#im sure we can all relate

[anotherpapercut]

hi more drug question

I have been told many many times that using ecstasy will basically fry your seratonin receptors so that you will never be able to feel happy again unless you are using the drug. I am assuming now that this is false but I am curious now as to how false. Is it something that CAN happen if you take too much at once or too often, or is this just random Drug Scary misinformation

Also also since wellbutrin is not an SSRI does LSD work when you are on it or does it also cancel it out

lol that's kind of an extreme version of what I usually hear! you're right that basically the answer here is no. this comes from a couple different things. first is MDMA induced serotonin toxicity, and 2nd is something called "serotonin syndrome" which is a real thing that can happen, but it's really really hard to get like this. prepare for a very long answer lmfaooo

MDMA induced serotonin toxicity occurs when you take too high doses too frequently. MDMA IS slightly neurotoxic, but so are many prescription drugs so don't let that word freak you out too much! basically MDMA works by dumping large amounts of serotonin into your brain, hence why it's the happy/love drug lol. if you take too much too often, your brain will straight up run out of serotonin. obviously that's bad! it's not as simple as "never feeling happy again" but you will essentially have depression for a bit because of lack of serotonin (on its own, low serotonin levels following modest MDMA use is not damaging and resolves within a few days) but the real problem is that if you are on MDMA with depleted serotonin, your brain will continue releasing dopamine which will attach to the serotonin receptors and damage them. this is what can cause long term depression symptoms, the damaged serotonin receptors. ultimately your brain will heal this on its own unless for some reason I guess you keep taking it a lot (which would have no effect. when you take too much MDMA your brain just runs out of serotonin to dump so like. it just won't work lol)?? it can also be treated with the supplement NAC, which I would recommend taking any time you use MDMA because of this!

to sum up MDMA toxicity: it can happen but only if you're misusing it! it's generally recommended that you dont do much more than 1 dose every 3 months or so to make sure your brain has time to reset. research interactions with anything else you're using (prescription or not), take some NAC in the weeks following a dose, drink a lot of water, keep your body temperature regular because that can worsen it, and take some antioxidants like alpha lipoic acid and grape seed oil during/immediately after taking MDMA - it's when you come down that your brain is delicate and could use the protection. also this may sound counterintuitive but weed also has antioxidant properties, so smoking it as you come down helps a lot. also if you DO have MDMA toxicity taking more MDMA will not help u feel happy unfortunately it will just make it worse lol, your brain only has so much serotonin to give

now serotonin syndrome can happen with the misuse of any drug that works on serotonin including MAOIs, SSRIs, and SNRIs, usually by taking a VERY large dose (but some people are just extremely sensitive). it usually takes care of itself eventually, but the amount of time it takes and stuff is kinda hard to pin down bc it's REALLY misunderstood and tends to be overly self diagnosed. again this is like super super hard to do. you would have to take a MASSIVE dose or mix it with other serotonin affecting drugs (ESPECIALLY MAOIs. DO NOT MIX MDMA WITH MAOI ANTI DEPRESSANTS). like 5 times the normal dose at least probably (partner is currently trying to find some literature on it so he'll add that in the replies if he finds anything interesting). it will cause things like heightened anxiety and body temperature and can cause kidney problems or seizures if it's like really bad and untreated. but you'd feel REALLY bad before it got to that point, so in general like, if you take any type of drug and feel extremely bad after go to the doctor lol. mostly this will also just heal itself; your brain is pretty resilient! again usually if this does happen it's very minor. cases bad enough to require hospitalization are exceedingly rare

to give you an example of what these can look like, I have a friend who was given about 3-4 times a regular dose by a fucking piece of shit asshole she knows and, this part is crucial, it was mixed with a very large amount of alcohol AND acid (which can slightly increase the neurotoxicity. normally not a huge issue but becomes one in circumstances like this), AND coke; like she was blackout drunk and while not on a lot of acid or coke, this is just too many things to have in your body and brain at one time. the mixture of such a large amount different drugs caused her what I'm guessing was a mild case of both of these things at once. she experienced slightly worsened depression for about 6 months after, and actually had a mild stutter for almost a year. I made sure she took some NAC and other things that aid brain healing, and she didn't try molly again for a long time to be super sure she didn't overload her brain before it was ready. this is a pretty extreme case, and even with that she has fully recovered thankfully. do NOT EVER do drugs with someone you don't trust with your life. DO NOT EVER do drugs in doses you have not confirmed for yourself to be safe and DO NOT EVER mix drugs without finding out if it's safe!!! just as a small aside though: usually taking molly and acid at the same time is perfectly safe. in fact it's called a candy flip and I HIGHLY recommend it because it's fucking awesome. again, just make sure you are taking safe doses in a safe environment

OKAY now finally your specific question about Wellbutrin: I actually take Wellbutrin so I can answer this one from personal experience! Wellbutrin should not alter the effects of LSD in any way HOWEVER! both of these drugs lower your seizure threshold! I'm on the max dose of Wellbutrin (which is the max dose BECAUSE of seizure risk) so when I plan to drop acid I usually either skip my dose entirely that day or only take half depending on how much acid I'm planning to take. because of the way Wellbutrin works, this shouldn't cause you any problems as far as that goes. for me, not taking my Wellbutrin for a day mainly has the effect of making me more fatigued, and acid counteracts that really well by making me feel very awake/aware. if you don't want to skip or halve your dose though you can also take things that will RAISE your seizure threshold. so like I sometimes will smoke hemp because CBD actually will help with that. the risk here isn't huge either way especially if you have no history of seizures, but again if it's something you're concerned about you should be just fine skipping or lowering your dose for the day. acid usually lasts about 12 hours too so i personally don't even care about skipping the Wellbutrin that much because it basically does the same thing for me. I did take my full Wellbutrin dose the last couple times I've done acid though because I was taking a very small amount of acid (about half a tab)

