#in both 2017 and 2018 i saw harry and niall back to back and like ???????

[wecantalktomorrow]

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#in both 2017 and 2018 i saw harry and niall back to back and like ??????? #WHAT A TIME THAT WAS?????? #god i miss them #live on tour and flicker sessions/world tour you will never be forgotten #i see posts on here and it all feels like a fever dream

[foxes-that-run]

2013 Haylor Timeline

Timeline Tag, or years 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021, 2022, 2023 and 2024.

3 January hair pinned up at restaurant in Virgin Islands. Harry's "might as well.." Tattoo first seen. Covered with Ferns now.

4 January - Taylor's blue dress on a boat. Harry bite bruise on his hip

7 January -Harry back in London, date People reports that they broke up. Reports Scott swift told them to slow down.

9 January - photos of Harry in Richard Bransons hot hub on front page after the break up. (I often wonder what the less famous people think now that they treated him poorly as a kid and he is massive now). Gordon Smart (1:12, warning he follows it with a bad anecdote about 18 year old H), who worked on media for One Direction, said in 2020 that Harry had said:

"Simon Cowell actually paid me to do some media training with them back in the day so I met them before they were massive and they were again really lovely kids. [...] I wrote a front page story about him sharing a jacuzzi with a girl on holiday and he told me it was bollocks and we still ran it, because we had a picture of him in the jacuzzi. It was probably totally innocuous and I really I'd like to apologize unreservedly to Harry for that because it was an error of judgment on my part and it probably tarnished our friendship."

Richard Branson also has gross sounding comments about this 18 year old that day.

10 January - made fun of his accent at Grammy's

12 January when asked, Niall says he listens to WANGBT, Louis says and Harry’s. 22 MV filmed.

15 January - one direction trip to Ghana for Red Nose Day comic relief

21 January - Taylor in London reports she saw Harry

22 January - Harry got the Butterfly and handshake tattoos.

23 January - Taylor in Madrid before performing at the '40 Principales Awards'

26 January Both at NRG Awards, 25 January Taylor posts Cannes Sunset situation. They both stayed in the Intercontinental Carlton Cannes Hotel.

1 February - Harry's 19th birthday. £5k tab, messy, wild party. Rumour that Taylor had booked a week in Italy which was cancelled

6 February - Savan Kotecha (WMYB writer) gave interview where he said 1D want to be write but can’t. His last 1D credit is Happily and in 2017 praised (45 mins) Harry’s writing.

10 February - Taylor at Grammy's, night Ed says inspired Tenerife Sea

21 February - both attend Brit awards - Taylor performs I knew you were trouble with Harry in the audience. In march she told the Sunday Times "Well, it's not hard to access that emotion when the person the song is directed at is standing by the side of the stage watching." She goes to an afterparty with Tom Odell and out with him the next night. Tom writes Country Star about Taylor and Harry wrote Happily about wishing they were together. Ed is asked if he would trust Harry around his girlfriend and he said “well he trusts me around his girlfriend so yeah I do. We’re friends we don’t do that.” Harry went on Nick Grimshaw from 6am a hungover.

23 February - 3 November - 1D Up all Night tour, start in Europe

7 March - Taylor sells Hyannis Point House at $1m profit

15 March - Taylor vanity fair article. Says Harry pursued her for a year before KCA, better part of a year after and it fell apart one night in London when he went out and he’s texting her to ask to see her again at the time of the interview. Pointed mentioned she was born in 1989, Easter egged wonderland, talks about Connor being 2 months and insignificant. Implies Harry was a rebound from JG and Connor was a Harry rebound. Says she’s looking for someone who is interested in her not her wiki page.

11 April - Louis says 'Taylor Swift' after Harry sings "I'm in love with you" in Little Things

20 April - Red tour break till the 25th; One Direction tour break starting in Manchester till Paris on 29th. Louis stays in Europe,

23 April - Harry arrives alone in LA without the Peace ring

24 April - Neither Harry or Taylor seen. The day Harry got the ring

25 April - First day Peace Ring is seen. Harry has dinner with Rod Stewart, Rod then plays the Troubadour and Harry stayed at Rod Stewarts house. Taylor in Cleveland

28 April - Harry posts photo of sunglasses on beach. Taylor photographed in a gym in Los Angles. Wears the ring to leave LAX and there is an absolutely insane mob because he is there alone with no security.

29 April - Arrives in Paris alone, still wearing ring, described as a riot. The ring is in This is Us in Paris

April 30 - Taylor buys Holiday House Rhode Island for $18m cash

1 May - Everything has changed released as single

7 May - Harry goes on a party bus in Norway, photos of him drunk, with blonde and talks about party bus in interviews

18 May - Taylor posted rose’s with a Great Gatsby quote: “Just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer...“

27 May - Taylor wrote Wish you Would

June - September Midnight Memories written with Happily

12 June Taylor on Grimmy, he says Trouble is the “best song ever” 4 times at 11 mins. Best song ever was released 22 July. :)

13 June - Never Gonna Dance Again tattoo seen when Harry got off a yacht in Miami, seemingly drunk, he was underage at the time lyrics from Wham song "Careless Whisper" about regret for being unfaithful. Grimmy had referred to it in September when Harry sung the song on radio

16 June 2013 - Louisville - Harry was feeling himself during “Last First Kiss” and at the end was flirting with someone in the crowd, he mimicked pole dancing then he kissed his heart tattoo

22 June - Taylor and Selena getting ice cream in Mystic Connecticut, near RI.

28 June - Harry seen with Paige

1 July - Harry cross tattoo NYC stayed at the Bowery Hotel NYC

6 July - both play in Pennsylvania, Taylor has a week off after, unseen. On the 8th Harry was sick on stage.

20 July - Harry on Ryan Seacrest in Niall’s place and says the rest of the band went back to uk on their break but he stayed in LA.

22 July - Best Song Ever released.

30 July - September GQ cover story where they badgered Harry about how many people he’d slept with (two)

August 14 - Lover Journal: August 14, 2013, Watch Hill RI. Says she feels like a tiger in an enclosure, feels hunted, talks about paparazzi and cell phones. Also calls herself a rabbit, a flower growing in a sidewalk that is picked and how photos ruin a moment, online photos/comments and 'level of possession'.

25 August - VMAs, texting each other and shade, together at afterparty. Sang purple rain together at after party.

3 September - Harry tweeted 1975, Matty Healy told an interviewer that went from 4K followers to 15k in 10 minutes and they exchanged numbers and texted, made plans to meet up and he stood Harry up.

5 September - the 1975 cover WMYB in the live lounge

8 September - Taylor “"People think they know who I've dated and they just don't," "They don't know everything."

11 September - Harry Rose tattoo.

27 September - 1D sign another contract with Syco for 3 albums, they are each paid £10m.

28 September: On the anniversary of the Begin Again weekend in Paris 28 September- 5 October 2012 Harry tweeted: "We don't need no piece of paper from the city hall". from Australia.

5 October - Harry pulled a blonde out of the crowd and hung out with her that night in Australia

8 October - Harry tweeted Shania Twain is so good. Shania thanks him and invites him to her show in Vegas.

16 October - Harry talked about Shania Twain 'Still the One' on stage, Tweet Q's - what song would you like to listen to now?

17 October Harry cried onstage, (0:55) during over again Taylor seen with Alexander Skarsgard 3 days later

18 October - throws up on stage reports touring taking toll

28 October - Harry talked about Shania Twain 'Still the One' on stage again, What's the most embarrassing song on your ipod.

1 November - 1D, Katy Perry and John Mayer take photos backstage at a Japanese radio station in Tokyo. New Romantics was written about Taylor being sad her ex had gone to Japan with his new GF.

November -j14 article where Harry says ok to get back together with ex. Also reports Taylor is house hunting in London.

13 November - Taylors first Victoria Secret show where she wears a union jack dress in NY and performed IKYWT. On 14th Harry in UK for Gemma's graduation, TS in NY for billboard awards.

18 November - Courtney Cox said she hung out with each of them at her house in Malibu

20 November - Harry has dinner with Kendall Taylor tweets ""I've listened to "Hold On" by @ColbieCaillat 45 times today. So on repeat. So important." on the 21st when dinner reported.

22 November - midnights memories release party in la with Ryan Seacrest

23 November, both at AMAs, gold dress. Kendall PDA reported but no record of it

25 November - Midnight Memories released with Something Great written with Jacknife Lee who also worked on Red.

3 December - Lover Journal - December 3, 2013, Sydney.

6 December - Harry leaves Kendalls hotel and they have breakfast. Lunch the next day.

12 December - One Direction in Milan, record the Xfactor final interview with cushions on the floor.

13 December - Taylor posts a series of photos to IG about a rose garden party in Melbourne, Australia while on tour for her birthday. Many think 1989 will be called Roses. The captions made a sort of poem "Roses. Red Balloons. Pretty.... Sparklers. The best birthday I've ever had." Which could be a dig at Harry, Roses being common Haylor imagery, his tattoo and she famously said her 2012 birthday was her best ever when he took her to the Lakes. Harry's "better still be my winding wheel" tweet. Harry posts his Cannes photo December 14.

15 December - One Direction performs Midnight Memories on Xfactor UK Final and Harry arrives at Kendalls London hotel at 2am.

17 December - Harry got injunction banning paparazzi from outside his home. Harry likely had moved into his current house. First confirmed at Ben Winston's with Morgan Spurlock in April 2012, Harry later told Rolling Stone he stayed there 20 months. He was seen house hunting in July and reports of his house were September 2012.

