#in a room I DON'T ALSO SLEEP IN

[homielander]

shiv's motivations for voting to pass the gojo deal are so layered and i don't think they should be dismissed in favour of any one interpretation. shiv desperately grabbed on to a lifeline for her relationship with tom. shiv was the deciding vote and she couldn't bear to hold the crown only for a moment just to place it atop her brother's head. shiv knew she would have more influence as wife of CEO rather than sister of CEO. shiv absolutely hated seeing kendall crystallize into logan before her eyes, especially when he made roman bleed ("and if we did kill him we get to go to bed") -- succession has always been about siblings so of course she tried to free her brothers before her child. shiv still thinks she can raise her child with all the material benefits of being the daughter of waystar CEO while doing better by her, whatever that means. and all of those things are true

#shiv roy #succession #succession spoilers #ok i'm sleeping #wait i know i just assumed tomshiv baby is a girl but like. i'm right #also i have seen many people say shiv did it purely out of spite and i will say #i don't think they would have had dialogue about shiv saying she's tired and they should all rest #or panned to shiv looking at roman's face fresh with blood #or shown shiv tearing up over her conversation with tom at the beginning of the episode #or had her say 'i cannot stomach you' which has pretty obvious connotations even in the context of succ #or had shiv make up her mind precisely when kendall said the andrew dodds confession was a lie #if her motives weren't meant to be read as ambiguous. they would not have put those things in there without reason #shiv leaving the room may have been impulsive spite but what came after was more complicated #it's also not even wholly altruistic it's just cold admittance that they don't have It. she thinks she does #and i'm not sure why the sentiment that they can't take it but she can surprises anyone #she's literally always seen herself as the exception

[worstloki]

love the idea of the Avengers adding new members but being stingy about rooms so the OG Avengers each get their own but Bucky and Loki are forced to share one under the guise of it being 'healthy interaction'

#Bucky and Loki being friends but in a weird way and now Thor is concerned like 'i don't recognise my brother anymore T-T' #and Steve is grimacing and sighing like 'my chemical romance isn't that bad Thor you just have to acquire the taste' #Bucky and Loki bunking in a room together and people just forgot to give them a second bed but it's ok because they both sleep on the floor #they wake each other up from nightmares and when it's done/conscious they look at each other in slight alarm and just give '👍❓❗' '👍👍❓' #aggressive thumbs up before returning to bed still communicating with thumbs up like 'all good??' 'all good??' 'all good!' 'go sleep?!?' #they both are convinced that oily hair is a way to keep it healthy and dandruff free and like they're not WRONG bc it works for them #but people also hate listening to them corroborate such experiences with each other #like you can't deny their hair is healthy and silky when they wash up and get dressed for something. BUT. STOP TALKING LIKE THAT. #they talk about how the bath they share is so comfortable for two people and it's driving people up a wall #Natasha opens the door and sees Bucky in the dark propped against a wall looking half dead with earphones in #(he is watching a nature documentary Loki recommended) #they bond over times they were being controlled and/or suicidal in Tony's lab and Tony who was working nods along absently long used to it #Tony: ah yeah I have PTSD but im managing it okay for now with meds #Bucky and Loki: *making faces* boo 👎

[sergle]

I feel you, its so bad 😭, I had to go on a functioning adult human schedule for school and good god, out the house by 7am... bad bitches are not built for that..

WE REALLY ARE... and man, I can brute force myself into any schedule if there are things that HAVE to be done at certain times (like school, like you said) but it absolutely never feels "right". it feels like waking up at 3am to go to the airport type of shit. and it is truly so annoying... to get hit with the "that's a Normal schedule, you need to Fix your schedule" okay. alright. but let me hit you with this one. is it "normal" or is it just conducive to a 8 - 5. because no matter what my sleep schedule is like, or how locked in I am, I'm more clear headed at night + more productive and energetic. and no matter what, I'm tired during the day, especially the brightest times of day when the sun is allegedly supposed to be signaling my brain to be awake and alert. and it doesn't matter how much sleep I got.

