#is so difficult to retain

[mothy35]

I was always under the impression that the devine luck worked in a time based system instead of just starting to fade once Utsuro died, so like, the problem wasn't necessarily that he died more so that there was now no source to get more luck from?

The voids only met Utsuro once so their luck was slowly running out ever since, when they learned that he died they started to panic and made that mess of a plan. Utsuro's was infinite since he was the source and Akane's (prior to him passing the luck onto her) was pretty much infinite as well since she was always around him so it was like,, recharging or something idk it's been a while since i last went through Sdra2 properly

this makes sense! i wish the writing was clearer about it cuz of how integral it is to the story

#sdra2 spoilers #gonna complain in the tags a bit cuz i dont want to derail ops interpretation #i rewatched the entire series twice in 2023 #my problem is that a plot point that is basically the reason the story exists #is so difficult to retain #i dont think i want to rewatch ch6 again for something i get the feeling even linuj hasnt fully thought through #unless im misremembering or this was just me. it very well could be #somewhere in the background. yuki maedas brain is bobbing in a jar #mothy.speaks

[ssalballoon]

Mystra showed him the secrets beneath the veils. The gossamer veils first, draped across the Weave. The delicate veils next, draped across her body. 'Chosen One' she whispered, as she slipped them off completely.

poor gale :'(

- the dialogue is from ea gale's explanation about his folly

- i kinda like that she ended up looking like a mother-of-pearl inlay lacquerware!

- oh this was a subconscious choice, but Gale is sitting in seiza which is a posture for showing respect especially to elders. it's also known to be a painful position to sit in for extended periods of time, which is why it was sometimes used as a method of (morally dubious) punishment. however, experienced people can maintain this posture for much longer. food for thought :-)

- (edit: deleted this point bcs it didn't really make sense + detracted from the art a little;;)

#also had other companion drawings w gale and mystra planned for this but none of them are complete... perhaps another day #mystra #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 fanart #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #my art #hm i dont have many opportunities to share my mystra thoughts so! #mystra is incredibly difficult to redesign and draw! I want to give her a fantastical element to her while retaining her austere aloofness #(her unassuming design is actually surprisingly effective in making her seem so effortlessly powerful) #I love spiderweb imagery and braids(weave) for her but braids make her seem so... kind? very soft? i'll try again another day... #is this seriously my last post of 2023. goddamn

[shampookoski]

𓅣 genshin impact character teasers 5/∞ - xianyun

#genshin impact #xianyun #gifs #my gifs #// #genshinedit #genshinimpactedit #genshin cloud retainer #genshin edit #genshin xianyun #gamingedit #usersenka #kilruas #hoyoverse #*giteasers #*xianyun #gif warning #flash warning #tw flashing #coloring was being difficult so i decided to experiment a little ! hopefully it looks nice

[bbreaddog]

Okay I’m rewatching jatp (as you do) and it just stumps me every time how Julie can just sight read AT TEMPO without making a single mistake after almost an entire YEAR of not playing??????? OR SINGING? Did she even warm up?? There is seemingly NO SIGN of muscle regression, or loss of technique, LIKE. I don’t think anyone could get their vocal folds to thin out into THAT clean of a chest mix after not singing for a year.

JULIE?????????????