21 December - midnight memories MV filmed

Continue to 2014

#haylor #haylor timeline #harry styles #taylor swift #2013

[jacaranda-bloom]

October Fic Rec

I’ve been super slack in doing my monthly fic recs of late (sorry!) so this list covers the last 3 months and there’s lots of lovely fics to devour!

In this instalment, there are fics from @lesbianiconharrystyles @kingsofeverything @mediawhorefics @lululawrence @harryanthus @evilovesyou @fallinglikethis @cocoalou @gaycousinlarry @comebackassholes @daggerandrose @allwaswell16 @sadaveniren @all-these-larrythings @wait4ever @jaerie @laynefaire @harrybridgers and @missandrogyny.

Thank you to all the writers for sharing their wonderful talent with us. Please don’t forget to leave kudos and a comment if you enjoy their work. 💜

New Reads

💜 Ever Since I Tried Your Way | @lesbianiconharrystyles / flowercrownfemme | E | 26k | June 2020 | 1940′s/50′s, farm/ranch, farmer Louis, farmer Harry, virgin Harry, gay cowboys, repression, internalised homophobia, hurt/comfort, gender exploration, marriage kink, feminisation, romantic face shaving, body worship, country music | As soon as I started this fic I knew it wouldn’t be able to put it down. It’s just... gosh. The writing is stunning and I was completely immersed from the first page to the last.

💜 Have Love, Will Travel | @kingsofeverything | E | 97k | Sept 2020 | road trip, camping, friends to lovers, smut, humour, youtube, POV Louis, slow burn | God, this story was everything I wanted it to be and so much more. Amazing relationship building and great communication. Hilarious, brilliant dialogue, heartwarming.

💜 Love You In The Dark | Perzikje | E | 10k | Oct 2020 | wedding night, arranged marriage, smut, dubious consent | Sexual exploration and first times. Check authors note.

💜 All These Lights | @mediawhorefics | E | 35k | Nov 2015 | ABO, X Factor, consensual under age sex, omega Harry, alpha Louis, angst with a happy ending, smut | I’m a sucker for a good ABO fic and this one didn’t disappoint.

💜 I Go Down Blazing, Feeling Like I’m Going Crazy (series) | @lululawrence | NR | 30k | Niall / Rory McIlroy | Oct 2020 | soulmates, famous/famous, singer Niall, golfer Rory, pining, diet angst, no smut, heartbreak weather, based on Dear Patience and Bend The Rules | This was my first time reading Niall/Rory and I adored it. Brilliant take on the soulmate trope too, heartwarming and tender. 

💜 Who Do You Burn For | @harryanthus | NR | 4k | Oct 2020 | strangers to lovers, implied/referenced drug use, references to addition | I am such a massive fan of this author and I will inhale anything they publish. More like poetry than prose. So evocative.

💜 Point. Drop, Call. | @evilovesyou / 4ureyesonly28 | G | 1.6k | Jan 2020 | summer, best friends, summer romance, first kiss, party games, mutual crushes, coming out | This was absolutely adorable and managed to provide a whole-ass story in 1,610 words. All the summer feels.

💜 Eat Your Vegetables | bananaheathen | M | 9k | Aug 2020 | soccer player Louis, nutritionist Harry, shopping, banter, sexual realisation, smut | This fic sucked me in from the very first page, so much so that when I went back to grab the link to add to this post I ended up re-reading the entire thing. So witty and sweet and all the goodness in the world.

💜 For Wanting | anonymous | E | 5k | Oct 2020 | post mpreg Louis, male lactation, body worship, lactation kink, strangers to lovers, neighbours, dirty talk | Really sweet and hot, beautifully written. 

💜 Pillow Talk | @fallinglikethis | E | 26k | Feb 2016 | friends to lovers, sexuality crisis, first time, mutual pining | I have no idea how I’ve never read this fic. Such a clever plot and perfectly delivered. Hot and funny and sweet and all the loveliness.

💜 The End | @harryanthus | T | 5k | Aug 2020 | post-war, selectively mute Louis, soldier Harry, psychological trauma, hopeful ending, non-specific time period | This is everything I usually avoid reading but this writer’s words just do something to my brain and I let down all of my protective barriers and dive in not caring about what I’m going to be faced with. I’m yet to be disappointed. When I read their fics I always feel like I’m floating or drowning or... I don’t even know how to describe it, but yeah. Wow.

💜 The Anticipation of Knowing You | @cocoalou / sweetrevenge | T | 13k | Sept 2020 | strangers to lovers, neighbours, pen pals, love letters, baked goods as a wooing technique | This was all kinds of lovely and funny and sweet. The premise is brilliant and I understand that we’re to be blessed with parts 2 and 3 in the near future, so yay!

💜 It’s Halftime. Are You Ready To Go? | @gaycousinlarry / momentofclarity | E | 12k | Oct 2017 | friends to lovers, awkward boners, pining, banter, flirting, dirty talk, body worship, smut, watching football as a seduction technique, Niall texts Harry terrible sporting innuendos to make him sweat, jockstraps | So fucking good. Sexy and cute and funny. Could read this one again and again.

💜 Salvation Let’s Their Wings Unfold | twoshipstiedup | M | 14k | May 2019 | angels and demons, heaven and hell, angel Louis, demon Harry, humour, fluff, romance | So much love for this fic. Way less heavy than the tags suggest. Niall is both supremely unhelpful and the captain of the ship as always. Fluffy and fun and romantic.

💜 Dom Louis (series) | @comebackassholes / dimpled_halo | E | 12k | Mar 2020 | dom Louis, sub Marcel, BDSM, kink negotiation | God. This series is amazing. Hot and sweet and nnnrrgggh. Really hope we get more in this universe.

💜 For You I’d Bleed Myself Dry | @daggerandrose / amomentoflove | E | 50k | May 2019 | vampire Louis, human Harry, soulmates, king Louis, angst, depression, blood drinking, past abuse, past kidnapping | I absolutely loved this fic. Beautifully written and so thick with emotion. Check tags, summary and author notes.

💜 Interview With The Vampire | @allwaswell16 | E | 4k | Louis / Robert Pattinson | Sept 2020 | ABO, omega Louis, alpha Rob, journalist Louis, actor, Rob, interviews, humour, bad cooking, bad flirting, scenting, knotting, smut | The rare pair I never knew I needed. Wow. Brilliantly told story. Cute and cheeky and fluffy and hot. Loved it.

💜 Fellowship of Eroda | @sadaveniren | E | 5k | Feb 2020 | dungeons and dragons, gaming, hate to love, BDSM, face slapping, facials, wrestling, choking, spanking, Louis is a brat, so is Harry a bit | Adored this. Such a clever plot and the writing is amazing as always.

💜 Brooklyn Saw Me | alreadyhome | E | 29k | Nov 2017 | homeless Louis, uni student Harry, no-graphic violence, homophobia, angst, slow burn, hurt/comfort, NYC | Painfully beautiful and so well written. Loved it from start to finish.

💜 It Feels Different When You’re With Me | @all-these-larrythings / rearviewdreamer | M | 45k | May 2020 | deaf Louis, sign language instructor Harry, slow burn, mentions of major character injury in the past | God. This fic is amazing. Gorgeous writing and so romantic and sweet.

💜 You’re Music To My Eyes | @fallinglikethis @wait4ever / recycledstardust | T | 6k | July 2020 | blind Louis, Be My Eyes app, volunteer Harry, TPWK | This fic is truly wonderful, romantic and so sweet. It even encouraged me to sign up for the app and I’ve taken two calls already!

💜 We’ll Be Alright | @jaerie | E | 20k | Feb 2020 | ABO, alpha Harry, omega Louis, major illness, sick Harry, sex therapist Louis, dubious ethics, sexual dysfunction, depression, recovery, mating, knotting, unplanned pregnancy | Gosh. So good. So hot. So lovely.

💜 Let Me Be Your Everlasting Light | @laynefaire | M | 12k | Aug 2020 | established relationship, northern lights, Norway, romance, proposal | Loved every beautiful word of this. So romantic and sweet. Can I go to Norway please?

Re-Reads

💜 Here In The Afterglow | @harrybridgers / fondleeds | E | 89k | Dec 2016 | 1970′s AU, small town America, gay rights movement, period-typical homophobia, strange to friends to lovers, angst, hurt/comfort, bullying, high school | Re-read of an old fave which hits differently each time I revisit it. Hauntingly beautiful and heartbreaking in some parts, but ultimately uplifting and hopeful.

💜 Led By Your Beating Heart | @missandrogyny | E | 30k | Oct 2015 | famous Harry, non-famous Louis, Call or Delete, Cute Lou from the Loo, coming out, smut, banter, romance | Still one of my all time faves. The plot is delicious and the flow of the whole story just makes me smile throughout. I find myself going back to this one every few months. Romantic and fluffy and sexy as all hell.

💜 Is This Seat Taken? | Lainy122 | E 35k | Dec 2015 | famous Harry, non-famous Louis, popstar Harry, seat-filler Louis (eventually), Louis and Zayn make bets, penis-shaped cashew nuts, miscommunication, shitty PR tactics | One of my all-time fave fics. I must’ve read this one more than ten times by now and it never disappoints. Funny and sweet and hot.

