#in a million memories

[deaneverafter]

And a Million More

By Anastasie Denholm

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Everlie (Chevalier) Winchester (OFC)

Summary: Approximately ten years later... or, Dean looks back on his life since retiring from the family business, as his 50th birthday approaches.

Part Two of In a Million Memories (this story can be read on its own as a fluffy one shot, as well)

Warnings: fluff, fluff, and some more fluff, with a side of minor angst, lots of feelings

Length: 6k words

Notes: This fills the "Anniversary" square for @jacklesversebingo!

Cover photo credits: x, x

Thank you to @deanwinchesterswitch for reviewing it and providing feedback that made it so much better! @deans-spinster-witch and @phoenixwritesfanfiction, thank for reading it first and your thoughts!

All rights to the characters and Supernatural belong to the original writers, but the original characters and this story is something I've worked on, and I ask that this story please not be saved and/or copied to any other places or sites.

#dean winchester #dean winchester fanfiction #jacklesversebingo23 #finale fix it #In a Million Memories #dean winchester x oc

[bogkeep]

thoughts, repeating.

#art #sketch #digital art #ocd #wish i could clear my brain cache sometimes! #but no instead everything that ever happens to me is a cognitohazard #anything can be my brain's favourite chew toy #there's nothing more to extract from that thought but sure let's run into it like a knife a million times #and it becomes habit that reinforces itself. i will wake up thinking thank god im not having the thought right now! oh! surprise! #i don't wish my memory was worse but i wish it knew how to let go #one beautiful day when im in a place more long term i will find a therapist that can help hopefully #also im doing fine mostly!!!!!! #ive been meaning to draw this for a while just havent had the time and im slowly smoothing it over

[maomango-doodle]

(13 pages) Forlorn

#trigun #trigun stampede #millions knives #on an episode of “how much can i woobify knives :D” #his character is interesting to explore. so much loneliness mixed with strong emotions repressed behind a cold facade #i wondered how he would react to the realization that he misses vash #if he brings his plans to fruition then they'll be reunited -- that's what he tells himself #maybe to keep the loneliness at bay but sometimes it catches up to him #i thought maybe this cold and perfect facade knives parades would shatter and the “ugly” emotions hidden behind would spill out #which would be smth out of his control. and knives hates it. or deep down is terrified of it #smth smth knives seeing vash in his reflection on a stolen red plant #and oh #oh he's PISSED #he let a part of himself break. he showed weakness. and over what? over vash?? but hes doing everything for HIM #he thinks -- so it's vash's fault he's losing his composure right? #it's vash's fault he's distracted from what could reunite them. his fault knives is doing all of this. feeling all of this #using vash as a scape goat for his own emotional turmoil #and that piano be damned. it's a monolith of his loneliness #if only it could all disappear-- the piano-- the cold-- the memories-- the weight on his heart-- the FEAR #there's smth about his rage being rooted in fear that intrigues me #fear of remaining alone-- fear of the hurricane of his own emotions-- fear of time passing and loss of control #then his hood falls off and he's left vulnerable and exposed #also i like the idea of knives looking pretty when he's composed but when he shows strong emotions he turns ugly and wrinkly #comic #i forgot it was in my drafts lol also not kv btw ^^ #Thank you for reading! :3 #shinxo art #shinxo comic

[suntails]

adrift

#FORGOT TO POST HERE. yes ill post a science experiment of an art piece w a dramatic caption. who do u think i am this is my BRAND #i am nothing if not consistent. and dramatic. and this boy's mom. i love him #i do stuff like this sometimes to go 110% in the loose direction to remind my hands they can do that #my art style leans stiffer and exercises like squiggles are good for muscle memory and exploring new expression its fun #i can draw a million different art styles if i must but i want the default to have a lil more flow yaknow. (that rhymes <3) #ill never get over how fun the imagery potential of his little miserable depression map moment is. the white hexagons of woe #tastee #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #suntails

[rottedsoulx]

finally posting this bc i was originally gonna add more to it, and I will but *jazz hands* this for now. Also if you haven't watched trollstopia this is solely based off Pushy Poppy and my belief that she is the Creek of her universe. Which means I make Branch the Poppy, and Creek the Branch...