in summation lol sort of TLDR I generally would recommend MDMA for recreational use because the risks of damage are low and it's safe if you are safe about it. and it's honestly just a really fun one! the only negative effect I've ever felt is some emotional and physical fatigue the following day, and this is largely because of how emotional and energetic you are on it. I just make sure to have the next day off to lay around and listen to music :)

taking it with a partner or loved one will give you an especially beautiful experience, as MDMA has been proven to facilitate extremely open emotional conversations. in fact, when MDMA was first synthesized it's primary use was in psychotherapy! research was shut down during the war on drugs, but in recent studies it's demonstrated amazing abilities to treat and even straight up CURE disorders like PTSD. for a personal anecdote, my partner actually completely fucking cured his alcoholism on a combo of MDMA and whippets (nitrous oxide) lmfao. like dude straight up went from getting black out drunk multiple nights a week to drinking nothing for the past year and a half without any other treatment program. LSD has been proven to have similar incredible results with treating and curing things like depression, anxiety, PTSD and addiction and is also a very fun and very safe one.

sorry to reiterate for the billionth time lol but it's important: these drugs are safe and fun if you make sure they're safe and fun! do your research and never use in an unfamiliar environment with people you wouldn't trust in an emergency! also I know this sounds like a lot, but remember I'm giving you like the absolute safest possible practices and emphasizing sort of over cautiousness because I think it's always better to be too safe. I've taken molly without nac and I've taken kinda big doses a little closer together than I should have without any problems. there's a bit of flexibility to these guidelines, but it's always better to think of them as being rigid so you don't end up too far in the other direction. like I've said it's really really hard to do actual damage that would last more than like a day or 2 max. most of the time you'll just be sleepy the next day from all the dancing so it's nice to do it on a day 1 of a weekend. also it only lasts like a couple of hours lol so it's not your whole day or anything!

#sorry this took me like a fucking hour i kept having to check myself w my partner + google to make sure i wasnt talking out of my ass lmfao #im sure ill be rereading and editing it for the next hour as well #damn just spent like another half hour #hope this is thorough enough for ya ajdbsjhdkshdkshs #on a tangentially related note: ive been weaning myself off of my SNRI (venlafaxine/effexor) bc it didnt help at all #and made my nails extremely brittle ????? like so bad they were constantly breaking to the quick and making me bleed #so pretty soon ill be able to do acid and molly again. sweet blessed molly how ive missed you #cant believe i forgot to mention this but as another personal mdma anecdote: my partner and i started dating while candy flipping #hed been staying at my house for like 4 months at that point but we hadnt really talked about like. relationship definitions #and I was EXTREMELY nervous bc id never even like kissed someone fr before him #but the acid and ESPECIALLY the molly made talking about our feelings with each other really easy and safe feeling #we do it every once in a while as like a poor mans couples therapy lmfao. its much easier to be open and honest and vulnerable #while crucially taking down the defensive wall that can cause you to lash out and stuff #highly recommend 👍 #wtiting a book called the couple that rolls together stays together. its about doing molly but also skateboarding #drug ed #i cant stop adding to this post im sorry

[constantvariations]

Yknow, instead of basing a lackluster at best character off a nazi, Coco could have been Chajka, based off the heroic Chajka Klinger, a jewish woman who was essentially a scribe of history

You can even keep the minibag machine gun considering the history of jewish women hiding guns in their purses

#rwde #idk if yall have read the light of days by Judy Batalion but that shit made me cry #do not read that book at work lmao #but in all seriousness it's a v good book i highly recommend #why stan a shitheel based on a nazi when you can recall and rejoice people who did their best during the absolute worst of times #side tangent but reading this book has turned me off all nazi shit #like obvs we grow up w 'nazis r bad bc death and destruction' but reading the individual accounts #following some folks from teen to young death even in a narration #its haunting #its v much the reason i hate jojo rabbit(movie)/caging skies(book) #i do not ever want to see a nazi in a positive light #human? yes. quirky and relatable? FUCKING NO #idk why but the entire book chajka was always the one I felt most drawn to #i wish she'd had a happy ending but i honestly can't say that i would've done any different in those circumstances #i hope she knows peace and that her efforts weren't in vain #whats a proper jewish sendoff for the deceased? im p sure rip is christian #either way chajka i love you

[wyllsravengard]

do you ever have a moment where you realize like. there's like not a single human being in the world above or below you like ever in any way. not really.

#z.gen #everything in the world is constructed by society which we also make #but on a basic level we are all relatively the same #like finances and talents and visiiblity are all just things. but people are still people #good or evil. its all ultimately human beings. im having a weird thought about it right now #but there's actually like. no one in the world worth idolizing #admiring or respecting but not. like. idolizing. no one actually deserves to be deified. and sure i know this #in a a shallow sort of self-acceptance way but its just. really hitting me that all inequality in the world is imposed by what is #essentially other people. and things can group together and people can form coalitions but everyone is very. human. such a weird feeling. #even the worst and most ungodly people in the world are just people. everyone in the world is just a person. #its making me feel really out of body sdfksdkj #whats the word for this. sonder i think ? experiencing that on a very wide scale dkjfskjs #this feels related to years of childhood trauma related to authority also . but im also thinking of like my dislike for celeb culture etc #i dont knowwwww i need a blunt and a sea food boil