💜 When The Sun Won’t Let You Sleep | @allwaswell16 | E | 30k | July 2018 | enemies to lovers, scientist Louis, scientist Harry, Antarctica, sexual tension, smut, diet angst | Such an interesting plot that is handled so beautifully. I adore all of this authors work but this definitely up there with my faves.

#November 1 2020 #fic recs #ficrectag

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Humm why 2018 sea?. Imo Ever since early 2017 i started to think that their relation ship was always messy and with no labels. i feel like louis really cut him off romantically since 2017 but tried to stay friends and now i hope that man doesn't get near louis. And tbh i don't even believe h is no het anymore. The way he talks about lgbt and queers it feels like he is so far away from our struggle and identities. Louis makes me feel like i'm not alone.

It’s just the timeline as I saw it, but I’m sure that there were constant changes throughout 2017. Louis’ first Guardian interview, I think, set the expectations of what he was promised or negotiated, and throughout 2017, these promises were constantly being broken.

I feel that Louis was deliberately held back in an incremental way. Roadblocks were dropped one at a time— BTY support truncated when it was climbing the charts (pulled from radio), not being allowed to perform at festivals (performing at Ultra and iHeart as a guest of Steve Aoki and Bebe Rexha, respectively), Always You (his “most personal song”) being blocked from release, the album pushed back, Miss You promo completely scrapped, Louis winning the MTV EMA award but unable to attend in person.

Eventually, Louis must have realized that each instance was not coincidental but cumulative. Never mind that media was stacked against him, but Louis was not allowed to grow his fan base organically. Each of these events were in contrast with a corresponding push for solo Harry success (e.g. the difference in promo and label support when they were both at iHeart Festival 2017— and Niall having much more visibility and support than Louis, as well).

We all noticed how pale and tired Louis looked when he taped Most Requested Live in January 2018. I don’t think there were good vibes after that, although I believe the break happened right around the end of HSLOT.

#hl #mid 2018 is based on a lot of information drawn together #from different sources that aren’t publicly known #take it with a grain of salt

[bciwasinlove]

Im sorry to argue with you, but i think that this is more complicated. First he has his present management since june 2018, so 2017 isnt their fault and second i think syco and sony were big players in all that and it isnt management. Yes his promo cant be compare to nialls or harrys, but im glad that last interview with dick wattpad was in march 2019. And i saw some decent radio interviews on good stations. Not mainstream but i still think he dont want do mainstream pop. For me he negotiated his deparature from that horrendeus jgg management and rusty, and album he wanted for x factor. So for me this management,as 7management, isnt that bad as some people say. Bg is on other line, i dont think we know how it go in bts. When i see that fame hungry familly it must be horror in every case even if f was louis'. So i think it isnt that simply if louis dont have be canceled after this shit. And sorry i would too roll with narrative if now isnt time doing big changes. I wait for new music, he did coacoac but doesnt registered it to this moment. I dont talk about release i talk about registration. He is talking about new songs since last september but doesnt registered even one. Before there were songs registration in time when he wrote them. As secret heart or take it back or all along, but now nothing. Maybe he really waitting for something (cough 1 year cough) or it is something else or he changed strategy and will registering all after release, who knows. Maybe when we see new music we would know more. Good sign is i think that it look as new music is on the way.

Hello wow an actually ask this is new for me lmao I usually just get those damn copy pastes. 😭😭😭

Anyways thxs for the ask and I see what you are saying but people who say he had good managment/label help for promo in 2018 just never made sense to me. He was clearly planning to go on tour and releasing his album in 2018 [he was still under Syco at that time to who we all know hates him.] Louis had talked about his music plans a lot then and some of the songs on Walls were written back in 2017 but instead of releasing an album and touring he went on the Xfactor and didn't release his album until 2020 which is odd. And we did get a few more interviews after 2018 then before 2018 but it was always stunt related [BG and Elounor] never really about his music so they weren't worth watching.

Since he is away from both Syco AND Sony now things definitely should be getting better but back then things were 100% not great for him and he 100% was being sabotaged by shit people who ran the label he was apart of. As long as he was under Sony [the main factor above Syco] I never believed he had much freedom. I guess his managment is bottom of the poll on who was doing him wrong but is seemed anyone who had a hand in Louis career during Walls era did not give af about helping his career get far.

And damn you have heard him on the radio where are you from I've never got to hear him on the radio like legit no stations play him where I'm from which sucks. Am I just unluckily or something ?? I just hope Louis gets the recognition and promo he deserves the same that Niall and Harry get.

Also about BG maybe now if things are changing then he probs would be ok being silent bc he has more to loose but back when it didn't seem like he was going anywhere bc they hated him and did anything they could for him to fail why wouldn't he say anything? This was a question I had towards some who think BG is something Louis could have EASILY gotten out of early on when early on of BG he was locked in tight with Syco who hated him so if he didn't say anything then there had to be more to it.

Tho they could have easily ended BG during boobiegate drama and they didn't which annoys tf out me. As @onlythebravestan once told me "I can handle Elounor being around Eleanor doesn't do shit and is easily forgotten but PLEASE end BG I'm so fuckin tired of this shit free louis from that trash family."

All I can think now is I'm so happy we will get new music and hopefully better promo [faith in the future.] I'M OPTIMISTIC LOUIS WILL GET TO HARRY & NIALL LEVEL PROMO. 🤞🏻I swear tho I hear NTMY and WS EVERYWHERE even in commercials. I love Harry and Niall but if I have to hear those songs one more time I'm done. 😂

#louis #labels #management #harry #niall #new music #faith in the future #babygate

[lightwoodsmagic]

Hi! So I agree Liam is queer, and the pink🔺in his video compels me not to ignore it. I saw one of your Ziam posts making its rounds after the SIU video, so I thought you were the person to ask. I only joined the fandom after Zayn left, and I’ve always had a hard time finding info on why and how that played out at the time (nobody seems to agree). Could you elaborate (or link to previous posts) on why you think Ziam is still a thing, and how they are telling us? Thanks for your insight so far!

 Hi anon! 

Thank you so much for thinking of me! I’m sorry it’s taken me a little while to answer, but it took me a bit to gather all the info I wanted (while I should’ve been working oop).

Okay, please know that this post is gonna be loooooong, so I’ve popped it under the cut.

You’re right about nobody agreeing on Zayn leaving the band, and it makes sense that people have differing views. It’s such a complicated thing; there was a lot happening at the time. 

I’m going to start by saying there’s a brilliant masterpost about Zayn leaving here. It’s incredibly detailed, talks about pretty much every aspect of it, and there’s so much to look into. It’s also wonderful to demonstrate how much the boys and Zayn still hinted at things and loved each other, like Harry using Zayn’s mic one night, Liam talking about him fondly in interviews, Niall still calling him by his nickname, and Louis wearing his clothes.

It’s a long read, but incredibly worth it, as it this stunting timeline.

Everyone is absolutely entitled to their opinion, so I’ll just give you mine. I’m gonna keep it (kind of) short though. A lot of what I’m about to say can be found in the masterposts I’ve linked above.

I believe that Zayn leaving was out of his control, and was never completely his decision. I believe that he was set to return, but for some reason, the plan changed. Mind of Mine was apparently written before he left, and while I think he would’ve been working on solo music before he left (and that all of them were to some extent), to tease an album right after the announcement that he left makes no sense. A contract like the one that 1D had/has with Syco would cost an obscene amount of money to get out of, and Zayn’s net worth didn’t change at all. They made it seem so simple in the very few interviews with Zayn afterwards, saying he just called his security, got on a plane, and left. I think Zayn struggled a lot with everything, they all did, but I don’t think he could’ve just left. There were articles put out about his new album that mentioned Simco and everything, but when people pointed out that it didn’t make sense with the narrative that Simon felt ‘betrayed’, the references were removed straight away. 

There’s also a very solid theory that MoM was counted as One Direction’s sixth and final contracted album, and it really stands up. Check it out! 

Look. There’s a lot to unpack with the whole situation, and I’ve hardly touched on it at all, but I really do encourage you to look into it with everything I’ve linked above  💞

Okay, now onto the second part of your ask! 

Ziam. My loooovveesss.  

I’m going to start by saying that there’s a lot of ways that Liam and Zayn have hinted that they’re still together, and honestly? The boys ain’t even subtle about it. I’ll start by talking about heaps of ways they’ve done that since Zayn left!

Alright, let’s start with the fact that they WILL NOT STOP LIKING, REBLOGGING, AND RETWEETING POSTS FROM ZIAM ACCOUNTS. 

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These aren’t subtle Ziam accounts, and it’s not just these examples. This also isn’t just something in the past; that bottom right one references Stack It Up.

They’ve also both reposted fanart from a well known Ziam where each drawing referenced the other one. 

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The Zayn art says ‘Love Payne’ on the beanie. Well then. 

And the Liam one? That he posted on his personal insta? The artist added the ‘love’ tattoo from Zayn’s hand onto Liam’s. It’s obvious, and it’s not like Liam wouldn’t have noticed that suddenly there was a new tattoo added ON HIS OWN HAND. 

Not very subtle, hey.

It’s also not the only shady social media activity related to the boys  👀

There was the time that Liam explained why he’d written ‘personally’ twice in a thank you post in his insta story to Bvlgari. 

But he hadn’t. What had happened was that Twitter account @TheZiamNews had made a small mistake, and had actually written it twice. The only explanation was that Liam saw it on a Ziam update page VERY quickly, thought he had made the original mistake, and then explained. Interesting that Liam keeps up to date with them. 