More on that under the cut :>

IDK HOW EXACTLY THIS WOULD WORK,,, bc although I think she's a self-serving a-hole I don't think Poppy in any universe would be willing to sacrifice her whole species for just herself,... but she might for her only friends. Or more specifically, the only troll that didn't just tolerate her for her status: Branch. (And she doesn't hate Creek, just isn't used to being treated like just anyone, and just anyone to Creek is a nuisance lmao)....and to an extent the Snack Pack (....s-smack pack-).

She's a bitch, but inside she's a little girl who was raised underneath her perished sister's shadow.

Nicknames:

-Puppy (pending)

-Pranch (Party Branch)

-Greek (Grey Creek)

Also huge shoutout to @ryuunoyuki who I chatted to bounce off ideas with and I'm pretty sure she came up with the nicknames hehe!

#ppau #trolls #dwtrolls #dreamworks trolls au #alternate universe #pushy poppy #branch #creek #this is gonna be broppy #and also Breek #Breekoppy #if you will #fanart #carry on au #thats probably the name of a million aus already but #Carry on not as in “my wayward son” but as in “your memory will” #other contenders were one foot (in front of the other foot) #and nature vs nurture #but i think im deciding in the moment to have it be carry on

[rrylies]

altan isn't a violent person at his core it was just what other people have always seen him as because he's speerly, and for some reason the speerlies have a savage connotation when we have no proof that they were actually animals in the sense that other people keep describing them as. im sure that we only get the savage speerly stereotype because as a people, they were fundamentally different from the nikara and the mugenese. and since they were all (mostly) dead at the start of book one, who was going to negate all of these stereotypes? no one. (i could go on about how altan was slapped with the "last speerly" moniker when in reality he probably remembers very little about his culture and what speer was like before all of the war and the death but that's for another time <3)

even back in his days of sinegard altan isnt depicted as a particularly violent person, though he's placed in violent events. like in the fighting pits at night altan is pitted up against his peers who want to fight him at a chance at victory, to prove that they've won a battle against the last speerly and we have no idea if altan actually wants to fight them or if he's forced to (iirc it's highly suggested that irjah baits him into fighting by promising him opium if he wins, and he will, because he always does) (although that could've just been nezha being a dick) and even though altan shows no signs of violence or aggression (he's always depicted as calm, stoic, etc) he's always painted as something less than human, an animal simply because ??? he wins their fights? as if that's not something he's expected to do in the first place. ("how did he do that? isn't he human?" "he isn't, he's speerly" this quote. ARGHARAGH RABAN ILY BUT SHUT UPPP)

and back to the stereotypes of speerlies and why they're painted as rabid animals even though there's no proof that they are. the main thing i can think of rn is how the federation (+ the mugenese) think of them simultaneously as something divine and to be studied but also as these rabid beasts at the same time. like the federation soldiers are clearly afraid of fire / the speerlies (i have a separate hc that their culture has something to do with this but that is also for another time <3) shiro mentions how precious and important the speerlies are (and yet his people bombed altan's? ://) while taking every opportunity he can to pick altan apart. then people wonder why altan's vicious towards the federation and hates them with every fiber of his being and why he has so much pent-up anger within him and it's like, hello?? they took him captive when he was a child, and sent him to the laboratory with shiro where he would spend half of his life being cut open and dissected, injected with opium time and time again, forced to watch his people die off one by one without the knowledge that he was the last until after he'd been rescued. (this still gets me btw no im not in tears) and then even when he's out, his suffering isn't over, (it's never over lets be real) because he's shipped off to sinegard academy where he'll be surrounded by so many different conflicting stereotypes (the nikara think he's an animal because he's speerly but shiro thought he was amazing because he was speerly, because of his connection to the phoenix) and really, he's not violent, not at his core, but i cant imagine the inner turmoil altan went through his first few years out of the lab + his first year at sinegard where he was the only one who was different (and also fighting an opium addiction at the same time and people belittle him over this when it literally wasn't his fault)