[gibbearish]

so like i want to talk more abt what suicidal means but the problem is "suicidal ideation presents in two general forms, active and passive. the thing most people think of as suicidal is the active version, where the person *actively* desires to be dead and/or is making a plan to get there. the passive form however gets almost no attention in media so many people experiencing it are unaware they are even depressed, much less passively suicidal. some examples: not wanting to experience death but feeling like you wouldn't mind if you didn't wake up tomorrow or just stopped existing; feeling deeply exhausted with just the entire concept of being alive; even feeling like you want to run away, change your name, and start a whole new life; none of these look like suicidal ideation to most people because they don't involve actively doing anything to get from point a to point b, especially the more abstract ones like the start a new life thing - but remember that in order to truly start a whole new life, you have to destroy your current one. it's not suicidal as in wanting to actually DIE die, it's just. wanting something close enough to scratch the itch. but just because you haven't booked the ticket doesn't mean you don't still revisit the 'vacation activities at point b' tab occasionally to daydream, yknow?" is i think very informative and specific, but its also quite long and run on-y so people are v likely to tap out like a third of the way through it, whereas "suicidal doesnt necessarily mean wanting to die" is way shorter and therefore catchier, but is also the kind of nonspecific phrasing that gets you a thousand angry anons about how you said all suicidal people are just pretending they actually want to die or some dumb shit. so it's a fun line to toe

#especially when youre far too lazy to dig up sources however if u google passive suicidal theres a lot of info #pretty front and center altho you will get jumpscared by the size 1000 font suicide hotline number #or maybe you wont but i sure was. why was it so big #in this house we simply post both as part of another hashtag relatable post in the hopes that the two for one bargain #will entice viewers to read the whole thing and go 'wait but /i/ feel like that what do you mean' #and then make a meta joke about it in the tags so the viewers think we're hip and cool #nah but seriously i see ppl not knowing abt this . so much and every time im like !!!!!!! no youre not crazy youre not supposed #to feel like this!!!! #so its one of the things where im like nah idc if im being annoying abt this as long as i hit the one (1) todays lucky 10000 who needs it #this one i dont remember seeing on any articles but id like to propose also that having trouble imagining your future can count too #and like obviously all of these have exceptions right like. ppl can just want to start a whole new life for non suicidal reasons #but if theres a pattern of these things or you find yourself being drawn back to one over and over again thats #when you should start being like ok somethings afoot #like the imagining ur future one you could easily have trouble visualizing things or even just Not Be Especially Imaginative #...or... it could be that deep down you dont feel like you /have/ one so your brain just. steers away from the subject entirely #and ykno. knowing which one it is is usually pretty helpful LOL #anyways. sorry theres no paragraph breaks i could not for the life of me figure out a good spot for them #/suicide #/suicide mention #/suicidal ideation #/depression #/death mention #and of course i think also like a lot of things this is more of a spectrum than a binary like obviously 'run away and #start a new life' is def a bit less active than 'id be ok w it if i didnt wake up tomorrow' but theyre still both on the lassive side #passive* #eugh im rambling now and not even in the slightly contained way the post itself is #im hitting post without rereading for the 40th time otherwise ill remember another tangent so if theres #any errors left my apologies

[prosebushpatch]

Listen, i don’t care if it’s romantic/platonic/barely put up with, but in totk, Link and Zelda share that bed. I didn’t spend all those rupees so Link could sleep on the floor, Nintendo. You couldn’t even give him a bed under the stairs? WHERE’S THE SIGN THAT SAYS “LINK’S HOUSE” NINTENDO. COMMIT TO THE SHIP OR AT LEAST PUT TWO FRICKING BEDS IN THE HOUSE THIS IS MALARKEY

#rose and rambles #im replaying botw and did the house quest again and *clenches fist* i forgot the sign #THEY TOOK AWAY LINK'S SIGN #POOR GUY DOESN'T HAVE ANYONE BUT TRAINED ASSASSINS REMEMBERING HIS FACE AND YOU TOOK AWAY HIS SIGN #This is an instance in which i think the fact that nintendo is afraid to commit to certain aspects of Link's character is more harmful #than not #like #i do not think Link is self-insert for the player i don't think he's ever been super successful as one #and in botw totk its clear theres a lot more we get that delves into Link as his own person #so i think the weird wishy-washy does he actually have feelings for this person is just unnecessary #like the fact that nintendo can't seem to pick so they leave evidence for *any* outcome is the problem #and that is best seen in the house #like in all accounts with how link is always traveling with zelda anD HER BODYGUARD he should AT MINIMUM have a house next door #that's just job related #so even if he did just give the whole thing to Zelda it still begs the question of WHERE DOES HE SLEEP?!?!?!!?! #SURELY NOT AT THE INN IN HATENO IF THE YIGA ATTACK #AND HE'S THAT FAR AWAY? I THINK NOT #it's just frustating #its like nintendo were like 'well we won't confirm either way whether they're together so we won't put in another bed but we won't make #the twin bed any bigger so the audience can fight amongst themselves' #JUST GIVE LINK A BED #THAT'S ALL I WANT #GIVE HIM A FRICKIN BED NINTENDO MY BOY IS ANXIOUS AND TIRED

[moshieee]

Ew, essays :[

I miss the old days of kindergarten when we attempted to color butterflies and ate erasers and glue

-🎁

I hated kindergarten

Essays may suck but at least now I'm not the weird kid in the corner wishing I had friends

However yes I absolutely despise essays with all my being... in fact!