#julie and the phantoms #jatp #julie molina #mine #LIKE. IDK MYBE I’M PROJECTING OR SOMETHING BUT. I DIDN’T SING FOR THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE IN LOCKDOWN AND THEN SOME #WHICH IS MORE THAN A YEAR BUT I’M PRETTY SURE EVEN AFTER A FEW MONTHS MY VOICE WAS NOT AS FIT AS IT WAS BEFORE #THE FACT THAT JULIE STILL RETAINED ALL THAT AGILITY AND DEMONSTRATED SUCH SMOOTH TECHNICAL TRANSITIONS. LIKE. #hang on i can be normal about this just gimme a sec #GIRL DID NOT EVEN WARM UP HER VOICE #I DOUBT SHE COULD EVEN THINK ABOUT WARMING UP IF IT WAS ALREADY SO DIFFICULT FOR HER TO COME UP TO THE PIANO IN MUSIC CLASS THE DAY BEFORE #okay wait i said i would be normal about it and i will be from now on #idk enough about piano to comment on that #but i do know about sight reading and i can tell you sight reading at tempo without error is like. highly highly improbable #even with more consistent and regular practise than Julie has had. I still would NOT START SIGHT READING A 3-4 MINUTE PIECE. AT TEMPO. #JULIE???? #HANDWRITTEN MUSIC NO LESS #THAT’S EVEN HARDER TO SIGHT READ #WHAT ON GOD’S GREEN EARTH #no wonder mrs harrison tried so hard to keep her in music class #i would too if i had a student like that #does Julie even need music class #seems like music class needs her more

[kreckdeck]

you know what Norma calls her? "Scary White." don't you just love it?

#my art #carrie #carrie 1976 #carrie white #personally i prefer the book + musical but i lovveee the movie's visuals smmmm they are so striking and gorgeous and memorable.... #i really want to draw some songs from the musical but im having a hard time deciding on a look for her..... #wanna combine book + musical but still retain some of sissy spaceks features without looking too much like. well #an Adult lol #and it is a bit difficult ! #well see. take this for now lmfao #blood #oh this is a redraw of a still btw i forgot to mention that lol #horror

[james-p-sullivan]

Hope you’re feeling better ❤️

thank you that’s very kind! im actually forming memories and remembering bits and pieces of friday before the accident so i think that means im getting better? definitely still have a long road to recovery but I’m so thankful to those around me who have really been there for me

#my bf actually helped me remember some things that happened before hand that day #so that made me feel a little more secure that i didn’t lose the whole day #very thankful for him 🥰 #and my mom has been helping me out with the physical and legal aspects #she’s been keeping the police/insurance stuff straight and i really appreciate her coming through with that #anyway this is way too much information lmao #but writing it out like this helps me keep it straight too #im still not really able to retain a lot of thoughts in my head #i need to see it written to actually think about it #speaking is difficult #sulley answers #penelopeisshort

[the-busy-ghost]

Idk why every time I have a project that involves using the Register of the Great Seal for something even slightly more complex than looking up a single isolated charter, I always have a lovely plan where I think it will only take me a couple of hours to go in, check the index, and take the numbers I need down. And then I end up having to skimread the whole damn volume.

#No I know why #It's because the index is fucked up that's why #All due respect to those Victorian and Edwardian lads who went to the tremendous trouble of compiling all these sources #But this particular method of indexing leaves a lot to be desired #Does NOT have everything I need in it #And by the time you realise that some lands might pop up where least expected you start to convince yourself it would be safer #Just to read the whole thing #It's 800 pages long #I have been at this since 4 and I'm not even an eighth of the way through #Would be much quicker if I had the physical volume but it's a very old rare book so the library have it under strict control #Fortunately of course it HAS been digitised which is fantastic #Lots of sources for mediaeval Scottish history that were compiled into printed editions in the nineteenth century have been digitised #They are very easy to get ahold of and in my biased opinion it is easier to do online primary source research for Scotland than England #But 800 pages staring at a screen (which is NOT a format I can easily retain information from even if it didn't make my eyes hurt) #Having to physically scroll down the page rather than just flip a page #Is just not ideal #And this is the only volume in the series which is on Hathi rather than Internet Archive and personally I find indexes more difficult to us #On Hathi than internet archive #Anyway #That's how you end up making the bad decision to work your way through an 800 page volume and make yourself go blind #Just to find some charters #But I've already sunk several hours into this so can't give up now! I always vastly underestimate the amount of time it takes too #Also a certain degree of Ill as well. Like I feel I have to Suffer For My Craft-suffering being back problems and 19th century antiquarians #Alright this is officially the most boring rant I have ever had

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya absolutely thrives with a possessive lover. There will be a point at first when he does get a little weirded out, but solely bc he is still adjusting to accepting he’s genuinely wanted by that person. With an exceptionally possessive lover who consistently makes no secret of just how much they love him and how far they’re willing to go, he tends to get so weak for, because he’ll rapidly feel much more secure in their relationship and not worry as much that he’ll be abandoned, either from faded interest or due to his heritage.

