#in retrospect that's fucking insane

[bitegore]

In retrospect it's like comically fucked how bad and how obvious the cycles-of-violence shit was and apparently still is in my mom's side of the family. Do you know how bad a parent you have to be to have your kid grow up to be a full on abuser and somehow manage to use you as an example of how not to treat your fucking kids to the degree that even their kids know that they're getting off easy cuz they don't live with fucking you?

#red rambles #like. my mom used to tell us shit when she was Mad mad like #'if i were my father i'd be hitting you or forcing hot sauce down your throat right now. thank me for not doing that' #in retrospect that's fucking insane #anyway that guy was a stain on the lives of everyone he was close with. glad he's dead! sucks that apparently his son is growing up to be #just like him!!!!!! #<- thinking on that lately as all the people i know turn into their own people

[beanghostprincess]

Sanji being Usopp's first mate somebody fucking sedate me I think I'm nauseous oh lord

#it's just so fucking uhjhjhewuhduekdb #i can't do this don't talk to me #it's either childhood bffs au or like #water 7 happens and usopp doesn't come back and sanji goes 'well guys this was great and also if he leaves i am leaving i can't do this' #which would be in like- in retrospective it would be a bad ending and it would kill luffy inside and out but that's just how angst is #sometimes people need to grow on their own #and i am going fucking insane seriously i need a moment #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso

[c-53]

I wish I could wipe my memory and listen to Sayer for the first time again so I could see the Ocean reveal for the first time again

#dataspeaks #AUUUGBHHH ITS SO WELL DONE #seeing the dominos line up on a retrospect is fun in its own way #but not knowing what was coming and being hit by so many consequences at once was fucking INSANE

[suncaptor]

nothing will make you sympathise with conspiracy theorist ideology more than having a seemingly rare reaction to a vaccine lmao.

#reading articles that try to falsify genuine incorrect information about the covid vaccines from 2021 is making me feel insane #'there's no way the covid vaccine can trigger an autoimmune disorder' uhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHH #factually extremely wrong! #they're soooo condescening too like why on EARTH do you think people who are genuinely sick or scared would believe you. #they'll be like there's no scientific evidence that anyone can be harmed by the covid vaccine <3 blatantly untrue. #I know that part of this is retrospect like obviously since more studies have come out and all #but it's infurirating bc they're from the time *I* was having those symptoms *and* telling doctors about it *and* being told the connection #to my other severe symptoms from the covid vaccine were Utterly Impossible (since proven false) and that if the symptoms WERE related #it meant i had a life threatening illness at worst and had a high chance of losing my vision at best #likeeeeeeeee #doctors still DO NOT know what the fuck they're doing do NOT trust anyone who gives ANY 100% answers #i don't know why i'm doing this i just said to stop obsessing but i'm just reading pages and articles on countering misinformation to make #sure i don't -- i want to know the conspiracy theories to recognise them immediately right #and then people are just saying bullshit to defend themselves #i mean most of the anti covid vacc people were also far right so i don't have too much sympathy for their vaccine ideology #but like. fucking hell what a way to push people into conspiracies. #you CAN'T counter misinformation by SPREADING MORE MISINFORMATION #just because it SOUNDS BETTER and MORE REASSURING to say there's not chance of harm doesn't mean you should #there's A LOW chance of harm THAT IS MUCH MUCH less high than the impacts of covid #god I'm pissed off. 2021 i was so fucking terrified of spreading this shit just by talking about my lived experiences. #to say i was not taking the pandemic seriously OR anti vax is so blatantly ridiculous considering who I am as a person but that doesn't mea #that the covid vaccine specifically didn't make me ill :////// #delete

[anti-gravity-insanity]

TURNED IT IN TURNED IT IN MOST RECORD AMOUNT OF ALL NIGHTERS IN MY LIFE BUT I DID IT BY GOD TURNED IN MY THESIS IM FREE IM FREE IM FREE IM FREE

#sorry I’ve gotten very little sleep total in the past week #probably a record low in my life #makes me feel quite frenzied and insane this probably is incoherent in retrospect but oh well everyone rejoice with me I finished with just #enough time to go out and see the sunrise (oh god I can’t believe it’s fucking daytime again) #gravical #gonna lay on the lawn and take a napppppppppppp

