#is not on hold by CA

[hiddenbysuccubi]

Snowmold covers the ground. At every turn. Every inch. The snow is gone, in the hellscape of Bozeman, for the most part. West is melting, the spring flood (from the insurmountable feet of snow piled high from plowing and other snow “removal” throughout the winter) is coming. In Bozeman it was 65 degrees, in Big Sky it was 54. The slopes are ‘sticky’ according to the skiiers. It’s slush at restaurant, mud at the resort base. It’ll snow again later this week. But ah, soon it will be True Spring. At least by the end of May. In all logic I know it’s snowed on any day in this vast uncultured wasteland from July 4th to mid August to Literally Any Day Any Time Of Year. And I fully expect some snow or mass flooding or earthquake or fires again this year.

#Also my nerves are up in arms because now that my license #is not on hold by CA #and is interlock valid by WA #Imma go F it up by trying again to switch it to MT #because my 2021 break of the law WILL catch me #and it better damn catch me in MT and not WA - difference of continuing to drive and not driving for 3 years #an extra year of things installed in my car or an extra 5 years #I really hate myself but I'm trying #even my treatment counselor thinks it's ridiculous #otherwise my 20s and the next 8 years of my life might as well be over #Maybe they might as well be #sigh #lonely sad scared tired #but I've been good and I'm trying really hard to live and hope and be happy #If my world doesn't end on Friday at the DMV I might already be being promoted at my summer job that hasn't started yet #they have a position that opened up #and dog sitting at my friends I can wash all my summer clothes and switch them out with my winter #And I guess I'll go from there

[sensitivesiren]

just a reminder it's canon that Dean took Castiel to Hot Topic to pick out a grumpy cat plushie for Claire's birthday.

#dean holding up the toy next to cas #hey it kind of looks like you #cas tilts his head and frowns #what resemblance could i have to this disgruntled feline? #nevermind #she's gonna love it #PLEASE #supernatural #destiel #castiel #dean winchester #deancas #dean x castiel #classicmeg #meta

[bittersweet-nothingss]

Hand Shots (Destiel’s version)

#destiel #dean is bi #dean loves cas #dean x castiel #castiel #supernatural #hand cinematography #hand holding #contact through their hands #dean winchester #my roman empire

[valeron99]

Finally welcome to Dean’s school locker.

And more detais ofc, cause I love them all <3

#Destiel #dean winchester #dean #dean and cas #dean and charlie #schoolnatural #school au #castiel #CAS #Sam Winchester #charlie bradbury #supernatural #SPN Art #spn fanart #dean loves cas #castiel and dean #castiel loves dean winchester #they have already hold their hands! #they are in love #destiel art #they are cuties

[mattodore]

society if matthias wasn't boring and liked tattoos

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #matthias at thirty you will always be famous….. #i slapped tattoos on him in cas the other morning just for fun bc i was really just trying to find that watch on his right wrist #so that i could get the blend file and fix it so it fits on his wrist properly....... which i didn't end up doing bc i got distracted #ended up testing out the playability of theo's apartment (which is still a wip!) instead and took a few screenshots of mattodore being #very cute together whichhhhhhhhh #i will also post here in a sec hang on !! #holding my hands out #i’m doing all this while getting ready for bed so i’m distracted 🚶

[thepixelagora]

Had this idea of what would happen if Dean went looking for Cas in Heaven.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4

Kofi | Commissions

#i might draw more of this #also i forgot how much i love long hair beard dean #and i missed drawing the little floofy messy cas hair #these two idiots #someone hold me i love them so much #it wasn't meant to be a comic btw i just wanted to draw them and then brain went *how about angst* #supernatural #destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #supernatural fanart #spn #creativecaviar

[wigglebox]

Suptober - Day 9 || Starlight [x]

#suptober23 #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #destiel fanart #spn #spnfanart #supernatural #wiggleart #I was gonna do stars for Cas crown but that’ll be hard to do with line art and so this page in the coloring book will have them holding the #stars but then the galaxy around them and if y’all wanna put a halo not a crown omg a HALO lol that’s up to you! #I will recommend white or glittery gel pens or white out or white nail polish #but yeah I just wanted them floating in space lol #initially dean was gonna be in a space suit but #a friend mentioned they were claustrophobic on deans behalf and I’m like yeah #he doesn’t need a space suit #fuck it #lol #but yeah just a lil doodle of them in space!