#hc; kaeya #//He only starts drawing the line when his close friends in the knights/Winery fam get hurt #//But people won’t tend to go to those extremes; knowing him and who he usually associates with #//But he does LOVE partners who are V tactile; esp around others (once he gets used to it); hold him TIGHT so he can’t get away from easy #//Loves a partner who boldly declares him theirs to sb to drive home their claim; just SAYING he’s theirs at All gives him the fuzzies #//If they even so much as actively go and stalk him at work or daily routine; he gets a lil bit giddy #//If they are the kind to go Ape Shitt bc sb hurt him; he will ADORE THEM. Esp if right in front of him #//And smooch them all over their face; to hell with if they’ve got blood smeared across it #//Is prolly a bit MORE inclined to Initiate things if they do; tbh #//Loves the type unafraid to mark him up if they feel the urge to; esp if their jealousy got piqued #//Even if he may ask for more subtle spots like the junction of his neck; arms; JUST at the edges of the chest opening on his shirt #//Smth he can show off by shifting and positioning himself in certain ways; while not being TOO visible typically #//He does have to retain Professionalism after all. and would HATE to have to go to the church or Jean to erase the marks bc of it #//The main issue would be them rlly nagging him to open up so they can know More of him #//Bc THAT is difficult; no matter how whipped he is for sb #//However being given a decent incentive to Make him talk does help—esp the more they’ve shown to want to cling to him #//They are more trustworthy #//He lets a Lot slide when it comes to himself during a relationship #//Esp since he knows he’s more than capable of putting a Stop to shit if it goes to far; for himself or others getting involved #//But he can’t help getting the dokis when his partner is Unhinged; ESPECIALLY if such for HIM #//Esp if HE’S encouraged to be the same way #//Bc BOY will he himself RUN with shit if he’s allowed #//Sometiems he will deliberately do things to set off their possessiveness; but is always careful not to let it go Too Far #//He can handle the manhandling and being knocked around a bit by them due to his own masochism; loves them RLLY marking & wrecking him #//But he won’t do smth that will get sb Else hurt. unless they deserve it; THEN it’s a different story

[the-alan-price-combo]

HAPPY PRIDE!! Here's a redraw of the Animals' first US album!! ...The Animlmals... 🙏🏳️‍🌈

#this is actually a redraw of something from 2021 as well... one of my og finished pieces of the animals as a group 🥹🥹🥹 #I LOVE THIS ALBUM COVER SO MUCH!!!!!! even if alan's hair can be difficult to draw sometimes 😔🙏 #drawing them all with shorter hair is sooo silly and then you come to alan's hair... GOSH i retain his swoopy bangs always 😔 #anyway HAVE A GOOD AND SAFE PRIDE EVERYONE!!! the animals love y'all 🙏🙏🙏 #eric burdon #chas chandler #john steel #hilton valentine #alan price #the animals #british invasion #british rock #60s rock #classic rock fanart #classic rock #the animals fanart #worried life arts

[kradogsrats]

Do you think Ghosting could be sort of like shunning in some religious communities…?

I think that's almost definitely what inspired it! Which kind of says a lot about Moonshadow society since groups that practice shunning tend to hit a lot of the markers for what defines a cult. :|

One possible difference that would be really significant is how compulsory everyone in a community participating in the Ghosting is—shunning doesn't work if only some people do it, the point is that the target loses their entire community. Generally AFAIK anyone who doesn't participate in the shunning winds up shunned, themselves. That's one of the more cult-like aspects of it.