There was also the time Liam blocked an account for talking absolute shit about Zayn, or when Herbie Critchlow (a producer from Icarus Falls) retweeted a tweet about Common being about Ziam. Also can’t forget Brandon Colbein posting on insta about some songs he’d written, and somehow there was one for Zayn and one for Liam. 

Oh, and when Liam’s friend Andy (who seems to…split the fandom, but alas) posted a video of him listening to Icarus Falls, or every single mirroring insta post Liam and Zayn can’t seem to help making.

And their eyebrow slits! 😊 this goes allllll the way back to One Direction days.

(x)

Now, this is a constant, recurring thing for them over the years.

It’s usually at the same time, and it usually signifies something. 

Zayn went ALL OUT one day, just after Z*gi ‘broke up’, and put a slit in his eyebrow, but it wasn’t a normal one. It was in the shape of an L. That fucking sap. Not to be outdone though, Liam popped a lil’ Z in the graphics for his show last year in Japan. 

SAPS, THE BOTH OF THEM.

Now, jewellery. 

OOOOOF are we in for it now. You’re probably regretting this ask already. 

Cartier. 

Say that single word around someone who believes in Ziam and you’ve lost them forever. 

Back in 2015 (so yes, a while ago but bear with me) during the OTRA tour, Zayn suddenly started wearing a gold Cartier bracelet. It was interesting because Zayn didn’t wear bracelets at the time. It was particularly interesting because Liam had been seen earlier that day with jewellery bags buying a present. Curious.

Or obvious. 

Either or. 

A similar thing happened when Zayn attended the ‘Straight Outta Compton’ premiere, one of his first appearances after he left the band. He was wearing a Hublot watch, which was also interesting because Zayn didn’t wear watches either. 

But GUESS WHERE LIAM HAD BEEN 2 DAYS BEFORE THE PREMIERE?

You’re damn right, anon. It was Hublot.

Now, the Cartier love bracelet. 

This picture was posted when Liam was getting ready for the Brits in 2017. For those that don’t know, the Cartier love bracelet has little screws, and can only be undone with a little gold screwdriver that comes with it. 

Liam wore it everywhere that year, and so often. It didn’t make sense for it to be ‘given to him by Ch*ryl’, because they would’ve used every opportunity to show that damn screwdriver. 

But they didn’t, because she didn’t have it. Zayn did. 

There’s also the other matching bracelets they’ve worn by Alexander McQueen.

And also the other time Zayn wore Cartier in his film clip, or the fact that Zayn started wearing a ring on his right ring finger that was sold and marketed by Cartier AS A WEDDING RING. 

They also share watches if Zayn decides to wear one, because they’re cute like that.

Now, they also share clothes. 

So many clothes, ohmygod. 

(x)

A prime example of this actually happened just last year! TWICE! IN NYC WHEN LIAM WAS THERE (obviously to see his husband). Both times, Liam was out and about wearing two of Zayn’s jackets. 

It’s also absolutely not a coincidence that when Zayn was staying at G*gi’s apartment on Bond Street, Liam stayed at a hotel a few minutes away a number of times, but when Zayn moved to Soho, Liam suddenly switched hotels to one in Soho, a few minutes away from Zayn’s new place. Just can’t stay away from an old band mate you hardly talk to, hey. 

Also can’t ignore Liam wearing numerous Kooples shirts during the time Zayn was doing promotional stuff for them. Husbands givin’ gifts.

 NYC isn’t the only city that relates to Ziam though! 

Ahhhhhhhh. Ziami. What a time, what a time, what a time (for you and I).

Anyway. 

At the start of last year, Liam and Zayn were both in Miami at the same time filming music videos for Let Me and Familiar respectively, arriving either at the same time or a day apart. It was at a time when Zayn was all over his socials, posting poems and selfies and generally being his relaxed, gorgeous self, which wasn’t incredibly common for a while. 

People were convinced they could hear Zayn in one of Liam’s insta stories, talking in the background just before Liam realises and raises his voice. It’s definitely not firm though, and Liam has someone in his team with a similar accent, but I’ve linked it so you can judge for yourself! Regardless, we knew they were both there, but it was a fun lil’ talking point!

Anyway, according to people who live in the area and know the coastline, they were in the same area at the same time, and we also knew that Liam wasn’t with Ch*ryl because she was back in the UK. Now, Liam posted an Instagram story the next morning half naked in bed, his 4 tattoo (we’ll get to that) and roses on full display, and saying he’d wrecked his voice. 

Well then. 

He also posted this. 

It was a video, but it was Liam, in his room ‘alone’ with two desserts for breakfast at a time when we knew Zayn was there and no one else was, and he suddenly had no voice. 

Okay okay, we get it. 

They also consistently reference the number 25, and honestly, no one knows why the fuck.

Just casually on Liam’s jackets and shoes, Zayn’s shoes and a shirt that was sold (even the red and yellow, ffs Zayn), and also Zayn’s NECK, which he got in 2018. There was also chevrons on a collection for Zayn, just like Liam’s tattoos.

Speaking of tattoos Zayn got in 2018. 

That big, red wolf on his chest just up there?

One of the biggest Ziam things to ever happen. 

Red was Liam’s mic colour in 1D, everything they fucking do seems to be related to red, and Liam’s nickname is Wolfie because he’s from Wolverhampton. 

It’s a red wolf, directly on his chest, and it’s 100% for Liam. It’s not the only red wolf tattoo Zayn has; he also has one on his leg with feathers, just like Liam’s feather tattoo. 

The media often talk about the eyes Zayn has underneath that, and that they’re for G*gi, but the eyes underneath are so much lighter than the surrounding ink, the shape fits easily, and to me, it seems clear they’ve been done in a way that they can easily be inked over. It was designed for a cover up, and hopefully it’s coming. Zayn also has Liam’s name literally inked into his skin. 

They also have coordinating hand tattoos. The mandala on Zayn’s hand and the roses on Liam’s are explained brilliantly in this post. The two of these together mean ‘Symbol of Eternity’. Fucking hell. 

The three roses on Liam’s hand also translates to ‘I love you’. FUUUCCCKKKKKKK.

Liam also wore a ring for a while, until he was forced to take it off, but then he rebelled anyway, and got this.

It’s important because not only is it on his wedding finger, it’s also what he said about it, and when he got it. 

Now, not only is 4 as an angel number about changing the only things that you can in a situation, but Liam directly said that’s what it was. He can’t wear a wedding ring, so he did the next best thing. 

It also came when Liam and Ch*ryl became ‘official’, and when he’d already quashed marriage twice in an interview. Interesting choice, then. He also spoke of the 4 and a ring forming a halo, but still somehow shut down marriage talk? 

…….okay then. 

Some incredibly brilliant people pointed out that it also came just before Valentine’s Day.

And just before he started wearing the Cartier bracelet from earlier. 

There’s also the blatant references to a gorgeous, loving relationship throughout Icarus Falls, especially in Common and There You Are. There You Are was pushed as a Z*gi song, but people realised it was impossible when they found old pictures of the name of the song on his original plan for Mind of Mine, and realised it just hadn’t made that album. It doesn’t fit their timeline at all, but it does fit Ziam.

We don’t see Zayn very much at the moment, and I’m glad that he’s taking his time just doing what he’s doing! It does mean that we hardly see them interact or reference each other much, but I have absolutely no reason to believe they’ve broken up. The fact that they’re both still going through PR relationship bullshit, and the timing of Liam getting a ‘girlfriend’ right now instead of just rumours is very interesting to me, because Z*gi officially finished again not that long ago. When one is ‘single’, the other can’t be, it seems. 

This isn’t even everything, anon. They’re not subtle; Zayn just isn’t in the public eye as much. 

Everything they do screams love, devotion, and commitment to each other. 

And it’s fucking gorgeous.

#ziam #zayn leaving #ziam tattoos #ziam coincidences #zayn malik #liam payne #ziam evidence #masterpost

[stylesnews]

Harry Styles rose to fame as a member of boy band One Direction, but in recent years the 25-year-old has broken away from his teen roots to forge a successful career of his own.

In 2017, Styles' hotly anticipated self-titled album debuted at the top of the Billboard 200 chart, featuring the hit singles “Sign Of Times” and “Kiwi.” Trading in polished pop songs for ones more reminiscent of ’70s British arena and classic rock, Styles’ newfound sound won over critics and fans as his supporting solo tour went on to sell nearly one million tickets.

Although Styles tends to steer clear of social media and any money-making sponsored content, he did make a rare statement in April on Twitter. Proving that his fame has kept him humble, Styles celebrated his gigantic fanbase and the birthday of his viral hit “Sign of the Times." He wrote, “Sign of the Times turned two today. Thank you for all the love since then, and for everything you’d done before. Love you all very much. H.”

Styles made his film debut in Christopher Nolan’s 2017 World War II drama Dunkirk. Now, it's rumored that he's in talks to star as Prince Eric in the live-action remake of the classic The Little Mermaid. He certainly has the luscious locks required to play a Disney prince.

The "Sweet Creature" singer is lauded for his fashion choices. He landed his second Gucci campaign for the Cruise 2019 Men’s Tailoring collection. Gucci isn’t the only sartorial powerhouse to have come knocking at his door, as Styles was the co-chair for the 2019 Met Gala alongside Anna Wintour, Serena Williams, Lady Gaga and Gucci designer Alessandro Michele.