[thcbolter]

taylor swift — the manuscript

#taylor swift #tscreators #networkthirteen #ttpd #the manuscript #music #gif #angel.psd #just barely missed the cutoff for the psc event whoops #not doing a big taglist bc this is Not good cause i haven't giffed in months so. warming up fsdfdsf #i just really needed somebody else to fathom the ''trip to your shores'' in the context of the ootw video #and the ''shores'' being her own past selves/albums/''all her fucking lives'' #cause ttpd is such a retrospective and self-analytical album it makes me insane #also idk if im gonna make a gifset for this but i need anyone and everyone to consider it with me: #''and at last she knew what the agony had been for'' vs #''and you understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars and why i've spent my whole life trying to put it into words''

[densitywell]

rewatching orym's moment with the locket over bor'dor's body again but for the purpose of taking a screenshot for a silly little gag

#this and his little soliloquy after. insane. chilling. also a fucking awful week for discourse but that was true most weeks of team issylra #i do think “why don't we get the colonist's side of things what if they’re just trying to save these evil cultists 🥺” beats it out #but ppl being like “orym and laudna did nothing wrong they deserve revenge 💅” while the act was explicitly eating their insides was. well! #in retrospect a great arc but btwn this and being desperate for an actual ashton hishari storyline truly hell on earth for me personally 😭 #CRposting

[anonymouscatloaf]

I don't think I was supposed to come out of my Scooby Doo: Mystery Incorporated re-watch Down Bad™️ for Mayor Jones but oh boy am I in fact Down Bad™️ for the morally grey mediocre father figure who still somehow managed to be a better father than Fred's biological dad(???)

#cat talks #yall i fucked up #he's like #ricky level of 'corrupted by the entity' #in retrospect its insane that cassidy was as good a person as she was #anyway i have feelings about mayor dad. send help #sdmi #mystery incorporated #scooby doo

[schrodingers-hoarding-problem]

yall i might just cry over a video essay about gravity falls

#its “Gravity Falls: 10 Years Later - A Retrospective” if yall are interested #as someone who did watch it in my youth (sorta - early teens) #but not when it was aired #its so so interesting to hear about how involved the community was (as i only became involved in fandom more recently) #also the fucking cipher hunt?? thats INSANE and so cool #jae’s thoughts #gravity falls

[el-im]

funny how simple the line ‘do you remember what Buzz Aldrin said when he stepped on the moon?’ is compared to how much it fucks. the bitterness, the immensity. the ego... 

#the answer: nobody does. because armstrong went first. #enterprise literally best show ever hands down #trek #captain's log #im in a fucking weird headspace #archer my archer.. #fucking INSANE line. especially in retrospect like robinson got himself killed and archer's goofy ass founded the federation #the ideas abt legacy and his preoccupation as a young man w his father's engine .. #its just so UHM #like. in first flight he's fighting on his dad's behalf and trying to fit his life into his dad's #thinking the most he'll be able to contribute is taking the step his father had leaned toward #and in the end. warp two is... one small step. #yanno #small potatoes. #lmfao #when he finally IS able to pull his head out of his ass he realizes what he's capable of doing on his own + that becomes so much more #impressive than what he aspired to as a young man and what he thought was important #and despite the monuments and the schools named after him and the museums built with his name on the side... what he leaves behind is so... #pardon the pun. nebulous. #everything traces back to him. and the work he did. #the reflection is really the kicker--the appraisal of his life after it's been lived #once youre able to divorce his shitty fucking personality from his accomplishments #knowing that all his bigotry and intransigence dies with him #what you're left with is the best parts of him #the times he was accepting and generous and kind. when he extended a hand out to all those he encountered hoping for friendship #GOD #archer. talk about the fucking duality of man #hes the worst but how can you not love him #LOVE him #like. ardently. admirably. with affection beyond words

[trashcreatyre]

Mfw im just trying to read a story about a fictional gay couple i like and other characters in the story start calling a different gay couple slurs out of nowhere