Achievement unlocked: you somehow found a topic moshie hates enough and on a bad day to start them ranting in the tags...

Warning there are curse words, poor spelling, and caps locks

Sorry in advance

#asks #off topic #seriously tho i hate essays so much #one of them is already 5 pages and thats just the rough draft #i better get a fucking high pass on that shit or i will scream #shes actually making us focus on out writing process and OH HO.HO BOY IS MINE A MESS #I SWEAR ITS LIKE TRYING TO MAKE A SKETCH BUT YOU KEEP PAINTING CERTAIN PARTS BECAUSE IT HAS TO LOOK NICE #ONLY TO RELIZE OH WAIT MAYBE THAT DOESN'T GO THERE AND I SHOULD ACTUALLY SHIFT IT AROUND #OR MAYBE I COULD SWAP THIS TOO BE THAT LOOKS AWFUL AND IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE TILL ITS A RIVER OF BLOOD AND PAINT #AND SHE WANTS TO SEE MY ROUGH DRAFT??? HONNEY YOU WOULD HAVE A BETTER CHANCE AT READING THE MARIO SUNSHINE SPEEDRUN CATEGORY BACKWARDS THEN #UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE FUCK IM TRYING TO WRITE ITS WHY I HAVE TO WRITE IT ALL IN ONE GO OTHERWISE I HAVE TO LOOK BACK AND UNDERSTAND WHAT #WAS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD WHILE LOOKING THROUGH THIS MESS!!! OOOHH WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO ORGANIZE THIS WELL SHIT THATS GOING TO TAKE EVEN #LONGER YOU ALREADY GOT ME WRITING WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME STOP MUCH LESS MAKE ME SWITCH SUBJECTS TO ANOTHER ESSAY HALF WAY THROUGH OH BU #AND GUESS WHAT!???? ONE PAGE! DOUBLE SPACE! AND IM NOT GOING TO GIVEN GIVE YOU A DIRECTION TO WRITE IN JUST ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED #IN THESE LAST TWO WEEKS! TWO WEEKS FUCKING HELL DO YOU KNOW HOW INDECISIVE AND FORGETFUL I AM??? MUCH LESS THE FACT KTS ABOUT ETHNICS #I DIDNT EVEN EANT TO TAKE AN ETHNICS CLASS I WANTED ETHICS I FUCKING HATE EVERY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW #LIKE YEA SURE I KNOW THEY'RE IMPORTANT BUT I STILL HATE ESSAYS and j know my teachers are trying their best... #but jeese ethnics is such a difficult topic because on one had yea i relate to what these people are going through im part of the LGBT #are statistics are very similar but im also bery much a white person and not openly trans/non binary i dont want to look like some stuck up #white person going oooo look at the poor minorities i can TotAlLy relate and now im going to talk about me #because im genuinely scared of coming out idk whos accepting and whos not at least online im safe and can block people... #jeese im sorry for the rant i shouldn't have gone on that much less my art blog #this is supposed to be a positive blog but i just need to put this somewhere or i feel im going to cry out of frustration im sorry #rant post #system #oops moshie got emotional

[healingheartdogs]

Love having talks with my parents (/s) where they tell me I "need to stop living in fear and get back out in the world" and that they haven't stopped living because of COVID and they don't even mask and it's fine because they got it once and it was just like allergies to them and "it's not even that bad it's just like the flu or a cold", ignoring that I also have had COVID before and was in the most extreme all over pain I have been in EVER in my entire chronically ill chronic pain suffering life for over a week to the point that I was mentally begging the universe to just let me die toward the end of it so it would finally be over and am now left with significantly worse chronic fatigue, chronic pain, and heart issues than I had already before because of long COVID. Also my sense of taste and smell have still not fully recovered, which is a sign of lasting neurological damage.

But it's just fearmongering, clearly, and I'm just falling for government propaganda (even though the government has said COVID is over and that we don't need to take precautions anymore because they value profit over human lives). Sure. Makes sense.

#they also told me i dont need to get boosters because they dont do anything anyway #and that getting covid makes your immune system strong enough to not get it again #which IS LITERALLY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT ALL THE SCIENCE SAYS #covid is literally leaving people's immune systems looking like HIV and AIDS patients #and getting infected DOES NOT provide lasting immunity AT ALL #and even mild and asymptomatic cases can cause serious lasting immune system damage #BUT I'M JUST LIVING IN FEAR #me going out and seeing people will surely be worth it if i get covid again and fucking die #or become even more permanently disabled than i already am #and im already so disabled i cant work anymore or take care of myself without help #but sure #suuuuuure #MY MOM USED TO WORK FOR A MEDICAL COMPANY HOW DID WE GET HEEEERRRREE #the anti-vax anti-medicine propaganda is just being eaten the fuck up by the older generations huh #rant #vent #ndr #not dog related

[isopod-underground]

Pretending that I don't have an insane amount of compassion for the Roy siblings because I see a little bit of myself in all of them for my own peace of mind <3

#we can all relate im sure #connor roy #kendall roy #shiv roy #roman roy #succession hbo #logan roy #worded this stupidly

[todayisafridaynight]

Plushie anon again here, THERES A HOODIE? I'm also getting hopeful bc the plushie specifically says 3 but uses his dragon engine (for the cards) and unreal engine hair color...suspicious

yep, alongside ones for akiyama and ichiban ! it's a part of a lottery though so there isn't a guaranteed way to get one yet but it exists

and in case you missed it here are the clan pins including the hakuho clan- you actually can pre-order these right now !

on the note about his hair color though, i wonder why they've made it black. i love his chestnut hair so much more.....