He was executive producer on a short-lived CBS show called Happy Together. The show, which was canceled after just one season, was based loosely on his early One Direction days which saw him crash on his filmmaker friend’s couch for months despite his massive paycheck and celebrity status.

All of this success and the devotion of his fans converted to a pretty healthy bank balance - but how does it all break down?

What is Harry Styles’ net worth?

Since signing a solo deal with Colombia Records in 2016, according to the Sunday Times Rich List Styles' worth has accumulated to nearly $75 million.

The numbers make sense, considering the 24-year-old singer’s debut album was a mainstream success. Billboard reported that the album topped the charts with 230,000 equivalent album units earned in the first week alone. Even better, 193,000 of those units were in traditional album sales, earning Styles the biggest debut sales week for a U.K. male artist’s first full-length album since 1991.

While touring is the most lucrative income for musicians, Styles has used the opportunity to help others. Not only did his massive 90-show world tour sell nearly one million tickets, with the first leg of the tour selling out in 29 seconds, but it also raised $1.2 million in charity donations.

How much did Harry Styles earn from One Direction?

Right before One Direction announced their split, Forbes declared the band to be the highest paid celebrities under 30 in 2015. They collectively earned $130 million that year, beating out superstars Taylor Swift and Lady Gaga respectively.

And back in 2014, One Direction was reportedly walking away with $280k per day.

Did Harry earn more than his One Direction bandmates?

While each 1D member cultivated their own loyal fanbase that followed them on their solo ventures, Styles has reportedly earned the most.

This past October, Styles (once again) was named one of the richest celebrities under 30 in 2018, joining the ranks of Adele and Ed Sheeran.

It was determined that Styles was the richest One Direction member with his approximate $75 million net worth. He was followed by Niall Horan ($58 million), Louis Tomlinson ($56 million), Liam Payne ($55 million) and, perhaps surprisingly, Zayn Malik coming in last with $47 million.

Horan, Payne, and Malik have all released their own solo work, while Tomlinson has released a few singles and carved out a TV career as a judge on The X-Factor - though he's hinted that there's more music to come.

Where else has his money come from?

Outside of releasing music and touring, Styles earned money for his acting role in the war drama Dunkirk. It was one of the top-grossing box-officefilms of 2017, grossing $500 million worldwide. While many were skeptical of Nolan’s decision to cast the inexperienced singer, the director defended his decision and compared it to casting Heath Ledger in The Dark Knight.

“When I cast Heath Ledger as the Joker it raised a lot of eyebrows and caused a lot of comment,” he told Entertainment Tonight. “I have to trust my instincts, and Harry was perfect for this part. He pulled it off with incredible grace and reality.”

Outside of his signature red carpet style of playfully printed suits, Styles has courted the attention of the fashion world. The singer has fronted two menswear campaigns for Gucci (autumn/winter 2018 and Cruise 2019), with both becoming social media sensations thanks to his co-stars that included dogs, chickens, and pigs.

Styles also co-founded the company HSA Publishing Ltd. back in 2014, alongside Irish accountant Alan McEvoy.

How many properties does Harry Styles own?

Like most jet-setting celebrities, Styles has snapped up homes in New York, London and LA. Back in 2012, he purchased a $3 million four-bedroom bachelor pad in London that was dubbed a "Party Palace" by the press.

In 2017, Styles reportedly bought an $8 million condo in New York’s Tribeca neighborhood in the same building that houses celebrities including Justin Timberlake and Jennifer Lawrence.

When Styles began to split most of his time between New York and London, the singer decided to put his LA Sunset Strip mansion on the market for $8.45 million in May 2017, though he shaved a cool million off (plus a little more) a year and a half later when it didn't sell. He's currently listing the home for $7.495 million.

#harry styles #article #standard uk #aug19

[zaynliam]

Looking back on the interview with Liam Payne, who released the new song "Stack It Up" [Series of Himeko Imaizumi]

[Note: The article below was originally written in Japanese and was translated using Google Translate]

Published on September 29, 2019

The 28th edition of the series “ Throw Back to the Future ” by Yumeko Imaizumi, who is widely active in radio DJs and liner writing. This time, I wrote about Liam Payne , who released a new song “Stack It Up” in September 2019 for the first time in a year, with memories from past interviews (list of columns so far)

Liam Payne delivered a single for the first time in a year. The title is “Stack It Up feat. A Boogie wit da Hoodie”. Speaking of Liam, as a member of One Direction (hereinafter 1D), a super idol who swept the world pop scene! Jonas Brothers, which was very popular at the time, released the album “Lines Vines and Trying Times” in 2009, and after that, three people started shifting to solo and the pop scene was said to be absent from the idols. 1D was born from the audition program "X Factor Season 7". It's 2010.

In the United States alone, the total sales of singles and albums exceeded 25 million, and the performance of the concert in 2014 has been brilliantly ranked first among the biggest artists. Young people from the UK quickly became the world's top group and built a gorgeous pop scene.

I first met 1D when I was still doing a hall tour in the United States. After an interview before the show in San Francisco, I saw their stage still fresh. At that time, I couldn't imagine that it would be so explosive in popularity, but I thought that the staff had a strict patrol system. It may be due to changes in the times, but due to the spread of SNS etc., every photo is strictly checked, the off-photo of the member of the smile full of happily eating japanese sweets that I took as a souvenir, immediately came out. I'm sorry.

From the time of their debut, without much time, they stood on the stage of Madison Square Garden. When I experienced that stage, I first faced the reality that 1D was going to be amazing. Next to Madison Square Garden is a pop-up shop where their goods are sold, filled with girls and parents every day. The dolls of six members who got in the crowd. When Niall and Liam came to Japan, they had nostalgic hands in the interview.

Now, although the prelude has become long, 1D, which ceased activities in 2016, became solo and started activities that take advantage of their individuality.Liam released “Strip That Down” in 2017, but this was a hit with over 5 million copies and it was a good start.

After that, the single was constantly distributed, and in 2018, he became the first solo player to visit Japan for promotion. In that interview, I was able to hear Liam's attitude to music and honest opinions, so I will post everything on the site. 

(Cooperation: Fm yokohama “Radio HITS Radio” & Yuriko Banno)

Liam: (I got a doll from the 1D era) Wow, I miss it. My hair is gone now (laughs).(Laughs)

Imaizumi: It ’s time to visit Japan for the appearance of “POPSPRING 2018” (held at Makuhari Messe on March 24th). How was the stage?

Liam: Because of the late release of the album, we did cover songs on this stage.By doing the cover, I was able to feel the possibility that I would be good at this kind of song. When I sang a 1D song, the fans were so excited that some children were moved and crying. I was glad to be able to feel the passion of Japanese fans again this time, and I was glad that there was such an opportunity.

Imaizumi: The solo activities of 1D members have their own personality, but you know that Liam is also a commercial success?

Liam: That is certainly said. But what is the basis for success? Everybody is doing at their own pace, and with their own tastes, both Harry and Nile have toured, and Louis has produced good songs. It ’s not about competing in it. For me, I recognize that I am fighting in a bigger scene after leaving the group.Around there are Justin Bieber, Justin Timberlake and Drake. Because you are in it.

Imaizumi: What is Liam's solo style?

Liam: I'm still looking for it. The soon-to-be released album (First Time EP 2018) will be a playlist-like piece. Now listeners are listening that way. My work collaborates with various people, puts in various flavors, and any solo artist may be, but the debut work pursues what it is like. You have to figure out what you should send out. So far, I've been singing people's feelings in the group. I was able to learn it because I became a solo artist. I often found myself a little far away from a machine that moved like a group. So I was able to make various types of sounds.

Imaizumi: When I'm in a group, I hear that you want to do solo music because you want to do music that is different from the group, but in the case of Liam, you mean you left the group and found it?

Liam: That's right. The reason why 1D was successful was because we believed in the music we were doing. Of course, I had my favorite style, and I think that contributed to my taste. I also wrote a song. But after leaving the group, when I thought again, "What can I do?", I wasn't dancing in the group, but I didn't like to dance. You can meet such a discovery. The first single has the phrase “I'm free now” in the first lyrics, but that freedom means I want to experience and try things. I want to find out what I am. It's hard, but now I'm learning from it.

Imaizumi: You jumped into the ZEDD concert, but you seem to have enjoyed Japan for the first time in a while.

Liam: Up until now, it was hard for hundreds of fans to get out of the hotel. I come in when I enter the store. But now I don't care about anyone, I can go outside, and in that sense I can enjoy the freedom away from the group.

Although it was a short interview, he spoke a lot and told us about his thoughts. In 1D, he was a simple youth, but in just 5 or 6 years, Liam has grown into a responsible person. I didn't think I would talk about the 1D era, the difference between solo and 1D. After this interview, it was not a full album, but released “First Time” as an EP. A year later, you finally released the single “Stack It Up”, is he still searching for himself in music? You can listen to “Stack it Up” once and you can see that there is an old friend Ed Sheeran in this production. The collaboration with Ed can be said that Liam's lyric worldview was born out and a new style was born. The end point of your search may have come to light.

Written By Himeko Imaizumi

#online media coverage #universal music japan #throwback #stack it up promo #music talk #link post #1dhq sucks #geez they really deleted the lady’s photo of them just eating the sweets she’s given them #smdh

[isitstraightvodka]

2019 Goals

I was tagged by the gorgeous @alwaysjacked-up to do this, ilysm! 2018 was a year of ups and down for me but it's good to reflect on what happened and move forward into 2019 with a happy attitude!

