#impossibile goals

[serenityquest]

#perfectionism #perfectionist #impossibile goals #only human #perfectly imperfect

[persa-tra-i-miei-pensieri]

Non penso lo leggerai mai ma ho bisogno di scrivertelo... la verità è che l'unica persona a cui vorrei raccontare ogni cosa resti tu. Ti ho fatto uscire dalla mia vita solo per paura, per gelosia, per paura di soffrire di più nel vederti amare un'altra e invece fa più male sapere di non poterti scrivere più nulla, fa più male non sentire come stai e cosa fai, se hai finito gli esami, se il tuo racconto sta avendo successo, se hai esultato al goal di ieri sera, se hai sfiorato con delicatezza l'astuccio dell'Inter che ti ho regalato quando la nostra squadra ha alzato quella coppa, se per te sarà lo stesso quando ricominceranno i programmi che ci hanno intrattenuto per tutto questo tempo e che ci hanno regalato le risate più belle. Ogni cosa ha perso un po' di entusiasmo da quando abbiamo separato le nostre strade. Mi domando spesso se sei più passato vicino a quella panchina o se la eviti con tutto te stesso per non lasciarti travolgere dai ricordi. Vorrei raccontarti che oggi inizierò finalmente a seguire le lezioni di scuola guida, vorrei raccontarti che non ancora finisco di pulire quelle maledette piastrelle, vorrei raccontarti la disavventura con quello sportello di orientamento lavoro, vorrei raccontarti che ho trovato una casa editrice vicina al mercatino, vorrei raccontarti degli spettacoli che ho visto in questo ultimo mese, vorrei raccontarti delle risate e delle lacrime di questi giorni, vorrei raccontarti anche di averci provato a far entrare qualcun altro nella mia vita e che nessuno ha varcato davvero quella soglia, vorrei dirti che senza te non è lo stesso, vorrei raccontarti delle ultime idee per il mio racconto, vorrei farti vedere il costume che probabilmente indosserò a carnevale, vorrei raccontarti come mi sono ritrovata spesso nella tana dei rubentini, dei commenti di mamma quando vede Inzaghi, vorrei raccontarti che forse anche papà inizia a sostenermi per il racconto a modo suo ti ricordi che temevo di no, vorrei raccontarti che a Pasqua forse andrò nel posto che tanto abbiamo sognato di vedere un giorno si proprio Civita di Bagnoregio, vorrei ridere ancora insieme a te per Crozza, per Paolantoni, per ogni stupidaggine che ci viene in mente, per tentare di batterti al fanta, vorrei scriverti ancora a topo invece di a dopo, vorrei vedere ancora i tuoi occhi furbetti color nocciola tostato come li avevo definiti io, vorrei ancora vedere i tuoi capelli ribelli e sentire la tua risata dolce, vorrei dirti che durante lo spettacolo di Peter Pan per un attimo ho pensato di averti a due posti davanti a me che quel ragazzo da dietro ti somigliava aveva perfino il tuo stesso neo sul collo, avevo il cuore che mi stava scoppiando ci ho davvero sperato che fossi tu anche se era impossibile e poi si è voltato, non eri tu ... Vorrei ammettere e scriverti che mi manchi.

Se solo non mi fossi innamorata di te, se solo non ci fossimo illusi per così tanto tempo ... forse la nostra amicizia sarebbe stata più forte di ogni cosa, forse io e te staremmo ancora parlando delle nostre giornate... Forse io e te saremmo ancora la più bella amicizia che sia esistita nella mia vita.

#pensieri per la testa #persa tra i miei pensieri #pensieri #pensavo #mi manchi #mancanza #tu #amici #amicizia #non si può tornare indietro da un addio #con te era diverso #vorrei #sbaglio #me ne sto pentendo #senza te #paura #vuoto #ti penso

[chaotic-history]

fuck it idc if i'm doxxing myself. he had like 17 kids or whatever so it's fine. found out that my great-great-great-great grandfather who got voted the ugliest man in WV (and won a pocket knife for it) also :

helped with the Underground Railroad by throwing giant parties and inviting everyone in the town whenever a distraction was needed so that a large group of escaped slaves could move on.

only ever went to school for 4 months

started a secret order that was essentially a parody on the freemasons with delibrately absurd initiation rituals, and a goal of initiating as many people as possible (and it's still around!)

"In conversation talks incessantly and with a peculiar tone of voice which runs up an octave about the middle of each sentence leaving upon the hearer an impression of grief."

when someone else got elected to the WV legislature against him (he was part of the first WV govt), he showed up while they were being confirmed and gave a speech as to why he should keep the seat instead, and they just... let him keep it

the motto of the "secret" order is credo absurdum est, which is Voltaire's changing of what started as certum est, quia impossibile

[asadmadgirl]

Diario alimentare pt 39

Finalmente 57 kg!

Negli ultimi giorni ho mangiato più del solito, sempre rimanendo in deficit calorico naturalmente, ma non importa, perché sono a due kg dal mio primo goal weight.

La strada è ancora lunga, ma sono felice, anche se purtroppo non riesco a vedere molti cambiamenti.

Sono sei chili meno dell'inizio, o di più visto che prima non mi pesavo ancora e non scrivevo un blog su Tumblr.

Prima dicevo che per me era impossibile dimagrire, colpa della mia struttura fisica ecc,ma in realtà erano tutte cazzate.

Chiunque può dimagrire, basta la forza di volontà e la costanza.

#diario alimentare #dca #attacchi di panico #attacchi di rabbia #disordered eating thoughts #ed diet #ed fast #diario #notprojustusingthetags #th1gh gap #anoressia atipica #anoressia nervosa

[cinquecolonnemagazine]

Ventisettesima giornata di Serie A: il ritorno dei campioni d'Italia

Alla fine di questa ventisettesima giornata di Serie A potremmo dire, senza ombra di dubbio, che il Napoli torna là dove gli compete ossia nelle prime 5/6 posizioni cioè quelle valide per l'Europa che conta. Ventisettesima giornata di Serie A: il Napoli torna a brillare? Oggi c'è stata la conferma che la voglia di vincerla l'ha avuta più il Napoli che la Juve. Dopo i 6 goal al Sassuolo, oggi, c'era bisogno di una conferma. Cosa che è avvenuta pienamente. Primo tempo in parità di occasioni da goal ma il Napoli gioca meglio sotto porta e segna quasi alla fine del prima tempo con un bellissimo goal di Kvara che poi conferma al pubblico tramite ampi gesti che lui resta qua. Altra partita nel secondo tempo dove il Napoli fa possesso palla e cerca di chiuderla ma il capitano si mangia due ottime occasioni da goal. All'80esimo la Juve pareggia anche per colpa del Napoli ma in campo se c'era una squadra che la voleva vincere era proprio quella azzurra. Grazie alla caparbietà di Osimhen viene concesso un rigore sacrosanto che lo stesso nigeriano tira maldestramente. Per fortuna il Piccolo Falco Raspadori è lesto a ribadire in rete. Voglia di vincere Per tenacia, voglia e gioco espresso il Napoli meritatamente la porta a casa facendo bottino pieno. La squadra ben messa in campo ma ha ancora qualcosa da registrare in difesa e tra i reparti. Ricorsi storici perché oggi è il 3 Marzo così come quel 3 Marzo del 1985 quando Diego ci regalava vittoria e memoria di un goal bello ed impossibile su punizione contro i Bianconeri. Pagelle azzurre Ottimo Traore ed Anguissa in centrocampo. Ancora non si è visto l'altro acquisto ovvero Dendoncker, aspettiamo fiduciosi. Tutti sopra il 7, unico escluso Zielinski apparso fin troppo molle ed impreciso direi un 5 di stima ma il polacco deve ricordarsi che fino a giugno gioca ancora per il Napoli. Anche Olivera guadagna un poco entusiasmante 5 e 1/2, un bravo difensore che non si fa passare la palla tra le gambe. Infine, un plauso a Meret sempre preciso nelle uscite. Calzona scalda i motori ed i cuori dei tifosi. Ad oggi il Napoli è a 4 punti dalla Europa League e 8 dalla Champions… vedremo. Se si continua così possiamo farcela per l'Europa ma senza dimenticare il ritorna con il Barcellona. Ad Maiora Foto di copertina: DepositPhotos Read the full article

