#im still on her older stuff for now

[demidevildonnie]

we appreciate power.

#my art #trigun #trigun stampede #millions knives #knives millions #elendira the crimsonnail #trigun maximum #been listening to grimes recently #don't shoot #i never rlly looked into her discography #im still on her older stuff for now #i thought this song kinda gave knives vibes. just a little bit #and i liked this specific shot from the mv so i wanted to recreate it with knives #originally it was gonna be knives and wolfwood but i decided early on to draw elendira instead bc theres not enough fanart of her #and i think she fit with the piece better anyways #anyways im done rambling just rb and enjoy

[aalghul]

when it comes to being willing to make concessions on methods & morality specifically in exchange for gaining batman’s trust & access to the inner bat circle vs rejecting an existing trust & access (because it did exist prior to jason’s death & would have existed had he chosen to walk back in with no radically opposing beliefs after lost days #1)….jason should never choose the first

#re: op’s tags on lrb. but once again this is unrelated to the actual post. It just reminded me #worded it this way bc jason could maybe give up killing maybe. but not for the bats. it doesn’t work bc he made the choice to #not return as a bat and he hasn’t finished justifying that choice yet. in fact it all falls apart if he makes concessions for them now #but whether he’s wrong or right and what he thinks abt that is irrelevant. he made a choice and he’s got to stick by it when it comes to #renouncing an important part of his ideology since his resurrection just for them #the point isn’t the killing itself but whether jason would be see the bats as a good enough exchange for giving up his ideology #and he clearly didn’t the first time he chose to kill (and at that time he was remembering a father that was much more loving than bruce #has been since jason’s death. an older brother who was more supportive than dick currently is — bc well. Jason isn’t doing stuff he Can #support currently lol— and etc) the point is that Jason looked at what is to him the better version of his family and still chose to severe #himself from them (or maintain/exacerbate the severance. since his dying was the initial separation) so why would he go back on it all #these tags should’ve been worded better and also part of the post. I’ll do that sometime when im not sleepy #actually the first is what helena does and it never quite works bc the bats don’t generally grant her the trusted status that most #newcomers are able to attain. and mostly that’s on batman. this isnt even what the post is about #so easily now #jason todd

[good-beans]

You talked a little while ago about why you don't think Shidou would make a good father to Amane (agreed) and proposed the idea of Mahiru adopting Amane. That's cute but I want to tell you about my post-MILGRAM headcanon:

Amane joins the Kajiyamas

Not Fuuta specifically adopting her, but like him taking her back to his family's house. I'm sure they'd have a spare room

I think people don't think about Fuuta's homelife much, or if they do they take Fuuta's one interrogation question where he calls his dad an old fogey and assume its like, abusive

And don't get me wrong, I don't think the Kajiyama household are perfect. Fuuta' beautician sister surely hasn't helped when it comes to Fuuta's body image issues and I'm betting they're all a bunch of tsunderes too embarrassed to say they love each other

But in a series where most of the abused characters are still convinced their abuser loved them/acted out of love. Seeing a guy not be afraid to call his dad a loser is almost a green flag

I think it'd be good for Amane to not necessarily be adopted as the lone child to a single parent but get to be introduced to a very different style of family unit from her own One where its normal to express different opinions or disagreements or even have arguments and not have it be the end of the world

Amane already has a snarky side to her, I bet it'd flourish in a brash household like the Kajiyama's (or at least how I imagine them to be)

OOHHH wait I love that so much! >:O

I agree -- I never interpreted Fuuta's family as abusive or harmful, just not super close and struggling a bit after his mother left. (And yeah, all as openly emotional as him😭) They seem stable and very capable to taking in a extra, very well-behaved child. Assuming Fuuta is the way he is because of them, that atmosphere of being very honest and forward would work well for her. They say things as they are, little by little pointing out the harmful parts of her worldview. Like you said, none of them make excuses about harmful behavior stemming from love, so she'd get a really healthy dose of truth in that area. She never feels coddled or treated like a baby. They care for her while treating her very maturely.

I absolutely love how well she and Fuuta get along, with that snarky side to her that you mentioned. It would allow her to fit in well in the new household, getting the sense of belonging she'll lose after leaving the cult. Also, seeing how Fuuta and his sister let things slip and aren't perfect sons/daughters, she'll be able to relax about earning a parent's love through perfect behavior. She'll probably stay exactly the same, but her stress about it will fade <3

I doubt Fuuta's father can ever replace the hole she'll have from her own father, but the addition of an older sister will be huge. Amane will never get the feeling her mother is being replaced, but the woman will still fill the gap of the older, same-gender role model she needs. Her beautician job may throw Amane at first (being an indulgence in vanity), but it isn't as in-your-face as other careers. I think she could definitely ease Amane into accepting it, and over time, accepting her own personal "indulgence."

