#im not a scientist after all

[icebrooding]

I keep thinking about how the concept of alternate realities work via Mists, in that in every alternate of Tyria events never diverge, so for example when one person dies in one Tyria, they die in every Tyria. So like, doesn't this concept actually make free will a non-entity in the world?

And how does this work, like do they all work to correct themselves according to each possible variant world that exists? And how closely converging do events have to be to begin with? Does everything play out exactly the same across every reality with the only variable being the Commander themself?

If A dies in a battle in Tyria 1, would this mean they also had to be part of said battle in say Tyria 2 or Tyria 3? Or would reality just find another way to kill them off no matter what they were doing in their own world? I'm going to assume the Alternate Tyrias work on 100% convergence so that there is never a reality in which A is not part of this battle, since their death is a constant across all versions of Tyria.

But if that is the case, it does confirm that free will is a non-existence, because no matter what they were going to die exactly then and there, and nothing they could do has any chance of averting it, right?

Also with the Commander being the only unique entity, this means nothing they individually do impacts the world, because each person would have different thoughts and courses of actions to take, but the Alternate Tyrias concept forces the Commander to always take the exact same path no matter who they may be, which might hinge that this variable entity might be the one most strangled by the concept of inevitability. They are the one being in existence that is not a certainty, with how they change across timelines and worlds, but their actions can never be any different from another Commander in another world, or else the timelines would no longer converge.

Although I suppose the Asura story actually contradicts the concept of destiny as a hard fact, implying the possibility of a Bad Future deliberately chosen by the Commander, but how does this work in relation to the current set up of reality? Would this confirm the theory that all realities of Tyria have to be 'reflecting' from a source world, and whatever world that is is the one we are playing from? The only choices that matter are the one you make as the player, and every other reality that exists alongside this Tyria is forced to converge based on the decisions made in this timeline?

So the future is a variable state, but only in one reality, while the others have to play along to the outcome of a world they aren't even part of? Free will exists, but only for one incarnation of every person that has ever lived. That's harrowing.

While I get that things like the 100% convergence across all realities of Tyria is to prevent easily-abusable plot devices like dimension hopping to solve problems or bring people back to life, it does bring up the harrowing reality that ultimately everything is futile because destiny exists as an almost-immutable fact.

I imagine this is probably part of the lore that a lot of people don't actually want to acknowledge because, well, nobody likes having something so... troubling be the base ground for what reality is. I know I sure don't like it lmfao. It's a complicated and not necessarily great way to try and avoid being able to utilise time/dimensional travel as a plot device.

#text #aka i think far too hard on concepts that are way above my pay grade #im not a scientist after all

[obsob]

making and weaving and loving! like we have done for millennia!!

#mine #original #ough. hello. #happy new year!!!!! first drawing of th year!!!!!!!! #also LAKSBF 15k followers. hello. welcome #i taught bf how to crochet n hes making a blanket....the irl insp for this piece... #im so proud of these colours....i used an actual real life colour palette..n i think that is th way forward #also . gradient maps my beloved #why have i always refused ur warm embrace....... #dont pay attention 2 the wool bowls okay ive seen a picture of one like once #i do want one however. tho why r they so expensive #its a bowl w a hole in it. relax #ive been listening 2 the silmarillion audiobook as ive been working...i love it sm its like incomprehensible #like. idk what ur talking abt but i love it all th same!! #i tried reading it last year n was like.......okay anyway #rereading gay nuclear disaster book rn....natasha pulley would it kill u 2 write a smut scene #i want 2 see th horrible little scientist man get railed #next book after this is . 1030 pages oaodghsdugd #my goal is to read 50 books this year but i do not think that will happen bc i refuse 2 read books less than 400 pages skjdgbskjd #someone ask me about books. i have so many opinions abt books #okay good evening. i leave u w love

[eternallovers65]

Just saw someone on Twitter complain about the lack of Japanese people in Oppenheimer, and what did you expect??? Did you want the final act to be the bomb dropping and see people burning alive???

The reason why we don't see a Japanese perspective is because one, including a Japanese perspective, just to see how bad the suffering was would be exploitation. Two, to see an accurate and sensitive take on how the japanese felt about Oppenheimer, Christopher Nolan (as incredible as he is) isn't the right person to do this. And three, it's based on Oppenheimer's biography

Oppenheimer, the movie, literally shows you people (mostly the superiors, because by the middle/end of it you see Oppenheimer regretting his creation) doing something dubious and inhumane because they removed themselves away, both emotionally and physically, from the people they are hurting.

