#incomprehensible thoughts in my head

[atlcscp]

I see an animol I name it

#ararghhh #true story btw #saw a buterfly i called it lebby..... #incomprehensible thoughts in my head #mutuals who have animals in ur url thats what u r to me now #winter if u see this this was abt u i hope u know that <3 the only turtle ever

[rrylies]

started thinking about how the ghost of altan trengsin haunts rin after he dies, pushing her to reach for anger just as he had when he was alive, and then i started thinking about whose voice haunted altan. i like to think that the phoenix ended up using his connection / sort-of love towards chaghan near the end, but what about before that? what about before he met chaghan, before he joined the cike? was he haunted by the voices of his parents? or perhaps, it was the voices of all of the other kids who were subject to the laboratory with him? maybe he heard them pushing him to get vengeance for them, for all of speer, because he was now the only one who could.

#ignore me if this is incomprehensive <3 i am not emotionally ready to reread the books #the poppy war #altan trengsin #thinking thoughts about altan LIKE ALWAYS #he's in my head so often he should really just move in and start paying rent

[delisocks]

i wonder if mike thought about kim ever. when jesse threw himself in front of walt in the desert, i wonder if he thought about kim. did he see her that night, the hoodie and the gun and the tearful determination, while they sat in the lab and waited for gus? did he see her in that junkyard, watching the laptop splinter into a million pieces, jumping and cheering?? two lost souls who gave Everything and got shattered in return??? one day you’ll wake up and realize you haven’t thought about it, but do you ever really? do you ever really forget? maybe you can’t, when you’re working for a time bomb. “what is it with you guys?” don’t know. i wonder if mike ever thought about kim.

#sorry about this 😔 could not sleep and decided to be incomprehensible on tumblr instead #i already said something along t these lines in the dms but i can’t get it out of my head #thought it would make more sense if i got it out into a post and Bravo!!! it Does Not. #but i rely on the assumption of everyone else here being just as deranged as i am #like. y’all know what i’m talking about right #i don’t think im going to remember posting this in the morning. goodnight now honk shoo #and also i stand by what is it with you guys as like #the golden rule of gilliganverse. could literally say the same thing about So Many guys it’s insane #“what is it with you guys” well. what Isn’t it with you guys really #brbabcs #mike ehrmantraut #kim wexler #jimmy mcgill #jesse pinkman #walter white

[velvetjune]

Saga and Casey joining the FBC, love it, need it, it’s everything. But also. There’s NO way they’d be on board (lol) with The Board. There’d be so much drama

#saga anderson #alex casey #alan wake 2 #control 2019 #control remedy #also. would the board know saga is a seer and has the ability to traverse worlds like her dad #unlike Jesse who is bound to the service weapon-could see the board being apprehensive over her involvement #saga: [having incomprehensible conversations with the Former in her profiling place] #The Board: NOOOOOO/:( #logically I don’t think the Control sequel could bring Casey and Saga in for major plot stuff but it’s been a thought in my head #while yes Saga and Casey are a part of the FBI #the Board having control over the bureau is so blatantly insidious #then again maybe they’d just be field agents who don’t even think about it #in the sense of ‘well everything is already So weird’

[sarellathesphinx]

Both square enix and other players can take the idea that Cait has his own personality and sense of will separate from Reeve from my mummified hands

#like there’s just no fucking way this cat is controlled 24/7 by a man who is currently #working to restore multiple destroyed sectors in the city he’s the HEAD OF URBAN DEVELOPMENT FOR #he also speaks and acts separate from Reeve in dirge so like. #Cait’s a little guy. the overlap between him and Reeve is definitely real. but they’re like a living Venn diagram to me #especially in the original game some of the things he says just only make sense if he’s got his own personality and thoughts #and I do believe there’s room for that in the remake timeline too!!! #it’s like dumb how adamant I get about this i know #but to me it’s a diminishment of both characters if you go ‘Cait is reeve’s fake fursona and he’s doing a bit in his office constantly’ #text #idk!!!! #like I’m not saying Reeve doesn’t speak thru cait. I think he does often #but Cait’s got his own mind too!! #I have this like very elaborate idea of how it all works but when I try to write it. incomprehensible #someday I’ll phrase it right lmao #Cait sith #Reeve tuesti #tagging for my purposes and not #for the purpose of this showing up in the tag but if you read this far and wanna talk to me about them: go for it lol #sorry to my friends who have read my rants about this before lol #I just!!!! #sigh!

[whetstonefires]

calling preferred pronouns a “stupid social protocol” is,,,, a take for sure

Yeah and honestly I think it's a very valid one for an autistic 16 year old who has exclusively had the concept explained by people inexplicably shouting at her about what an evil person she is because.

