#in the midst of everything they have

[pyrotechnicdarts]

another tfe sequence i think about constantly

#do you guys understand. do you understand how cool this is #the FRAMING the ANGLE the COLORS #earthspark #transformers #earthspark spoilers #bumblebee #tfe #twitch malto #thrash malto #dot malto #robby malto #alex malto #mo malto #the way it cuts to the twins n bee and the twins are scared and angry and terrified for their family and want to help but CANT #and are told that everything is under control and they just have to trust that their family will be alright #just to cut right back to the maltos running in the midst of absolute chaos #i havent been this invested action sequences in a while tfe really is so so so good #tf #side note i am a huge fan of how bee just. shakes thrash back into root mode and holds him like a wet kitten #tfvid

[crescentfool]

with the year coming to a close, i hope that anyone who's reflecting about how the year went remembers to be kind and fair to themselves with how you evaluate the year as a whole.

i think there are definitely times when life throws things that are... Not So Great at you. whether if it's some external circumstance that surprised you, or maybe your mentality wasn't at it's best. i wish for anyone who's encountered those kinds of challenges to be able to triumph over them and be able to say that they got through it.

heck, it might still be a work in progress even though you've kept chipping away at it, and that's ok! the results will show themselves eventually as you work through it! and i hope that we can all remember to be patient with ourselves as we go through these processes (learning, healing, etc.), because damn, it can be frustrating when you feel like you're "not there yet."

knowing that life can be rough at times, i think it's unfair to yourself (and others) to discount and downplay any progress you've made this year- whether if it's something that you did for the first time, or maybe you came to a new understanding and insight that you didn't have in the previous year.

it's not to say that you should undermine the validity of your experience with hardship, but to take the time to remind yourself what makes life worth living. to recall what moments were the most satisfying to you- and use it to strengthen your resolve for the next year and beyond. no amount of hardship will ever take away from the fact that you deserve to have hope that things will get better.

i hope that looking back on the year, you don't leave out the things you cherish. that you can remember the good that came this year. whether if the small victories are things like meeting someone new, trying something out for the first time, or making some strides in a long-term project/obligation...!

i wish everyone a happy new year! may it be prosperous, and that your life can move in a direction that's close to what you want out of life. you're all going to do great! remember to congratulate yourself for what you did well! despite everything, you're still here, and that's wonderful. never forget that!

#lizzy speaks #hello everyone. i know that there are *checks calendar* still 20 days left of december and 2023 #but i've had a lot of strong emotions and feelings i've had to sort through as i've been thinking about how 2023 went for me #so a lot of what i've written here comes from the perspective of someone in their early 20s #it's like... a crash and burn from when you were a teenager thinking that you know everything #and realizing how big the world is and how many responsibilities there are #all while a feeling of overwhelm looms over as you try to sift your way through the world and adjust your understanding of it #for me i've definitely had an underlying thought that 'you should have your shit together by now why aren't you there yet' #and it's! not motivating! at all! to think that way. and it's made me more than ever want to be a friend to myself. to extend a patient- #kind voice to myself that reminds me that others are also trying to navigate these feelings and to accept that i'm not going to have an- #instantaneous understanding of how one goes about adulthood. and neither will they. even if they look 'put together.' #like... these people have also undergone similar stresses and along the way figured out how to navigate through that space #and personally i've found peace in knowing that there are people who are older than me. trusting that they've dealt with these things too i #some shape or form and that them living... being here.. is proof that we shall be fine in the end and that we will move past what plagues- #our mind. there's definitely been some... anger i've had this year that. school didnt teach me these things or skills!! i was so mad lol #but hey if we are little guys who are living on planet earth for the first time we shouldn't condemn ourselves to an unrealistic standard- #of going through life and being able to instantly do everything 'correctly' and know how everything works #i'm still working on improving that patience... and also trying to put in the work to understand these things. #in the midst of a very tough week for me i was tempted to say that 'nothing happened this year it was not productive' #but then i was like. that's. objectively not true if you just look at other things. also theres worth in life outside of 'productivity' #...i think i passed 20 tags at this point. but like. my favorite thing about 2023 was meeting so many cool awesome people! #who would've known that funny lil squid game could bring so many connections and friendships i cherish! #thank you so much! for being a part of my life and changing me for the better! for giving me many fond memories! #and i'm very grateful to anyone who supported me and my art this year... for sticking around even though i wished i could do more #it means the world to me knowing that there's proof that i exist and have touched someone's life in a positive way! thank you! truly! #ANYWAY. happy early new year. i hope everyone can nourish a friend in their head that extends acceptance and patience to themselves #as we try and make sense of the world together. there will be things that we don't understand yet! but one day we will! and it'll be like #wow! look how far i came! i'm okay! i'm alive! yipee! thank you for reading this post i made to get my feelings out! have a nice day!