Rayla initially believes that surely Ethari wouldn't have gone through with Ghosting her, which could go either way: it may be just be wishful thinking that he would defy the entire community for her, or he and Runaan may have refused to participate in Ghosting Tiadrin and Lain (see below) so she believes he will do so again. Tylluan's community also uniformly ghosted them—the person who replaced them as a leader was a close friend of theirs, and while she's generally sympathetic to them, she also refuses to discuss them in public or otherwise indicate that she supports their plan to save the town. So there is at least a little bit of that aspect to it, with social pressure to not speak about people who were Ghosted, but maybe that also means that the actual magical part is voluntary? I don't know. It's kind of unclear.

But with regard to that... by how we've seen Ghosting applied, it would be logical that Tiadrin and Lain were almost definitely Ghosted. Which means that if participating in the Ghosting is compulsory, Rayla has almost definitely Ghosted her own parents, which will cause a very fun(tm) moment when they are released from the coins. If it's not compulsory (like maybe you can get a "conscientious objector" exception if you're otherwise a sufficiently established community member) I think it's likely that Ethari, at least, did not participate. Runaan's a bit of an open question on that for me, and it probably would come down to either whether or not he actually believes Tiadrin and Lain would be even capable of abandoning their posts or Ethari demanding he not do it. And then if either of them refused, I very much doubt they would have allowed Rayla to do it. (Assuming they could prevent her, which... I was going to say obviously the guardian of a minor would have be involved in that decision, BUT Rayla is apparently culturally considered old enough to die on a mission into enemy territory to assassinate a heavily-guarded major political figure, SO YEAH.) But I think the question of whether or not she would have voluntarily is an interesting one—was Ghosting her parents an effect of her destructive attitude toward them (and herself), or was NOT Ghosting them part of its cause?

#moonshadow elves are the worst kind???? #rayla #tbh i don't think about runaan and ethari like... ever #so i really have no idea how they would behave in a difficult situation like that #ethari apparently chose his grief for runaan and (possibly) retaining the support of his community over rayla so

[morethanthedarkness]

‘ i will either find a way, or i will make one. ’ // @dryadalismagicae { Na'elle }

It has not been long that Zerith was returned to himself, a mere two days indeed since he was brought from that dark and twisted form that had skittered about in the shadows, clutching the light of that accursed lantern and ceaselessly uttering his praises of the Absolute.

His mind is still healing from being so fractured, so shattered, his body still feeling somewhat clumsy and unnatural after so many years with several more legs, yet even so…

He'll be damned if he will allow this horror to continue now that he is himself once more, now that he has been told how this nightmare might, at last, be brought to an end.

[ He owes it to Eilistraee—does he not?—and to the adventurers within this party that the broken Oath of Vengeance paladin turned Cleric of the Absolute had been rescued from his curse rather than simply struck down. He would not allow that debt to remain unpaid. ]

"As I will see this finished and set right. If it is the last task that I do before departing to the hereafter, then at least this second chance will have been well-spent."

#dryadalismagicae #|| ' suffer no evil to live ' || { zerith } #v; tbd #// So here's a novella as usual but some. xD #// But. Look. Is there actually a way to return a drider to their prior form? Not that I know of from what little I know. #// But I wanted to save Kar'niss so I did xD #// A demigoddess of Eilistraee did it #// I still have to add her bio on here but it's Halisstra #// Impressed by Zerith's bravery to stand up to Lolth and her matriarchs Eilistraee had tasked her daughter with finding him and helping #// Though the curse made it difficult as in this verse she has been trying to catch the drider for some time #// It's with the distraction the party offered she was finally able to catch up to him and break the curse as her mother wished #// And he becomes a cleric of Eilistraee #// Though even without his Oath he retains a very Paladin mentality xD

[compulsiveobsessing]

person with chronic headaches that have many known triggers, after sleeping way longer than usual and barely eating or drinking for like 12 hours: wow this horrible headache is so unjustified and unexpected

#hhhhhhhhh it's pretty bad lmao #also usually drink coffee in the mornings and have not been wearing my retainer so im sure im clenching my teeth #but now ive had coffee. im drinking water. and i just had lunch. took my medication and now im taking some tylenol #i think it's a bit silly it took me so much effort to eat smth but i just didnt really want to #i also woke up really nauseated and even drinking was kinda difficult :/ #personal #begrudgingly engaging in self-care