🎶 things I got to attend:

Bruno Mars in March on his 24K Magic World Tour with Dua Lipa as the opener! It was an amazing night, both of them put on such a show and I had the best time, dancing and singing at the top of my lungs.

Niall Horan in June on his Flicker World Tour with Maren Morris as the opener! One of the best concerts I've ever been to, I hadn't seen the Irishman in the flesh for three years so it was incredible to see him up there, performing his beautiful album and having a great time.

I'll add in Dan & Phil as well, I saw them on their Interactive Introverts Tour with my best mate Liam! Those two men were hilarious and made all of us feel included, they kept me engaged the entire night, I was laughing so much and I was so happy to experience that night with someone I adore, so Liam, thank you for booking the tickets and asking me first before anybody else!

🏆 personal highs:

I reached one year of dating my girlfriend, she's been my rock, she's kept me grounded, I love her so much.

I turned 21 and felt so loved by friends and family!

I got back into writing and started posting my work this year!

My self-love is slowly but surely growing, I loved myself much more this year than I did in 2017.

Seeing Bohemian Rhapsody and joining the Queen fandom, finding people on here who love the movie, the band and the cast as much as I do! It makes me feel better that I'm not alone in my obsession for these legends and this gorgeous movie!

I grew closer to my mother more than ever, I'm so so grateful to have her, she's one of the most amazing women in the world.

I made new friends, both here on Tumblr and in real life, I put myself out there and was rewarded by meeting such sweet kind souls!

💛 in 2019, I’d like to…

Travel!

Save money; I'm a spender and I need to stop haha.

Hopefully see Harry live (if he tours this year) and see Queen on their Rhapsody Tour!

I'd love to meet some of my mutuals, I hope I can make it happen!

Get engaged to my baby girl 💍

Give myself a compliment every day and ignore all the haters/negativity!

Continue to post more of my work and make even more friends!

Take every opportunity when they come around, grab everything good when I get the chance!

I tag: @netflixbi, @foreverhlessed, @isitjamiemoriarty, @emotionally-imbruised, @winoharry, @guccifloralsuits, @ghostxmonument, @hsmuse, @joemazzelloz and @signofthebis 💖 I’m wishing you all the most wonderful 2019, life’s what you make it, make this year yours and be the best version of yourself you can possibly be, I love you all! xx

#tagged #survey #thanks for tagging me my lovely sarah! #feel free to ignore this if you don't want to do it

[wantniallie]

Oh you did! I didn't see it! I had like a casual meet up, a party, some festival something like that, not a intentional reunion, Niall wasnt expecting to see Harry and wasnt ready idk, and when Harry sees him he knew he made a mistake ending things

Read part 1 here (Read on AO3)

Niall takes a sip from his whiskey, letting the liquid roll over his tongue before he swallows it. The alcohol making its way down his throat, leading the nice burn of the golden fluid through his body.

He looks around, looks at the mass of people around him, most of them he doesn’t even know. Liam had invited him to a New Year's Eve party he organized with Cheryl, had invited all the boys. It’s a way bigger party than Niall would have imagined, and if he had known this before, he probably hadn’t even come. But he came anyway, for old times sake. More as a formality, just to say hi to Liam more than anything else. He had brought Deo along with him since this was just supposed to be a stop on the way to another party. Almost as soon as they arrived, though, his cousin was trying to talk up some girl who was way out of his league, and so Niall lost track of him.

So he had taken a stance at one of the cocktail tables, where he still is now. Leaning with both of his arms on the surface, and a glass of whiskey in his hand, while his gaze is on the crowd. He watches the people in front of him dance and laugh, talk to each other, hug each other, he’s watching aimlessly ahead while his mind goes through his memories of the past year, the past two years. He thinks about how much has changed for him, about how much his life has changed and how he’s been looking so differently at things than he did two years ago.

After the break - the hiatus he reminds himself, he just wanted to take a step back from it all. He wasn’t ready for the break to happen actually didn’t want one, and when it finally came he didn’t take it well. Their last performance, the last day of the four of them together, might have been one of the saddest, darkest moments he’s had to date. He just wanted to continue with the boys for as long as possible, they still had so much more to achieve together. And on top of that, Harry. But he doesn’t want to go there, definitely doesn’t want to think about that.

Because he has achieved so much the past two years, has grown beyond anything he thought was possible. He’s gotten stronger physically and emotionally, grown more confident. He doesn’t depend on anyone anymore, not the boys, not his crew, not his cousins. He’s learned to be there for himself, to take care of himself. He got rid of the bleached mess on top of his head and let his natural hair grow back, often leaves a stubble on his face. He looks a little bit more like an adult having finally shed his boyish look, he feels more like a man as well, feels like nothing much can stop him anymore. So he doesn’t want to dwell on the past, doesn’t let it hold him back

His change started when he went to Asia at the start of the hiatus. Right after things happened with Harry. He needed time for himself, away from his normal life. Couldn’t stand being alone, being alone at his house with no one to share anything with. He went from being on the road, going 24/7 to sitting home alone, and he couldn’t take it. So he gathered some of his best mates and invited them to travel around Asia with him, backpacking style. No luxuries, instead, going back to basic. He learned and experienced that he was still just a normal person. He learned how to be a normal person, again, learned that he can live in a world where life doesn’t revolve around One Direction, around being a superstar.

He already felt better after coming back from that trip, felt less saddened about the hiatus. Niall saw that he had different opportunities now that he could do things he didn’t have time for in the band. He focused on sports for a while, especially on golf, spent time on the green track, hitting balls with his mates, often with professionals. He started his own golf company as his attempt to put the sport back on the map. He put in so much effort, so much time and he loved every minute of it, still loves it so much. He had never seen himself in the business life, had definitely never expected himself to have his own company, but with the mixture of golf, he couldn’t be happier with it.

But he still had the itch, that drive to pick up his guitar, write lyrics and music. He didn’t think he was going to be good enough to go solo. And while he had been in One Direction Niall never had the desire to be a solo artist either. It didn’t feel right to him, it felt like he wasn’t going to enjoy it if he wouldn’t have his boys with him. But as he still did the writing and the playing and the singing, he had gotten more curious about his possibilities, so he went back into the studios. Just for fun, just out of curiosity. And now, a year and a half later, he has an entire solo album out. He has a song that went to number one on Billboard and singles that went to number one in so many countries. He’s won solo awards, did a small touring session around the world, seeing his fans, playing them his songs, his solo songs, and he has a world tour coming up in the new year. He had never expected this, had never thought he would achieve all this by himself.

HIs life had changed so much from what it was, from that moment after the X Factor in the backstage dressing room. It had felt like such a big ending for him like he wasn’t gonna be able to have joy anymore. He had felt so weak and was in such a dark place. But today, December 31st, 2017, he feels like he’s on top of the world again, solo, alone, happy.

“Hey, there’s my Nialler,” he hears a voice coming from afar, pulling him out of his thoughts. “What are you staring at your whiskey for?! You’re supposed to drink it, lad!” Louis says when he reaches Niall, pulling him in for a quick hug before he takes the glass out of Niall’s hand and downs it in one go. Niall huffs, laughs at his friend’s antics. “Hi Tommo, didn’t know you were coming, too,” he says.

“Well I wouldn’t want to miss Liam’s big New Year's feast, would I?” Louis answers, the smile on his face detectable in his voice. “No but really, good to see you, lad,” he speaks more seriously. “Doing alright?” he asks, a bit of concern in his voice.

Niall nods, “Was just thinking about the past two years,” he confesses.

“Aaah,” Louis speaks, clapping Niall on his shoulder before he slinging his arm around his neck. “How the two underdogs of the biggest boy band are now taking over the world?” He jokes, trying to ease Niall’s seriousness on this festive day. “You better watch your back, Neil, don’t want to have you snatching my awards away from me next year,” he says playfully, glaring but his mouth formed in his usual smile. “2018 is going to be my year, haven’t you heard?” he laughs, giving Niall’s neck a soft squeeze. And Niall can't help but laugh either, couldn’t be happier to have Louis in his life and couldn’t be happier that Louis is still there for him, with him. Out of the three boys, he still has the most contact with Louis, and even though they don’t have time to meet up often, they still catch up with each other every month.

“So much has changed,” Niall starts, ready to share his thoughts with Louis, looking into the crowd. It’s then that he sees a mob of dark, curly hair walking around in the room. He sees the hair coming closer, turning his way and the pink, plump lips come in sight. And then he makes contact with the beautiful, green eyes, eyes he hasn’t had contact with for two years. And then Niall’s heart stops.

“You alright, mate?” He vaguely hears coming from Louis while he pulls him in a little closer, squeezing his shoulder a little harder. Niall nods, unsure of what to do as nerves settle in the muscles of his body. “I didn’t know he was coming,” Niall speaks, voice laced with panic, with tenseness. He’s still in contact with those green eyes, still locked with Harry’s.

And then Harry looks away, turns to the person next to him, reaching out to shake their hand.

