#im just a vessel really

[pinespittinink]

Clear, for the get to know the writer asks

Clear: Do your characters control where the story goes or do you maintain control?

I've answered this before so I'll allow myself to get a little philosophical with it this time around... I think my characters control it in that the story is already laid out and they've already experienced it and I'm coming into it all secondhand and it's my job to write it down. The important thing to note is that they could have experienced it a million different ways and I have to be the one to figure out what the cohesion is in the version I'm telling, so I do have a sense of direction, even if it comes around later.

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#hope this makes sense #im just a vessel really #i'm the one driving the car but i didn't create the directions #im just seeing them on the road #faelanvance #asks

[dykealloy]

it's a good episode.

#big mom fight is just a thinly veiled vessel for kidlaw propaganda #1066 #every time i read kidlaw fics that were posted like 2019 or prior im like god. they must have loved this. i really hope they loved this. #must be a rare breed but please let me know if you wrote kidlaw all the way back in sabaody archipelago days #and whether or not you enjoyed wano arc or not. it will make my day #kidlaw #one piece #op #trafalgar law #eustass kidd #eustass kid #wano arc

[polteergeistt]

Venting in my journal writing in "I" : no. Ain't no way. My life is too perfect for this. This can't be. I can't complain when everybody has it worse.

Projecting onto Vessel : that boy is suffering. He is plagued by the torments that come with being born a sentient being in a world that was built for evil. Everything is wrong and he deserves better.

#he really is a vessel huh #this post has been rotting in my drafts for a while #im good now #sleep token #sleep token vessel #tw vent #vent #just in case

[moeblob]

Alright I told someone I would give propaganda for these two so here we go. As a warning, I didn't play mobile or Re-Mind soooooooo. Yeah there's that. I know they're apparently involved in past stuff but shhh.

So first off, everyone's weapon is super useful! Except theirs. Which I always thought was really funny? Even in Re:CoM Zexion's book was more direct than these two. I really enjoyed them just as the most indirect fighters? And figured they'd be pretty chill and after playing KH2 as a kid I'm like. I think Luxord would be most tolerable to music while vibing. He could play Solitaire or something while Demyx played music and possibly chatted. Therefore, my younger self was like "it's perfect".

ALSO CONSIDERING THEIR NUMBERS! And the line in KH3 during the scene where Demyx is like "yup I got benched", they've probably got a history. However, the number they get originally is supposed to be the order they joined. So with Marluxia and Larxene obviously tied together in the past, all I can think of is these two just being absolute bums wandering around pre-Organization and just hitch hiking their way into a cult. Which is also REALLY funny to me because what if they joined at the same time but Demyx got to be IX and Luxord is X.

Demyx would hold his rank over his head for the dumbest stuff (in my head canons of the past).

Like there's so many things we specifically do not know about these two so basically, until I'm proven absolutely incorrect in game (which might have happened and I just don't know) ! I think they'd be a good match.

And I mean, it's also just (gestures) LOOK AT HOW CUTE THEY ARE. Great designs and I think that's good enough for me!

#kingdom hearts #demyx #luxord #i really just looked at these losers when i played kh2 on ps2 and was like wow they should kiss #and now im many years older and i am still like wow they should kiss #also i was telling my sister i was trying to come up with propaganda doodles and im like #yeah its two guys what more would the kh fandom need ya know #and she looks at me and goes did you really just say they're two guys thats enough #and i was ??? YEAH?????? FOR KH? theres like ten girls and ten games what more do i get to work with #and she sat there listing games in the series (she hasn't played any but she watched me play 1 and 2) #and counted eight and then i listed some more and she was like ok you know what thats fair #but that said she said the funniest thing ever that i NEED to draw but its too late for tonight #so you guys will get more of them at some point #also im still amused that luxord in kh3 appears after demyx says hes benched #and proceeds to say WELL AT LEAST I WASNT BENCHED like super casually and demyx just ouch you were listening thats rude #like they're supposed to be vessels and yet they still manage to have a bicker moment over importance of roles

[vampirecatprince]

The fact that I've listened to Euclid HUNDREDS of times but it can still randomly hit just right and make me cry tho

#its such a gut punch /pos after the absolute journey of the rest of the album and its so pretty #its so optimistic despite some of the dark lyrics in it and it just resonates with me so much #it really feels like the musical equivalent of that point in recovery where you go 'FUCK IT IM GONNA AT LEAST *TRY* TO BE HAPPY' #and that's such a huge step when you've been that low and don't feel like you deserve it #it makes me so emotional bc ive been there and I know how much that step means #that song is probably the entire reason that one of our alters resurfaced as Vessel #sleep token #sleep token tmbte

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

hearing people whispering outside my door and i am going insane (the voices are real i just don't like hearing them bc i'm a traumatized chihuahua of a person)

#waiting for meds to kick in and thinking i maybe should have skipped a day for blood pressure reasons #i wanna take a shower and i cant bc we have a houseguest (nvm one i dislike immensely) #stirring up trouble #really just. it's fine to have people over and hang out and im sorry there's kind of a mess to get around bc of the construction project #i am trying to be a good and rational and reasonable person about this #but she is uh. kind of a transphobe with too much buy-in on white supremacy and cops. i am going to be uncomfortable at best. #she seems to be Trying?? but until she succeeds i am doing my best to maintain a safe distance... #idk maybe this is just a 'stay in my room and try to get some digital work done' day #need to not push it while im still adjusting to the meds. already prone to burst blood vessels...where are my headphones...