#I can wake up in The Early Morning after going to bed at a reasonable hour the night prior and be exhausted throughout the daytime #and if I make it to the night then I'll suddenly perk back up. if I woke up at 7am that morning (with 8 hours of sleep under my belt) #I can comfortably stay awake until 5 or 6am that very next morning. #I need to Adapt to the daytime schedule- but if I loosen my grip on myself at all I will instantly SNAP back to the nighttime one. #full rubberband moment. #I don't need to transition back into it. my body just wants to click it back in place #I'll go right back into the swing of it as soon as I'm allowed to again #sergle answers #also I don't have trouble sleeping in daylight hours. yeah I have the curtains drawn in my room #but they aren't Blackout curtains. it's dim in there but not Dark. that doesn't impede me at all #it is crazy the way that people are so confident in telling me to my face that I'm on a bad and lazy schedule #bc they are categorizing my wake-up time as 'sleeping in' bc they're measuring it on their standard of when THEY go to bed. #i could go to bed at noon and wake up at 3pm and they'd say that i slept in

[lizardthelizard]

so, does anyone else feel sick about the fact that, in the books, Rimmer spends as much of his free time as possible in stasis (he literally spends a year's worth of time in stasis, over the course of five years), and that, officially, stasis booths are only ever used for penal reasons? does anyone else feel sick about the implications that Rimmer has been voluntarily punishing himself for five years straight?

#is this anything? idk it's been on my mind for ages now #red dwarf #arnold rimmer #of course. rimmer going into stasis all the time also makes me sick because #the ONLY thing that matters to him is passing his exams and becoming an officer. it's the only thing that brings him joy rn #and he'll happily rationalise his lack of friendships with 'I'm spending my free time wisely by making sure I don't age' ect #no wonder his room is so well tidied and devoid of belongings he's literally never there except to sleep or 'study' #sorry if I don't make a text post about rimmer at least 3 times a week I think I might explode actually

[claypigeonpottery]

sold

I had a night terror about a creepy hand once. very unsettling

#somehow it was less terrifying than the night terror I had about the giraffe being in the room with me #why #it wasn't even doing anything scary just looking at me #also what the fuck brain #it's a giraffe #how would it even get in the house #night terrors are WEIRD #deep sea diver #diver #thalassophobia #what's the word for a phobia of giraffes? #I don't have that but my sleeping self does apparently #hands #creepy #nightmare #horror #night terror #claypigeon #glazeware

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #bad news lads (gender neutral) turns out I just don't like camping #we'd already set it up so I would only stay one night because I knew I'd probably need to go home early for one reason or another #so it's nbd #but it turns out camping is kinda pointless if you're with literally any other people at all #I could see the appeal if it was literally me alone and like not even my partners or anything #but we were in a group of like. 20 people. 1/3rd children. #but even without all the extra people if it's not like Total Isolation it's like. #I could still go spend all day in the woods and just also sleep in a bed after yknow? #it only loses you like 10 minutes of tree-time depending where you are #and like I kind like being inside a tent! it's cozy! but I could just. sleep in a room. with a tv and a microwave. #idk bro it's not for me #even without sleeping in the mud and being woken up for a guard shift in the middle of the night. #even if the children had not been there. #and I wonder if it's like a ~toughness~ thing for some people but like. #come on man. #(I know it is also often a lot cheaper especially for big families than other vacation accommodations) #(at least after the upfront investment on gear) #(which like that's fair! but it's not an applicable concern for me!) #(it's not a big enough difference that we could afford one and not the other as a family of 3 adults)

[novelconcepts]

the truly problematic thing about having insanely vivid dreams just about every night--and i mean the kind of vivid where you remember details days or even weeks later, like it's just another normal-ass memory--is that you wind up losing track on an emotional level of what's real. like. i know that was a dream. obviously it was a dream. but some part of my brain misses it like it really happened. i am painfully, achingly nostalgic for people i've never met, places i've never been, shit that literally could not ever happen--but i feel as though i remember. which is just the most unhinged thing, right? like, i remember going on a run that took me over a fence into Disneyland, and i remember having to take a shortcut through a Chinese restaurant, but it was fine, because Erika Ishii was there, and they'd done this before, so no worries. right? no! obviously not! why do i remember this with such visceral clarity three weeks later?

oh, what's your favorite episode of this TV show? the one i dreamt. yeah, don't worry about it, it didn't make coherent sense, but it was in the feelings, right? my ship had the best fucking scene. no, of course i can't explain it to you, that's madness. it involved a rocking chair. don't worry about it. it's fine. it's super important i don't accidentally reference this in a fic someday, though.

this shit is deranged, dude. missing people who are quite literally my own brain's invention with an actor's face. missing places that are a meld of a movie i saw once, my childhood bedroom, the second floor of my high school, and inter-dimensional space. like. no! no, this shouldn't be a thing! is, though. the clarity of it. just fucking bananas. this has been happening to me my whole goddamn life.