#wattpad is fucking insane and i hate it so much #(derogatory) #and before anyone says anything #i was only using wattpad because i couldn’t find any fics on ao3 or quotev #it was quite literally my only option #and there weren’t even that many fics #i think there were like three and two of them were smut i think #and the only one i read was really bad too #i do not recommend it even if you enjoy reading bad fics #like #istg EVERYONE was SO ooc it was insane #and it really felt like they didn’t know the base material either (i mean the games) #like for one game it was like glaringly obvious #but i only realized how off the other one was in retrospect #like it really felt like they just read a quick summary of the characters and then decided to make an au and a whole fic about it #idk maybe I’m being over critical but man #it was bad #trash rambles

[princessnijireiki]

sometimes the weirdest fucking people are racist in odd ways. like why are you as a new yorker who is obsessed w jewish food such a closet antisemite that you unleash such startling rage upon talking abt jewish ppl that casual observers can see the mental illness you successfully mask the other 99% of the time. like why do jews set you off like that as you eat a tasty bagel

#this is about a man who is dead no worries #but yeah in retrospect it's like ''damn I thought that racism was out of character but it turns out it was not only in character #but it made you go fully mask off w your suicidal depression rage in a way none of the other things in yr life could be an outlet for'' #like mans had so much dissatisfaction w life & the whole world & he decided to channel that into yelling abt jewish ppl for 2.5mos/yr #tbf that's also the assigned catholic reading from mid feb thru april for lent + easter season which is already UNFATHOMABLY WEIRD #like. leave them alone. they r not at temple thinking abt u for a full spring semester like this. #but still fucking odd to open both hostile taps at full strength ONLY on the ''fuck the jews'' days of the vatican's read-along calendar #anyway. #suicide ment // #antisemitism // #catholics are insane tag //

[yellowlaboratory]

Bestie, did you end up going on that trip to Charleston?? If so, did you manage to see any filming? And most importantly, did you have fun? Charleston seems so pretty, definitely a bucket list item for me

haha yes I did!! i had the marvelous idea of spending three weeks in charleston at the height of the summer and tbh I regret absolutely nothing.

I did get to see some filming! when I tell you i was SEARCHING, I mean that. I would tell you how many miles I walked while I was there but it’s an embarrassing number so we’re gonna move on. I got to see them filming at Kiara’s house, Tanneyhill, and Limbrey’s house. I also got to see them filming the reshoots for the Carrera anniversary party scene at the Wreck, which was probably the most exciting!! 

And I had a ridiculous amount of fun!!! I didn't think I'd love the city of Charleston as much as I did. the food was amazing, the city was so pretty, I absolutely adored Shem Creek and Mount Pleasant, and I only got absolutely drenched by summer rain twice!! I got to meet some pretty cool people & make some friends & I nearly got adopted into a family while I was out set stalking so I think that’s a win (or maybe a red flag, i don’t know)

#obx #hello again my friend who reads all the tags asdkjfhlaskdjf #I got back a few weeks ago and I've been Big Depresso ever since #i also had JUST gotten back from one of my favorite trips of all time like 2 weeks before i left for charleston #so it's like double post trip depression #one thing i can tell you is it's fucking STEAMY in charleston #and I don't mean sexy i mean I sweat through three shirts the first day I got there #the humidity is fucking INSANE #i have legitimately no idea how they film #I nearly passed out when I walked to trader joes one day #it's my fucking fault for walking to trader joes in that heat anyways aksdljfhlaskdjfas #also #in terms of weather #the first time I got caught in the rain I had to walk 2 MILES back to my house in the rain cause I was too stubborn to call an uber #I was absolutely soaked to the bone and I literally had to buy a new phone in charleston because my old phone had permanent water damage #you would think that would be enough to make me not stand outside in the rain again but you would be wrong #when I saw chase filming at Limbrey's house it started absolutely downpouring #the crew started talking videos of all the fans standing in the rain and yeah okay in retrospect I can admit that it was pretty funny #also!!! the one thing this confirmed to me is that the obx fandom is just as cool in real life lmao #i made a different group of friends every time I stumbled upon set #usually because I knew a disproportionate amount of information about filming lmaoooo #most of the time i didn't see much (except for the anniversary party lmao I had that scene blocked out) #i also missed meeting bailey and rudy by 30 minutes when they were filming at the carrera's house so fuck me i guess #also I stayed so late at the dock for the carrera anniversary scene hanging out with some very cool people #and apparently the crew didn't want to ask us to move but we were in the back of one of the drone shots #so they're gonna have to digitally edit us out #💀💀💀💀 #anyways 10/10 recommendation for charleston #i want to reiterate that the food in charleston is insane #Im a huge fan of raw bars and it's like every fucking bar is a raw bar I LOVE IT

[antifa-terra]

Thinking about how I technically have a call out post for saying that I thought the Queen of England would be an avatar of the web rather than the slaughter and this was something I was upset about.