#snap chats #itd be so funny if the plushies actually did imply something bigger for mine #if it does turn out to be that way none of you are allowed to bully me ever again #granted none of you ever DID which. <3<3<3<3<3 #BUT YEAH i dont like how theyre making his hair black- with hijikata i can let slide #but his chestnut hair just went so good with the rest of his pallet and it fit him so well... #i'll still love him but i'll miss his chestnut hair color if they really do decide to give him black hair in all merch and in-game #if he ever shows up in another game that is #also ngl im stumped on what you mean by uses the dragon engine for the cards #im dumb dumb but im trying to figure out what you mean cause the only thing i can think of is like #they always use the render from Y3 for anything mine related- unless you mean his RGGO cards #cause they do use dragon engine for his cards im pretty sure which Yeah Ok Now I Understand #but on that note tho every day i think about mine's unused model for YK1..... #like sir what are you doing here !!!!! what was your purpose !!!! im going INSANE !!!!!! #mine my beloved come back from the war why did mine get the Y6 akiyama treatment #all his files and models and textures are there but they just couldn't commit to adding him in the game #at least for akiyama we know why but i wonder what caused them to change their mind last minute for mine... #the world may never know.....

[minarcana]

i am allowed to be self indulgent I Think. new years.

#mun draws #see i normally feel v self conscious if i post/rb my own ship art to my rp blogs bc im like #i dont want to make people feel as if im gonna forceship :pensive: #but also dez can have a little treat bc i was doodling this all day i can post it #anywyas speaking of forceship i still write uri with a onesided crush on than he Doesnt Know is a crush until like. porbably mid shb. #than is living his life unaware or w/e any than writer w me would want i just like afflicting uri with debuffs #debuff (Looking) #and it strikes me as absolutely the kind of dynamic where its like #[uri voice] alas too bad i have realized i have affection for my good friend thancred but i am not his type. we are holding hands and #raising a daughter. as bros. platonically. normal coworker activity. we are kissng. im sure he intends only cameraderie. if only. #SDFVDSFGSGSR #i am weak for urithan that is my life smh @ me #this isnt related but a notif popped up on my airdrop asking if i want to send this image to some random neighbours iphone and im like #happy 2023 have a gay anime elf neighbour :) (i wont) (but im tempted) #URIANGER | yester with thine eyes; morrow with thine hands #THANCRED & URIANGER | i touched your hand which has never slept

[mothdotz]

Slams messy (and smudged) sketchbook art on table.

I have no explanation for these except

1. I have been and still am rotating a (self-indulgent) rewrite for MLB in my mind 2. These drawings vaguely relate to that rewrite 3. (Vague Noises)

I have no idea what time these things were drawn— excluding the last five since I drew those today—because I am that artist that does not date their sketchbook (oops).

#what if I make Manon obsess over show characters #my art #I like drawing Felix as gnc in gnc clothing a whole lot (if that wasnt obvious/j) #in regards to that little blurb of i did infact make little doodles of those characters #which is fun #As said above this rewrite is all for giggles for me. very self indulgent and if it's seen as dumb then 🤷 #this rewrite chews on canon. spits it out. then proceeds to look the other way since ive onmt watched up to season 2 and ive barely watched #any episodes from those 2 seasons #so.. #((anyway)) #in my previous old art that 'little' infodump is still canon (or most of it is anyways) so i might remake it #as you can see. i cannot stick to one last name for Felix at all #we have gone from Culpa to Sphinx to Monet to Sphinx to Culpa to Finch to Agreste and now hav safely landed at '???' #rn im not sure what to go for since im deciding if i want Gabriel Agreste and/or Richard Sphinx to be apart of his rewrite #the same goes for Adrien and Nathan. Rn I dont want Gabriel(? or Richard) to be the father of Felix. but i might change that idk #will he have family problems? will he not? is he gonna be related to Gab/Richard? Will he be some guy?its like picking a paper from a hat #except the hat has a hole #its amazing when you can create the stories you want to see in the world.. except when *you* have to create them #anyway. watch this diverge from canon so hard #marinette dupain cheng #marinette cheng #felix culpa #felix sphinx #miraculous ladybug #mlb #miraculous ladybug tales of ladybug and chat noir #mlb au #gabriel agreste #manon chamack #mlb ladybug

[constantvariations]

V9C4

Finally here after several hours of a dnd session zero, so this whiplash is going to be interesting

Post Ep: not as infuriating as the last episode but still missteps at pretty much every turn. At the very least we can say there’s been character “progression”

God Ruby’s voice is so damn bad I thought it was a literal child calling for a cat. Why does she sound more mature at 15 than 17?

Did we really need a close up of the cat piecing itself back together? We already know it can do wacky things with its ugly gradient body, so why the emphasis here? I doubt it’s foreshadowing for a permanent bisection

“Nothing we’ve tried has gotten us any further.” Ruby. Darling. Babe. You’ve tried walking to the tree. Nothing else. It’s not the cat’s fault you can’t think of something else besides Scooby Doo hijinks with the looping sections

What the hell is Yang now? She hasn’t been fun or quippy since Beacon but now (and that one spot in V8) she’s suddenly Joss Whedon with a dash of Hulk rage? And I can’t recall Weiss ever having these kinds of facial expressions. Judgmental commentary, sure, but this feels like she’s 3 seconds away from saying something into the camera like this is the Office