#dreams #the worst thing about being a writer who has had these wildly vivid dreams forever #is the CLEAR awareness that they do not follow story-logic. dream-logic is special and near-impossible to properly bottle #so like. i can't even use these not-memories #i can't write my 'new favorite episode' and share it with the class #i can't even tell my wife about the shit i fully remember seeing and doing while i sleep. because i didn't. #the other night i had such an insane flying dream that i woke up and told her 'for the record: i do dream in color.' #and she went 'of course you do.' #and i was like 'yeah of course i do but also this one was actively switching between color and black and white so. guess it's for suresies. #anyway i haven't had a dreamless night in...a really fuckin long time and it's nuts. false memories. everywhere. #it's astonishing i don't forget more real shit to make room #tell you what though. it does make warring against parasocial instincts WORSE. i am a mature adult who knows better. #but good goddamn my subconscious isn't helping

[a-s-levynn]

"Even if the sky cracks in mourning / And the heavens just won't open up for me" A Series of Small Offerings - II/12 - day20

#a series of small offerings #sleep token fanart #elaboration on this piece further down in the tags because this one may confuse people i think #(also please note that i firmly believe that the from the room below version of this song is the superior one) #(so the art was made with that version in mind because that is the version that lives rent free in my brain for reasons) #i've been thinking so much how to approach this one.. i knew pretty much since i've made the challenge that i will go with this line #specifically because i refuse to hear it as the lyrics sites and spotify tells me to hear it (as it appears in the post) but instead #i don't hear the 'the' in any version of the song i'm sorry that is just not there #so i'm convinced it is 'as the sky cracks in mourning' #(sky cracking-lightning;sky mourning-rain) #which is also exactly how the song feels to me #being a sad wet cat of a person standing bare feet in a strom and just crying 'why i was i so blind to my own hubris' #specifically in relation of finally (and far too late) understanding you fucked up a relationship so bad it still hurts years after #if you've ever felt anything remotely similar you know what i'm talking about #and you get why i refuse it being 'in the morning' instead of 'in mourning' #vessel i #vessel #vessel sleep token #vessel fanart #sleep token band #sleeptoken #levynn tries to draw #sleep token #edit: i don't mean to offend those who stand behind the line being 'in the morning' btw i just don't hear it #and i don't think i'm correct. i'm correct for me. not in your stead. half the lyrics can be heard at least two ways #edit2: appearently i'm actually right about something for a change.. a truly unusual turn of events #see comments for referrence pls #also edited this post to the correct lyrics #but leaving the tags for context 'cause thw original version of the post has been rb-d before editing i think

[gae-bolg-alternative-dot-exe]

It's right and correct to shit on league of legends. Its aggressive esportification over the many years was probably inevitable since that's like Riots thing. But playing league with friends in 2013 was such an amazing and completely different experience that I can't help feel sad what was lost in pursuit to maximizing the ranked grind and the skill creep of a multiplayer game.

#smite and hots kinda capture that fun is first and foremost with room to be sweaty vibe old league had but it's just not the same tbh #so many gamers now also have a fear of playing something casual and silly now in respects to moba's and shooters #I'm so tired #gae-bolg writes shit #maybe delete later #I don't want the rAnKeD oR i sLeEp dudes finding me

[derelicthorror]

oh yanovan my best best friend

#HE USES WEIRD OATHS THAT NO ONE OUTSIDE OF THE RV HAS EVER HEARD OF #he Will take the name of rook in vain too he doesnt CARE #yanovan #save me yanovan .. and he's like. im off the clock (<- excuse. he is simply unwilling) #yano sleeps like 10 minutes a week because his maintenance standards are IMPOSSIBLE and no one else meets them. #what do you mean you don't triple check the alignment of the negentropy capacitors. amateur. #and he's also Going to accompany you on every mission. that's a given he'll be half asleep like FINE . fine where are we going. jeez. #and you were like how did you even hear me planning out a trip to the grocery store your room is a floor down and you were unconscious #and i love him #derelict doodles

[myrddin-wylt]

confession: I get very excited whenever I see someone in the fandom with a mood or psychotic disorder but at this point I rarely initiate contact. so if you have a mood or psychotic disorder please feel free to stop by and say hi. cluster b people you're welcome here too. I love you