Plus, her moving in would also be really good for Fuuta! I think he'd recognize there's a ton of fun things she missed out on, and that heroic side of him outweighs the part that cringes: he gripes and groans about going to "kid places," but he's always the one to announce "I can't believe you've never been to __, we're going right now!!" This allows him to touch grass leave the house and experience his own life to the fullest. He's able to channel his desire to help society into a healthier outlet. Also, seeing her studying habits and plans for the future might even inspire him to do the same. (might.) He becomes the stereotypical good big brother, though of course he denies it viciously...

I have recently been going insane over their friendship so I'm completely taken with this idea OUGH thank you for telling me ;-----;

#milgram #amane momose #fuuta kajiyama #i am going to think about this nonstop now 😭✨ #ive literally been thinking of how much i love their sibling relationship but didnt consider them becoming Actual siblings ;---; #my heart... #the way i interpret the family theyd be able to give her a good mix of treating her like an adult and still giving her the 'childish' care #that she missed out on #and that honesty would just be really healthy for her #she learns not to fear punishment because if someone has a problem with her theyll just say it and move on #she is also a very straightforward person so shed communicate well with all of them #and yeah... i never realized how good an older sister would be for her but thats perfect #also i dont think fuuta is that fucked up lol but it sounds like he has no commitment to school/his future #so once he realizes he wants to help amane and be there for her he really buckles down on everything #if anyone can Fix Him amane can asdfsdfs #now im picturing all the adults scrambling to prepare themselves and trying to figure out if they're in a state to take on a new child #the time comes to leave milgram and they plan this whole speech to ask amane who she'd feel most comfortable living with and all this stuff #then they spot her walking away with fuuta while hes actively trying to get her to stop following him 💀💀💀 #ask #rose posts

[mxwhore]

learned a very valuable lesson today

#for each DICKHEAD you encounter there will always be a kind person waiting for you :) #i was flabbergasted that everyone had decided to be an asshole towards me. a stranger #first scenario: i was in the train watching my phone and this older guy comes up to me and starts going off on a 'kids these days!!' rant #he basically told me that i was BEGGING to get my ass beaten and my phone stolen and he wouldnt come console me when i cried abt it #me being used to this treatment from my grandma i just went ok. and put my phone away #and obviously that pissed the guy even more so he continued to rant until it was his stop #i wasnt too pissed because i was going to HAVE A BURGER!! but still. what?? #so i went to get that burger and wait for my mom so we can go to the farm #and the burger guy was extra niceys to me :) we joked around and stuff #AND THEN. scenario number two #i had my delicious burger and i was looking for a table when i saw two ladies sitting with and empty table next to them #and so i went! i was just about to sit down when a random lady SNATCHES the chair i was about to use #i was like WTF??? #the two old ladies saw this and instantly went like wtf are you ok??? and starting having a go at the random woman #she ofc in good karen fashion didnt care. so the ladies let me have one of the chairs so i could sit next to them #the woman decided to sit right in front of us and so we started shit talking her between us. it was very fun tbh #i was genuinely bummed at these interactions till i realized that there were lots of strangers that were niceys to me #and have me extra ketchup #anyway!! im off to see my dog now #love u

[alchemiccolored]

#hyperspecific poll #had to edit this on desktop bc my phone no longer lets me edit drafts smh #1- it was for my little pony versions of my friends/acquaintances #2- her name is two letters off from mine. and her middle name is our sister's middle name. #3- learned it in pre-algebra and it fuckin rocks. highly recommend #4- texture :( #5- thaaaaats beetlejuice! speaking of which im a couple weeks away from my 1 year anniversary #6- vermont. my parents got busy after i was born + didnt take me. my older sister got to see it though #7- all of my biological grandparents + my stepmom's mom #8- his name's tom and he's doing great! hes totally blind so we had to force-feed him but now he eats if you touch a mealworm to his lips. #9- thanks keith. i still love virtual riot and pegboard nerds and grant and WRLD and #10- THEYRE SO PRETTY!!! to be fair i think i prefer piano and organ for being able to play chords and stuff but in a group french horn is A

