#im just super fucking tired

[do-rey-me]

if murderbot learned what autism was i truly believe itd go "wow humans are so ridiculous they cant even agree on their own stupid human social rules" and then never think about that or its possible relation to its own behaviors ever again

#mensah: secunit here are some accessibility drones so u can interact with the world more comfortably #mb: its super impressive how she can make up reasons to get around the 'no drones allowed rules' just so she can bribe me #ratthi has his head in his hands. like deities send me strength i cannot fucking deal with this #tmbd #mbd #murderbot diaries #i dunno the tags man. i also do not know if its even funny anymore #im so tired #lost track of my life and didnt realize i ran out of sleep meds haha. fuuck #tomorrows gonna fucking suck balls #my posts

[giftedpoison]

Its the fact that I'm literally taking a full pill of Zoloft now and i swear my depression, ever since starting it, has been worse not better.

I just wish i could find one reason to live. Just one.

I even tried leaving the house. Tried doing something.

And nothing.

#I'm not gonna kms or anything #im just super fucking tired #of having no hope

[muppetbyers]

it just feels like the duffers think that the height of non-conformity is being a nerd

#like fuck poc fuck queer people fuck neurodivergent ppl you know who has it real rough? gamers #okay that was a joke but its so telling that they just… dont get the issues they’re trying to tackle #its the way lucas had basically no character development until s4 and even that was framed super weirdly #and how eddie ‘the freak’ just ends up dying anyways despite it all #and erica gets absolutely nothing apart from tired stereotypes #and just… everything about how they treated robin and will in terms of their queerness #yeah… we get the message #i’ll stop posting about vol2 now ive been here all day. #also im very mad rn so ignore me if this is like an insane overraction #mine

[mueritos]

its my bday today so heres a new meet the artist :3

#muertodraws #finished my first day of grad school #i would have enjoyed it more if this fuck ass heat wave wasnt happening #but it wasnt too bad im excited to get to workin #also this mta is the first one where i felt like i didnt have to try hard #im allowing myself to exist as i am #and it feels nice #that includes the questioning of autism #aka i am probably autistic #i just struggle with gaslighting myself #but im learnig that autistic coping skills really work for me #like stimming and paying attention to my sensory and social needs #so that has been interesting #anyway #i am super tired but kind of hopeful :) #so thats nice #trans artist #queer artist #meet the artist

[ganondoodle]

serious question, are there ANY (wired) headsets made today anymore that have seperated plugs for audio and microphone??

usb ones always cause trouble and the only other ones i can find are those with combined audio+mic into one plug, which i dont have the ports on my PC for.............

i tried looking through adapters but the only ones i can find are those that combine seperate ones, id need the reverse (if thats even possible)

(visualization bc i feel like i am losing my sanity trying to explain what i mean, am i stupid? did i halluzinate the two jack/plug thing???? do only cheap garbage ones have this??? is that one of the gaming chair things??? like oh you want a GAMING headset- that means either combined or usb haHA???)

#ganondoodles talks #personal #issue being that the new headset i bought is usb only and- of course- has a background noise that probably only ppl like me hear #im super sensitive to sound #like i hear bats and dog whistles you arent meant to hear #old headset (not the broken one) has a slight static and trouble with very silent sound which it cuts out #hence i got the newer ones (the now broken one) which didnt have that problem but well .. it broke after little use #new one has a weird beeping chirping in the bg #im so tired #(new one is the razer kraken v3- its usb only and any other plugs they have for other models are the damned combined one) #my computer isnt even that old but i literally cant find a single headset with those plugs seperated when i dont have that port #will i ever find a headset that fucking works with no drawbacks???? #(wireless isnt an option bc i hate wireless anything that isnt a controller you can also use wired) #i know it may sound like its not working right but i am 100% certain its one only people like me can even hear #also i got no nerves to try and send anything back to amazon ... for once i bought it there.... #or am i just stupid or did i miss some shit that made it standard to just call it differently or sth #like my pc has an audio port at the front and a mic port- two ports #the plugs (jacks???????) i see are the ones that have it in ONE #and i dont have it

[moeblob]

Karen has four older brothers and this is Ross! He's the second oldest and he looks rather polite and smiles a lot and when he's at work he can behave most of the time... but he really has such a foul mouth it puts Right to shame.