[jonathanmoncini]

EURUSD, scalping intraday

Oramai è quasi impossibile raggiungere l' 1.0901 in D2 giornaliera ed entrare Short, andiamo a vedere... #traderlife #business #money #forextrader #trading #invest #millionaire #forextraining #forex #scalping #intraday #business #entrepreneur #motivation #marketing #success #money #smallbusiness #entrepreneurship #businessowner #mindset #inspiration #lifestyle #startup #digitalmarketing #goals #bhfyp #life #branding #investment #finance #work #socialmedia Read the full article

#eurusd #forex #Intraday #scalping

[dottmeta]

Il Mental Coach e la sfida alla nota Multinazionale del Prestito Personale - Giustizia ed Antitrust si pronunceranno in proposito per quello che potrebbe diventare un caso nazionale

In genere quando si è segnalati in Banca Dati da una Finanziaria del prestito personale o da una Banca, ci si convince che non ci sia più nulla da fare. E ci si rassegna alla limitazione della propria libertà personale. Eppure, come insegna Francesco Attorre, è possibile, senza dover ricorrere ad alcun aiuto, studiare la propria situazione in Centrale dei Rischi e riconoscere l'eventuale illegittimità della segnalazione. Ottenendo di conseguenza opportuna Giustizia. Spesso infatti le Finanziarie commettono errori grossolani che alla maggioranza della gente appaiono impercettibili se non addirittura normali. Ma sono proprio quegli errori, definibili in molti casi come veri e propri abusi, legalmente perseguibili, a fare la differenza mettendo il cliente segnalato in posizione di vantaggio. Un vantaggio che può portare a risultati straordinari.  Francesco Attorre, Medico, Psicoterapeuta e Mental Coach, affronta una sfida difficile, per non dire quasi impossibile: ribaltare una segnalazione in Banca Dati della Centrale dei Rischi sia in CRIF che in Banca d'Italia a seguito della quale sarebbe stato destinato a vita nel non poter accedere ad alcun credito. In tempo di Covid, studiando da autodidatta Giurisprudenza e mondo finanziario, ottiene che Banca d'Italia faccia le opportune verifiche e scopra l'illegittimità delle segnalazioni perpetrate per anni ai suoi danni da una nota Finanziaria del prestito personale e dai suoi associati. Conclude la sua battaglia personale ottenendo di essere ripulito in tempi brevissimi dallo storico in Banca Dati e decide di dare voce a tanti che, anche grazie a lui, cominceranno a credere che sia possibile vincere. E farlo adesso. Comincia dunque la sua personale crociata contro i soprusi dei guru della Finanza con tutta l'intenzione di farne il suo goal professionale più importante, insieme ai suoi percorsi di innovativa Crescita personale e di rinascita vera e propria, infine di Mentoring per manager, imprenditori, professionisti, artisti.  Attorre fa quello che in pochi sono soliti fare: punta un obiettivo e lo persegue fino a quando non lo abbia raggiunto. Anche se quell'obiettivo richiede skill che al momento non sono a disposizione e che hanno bisogno di essere reinventate. Come ad esempio studiare da un punto di vista legale le dinamiche che regolano il mondo finanziario, in ciascuna delle sue componenti.    Ciò che fa emergere, approfondendo attentamente il caso, è con grande sorpresa un contratto ad usura, una doppia segnalazione successiva al rifiuto di saldare interessi illegittimi ed un passaggio di credito inesistente dopo un saldo e stralcio, con segnalazioni mensili incessanti.  Affrontando con il mindset tipico del Coach l'analisi dettagliata del caso, Attorre porta alla luce illegittimità in ogni ambito, dal contratto sottoscritto, alle modalità della segnalazione effettuata senza seguire le disposizioni di legge in materia, al passaggio di credito inesistente, infine alle successive segnalazioni reiterate negli anni. Il traguardo della cancellazione repentina dalle Banche Dati con le dovute scuse apre la porta ad una attenta valutazione adesso da parte della Giurisprudenza e dell'Antitrust per quello che rischia, con ogni probabilità, di diventare un caso nazionale con effetto domino su Banche e Finanziarie. L'ultimo step è quello, in qualità di Coach dall'altissimo impatto emotivo, quello che Attorre genera sulle persone nei propri eventi, di caricare motivazionalmente imprenditori e professionisti perchè diano vita alle loro battaglie personali, consapevoli di vincerle e per questo pronti a combatterle fino in fondo.

[justmythings-stuff]

Contro il PSG comunque non sarà molto difficile, che ci vuole a marcare Neymar, Mbappè e Messi? Ci metti un De Sciglio e un Rugani, in porta un Pinsoglio, con un Alex Sandro che fa stop di petto favolosi, e un Rabiot a cui non annullano mai goal, che volete che sia?

Non demoralizzatevi. È difficile, ma non impossibile.

#posta

[violeblanche]

Ci vuoi raccontare qualcosina oppure sei troppo giù? (E comunque un abbraccio e un bacio 💙)

Eccomi anon! No non sono troppo giù, un po’ amareggiata visto che era la mia prima volta allo stadio, per una partita di campionato, post covid, però oh alla fine la palla è rotonda, le possibilità 50/50 e loro tornano sempre a casa con i milioni, ma mi sono comunque divertita!

In primis voglio dire che l’Olimpico mi era mancato come l’aria, e non vedo l’ora di tornarci ❤️ poi abbiamo mio padre che ha iniziato a chiamare Barella “Barellino” perché influenzato da me lol.

Per rimanere in tema Barella è un bimbo gli voglio tanto bene, però amo na svegliata, più cattivi tutti in area avversaria, avevamo iniziato benissimo. Ma è comunque un giocatore di qualità e la gente non smetteva di urlare CHE BEL GIOCATORE ahfjdjka

Skriniar dal vivo è un muro, gli affiderei la mia vita.

Come è entrato Lautaro lo stadio è esploso ed è stato bellissimo, invece come è entrato Correa lo hanno fischiato (cosa che non è successa con Inzaghi) io così però: 😍 QUANTA TANTEZZA. Sia lui che lauti con il cuscino in faccia, spero possano riposarsi ora, perché ok sono pagati fior fior di quattrini ma al fisico interessa poco.

Also mio figlio Di Marco, un dono, quello che è successo al secondo goal abbastanza vergognoso, ma amen, ci rifaremo 🥂

Ps: CIRÙ ❤️ a cui io voglio un mondo di bene ma oggi lazio merda.