#don't mind me I'm being mentally ill again #on impulse I went thru every room and threw away any alcohol I found regardless of whether or not it was mine #also I can't sleep again #it's fine it's fine it's fine #definitely not a great sign of things to come but I'm sure it's fine #dude I am SO chill for someone who's batshit fucking insane

[godbirdart]

the one day of Free Time To Do Chores before a big trip has tragically landed on the same day this one lady in my building decided to do the laundry for what seems to be her Entire apartment

I HAVE WAITED EIGHT HOURS. A WASH + DRY TAKES AN HOUR AND A HALF. THERE ARE MULTIPLE WASHERS AND DRYERS AND SHE HAS COMMANDEERED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. WHAT ARE YOU WASHING. have you opted today to be the day you wash every thread of fabric within your home’s four walls? every blouse and rag and doily just Had to go in? have you stripped the couch of its upholstery? torn up the unit carpeting, feeling it needed a run through the spin cycle? what are you wASHING

#she seems like a genuinely nice person but bLEASE #I JUST WANTED TO WASH MY BEDSHEETS SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO WAIT 3 YEARS FOR THEM TO FULLY DRY ;; #I WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP BEFORE 5AM TOMORROW MORNING FOR ONCE;; #i also could be wrong and one of my other neighbours snuck in there #but when i entered the laundry room earlier is was PACKED with half-folded laundry and rumbling washers and dryers so #who can say for sure

[coquelicoq]

me: how about...natori contracting some kind of youkai illness & matoba finding out about it & showing up to his set & natori dragging him off to his trailer bc it would be bad for his sparkly reputation to make the angry faces he feels coming on in front of his coworkers & matoba offering to help but in that smarmy condescending way that raises natori's hackles so he refuses but unfortunately he doesn't know how to cure it so matoba just keeps showing up every day & natori keeps carting him off to the trailer every time & being suuuuper cagey when people ask him who his visitor is & what if his coworkers get the wrong idea & matoba is fully aware of this & what if one day in the trailer natori reluctantly agrees to let matoba help him & matoba's like okay fine off with your shirt i gotta paint this spell circle on your bare chest & what if he's in the middle of doing that when they hear somebody opening the door to the trailer & obviously they don't want anyone to know what they're actually doing in there bc youkai-exorcist confidentiality so matoba's like no worries i got this & he KISSES NATORI omg classic kiss-as-misdirection trope & the person at the door is like whoops my b carry on gentlemen & after they've left natori is like wtf matoba????? & matoba's like well it's what they all thought we were doing anyway & your mouth was right there & it allowed me to cover the writing on your chest with my body & also you kiss people for a living so i figured it wouldn't be too complex for you & your part-time exorcist training to handle & natori recovers admirably quickly & is like WELL for your information that was a TERRIBLE kiss & no one is gonna buy that i professional makeout artist natori shuuichi would be swapping saliva with somebody on the reg without any of my considerable skill rubbing off on them & matoba's like so what do you propose we do about it & natori's like obviously i have to teach you how to kiss in case they come back -

the bedtime story fairy who thought this was gonna be an easy assignment: please just go to sleep im begging u have mercy ur brain cells are dying

#my other bedtime imagine also features misunderstandings in natori's trailer/dressing room but this time it's established relationship #natori and his costar are in his trailer practicing a kiss & matoba comes in & thinks natori is CHEATING 😲 #& packs up & goes back to the matoba estate & natori's calling him daily like i LITRALLY dk what i did wrong...miss u baby... #but also tell me what i did wrong u asshole!! you just left & didn't even tell me if/when you're coming back! wtf!!! #and eventually matoba comes home & they talk & natori's like mkay well first of all kissing that lady is my literal job that pays me #but i understand that it upset you bc we were alone in my trailer & looked startled to be interrupted. hey i know #why don't you come with me to set & you can see just how incredibly unsexy these practice sessions are? #so matoba accompanies him & it's literally just natori & his costar like calculating exact face tilt angles & figuring out #their precise height differential during the scene in question based on the shoes she'll be wearing & testing out ideal #degree of mouth openness & choreographing switching sides of the face to correspond to the movement of the camera #(bc obviously it's one of those epic 360-degree shots with the swelling orchestral score and w/e 🙄) #& figuring out where they should put their hands & whether it makes sense for them to be smiling at this point in their arc &c &c #& matoba starts like observing them from multiple angles & critiquing their technique & giving pointers to the costar #& grabbing natori's chin & bodily arranging his limbs like a mannequin & showing the costar the best ratio of lip give to firmness #by demonstrating with his own lips on natori's lips. & so on & so forth. meanwhile #the sleep i am forgoing in favor of having these thoughts is something i will NEVER get back. #natsume's book of friends #horrible exorcists #f #my posts #i am such a clown to watch one of the sweetest and most poignant shows i have ever seen and for what? #to get fixated on imagining ways to get these chuckleheads to smush their mouths together? unbelievable. #like these scenarios barely (if at all) have anything to do with what makes them so fascinating as characters. i just want them to Kiss #idk though i do feel like their first kiss has to be some sort of dare or 'accident' or w/e like these weirdos can't just KISS each other! #who does that! have you heard of a little thing called pride and invulnerability and plausible deniability!!!! #but i also completely imprinted on this one established relationship fic i read last year so sometimes i just skip ahead #to the kinds of misunderstandings and shenanigans and conflicting priorities they could get up to as a couple #i guess i just want the fact that natori is famous for kissing people to be Matoba Seiji's Problem in some way or another #is that so much to ask #(i also CLEARLY imprinted on a fic in which natori teaches matoba to kiss at a bar?? i should reread that one)