And Karen when she was a kid couldn't pronounce S's and they sounded like Z's. So when her brothers would be leaving for school she would say "enjoy zool" and just. Could NEVER say Ross's name correctly so he told her to just call him Oz. And it stuck but only with Karen. She's the only one to use it and no one else is allowed.

#my characters #also fun fact she has decided to legally rename him for when shes mad at him #so instead of yelling his full proper name #she will yell OSWALD THOMAS WILSON which is the fake first name but actual middle/last #and its just thats a guy that she wouldnt want to admit to knowing if she saw him in public #hes actually p short so yeah hes a short king #the oldest bro and the second youngest are both taller #the middle middle is basically the same height as him so karen really is just the wittle bab #and all her brothers are super protective of her bc thats their baby sister #she does however have a strong sense of I GOTTA PROTECT THE MIDDLE GUY #so she is kinda used to standing up for older guys just bc of he #but it comes into being a problem when she meets rick and is like fuck it he may be older but #he is too kinda for this world and also theres no way i can love him hes basically a baby brother #and she will pick on him but also would absolutely throw hands for him #and and i know the tags are long as is but eventually karen and rick move past the whole youre like a brother vibe #and they become very good friends - still zero romance involved - but she starts to treat him less like a family member #and it makes him feel less awkward and in turn he feels more open to joke sometimes #cause for a long while rick is just this is really awkward and i wish we would stop matching on dating apps but she wont leave me alone #so its rude to turn her down when she offers a friendly drink to check up on me #but its actually karen being protective older sister mode despite being the youngest of five #this is the most i have managed to draw in like two weeks i think #now im super tired bye

[craycraybluejay]

its rly fascinating that when i want to talk about a specific brand of transphobia im an asshole for not phrasing it like a PR team.

but when baeddels are actively transphobic its "just talking about the transmisogyny they face" and its actually just fine that they use slurs meant to degrade and misgender to refer to trans men + use porn terms to talk about us despite saying that using porn terms to talk about them is transphobic and evil + oh they didn't mean it like that.

if i try to talk about transphobia its immediately "piss on the poor website" where every word is under criticism. but on the opposite end even using slurs or being openly transphobic earns some cheers and, well, rare opposition.

i didn't even tag my post with common searchable tags,, y'all just want to be mad because it's a lot more comfortable to see trans men under attack.

if you criticize a few trans women for transphobic behaviour that makes You transphobic for criticizing them. if they call you slurs and other above mentioned things they are not transphobic bc ofc its impossible to be transphobic to trans men.

#i legit dont know any of these people #yet they want to tone police a random fucking post i made after seeing something super fucked up #it is so frustrating #i literally have not seen this happen on any of the wildly transphobic towards trans men posts #like it genuinely boggles my mind that #they can use 'theyfab' as a slur but if i tried something like 'theymab' or 'dickgirl' i'd be covered in angry internet mob for weeks #why? because even people who aren't being blatantly transandrophobic just don't care about transmasc people #because it's not fashionable to care and it won't give you internet virtue points #i know a trans woman who's seen shit in baeddel spaces and talked about it. i know what i am talking about #honestly? she probably knows more than i do. and the things ive heard are dismal #im fucking tired of transmasc and trans men issues being treated as trivial and unimportant #and transfem and trans women issues being treated as most important to the point that No One Is Nearly As Oppressed Or Matters

[anxiously-sidequesting]

So I don't know if it was ever revealed how Duncan felt when we killed Malistaire all three times but I'm wondering if maybe some part of him could hate us for that too. Like you hear that and you go "but why. Malistaire was terrible and even Duncan knew that(?). Why would he hate you for getting rid of him."