#amareggiata anche per quello che è successo al secondo goal #e al fatto che i tifosi della Lazio sono quel che sono #(anche se trovare una tifoseria decente è impossibile ma alcune sono peggio di altre) #anonymous

[corallorosso]

SOCRATES Moriva il 4 dicembre 2011 "Chi è l'italiano che stima di più, Mazzola o Rivera?" "Non li conosco. Sono qui per leggere Gramsci in lingua originale e studiare la storia del movimento operaio". Laureato in Medicina nel 1976, e specializzato in Pediatria, pur non esercitando la professione, diventa per tutti 'O Doutor', 'Il Dottore'. Sviluppa fin dai tempi dell'Università una grande passione per la politica: in un periodo storico che vede il Brasile sotto la dittatura militare dei Gorillas, si schiera apertamente a sinistra, abbracciando gli ideali del socialismo, tanto da esultare dopo i suoi goal con il pugno chiuso rivolto al cielo, e in favore della democrazia, che elegge come 'modello vincente' anche nel calcio, dando vita all'esperimento unico della Democracia corinthiana. Da adolescente entra a far parte del Settore giovanile del Botafogo di Ribeirão Preto, e a partire dal 1971 inizia a frequentare l'Università di Medicina, dividendosi fra l'amore per lo studio e la passione per il calcio. Come faceva a conciliare i due impegni? Semplice, non si allenava o lo faceva poco. "Alla società disse: 'Vengo solo alle partite'. Inizialmente il calcio resta per lui una semplice passione, tanto che a chi gli chiede cosa faccia nella vita, lui risponde: "Sono uno studente di Medicina". Nel 1974 qualcosa cambia: Socrates capisce che, oltre che medico, può diventare anche un calciatore importante. Inizia così ad allenarsi con costanza, anche se non sempre è entusiasta di questo. Nonostante le notti passate a fumare e a studiare, le sue prestazioni non ne risentono: Socrates, utilizzato all'epoca da centrocampista offensivo o seconda punta, incanta nel Campionato Paulista e segna a raffica. La sera fuma e beve regolarmente, conducendo uno stile di vita che poco si confà ad un atleta e ad un medico. Iniziano a piovere critiche nei suoi confronti. "Sono arrivato in Italia e mi sono subito infortunato. - dice - Per il vostro mondo capitalista è incomprensibile. Impossibile fermare una macchina che tira calci a un pallone. Che fa comodo soprattutto se non pensa. È lo specchio di tutto il resto. Il calcio qui è come la religione, come la Chiesa. Immobile, tutto fermo. Guai a chiedersi il perché delle cose. In questo il Brasile è uguale". "Ho sempre fumato pur sapendo che fa male, - dirà - così come amo bere birra. Oggi come allora. Ma il calcio è uno sport collettivo e non serve che tutti corrano. Ci sono quelli che corrono e quelli che pensano". (Massimiliano Di Lenola)

[cinquecolonnemagazine]

Ottavi di finale Champions League: Napoli schianta l'Eintracht e vola

Ottavi di finale della Champions League: canta Napoli ma soprattutto "partenope" vola ai quarti di Champions League. Storica qualificazione del Napoli che mai prima d'ora era arrivato ai quarti con il rischio serio di poter arrivare alle semifinali. Pensiamo ad un possibile derby ai quarti con Milan o Inter. Ebbene a quel punto Istanbul sarebbe già in prospettiva di vista al golfo di Napoli? Ottavi di finale della Champions League: la partita La partita ha visto un Napoli assolutamente padrone del campo con gioco e forza fisica. A proposito, questi crucchi sanno solo picchiare sulle caviglie? Eppure lo scorso anno vinceva l'Europa League… Un Napoli che vince e stravince con i goal del uomo mascherato Victor Osimhen e di Piort Zielinski su rigore da lui stesso procurato. Totale di 5 a 0 e pratica tedesca archiviata. Pagelle azzurre Un squadra da 8 per tutti con un 9 per i marcatori, Lobotka e Spalettone. Ad oggi Napoli canta e sogna. Nulla è impossibile anche la finalissima in terra turca. Sognare cosa costa? Nulla e soprattutto ora che le squadre rimaste sono 8. Intanto, aspettiamo il sorteggio di venerdì ma soprattutto occhio al Toro in campionato. Napoli sarà campione al più presto? Ad Maiora Read the full article

[readingsbylibramc]

birth chart reading for @cevanslovebots

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a splay shape, meaning that your planets are located randomly in different groups in your chart. people with this type of chart are usually very talented at different things. they can focus their attention on different matters, from family, to work, to love. everything is important for you, and you try to live your life to the fullest. you may be particularly talented at things that require action, it doesn’t matter whether it’s physical or mental. you may be very good at sports, dancing… or maybe you’re good at leading, you could easily be the boss on your work place. since you’re interested in so many things, you could easily be skilled at all of them to be honest. my advice would be to pick the hobby that is most important for you and care about it more than the others. that’s because people with this chart usually tend to do so many things that they may lack precision. it’s better to give all of yourself to what’s important for you.

your dominant planets are venus, saturn and pluto. you a very romantic person, you probably are quite creative or at least you have an eye for aesthetics. you can be quite moody, but you're also very mature and responsible, you work hard to achieve your goals as you want to be seen as perfect.

your dominant sign is libra. you're overall a peaceful person, you try to avoid conflicts if possible, even though sometimes you could have a sharp tongue. you're a romantic person, maybe too much. you hold unrealistic expectations of people, hence you often get disappointed when things don't turn out the way you thought. you're able to see both sides of an argument, and that's both good and bad. in fact, you're very objective, and most probably your opinions are right; yet, it may be annoying for people that are venting to you, as you could constantly point out their mistakes, even though you don't do it out of malice.

your dominant element is air. in your life, you adore seeking for knowledge of any kind. you may be interested in studying different subjects, from those you study at school like science, maths, literature etc. to more unconventional ones, such as astrology, psychology, criminology and so on. you enjoy interacting with people; even if you’re not that sociable, you’ll still be interested in their point of view and their ideals, as you see it as a way to expand your own mind. you’re also interested in vintage, and you may have a retro aesthetic or just like history in general.

🌎 ascendant in capricorn, 8° / 1st decan ruled by saturn

the most hard-working and approachable capricorn decan. you're an affectionate person, yet your heavy capricorn influence may make you feel restricted to share your vitality with others. others' first impression of you is that you look like some sort of authority, someone who needs to be respected. even when you're joking, you still have this seriousness to your aura that is hard to go unnoticed. you care about your manners, and just your overall impression in general. you may take extra care of your clothes, your hair etc. you don't want to look disorganized, in fact you probably own an agenda or even just write your appointments somewhere. you have a cautious approach to the world, you're very responsible, especially when people you love are involved. you may have a very serious expression to you that could actually make you seem intimidating. generally speaking, you still have a serious look on your face that looks quite intimidating, especially since saturn is also your dominant planet. you also look introverted, and you most probably are. you're very modest, and that's because you're secretly kind of insecure about your appearance. you always feel like you're not enough, and that you constantly have to improve yourself to be accepted. this gets better with time, though. physically, you're probably very attractive and don't realize it! especially with your libra midheaven. you may have an amazing bone structure with high cheekbones, a defined jawline and naturally straight, pleasant teeth. you may probably also have an amazing posture and walk, even though you may suffer from scoliosis or other bones diseases in your early years.

capricorn ascendant square libra moon: you may have troubles understanding others’ real feelings for you. you may feel as if everyone hates you, like everyone is talking behind your back when it’s the opposite. the moon being in libra doens’t help either, as this aspect enhances its trust issues even more. you’re particularly sensitive about others’ view and opinion of you, you may get deeply hurt when people criticize you. you could have the tendency to act differently than you usually do, in order to preserve your feelings. this is obviously a toxic behaviour, that fills you up with your own stress and doubles it. due to that, you may become very moody and nervous, ending up hurting others yourself. or maybe, it’s the other way around; your feelings are so overwhelming that you can’t hide them, and that could put you in embarrassing, unpleasant situations. you may show all of your emotions on your face, ready to be read. the way to cope with this placement is finding someone similiar to you; someone who’s trust-worthy, and very sensitive and empathetic too. someone who’d never judge you for you think or say, and that would always help you becoming the best version of yourself. someone that understands you, without having to explain all of your behaviours and habits.