[drinkingdeadpeopletea]

man. lark was already such a jenny from thebes character but after this last episode...i don't even NEED to make a playlist for her we can just all go listen to that album

#motorcycle and everything....... #is anyone with me here. the overlap btw my friends who listen to midst and my friends who listen to the mountain goats is exactly zero #midst #midst podcast #midst spoilers #once you commit to a turn you're gonna have to follow through! hide your face when the splash comes it's the only thing you can do! #and just when you think you've learned how to forget you find it's just the ones who haven't risen to the surface yet! #absence after absence keep this place secure! this will be the last time i do this i'm pretty sure! #you're gonna have to watch for the signs you're gonna have to learn how to read! #nobody's gonna hand you a flashlight you're gonna have to steal what you need! #i could keep going.

[thebirdandhersong]

popping my head through your window (and possibly shattering the glass woops) to say: I am alive! I've been spending time with family, studying (I can safely say now that Professor Joy is the best and I would 10/10 follow her back to England to take her course at King's College if it weren't for the financial part. She was SO lovely and her class was amazing), preparing for fall classes, chipping away steadily at my essays and my fairy tale novel, hammering out the occasional blog post or poem, cooking, sleeping (or trying to, anyway), doing social things (I had one thing almost every day this week and it just about killed me. Thank God the person I was supposed to meet up with today cancelled, otherwise I'd be pretty much dead), reading TONS (am currently reading Sophie's World, War and Peace, Aggressively Happy, Jamie Smith's On the Road, Gordon Fee's How to Read the Bible for All Its Worth, and the Heidelberg Catechism for kicks, as well as working my way through a few class readings), and have caught up with a few stories I meant to catch up with (in other words: went to watch Barbie in the theatres, which was brilliant and not what I expected, and finished The Bear season 2, which.... I don't know, guys, it was a Lot). Things have been BUSY on the school front and many concerning things have been revealed BUT all is well and all shall be well!!

I shall be back in September. At present things are still SUPER busy. But I shall keep y'all in my prayers! Miss you and love you!!

#this fall semester is going to be Interesting #(@gracie you thought i had tons of midterms last year?? girl i'm taking FIVE english classes this semester....... i'm literally going to be #up to my eyebrows in midterm essays tests and exams in a handful of months) #anywayyyy it has been intermittently emotionally draining because previous church drama #also i have not yet chosen a church to attend which is suchhhh a hard decision to make. after the last one i've found that i'm actually a #lot more reluctant/hesitant/scared to commit to a church out of fear of being unpleasantly surprised again #but i'm trying to work through that! #but overall everything is fine and i am slowly getting up to speed on a lot of things i was behind on #God is good y'all! and very kind in the midst of all This!

[wyvernne]

i just want to give a little update.

as most of you probably already know, i’m in law school. although i wanted to have the “see you through til the day’s end” rewrite done by diluc’s birthday, it’s highly unlikely i’ll be able to finish everything i want to by then. there’s still too many scenes i want to rework and add in, and with all the studying i need to get done for law school, it’s just not going to be possible. i’ll try my best to keep everyone updated as i figure everything out

#ughhh #again #i can’t meet another self imposed deadline rip #literally cried in the club over spring break 🫡 #dreading how much work i still have to get done in the next few weeks before finals #i was drinking a bay breeze and everything 💀 #and then someone texted me asking about an upcoming memorandum we have due and drunk me found that to be too much fr #i’m also in the midst of interviews for summer internships 🫠

[sysig]

