#im so streased

[kilisworld]

I have been without internet for over a week and am so fucking restless right now. It's insane.

#wanna write? #all my wips are on docs and not set to offline mode #wanna draw? #cant access any of my references or share with my friends to give me advice #wanna play a game? #all the ones i want to play are online #and worst of all #wanna work? #CANT BECAUSE MY JOB IS ONLINE #shitty way to start the new year #im so streased

[roachemoji]

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#bo posting #vent #i just need. to talk idk #i met with a psychiatrist the other day and i had to tell her everything #and there were 2 things that shook me #there was a period of time where i was heavily dissociating and i dont remember well or at all #and she asked me what made it stop #and i. i dont know. i coukdnt remember. its streased me out so much that i dont fucking remember #and then she asked about SA and i told her vaguely and she asked if id ever seen anyone about it #and i choked. because no. #ive tried several times but i either couldn't afford it or it wasnt a service offered #ive also just veen so afraid lately #ive been isolating bc i feel scared and unsafe around ppl i shouldnt feel this way around #i cant ask for things or talk abouy my feelings out of fear that #that im too much or overwhelming or overreacting or upsetting or offending like #i dont. even know how yo talk about this bc i dont want #comfort for this?? i domt know how yo explain it i just #my mind wont let me accept that its real #like im so used to love bombing ig??? that my anxiety around comfort and not validation i forget the word but #it feels like a trap sometimes bc there were times where it was #im so scared to be alone but im terrified to let ppl in right now #unless its me talking to the public void ig??? idk #🤪

[bucketofbrainworms]

Grrr brain thoughts bad

#someone told me to block and move on in response to a vent post and now i feel guilty for the paranoia that lead to the vent post #deleted the post cause it was streasing me out so much but i dont think that gets rid of the reblog #ik its not a big deal it just feels insensitive to me cause like. i just wanted to vent about shit that ive seen on my dash recently #but im also really sensitive so ik its porbky not the intended tone #grrrrr brain bad rn #mod vox #vent #also just saw that the same person telling me i need to just move on also made a post about it. so like. i dont understand #why cant i also complain? like #idk maybe im just stupid and i dont get it #whatever paranoia spiral time ig

[mycannibalromance]

i just want 1 cigarette but if i buy a whole pack right now i am doomed

#im so fucking streased please put me down 🤡

[chistery]

i got hired to be a tech at mn fringe this year ^_^

#life and times of a mahou shoujo #IM SO EXCITED #I KNOW ITS GONNA BE STREASFUL FOR A BIT BUT LEGIT #I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO IT

[owmyfangirlheart]

Self-care is leaving servers that no longer make you feel good about yourself.

It's like clearing the over cluttering of my brain in a way.

#i was in like 13 servers #and now im down to 4 #and it feels nice #i wasnt talking in all of them #but yeah #discord #i had nitro but its like #that streased me out even more for some reason cause it made me feel compelled to use discord cause im paying for it #so getting rid of nitro was the first step

[cremainsinmorningrays]

I'm so tired and I'm so behind at work so my boss gave me a week to do admin shit and I come into the office this morning and my computer just lacks access to the one thing I need to do work here and I'm gonna scream 🙃

#i have no clue how a place fucks up this hard #and then they nuked our access to our IT team this past year so i have to email an outside service to handle my ticket #who will then send it to our actual IT guys to help me #im so streased i just want to catch up #vic van dyke shit

[crowmaticism]

Listen I don't give a flying fuck about celebrity culture anymore like it's so fucking stupid BUT the Jojo Siwa relationship drama is helping me cope

#at least my life isnt that bad #in a way #im not trying to be mean like it sounds like a really streasful situation to be in #but like damn ita so much #the rambles of aly the trumpet

[wehaveagathering]

im in hell im so streased HI NICK SEELER ON MY SCREEN :3

#flyers lb

[literaphobe]

😭 i hope your presentation goes well. at least dream will be rewarding u for it with his face

IM SO FUCKING STREASED WHAT IF SHE ASKS QUESTIONS . Im begginf her to teach till 9am at lrast

#ask

[f0restp-unk]

all of my fucking logic goes out the window when i think i fucked up and then its this spiral of oh im a bqd person bc everst is upset and streased and now ur making it abt u ur so stupid why cant you juat helo him and not cry and not be so disorganized and awful and a part if mw is lokw its ok 2 b triggered but at the end of the Day its like always comes back to me being too much or not enough aomehow and i hate it i hat this shir i feel so immature and useless and i capable of handling any sort of percieved rehwctuon like wjy cant i just be a normal adult.

[puppycrowd]

im fuck shakign and crying kver falsetros what the avrual fuck

its just a fuckint musical?; its just a mother fuckint musicla but i dont ahave any way to acdess it anymore and its freakign wm the fuck out and i dont knwo what to fucking do

i know its really tfukitn stupid but i am so streased i cant

its my soecial interest so its judt making me freak out i need it yknow i fucking need jt

#- eddie

[scrpiomars]

me every time my pregnant friend says she wants to drink alcohol

#IM SO STREASED #STRESSED #like i literally get stressed once a day bc of this situation bc i get so worried #bc she wants to say fuck it and im like NO mf u wont u chose to have this baby so 😐 #its not even funny at this point #like i went to a date and before i went to the date she was talking abt killing herself and i was like BRO WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW LIKE #she was already waiting for me #i spent all night worried but well #my friend said i need to chill but well she is my friend i cant rlly make her do something she will regret but #idk #tw suicide #tw guns #personal

[spaghettiandart]

pink just wants to sleep.

#addison sleepover #addispam breaking and entering #help me #THIS IS WHAT IVE SPENT THE LAST WEEK ON. #im never makint a comic ever again in my life this was so streasful #and self indulgent #anyways #pink addison #spamton #addison spamton #you can interpret them in any way you want man #this was both expression practice and personality practice and i think i failed in both counts but whatever #my art #deltarune #fanart #this is 7 pages help #comic #fluff #self indulgent #a mutual of mine calls spamton a boinky spunge/bouncy spunge and i think thats amazing #and it inspired me to draw this #originally the context was but this can also be interpeted as #i call addispam white in this comic bc i call the other addisons by their colors so i just wanna stay consistent yanno #you get what im putting down #im so tired its 1 am and im on my period and sick at the same time #okay enough complaining before another guy comes into my dms and asks me what having a period is like before calling me a #goodnight

[pions]

i havent felt anxiety for the longest time but thinking about how i have to visit my hometown in the next few days is killing me!

#mostly i have no anxiety because i dont put myself in streasful situations #but theres not enough time to plan a trip to ohio #i need to shave my hair and wash my dog and pack and tell my bosses that ill be gone without much notice and theres so much pressure to see #a lot of people within a short amount of time and i dont want it to be awkward but ill be deadnamed left and right and im so not ready #aaaaaaaaaaa i could cry guys i dont wanna go home #sss #i dont even know which day it will be or how to get there #its rough #too many people to see and i want to tell none of them im coming so i dont have to see them

[proteusolm]

Look at all these FIGS that we GREW in CANADA.

#im so streased out rn i really need to stop and think about figs for a sec