[sakitenyoyo]

*drops one of my ride kamens agent ocs at u*

Here is one of my Ride Kamens OCs, Asahi Nakagawa! She has a super nice older brother who was the original heir of Cosmos Conglomerate (before he went missing 4 years before the events of the game. I wonder where he went..). Now Asahi has to juggle both company and Kamen Rider Agent duties as the company's new heir. (having a presumably dead dad & missing older brother probably doesn’t help with that)

She looks up to her older brother a lot and being more like him is the main reason she wanted to be an agent in the first place. But she often gets compared to him at work. So she has *A LOT OF INSECURITIES*  (she often overworks herself just to help others, looks down on herself and all that jazz)

She's not based off of anyone in particular but I did give her a trenchcoat like shin kamen rider ruriko and named her after TV Asahi because thats fun!

more sketches of her because i like her a lot :)

#ride kamens #ride kamens oc #oc stuff #my art #yes you heard me right: ONE of my agent ocs #i actually came up with THREE bc im WAY too obsessed with this unreleased mobile game about superhero ikemen #ride kamens do be brainrot #asahi is the first oc i made back in february when the characters were still being revealed one by one #i just made a few tweaks to her here and there as we got more lore bc im attached to her #i like to imagine she especially likes uryu because they are both younger siblings working for a big family business #btw her older brother got abducted by chaosism if u cant tell from the setup #he probably got brainwashed to become one of those evil chaos riders & they now have to fight each other as enemies #i love siblings #i love sibling drama #i dont care that this side plot cant become canon i will still think about her regardless #sorry for the vent #brain go brrrr #im ok i swear

[bmpmp3]

i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness. #plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english?????? #people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me..... #a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

[infifi3]

Why do you stick with old blender, it's literally free? 🫵 👁️👁️

my computer is old as fuck<33333 im working with the limitations of the beautiful windows 8 OS<333333 and blender 2.79 just so happens to be the only latest version that had windows 8 support and runs good and doesnt lag every two seconds<33333333 also im just used 2 it. if you can do everything the same as the newer versions(albiet the newer versions make it a little easier ig besides making all the shortcuts n shit 10x worse :skull:) then why change it lol..... i havent genuinely run into an issue i couldnt find a workaround for or couldnt do w a slightly out-of-date technique. ik our world is all about tech upgrades these days but like if professionals before me haved used the same shit to make better products thats good enough for me! windows 10 isnt better than windows 8 you can just play bigger games and get viruses easier etc<3

#my computer is almost 20 years old......... thats not much 2 ppl obv but for a computer????/ in this day and age????? i love her<3333 i love #my old computer im so tired of tech elitism im so tired of abandonware and nobody being able to upkeep older tech.... #sighs. anyways. this is supposed 2 be about blender. JBNJJKBKJYB #IM VERY. PASSIONATE. about dinosaur computers :3 and the likes :33 #if i have 2 use windows its old and hogey or else<3 #ANYWAYS !!!! #yea :3 even if i can get a computer w a bigger OS ill probs still stick to 2.79 the way you do stuff in later versions is sooo weird n fuck #d up...... evil even :( like we hgad it so good whyd we make everything actually worse. eugh... #im a blender 2.79 truther and defender o7 #i might even fuck around in even earlier versions now too who know<33 #world so beautiful and full of programs from 20+ years ago<33 #asks #lamby #blender 2.79

[arolesbianism]

Some stuff I've drawn semi recently

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #furry #furry oc #furry art #Ive been going thru it recently but Ill survive #on the bright side the pet sitting job for my aunt is coming up soon #so Ill have a house to myself for a bit at least #Im probably still gonna be fairly offline for the foreseeable future unless I somehow manage to fix my sleep schedule anytime soon #not to say I will be on any sorta complete hiatus or anything just that Im not getting any more active most likely #not that I think anyone rly cares at this point since its been the norm for a while now but yknow #Ill still be around to answer asks and stuff just dont freak out if I take a lil bit to see it 👍 #anyways enough of being a downer Im actually pretty happy with these even if theyre mostly just doodles #also I havent posted any art of these guys in a While but say hi to them while you can cause theyre back into the void of my brain now #first is keese (the oc™) second is toon and third is clyve #all from different stories but toon and clyve are both from the magic cat universe #their paths never meet tho the closest connection they have has to go through like 4 characters first #you can also tell theyre from different stories because one is anthro and the other isnt lol #generally speaking I consider anthro designs slightly more canon but both are canon depending on the story #not in a shapeshifting way just in a me being an inconsistent bitch sorta way #but yeah keese the oc is much older than either of those two I just dont talk abt them or their story ever #but hey if any of yall remember suckerz those two are besties #suckerz is sort of younger than the other two and sort of much older than all three #shes a sort of updated version of a reallyyyy old sona sort of character I had in like 6th grade I think #back during my lilo and stitch experiment oc era where I had one that was music themed #I also had a digimon variant of her she was called like beatramon or smth like that #she was basically a hypothetical music mascot and shes kind of still that tbh #if I ever get enough into making music that I start posting shit it will be my music mascot