🌞 sun in leo, 1° / 1st decan ruled by the sun

just like the sun, you shine brightly. you're confident, independent, brave and friendly. you're the only who can handle your life, no one can tell you who you are, what you want or what you need. sometimes you can get insecure, as you feel pressured to always be perfect. you try to be nice and kind to everyone, as you don't wanna be seen as someone unpleasant to be with. even though you may be into gossip and rumors, you try to avoid being involved with them at every cost. the thing with leo is, you're either loved or hated. no inbetween. some may admire your confidence, assertiveness and determination, others may be jealous of you. you have celebrity-like presence, you don't go overlooked. you're most probably the life of the party, and you enjoy living a life full of fun and amusement. you're also amazingly creative. with your heavy leo influence, you have the potential to do and achieve whatever you want, you're very resolute. even though you look very open to getting to know new people, you're secretly very picky about who you call your friends, or even when choosing a partner. you always try to be perfect, and hence you want someone that looks and tries just like you do.

🌙 moon in libra, 16° / 2nd decan ruled by venus and uranus

the most romantic and affectionate libra decan. in life, you strive for equality and fairness. for example, you don’t want to give less than someone else, you would feel guilty about it. at the same time, you don’t want to be the one that gives more either; you’re afraid that people could take advantage of you. therefore, balance is what you find the most pleasant. ironically, you struggle to keep the same balance in yourself, though. you may appear a bit emotionally cold, as you don’t feel comfortable showing your true self due to your secrecy. you come off as kind of analytical, but you’re actually very romantic. you wish the world was just filled with love and peace, and you that you didn’t have to worry about malice or anything of that type. you hate vulgarity, and you try to be as kind as possible with your words, even though you may be too straight-forward and fail at that. even if you’re an introvert, you may know a lot of people. yet, you have troubles actually creating close bonds with others. you basically have more acquaintances than friends. you’re a nice mediator, you know how to get along with others and make others get along.

🗣 mercury in leo, 28° / 3rd decan ruled by the sun and mars

you take a lot of pride in your intellect and ideas. leo is a fixed sign, hence you’re quite stubborn with your thoughts. you have a spectacular way of speaking, almost dramatic, that could make you come off as a know-it-all. when telling stories, you may exaggerate a bit, but at least you’re entertaining to listen. you could also gesticulate a lot while speaking, and maybe you like mimicking voices as well. you aim to express your feelings through creativity, it’s very important for you to write poetry, songs, drawings etc., it’s also a way to relieve stress and worries. your way of speaking is very attractive, it’s like a magnet. with this charisma of yours, it’s impossibile not to listen to you, you most likely have an extremely soothing and entertaining tone of voice. you would do amazing as a teacher or even as a (voice) actress, as you’re able to fully convey your emotions in your speech.

leo mercury conjunct leo mars: this placement makes you slightly more aggressive with your words. in fact, it makes you look more assertive and almost bossy. you could often attack people with words when you get angry, and you can get quite provocative too. while you are quick-minded and it's hard for you to be tricked, you have a very sharp tongue that could hurt others. other people may not understand your sense of humor for example, and they could get offended. you love debates and expressing your opinions, as you take a lot of pride in your thoughts. yet, may also take things very personally, you get defensive extremely easily, and that makes it hard to have a healthy discussion with you as you're very fiery. you could often get into arguments.

❤️ venus in gemini, 18° / 2nd decan ruled by mercury and venus

this is the flirtiest, most romantic gemini decan, but also the flakiest and most indecisive. your flirting style most probably includes jokes, teasing… stuff like that. even though you may seem flaky, as you like experiencing romance with different types of people, you’re actually quite picky. in fact, in order to fall for someone, you need to feel mentally attracted to them, not just physically. someone ignorant and stubborn that doesn’t care about learning something most definitely isn’t for you. you’re not the type to be super romantic and sweet with your partner or just people in general. you show your affection for example by sending them memes, making ironic jokes about them etc. also, when you’re into someone, you probably get very talkative! you start asking them simple questions about their life, even things like 'did you have lunch?’. also, you talk about them with all of your friends, and you find yourself thinking costantly about them. you’re very curious of nature, but you’re only interested in getting to know what catches your eye.

gemini venus square virgo jupiter: you come off as a very positive, happy-go-lucky person. you're extremely friendly, and this makes you be good at social relationships. you may have lots of friends, or at least you have the potential to make many if you opened up and talked to them. yet, while this energy gives you positive vibes, some people may take advantage of that, as you could easily be mistaken for naive. people can try to dominate you unconsciously (sometimes even on purpose) not only in relationships but even in friendships. aside from that, I don't think this placement causes you many problems. you may have the tendency to procrastinate and not work. you could be quite lazy and get easily distracted, as you're constantly with your head in the cloud. yet, thanks to your capricorn energy, you still manage to find some motivation to do your work.

gemini venus opposite sagittarius pluto: you find yourself having crushes on random people often, love at first sight is common for you. but when you seriously fall for someone, they’re your only thought. you start searching for info about them online, and you wanna become part of their life too. you love intensely, but not everyone may enjoy that. there are people that could feel overwhelmed by your love, others that would vibe with you and offer you the same kind of affection. ironically, you tend to attract detached, free-spirited people that most of the times don’t want anything serious. you’re prone to get jealous and possessive very easily, and this makes you suffer, as you may think there’s something wrong with you. maybe, it may even remind you of something that happened during your childhood, perhaps your parents were also very protective of you. love for you is a constant grow; your relationships will be hard, but there’ll always be something to learn to improve yourself and your confidence. little side-note, you may often date karmic partners, aka partners from your past lives, so you may often experience this 'I’ve already seen you before’-vibe in your new encounters and relationships, and you’ll always learn something from all your relationships.

☄️ mars in leo, 18° / 2nd decan ruled by the sun and jupiter

praise and success are what motivate you the most. your main goal in life is being praised for achieving your goals, you wouldn't feel motivated without compliments. therefore, you put energy in things that make you feel confident and noticed, as you enjoy being seen. for example, if you feel confident being well-dressed, you could spend hours in the closet to look how you want. you are very creative, you get an energy boost through creative outlets, and hence your hobbies (reading, writing, dancing, singing, drawing, etc.) recharge your battery. this placement also makes you very extra, especially with people you're close to. you may gesticulate a lot, you could as well enjoy mimicking others' voices. you're basically very dramatic, you seem like an actor when you react, but at least you're very fun and entertaining to watch and listen. this placement, it gives you a strong charisma that, and combined with your heavy libra dominance, it makes it impossible not to notice you. you could overreact from time to time, and you may also be particularly pessimistic, but above all you appear as someone very bold and strong-minded.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in capricorn. neptune is also sitting in this house. with this planet here, you seem less intimidating than the typical capricorn rising. in fact, you may look more on the dreamy, reserved side, you’re very charismatic in your own way. with your first house in capricorn, you care a lot about your status and about your goals. you always give the best of yourself, and you want to be acknowledged and praised for your achievements. it helps boosting your self-esteem, even though you may have the tendency to think that the compliments you receive aren’t honest. capricorn is ruled by saturn, the planet of karma, therefore you most likely need to work hard to get what you desire. you don't receive anything for granted, you could even feel unlucky in a certain sense as you have quite a bit of undealt karma to you, but for sure your hard work (which you certainly don't lack) will pay off.