Nagasaki and Hiroshima only exist in those men's distant thoughts and imaginations. One guy literally asks to take a city off the bombing because that's where he had his honeymoon. It's disturbing and unsettling, as if those people were not real human beings. The lack of Japanese people drives the entire point home.

Also, Japanese cinema is right there. Barefoot Gen, Grave of the Fireflies, or Hiroshima (responsible for showing to many Americans the effects of the bombs for the first time) are just a few of the many, many decades of post-war Japanese movies we have

#important to say this just my opinion and im more than glad to talk and discuss about it #also i dont think a single person left this movie thinking Oppenheimer was the greatest person ever or left as a pro atomic bomb #you could literally feel the entire room's tension after the trinity test scene and what that meant when they succeeded #as the movie ended almost everyone was in silence i left that room in complete silent #its also important to say that although i do say the scientists didn't thought about the suffering japanese people would go through #this is more a dig forwards the superiors not the scientists because a lot of the scientists (Oppenheimer included) were jewish #so they were creating that people with the sole purpose of stoping the nazis and not hurt civilians #also to the people that keep saying 'oh what was japan doing/dont act like japaneses were innocent' dude i get what youre saying #but do you honestly believe all those civilians deserved that??? they were civilians not all of them agreed to what was happening #oppenheimer #oppenheimer 2023 #barbenheimer #christopher nolan #cilian murphy

[rexscanonwife]

Good afternoon everypony!! Last night my partner and I got a little silly and rewatched the episode of PPG where Utonium and Ms. Keane start dating and ugghh....why he so FUCKING cute 😭😭💖💖

And tbhhh the reason they sorta didn't work out is cause they weren't able to balance the lives they had with their infatuation with each other (tbh if the cat argument hadn't happened when it did any ol thing would have caused them to break up methinks) and y'know...I think that's why he'd work so well with my s/i 🥺👉👈

Theyre allowed to still be their own people and have their own things even if they do become a couple! Even if they get married! They're still individuals who support their own passions as well as each other's. And they certainly don't need/want to change themselves for each other 💖💖💖

#jane journals #self insert talk #🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬 #WAAAHH DONT MIND ME 🥺🥺👉👈 #im remembering my thoughts from last night ajfjgk we shortly thereafter went upstairs watched silly video and passed out #and another thing is my partner mentioned that thats kinda why we work so well irl...🥺💗💖💗💖💗💖 #we take being separated very well (its kinda necessary for their job) #so when we DO return its like the first time all over again. we also do a lot of paralell play!! #like. its enough to be in the same room #and thats what i think would be w my s/i and utonium >//< #also THE EP AFTER THAT UGH BLOSSOM MY POOR SWEET GIFTED CHILD 😭😭😭 #i love her sm shes so me when i was younger if im being truly honest #bubbles is my favorite but blossom...i relate to ajfjf

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[camelspit]

something something gisela would be taken more seriously as a villain if she were male

#idk man. #i feel. like. #shes the kind of villain people would love. if she were male. #faulty insane scientist or whatever #and she would just be taken more seriously! #take the keefe situation for instance. #cassius is always labeled as the worse parent but. reverse the roles for a moment #if she was the male and cassius was the female do you really think it would be that way #idk man #i feel like even shannons done her a bit dirty #shes given gisela this master plan but no real motive #like. at least fintan has one. #idk i feel like the same thing goes for vespera #numb person freed from prison after thousands of years and likes to torture people for science? #and yet. almost no content for her. #and she. got crushed by a rock. and we never did get the backstory #like why did she go numb shannon? shannon? #maybe im looking to deep into it but #maybe im also just fucking sick of male characters getting the attention all the time #lmao sorry guys </3 guess this kinda turned into a vent post #my bad #kotlc

[funnywormz]

one thing about me is that whenever a series introduces a species of alien/monster etc and is like "these guys are all evil. every single one. completely irredeemable. they love killing and destruction and they have no function in the narrative outside of being awful and hurting people. they're all the same and none of them have the capacity to be good." i will always turn around and be like "but what if there was a nice and friendly one"

#this post is about the gorn #gorn #star trek #the chestburster thing is a little hard to get past but im sure they can find a way around that #i refuse to believe theyre all just scary monsters who love killing and that's it #those things are WARP CAPABLE!!!! they've gotta have gorn scientists and everything to do that #they have to have more going on #love snw but the decision to make the gorn one dimensional bad guys after their depiction in tos #is like. :/ #those lizards can be my friends. i know it #(<- words of a guy minutes before his jugular gets ripped out lol) #(but still. not a big fan of entire races and species being depicted as evil bc That's Just How They Are) #(i think star trek is too much of an optimistic and thoughtful series to have species like that but so far snw is proving me wrong on that) #(gotta just wait for whenever s3 drops ig)

[alolanrain]

After the SM series, imagine Kukui and Burnet's colleagues decided to visit them.