Niall looks away as well, looks down at his hands that are gripping the paper coaster from his not-there anymore whiskey. He could use another one, he thinks, ripping a piece of the coaster, trying to turn all his attention into it so he can ignore the big, dark cloud that is Harry in his mind. He rips off another piece, sees that his hands are shaking. He tries to focus on his breathing, taking deep breaths, in and out. He feels a hand on his neck, rubbing down his back to comfort him. And, he really appreciates it, really appreciates Louis, but he’s about to jump out of his skin. He hadn’t expect to see Harry, didn’t think he would show up. He isn’t ready to face Harry. He’s still hurt, still can’t believe Harry left the way he did, and even though he doesn’t want to say it, doesn’t want to acknowledge it, deep down, he’s still in love with the man. He wrote a whole damn album about it, even. About him.

Louis’ hand covers his, stopping him from ripping the coaster completely apart, while his soft voice whispers in his ear. “Come on, Niall. It’s been two years.”

Niall looks up, focusses his gaze on Louis before he speaks sternly. “Two fucking years indeed, Louis. And he didn’t call or write or message. He hasn’t reached out to me once.”

And Louis knows this, knows how Niall feels about it. They’ve had multiple talks about it already, how Harry didn’t reach out to Niall but did to Louis and Liam. How Niall has tried to reach out to him sometimes, five to be exact, and didn’t get a single response. How he’s hurt Niall so much, Niall doesn’t even know if he’ll ever allow himself to love again. Because yes, he got much stronger over these past two years, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t still hurt, doesn’t mean the gaping black hole in his heart disappeared.

While Niall tries to get himself together, Louis calls over a waiter, ordering two more glasses of whiskey.

By the time the glasses arrive, Niall has his breathing somewhat back under control again, saying a quick thank you to the waiter as he takes the glass in his hand. He knows he shouldn’t probably be drinking right now, he’s too stressed and anxious, but he also feels like it will relieve his tense muscles a little bit. He brings the glass to his lips, lets the liquid glide through his mouth straight into his throat. He decides he needs more, so he takes Louis’ glass too and downs it, as well. “That was for taking mine,” he grunts out.

Louis laughs, getting the waiter once more before he says “Alright, Niall. Slow down, though.”

Niall huffs, wipes his mouth with the back of his hand while he searches the room for Harry, sees him talking to some woman. “What am I going to do now, Lou?” he says. “The night started so well, I felt so good.” Niall looks down at his empty glass, wishes he had a full one again.

“Well, Niall,” Louis starts, “I don’t know, stay out of his way, go talk to him. Just do what you think feels right.”

Niall lets out a dry laugh, sees the waiter comes over and grabs the whiskey before the man can even hand it to him. “I better go then,” he says before downing the glass. “If I should do what I think feels right.”

Louis chuckles softly at his overdramatic friend before he grabs his arm. “Come on, lad. Let’s have some fun.”

Louis leads him through the crowd, dragging him along by his arm until they reach Liam. He orders Liam to get them some shots. So Liam leads them to his kitchen, where it’s just the three of them and gets a bottle from under the counter, placing the shot glasses in front of them.

“What’s the occasion?” he asks, looking between the two of them.

Louis looks at Niall, for him to answer, and when he doesn’t he says “Harry’s here.”

Liam’s face lights up, “Oh good! ” he exclaims. “I invited him, didn’t think he’d come.”

Louis sighs while Niall lets out a grunt which earns a confused look from Liam, who locks eyes with Louis, unsure of what’s happening.

Louis sighs again, looking over at Niall before he says again “Harry is here.”

And then it clicks, and Liam’s face turns a little sad. He opens the bottle, pours the three shots before he speaks. “Okay, I get it now.” He looks over at Niall, moves one of the glasses in front of him. “I’m sorry, lad. Really didn’t expect him to show up.”

Niall sighs, takes the glass, spinning it in his hand before he looks over at the boys in front of him. He grabs his glass, lifting it towards Louis and Liam saying a quick “Cheers!” before he takes the shot.

Louis and Liam take theirs too, and then Liam pours them another one. “You can hide out here as long as you want, Nialler. There’s enough booze, so no worries,” he says before moving the glass in front of Niall once more.

Niall takes the glass, and then they take another one and another one. And after some, Niall starts to feel more relaxed, more at ease. Spending time together with Louis and Liam like this helps, it has been a long time. They laugh together, tell each other stories about the last two years, catch up properly. They’re all getting to the point of being slightly intoxicated now, and Niall would almost forget that he just saw Harry. Almost.

He’s about to take another shot when he hears a door open. All their heads turn to look at who’s coming in and Niall’s heart drops when he registers who it is.

Louis sighs, walking over to Harry to pull him into a hug. “Hey lad, haven’t seen you in a while,” he says while patting Harry’s back.

“Good to see you too,” Harry answers. And Niall shivers, shudders at the sound of Harry’s deep, raw voice. A voice he hasn’t heard in so long, a voice that still makes him weak in his knees.

Liam steps in to say hi to Harry too, and then Harry’s in front of Niall.

The room goes completely silent, the only sound is the buzzing of the fridge and the animated chatter from the party in the other rooms. Niall looks at Harry, looks at the face he hasn’t seen in so long. He lets his eyes wander to Harry’s hair, the short locks he hadn’t seen in real life yet. His locks that still look so soft, and probably still feel so good. His eyes travel over Harry’s facial features, his jawline, cheekbones, his nose. HIs gaze lands on Harry’s pink lips for a second, the beautiful mouth he used to know so well, the mouth that always used to carry a smile when directed at Niall, now formed in a thin line. And then Niall meets Harry’s eyes.

Louis clears his throat, says he’s going to leave the two of them alone for a second before he walks out of the kitchen, dragging Liam with him.

And now Niall’s alone with Harry. He breaks the eye contact, too nervous and uncomfortable under Harry’s gaze and sighs before he drinks the shot he was about to take anyway.

Harry raises a brow at him, probably noticing Niall is a little drunk before he speaks up. “Hi Niall,” he says.

Niall lets out a dry laugh, can’t believe that after two years of not speaking, Harry decided to just say hi like nothing happened. He looks Harry in the eyes, feeling a little more confident again answering Harry with a stern “Harry,” giving him a nod with it before he pushes himself past Harry, deciding that he doesn’t need this, doesn’t need to take anything from Harry anymore.

But he hasn’t even reached the door yet when he feels a hand on his arm, making him halt. “Please, wait,” Harry says. “I want to talk.”

Niall huffs, ripping his arm from Harry’s grip. “Took you two years to figure that out?” he grumbles out sarcastically.

“Niall, come on,” Harry says, stepping close to Niall, standing in front of him once more. “I didn’t want this to happen on the phone, Niall,” Harry explains. “If I was going to talk to you again, I wanted it to be face to face,” he speaks carefully, looking Niall in his eyes.

“Well, I don’t want to talk to you anymore,” Niall huffs out, crossing his arms in front of his body. Who does Harry think he is, leaving Niall like that, not wanting to talk to him at all until he decides he is ready. Well, Niall still isn’t ready he thinks annoyedly.

“You don’t mean that,” Harry speaks confidently, putting a hand on Niall’s crossed arms.

Niall sighs, uncrossing his arms so Harry can’t touch him anymore. “Well, tell me then. What do you have to say?” He says boldly, raising his brow daringly at Harry.

And Niall can see Harry’s at a loss for words, clearly hadn’t expected Niall to put up such a fight.

“I just wanna know you again, Niall,” Harry starts hesitantly, carefully. “I wanna know how you’ve been doing these last two years, what you’ve been doing.”

Niall’s eyes widen, he can’t believe that Harry’s asking this, can’t believe Harry expects to answer him like nothing’s wrong as if they’re just catching up after a vacation. Can’t believe Harry acts so casually after leaving Niall at his darkest two years ago.

“I think you’ve lost your right to that, Harry,” Niall grunts out, speaks sternly. “When you left me while I already was struggling to keep my head up.” And with that, Niall leaves the kitchen, walking back into the crowd, into the party. He can hear Harry call his name, trying to go after him but Niall ignores it, walks faster and easily hides between people.

He tries to find Deo, wanting to get out of here as soon as possible. He’s already feeling drunk, and it doesn’t mix well with the tension and anxiety of seeing Harry. But he can’t find Deo, so he heads back into the crowd, over to Louis, who he crossed a couple of minutes ago, but passed quickly so he didn’t have to say or explain anything.

When Louis comes back in Niall’s sight, he sees that Harry’s with him. They’re talking animatedly, deep in a conversation, Harry is clearly upset by how Niall left him, and Louis tries to comfort him. He sighs, knows that he should be the better than this so he mans up and steps next to Louis, surprising both Louis and Harry.

“Get us a drink, Harry,” Louis orders quickly, grabbing Niall’s hand so he can’t walk away.

As soon as Harry’s out of sight, Louis starts talking. “Come on, Niall, give him a chance at least.” He says firmly while he gives Niall a frown. “It’s been two years, try to hear him out.”

Niall grunts, he isn’t feeling up for being lectured. He’s had a little too much to drink already, he feels like it’s time to party and focus on the new year. “I don’t really want to, Lou. He’s hurt me enough already,” he speaks honestly.

Louis' eyes look into the crowd, spotting Harry already coming their way again. He gives Niall a firm shake, says “Hear him out, Niall,” before he meets Harry halfway, takes one of the glasses from his hands and walks away.

Harry continues his walk to Niall, approaching him a bit awkwardly, handing him one of the glasses carefully. When Niall hesitantly, takes it from Harry’s hand, not sure if he should drink another glass, he accidentally brushes his fingers with Harry’s. His face heats up but he gives Harry a quick “Thank you,” and tries to act like it didn’t happen like it didn’t weaken his knees and didn’t sent electric shocks through his hand.