[caranoirs]

it’s taking a lot of effort but i’m trying to work on learning my driving theory rn. i don’t even know how long i’ve been working on it rn but the right side of my brain is dying

#personal #since leaving college it’s been really difficult to remember how to study in an academic sense… #revision memorisation trying to retain lots of information… those skills just died with my mental health. #and i beat myself up about it all the time. i know school just teaches you how to memorise shit tons of content under time constraints #but it depresses me how much information and knowledge i lost / never retained after the exams were over #i struggle with feeling competent in normal societal situation bc i genuinely think i’m stupid. so this is really difficult #a really fucked up sleep schedule & impending uni deadline i’m not prepared for isn’t helping either #but i just want to be able to say i achieved something. genuinely accomplished something… by myself. #plus i keep getting older and am always a step or two behind everyone else. i should be Doing Stuff with my life and i’m not #anyway.

[cauchys-special-boy]

applying for jobs seems to mostly consist of lying and submitting to indignities, which is whatever. but it is very difficult for me to override my innate instinct that anyone demanding i write a cover letter has insulted me so greatly that the only way to retain my honor is violence

#once i get that down #ill work on actually being able to write one

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

sorry for diary posting so much on main but this is the last one today prommy

#it's in the tags anyway so #SO #i didn't go get my masters. or rlly try for a phd because i felt like i was bad at school right #(because i failed two classes in freshman year and i'd never ever done that before) #(and i failed those because. my meds made it very difficult for me to retain any information/make memories or whatever) #and it was just so WEIRD and i felt so dumb because never in my life had i been bad at school before like that #so that kind of killed my general confidence in academia #so even tho i got into a decent program i just decided to go work instead #(and yes a big part of it is that my current job is awesome and i didn't know if i'd get this kind of opportunity again) #and i kind of just realized #the last year and a half have LITERALLY JUST BEEN SCHOOL #OR WHAT A MASTERS PROGRAM WOULD BE LIKE #sort of. like an engineering masters. #except technically i have come up with new stuff too it's just operational and not research #but i spent the last year and a half learning something completely new that i knew nothing about at all. #and i've been teaching classes while i was learning and taking exams #and my exams went WELL #the last oral exam i had my evaluator told me it was the best one he'd seen #i went to talk to one of my senior instructors recently about the last big class i taught to become certified #to fucking important ass terrifyingly smart people #and he told me i was a model for all new people and i did super well #and then he told me not to tell anyone he said that because he didn't want people to think he was a softie #(he's a gigantic softie. i can't believe people are scared of him) #when he gets mad he expresses it and honestly he's valid for it sometimes people are dumb bitches and need to hear it. but apparently some #oh that's a tangent. anyways. if i can do this i can probably go back to academia right... #and jesus fuck girl it doesn't have to be mit. it can be a normal school #i can Lower my Standards because they aren't about to lower theirs. haha but what if.... anyways im gonna stick with the same major as my #bachelors cause i did actually enjoy it. and aerospace is boring in comparison. and i wanna figure out how to keep people alive both in #space AND under the ocean. at pressures we were never meant to survive at! Now THAT' would be fun.

[poptartmochi]

methinks my options are to get better or die

#is living incredibly difficult for anyone else. it seems so easy for everyone else but all I can do is struggle and struggle and struggle #i dont understand where the disconnect is. everything seems so easy for everyone else #it bleeds into everything. why #negative cw #vent cw #i miss being younger and picking things up quickly. or just picking things up at all. and actually retaining it #now i think i will have something and then! plot twist! i never had it to begin with #it's like someone unplugged a cable in my brain between middle + high school and forgot to ever put it back in #so now I'm just. like this 🚶🏻‍♀️ if i knew what they unplugged I'd fix it myself but it's like something deep within the chassis. #or maybe like a soldered bit on a motherboard that's corroded over. anyways point is you cannot see it from the outside #sriracha.txt