[robotpussy]

when you express your feelings to one of your parents and they take it as a personal attack..................

#like no because i was telling my mum for years that i cant just have a film degree and then walk into the industry #i kept telling her i have to make my own stuff to build up my portfolio cause the reality is they don't give af abt degrees #they just want to know if u can do what u say u can and she would constantly discourage me from making my own stuff #and now she wants to call me to say that shes encouraging me to pursue my dreams like... this always fucking happens #i will say i need to do something and she will disregard it or or shut it down and then years down the line she will tell me #to do what i was suggesting years before that... and when i tell her i said this years before she gets upset and starts yelling #when i told her shes been constantly discouraged me from making my own stuff for 3 years she started telling me its not true #because she helped me apply to a bunch of film residentials etc when that's not what im saying???? im saying when i #told her i wanted to work on personal projects. just because im excited she would shut it down immediately im not talking abt #you helping me find out about the bfi film academy??? but now she wants to push me to do it.... telling me about it like I've never #spoken to her about this before. she still has the mentality of no matter what age you are everything you say shouldn't be taken into #account because im older than you and i automatically know whats best. this happens all the time #all i can say is she actually apologised because in the past she used to never say sorry. i would just tell her im sorry and we'll leave #ot at that but atleast she said sorry. even tho she kept saying 'im sorry if u felt i discouraged you' like she still doesn't believe #what im saying. unsolicited advice but the advice is just shit i said to her years before..... its so infuriating #its why i rarely ever talk to her

[barredandromeda]

what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group

#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever #im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point #and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn #selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too #we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right #get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure #what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye #AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care #she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us #what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not #taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg #just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg #why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend #and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic #and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc #but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever #if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die #sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP #id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh #post #nickpost #will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1 #i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it #sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh #nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone #living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!! #its 11:11 make a wjsh #adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway #its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her #bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships

[ajax-mew]

when i back in uni

me think

i do uni updates again

#i used to do them #and was basically like day 1 i made friend she uggo and she basically torture her dog #(it was a tiny dog and she would send it to a trainer and not see it for weeks and she also missgender me a LOT) #day 2 everyone was uggo and big meanies and missgender me #day 5 sm gurl call me Konstantina (not my deadname ir clos to it and a girls name) #day 6 that same girl called me amy and a girl name (not close ti Damien and a girls name) #day 6 again i correct that girl and said is Damien and am a boy in front of ppl #day 10 that girl from b4 called me 'that uhh little boy over there ' we were the same age maybe i was a yr older than her #day 15 i wore 2 binders qnd went to the bathroom coz i couldn't breath #day idk anymore sm teacher called me girl thrn apologized and called me a young man (only positive) #day 24 that girl w the dog spoke abt canibalism w me (also pos but i regret it coz normies shouldn't know abt it) #day 56 the girl w the dog said she had a girl in her school w similar vibe as me (i was still a he) she kept missgender me #day 32 sm other girl v cool asked for my pronouns (she probably the only out if them i could have been friends) #day idk i quit uni to sad i go to therapy depressed want kill self (then i started t and changed legally my name etc #also my mom when i 1st go to uni didn't take all gender stuff seriously #like i was w my mom at the secretary and i told the secretary if could write my name Damien and my pronouns next to my name #at the papers the teachers see #and my mom and secretary was laughing and say 'hohoho but u wint be speak to me all the time' #im not ask to speaking to u am ask to write at the teachers paper #so I don't try to kill my self in the unis bathroom #and so i don't have to start every sentence with ' am actually a boy and my name is Damien ' #I FKN HATE EVERYONE THERE AND I HOPE TJEY DIE #the main teacher of graphic design change so they maybe better now i hope #the reason i choce tjat uni was coz when i go there #was btwn 2 #the other didn't even show me around and thought i would enrol #the one i went i hadn't said anything abt my gender yet #but the teacher was 'misgender me ' he was say he and then correct it and say she #i didn't correct him at the time coz wasn't sure i would go there but v cool #that's allmost a full vent in the tags