She asked someone how a mutual acquaintance was doing these days by the name and pronouns they used four months ago, when she last heard about them.

Rules are just. They're just rules. We make them up. We have to tell each other about them and navigate and negotiate and evolve them. There's gonna be access conflicts. People don't know your set of rules as a natural upwelling of inner virtue, that's not how culture or goodness or anything works. Queerness should not be about conformity.

Social constructs aren't. They aren't all that important.

You have to realize this if you want to liberate people to actually fuck freely with gender. You have to stop criminalizing and taxonomizing and demanding universal obedience to your particular principles. I am sick to death of shit like getting told by trans women that drag is transphobic and should be shamed.

If we enforce Virtuous Conduct by abusing people, we do not get an overall improvement in wellbeing. We get a lot of people keeping their heads down and obeying the New Rules with the same bitter helplessness they obeyed the first set of Arbitrary Gender Pronouncements they were raised into, and a bunch of unnecessary enemies.

Don't do that shit.

#ask #hoc est meum #Anonymous #bunch of fucking rainbow puritans #so eager for a taste of blood #yeah it's Pride in 2005 #and your first thought when someone at pride asks 'hey how is your friend who used to go to school with my sister doing these days?' #and gets their name wrong #is that they did that on purpose?? and need to be Crushed? #yeah you're indistinguishable from any other bully with incomprehensible Laws About How To Be Normal #i do not respect you #i've also met several people who play stupid power games with the evolving social protocols around gendering people correctly #which after this & several other Stupid experiences combined with a lifetime of the arbitrary social punishments of autism was nightmarish #but they were just being mildly obnoxious in a way that set off trauma i did not need to have #except some people think #they're some kind of gender paladins #i'm serious do not do this you are harming the community so badly #fuck off #kill the cop inside your head

[journey-to-the-attic]

i want to draw something for this at some point but i'm busy and also have this other drawing set i wanna finish first but anyway. leaving this here in the meantime!!

ik encounters a very rare breed of devildom creature that is basically a massive eldritch horror. formless mass of dark tar-like goop that is constantly waterfalling down to something beyond this realm, it's the size of a small house and extends dripping limbs that are several metres in length. it can communicate only in garbled gurgling noises and has no discernible features

ik is arguably insane when it comes to Creatures (and is also cornered, with little to no options for escape) so she decides to hold her hand out to it like you would greet a cat. thus does ik discover that the Creature is like an affectionate puppy and they both decide that the other is their new best friend

everyone else is horrified by the development, but also can't really do anything about it because the Creature bats them away like a fly whenever they try to intervene

#had the idea while remembering the baby herobrine creature ik encounters in ch 23 #by god that is an incomprehensible sentence #anyway the main image in my head is one of the brothers very sternly carrying ik away from the creature #ik reaches over their shoulder for it like 'D:' and the creature reaches back and goes (devastated) 'BLLRGHRLLRAHRAAHRB :((((((((((((' #misc thoughts

[bookshelfpassageway]

help the chicken run part of my brain is still activated after watching that sequel and it won't turn off

#my posts #chicken run #i already regaled my baffled friends on discord my incomprehensible thoughts about it no thoughts head cheekim #there was a period of my childhood where i simply watched it repeatedly for like. a WHILE. Like a couple weeks at least enough to Comment o #to say nothing of metal gear chicken ps1 game of all time #do you ever think back and go ''Mac's gender interested me deeply'' and ''i think i might have daydreamed my OWN sequel and i think #that my self insert chicken had the rooster tail because i thought it was cool and no other reason'' #aardman really kills it with the Perfect action sequences #wrong trousers train? sublime. pie machine? cinema. #the sequel... really all it did was make me want to watch chicken run #granted it had some fun ideas

[preggomancer]

entirely random but 90% of why i deactivated last time was because i realized i didn't want those characters on a kink blog just in case etc, but also 10% one day it struck me that if Yuriy had an accidental pregnancy he would 100% without get an abortion. and because of the way my brain works i was like. "well shoot guess i have to throw out this entire story now"

#for the like 3 people who remember those ocs lol #to clarify those characters were all from a different story #and i came up with a cute happy parent AU for them #but they are very established people in my head and i was like. he would simply not do this #i have since come up with a workaround #also the irony is he actually does have a daughter in the original story #anyway. i am rambling. i just thought this was funny #i do miss that being this blog though i was a lot more invested in those characters #but i always felt kind of weird sexualizing them even though i literally made them up in my brain #i am. i am incomprehensible #not mart #delete later

[givemaycoffee]

Sitting here and listening to all the languages/accents around me, and I just remembered that post about how American accents belong in the tv.

Spain Spanish speakers feel that way to me. Why does your Spanish sound like that. Get back in the television. What the heck.