like altan was not violent. he was calm and he had his moments of peace, but ultimately because of everything that had happened to him (cough. shiro u motherfucker), the violence was forced out of him and became all he knew ("chaghan said they trained you like a dog at the academy" ://) and he literally didn't know any better, he was failed by every single person who should have helped him. (never getting over this btw)

yin riga, a man who he trusted, sent him away to shiro. (will never not think of how much little five year old altan trusted riga and then. well.) jiang, who was supposed to help him with his connection to the phoenix, shunned him. irjah, who was his supposed caretaker, who only fed his opium addiction in order to control him, just like how shiro did, just like how the nikara did to the speerlies (parallels. yaaay.)

in the end altan trengsin wasn't a violent person, but it was all anyone wanted to see. it was all anyone would remember him by.

#wow i thought this was long on discord but it looks even longer here #this was spurred on by someone saying that he's the violent dog trend on tiktok #yes this was incoherent #yes i rambled #probably went off-track like a million times but who cares #can u blame me its about ALTAN TRENGSIN #anyways #probably cried like twice writing this the first time and another time revising it for tumblr #ignore any inconsistencies pls <3 #barely fact-checked this is all just from my memory of the books #the poppy war #altan trengsin

[ev-moved]

same url @ev

ive had this blog since 2016 and its been stressing me out lately so im making a new one. NOT an aesthetic blog anymore im just gonna post w/e the hell i want so dont feel pressured to follow it.

#feel free to unfollow this blog as well #gonna leave it up for memories + i have a million sideblogs i dont feel like moving over #i have like 500 posts in my q as well rip

[mrbluesummers-moved]

I'm too tired to write the full Essay™, but someone said in the tags that Stampede took away Knives' fear and it made me realize that the core issue I have with Trigun Stampede is the fact that the characters lack the emotional depth of Trigun Maximum. Like, I'm enjoying Stampede, and it's emotional, but Knives and Vash especially have had their emotional complexity watered down in comparison to the manga.

In the manga, they were as much at war with themselves as they were with each other and world around them. Knives was expressive, animated, and always playing up the megalomaniac god complex in public, but in private he was exhausted and scared and even expressed guilt towards his sisters for being careless in how he orchestrated the fall. Vash was an upbeat pacifist who was constantly fighting his own urge to take the "easy" way out and kill to solve problems.

It's what made the manga so heartbreaking. Neither of them were entirely right, but neither of them were entirely wrong. Knives shouldn't try a genocide, but he was also a deeply traumatized child who was shown how cruel humans could be to plants. Vash should try to do as much good in the world as he can, but holding onto the ideals of pacifism in a hostile environment does more harm than good and he learns that when he's finally pushed to the point where he has to choose between killing and saving someone important to him.

I don't think it's impossible for Stampede to recover in Season 2, but the foundations aren't great. Changing Nai to being cold as child seems like such a small change, but Knives starting out as the optimist who loved humanity is so central to that internal conflict... I don't know. Maybe they'll come back to the point of Rem being important to Knives and make use of the fact that he intended for her to survive and that might save it. We'll have to see.

#trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #millions knives #vash the stampede #me: i don't have the energy to write an essay #also me: #this is probably incomprehensible and I don't want to be the guy wot rags on stampede bc i genuinely love the show #and find it more watchable than the 90s anime (sorry) #but it's more fun to complain and critically analyze the characterization #and knives is just so important to me and the fact that he hasn't gotten a good adaptation is disappointing #his childhood personality is so core to his character and yet adaptations choose to make him cold rather than bubbly and hopeful #basically the entire basis for vash's adult persona lbr #anyway i had to hold myself back from writing an essay about knives and his expressiveness too #thinking about the way he reacted to the last run and seeing the plants happy memories and how he “greeted” midvalley and #him being calm and collected just feels wrong

[sproutbox02]

#my art #dungeon meshi #love her always #did this from memory srry if she’s effed up #i feel like ive drawn this pose before a million times i can’t help it