[smellslikebot]

i feel like i've always been very particular about taking good care of my belongings since i was very little, so my games have all their labels intact and i have a lot of my old toys in good condition and whatnot. and back when my family let my nephew (around 2 or 3 at the time) play with some of my old toys and he was banging them around and scuffing up the paint and throwing the toy piano my late grandma had given to me until it started breaking into pieces, i was like. Huh. is that normal. was I just a weirdly meticulous child

#he doesnt do it anymore but he would break stuff intentionally and laugh about it and i was like HUH?!?!?! #i think it didnt really help that his mom would kind of enable it. she handed him a ceramic toothpick holder (???) and he shattered it #and one time she lifted him up so he could break my dad's weather vane and he was so mad he didnt speak to anyone that day. 😭 #silly storie #anyway im still kind of miffed that they'd just uh. Appropriate my old belongings for him to destroy because they assumed i didnt care 😭 #ok now that i think about it my older sister probably always made sure i didn't fuck around with stuff because a lot of it was Hers

[bitchfitch]

I'm visiting my family for my cousins quince/18th (do the math on when her actual quinceañera would have been to know why it was delayed) and I'm not one for theater, to many people and I'm blind, but my mom's gift to her was 2 tickets to hadestown, a play my mother already saw, and which my cousin couldn't get any of her friends to go to with her to. Which is to say I took her. and by fucking god I know he's a capitalist but they did so good with Hades.

#Hi i can excuse a lot for a handsome older man of ill repute Especially if he has a nice voice. but unfortunately capitalism is not one #of those things #dbdbdbdbbdb (im enjoying the play a lot but ive got a Bit to maintain) #(anyways expect Orion and Hauke to be on the brain soon. they're the two ive been reworking to fit a music theater vibe bc like #i may not be big on going to plays i still adore the art form) #oh shit i forgot orion and hauke on the polycule chart. #Hauke has the same relationship to Arlo Adonis and Echo do where hes not a person but just a construct Arlo #through together to fuck someone over #Want a new kid because your original wasnt cishet enough? Cool should have specified stuff about her as an Adult instead of just as a #little baby child you could project all yours failures onto. #he eats skin now. Happy? #Just So much leaking out about that over the last few days huh

[mothmvn]

i hope today's strikes spoil Crimea as a tourist destination for russians. i wish we could've done this at the start of the summer holiday season, but maybe it's better to do it when the beaches are full of tanning invaders — front-row seat for them for Ukraine's display of "get the fuck out"

#ukraine #russia #im in Canada and one of my coworkers this year (before war) was russian #and shes like my age roughly but a bit older - probably mid 20s #and one rare time (before the war still) conversation shifted to non-work stuff and I mention Ukraine and how im from there #and she goes ''oh! you know I lived in Crimea for a while :) after it was taken by russia of course :('' #with all possible allowances for this being in the early years of russian occupation and her still being a teenager then... #she was definitely of an age to be aware then. she's definitely of an age to be aware NOW. even before the war what kind of topic is that #''oh i took advantage of the part of your country that my country occupied! it's lovely :)'' god fuck off and die #and she's a generally 'normal' woke west-oriented russian too and still somehow didn't see the atrocious faux pas in her own words #burn the bridge down as you leave #personal

[ganseythethrd]

found my old tumblr blog. like Old old the trenches of grades 8 and 9 old and going through it is so??? cause i've been feeling all this loneliness and sadness for so Long and the short rants are just interwoven with the mountains of reblogs and posts about fma and gansey and lotr and snk and just. that me feels so far away but we're still the same and i dont really know how to feel about that

#robin rambles #change #the future and moving forward #it isn't like im the same the same there are so many things about me that are different #but not different in any earth-shattering ways #that scared sad 14 year old is still inside me but now she has older me to cradle her to rest #waiting room was playing the entire time i was typing all this down and :)) and :(( #know it's for the better #and im thinking about me at 14 and like. she never would have thought she would end up as an economics major #she never would have thought she would have gotten into her dream school #she did #but she had to give it up because of financial stuff #it's so much time and so little and i just #i dont know