#imma experimenting you know

[gotchaocha]

Wish me luck, guys (gender neutral) Imma start my intensive design classes week today 

Also most likely means i will not be that active in tumbls for a while so hum yea

#non-writing #for the two people wondering #yes i´m graduating in social sciences #imma experimenting you know #also i figured taking actual design classes could help me in my drawings #cue the circus music but i initially really equated design to like fucking anathomy lamo #alas now i know imma learn how to use photoshop and like #make a new starbucks logo #but i did hear this helps in ilustrations #both in a tecnical sense and a creative one #so we shall see

[ilikepjo24]

There's something about emotionally constipated characters that makes me what to see them be put in high stress situations where they are obligated to face, process and verbally communicate their emotions in the presence of some sort of audience or simply perish.

#this applies to #azula #zuko #octavian pjo #catra #clarisse larue #alastor hazbin hotel #imma need visual proof that the lot of you can actually experience normal human emotions #but i know it's going to be hard for you #which is why your peers need to witness it so they can validate the emotions you displayed and comfort you after

[girlyliondragon]

Now kiss (haha Jk... Unless??? (Toby PLEASE make it "Unless"))

Ello Deltarune fandom. Guess what ship has gotten my brainrot now 2 1/2 years later. :P Because ofc I go from one f/f ship to another and cling onto it. But fr tho I love these sapphics sm. I love them so muuuuuch I'm so glad they are semi-canon just 2 chapters in.

Been wanting to draw something with them since February, but because of art block back then I decided to just let my pen go on its own since I had art block and ended up with a rough of this and hallelujah lol ^^

Seriously Toby please. Take your time ofc no rush. But please I NEED to see them together again.

Also I love Noelle's glow-y nose hc so that's mine now too thanks fandom.

Art: Mine

Do not steal/crop/edit/etc. Do not tag as kin/me ty! Suselle haters DNI :U

#Deltarune #Deltarune Fanart #Noelle deltarune #Susie deltarune #utdr #Suselle #This is my first time drawing them ever #I'm very happy with how I draw Susie but Noelle is a different story. My perfectionism is getting me #Been wanting to draw something with them since February #decided to just let my pen go on its own since I had art block and ended up with a rough of this ^^ #It's all about the yearning <3 #her tail's wagging :3 #Em Doodles #I don't think(?) I'll be posting anything outside of art in the fandom tags #because I've had enough extremely bad experiences with fandoms so just art stuff now. Not taking anymore chances! #ya know. unless Tumblr's weird tag system screws me over :U #Btw The kin/me thing is more of a ''if it's not made for you don't tag it like it is plz ty'' to reiterate #More for personal art than anything. If I make stuff for people that do it? Then yeah go nuts xP #Me: Makes a freckle brush just for coloring Susie and can finally really use it. #Textures and lighting: Imma make it impossible to see #couldn't use my paper layer textures thanks to that rip I might do them manually next time #there's a reason I put the ''Suselle haters DNI'' thing from what I saw someone try to do a super wrong rant in the fcking tag but #IMMA KEEP THAT RAMBLING OUT OF THE TAGS TOO because like I said I'm not throwing that sort of aggression anywhere outside my own blog now

[fandomestuff]

WHAT IN THE CRITICAL ROLE JUST HAPPENED TO ME

I'm watching cr2 for the first time and I'm at episode 98

And Veth is talking with Yeza about maybe settling down in Nicodranas... And he just asked her to be careful and not put herself in too much danger

And after what happened this past monday ((we are all still crying)) Matthew Mercer from early 2020 hits me with a line directed at early 2020 Sam Riegel

"There are a lot of tales of heroic sacrifices"

...........

I'M SORRY???

RIGHT AFTER FCG'S HEROIC SACRIFICE???

WHAT IS HAPPENING

#if anyone says “proof that it's all scripted” imma block you #that was such an out of body experience fr #i was just knitting and listening in the background #and then matthew mercer hits me with that line #what the fuck #AND THEN YEZA SAYS “I WANT A WIFE. NOT A POEM” #I LOVE THAT MAN #gimme a yeza pls #critical role spoilers #cr3 spoilers #cr2 spoilers #critical role #mighty nein #bells hells #veth brenatto #yeza brenatto #fcg #fresh cut grass #rip fcg #still crying #it's around 1:29:30 if anyone wants to check #edit: and then they fucked right after this talk #typical mighty nein interaction #this is about veth and yeza not sam and matt btw #although who knows #/j

[mid-nightowl]

…can i ask you to share more of your thoughts on fem!jaytim vibes

hi cory!!!! yes, yes i can :) <3

most of my thoughts come from this lil snippet and my tags.

my thoughts on fem!jaytim can be boiled down to this line: “Her successor fascinates her. She kind of wants to let him dissect her, little freak that he is.” 

like tim is a freak who would absolutely want to dissect and take jaye apart piece by piece just to get to the bottom of whatever the hell is wrong with her (obsessive) and jaye would let him bc she wants to know what the hell is wrong with him (affectionate). 