But like I think it's so....... interesting in a very, very, very sad way how Duncan so easily latches onto anyone who directly feeds into his delusions of grandeur. And that's no fault of his own that he was manipulated by the nasty Schism but when you think about how desperately clung to the idea that Malistaire, easily one of the greatest necromancers any of us had ever heard of (at that time), somehow actually recognized Duncan's talents (even when canon supports that Duncan wasn't all that talented, at least no more than the next necromancer) and then praised him for it so often that Duncan believed that he would be the next Death Professor is. I mean ☹️

So like with that mindset I unfortunately feel like it would be quite easy to twist even Malistaire's death as something that's horrible and awful and all our fault. ESPECIALLY if the Schism was feeding into Duncan's already broken mind and shattered ego and was constantly telling him that everything bad that ever happened to him ever in his life was Our Fault. That's like a realistic conclusion that someone like Duncan could come to

And like, at this point in time, are Malistaire's crimes even a factor in how he thinks????? Was Duncan ever able to separate Malistaire's talent and skills and prowess from the terrible and awful things he did? If Duncan wasn't able to consciously tell that distinction in the first place I can't imagine it would be any better during the years he was being manipulated and isolated and lied to

Like in Duncan's mind it probably isn't, "maybe I shouldn't idolize a national criminal, or idolize anyone at all for that matter, and aspire to be like someone so harmful when I can recognize my own talent and build from there" it's probably more like, "you (the wizard) permanently got rid of a brilliant mind, an innocent person who just made a few mistakes, and someone who believed in me no matter what just so that you could be the better than me and loved by everyone else" and that's! very sad actually!

#this is all speculation btw idk if any of this is canon. how duncan feels about all this #i know i keep saying the exact same shit over and over but.... really not a fan of how the game handled duncan! sorry! #i know wizard101 isnt supposed to be about every single character gets a satisfying ending to their arc- #-meaning not everyone in the story will face consequences and/or find a happy ending and like thats fine they dont need to #but idkkkk its just imo really sad how essentially a kid suffers frrom something he cant control by himself (his ego)- #and then instead of getting help he is instead ignored (ambrose) and then manipulated and brought up by a cult #and then when it becomes super apparent how... TERRIBLE his life really is and we defeat him he just... goes back?????? #we.... we LET him go back???? i mean we're not responsible for other people's bad decisions or mental health but bro.... #and then when we tell ambrose he's just like “oh. too bad. well anyways-” AND IM LIKE WELL THATS THE REASON!!!!! NO WONDER HE'S FUCKED UP #NONE OF THIS IS ADDRESSED. NONE OF IT. WE KICK DUNCAN'S ASS AND THEN HE.... GOES BACK TO THE CABAL #i literally just got so desolate when (wallaru spoilers) because. okay. all that for nothing i guess #this isnt me being mad btw LMAO i know the tone probably reads as angry but im not im just disappointed #and tired. what is it with wizard101 in particular and just people suffering with no end. (me as i make my main suffer with no end) #but anyways yeah duncan has been in my head for a while. he's one of the guys that i love a lot BDKSNSKAJ #he's like a son to me and HE NEEDS A HEALTHY PARENT. HE NEEDS IT #not excusing his actions btw. he still committed crimes JRKDJSIEJ #i just have a soft spot for those villains in media who are doomed from the start yknow. (stares tearfully at morganthe and gf spider) #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #duncan grimwater #im not normal about duncan at all he's probably the wozard oc i feel for the most other than malorn and us

[hereforthecartoons]

Satellite Boys Headcannons

Yusei is a he/they bi, Crow is a transmasc gay/asexual, and Jack is a very loud straight ally.