your 2nd house is in aquarius. your relationship with money isn’t stable at all. you may often go from periods where you earn a lot of money and possessions, to other times where you lose all of them all of a sudden. same thing goes for your self-esteem, it fluctuates a lot. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. this placement makes you very creative, and hence you could make money out of your creativity. it would be a great way to find a job and become successful, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could even be a very innovative person, and with your capricorn rising you would make an excellent leader / boss. you could also make money through internet or with technology in general.

your 3rd house is in aries. when you communicate, you take a lot of pride in your opinions. you hate admitting that you’re wrong, especially since you’re a perfectionist. you could be quite impulsive, and you may speak with a naturally loud tone of voice. you’re extremely good at coming up with plans easily, even though you may have troubles sticking to them, as your fiery nature gets easily bored. you are a fast-thinker, even though that doesn't mean you always take the right choices. in fact, you can change your mind very often. you probably have a beautiful, thick voice, even though it's likely very naturaly loud. you also speak as fast as you think, making it hard sometimes to keep up with you in a speech. you could also switch from a topic to another casually. you don't really enjoy thinking about the past nor the future, you only care about the present and you live it they way you feel; hence, you're not really the type to care about learning from your mistakes. you always see the positive side of them, which can be both good and bad actually. that's because you're quite stubborn, it's hard to make you change your mind. you're very straight-forward, and that could lead you to conflicts as you don't understand the impact your words have on others.

your 4th house is in taurus. your childhood probably wasn’t turbulent, unless for those topics I talked about in the venus section. it was mostly quite peaceful, and you probably were able to express your creativity. maybe, your parents were a bit strict or over-protective, possibly materialistic too, but that's it, nothing traumatic. it could also be that you come from a wealthy family, maybe you have received an inheritance, and it could also be that you had a very nice house. since venus, the ruler of the 4th house, is squaring your jupiter, you might have moved to a different country when you were younger, you have a different culture / religion from your birth place. also, you might as well be able to speak one or more foreign languages. your parents may be from another country too, or perhaps you have a foreign name / surname. you could also have foreign ancestors.

your 5th house is in taurus. you are a very creative, artistic person. you’re able to relax by watching netflix, eating, writing, painting… anything that can be done at home. you’re not the type to hang out too often or party all night, you’re more of a homebody. you could also love sleeping in, just being able to stay in bed all day wearing comfy clothes is a vacation for you. the ruler of the 5th house is in the 6th house: you could have hobbies that revolve around psychology and any kind of healing in general. you probably love being productive, you’re probably a very diligent student. you could also find yourself being interested in diets, skincare, sports or working out, anything that makes you feel productive, you like taking care of yourself.

your 6th house is in gemini, with also your venus placed in this house. in your daily routine, especially at work, you have to communicate a lot. you come in contact with lots of people, or maybe you write stuff like blogs or books. generally, you have a very hectic schedule, as you have different hobbies and appointments that you can’t abandon. this placement indicates that you may be prone to overwork yourself, as you put a lot energy in your job. you could be quite superficial in a certain sense, and you’d risk to waste your potential with as you may take your job as a challenge, for example, you need to feel mentally stimulated to like it. in fact, your ideal career has to include something that allows you to express your personal taste, ideas and interests. in this way, it won’t feel too heavy to you, and you’ll find pleasure in working. side note, but this placement also indicates that you may often date co-workers. you may also be prone to hurt yourself easily and you could also suffer from issues with your periods or with your thorat or thyroid, but aside from that your health is probably quite good.

your 7th house is in cancer, with also your sun, saturn and mars sitting here in this house. in marriage, you’re looking for an affectionate and caring partner who’s willing to nurture you. you’re also the type to like younger people to nurture by yourself, especially with your mars here you want to be the one in charge, the leader, even when it comes to relationships. you’re looking for someone you feel at home with, someone that is worth calling 'family’. you need to feel emotionally secure with your future spouse, almost a soulmate-like relationship. in addition, I assume that you also want to feel financially secure, and you wouldn’t mind being spoiled with gifts and just affection in general. this placement makes you very patient with other people, you could be the type to give other possibilities to others for example. saturn in the 7th house may also manifest in a lack of romanticism in an individual, but I don’t think it’s totally your case. I assume that you are quite romantic, but exactly because of your romanticism, you tend to get very picky. you want your partner to meet your ideals of perfection, and hence you may often end up not dating anyone, or being let down by your own lovers. actually, you could even be afraid of love, especially because there could be a lot of karma around your relationships. you could have to experience lots of hardships throughout your love life, but they’ll help you become more mature. it’s also recommended to get married after your saturn return with this placement, hence after your 27/28 years. with the ruler of the 7th house being in the 9th house, I assume you will find your future spouse abroad, perhaps on a vacation or for work. this person could be foreign, or at least they’re able to speak more than one language, they probably have a different culture from yours. it could take a while for you two to meet, since saturn is always about waiting, but I feel like you're going to have a very affectionate and pleasant relationship with this person.

your 8th house is in leo, with also mercury and jupiter sitting there. you have the potential to become a very successful individual, with a great amount of charisma. yet, since the 8th house is related to pluto, the malefic planet of transformation, there are some hardships to this placement. in fact, you may have the tendency to look down on people that aren’t as open-minded as you are. I have the same placement, so I understand that it’s not easy at all, but you should learn to accept respectful people’s opinions. if you do that, you’ll finally be able to glow brightly. you’re very curious when it comes to taboo topics, you like learning about them. you’re probably into conspiracy theories, as well as matters like astrology, tarots, horror, tragedies, mystery... you can use them to transform yourself and grow up, so you could definitely use this birth chart reading to improve yourself. 8th house is also the house of karma, and yours is kind of strange. you may often feel like you’re right about something, e.g the sky is blue. you’re very proud of your observation, but then it turns out to be different. it’s like the universe is constantly teaching you new things. luckily, this is something that gets better with time. in addition, having jupiter here is great, as it kind of protects you from the 8th house’s malefic themes. all the negative things that could happen to you, are actually blessings that are here to help you. you just need to be a little bit more optimistic, the universe has your back.

your 9th house is in libra, with also your moon placed there. you may be the type that likes making new experiences regarding love, and you often date your crushes. yet, you feel too limited in a relationship. you don't enjoy committing to someone if that someone isn't perfect for you, you're only completely loyal to the one you consider your true love. you can't give up your freedom, your thirst for adventure and experiences for someone else. basically, your ideal partner would be a risk-taker, someone loyal but not too clingy, that is down to go on a road trip in every moment. someone impulsive, that could help you stepping out of your comfort-zone. you're probably into those youthful love stereotypes, e.g. high school dates. you want your relationships to be filled with excitement, you despise boring, traditional and cheesy things. you may also find yourself being attracted to unavailable people; that is, you could fall for people that are already taken, or maybe they're physically unavailable, e.g they live abroad or in another city in general. you're also attracted to foreigners, and people that have a wise, yet bubbly aura around them. with your moon here, it could be that your mind is constantly wandering somewhere else, allowing you to travel with your fantasy. you're also probably attracted to foreign things, like people, music, fashion, languages, movies etc. you love learning about anything, and you may also have a good memory. in fact, it’s common for you to be the one who explains things and possibly even leads a group, and this could unluckily make you seem as a know-it-all. you do take pride in your wisdom, indeed. your deep way of thinking is also where your desire for freedom comes from, as you wish to be able to expand yourself through travelling and new experiences. you may also be foreign, bilingual or perhaps it is someone from your family that has a different cultural background.