It’s almost a scientist and their never-ending experiment, but not quite?

like the dissection, its the act, the intimacy, the trust in being vulnerable and completely open on the table for them to see, a show and a sight but not a performance, it's the ‘i’m going to take you apart piece by piece, not to fix you or change you, but just to understand you’, and 'i’m going to get my hands dirty and dig into you, and it can be voluntarily or not, it can be with anesthesia or nothing but im going to know you whether you like it or not,' paired with 'you are going to have to cut me open to get to know me, it has to be cold and violent, it has to be artful and methodological.'

but jaye started off with ‘i want to destroy you, take you to the brink, the edge of despair and fury and hatred and let you go without any catharsis,’ kind of like capturing a wild animal, testing on it, and then releasing it back into the wild with a tag to see what it will do after being changed (will it return back to it’s normal routine or will it come back for more?)

and then tim kept coming back. and that's when jaye is like alright yeah, i'll let you rip me open and give me a name (or maybe give me back my name?) and tim does, and he does it carefully, adoringly, obsessively.

and i think tim’s obsessive focus, paired with the idea of the knife/scalpel = love, is what jaye would respond to best. she was raised in violence, and probably thinks that fighting and pain is caring and love, AND she’s never been a priority in anyone’s life. so for tim to obsess and know her in ways that no one else has before (or have even bothered) is captivating, exciting, and absolutely mind-boggling, and i think jaye would get possessive, like ‘this robin, this little freak is mine.'

i, hmmm. running out of coherent thoughts after this, so um i guess enjoy? <3

#asks #felinemotif #i don't write/talk about jaytim very much; ive always been a jaydick girlie #but this was a lot of fun to think about and like actually get down my thoughts in a somewhat coherent manner #i think there's another piece here about the dissection as an intimacy that only requires the subject and the surgeon/scientist #and the idea of labelling and taking photos of the parts something about learning and teaching but also remembering #another part: once the dissection is done once tim knows all of jaye does he stay? #which i think devolves into jaye going out of her way to prolong the dissection bc she thinks it may be temporary between her & tim #whereas tim is thinking okay i know all the pieces and parts which means im the perfect partner for jaye #no one knows her better than me AND no one will get to know her like i do #(the whole dissection thing too like tim is not afraid about hurting jaye whereas bruce is bc he knew her before) #(bruce thinks “dissection” would = change bad or good while tim knows it just means learning and knowing) #like it's going to be painful before it gets better and bruce doesn't want to go through the pain of knowing this version of jaye #bc it means acknowledging what he's done or not done #and tim's a fixer at heart but to fix things you gotta know what you're dealing with #problem is tim fell in love and realized fixing things would just make it worst so #he is very content with his tall gf that could kill him with her thighs and lets him do his freaky experiments<3 #okay wow i was not done with the thoughts ajfkagjbsg imma stop now #jaytim #fem!jaytim

[bambiraptorx]

y'all i just figured out how to use half tones in medibang this is literally gonna change my art forever

#you don't know how long i've looked at art with super cool dot patterns and gone 'i wish i could do that :(' #and now I CAN #imma be frigging unstoppable now hell yeah #forget going to sleep i have ART to EXPERIMENT WITH #and there's one specific piece i've been trying to figure out how to approach and I HAVE THE ANSWER ITS HALF TONES BABY #ehehe this is SO FUN I LOVE #bambi's rambling

[aceofspades-11b]

Can I have a blue pen?

Me looking up half chewing the only one pen I brought

Fellow batchmate didn't even respond just looked away in disappointment

#fuckin phy lab #fuck u #if I can't defeat it with sarcasm or whatever is available in the moment I'm done for #and I come preloaded with sarcasm #so I was as prepared as I could be #turns out I was wrong #and the moment was so wrong #imma kill the prof and lab assistant #got the worst experiment #2 crucial things were not provided #had to go around 20 mins asking for proper apparatus #one broken multimeter I got #discharge rod they just said uske bia krlo hum kya kre tum log kharab kr dete ho leke chle jaate ho #arree benchod #ye to teri zimmedaar haina ki kya kre #fucker tried gaslighting me ki iski zarurat nhi rod ke bina hojaega #had to “share” #fuckin prof himself said yeah this setup may not be working good luck with it #good luck?!?!?!!! #good fuckin luck #why tf would you have it on exam day if you KNOW IT DOESN'T WORK??!!!!!?! #alag hi lund aadmi hai #also apparently we needed a pencil scale erasers calculator whole lotta stuff to make graphs and all which I didn't have #but that's on me #altho I did need readings first to fukcin draw a graph #indian institute my ass