Aki and Carly and super into horror movies, which really sucks for Jack and Yusei who are really not into horror movies. Yusei can handle most gore, but psychological horrors really mess with him. Jack can't handle gore beyond a stab wound, but he doesn't really mind psychological horrors because he's just like 'nah im just built different (dumber)'

Crow is very superstitious, much like Martha. Knocking on wood, being wary of the number 13, throwing salt over your shoulder (though that one is kinda justified considering spirits are like a real thing in ygo) are all stuff he does on the regular

Crow is the only person in the house who can cook. Yusei has never touched an oven in his life because he's spent half of it forgetting to eat, and Jack is... Jack.

In between the three of them, Jack has caused the most property damage. This is very impressive considering Yusei likes to kick down every door he can't open, regardless of the situation. He can lock pick, he just decides not to most of the time. Crow is usually more sneaky when trying to get into places he's not supposed/allowed to, though he's not above shattering a few windows for fun. Jack just likes blowing stuff up.

Neither Jack or Yusei have gotten their ears pierced (Jack wears clip-ons), because Crow has told them horror stories of what happened when he got his ears pierced in prison and how horribly infected they got (he told them this with a bright smile because he thought itd impress them and has yet to realize the mental ramifications it has had on his family)

Hogan is Martha's last name.

Jack has the most refined fighting style, mainly sticking to hard-hitting punches that can knock you out in one blow. Yusei's is more of a freestyle, mixing both fast punches and kicks to knock someone down as quickly as possible. Crow fights like a kindergartner, with biting, hair-pulling, spitting in your eye being some of his go-to tactics. Crow has nearly bitten off someone's finger before, and is not afraid to do it again.

Crow has only ever served his full jail sentence once. Every other time he's broken out.

All three of them participate in the twin's school activities in some way. Crow and Yusei usually go to the PTA meetings, and Jack usually goes to things like sporting events because he is too competitive for his own good and nobody can stop him.

#yugioh #ygo #ygo 5ds #yugioh 5ds #yusei fudo #jack atlas #crow hogan #aki izayoi #carly nagisa #faithshipping #scoopshipping #crow: haha yeah so anyways then this weird white stuff started coming out of the piercing and it kinda started hurting but i was fine #yusei and jack: what the actual fuck. #crow probably has like amazing prison stories of him just fucking over guards in the smallest ways that hes super proud of #im calling them the satellite boys cuz i dont wanna use their ship name since these are strictly platonic hcs #we need more platonic group names #none of these three are law-abiding and im tired of pretending they are #can you tell crows my favorite #aki loves horror movies change my mind

[ceasarslegion]

Also gonna be real

The moment you spread a harassment post about someone with their whole url attached for the express purpose of bullying them behind their back you have already lost all respectability. Like if you cant even handle someone disagreeing with you online without attacking them in a way that they cant defend themselves against then i do not want you running the fucking government

Its amazing how many of people on this webbed site will genuinely say that they should run things when they cant even handle the "i dont agree with your tweet" level of dissent without telling the other person to kill themselves.

But sure, you wouldnt be a dictator. You are personally above how much power corrupts, internet user

#some thoughts #im just like. so tired of being harassed and cyberbullied for having the super terrible opinion of 'tyranny is bad no matter whos the tyrant #can i get left the fuck alone

[bloody-shadow666]

Hi everyone I'm finally fully caught up judt in time for tonight's (?) fucking episode so.

Adaine's Furious Fists on Oision yeah? This motherfucker? Like forget everyone else he specifically is the problem in this moment methinks

#fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #when i made the connection netween the aviation kid saying the cloud rider could lift fabians house and mazey #suggesting the polls be at fabians house. i almost puked #i. binged MOST of this Today #i started this morning with Baron and I got to just absorb all of the rest of the everything at once #got to see every legendary giffable scene in one day. honor the cock on god almost killed me #i am so tired now. im going to bed. she needs to punch him to death. and maybe shoot him about it also #SIDE BAR? #how FUCKING closely have these weirdos been stalking the bad kids. because the storm comment was obviously like.. very pointed mocking? #but i dont think she actually said that anywhere in a super public place did she? #yeesh