Harry blushes a little too, taking a sip of his drink before he speaks. “I’m sorry, Niall,” he says, “I don’t think I fully understand what I did to you, how I left you when I ended things, back then,” he adds hesitantly, not meeting Niall’s eyes when he says. “I was being selfish.”

Niall huffs decides that he actually does need the drink and empties it in one go. “Sure as hell was being selfish, yeah,” he mumbles.

Niall locks eyes with Harry, sees the hurt hiding in the greenness of them, and instantly feels sorry for being a dick, feels even worse when Harry hurtfully says “I’m trying here, Niall.”

Niall sighs, the last glass of alcohol clouding his mind a little, so he reaches out to Harry without thinking properly, placing a hand on his elbow. “I know, Haz,” he says, letting the ‘Haz’ slip out of his mouth before he realizes. “I’m just not sure if I’m ready,” he explains.

Harry gives him a sad look but Niall sees a blush appears on his face from Niall’s hand on his arm and Niall isn’t really sure how to react to that. He breathes out deeply, decides that he should give Harry at least a bit of a chance, and suggests they get another drink. Just to brace himself for what’s to come, Niall clarifies to himself.

He leads Harry to the bar, gets them another round of whiskey and then walks to one of the cocktail tables again, putting some distance between them, but still close enough to hear each other. He’s looking down at his glass, playing with his drink while he waits for Harry to speak.

“How have you been, Niall,”’ Harry carefully asks, leaving the drink in front of him untouched.

Niall looks up at Harry, then. Feeling bold, he empties his glass while he maintaining eye contact with Harry before he says “I was feeling fucking great, Harry. Was thinking about how great the last year has been for me, how much I’ve grown. I was fucking happy, Harry. And then you showed up,” he exclaims, placing the glass on the table with a bang, while he daringly raises his brow at Harry. Because if Harry wants to hear the truth, he can have the truth.

Niall can feel the last drink turning something inside him, can feel how it tipped him from being slightly drunk to fully intoxicated. But he doesn’t really care, he came here to have fun, not to have a heart to heart with someone who broke his. He wants this to be done and over with, so he decided that it’s best for him to just be honest with Harry, as much as he can decide something like that while being drunk.

Harry nods, gives him a hurt but understanding look. “I’m so sorry, Niall. I’m glad you’re happy now, though.” Harry speaks, tries to reach out to Niall but then, hesitantly pulls his hand back to himself.

“Yeah, I am happy,” Niall grunts out loudly, notices he’s getting some looks from the people around him. He’s sure they’re judging him, wondering how he can be happy, grunting out loudly how happy he could be, looking like he is right now, drunk with a frown on his face.

He sighs, getting annoyed with being angry, so he leans in a little closer to Harry before he speaks softly. “Are you, too?”

He gets a curious look from Harry, a little smile appears on his face now Niall is showing some interest in him, for the first time this evening. “I try,” he speaks honestly, “I try to be happy but I do miss.” He stops for a second, looks away from Niall before he makes eye contact while he places a hand on Niall’s. “I do miss you,” he finishes.

Niall looks down at their joined hands, then looks up at Harry again, a bit in shock by Harry’s revelation. “You miss me?” he asks surprised.

Harry sighs, walks around the table so he’s standing close to Niall, almost touching him but leaving just enough space. “Like I already said, Niall. I was being selfish, I didn’t think about how I was leaving you behind. But I also didn’t think what I was leaving behind,” he confesses, gives Niall’s hand a soft squeeze. “I’ve been stupid, and I’ve only realized it,” he says.

Niall looks at Harry for any signs of dishonesty, but can’t find it. And maybe it’s the alcohol, or maybe it’s that it’s New Year’s Eve, or maybe it’s just that he wants to believe Harry.

So when he answers Harry with “Yeah you have been stupid, but I’m glad you realized it now,” there’s no heat behind his words.

Harry chuckles softly, glad that he got Niall out of his anger and negativity. “You were my light, Niall,” he says softly, moving closer so they’re touching, standing side by side. And Niall just lets it happen, lets himself enjoy the heat coming off of Harry’s body, a warmth he hadn’t felt in a long time.

“I wrote Flicker about you,” he confesses drunkenly

“I know,” Harry answers.

They lock eyes, and Harry looks at him softly, full of affection. People are starting to count down behind them, which makes them both realize that it’s soon to be the new year.

“I want to kiss you,” Harry says softly, leaning into Niall while his hand reaches out to hold his face.

Niall swallows, mouth going completely dry. “That, that’s fine,” he stammers out, before closing his eyes, resting his head against Harry’s.

They wait for the countdown, both of them with closed eyes, Harry’s hand on Niall’s heated cheek until they hear the people scream “One!”

And then everything goes black for Niall, he doesn’t hear the people cheer and scream and shout of joy. He doesn’t hear the loud music and the bangs of the fireworks. He forgets where he is, forgets the people around him.

He just feels Harry’s lips on his, the soft press of Harry’s mouth, leaving a soft, barely there peck on Niall’s mouth before he pulls away again. Niall opens his eyes, looking at a bright and smiling Harry.

“Happy New Year,” Harry whispers softly, caressing his thumb over Niall’s cheek.

“Happy New Year, Haz,” Niall answers.big thank you to lovely @emojilucas and @flickerbyniall for proofreading !!

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omg I just saw this bc I honestly didn’t think anyone would send me any! SO THANK YOU! here we go1. Favorite Up All Night song?more than this

2. Favorite Take Me Home song?summer love

3. Favorite Midnight Memories song?strong

4. Favorite FOUR song?fool’s gold

5. Favorite Made In The A.M. song?history

6. Favorite song not on an album?home - does that count since it wasn’t on the regular album lmao

7. Favorite overall 1D group album?MITAM

8. Favorite solo album?Flicker - Niall Horan

9. Do you think 1D will get back together?eh, idk. I think they might come back together to do some like shows together for MITAM but I think they’ll stop after that? 

10. Favorite boy pairing? (ex. narry, lilo, etc.)relationship/OTP: larry & ziamfriendship: zouis & narry

11. Favorite lyric from a 1D song?“You'll find me in the region of the summer stars”

12. Favorite lyrics from a solo song?“Even if I don't understand, You can talk to me”

13. Favorite 1D music video?look ok judge me but I honestly loved the best song ever video ok

14. Favorite solo music video?kiwi

15. Have you seen 1D live? If so, where?yes, twice. 2014 & 2015 both times at Gillette stadium in Foxborough, Mass.

16. Have you seen any of them solo? If so, where?yes Harry October 2017 in Phoenix, AZ and Niall September 2018 in Mansfield, Mass.

17. When did you discover 1D?well I’ve known about them since WMYB came out but didn’t become a fan until November 2013

18. What do you love about this fandom?how connected we are. between coordinating things at concerts, the charity fundraisers, idk just everything

19. What do you hate about this fandom?the babygate/relationship drama

20. What is your favorite fanfiction you’ve read?oh god, idek I’ve read too many! I would have to say I really like love to make him moan (larry) and you’re and you’re dumb (narry)

21. Which boy is your favorite and why?Harry. because he’s just.. Harry! he’s the most sweetest and down to earth people it seems like. he’s so connected to his fans and loves them so much. not to mention this past year and a half, seeing him be his true self outside 1D and seeing make the music he wants to make, dress how he wants and just express himself how HE wants has been so amazing. its honestly inspiring 

22. Which tour movie is your favorite?I’ve only see this is us :/

23. What era of 1D was your favorite?TMH

24. Which X-Factor performance was your favorite?confession: I haven’t watched the xfactor days I’m a fake fan I know

25. Best memory of the band?I have two. 1D day and also right before an album came together and just the excitement and anticipation for songs to be released and the whole fandom losing their shit all together at once lmao

26. Worst memory of the band?Zayn... do I even have to explain lmao

27. Favorite hairstyle (on any of the boys)?Zayn - Japan... yes u know the hair I’m talking about okHarry - long hair days right before he cut it for dunkirk. I just love his long hair so muchLouis - honestly, I love everything on him. I like the quiff thoLiam - I like anything EXCEPT the buzzcut, sorry :( I just like when his hair is kinda grown out and soft and fluffy he looks so cuteNiall - now with his natural hair but I also loved it in you & I

28. Ideal reunion tour - setlist. (List 15 songs from any album solo or 1D)oh geez uhm..- kiwi- home- drag me down- fool’s gold- slow hands- sour diesel- don’t forget where you belong- kiss you- little things- infinity- made in the AM (the song)- ready to run- flicker (the song)- seeing blind- mirrors

29. Ideal reunion tour - opening act?TOUR MITAM.... and zayn as an opening act ;)

30. Have you made friends through the band (other than people online)?no. no one I know in person likes 1D. I have one friend who likes Nialls solo stuff but thats about it. all my other 1D friends are people I met online

31. Have you met any of the boys? If so, who?I wish

32. If the boys could collab with anyone, who would it be?ZAYN1!! COULD U IMAGINE THAT WULD BE FIRE

33. If any of the boys (solo) could collab with anyone, who would it be?honestly not sarcastically it would be dope if zayn and liam made a song like the solo music they have now

34. If they return, what is your ideal sound for their 6th album?I’d want it to just be a mix and sound like THEM

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