[savage-rhi]

I will not be that asshole when I obtain my therapy license. By that I mean not being condescending toward clients and assuming they don't know shit about their physical and mental health. I don't understand how mental health care providers (and medical, let's be real) get so far up their own ass that they forget the crucial bits about their job: LISTENING AND EMPATHY. Even if you know or feel on a gut level that your patient be blowing smoke up your ass, you need to do right by them the best you can. Humans got issues. Even the "good" and "best" ones. You should know that when you sign up with a career that involves interacting with every facet of humanity you can think of. It's some deep dark ice cream with sprinkles and a cherry on top. Sprinkle and cherry people/experiences are rare. Most people are the base. Just the ice cream, and there's nothing wrong with that, but the flavor can get old real fast, and you gotta accept that if you're gonna be a doc or mental health provider. Appreciate the the components, appreciate the damn people who seek YOU for help.

#I get it. Compassion fatigue is huge and the pandemic made it worse. Hell #I get it monthly #I guess this is my law of equivalent exchange for yeeting my uterus and no longer having a period. I don't menstruate I just lose my empathy #for a few days then go back to normal haha bad joke but wtf ever #but it's no excuse to be an asshole just because you can wave a degree over someone's head #if it wasn't obvious doctors and many therapists give me the ick like no tomorrow cause of personal experience #and having to work alongside many of them #and being mad at the fuckitry they pull on my clients #and I'm currently mad af right now at how im being treated at an appointment today #they changed their tune when i brought up I'm a QMHA #it shouldn't take someone going YO I AM IN AN ADJACENT CAREER TO YOU AND BTW I WORKED WITH YOUR EMPLOYER BEFORE #to get people to just be fucking nice to others #i know i vent a lot regarding mental health but i am passionate cause ive been fucked over one too many times #and if i can be that one person that makes this shit easier for people imma do it

[testsubject24601]

I forget how much I like going into tags on tumblr and blocking anyone I don’t agree with

True peace of mind

#curate your own experience #weed out that negativity #also imma need you fucks to stop putting hate/negativity in the main tags #so many of yall don’t know tumblr culture and it shows #no one wants to see negative opinions about their favorite things!

[comradekarin]

now that it’s kind of been confirmed that giselle’s experience at the CMAs and the racist backlash she got after her daddy lessons performance with the dixie chicks is the catalyst for her making this project… that’s so sad :/? but on the bright side, imagine her leaving and in the car plotting for this era like beyhive we gon always get our lick back!!

#obviously that experience wasn’t the only thing ofc #but to know it played a part is both sad and amazing considering bc how she went about it #she said imma SHOW YOU and honestly period #cowboy carter #beyonce #blue ivy mama

[caramel-mousse]

This is completely brought on by the last post but it really bugs me when people are so insistent that a story needs Monsters or Extra Terrestrial Beings to be scary.

The two examples used were Infinite Ikea and the Backrooms but like. At very least to me the addition of monsters just makes the story go from really good to fucking boring so quickly.

The horror is being stuck in an overly familiar place that you would expect to have an exit and being unable to find one. It's being seemingly infinitely lost in a place you would normally be able to traverse with no issues. It's like... weaponizing the familiarity of places you know and making what was once thought to be safe, possibly dangerous.

You put a monster in it and you just turn that whole idea into just "What if you were in the Minotaurs labyrinth would that be fucked up or what"

#unnecessary hill to die on #yadda yadda yadda #i think when a monster in a setting like this works vs doesnt work is when it ADDS to the mystery versus possibly provides an explanation #like the type of backrooms monster that doesnt work is one thats visible. at all really #like idk if it was a part of the original post or i saw elsewhere but a concept i saw for a backrooms monster i liked was #one where you only heard whatever monster it was chasing/stalking you. you did not sed it you dont know what it is. but you know to run #because it ADDS questions! 'what the fuck is that' 'where am i' 'why is it here' 'why am *I* here' - fantastic! unsettling! uneasy! #monster is [killer office worker/killer hotel staff/aliens] - oh its [haunted office/haunted hotel/some alien experiment or something] #<- while not DIRECTLY giving an answer as to why you could make up reasons to explain it. which makes it known which isnt as scary #but like. the questions have to kinda coherent to? like 'killer santa in infinite ikea' just sounds ridiculous. youre just thinking 'huh??' #i think if you wanted to make the employee monsters in infinite ikea more interesting theyd work better if they seemed normal until night #bc having them always be monsterous kind of immediately sets the tone to horror instead of a buid up? #like you go into the establishment. see this Too Tall guy with no face and go ''welp. im fucked'' #instead of the build up of what you thought was normal to be not normal #im getting tired thinking too much imma quit now