[asleepinawell]

laha ur athena std is showing

#this is either because laha has his athena tainted memories back from the soul sex #or because of the heart of sabik #or both! #ffxiv #ffxivmp #mp #6.4 spoilers #ffxiv 6.4 #patch 6.4 #ffxiv spoilers #6.4 #ffxiv patch 6.4 spoilers #when i heard this the first time i was like WAIT A MINUTE #i have not sat through porta decumana 8 million times to not recognize this line instantly thank you

[deaneverafter]

In a Million Memories

By Anastasie Denholm

After saving the world over and over again, Dean finally deserves to live in it. And he wants to. He's earned it. But things are never as simple as that for a Winchester, and if he wants the apple pie life, he's going to have to fight for it, harder than he's ever fought before.

Table of Contents

Prologue - My Own

Part One

Chapter One - Running Up That Hill

Chapter Two: The District Sleeps Alone Tonight

Chapter Three: These Memories

Part Two

Chapter Four: Salvation

Chapter Five: Cosmic Love

Chapter Six: The Wreck of Our Hearts

Chapter Seven: I Made a Lovers Prayer

Chapter Eight: Carry You

Part Three

Chapter Nine: Find My Way Back

Chapter Ten: Ancient Light

Chapter Eleven: Like Real People Do

Epilogue: Sounds of Someday

#dean winchester fanfiction #dean winchester x ofc #dean winchester x oc #i will update this as i post chapters #here's my finale fix it! #one better finale written a hundred more to go #if you follow me for not better finales.... 😅 #bear with me #😅 #in a million memories

[thosewildcharms]

not to over-indulge in my own tags and this extremely hyperspecific au but walk with me for a minute. it's this scene from the series finale of LOST except make it rick and michonne. and instead of it being them reuniting in the afterlife it's them reuniting after the poof! no apocalypse timeline reset and they're getting flashbacks of the original zombie apocalypse timeline. do you see my vision.

#richonne #the IDEA is they both wake up and the apocalypse did not happen (like rick wakes up from his coma but the world did not end) #but they both feel panicked because something is not right. there is a sense of loss and grief they cannot explain #they look at carl and andre respectively and burst into tears and are hyper vigilant around them and don't know why #their partners go to touch them and they flinch and they DON'T KNOW WHY #meanwhile little things give them deja vu that they don't understand #and then because Invisible String of Fate they somehow cross paths and lock eyes and it's The Fence multiplied by like a million #and then idk if the flashbacks come all at once or a little over time but either way they Recognize each other #and it torpedoes both of their lives #idk what happens after that but DO YOU SEE THE VISION #oh and there are RULES such as #the stronger your connection with someone the more easily you ~remember them when you meet again #and also the longer you lived through the original timeline the stronger your memories are #so for example since richonne would obviously had been alive at the time of the reset #they'd have crystal clear vision of their memories once they regained them #but people who died quickly would have either a vague memory or no memory of the original timeline #this is so you could have the DELICIOUS dichotomy of rick and michonne remembering EVERYTHING while lori and mike remember basically nothin #AGAIN DO YOU SEE MY VISION

[daftpatience]

if I could afford it I'd be buying sooo many stickers from all the artists I love for my journal you guys don't even KNOW

#i wish i had one million dollar to spend on my art frienfs and colleagues . i want every sticker sheet in the world #it is one of my great joys to have a special precious place to put stickers like a journal #cus cus because i get new ones as thry fill up so its a constant new place to put them!!! #and my old ones go on the shelf and the stickers are like little memories of the time i got them #its so good

[noahtally-famous]

can't believe this hasn't been said before but unhinged!scarlett and unhinged!dave would be an iconic duo. shame pi didn't get a second season bc these two in an alliance would basically succeed in destroying the island, they'd wipe everyone out

the fact that they're both versions of the nerd character so they're already smart in their own ways, the fact that they have absolutely zero fucks to give anymore, their individual darker sides have come out (whether it was hidden consciously (scarlett) or unconsciously (dave)), and they've each attempted to kill/seriously injure one or more contestant(s) (and mess up the island in the process) just to reach their end goal. imagine if these two found a common goal somehow, literally nothing could get in their paths (except possibly each other)

