he counted to ten. that shit was perfect for the spooky factor

most of my recorded reaction was me saying "HE'S SO CUTE!!! IT'S SO CUTEE-" i have a friend who always stanned my oc but i never really shared the feeling even slightly UNTIL NOW. NOW I UNDERSTAND. but only a bit b/c said friend actually likes the more abusive/hotheaded aspect of the guy and i actually dont understand that at all lmao ;;;

anyway ill sign off now, just wanted to give that update, fucking beautiful man i took so many pictures... maybe ill make an art of the guy idk but hes amazing. might join the fandom for this who knows

p.s. i laughed my ass off when i saw the two kids costumed as sans and boyfriend LMFAOOOO

later :D

#spooky month #bob velseb #spooky month spoilers #fucking amazing #tender treats #tender treats spoilers #spooky month tender treats #sorry for the repetitive tags i felt it was needed

[un-pearable]

ok finished s2. thoughts:

number 1. zayne, lloyd, and garmedon definitely the lineup of favorite characters.

number 2. i hate. i hate misako. i hate her. i really hope she either a) gets some massive character development or b) never shows up in a relevant capacity again

^ some snippets of my anger

number 3. lloyd deserves a break. please. please give him a break for five minutes let him win sometimes im not asking for much. pretty much all he did this season was lose.

number 4. much to my unsurprise i think i am a little bit deranged abt lloyd & garmadon. maybe later ill be able to string a coherent thought together but like man garmadon loved his son so much he literally overrode his more or less preprogrammed nature . head in hands . like the whole thing they had going on this season where they just . Really Do Not Want To Fight bc they love each other so much even though theyre destined to or whatever. like YES YES YESSSS i LOVE stories where the characters fight so bitterly against the fate the author has chosen for them.

number 5.

obsessed with this zayne outfit he looks like a middle aged barbeque dad

number 6. very glad to see dareth again after so many years. hes iconic hes a legend he is the moment

number 7. mentally i am not prepared for the cole/naya/jay love triangle that i distantly recall being a thing that i believe is coming up sometime in the possibly near future but at least itll never be weirder than whatever the heck was going on this season between misako and wu. i had completely forgotten that subplot was a thing and was taken so offguard when it came up

so yeah overall im having a very fun time and i am terribly excited to continue. for next season, i sincerely hope misako either gets her act together or stops being relevant, i want to see more stupid team bonding shenanigans, i desperately want some more of garmedon & lloyd, and also i would really like to see some more relationship development between various pairs of the crew. also also prayer circle that zayne does some more stuff this season 🙏 also also also. more alternate outfits please and thank you

1. your taste is impeccable 🤝

2.

little miss child abandonment why are you here. literally every plotline about you would be improved if lloyd had the complicated feelings he rightfully should

3. HE DOES HE DOES where’s that tweet from the show runner saying he was made for suffering. this kid deserves the world and a push pop and all he gets is a tetris game of trauma

4. would be THRILLED to hear your thoughts about them bc i too am incredibly deranged about them and you always have The takes of all time. what a fuckin stunning dynamic for a show that’s such a delightful mess

5. zane rights to be Just Some Guy. i Need to draw this now i can’t get that description out of my head agdhfjfj

6. dareth. king of bit characters. the only ninja i respect. he only gets better and i’m thrilled that i can say that genuinely

7. AGSHDJ YEAH. the love triangle is so awkward i will remember it all my days. misako and wu? so bad i forgot it ever happened bc it annoyed me that much.

heck yeah!!!! thankfully they do flesh out more the of the less focused dynamics in the new few seasons but Oh are you in for an experience,,, tysm for the update i’m on the edge of my seat.