your 10th house is in scorpio. you may gain a reputation for being very intense and intimidating, probably a leader. you could possibly work abroad, speaking a different language. you may also have the chance to work in the school environment, and deal with people from any country or culture. you find pleasure and energy in work, it's your way to feel free and independent, even it you may work under a boss. it's also where you put most of all your energy, you're very goal-oriented and you strive to be the best at whatever you do. yet, you may actually start obssessing with your career, to the point that you could over-work yourself. you may also struggle to find the perfect job for you at first, as you may have many passions and you don't know which one to choose. you’re extremely motivated to achieve your goals, even though you may feel lost and confused due to your pluto in the 12th house. you’ll pursue a career that involves looking for the truth, hence you may be a detective, a scientist, a poet etc. you could also end up being very successful, you may earn lots of money thanks to your job.

your 11th house is in scorpio again. scorpio. you are extremely picky with your friends. you have a few trust issues, probably caused by your karmic issues again, that make you secretive around your friends. you may close yourself in your shell, or maybe you actually know a lot of people, yet you only consider a few of them your friends. most of the time, you may also befriend people that try to take advantage of you. or perhaps, since there’s a possibility that you understand that, you could be the one who leads the group and acts quite bossy. this is something that gets naturally better with time; actually, your friends will be of great help for you to grow up. you may have big dreams for your future, yet you may feel intimidated as they’re very intense, and hence hard to make come true. you need to pay your karmic debts in order to finally feel comfortable with others and have the motivation to achieve your long-term goals.

your 12th house is in sagittarius, with also your pluto sitting there. you're particularly interested in religion and higher beliefs, hence meditation would be effective for you. yet, you need to get enough sleep, or you could not be able to fully embrace the spirituality of this placement. you may also be able to have prophetic dreams, or at least they have a strong moral beyond them. possibly, you could make lots of nightmares, or perhaps your dreams are all dark and gloomy and blurry, it's hard for you to see things clearly.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love you attract cancer, taurus, leo, scorpio, capricorn, aquarius and aries. your future spouse will most probably have aquarius, pisces and capricorn placements, hence they’ll be very hard-working, mature and witty, but also very intelligent and a bit moody. it may be love at first sight, and you may find them very attractive. you may also meet through dating apps or in general through social media, or maybe you're going to be introduced to this person by your friends. or perhaps, you're going to marry someone from your group of friends. your children will be heavy in taurus placements, hence they’ll be very creative and quite lazy too, they'll probably love eating and they will like playing around. yet, they could be a bit too stubborn.

👶🏻 family life

your mother was very caring and affectionate with you, even though she could’ve been a bit too protective and/or materialistic. she’s probably a taurus or a libra, possibly even a scorpio or gemini, or she has at least some placements in those signs. your father is a bit more laid-back than your mother, but he may get jealous easily, he could be quite moody and harsh sometimes. he’s probably a scorpio or any other water sign, perhaps sagittarius, libra or taurus too. if you have siblings, they’re probably aries or scorpio. you might fight a lot for control, especially during childhood. you’re also quite possessive of your things, but overall you also have a deep bond. even though you may argue quite a bit, you still have affection for each other.

📊 career

while doing your reading, I got a strong feeling that you're going to work abroad, or at least that you're going to do something related to foreign languages and / or cultures. you could possibly be good at speaking other languages, therefore you would make a perfect translator or interpreter. or maybe, you may even work as a flight attendant, you could have to travel for your job. possibly, I also see you being in a high position in your job, you may have your own business for instance. or maybe you could make a good healer, such as a nurse or a therapist. you would also make a great teacher, or maybe also a criminologist. your chart also has many wealth indicators, hence you'll probably be able to gain lots of money and success thanks to your job! last but not least, you also have many artistic indicators in your chart, therefore you could also work for example as an artist, a singer, a musician, a dancer, an actress, a model, etc.

👚 fashion sense, style analysis

I imagine you put a lot of effort into your outifts, yet you don’t show it. you want to look effortlessly good, you don’t want to give the impression that you tried. your style may be quite minimalistic and simple, with lots of jeans, sweatshirts, plain t-shirts… I see you being more into natural shades, like white, grey, beige etc. you’re also not very fond of using too many accessories, you’re stylish but still very simple. you have this natural charm to you, hence you still look good even though your outfits may not be too complex.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, you were very career-oriented. you were probably extremely successful at work, it was your priority. you could have even been someone important for your career, who knows. yet, this lifetime you don't need to focus on work anymore, you're already a master at it. now, you need to solve your issues with your family and create a family of your own to fully accomplish your life purpose. there may be some ups and downs, but this is what your soul has to learn in this lifetime.

🤔 major transits analysis / may 30

last year was probably very rough for you. at least, you’re finally discovering the truth about who you are; you’re finally learning how to love yourself for who you are, without having to change. by the next year, you should be able to feel much more comfortable and confident. even though you may still face some hardships, don’t give up. you’ll come out of it as a stronger person. the moon is currently in the sign of capricorn, transiting your 1st house; you could be feeling particularly needy lately, you want attention and affection, but at the same time you could be prone to mood swings so be careful to that, as you may end up hurting people impulsively.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

you’re very in contact with your spirituality, making you more sensitive to higher affirmations. you have the ability to visualize what you want. that’s the key to activate the loa: travel with your fantasy, and visualize what you desire. do you want a new car? imagine yourself doing road-trips on that car. a new phone? visualize yourself making calls with that phone. you can even literally create a story involving those topics and it will come true. you can also help yourself by writing and listening to your own affirmations, maybe covered up by some music. you just have to believe in your power!

and this is it! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it reasonated with you :)

- libramc xx

#astrology

[leavventuredimarta]

Come far capire ad un ragazzo che non ti piace?

Finale di calcio, seguita beatamente con cocktail in mano a bordo piscina. Un mucchio di gente che fissava lo schermo, ogni tanto sentivi qualche tuffo quando l'Italia mancava un goal, li chiamavo "i tuffi della disperazione".

Siamo un bel gruppetto di amici e amiche, ma P. si avvicina particolarmente a me, e mi accarezza, sfiorandomi il ginocchio, abbracciandomi più del solito. Myster P. non lo conosco da molto tempo, si e no abbiamo fatto due forse tre uscite insieme con altri amici, lo trovo simpatico e gentile, ma non è per niente il mio tipo. Ironia della sorte...non è mai il ragazzo / ragazza che vorresti che ti si avvicina.

Non credo avergli detto e fatto qualcosa che dimostrasse di aver una simpatia per lui diversa dagli altri. Ma si sente di voler provarci, ogni suo avvicinamento non è mai stato ricambiato, onestamente mi metteva a disagio.

Allora mi chiedo, non siamo alle nostre prime armi con l'altro sesso, ma ancora oggi mister P. non riesce a capire che i suoi gesti non sono ricambiati. Dovevo essere più esplicita? "Ehi...Myster, scusa ma preferirei che le mani li usi per farti una nuotata!". Però io la battutina gliela avevo lanciata, mi sa che non è arrivata a destinazione.

Ho sempre avuto difficoltà con i ragazzi, non li ho mai capiti. E come se tra me e loro ci fosse una bolla impossibile da attraversare.