[reliand]

#fandom #im just so tired #I think this is the first time I've seen someone being mean about how others write characters in this fandom #And it immediately made me feel protective of all the writers that put so much passion into what they create #And it sucks to see someone else being mad that it's not exactly to their taste. #Look i came from some fucking shit fandoms before coming back to this one after a decade hiatus #And i don't like to see people's work being torn down #It's hurtful and rude #This fandom is super diverse with so many headcanons and stories to tell #Not everything is going to be to your taste #And that's fine #Write what you want to see or get more aggressive with your filters

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#oh lads. its not looking good for my genomics exam on Thursday. its all fucked #i dunno. its just been a weird day. bc one of my lab mates is getting ready to go to the astr0biology science conference #and its just so wild how i got here. into the perfect position. i have a great advisor. a great phd project. a committee member who is super #integrated with n4sa astr0biology projects. and so many of the instructors are amazing. my genomics prof is terrifyingly smart #so is my advisor and his wife. and the program is great. ecology and Evolution. its perfect. its all perfect #and yet. and yet. it just feels like its all falling apart. ive lost that compulsive thing thats always set in my chest #and now all i want to do is lay on the floor and cry and sleep and not do anything. why am i so tired? #its just so frustrating. and im sure ive got the most wretched vibes bc im constantly like 1 comment away from bursting into tears #like 2 weeks and its done. then im off to find a summer job. and find a long term job. and consider throwing away everything ive ever worked #toward. just let it all burn. im so tired. and i dont get to see my therapist until Monday. thats gonna b fun #hi. hello. since last i saw you my life has crumbled into pieces. ugh. i just dont wanna fail this genomics exam but it looks like that's #where we're headed. maybe i should have just dipped out of these last 3 weeks. but no. i didnt want to leave the lady i ta for 100 lab #reports to unexpectedly have to grade 4 days before grades are due. ugh. itll b fine. i mean it wont but whatever #unrelated

[onetwothree]

I DIDDNT KNOW YOU LIKE POKESPE??? CAN YOU DO WHITE/PREZ IN ORANGE :3

YESSS i miss her and black so much 😭

#i love her so fucking much...... #agency was so cute too it was just #so soft and i don't understand why people say it's forced or whatever #i think some people say that just bc its a straight ship #but as a bisexual i think it's unfair #anyway #THANKYOUUU #i hope you like it im super tired today so admittedly it's not my best #but i really want to finish every request before artfight :3 #pokespe #white #mew.jpg #askmew #trainerbea

[pinnithin]

im really proud of myself for being soooo calm and professional when my new supervisor belittled me even though i wanted to quit on the spot today

#pin talks #my training kicked in it was super weird #i was just transported back to basic and instinct took over and i just corrected the mistake with a yes sir and moved on #ordinarily i start crying when people talk to me like that #so the fact that i was able to just go back to work + tell him later hey :) dont fucking talk to me like that or im quitting :) #progress #still wasnt cool though like really ruined what would have been a pretty good day otherwise #im so tired

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

crippling anxiety hours let's go

#a biscuit's rambles #theres a presentation due tomorrow we did Not prepare #and my partner is super anxious and the type to Need Perfect Grades #and she had a question and tried to call me several times and i saw too late and texted i was here now but then stupid whatsapp didnt tell #me when she called again so now i feel horrible #and honestly this presentation can go fuck itself i literally could not care less #im trying to do at least the tiniest minimum of Something for my friend but gosh. i do Not want to #just can't bloody get myself to do anything #doesn't help that i Know shell handle it because. she cant not without getting Way Too Stressed Out #i dont wanna leave her hanging with all the work like that but gosh im so tired #i just. cant. idk #on the bright side i did listen to a couple more tma episodes so thats something i suppose that was fun #........... i really need to do less stuff #i dont have a single free weekend for all of april and the beginning of may #goodbye emotional stability it was so nice to have known you even if for just a short while