#I deadass do NOT remember how this came up #also the person i was disagreeing with was one of the mods #and one of the problems was that we were even talking about it in the first place #but the mod that snarked at me over it was also saying i shouldn't have had the conversation in the first place #like okay go off #i admit it was a stupid conversation to have and in retrospect a little tasteless #but are you fucking kidding me #well technically the call out post was for leaving the discord server afterwards without like #addressing it or 'taking accountability' #which is. insane. but now i have anxiety over leaving servers. #as well as getting lectured by mods #well i say anxiety #i have anxiety about the former #i have trauma around getting lectured by mods #which is. fantastic and not at all inconvenient. #and it's not actually a post #at least as far as i know? i'm still kind of in hiding from these people #this might be a #vent #idk #this was like #about the same time as i deleted my last tumblr #tbh if anything goes suuuper wrong with the current group of discords i'm in #which is the way it feels like it's going #i may panic and delete this account and if i do please don't worry about me i'll be fine #i just. when it comes to social drama #i have learned to run away when faced with any challenge for fear of making it worse and hurting people's feelings #WOW that got heavy

[hauntingblue]

Pausing my op marathon so I can watch the movies and other shows while the current arc keeps going 🫡🫡

#also wano was such a thing.... like so well constructed.... so much background.... can't believe i am nearly caught up. this is insane #i am like 2 months too soon. i thought i was gonna spend the whole uni year watching it. well..... #i think dressrosa was good but at the same time luffy doesn't have the connection to the people of the island he has in wano or others... #it is mostly law's story that pulls you in and that's good but i love me my luffy so wano and what they did to get to gear 5.... too good #just saying shit at this point... retrospective i guess.... #gyojin island was great to me bc it was mostly lore and i loved the end with jinbe #and shirahoshi and luffy were too good together. rude little man and a big ass scared siren. incredible showstopping #punk hazard was too funny. had a blast and law was a menace... also tashigi my friend tashigi... and smoker.... #wci was emotional to say the least. luffy suffered more than jesus but somehow sanji cried more which i loved to see.... #NOW i would have liked for wano to be zoro's story too... which kinda was but i wish he had important relationships with people that are not #luffy or his swords you know. but tashigi wasn't there and i think she is central to where his character is going so. i will wait i guess... #goodbye my sweet darlings.... buggy is waiting for me in the title screen of the next episode but i have to say goodbye for now.... #i will see you in your non canon movies.... farewell..... #fuck i have exams next week... this is so bad for my op marathon stats..... #talking tag #watching one piece

[dankovskaya]

Okay apparently its from 3 weeks ago and i jst now noticed but i watched ff7 rebirth final trailer and what the fuck

#SO MUCH happens in the little ass original game there are so many completely distinct places and seeing so many of them teased in that #trailer is insane like has me doing calculus on my fingers like HOW LONG IS THIS GAME? #i have to assume the pace here will be more comparable to the original like.... remake was truly just dilly dallying #in midgar and will probably feel in retrospect like fucking nothing happened which is true #but i thot itwas going to be 3 games right..... i saw costa del sol i saw the barret city which means obviously #golden saucer or whatver and also clearly nibelheim and the. Port town wit hthe disguises i forget. and red dog city. #But also the fucking like tomb raider temple??DSBfigusgs and the SNOWY MOUNTAIN PLACE? #Isn't that like..... everywhere basically..... are they just making all these different hubs so that they can think of reasons #to make you return to all of them for different reasons in the 3rd game....... #its TOO MANY CITIES i dont get it. And not enough vincent #and i cant tell if vincent's jpn voice is the original voice actor with consideration to vocal changes over time OR if it's possibly nanami #jjk cause he's very popular and it sort of sounds like him doing a different kind of voice? #this is humiliating wym me the voice acting freak can't tell 100% whether that is og vincent instantly from like one muffled syllable #across the room with my ears covered