A complete lack of catharsis (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #*tries to make a pun with Car and Catharsis* Anyway #The Sad™ Flavour - here's what was missing #Inspired Directly by conversation like dialogue lifted straight not even a little diverging lol - it made a strong image in my head! #And those are my very favourites ♥ Gotta get 'em Out onto paper haha #ZEX came out to have a nice time and you are Ruining It Dex #Can't blame him for trying :( Anything to bring Max back to him! #I really love the imagery of Dex taking him out somewhere where it's just the two of them being very small together #Cooped up in the summer home by themselves - it's definitely something but it feels so heavy and claustrophobic #Like they're trapped - I mean ZEX literally is - and Dex isn't much better slowly deteriorating with his guilt and lack of rest #So taking a moment to go out together somewhere so huge and impressive - somewhere they can see the stars #Somewhere to feel small in the face of everything - and for ZEX to be closer to home for just a moment #Hhhh <3 #And for the moment to feel so singularly beautiful and impactful - and then to be intercut with their shared Nothingness #Would it hurt more for the evening to be beautiful and unbroken - to come so close to touching that impossibly huge Feeling #Or to be shattered in the midst and reaffirmed that neither is what the other is really looking for? I can't decide ♥ #I think what gets me the absolute most is that it doesn't matter - nothing they can say to each other will really reach who they want to #Dexter wants Max and ZEX wants DAX and they're both so /close/ but it's just not /right/ #I wonder if ZEX is even in his right mind enough to realize what he's asking of Dex is the same that could be asked of him #Dexter can't be DAX for him but he still calls him that :'( #Such an unfair situation #And no matter how much they cry it out and find any sliver of comfort in each other - they just have to keep on living this way #No catharsis - just continuance

[harenodrawsthings]

A Dream from Last Night: Missing Baggage

Though I’ve been super busy, I had a dream recently that was short enough for me to do. The context was Douman was visiting because he heard she was sick in bed, but seemed to have a bit of a situation along the way. Perhaps it is blue instead of the usual void because I was mulling over which blue paint color to choose for my new place. I remember suddenly waking up and laughing at how silly it all was.

#Hareno's art #fgo #fate grand order #caster of limbo #ashiya douman #mastersona #gudasona #fanart #sketch #Im in a moment where I'm dissatisfied with everything I draw #definitely not my best #but doing my best to get in some drawing in the midst of everything #one sketch at a time #I'm happy to have gotten another dream comic done!

[pluralaita]

aita for giggling when an alter called another alter a faygott (remove the y)

#actually plural #aita #did #dissociative identity disorder #osddid #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #plural #plural community #plurality #plural system #am i the asshole #it’s refreshing to have an actually normal poll for once in the midst of all the. everything other people send in -🩵 #RESULT: NTA

[kweza]

somewhere in between all the online chatter of "reject modernity, embrace tradition," "alpha males this," "tradwife that," "bad evil feminism ruined everything," "how to be countercultural rebels 101: get married young, homestead, homeschool and have 12 children" and "every woman should be a homemaker without fail or nuance,"people seem to have forgotten that the principal God-given mandate to share the Gospel is addressed to everyone, regardless of gender. that's really the main purpose of both male and female followers of Christ.

#everything else is extra and non-salvific #christians seems to have forgotten that in the midst of all these gender-obssessed debates

[captainofthetidesbreath]

good episode for people like me who are obsessed with Phineas and Spahr's relationship because it's a major focal point and we learn a crucial bit of background between them

bad* episode for people like me who are obsessed with that relationship because now I'm so stressed out about how Phineas doesn't know that Spahr didn't want to leave him and has been plagued by guilt and has been constantly thinking about him since

*to be clear, this means it's great

#this relationship is everything to me and it's stressing me the fuck out. #i should write a post but they're having the same arc. going through almost the same thing at opposite ends of the universe. #and they don't even know. #Midst things #Midst spoilers #Phineas Thatch #Jonas Spahr #Midst #Midst podcast

[zekkopunks]

replaying mother 3 and now I can’t stop having leder’s speech in the back of my mind everytime I go around tazmily and seeing all the villagers

#m3 liveblog #i got to chapter 2 and im thinking about duster becoming a theif because thats the fabricated role wess and duster have to follow #everyone had to live a new life from their old one and they don’t even know at all #I feel like no one ever talks about how fucked up that is to learn later in the game lol #its such an interesting thing just chucked at you in the midst of everything else happening

[queerasian]

i am devastated over succession’s finale to this day but i also don’t think it should or could’ve ended any other way.

if kendall had “won” he would’ve still lost. he might’ve been happy in his own way but he had already sold his soul for a chance at victory. in that way he would’ve lost no matter what happened.

the american people in the show already lost, no matter who took over as CEO.

the whole point is that it’s all bullshit and only roman realized in the end that they spent their whole lives killing themselves and each other and a whole country over meaningless bullshit and in lieu of dealing with their own traumas and faults.

there are no winners and there were never supposed to be any winners no matter what happened, as long as the corrupt toxic culture that was at the heart of waystar, and that the company kindled in the american public, remained untouched.