#these two in an alliance that ends with one or both of them turning on the other would be wild #tbh i know ppl talk abt wishing roti getting a second season but the potential in a second season for pi?? there is so much!! #literally half the dynamics have changed and so have personalities for most of the characters in pi #max and scarlett's dynamic change and their shifts in characters #topher could easily shift from chris lover to chris hater. two extremes!! #he just wants to get chris fired or in pain or smth lmao #dave becoming more competitive and less romantic he turns more heartless (and a bit more reserved and unpredictable) #his heart is there its just v shrouded. and repressed memories dave of the finale!! #he knows smth big happened but the memories of exact details are fuzzy (when that mental curtain is ripped away its gonna be chaos) #amy and sammy's change in dynamics. sammy standing up for herself!! #i wanna say sky would join a second season to get a chance at the money (im a shawn winner truther) #but idk if after all that she'll want to lmao #but skave dynamic total shift if sky comes back!!! #dave doing anything to get her eliminated sky slowly starting to retaliate #it'd be interesting to explore ella and sugar's characters if they've changed or not #evil scarlett who doesnt hide it!! #jashawn ain’t gonna join i think lmao they deserve a nice break plus they split the million so #rodney who is still a romantic but starts to understand the truth of boundaries and the rose colored glasses start to break #(he gets a sexuality revelation when he crushes on one of the guys) #just imagine how wack things would have gone with a second season #the different interactions and alliances and friendships and enemies #and the interactions/dynamics in the first season def would have changed in a second one #this is making me remember the whole layout for a second pi season younger me wrote with new and old contestants #anyway! second season pi was so deserved it would have been wack #noahtally-famous #total drama #td dave #td scarlett #tdpi

[landrick-lycidas]

After two months of work, I've finally finished my cover/arrangement of Alright by Maxton Waller! I love Dndads so much, and I decided to culminate that in a medium that expresses me most. I am really happy with the end product, and I hope you enjoy listening to it :)

Amp: Boss Katana MKII 50w

Drums: Ugritone Arena Rock VST

Bass: IK Multimedia MODO bass VST

Guitar: Solar A2.7C

DAW: FL Studio

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #guitar #LAKFJLAKFJFSJKFSLK:FJSF I SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THIS!!!!!!!! #i am excited for people to hear it :) #i like rerecorded the first solo a million times but i finally had something to settle on #also the drum plugin i was using was very greedy with memory so by the end of the project i couldnt play the song without my FL studio #lagging to shit #it would be unlikely but if any of the dndads people listened to my cover that would be AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! #gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg #also thanks to my irl mutual for listening to this song as i would make progress on it!

[foursaints]

ur vibes to me are like we are in a dark academia novel coquette fans on tiktok recommend and we are two weird off putting individuals in an environment which shuns us and thus we form a bond that time only strengthens . perhaps we decide to commit some sort of weird freaky experiment on someone we have observed will not be missed to forever bond us by the weird and indescribable . ur like a broken jewelry box with antique jewelry both second hand and passed down by family …. i am like a teddy bear w tear tracks n weird blood stains n frayed ribbon that has been used to string over the years … perpetually in a state of similar opposites …. i think it would be fun to watch trash tv with you and do serious character analysis . i also get the vibe from u of like … hating the purposefully frayed and broken for the bit. this is not true to the saints aesthetic all of your frayed edges are natural and come from love and time . you are not faking this faking this is a cop out !!!! also i can see you doing archery seems like a very saints hobby … i feel as if this anonymous analysis may be very obvious but !! 😊

hello ivy

#a #if this isn't ivy i'm going to be so embarrassed but it HAS to be. i love you sm forever and ever... i couldn't have put it better myself #let's rot on the top shelf of a china cabinet in an antique shop together for 1 million years #sidenote: what you said about faux-frayed edges... YES!!!!! it's just me and my ancient Maryjanes & hand-darned clothes against the world.. #you're imbuing items of clothing with memories by wearing them out. or whatever the fuck !!!!!