[fluentisonus]

waking up from.a frightening dream at 4am in which a scary book was central which in the dream (could sort of tell I was dreaming on one level) I thoroughly believed was a real book that had been brought up the other day irl & that my dreaming mind was riffing off of bc I had not read yet. but having woken up. I'm not entirely convinced this is the case. and now I'm kind of scared to look it up tbh bc what's worse that it doesn't exist but I've dreamed about it several different nights & it's broken down my dream/reality conscious barrier (& I might dream it again??? this does happen to me) or that it does & I have to live in a world where it exists & I could read it.

#seriously considering just not sleeping any more & just getting up now at 4am now lol. i don't want to go back to sleep #thoughts #tbc in the dream the book was just a horror type deal it wasn't actually like. powerful. beyond the way it warped my 'levels' of reality #which ngl has shaken me bc i can usually tell well enough if I'm dreaming even if I can't act on it #so some sort of scary narrative/reality breakdown here #<- sorry for the distracted rambling I'm still half asleep & twitching at weird sounds. i will feel better shortly though i usually do #the last time this happened i was in high school & having a dream i could tell i was dreaming in & then 'woke up' & rolled over to find a #perfect representation of my room except the lady from my dream was standing in the middle of it facing away from me oddly still. & then #when i woke up for real I couldn't make myself turn over for like an hour i was so distressed abt what I'd see but also more importantly #that i didn't know/couldn't reliably trll if i was dreaming or not. terrifying prospect tbh #also like i DO have dreams with sequrls/repeats/returns sometimes even years later & 'remember' the last one. nightmares included. #which i hate btw

[thatoneluckybee]

bitches love me cause i sleep until 4

I'm stealing you melatonin I need some

#I woke up at EIGHT!!! I COULD NOT SLEEP MORE!!!!!!! #I actually. Fell asleep at a decent time it was weird #This is funny to me if I fall asleep early I WILL be forcibly woken up by my body because it is alarming apparently if I sleep normally #I don't ever sleep enough I can't ever. Like 6-5 hours on school nights #Maybe once or twice a month like last night ig I'll just. Randomly collapse or pass out in my room and sleep for longer than normal and the #I'm good for a few weeks. Like. It's strange. How I sleep idk. #I've fallen asleep at like 6 and woken up at 3am on a SATURDAY #and also I slept for 18 hours one time and then only got like three hours for the next few days #I'm taking your melatonin I need my body to produce it like a normal person #Asks #fruit-gummiees

[queerofthedagger]

i dreamt about mulder and scully last night, which would already be funny, but I. have never watched x-files. thank you fandom. thank you tumblr

#*mine #mona rambles #we had a really weird love triangle going on while something was trying to kill us #and mr bennet was smoking in a room next to us #at some point we were throwing fireworks at cops and then they abandoned me and i got taken in for questioning #so instead of answering anything i took out my phone and called mr bennet because apparently he was my lawyer??? yea #the cops were REALLY mad about that one but i do think it's funny that even asleep my brain's like. acab baby lmao #the love triangle got solved by alcohol and poly btw so i guess you could call this a win after all also #there's frankly a specific genre of dreams that comes from nightshifts where you can lightly nap in intervals #because your body Knows and you don't really drift into deep sleep anymore #but you dream THEE weirdest stuff bless