[definitelyjunehomestuck]

once again minecraft fans be mad for all the wrong reasons

#minecraft #june speaks #dawg if u wanna be mad about the vault block be mad that we had to wait ages just to learn the key is used for what seems to be midgame gea #not that the vault performs an incredibly basic multiplayer feature that shoulda been added ages ago #it only feels like a disappointing feature cuz they took so long to tell us ''oh yea it unlocks player-specific loot containers'' #which is a good fucking feature even if it's not particularly interesting! i'm very glad they added it! #this game really does need some multiplayer QoL changes when it comes to the gameplay n this is a great step towards that #it's just stupid to have to wait two months to learn that when by all means we were made to expect it did something more interesting like #idfk. open a secret area or summon a boss. which maybe it could still do! we just don't know yet. update's not fully announced yet! #personally imma save my negative feelings (beyond being annoyed having to wait that long for something that simple) for AFTER the update #at which point if the vault doesn't ever give better loot or if the keys never get any more uses i'll feel a justified mild disappointment #which like ngl. even that's motivated purely by my position as a seasoned player #i'm certain that as-is the vault is amazing for new and learning players in every possible regard. it's a good block n a great feature #but even considering that i feel like it's reasonable to want to be catered to a little bit as a seasoned player yknow? #beyond insanely tedious self-imposed tasks there's not a lot to minecraft's endgame. beat it a hundred times n eventually you get bored #which i think is why a lotta other people get so annoyed with some of these updates too #there's just not a lot bein added for the sake of catering to old players who want new experiences most of the time #anywho that's my bi-monthly minecraft rant outta the way lol

[wootzietoozee]

creative writing class is just an excuse to write fic for your homework and i love it for that

#soda speaks #at least in my experience with the class so far #so far i have learned as long as i change the character names here and there i can turn in fanfic for my hw #you guys know imma exploit tf outta that

[ihavenoideahowtodream]

Indiana needs a permission slip from the following people's parents:

Dr. Henry "Indiana" Jones Jr

Cpt. Benjamin Franklin "Hawkeye" Peirce, US Army

Cpt. "Trapper", US Army

Mjr. Margaret "Hotlips" Houlihan, US Army

Pvt. "Raidar" O'Reilly, US Army

Every Top Gun Character

Darth Vader, Galactic Empire

Darth Sidus, Galatic Empire

Obi-Wan "Ben" Kenobi, Crazy Old Wizard

Most of the Goonies Characters

Every Marvel Character Ever

Joseph Biden, POTUS

#indiana legislation #protect trans kids #protect trans lives #this is so dumb #if u ever actually used my legal name imma assume ur the irs and i am unfortunately cis #mash 4077 #top gun 1986 #star wars #the goonies #marvel #i have never seen a piece of media from the 80's where someone DIDNT have a nickname #like #???? #i called my bff “Cork” for 15 years as a kid. do i need to submit paperwork to her mom for that? #both my parents have gone by nicknames #you cannot joint the military without getting a nickname assigned to you #my dad called a dude “alphabet” when they were in the military #my dad did not know my moms first name the first 3 months they dated cause he only knew her nickname #calm down on ya damn transphobia #nicknames are a part of the human experience #i have more family members who go by nicknames than dont #hell i had a cousin who went exclusively buy “pig”. grandma doesn't even remember her first name as it has bee said twice #at her birth and at her wedding

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#occassionally i cannot help but wonder what like. versions of me exist out in ppls heads lmao. #from like the random groups of ppl ive gone skinny dipping w while out fucking around in waikiki #to the ppl i lied to so i could talk friends up or make them look better #to like any of the way too many ppl ive done work w lmao. #its weird to think about how many different versions of me exist across the spectrum from a lifetime of experience. you know?? #anyway imma bouta chief thru about two grams of wax so stay tuned to see if i get more or less coherent as the night goes on #&also to see if i can drink this xl slurpee in under five minutes lmao.

[monarchisms]

the achievement times website is so, so incredible, and really inspirational for what can be done with a fansite! it’s so sophisticated and pretty and informative, i hope you guys are super proud of it, because you’re doing an amazing job :)

#:') <3 #Anonymous #ask box 360 #AH fansite tag #imma be honest with you guys #the past two-ish month from me and mars having the idea for the site #*months #to actually launching it #+ everything after that so far has been positively wild #i had very little knowledge of html when i first started thanks to editing my tumblr theme sometimes #so to come up with a functional series of pages despite lack of experience has been really cool :D #now we can focus on what /really/ matters: pretty fonts #still don't know what font face jam uses #and i doubt anyone else knows besides whoever made the logo #but i can live with that #because the amount i Have found is pretty dang impressive!