Ora Myster P. non è l'unico e non sarà di certo l'ultimo. Voi cosa avreste fatto al posto mio? Vi siete ritrovate in una situazione simile?

#live blogging #life is strange #question of the day #someone help

[renudo79]

La parabola del riscatto

8 giugno 1990 Mondiali di calcio in un'Italia prima di tangentopoli, prima di Berlusconi, prima di calciopoli, prima dell'Itala che conosciamo. Italia '90 L'Italia delle notti magiche. L'8 giugno del 1990 a Milano va in scena Argentina - Camerun. Al nuovo San Siro con quel terzo anello che sfidava il cielo si scontrano la nazionale in cui gioca Dio e un'africana che aveva dalla sua parte il pubblico solo per simpatia, la simpatia che si tributa agli ultimi, ai perdenti. Una partita già scritta, un risultato che non poteva essere uno e uno soltanto.In mezzo 22 giocatori e un pallone, 90 minuti da giocare e la democrazia della rotondità del pallone. Al minuto 67, ancora inchiodati sullo zero a zero, c'è un calcio d'angolo per la compagine africana che da dieci minuti è addirittura in dieci contro la squadra di Maradona. Il corner corto arriva a Makanaky che alza la palla a campanile.Il pallone sta finendo la sua parabola a due metri dal secondo palo, lì ci sono Sensini e Omam-Biyik che spalla contro spalla se la contendono. Sensini prende il tempo con gli occhi sul pallone fiducioso nelle leggi della fisica e soprattutto in quella di Newton che non ci permette di volare. Omam-Biyik invece non la pensa così, si stacca da terra, ben oltre la traversa, ben oltre l'immaginazione collettiva, con i piedi all'altezza delle teste degli avversari e dei compagni di squadra che guardano increduli. Omam-Biyik rimane in aria per un tempo che sembra non finire mai, ad un'altezza che non sembra essere fatta per esseri privi di ali. L'africano vola, oltre ogni immaginazione, oltre le leggi che governano la fisica, oltre tutte le previsioni, oltre i grandi nomi del calcio. E colpisce la palla di testa. E il pallone rotola dietro le spalle del portiere dell'albiceleste. A venti minuti dalla fine il Camerun è avanti per uno a zero sull'Argentina. Ci sarà un'altra espulsione nella quadra africana e la partita finirà col risultato invariato. Il Camerun 9 contro 11 batte l'Argentina di Maradona con un goal di Omam-Biyik che sembra essere un miracolo. Una favola, il romanticismo che si presta al calcio e ne fa epopea del riscatto.La cenerentola del calcio che con un goal impossibile vince contro ogni pronostico contro la squadra di Dio. Ecco, la vita è così. Se davvero vuoi una cosa, se davvero vuoi raggiungere un obbiettivo, se desideri davvero qualcosa, per quanto possa sembrare impossibile da realizzare, se saprai ergerti oltre tutti gli ostacoli, oltre addirittura ai muri invalicabili, alle leggi non scritte che ti obbligano a rimanere nella polvere, riuscirai a ottenere ciò che vuoi, riuscirai ad arrivare al tuo obbiettivo. Come il Camerun contro l'Argentina, come Omam-Biyik contro Newton. Non c'è nulla che non possiamo fare. Nulla che non possiamo raggiungere. Perché addirittura le leggi della fisica possiamo riscriverle. Per poi uscire ai quarti con una piccola Inghilterra. Ecco, la vita è così. È l'Inghilterra che distrugge i sogni del romanticismo. È il Camerun che per quanto potesse voler arrivare in finale e magari vincerla non ce l'ha fatta. La vita è fatta di meravigliose parentesi romantiche, poetiche vittorie su tutto e tutti in una narrazione del riscatto che ha del miracoloso ma prima o poi arriva la realtà. E le sue leggi. Omam-Biyik chiuse quel mondiale con quell'unica rete all'attivo, in carriera non fece mai più un goal come quello. Alla fine, alla fine di quella parabola che sembrava infinita la realtà lo fece tornare a terra. Lo ricordiamo per quell'unico miracolo. Alcuni neanche per quello.

#mondiali #italia90 #ricordi #argentina #camerun #maradona #omambiyik #miracoli

[sapphire-knight]

Wuuuuuuu, hi guys, part 2's here

((Read part 1 here))

- here we are again, ready for the continue?

- I'm asking because I'm not- but someone has to write this.

- ok, so. Let's get back to the dark side' living room, where the situation is not... the best

- after Roman left there was a moment of silence. Cold, suffocating, deathly silence.

- no one dared to say anything. No one knew what to say. What happened?

- even the air seemed to freeze

- none of them was actually sure how to process all of that, but everyone knew that this was a trouble.

- but let's get into details of what they're feeling, shall we?

- Patton was silently crying. He didn't even understood when he started to cry, but the tears were rolling down his cheecks, while the guilt entered his mind. How the damn did he missed the sign? How did he not understand sooner how Roman was feeling? Why didn't he try to be more constructive with his criticism? He's the heart, he's the core of the feeling, he should have realized that the prince was hurting, he should have noticed his fake smiles after a rough critic, he should have helped! Why didn't he pay attention? He could have done more... and now he regrets every single sugar-coated bad thing he said... he really didn't meant to, he thought that this was the best way to tell his concerns about Roman's idea, he thought that he was helping the creative side. But the problem is that he didn't thought it the right way, he failed.

- Virgil wasn't feeling any better, obviously. He was shaking, covering his mouth with us hands, irregular breathing and still looking at the point where the prince sunk down. What did he do, what did he do, WHAT DID HE DO? He too was feeling extremely guilty, for everything. Some people would say that Virgil had all the rights to say those harsh, burning, heavy and costant critics to the romantic side, because of how Roman himself treated Virgil in the past, but the point is... the prince did everything he could to show how sorry he was, how bad he felt for treating the anxious side like that, for antagonizing him... and how did Virgil thanked him? With his bitter and acid criticism? Virgil was disgusted by himself. He wanted to be accepted so much, to not have to be the bad guy, to being loved by the light sides, and what did he do with the love of one of them? Crushed it like a piece of paper, without regards, without pity. He felt like a monster. Roman only hoped to be forgiven and Virgil hurted him. How could he forgive himself? He couldn't.

- Logan was, surprisingly, the one who felt more guilty for everything. Se seemed to have... shut down. Vacant expression, perfectly still, really light breath; it was almost like if he just dissociated from the whole situation, in order to not let his feelings crush his heart in tiny pieces. What was the worst part, you might be asking? Well. The absolute worst part for the logical side was that he KNEW it. He KNEW that Roman was faking his smile, he noticed how the tense the prince was everytime they started to pointing out the flaws in his ideas. He KNEW how Roman's pride was nothing more than an elaborate facade. He knew that because he saw Roman having a breakdown time ago but, even that time, he didn't act. He didn't do anything. He didn't know what to do, he doesn't understand how emotions work, he though that he would only make things worse if he tried to say something. He thought that Patton or Virgil, who knew more on the matter of feeling, would have helped the prince. But it didn't happen. Probably they didn't saw anything, the most logical ending of that situation was that Roman forced himself to calm down before anyone could see him, and just acted like nothing happened. Maybe... if only that day he TRIED to help the prince, maybe now they will not be in this situation. Why didn't he try? Why did he left? How could he be so... so heartless...?

- if the three light sides are full of guilt, the two dark sides are THIS CLOSE to explode from the rage.