One of them asked "Hey, Kukui. Where's that Rockruff that you've been taking care of?"

Imagine everyone's surprise when they found out that the Rockruff not only finally evolved, but also in a new (and unexpected) evolutionary form.

i have like one or two posts talking about this subject, made like month's ago or of either more or less time, but I've never really fully describe why these scientists should go buck shit feral over Ash's lycanroc.

it's a whole new form and that's not on top of the fact that 1) tapu Lele was there along with Kahuna Olivia 2) it happened during/after a green flash 3) the other two original forms of lycanroc were there and they tried to save Rockruff from Tapu Lele from beating its ass 4) KUKUI WAS FUCKING THERE

they are salivating and growling asking why the hell he didn't bring the Lycanroc to the shared lab space near hau'oli City. only for Kukui to confess that he'd rather have all his body parts in tact, thank you very much. their all confused on why Kukui would think such a thing before the Professor points to where Ash had been sitting. in clear view and who has seen everything.

he's reclined back in the chair/sofa (depending on where you want to imagine him placed around the shack) with said mention Lycanroc sitting between his legs, tail slightly hitting the ground because Ash is carding his hand through the Pokémon's fur. Litten halfway chilling on the chair with his upper half loafed on Ash's leg, eyes calculating and cold despite being a fire type as it traced each humans face over and over again. Pikachu-ever the right hand 'mon-was balanced perfectly on Ash's shoulder that was opposite of Litten, his own eyes pinned to Kukui and nothing but Kukui like he was waiting for the man to make a move. Rowlets just fucking knocked out on top of Ash's head like normal.

though none of this takes away the absolute rage in Ash's eyes. head gently tilting back as a controlled nod of hello without dislodging the Pokémon on top of him. face screaming Find Out and daring the scientist to Fuck Around.

#ash ketchum #professor kukui #lycanroc #rowlet #litten #pikachu #LISTEN #IM ON THE FLOOR BEGGING FOR A FIC #Ash and Pikachu love science and thinsk it's very cool-obvs because of his appreciation towards Clemont and Soph-but they KNOW #they know that scientists can be bad and harmfull and they don't know them unlike Kukui and yeah they trust the professor #but just.... all the times a scientists has fucked up or gone after ash-IM LOOKING AT YOU COLRESS-it ends so badly

[wantbytaemin]

got the EGO BOOST of the century im still reeling

#this prof who we’re writing a project with but im only like one of the researches on it im not a lead or anything bc im a junior still #formally at least. but they still asked me to go over it and i did but only partially bc i just don’t have the time rn #and this guy called me to tell me he was blown away by how good i was and asked me like 5 times if i could please find the time to go over #the rest bc i ‘write like a senior scientist’ and they have a character limit for the application so he deleted some of his own stuff to #add mine in HEHEE he was like you are outstanding can you please find the time to help us #a dude who’s a member of a bunch of boards and the head of a hospital department etc etc #he was like people like you are very rare LMAOOOO GOD esp after what i had to go through last week this is sooooo so nice to hear #like i Know all this actually but it’s just nice to hear sometimes 🥲

[august--and-everything-after]

I can't prove it, but I'm certain I was picked for the layoff because this one time at a department meeting I asked the director some clarifying questions about what she was telling us to do and she made a complete ass of herself by immediately getting heated and raising her voice and trying her best to shut me down (didn't work, asked her more questions, made her even angrier).

It wasn't my intention to piss her off - all my coworkers attested after that I was polite and professional and reasonable in all my questions. Too bad for me she has a fragile ego and a Napoleon complex and a complete inability to engage professionally with anything less than unquestioning compliance.

On the upside, now the whole department knows how she's like, and they thought it was funny to boot. Not my fault she's a lil pissbaby, you'd think someone in her position would have a thicker skin by now.