#YOU. YOU ARE DEFINITELY IN FOR *SOMETHING* #zane DOES get to do more. i promise. i am still in pain a decade later bc of it #i love s2 so much as a concept…. guys who saved the country live in a 1 bedroom apt and train The Chosen One #is a goddamn hilarious concept i wish it was utilized to its full potential #text✨ #ninjago #extremely extremely sorry people are rbing this i should really figure out how the restrict stuff works #tysm for sharing with me though!!! sry #liveninjablogging

[twistedyapping]

🧡 - about me - 🧡

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what is up my cranky crew here's another introduction post-

ok so my name is sam and also charger (pseudonym) and i am an expert at yapping, hence this blog-

this blog is quite literally gonna be a yapping session archive because i can talk about really anything and keep myself super entertained for like hours- i yap too much on my ig stories so i figure tumblr might be a good place to try to move it to and i am NOT short on topics ever

i cant guarantee any of my rants will actually be coherent because a lot of the time when ive been writing for a while, i feel like it doesn't make sense anymore, but then ill read it back and it makes perfect sense so hopefully we'll be okay-

other things abt me include:

- big big big big big big big enjoyer of korn and jonathan davis Hiiiiiii im DERANGED

- big astrology enjoyer bc i have a whole other blog dedicated to it

- i do photography sometimes sorta!!!

- big big big big big editing enjoyer

- as per astrology, im a cancer rising and gemini sun/mercury (for more specifics on that go 2 my astrology page's about 😮‍💨) and heavily outer planet ruled

- breaking bad is my favorite show and i could go on a yapping session abt that tbh not even the show just how it became my favorite 💔

like i said, i am not short on topics because i fucking love talking about random shit-

on a real note tho talking abt anything and everything is kinda how i keep myself sane- im not sayin i talk ppls ear off like i Can but im actually a very quiet person most of the time, it depends on who I'm with-

but it's how i process stuff and remind myself that im not actually deranged, im just deranged in the silly little guy way-

my brain is always going at like 500,000,billion mph so writing stuff out whether it be in my journal, my ig stories or here now, just helps me sort my shit out and understand where im at in life yknow

ANYWAY see im already yapping- this blog was a good idea 😮‍💨

speaking of, my other blogs are @scxtt75 and @twistedastrology

scxtt75 is my main where i post image edits n stuff (links 2 my other socials are there too if u wanna follow me anywhere), and twistedastrology is ofc my astrology blog where ive posted several rants of the astrology variety already 🙏

ok thank u n god bless u if ur willing to read my yapping sessions fr 😭😭😭

#about myself #introduction #intro post #pinned intro #astrology #editing #me when i yap #yapping #yapatron5000

[rexuality]

alrighty please just go ahead and forgive me in advance, I'm going to write this shit in an absolute godless manner, grammar and coherence is simply off the table babeyyyy. just pretend I'm texting all of this to you in a deranged midnight conversation

I'm going to call my stardew valley lover Bee, it feels fitting. she is busy all the time because she has 3 jobs, loves nature, and she's just a fuckin bumbling delight. very scattered, but warm and approachable. ahhh

Anyways literally day 2 of being on dating apps, Bee and I matched on tinder and she started up a conversation damn near immediately. She was eager to meet up. It sounded fake!! I was like, "there's no way this fucking elven dime wants to meet me, she has goddamn boudoir pics and what do I have?? I have nothing, I have the sex appeal of a guinea pig"

But, she was serious. She was married to a nice lumberjack gentleman and had a tiny bit of experience with women, but nothing more than kissing. She wanted to change that as soon as she could and even though (I later found this out) she had MANY fucking options, she picked me. She said it looked like "I had a good soul" 😭

So we started talking every day and very shortly after we planned to meet in Gatlinburg. She's about 3 hours away from me so it was as close as halfway as we both could do without venturing into towns that begged for people to get murdered there. (Dead center between us are towns that are literally 85% less safe than the average US city. Gburg it was)