- if Remus didn't already start to hit the three with all his forces was only because of the shock. He didn't expect it... well, no one did, but he surely didn't thought that his twin would just... left. When he saw his brother standing up he thought that Ro was FINALLY gonna snap for everything that was said to him, but... he didn't... he... he said he was sorry. Sorry for not being good enough. WHAT KIND OF BULLS*IT WAS THAT? WHO MADE HIM THOUGHT SOMETHING LIKE THAT? WHO MADE HIS TWIN DOUBT ABOUT HIS VALUE? WHO. MADE. HIM. HATE. HIMSELF. THAT. MUCH? He was gonna kill them, he was gonna soffocate them with their own complaining, with all the things they said, WITH A THEIR DAMNED CRITICISM. Who the HELL they think that they are to talk sh*t about his brother's WONDERFUL ideas? Oooooh, he was gonna make them pay for EVERYTHING. He didn't care for the fact of being called "dark side", who the hell cared for a random etiquette without actual meaning? It meant that they saw him as a monster? Well, that monster was gonna vent all his fury on them.

- Deciet's reaction wasn't nearly as furious as Remu's one. Or, at least, in the first monent. Because, in the first moment, he only felt lost. He thought to completely understand how the prince felt about the criticism, he thought that he knew Roman's rage, he thought that he was gonna fight back all the bad words he listened in his life, but it wasn't like that. Roman wasn't angry, he didn't want to make the three light sides pay for their words, he didn't want to make them feel awful for what happened. When he said that he was sorry, his words emotions were... genuine... he was truly sorry. You hear how wrong does this sound? Yeah, Deciet hears it too. Why was Roman acting like this? Why did he felt so wrong? What happened to him...? He was not thinking logically anymore, his mind went almost blank and the rage took control of him.

- ((everybody, go grab some popcorn or sone tissues, this is gonna be fun))

- the strange shocked freeze finished and, oh boy, everything explodes

- before anybody even tried to speak, Remus was already ready to hit the light sides with all of his fury, fidgeting nervously with the morning star in his hand, barely containing his rage, waiting to make sure that Deciet doesn't want to stop him this time and, to be fully honest, Deciet would have loved to see Remus smashing ia morning star on the three light sides heads. But, thank god, he still had sone common sense, despite the rage.

- he tries to say to Remus to put the morning star down, but it felt like all the fury locked his throat, he couldn't bring himself to speak, everything hurted. So, he just told the duke to not hit anyone with a sign.

- Patton's cry wasn't silent anymore, even if he tried, and failed, to suffocate all of the sighs and the hiccups with his hands.

- they wanted to talk, to understand, even to scream, but it felt like the situation wasn't even real. It seemed to... strange, or was it just that their brain refused to accept what just happened?

- the second option was the more realistic one

- no one of them seemed able to accept this situation

- for both of the parts this felt just so... wrong. It was all just wrong. How did they ended up in this situation? When did the three light sides' criticism became that harsh? When did they started to hurt? .... When did Roman started to fall apart...?

- that hellish and tense silence was broken by the duke (if he couldn't hit with his morning star he could try to use words-) "What. Have. You. Done?" He was trying to contain his fury, it was impossibile to not notice.

- "what have we done...?" Virgil replied, snapping out of his paranoic spiral of thoughts

- "What the HELL have you said to my brother to make him feel that bad?" Remus asked again, with a serious tone that made everything only sound more and more wrong

- "I- I don't know- I didn't want to- I'm so- so sorry" Patton voice was that shaky and light that it was difficoult to understand what he was saying

- "HOW THE F*CK IS THAT POSSIBLE THAT YOU DON'T KNOW? YOU'RE THE ONES TO BLAME FOR THIS, WHAT THE HELL DOES "I DON'T KNOW" MEAN? YOU DID THIS." the duke knew that he couldn't keep a fake calm for long

- both Virgil and Patton istintivly took a step back, and that made Remus only more angry.

- before a disaster could happen, Logan spoke up "Patton isn't lying... we really don't know how this happened. We, or at the very least, I don't remember how we ended up like this. It wasn't our goal to make Roman's insecurities get the best of him, I swear". It was almost shocking hearing the sentiment in Logan's voice, he sounded just like if he was going to break in tears, and even if his expression didn't show all those emotions, his eyes betrayed all of his sadness, all the guilt, all the desire to say how sorry he is without knowing how to do it.

- Emotions already are a maze for people who didn't try to block all of them, pretend to not feel anything; for Logan they were an impossible mess, they were strange... he thought that they didn't make sense for a long time but now, now that the grief is torturing him inside, he understood that they made sense, but not always in the way that someone hoped...

- (last time I made Roman suffer? This time looks like I'm making the rest of them suffer- mostly Logan for some reasons-)

- Deciet didn't want to believe him, it was the hard way, it was more easy to just think that the light sides didn't care about Roman, it was easier to have someone to blame for all that happened.

- because being sure of who to blame means that you don't have to ask yourself what is really causing all of this, you don't have to doubt everything you thought you knew about the situation... and you don't have to take in consideration the worst case scenarios.

- but, surprise surprise, Dee and Remus knew that the light sides' guilt was real, they weren't acting.

- "what do you wanted to do then? Why did you said those things?" Thd liar side asked when he finally felt like speaking.

- "only to help" Patton answered, calming down a little bit "we thought that telling Roman what was wrong was the best way to help him make something perfect, like he always wants to". The emotional side took a deep, before continuing "if only I knew what our criticism did I would have stopped immediatly, I would have tried to be more- more helpful, more constructive... I would literally prefer to die if that meant that my friends will be happy." Did Patton really thought every word that he said? Yes. He did. With all of his heart. And everyone agreed with him.

- the only thing is... yeah, now they have clear that no one wanted to do something bad and they're all worried for Roman... but what was the prince doing?

PART 2 IS FINISHED, I'M PROUD OF MYSELF (and I have to start working on part 3, if I don't get lazy it's gonna be easy)

Well, part 2 ended and I still don't have a title, that's professional

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Part 3 is outttttt! Read it here

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[lifeinproblems]

Non è che mi manchi, il fatto non è questo. E’ che ogni tanto, per sbaglio o per qualche motivo che non continuo a non capire, ti infili tra qualche fantasia. E’ che ogni tanto, mi passi per la mente. E mi passano per la mente tante altre cose. Per esempio: cosa saremo noi ora se io mi fossi comportata diversamente? Voglio dire, saresti qui? Saresti qui se, in qualche modo, invece di guardarti andare via ti avessi trattenuto? Saresti qui se, invece di tenermi tutto dentro ti avrei detto qualcosa? Voglio dire, se ti avessi mandato qualche messaggio in più, qualche sguardo in più? Se invece di evitarti, ti avessi affrontato? Come sarebbe finita? Sai, ogni tanto ti infili tra qualche pensiero e la tua voce torna. E i tuoi occhi tornano. E le tue parole. Torni tu. Per caso, dico, tu mi pensi ogni tanto? Mi infilo anche io, per sbaglio, in qualche pensiero? Magari ti scappa un sorriso pure, no? A pensare a me, dico, non ti capita mai? Immaginare come sarebbe finita se anche tu ti fossi comportato diversamente. Non mi manchi, come potresti? Dopo tutti questi giorni. La tua assenza ha smesso di far male. Ha smesso. Non mi fai più nessun effetto. Però, continui a passarmi per la mente, ogni tanto, tu torni. E io per te, torno mai?

Lifeinproblems

#amore a distanza #amore impossibile #fottuta distanza #relationship goals #girl #quotes #nwsl 2017