#i was gonna be looking for new work anyways but the layoff was a huge shock since literally everyone else ive ever interacted with at my job #likes me and knows im an amazing employee #but its also such a slap in the face after all the tons and tons of work ive done for them #ive been in like 4 departments in the nearly 3 years i worked there - volunteering to go wherever they needed people mind you - everyone was #unhappy letting me leave their department for another #plus i helped one of the research scientists on MULTIPLE projects that he explicitly requested me for #its their loss and the people who actually KNOW me are fully aware of that #but i can do so much better for myself cause this organization doesnt value its employees even a little and theyve demonstrated that to us #repeatedly #oh well - c'est la fucking vie i suppose

[sidesteppostinghours]

4 + 5 + 8 + 40 + 34 and I) G) F) for Cyrus Becker my beloved 🧡

afternoon idle!! oh my god questions galore *cracks knuckles* cyrus get your ass over here youre up

4. How easy is it to earn their trust?

Very difficult, and at the same time easier than youd think. he definitely doesnt entertain everybody, but hes not unreasonable. hell hear you out if you give him enough reason to (or if he thinks its beneficial to get to know you. do you see why he gets attached to people hes supposed to be manipulating so often). ortega and mortum required him to establish a relationship, which is how they got so close to eachother so quickly. herald got by because cyrus thought hed be a useful contact in the rangers. chen couldve earned his trust a long time ago, they had to work with eachother a lot back when he still ran with the rangers, but chen squandered it on his suspicions and its been too long for cyrus to have any interest in patching up their relationship. argent has largely flown under his radar, she hasnt piqued his interest more than the passing curiosity of why she wanted the regenerator.

5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

the default is mistrust. sorry yall, hes not taking any more chances than necessary. hes a telepath, he knows all too well what secrets other people hide, and hes not interested in giving people a chance to prove his suspicions wrong. but after hes grown to trust somebody? its... embarrassing how difficult it is to lose it. even though his trust is much shakier nowadays, you still need to have fucked up Majorly to get him back to mistrusting you. if you somehow manage to do that,,, uhhhh. what do you want on your tombstone? (ig its technically its possible to not die and even earn that trust back??? ortega managed, but thats ortega and hes statistically more likely to kill you or ruin your life. depends on how badly you fucked up. id say theres a good 5% chance youll survive the experience without the need for intense psychotherapy)

8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child

listen. follow orders. be exactly who we need you to be. cyrus was a deeply rebellious regene, but he wasnt stupid about it. hed go against the mission in secret, and just enough that nobody wouldve been able to trace any problems back to him. that doesnt mean he was never caught, but he was too competent of a regene to be scrapped, which saved him multiple times before. those few times did cause handlers to keep a closer eye on him though, just in case. handlers would usually keep a harder grip on cyrus, hold him to stricter standards. it contributed a lot to his own self talk. SPEAKING OF WHICH:

40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?

you must imagine me holding him and looking lovingly into his eyes while i dump a gallon of insecurity and perfectionism on him. hes a proud man, he thinks hes better than what other people are capable of, but that arguably makes things worse when he does make a mistake. he of all people shouldnt be like this. add the puppetmaster scar on him and its a hefty load of 'i need to make sure every single step of my plan goes exactly right Or Else." the worst thing about him is that a lot of the petty flaws he thinks apply to him arent correct. AND HE CANT EVEN NAME HIS ACTUAL FLAWS. cyrus you are so smart and walking around with zero self awareness, its the best. please consider stepping into acid.

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? 

hohohohoho. well. the first step is to get him to feel guilty in the first place. traditionally immoral actions arent going to get to him, obviously. the thing that springs up guilt for him most often is themmys death. he has. a Lot of survivors guilt about that. especially because hes convinced himself he couldve done something and *gestures to the ask above*. guilt will haunt him for life if it doesnt get resolved in a healthy way, but hes gotten good at burying his emotions a long time ago. even when he feels like that, he reserves a specific time to think about it, otherwise itll impede on his plans in the long run. that designated time is. usually when hes supposed to be sleeping. his sleep schedule is just a little bit messed.

I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?

oh dude i Love putting cyrus in aus. its so fun to poke him with a stick and see what happens. the first one i put him in was a band au, it helped me figure out how he would interact with herald. basically cyrus was a masked guitarist (for backstory reasons) for a band daniel happened to be a fan of, except the two of them managed to meet at just regular old work, with cyrus not realizing daniel was a fan and daniel not realizing cyrus was from one of his favourite bands. it led to fun, mlb-esque shenanigans between the two lmfao. the second one i put him in was the becker siblings au, which i still have thoughts and emotionsTM about. that au let me indulge in the 'cyrus is an older sibling' headcanon and i will forever be in debt to it for the amount of protective cyrus i got. third and current au im obsessing over is a 'cyrus survives hb' scenario, where ortega managed to stop him before he jumped out the window. i am getting! so much ortega x cyrus content out of that au! and so much survivors guilt cyrus. cyrus 'using' ortega to forget about heartbreak my beloveddddd. he also says 'i love you' to ortega in this au and canon ortega is SO jealous. also x2, hes an alcohol vice step in this au. heartbreak hit hard and the tequila hits different.

aaaand i still like his canon version better. its just so very much him. out of every step ive got, hes the one i get to stay closest to how i envision based on the choices the game offers. plus he caught me completely by surprise suckerpunching me with an obsession over him and i cant Not respect that.