[trekkiedean]

[through gritted teeth, with my eyes red and puffy] I'm fine! I'm fine it's fine I am fine!!!!

#the way in the tmwwbk shot misha is holding himself like. halfway between cas and uriel in the othoap shot. head in my fucking hands #ben edlund and misha collins you must answer for your crimes (depriving me of peace of mind) #jules.txt

[secondbeatsongs]

when you're into the Big Ship™ in a Big Fandom™, you have the luxury of having an OTP - a real One True Pairing, where you can read about just them for ages, and you will never run out of fics, and everything is perfect and beautiful and nothing hurts

but when you go to a smaller fandom, you'd better pray to whatever god you worship that someone else in this room ships the same thing that you do, and that if they do, they're writing more than late-night crackfic, because you're on thin fucking ice!

and how small is your small fandom? is it less than 100 fics? maybe even...less than 20 fics?

welp, then it's time to make peace with that god and either open up a text document or learn how to ship everything, because it's swim or drown babey! and your ship is sinking fast

anyway all of this is to say that after hanging out in small fandoms and shipping less-common pairings for a while, going back into a Big Huge Fandom™ is wild because suddenly it's like...wait, why didn't I ship these people again? I don't remember. why was I only sticking to one ship in this fandom?? boring of me, honestly. these guys should make out.

#sbs rambles #fandom #fandom stuff #ao3 #basically. I hung out in superwholock for so long back in the day #but then I got weird and cool and moved on to smaller and older and stranger fandoms #and decided to throw a party and have fun and enjoy all of the small and weird in those fandoms #and now rewatching media for a big fandom I'm like. huh. sucks to be everyone else I guess. they're missing out on some wild dynamics here #because I'm havin a blast #and like. when I mean small fandoms I mean SMALL #my one fic I wrote for one tv show makes up 25% of that entire fandom on ao3 #(double checks) #oh!!!! new fic in the fandom!!!! #my one fic only makes up 20% of that entire fandom on ao3!!! #time to throw a fuckin party! 🎉🎈🎊🥳 #anyway it's really funny because based on this some folks are going to assume what ship I'm into in a Big Fandom now #but buds. you can laugh at me #I'm thinkin about sam and cas #what's up with those guys? #fucked up actually. they should hold hands about how much they love dean #:') #but also supernatural is way more fun if you watch it out of order #that's what I've realized #now if only the RNG would give me something in season 1 or 2 T_T #also if you're at the point of reading fic on livejournal or wattpad in the year 202X you've reached ''small fandom'' status #that's the rules

[castielsparkle]

fanart i did of destiel dying in a glue trap

#cas.txt #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #glue trap #dobby dying in a glue trap #cas #dean #theyre holding hands btw

[destiel-wings]

no but this scene literally makes me insane, this is angel-of-the-lord castiel, millennia-year-old warrior of heaven and dean goes like "nope, imma dress him up as a cowboy and have him watch all my little favorite movies in my dean cave cause he's mine, he's mine" (and the fact that it happens right after he comes back is even more insane) and dean knows he'll indulge in it cause that's his way of saying "yes, dean, I am yours"

#somebody hold me please #they're each other's best friend #and none of them ever had one #dean is marking his territory #using cowboy hat as his personal handprint #screaming #spn #destiel #dean x castiel #supernatural #dean winchester #deancas #cas #cas and dean #dean and cas #castiel #castiel angel of the lord #spn s13 #tombstone #spn 13x06 #dean loves cas

[thebramblewood]

Alt girl gang crashes neighborhood trick or treat event to: 🚫 Steal candy 🚫 Worship Satan 🚫 Summon spirits 🚫 Practice witchcraft ✅️ Do a hasty photoshoot and bounce

Sim bases by @lotuso3o!