#oh man yesterday we happened to eat dinner next to a group playing d&d #and it was sooo delightful because literally everyone had a different natural accent #we were laughing because it’s like - no one needs to do voices #our favorite was the older gentleman with the Scottish accent #BEAUTIFUL. #anyway working on a campus for an international collaboration is very fun #loving the vibe #struggling tho because despite speaking both Spanish and Italian - French is still totally incomprehensible to me #written I can kinda figure out but spoken is just… nothing #goes over my head completely #makes me feel like a stupid American and I have to remind myself that when I lived in Italy people literally thought I was local #(apparently I look Italian enough (I am not Italian)) #(I’ve also lost most of it since but I was completely conversational at the time) #so anyway >-< doing my best #and its okay to not know all the languages

[orowyrm]

when i’m. when i. when

#incomprehensible thoughts inside my head

[feisaru]

Hello!

I'm so happy to see there is still people out there who loves people from the future!

Tell me, what do you think about the future of the Second Stage Children? Do you think Saru would really takes this vaccine without resistance ? How the adults treat him and Feida now that it's done?

Did Fey still hold some kind of grudge about Saru? His father?

I hope you can understand me, english is my second langage...

Have a good day and thank you for sharing your art I love it!

Hi anon!! I understand what you're saying just fine. Your questions flatter me (esp since it's the first time this is happening to me,,), but quick disclaimer: for whatever reason, I get a little nervous about posting thoughts that are dear to me all texted out online where people might find them. Which is a little funny since I actually write and analyze a lot, but alas. My go-to for expressing my hcs is drawing them out, as that feels less direct but still helps me get it out of my system. I usually talk about my stuff more directly with people I'm close with, as I feel like they get it more. I'll answer those, but much less elaborate than I could heh

Saru and vaxxing, huh... Saru had his fair share of doubts about it. Doubts that were breakdown-worthy, even. People have always just seen him as an SSC, not a person but a monster, so at some point he started to tie his own self-worth to his powers too. The list of insecurities is sheer endless. I don't wanna say anything I will not agree with in hindsight here, so I'll just go with the vaxxing itself went without further complications from his side (spare the semi-canon phobia of needles he has, according to the manga), but that he still had his fair share of head in hands moments beforehand, and that his now-lack of powers is something that is gonna weigh him and his recovery down for another few years.

He'll never forgive El Dorado for how they've treated him and what they've done, how fucked up they are. And neither is the world at large going to forgive him for what he's done. He's going to stay a man with many enemies. Even walking around the city casually will become a pretty dangerous thing, which is why neither him nor Fei are supposed to do it. El Dorado keeps monitoring him in the beginning so he doesn't try anything funny. His "fuck you" approach towards them pretty much stays the same. Even if Toudou wanted to strike a deal with him, he'd want nothing to do with it. He'll never trust anything they do.

I don't think Fei was ever really mad at Saru. If anything, he was disappointed and sad that Saru always kept on doing the same thing and pushed him away. They're working on that post-CS, just like they're working on everything else. About Asurei though?? OHHHHHHH boy there's a LOT unpack there. Fei does not immediately forgive him. He resents him, and it takes another few years until he actually becomes more open towards fixing their father-son relationship. And even then, it never quite becomes perfect, but at least it turns out okay.

Last but not least, thank you a lot, you're very sweet<3 You reminded me I ought to post here. Good day to you too!!

#i hope at least some of this is satisfying dlsjsjsv I really had to keep myself back here #i have #do many thoughts #*so #feisaru receives asks #i can and will screech about cs incomprehensibly #now im a little curious as to who you are #your writing style sounds a little like my fav artist's #which is cool #all those are funny bc I have whole ass hyperfixation essays on them in my notes dksvsj #this is all so awfully vague i apologize #my heads a bit spacey #I ACTUALLY LOVE BEING ASKED ABOUT LORE STUFF

[camillahex]

something i’ve been turning over in my head lately is that i don’t fully believe john gaius actually gave alecto her name.

i think with the way he only ever refers to her as A.L./Annabel Lee or First, (and now whenever i hear that i can’t help but think of gothicenjoyer‘s, post connecting john gaius’s assertion of the lyctors as children of alecto’s First to a rather disturbing passage in lolita of humbert calling dolores haze his Lolita the First) – which are names that attempt to put alecto in an obviously subjugative position under/in deference him – along with how angry he seems at anyone even mentioning the fact that she has a name that is not annabel lee, john does actually want her name to truly be annabel lee and hates the fact that it is alecto.