#it was really inevitable from the start that the wider arc of the show more or less had to be a tragedy #even if the show itself doesn’t nearly fit that genre #i have more to say about this tbh but the show is very good at portraying how a fractured family #with far too much trauma and corruption in its midst #ends up playing out its dramas on a wider societal scale where everyone else is forced to be a part of it unwillingly #and the people at the nucleus are unable to even be aware that that is what’s happening #the siblings are traumatized and hurt themselves and each other and the ramifications of that reverberate throughout a whole country and #that is the wider horror of the show too #and i am ultimately still so sad about kendall because he had many chances to break this cycle but he is too fucked up by it to do so #:(((( #he tried and tried and lost everything in the end too #kendall roy #succession #hbo succession #queerasian.txt

[butchybats]

If you’re ever sad just remember that Armand and Daniel wore matching outfits to Lestat’s concert

#did they have them beforehand? #or did they go shopping in the midst of everything happening #the vampire chronicles

[sherlock-is-ace]

my main worry with this season was that it wasn't going to fit with last season, specially being an all new story since neil and terry never got to write the sequel. But boy was I wrong! It not only fits perfectly, but it also gives us more lore, more history and deepens the characters so much!! I loved it, I loved everything about it! I will not shut up about it kdjfhgkdfg

#goddamn it so many little details and callbacks and just UGH #a joy to watch! totally made out of love for the story for the characters and for terry #david tennant and michael sheen doing outstanding performances (as always) #and with a fantastic cast of new and old faces #i'm just so happy that we have good omens... i'm sappy right now but i'm just so happy #and in the midst of everything that's happening with the strike... i just want it to succeed #and i want the people who worked on it to be paid and be able to continue to make amazing art <3 #good omens #good omens s2 #angel talks #personal #sort of

[disco-lizard]

man im adjusting to my meds again and the vivid nightmares have been back 😫 i didn’t even have that symptom as bad when i first started taking them but its been horrific this time around ugh

#last night was a nightmare where i got mass blocked by everyone and called out #night before that was a kidnapping situation #and a few days ago i dreamt i was in the midst of a mass shooting #and they always feel so real i have to fully convince myself every morning that everything is okay #no wonder my anxiety is through the roof again

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

look I'm sorry, I really am. but if you watch The Husbands of River Song and interpret that as being a definitive picture of what River is like as a person... you're wrong. and you've missed the point.

#*yeets this post at tumblr and then runs away fast before an DiscourseTM can start* #seriously I love THORS with all my heart but y'all canNOT just keep taking everything at face value #and assuming that just because a character claims something as though it's true then it must be true #River says the Doctor doesn't love her and Hydroflax scans her and says it's not a lie and it's not!!! it really isn't a lie!!! #it's not a lie because RIVER believes it in that moment!!! #River is acting out in that story she is trying SO hard to distract herself from the pain and loss she's just experienced #ie Manhattan!! she's just lost both of her parents!! all the family she's ever known!! #and she didn't even get to KNOW them the way a child should know their parents!! her childhood was stolen #and now her parents have been too!! #and given the implication that she and the Doctor have a sort of falling out because of the events of Manhattan #she probably thinks that on some level she's lost him too!! #and that's why it's TWELVE who gets to be there with her in the midst of that adventure #because THIS is a Doctor who she doesn't have to be strong for!!!!! #River almost always had to be the strong one for Eleven #she was the one who had to keep looking at the angel when he broke down she had to break her own hand because he left her to do it #she was always the one pointing him towards the person he must become #she taught him how to love so that he could in turn teach HER!! #but Twelve! Twelve can stand beside her at his full height and look her in the eyes and not back away #he can see her full darkness and her unkindness and when it's over he is still there beside her holding her hand #he is allowed to see the most imperfect and un-River-ish version of River because he is the one who can see it and love her more for it #and I do think THORS is an aspect of River! it's her darker uglier afraid and alone and just desperately trying to distract herself side!! #but it's not like. The Definite River. River As She Truly Is (Without The Doctor There To Perform For). #and I'm slightly tired of seeing that position seemingly taken by a lot of people writing for the character lately #not to gripe about this again but like--a lot of the most recent BF stories featuring River make her feel so shallow?? #she's basically just the most flattened version of Captain Jack. but female. and without the immortality angst that makes him so interestin #ok I'm done yelling into the void now sfdkhdfkh #I have kicked at a (small but potentially feisty) hornets' nest and now I am going to sleep sdkjfkjhsdsf #gurt says stuff #river song #doctor who