“Just because [the cat] doesn’t want to go back to the tree doesn’t mean we can’t lure them there.” That’s... a curious choice of words. Why “lure?” You lure someone into a trap or an ambush, not ask someone to be a guide. Why wouldn’t Blake use the obvious direction of “we can make a deal with the cat because they’re curious and want information we have.” You can’t really call someone a hero when their instinct is deception of a potential ally who’s already saved their asses for no real reason

Are they going to be losing the cat the whole damn episode? Is that going to be the running gag? I fucking hope not. Ruby’s voice is absolutely obnoxious this episode

She’s talking to the cat like he’s a literal toddler. And it’s acting like a toddler with an ipad. Someone put me down like Old Yeller please

Which of these idiots thought lampshading was a good idea? Like, congrats! You recognize the flaws in the story you wrote! How are you going to fix them 10 years too late? You can’t wink, wink, nudge your way out of shitty writing that you so desperately defended and clung to despite all the people giving actual constructive criticism

Why are all of them so tired of the questions? Surely, each of them have something they’d be ecstatic to talk about at length? Ruby with the progression of weapon development, Weiss with her plans to improve the SDC, Blake with other stories she’s read or how the White Fang came and fell, Yang with stories about Ruby when she was younger. There’s so many possibilities when you have a genuinely curious audience, yet they went the lazy route of “har, har, no one cares about anything” again

Was that bridge made of legos?

Okay, this is the second time the roles of acres have been mentioned. Exactly what does that mean? Do these roles serve a central purpose? The tree seems to be at the center of Wonderland, so are the acres serving the tree in some way? Is harmony throughout the different factions pivotal in keeping Wonderland in wonder instead of despair? What could this possibly mean for any themes or character arcs? It doesn’t seem like the areas thus far have resonated with any of the team, and they left behind Penny’s halo sword, the only thing that’s been even somewhat emotionally compelling, so I’m struggling to understand why Wonderland is set up like this

Love how literally nobody asks the obvious question of “are you okay?” All we get is Yang’s “Rubes?” (has she ever called Ruby that before? I can’t recall) and Blake’s logical deflection and Weiss whining yet again. You’d think for a season that cut away from the bloated cast to focus on the main characters they would, I don’t know, focus on the main character

This is the least Little has talked the entire season. Please keep the cat around more so this shithead will shut the fuck up. Also, Little deadass pointed to where the cat went and y’all don’t immediately follow? Are you trying to get lost?

Okay. Not gonna lie. The caterpillar’s design is dope as shit. The triple eyes in that gorgeous green. The pointy mouth that moves like a skeleton’s jaw. The two-toned wings. The antennae and little spikes. The collar and vest. That ~voice~ Fucking A+ The only thing I’m side-eyeing is the accessories. Hopefully I’m wrong - I’ll be the first to admit I’m not well versed in Indigenous cultures - but the coloring is very reminiscent of turquoise which was an incredibly significant mineral to Southwestern Native American tribes, most commonly associated with Navajo, and Caterpillar’s jewelry designs reflect this as well. My quick google search for this specific design mostly ends up being “hippie aesthetic” which does take inspiration from Indigenous aesthetics, so I can’t really say for certain which one crwby looked at for the design. Given the Medicine Man trope and the herbal smoking in the OP, I’m not holding out much hope

“Growgurt” sounds so damn gross please never say it again

They are really hammering this “who/what are you” thing directly into your eardrums aint they? I’m not entirely sure how this answer affects a recipe, but go off I guess Also, note how Caterpillar gets just the bit exasperated and Yang’s immediately in a fighting stance. The others are afraid, for some cocksmith of a reason - all homeboy did was grumble, what y’all scared of? Did y’all suddenly develop RSD? - but this bitch at half a foot is ready to throw down

Caterpillar is speaking philosophy 101 and these idiots are acting like he’s speaking ancient greek. I hope he poisons the lot of them

“This is how a king winds up a prince.” Does that imply that the prince was genuinely the king that played Alyx but he’s somehow reverted back to a toddler? That raises way too many questions I have no care to even ponder

This far in and we have no idea who or what Caterpillar was to Alyx. Not even a whispered expo-dump, which would be stupid easy given that most of them are tiny. Yet Blake, upon seeing the smoking, is like “we gotta dip” which so par for the course in every episode thus far. This better not be crwby’s attempt at an anti-drug message or I swear I’m gonna toss a fridge into space

Oh christ on toast the Beacon outfits don’t deserve this slander

“You could just be human or just a cat.” Once again, weird phrasing. Like, yeah, it’s clarified that it’s about trying to bring peace between humans and faunus, but why wouldn’t you phrase it in a way that sticks closer to that sentiment rather than acting like she has the Yamato and can carve out what she doesn’t like? What would it even mean to Blake to “just be a cat?” Would that mean living in Menagerie forever with no worries about humans? Would she turn into an actual cat? She just has fucking cat ears man, this is so overblown

Wow, these “I know who I am” speeches suck ass. They’re so vague and InSpIrAtIoNaL I’m wondering if this is supposed to be a mature cartoon or a reading of those posters they put up in school halls of cats in trees with the quote “hang in there!”