We decided to book a hotel room (I screamed) and we said that we'd hang out for the day and if we both vibed with each other we'd fuck 🙈 so for more than 3 weeks while we talked I fluctuated between hot mess, deliriousness, and then trying to re-center myself back to reality just in case she met me and was like "oh... actually no thank you :)" I honestly had a hard time wrestling with my body image because hers is SO nice and mine is... fine. She sent me dirty pics and I passed away and I sent some back feeling like a fuckin muppet

Being someone's first anything is a lot of pressure. I was so fearful that I wouldn't live up to her fantasies. I bought so much lingerie... drank pineapple juice every day for 3 weeks lmao and even got a fucking brazilian for the first time!! Women are metal as hell y'all, that shit HURT, I've never yelled profanity in front of a stranger like that before.

(I also got an STD check even though I've been with the same fella for 6 years. Safety is important!! Never halfass this, I beg of ya)

anyways, so Saturday finally arrives and I drive up to Gatlinburg wearing a hot outfit for confidence- a little wraparound skirt, a lowcut tank, and gold body chains. The average outfit in Gburg is a sun visor, a novelty t-shirt, and Keds so I received a LOT of mean mugging but you bet your ASS every person who looked even vaguely queer complimented my chains. I know this sounds like some fanfiction bullshit but they're right!!!! what you're wearing is somehow crucial to the story, I absolutely HAVE to share this. plus... the chains are relevant later on 🙈🥵

anyways when I finally met her I was struck with 2 things:

1) Yes she absolutely IS as gorgeous as her pictures 😭💕

2) She looks so easy and cozy to be around. Her kindness could be spotted from a mile away

You know how sometimes you'll meet someone and you desperately want to skip ahead to the part where both of you already know each other? That's how I felt.

Aaaaand my lunch break is over. I know I keep doing this and IM SORRY, I legit have no time these days. I will continue as soon as I can. Y'all I am BLOGGING again!!!!!

#my stardew valley lover #part 1 of ? #sorry!!! #i am so goddamn rambly please forgive me

[stormyoceans]

Goddd i am so torn between NEEDING to read the LT novel and wanting to forget its existence till the show airs. What i do know tho is that I really don't want mindless spoilers, like I don't want to read random things about the characters or plot. Either I read it all or watch it all pls. I need to read or go through this journey on my own, which I know won't happen because there is no English translation (yet hopefully). Does that make sense? 😭

IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE AND I FEEL THE SAME TBH

i was checking twitter for updates earlier and i honestly have no words to describe the absolute rush of PANIC that coursed through my body like a lightning bolt when i saw someone point out that there are thai fans who have already finished the novel like THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO KNOW WHAT FATE AWAITS US AND I AM. SCARED

because ultimately it doesn’t matter how curious i am, how much i desperately need to know if the ending is good, i’d much rather experience the emotional impact of this story on my own (and with you guys). and part of me is actually happy that the novel isn’t available in english yet because i know myself and i know i wouldn’t be able to resist reading it, but going into the show with already formed beliefs and notions would kinda ruin the fun for me. i want to be able to be surprised every single episode and spend the time in between coming up with theories and analysis and posts that don’t make a lick of sense because im too deranged to say anything coherent I WANT TO BE IN A DEAD FAINT IN FRONT OF MY SCREEN AND NOT BEING ABLE TO FUNCTION FOR THE NEXT 3 TO 5 DAYS

SO YEAH I NEED THIS SHOW TO HURRY UP BECAUSE IF I ACCIDENTALLY SEE EVEN THE MOST INNOCUOUS OF SPOILERS IM GONNA DIE

#TIME TO STAY AWAY FROM TWITTER UNTIL THE SHOW ENDS I GUESS #not that im there much to begin with but you know #of course this is just a personal preference and i would never judge people who seek out spoilers #because i know they can help to deal with a lot #but yeah outside of that intro from day's pov im gonna try to remain as spoilerless as i can until i can read or see it for myself #WHICH IS GONNA BE HARD SO I GET YOU #last twilight the series #hsfavoriteworlds #m: ask