G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

not sure whether this means on a character creation level or as a person, but ill answer for 'as a person' because im overall pretty satisfied with how he turned out! but like. god what is there to not be bothered about. my manipulative little shit of a son. ig the trait that frustrates me the most is his self destructive tendencies. like. Sir. are you at all aware of the fact that people care for you and want you safe? and that you can respond to that concern with something other than "i can use this", "sucks to be them", or, "no theyre not"? sir. sir answer the question. hes so empathetic and also literally a telepath but somehow cant compute genuine concern at him. as frustrating as it is though, i cannot deny that it is deeply funny to watch him fumble so badly.

F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?

normal. the ones where people look at me and think "wow, that is a person who is having (a) regular thought(s) about their character! very cool!" you will never see a person who is more normal about their guy than i am (i am grabbing him by the teeth and shaking him like a dog with a very strong kill instinct).

truly though, thinking of him gets me buzzing. hes like a puzzle, i keep breaking him apart and putting him back together again to see how everything works. i have this thing where ill often think about showing character analysis to the characters themeselves, just to see how they would react, and i undeniably do this the most with cyrus. i want to explain step by step (hah) why he is the way that he is now, like the whole timeline is plotted inside my head and its so!!!!! i am!!!!! chewing on him!!!!!

questions from here!

#herald is a lucky bastard #he messed up twice in a row (asking cyrus about his sidestep days+picking him up without consent) but asking for help training saved him #cyrus was straight up being sadistic about it he just wanted to fw herald after those two times and saw training as an opportunity #it wasnt supposed to lead somewhere #anathema vision wouldve fucked him and his guilty ass Up. good thing cyrus is a bastard and abandoned argentine before they crashed 🫶 #and because i have an excuse to talk about them again heres some things that ive been thinking about lately: #1. it is So fucking funny to me that all three of them are trans afabs in some way #scientists at the farm in charge of the becker sibling batch: wow look at these three new girl regenes! #cyrus (trans man)/fawn (nb)/river (trans man): . well- #2. brother-madds buckley. just the whole thing. im going to start screaming and punching the floor here #3. WHO WAS THE HG SIBLING THE ORTEGAS SAW IN THE PHOTO. was it just somebody that looked enough like the three to assume it was a sibling #or did it happen to look exactly like one of the siblings. or did they find three photos with siblings that looked like each? I NEED ANSWER #cyrus' is very emotionally intelligent towards everybody but himself #when it comes to himself hes wearing a blindfold and earplugs and pretending nothings wrong #the whole time i was answering that last ask i was thinking about my post talking about how many posts of his were in my queue #god bless that man he never leaves my brain #thank you again for the ask idle :DD #cyrus becker #sidestep #fhr #pulp answers #ask game

[pierog]

so i applied for a DREAM JOB and out of 6000 applicants!!! I ended up in the final 15 😟

…and I did SOOOOO soooooo well til the very last round 😔 i accidentally became privy to some scathing information from the judging panel. ouuuuuuuchhhh lol my insecurities.

proud of myself for being true to myself and getting far as i did, though.

#also i got covid so feeling a bit self pitying at the moment #i honestly have massive beef with their criticisms #i left this country when i was 5 and have ended up with a lot of cultural differences #sorry English ppl reading this but i feel like the UK is very caught up on appearances. for example: #it’s an outdoorsy job and the panel were unimpressed i didn’t come in my hiking boots + wet weather gear #umm…. yeah because we are SITTING INSIDE ON A SUMMER’S DAY??? #it felt like posing to me? i grew up in rural NZ so I’ve spent majority of my life in the bush #PS most of the hiking boots i did see were obviously pristine and never taken on an actual hike 🙄 #yes i own that stuff. no im not gonna wear it just to prove a point. i wore jeans and the same shoes ive been wearing while hiking across #europe these last 2 months. #also the NZ wilderness is so much more rugged like these hikes in UK/europe would barely count as a casual day walk to me #so our standards are very different #and we both left feeling quite unimpressed with each other I think #i’ll provide one more rant: one of the exercises involved wiring up a plug. i did it successfully but failed cos I didn’t plug it in after #well um. my mama is a scientist and taught me not to fuck with electricity unless i’m 100% sure #yes I did all the wiring right but it was still my first time so I’m being cautious. apparently that’s a bad thing 🤷‍♀️ #enough rants from me but basically yeah lots of little things like that which I disagree with