“I’m the granddaughter of a hero” bitch who? Who is this mysterious hero? If someone doesn’t know or watch the Remnant expo-dump series, they don’t know who you’re talking about Weiss! You can’t bring up something in the main story if the context is shoved in a spinoff! Also, “daughter of a villain.” Babe, your father was a clown at best and a business major at worst. Villain is not a title he deserves “I will not be defined by my name because I will be the one to define it.” Uhhhhh exactly where in this redefinition is compensation for the lives stolen by your family company? Have you thought of that, Miss Heiress? When your name has that big of an impact, I don’t think you get to be the sole decider. Also, you have siblings who might want a say in it too

Still pissed that the whole “Missing Summer” arc was shoved onto Ruby, who was what? 2? 3 years old when she left? Ruby talks to her gravestone, sure, but as for memories or stories, she hasn’t had a single one. This entire thing falls flat because there was 0 buildup

“You’re supposed to be helping others find their way, but you’ve lost your own.” WHAT WHAT WHAT THE FUCK. Jesus on a toaster strudel can you not villainize every single person who slightly questions uwu precious Ruby? He literally helped the other 3 cement themselves, why doesn’t that count? Sure, it was against their will and all, but these girls clearly need some goddamn help if they can’t answer a basic question like “what is a huntress?”

There are so many questions about those last 20 seconds that I don’t even know what to do with them. Let’s just sum it up with “what the fuck”

#rwde #i know who nicholas schnee is i just dont care #this one didnt actively piss me off but it did make me look up a bunch of stuff related to native culture so i wouldnt be reaching #its hard to trust the online stuff tho since so many folks wanna pretend to be native so they can sell bullshit #if anyone has any trustworthy sites please let me know! ive been meaning to learn more about the cultures #i want to be able to write indigenous characters without falling into the harmful tropes or misinformation #still not sure if im reaching on the caterpillar or not but given rts history... :/ #we already had a racist romani stereotype this season #we could make a bingo board of all the racist shit these idiots pull lol #gotta say tho i do like the multi colored leaves. those are really pretty and not oversaturated #the cat keeps getting uglier the longer i look #if the caterpillar is gone do they still need to find the growth yogurt? #guess ill find out next monday lol

[hella1975]

Every time you make a post about yourself I’m reminded of how fucking similar we are and it’s always something new and it’s so weird. Like I vent my issues through creative works but sometimes I’ll write it and it’ll take me months to realize that’s a problem I even have. I have several projects about the character (basically my self fucking insert let’s be real) being unfeeling at least out worldly or their powers or whatever they’ve got causes them to have no emotions or they were raised that they literally cannot show emotions (🤨 that’s a real project I’ve had for years. Idk how we are the same person) and therefore don’t. But one that I have in particular has a scene where the MC is watching his sister cry in their mom’s arms and he’s just thinking “how could she let herself be so vulnerable? Isn’t she embarrassed?” And later he realizes he was also somewhat jealous bc while they share a mom, she never lets him be anything but a punching bag and he has to be emotionless. This is totally not based on a real experience whatsoever and I have a normal relationship with my family *eye twitches*. This is so many words to say that I get that a lot. Even when I’m struggling I’d have my mom be like “you’re such an asshole why can’t you just snap yourself out of it” or thinking she’s being lighthearted by going “this is why all your friends leave you” and I’m like ah. I’m never saying anything ever again. Also ah, I come across like an ass when I’m just some guy in my head and in places where I’m relaxed and have the energy to be how I actually am/want to be (close friends, online, etc.). Basically this is so fucking long to say that I get the same shit that you do and it’s garbage, but like everyone else has said I don’t think you’re unfeeling. I get a sense of like camaraderie? Like “same hat” kind of thing, I get what you mean when you say literally anything because I get it? If you were so cold hearted, I think that wouldn’t be a thing because you’d just be nothing, there wouldn’t be anything to relate to? But yeah, I’m shaking your hand. I genuinely don’t know how we are one person split in two, it sounds like I’m just making shit up but I stg I have not lied in your inbox as of yet - 🫐

Also our periods are synced up. I don’t even know you. Genuinely, literally, with my whole soul: what the fuck - 🫐

blueberry anon im experimenting with the paranormal to contact you in increasingly concerning ways can you hear me. i saved this ask for a bit after you sent it just bc it really surprised me the comfort i got just from like. someone not only acknowledging it all but also being like 'we're in this together' type thing. like everything you've ever sent me has me nodding like yeah this guy gets it fr fr, and when a lot of times that's in response to posts i was nervous to make? it means a lot x

#sorry you relate but im glad we found each other <3 also the period thing made me actually laugh WHAT IS HAPPENING #like idk i have this belief whenever i tell you guys on here about me being Bad And Evil that one day i'll reveal something that is too muc #bc rn i just offer it one piece at a time and sure you can build a picture if u were dedicated enough but i'll still hold all the pieces #but one day there will be a piece where i was TOO bad. TOO unforgiveable. TOO cold. and you'll all abandon me #and write me off as some mean loser that was never good at anything after all and etc etc im gonna stop that there #because my point is that while i AM getting better at posting about these things i still feel this panic when i do #waiting for some inevitable negative response. so you being like 'not only are you not a monster but i also totally get it' is. yeah #<333 #ask

[authorwithissues]

Looks like it's time to graduate from a student bank account to an adult bank account