in his and harrow’s tea time, he tells harrow annabel lee is not alecto’s real name and says specifically “she had a real name, but I buried it with her.” to me statement has always had an undercurrent of anger to it, and when connected to the idea that alecto’s name was self-chosen, suggests the anger is directed at the name itself and he is trying to erase it to erase who she was/her autonomy/her actions that were not controlled by or in deference to him by burying her real name, and then constructing an image/story of alecto that he can control. he did the same story construction with the ending of the world in nona and wiping everyone’s memories of it, and he seems to have taken and changed the lyctors’ and their cavaliers’ old names and renamed them in his preference (see: U– and T– to ulysses and titania) all to inextricably connect them to him and make them dependent on him

a lot of people have taken the existence of alecto in greek mythology as the fury of anger to mean that john pointedly named her after her anger (or potentially his anger) at the destruction of the earth (or the abandonment of the earth by the trillionaires if it’s actually john’s rage). john has already said that anger was her mortal sin (and we have also seen that it seems to be his as well), but i think that who that anger is directed at and what it is in response to is also very important. we know from the nona’s final chapter and epilogue that alecto thinks of her body as ugly/disgusting/monstorous. this isn’t just because it’s a natural distase for a human body, as she is the embodiment of the earth, because, as nona, she thought harrow body was beautiful and wonderful and liked living in it. but yet alecto’s body, the body that john fashioned to be “perfect” (a literal barbie), is so revolting that in the epilogue from alecto’s point of view, she only ever calls it “the body” not her body.

all of this to say, i think alecto named herself after her own rage at john’s violation of her very existence by killing the earth (her), consuming the earth’s (her) soul, and then forcing the earth’s (her) soul into a “perfect” body constructed literally from his ribs and his subsequent binding of her to him in a position of subjugation that he would then go on to build an entire empire around

(and throughout the entirety of nona, john presented his story as an unavoidable downward spiral where he was always forced by outside actors to keep doubling down on his actions. it’s told with a very “what else could you do” attitude that tries to efface john’s accountability for his actions, and i think if alecto specifically chose her name to represent her own rage at the position and circumstances of her new existence, it would be a direct confrontation for john of his role as the root of her anger, and a constant reminder of the direct responsibility he holds for the real death of the earth, which would also present a threat to the story he created of it that he told to his lyctors)

#you can also add in the fact that alecto can not lie and responding to a name you do not identify with could be considered a kind of lying #and john said that even before she was called alecto he called her First which means that there was probably an amount of time for her to #develop her own identity and name #contrasting this with alecto as nona who knows she most likely has a different name and is a differnt person but 'nona' is the name she #connects with this life she loves living and so it becomes her own name #and then when pyrrha almost calls nona 'alecto' she pegs pyrrha not to because she doesn't want to remember the violation done to her and #her rage at her existence under john #anyways this may be somewhat incomprehensible i am very bad at translating my thoughts from my head to actual words #and i am prone to tangents and rambling to try to make my point as specifically as possible (but then getting lost in all the little details #i'm thinking about) #nona the ninth spoilers #locked tomb #the locked tomb #tlt #nona #alecto #meta #if you see my typos in these tags no you don't #posting #locked tomb meta

[minecraftrelatedrandomness]

I feel that the dsmp fandom are like maidens (gender-neutral) waiting for their boyfriends to come home from the war so they can get married and have a happily ever after, but none of them know the war in question is a hundred-years war, and some of us have started eyeing up other fandoms while the rest of us simply wait the endless wait like penelope for odysseus to come home, but ultimately we are still waiting, you know?

#i know this is incomprehensible but hear me out. im tired and rambling #dream smp fandom #dream smp #my post #2 august 2022 #my head is so emtpy rn. zero thoughts at all #aqua writes

[moonfurthetemmie]

gouge would probably love to see how much pain normal DS Ink can handle and would probably be disappointed that she has a pretty average pain tolerance

#horror!ds #H!DS Gouge #implied torture #idk random thing #kinda feel bad about not giving more H!DS content but they’ve mostly just been rotating in my head #and giving very specific scenarios that would probably be incomprehensible to normal people #who do not have nigh-unlimited access to my brain and the chaos of thoughts inside it #if I could draw y’all would have so much content believe be

[hua-fei-hua]

when i was eating breakfast earlier i was like, “i wonder what kind of supplementary reading people might have to do about me if i ever become, like, a historical case study or whatever” and then i realized that the answer is probably just the source material of every major fandom i’ve ever gotten into

#this is partially a lie; they'd also need to read 'my mother's touch' by lauren d yee which was a meme in speech #this train of thought came around bc i was specifically making jokes in my head abt that script and realized they must be #absolutely incomprehensible to someone who wasn't already familiar with the joke/script #like the jokes are absolute nonsense if you don't already know the Exact Line of the script that i'm spoofing on #花話