#lotus1kbases #the sims 4 #sims 4 #ts4 #simblreen 2023 #ts4 halloween #ts4 edit #cas creations #for all we know the devil might be the photographer... #these bases were a joy to dress up!! #they were so beautiful before i even touched them! #i'm obsessed & can't hold this post in the queue a second longer #you guys better blow it up a bit or we might need to have a serious talk

[sunforgrace]

destiel kiss where they both know this is it they are about to kiss they’re both desperate to get closer so dean reaches out grabs him by the lapels of his trenchcoat and hauls him in so their momentum smacks together brokeback style. do u see the vision

#elbows bent holding on to that coat between them as they kiss #like now I have you and I have to hold onto you #cas’ arms would go around dean because he is precious. to him

[valeron99]

Like Bert and Ernie.

#destiel #dean #dean winchester #castiel #cas #supernatural #spn #spn art #dean and cas #dean x castiel #bert and ernie #schoolnatural #school au #they are besties #they have hold hands! #deancas #they are playing

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Sam holding hands with Eileen cutely at the farmers market, minding his own business

Dean, accosting him from several yards away: Sam are you holding hands??! Ha! Girl!

Sam: oh my god. Dean, you are literally holding hands with Cas right now.

Dean: So?? That's just 'cause if I let go he's gonna wander off.

Cas, nodding but not looking up from the spider he'd stopped to examine: I do have a tendancy to wander off. I have many and varied interests. It's very charming.

Eileen, tuning into the conversation and letting go of Sam's hands briefly to sign along with verbal speech: what are you saying?

Sam: Dean's calling me a girl for holding hands.

Eileen: hm. At least you're a cute girl.

She takes Sam's hand again and kisses it like a knight before swinging it casually between them, and Sam blushes so hard and smiles so big his face hurts 💕

#sam can be a cute girl. as a treat. #this is a continuation of dean consistently in canon saying '[this behaviour] is unmanly' and then almost immediately doing it #i hope I caught sam and eileen dynamic right! I've only met her once #saileen #destiel #cawis creates #dean: im only holding hands with cas so he doesnt wander off #also dean: [links their fingers together every time]

[ulgapodatkowa]

i’ve seen a bunch of people talking how ignorant/bad darren’s reaction to cash refusing to have sex and later on informing them about his asexuality was, and i agree, it was a shitty response. however it needs to be adressed that darren’s view on sexuality and moreover sex in general stems directly from what they say later in the show - “i think i’m a hard person to love”.

from the first episode we see darren seems to have been slightly neglected by their parents - they lack understanding, diminish the problems and have failed in showing proper love or dedication for their child. darren gets shuffled around between their mom’s house to dad’s like they have to be hidden from their stepdad’s friends when they come over. that conclusively cements the feeling of not being wanted, even by their family.

darren seems to be filling that void with the thing they learned is the easiest way to make them feel wanted, which is sex. it isn’t outright addressed by the show but i don’t believe they have ever had a longterm romantic relation with someone. from what we see darren divides their relationships strictly into platonic (ex. amerie, quinni, for whom they open up more about their feelings) and sexual. at the map their name is amongst the ones that have the most arrows attached, they straightforwardly state that the longest they went without having sex is 2 months. darren had a lot sexual partners and they seem to change them quickly (examples being: their one time with ant, fling with the boy from the private school, hook-up with the guy at amerie’s party), not leaving much room for developing any emotions apart from desire. so when darren tries to seek out more from one of their partners - coming to his dorm, asking for shelter and getting turned down - in their head that’s proof that there is nothing else for them than being desired sexually.

that is why when cash starts showing interest in them they think he only wants to fuck them and when he says he doesn’t want that they think he doesn’t desire them, that he was joking/trying something out at their expense. they feel angry, betrayed that their usual sexual m.o. doesn’t apply here. because darren can’t fathom that they could be truly loved by somebody, wanted without being used to satisfy someone’s libido. and while they certainly really enjoy sex that’s also all that they’ve been reduced to by previous partners.

darren has definitely shown ignorance in regard of asexuality yet the underlying problem is not that they couldn’t have a relationship with cash without sex but that they can’t imagine themself without sex.

#yeah anyway so #darren meta cause they consume my thoughts #i don't know if this holds its ground bc i've watched the show only once but this is how i read this character #heartbreak high #heartbreak high spoilers #darren heartbreak high #cash heartbreak high #cash piggot #darren rivers #ca$h heartbreak high