#awi #personal #over a month ago there was fraud on my parents account #they caught it sorted it its all good #except #my ability to pay external bills keeps getting blocked #i call. i wait in the hold line 45 minutes. i explain my issue and the rep says huh that weird let me put you on hold while i check with #my supervisor. except im not put on hold. im booted back to the main menu #i get back in the hold line. another 30 minutes. i get a different person. i explain. they havent seen it before. theyre checking with #their supervisor. i am booted back to the main menu. i lose my compusure perhaps a lot #next day i call again. i explain. i say BEFORE YOU PUT ME ON HOLD TO CHECK WITH YOUR SUPERVISOR please know that if i appear to have hung #up I Did Not. Please Call Me Back. i am booted back to the main menu. i hang up and wait for the call back. they do not call back #i call. i wait in line 20+ minutes. i explain. they havent seen it before but hey try xyz. okay. i hang up to try xyz. it doesnt work. #i call. the hold line is over 30 minutes again. i give up #next day i call. wait in line 20+ minutes. havent seen that before. try abc? okay. i hang up to try abc. it doesnt work. i cry. #i tell my parents im fuckin losing it. its probably related to that fraud. are you guys having this issue???? no were paying ours just fine. #okay so fuck me in particular #i call. i wait in line 20+ minutes. they wont talk to me. im not the primary account holder. i say ive been talking to people for weeks. #they say not sure why but they can only talk to the primary account holder. i text my mom. i show her the error im getting. she says lets #go to the bank in person. i say okay. its too late today but we can go tomorrow. i will pick you up tomorrow mom. she says okay #i message her in the morning to silence. let me know when youre up! silence. fuck i drive over shes still asleep and theyre closing in an #hour.i drag her to the fuckin bank. wait in line. teller hasnt seen this before. asks his supervisor. she says oh i know exactly what that #is! but i cant fix it. call this number. i sit in the lobby and call the number. theyre closed. okay. i tell my mom i will call tomorrow but #if theyll only talk to the primary then youll need to call. i call. they wont talk to me. i text my mom. they close at 3 you need to call #silence. at 330 she texts that theyre closed. tomorrows a holiday. i remind her in person to call tomorrow. today i remind her again to call #i dont hear from her so at 4 i ask what the bank said. she says they closed at 3. she didnt call #im going to drive off a fuckin cliff #the bank will be open a little while after i get off work but ill be hella late to feed my cat. might just have to feed her late because im #an inch from losing my shit and i will take the ability to Pay My Fucking Bills over the covenience of the joint family account

[bibleofficial]

SCREAM ok so swag .. found my besties on this tour theyre also w their parents & theyre 3 vietnamese siblings between 19-24 & im obsessed w them but i’m also an alcoholic so i keep getting drunk & shouldnt even b around ppl bc im going to be seeing them everyday for the next like 2 weeks

#stream #this is so fucking funny ALSKALSKLASKALSKALKS #like at dinner i was like ok SO HERES THE TEA ON WEED & THE ECONOMY #‘ first of y’all do u know what delta 8 is’ ‘ur too young to know what spice was’ none of them have smoked weed despite living in california #their entire lives #ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLA i felt mildly racist asking ‘are u a u.s. citizen’ BUT LIEK ALSKALSKALKSLA THEIR PARENTS ARE IMMIGRANTS HOW WOULD I KNOW #like my girly Ngoc wasn’t a citizen but she had a PERFECT american accent like 😭😭😭 SOMETIMES PPL JUST ARENT #idk but also it seems like they’ve money so it’s funny whenever i’m like ‘bc we’re poor’ bc like they went/go to private universities & #shit & can pay out of pocket totally #fine like ALSKALSKLAKSLAKALA WISH I COULD RELATE GIRLY !!!! ALL I THINK ABT IS MONEY & YHAT IM BROKE #like my dream of being a dr was shattered years ago ALSKALKSLAKALAKSLAKSLA y’all got med school money ? BC I SURE DONT ALSKALSKALKSKASLAKSLA #ugh forever wish i could’ve gone but whatever it sfine i’m going to stick w US POORS #BUT ALSO LITERALLY ITS SO FUCKIN FUNNY this guy omg he did a dual degree too & he just graduated like i did ECON THEN POLY SCI & he did the #EXACT OPPOSITE - POLI SCI THEN ECON #SCREMA so fucking funny bc like yes … stan … we get to GOSSIP omg he’s a J.S. Mill stan but lowkey i’m a smith stan but like i’m also a #smith literalist i SHOULD SAY #i made that up by that i mean explicitly that i agree w his views of sales and choice rather than ‘should be’ but ‘what IS’ #im FAR too drunk #omg i did something i’d never do: finished someone’s drink after they’d drank from it #like me ? put lips on someone’s cup thag i haven’t had sex w ? girl … #ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLA LIKE I NEEDED THE REST OF THE WINE INONLY HAD LIKE 3 GLASSES #that sounds so bad oh my god #ALAKLSKALKALKSLAKSLSKLKALAL #me avoiding as hard as possible to admitting to myself that i struggle w alcoholism #me realizing that i’d just be an alcoholic if breathalyzers weren’t a thing or id not have to drive

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

The funny thing about owning a cat with severe anxiety and (suspected) brain damage is sometimes things that were ok yesterday are now far far far too scary today.

Case in point, yesterday the wet food dish was bringer of Food and Yum, today it's so so so so scary too scary can't go near it please feed me with a different bowl or I'll cry and cry and cry.

#honestly? #relatable #she (and the other two cats) are from an abuse situation and considering when they picked her up #her teeth were kinda jacked up and shes scared shitless of quick or sudden movement #im pretty sure she musta got kicked in the head or something #like when u look in her eyes u can tell that point A and point B aren't connecting #and she does some weird behavior stuff which is why i think brain damage #but she is loved and well cared for here #it's ok that she'll never be a lap cat and that if u try to pet her more than a few times she starts crying #she's safe here and ill meet here where she is #honestly when we adopted her we thought well we're never gonna see that cat #figured she'd find a little hidey hole and only ever come out for food and bathroom breaks #but nah she'll sit on the back of the couch #and if she thinks my mom's asleep she'll climb on top of her and make just thee most intense biscuits of all time #so i think she's happy here #even if sometimes her fear wins out