[simcardiac-arrested]

NO WAIT I JUST REALIZED HOW AM I GOING TO FINISH THE SCIENTIST SERIES AND THAT ONE ACE ATTORNEY FANFIC THAT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD THAT I MADE IT IN MY ONLY PUBLIC AO3 BOOKMARK

#NO. FALLS OVER #WHEN IS MY MOM COMING HOME I NEED TO ASK WHAT VPN SHE USES #PLEASE #PLEASE PL #PLEASE PLEASE #actually i don’t know when i’ll finish the scientist series #considering it ended recently and i’ve been following it for like 4 years #and i dont know if i can handle finishing it after all that. can i handle Knowing #does anyone even know what the fuck im talking about rn #the scientist undertale. in which sans undertale gets put through 500000 meatgrinders by wd gaster #it’s my favorite fanfic series ever. if anyone even cares 😒😒… #okay enough being autistic over fanfiction in tags i need to. pace around the house #crammerposting

[jekylleds]

i can';t get over this its so funny why is this literally drawn like a panel in a yaoi manga like bro come on

#im sorry this has been my only source of entertainment after reading and watching all the j&h content i wanted to see already #im gonna start tagging this stuff since it may be of annoyance to others #future ass scientist posts will be tagged with tas #like this #tas

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#oof. it as been a very very long day. so much talking. all day talking and interviews #and so far my feelings are mixed. bc it is a smaller university and its underfunded and cost of living is kinda high #and the town is small and isolated. HOWEVER #the faculty feels like a strong community and theyre all amazing scientists who choose to b there bc the quality of life is so high #they seem extremely supportive and the fact its small means that i could probably get around better given my intense anxiety around driving #and i could literally just walk to hiking paths rather than having to drive way out. and its fucking so beautiful. the clouds r gorgeous #bc theyre all conpressed by the mountains around this lil valley. also the potential advisor seems amazing. the grad students have good #things to say and hes excited that im interested in the things im interested in. and i talked to an astrobiology guy and he was like u #should apply for X grant and i would b happy to help u and the advisor is a former nasa post doc so he has nasa astrobiology connections. #so those r some pretty great things. i mean. of the schools im looking at this one would prob be the best for my brain tbh #i mean the uk one is too rigid in structure and i cant fuck around so much as at a us school. and the east coast on is hard to say no to bc #its a good school with lots of funding and opportunities to b creative but i would have to hard core get my shit together and hes quite #hands off. and id b living in the city which sucks. so like. i mean this school is kinda looking like the best choice for me. definitely #the healthiest. i mean assuming i dont fuck it up and get the offer after this weekend. but yeah. i mean im not fully in love i think #and the idea of commiting to 5years here is terrifying but id get a lot of support that i dont think ive really ever had. not that my #current boss isnt great but our lab is kinda disconnected. and i really fit in perspective wise in my interests. and id get to work at #[redacted] national park. which is so cool that i might have to unredact it if i end up here bc its so fucking next level #not that the national park i have access to now isnt awesome but. like its next level awesome and i could maybe wiggle may way into maybe #some arctic systems and i bet i could get my current boss to send me desert samples. so yeah i could def see a life here #but fuck i dont want roomates with all my heart. y does it have to b so expensive for a trash apartment? bleh #god. im so tried. so much talking. but a good day. and im going skiing tomorrow bc like thats a thing here lol #unrelated

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just realized that my chuuyatober short stories keep having lab themes. first it was alluding to experimentation, then the second one has him in a lab in the aftermath of canon events for whatever reason, and this one that im already working on in order to get ahead has him straight up in a lab after slaughtering most of the scientists in charge of dealing with him

#dream discusses bsd 🖋️ #dream's textposts🖋️ #for context it's sorta like a swap au where verlaine gets a better fate and was never an artificial human to begin with #and chuuya gets the short end of the stick and has to basically serve as an attack dog for these scientists after they made him #obviously he gets tired of it and takes things into his own hands once someone neglects to take measures to keep him under their control #that's all the spoilers im giving