[hurglewurm]

me: keeps drawing random one-off fanarts from things that aren't currently big at all

also me: why no notes on my arte

#grateful for all of u lol #but why no notes !! lol !! i want attention i want engagement #i need to be LOVED and sharing my art is the vessel through which i ascribe my self worth... #it's like how if you have a long list of movies to watch ur still more likely to just. #watch some random movie you heard about 2 minutes ago that seems interesting. if u have spare movie time #bc it's lower pressure or smth #idk brother ! idk #im just chillin here in my cave drawing things apparently only i want to see and like maybe 5 other people #welcome to my cave #alligates says things #yo being an artist on the internet is genuinely awful. social media is not built for my delicate ass #even popular artists (i might technically be a popular artist) like i Know it sucks babe. i know #anyway 'no notes' generally in the past i could hit like. 500 ? with relative ease ? sometimes #yall i'm struggling to hit 100. why 7 reblogs and 35 likes. this is not the way #i'm a creator on the internet complaining about numbers ! not really gonna stop me tho #let's be honest whether or not i'm getting attention my ability to draw or not is contingent on. my own psychological ass. and little else #thank u for listening. it is my bedtime. goonite #if you read all these tags... idk. tell me the name of your favourite flower !

[elkkiel]

your eyes and your limbs / are instruments to pick apart / the distance within

how the FUCK did he manage to write and execute that slick ass instruments-distance slant rhyme IN THE MIDDLE OF BOTH OF THE FUCKING LINES!!!!!! FUCK YOUUUUUUUUU VESSEL WHAT THE FUCKKKK!!!!!!!!

Vessel I want to eat you I wish to consume you and absorb even just an ounce of your creative process just one bite please holy shit I am positively frothing at the fucking maw for you FUCK

#i really need to hear telomeres with higher quality headphones holy shit i understand the hype i totally get it #when this term is over im saving up for better headphones and dedicating a day to just actively listening to the trilogy #they just blow my mind the deeper i wade into their metaphorical waters #the ocean symbolism is catching up to me FUCK #sleep token #sleep token vessel #sleep token lyrics #elkk.txt

[deers-doodles]

Boy oh boy do I have some doodles for ya besties (*´▽`*)

First off we have a bit of a "what if" situation where kallamar isn't afraid of the red crown. (With and without text) and thus my silly little braincells done hatched this idea last night hue

And now for some misc Pearl Collar doodles

We got kally being stupid. Venado berating kally in spanish over how disgusting his bandages were. And them stargazing during the last few hours of a day of rest while venado tries to stay awake for kallamar's sake. (*/▽＼*)

#cult of the lamb #cotl #deersdoodles #cotl oc #shitpost #cotl lambsona #cotl kallamar #bishop kallamar #follower kallamar #cotl venado #the sillies #ive been neglecting posting my doodles on here for a minute- #i swear i have more stuff on the line- #like rn im working on my own chained kallamar au #venado is gonna be his vessel #it just works too well #even got a bit of an idea for what i wanna do going into this- #btw im still kinda really wishy-washy about kally's follower design #ill make a proper follower design for him #..eventually- #i have too many ideas but also no ideas bouncing around in my head

[thoodleoo]

if any of you are ever wondering what the fuck i'm talking about when i post about the aeneid dont worry i dont know either

#i get sort of possessed and just start Hollering #like a really shitty muse who only ever talks about aeneas #but she has a lot to say and im her only vessel

[lover-of-mine]

Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday!

I was tagged by @disasterbuckdiaz @daffi-990 @wikiangela @try-set-me-on-fire @steadfastsaturnsrings thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think the Eddie begins missing scene fic is almost at a point where I can stop writing it, but, to be honest, I don't know because they refuse to do what I want, so I'm just typing things out and hoping this thing is gonna end before I end up writing Eddie showing up at his lawyer's office lol I am having a few moments where I'm like "is this too much for the point in time they are?" but then I remember Eddie gave Buck Christopher after this and Buck was clawing at the mud trying to reach Eddie while screaming his name and I am making the executive decision that even if it is, it just means they won't talk about it, and they really don't talk about it so it's fine lol anyway, have a little bit of Eddie's disconnected thoughts after he made Buck get in the bed with him (I'm trying my hardest not to let Eddie think the word love so I keep having to backtrack his train of thought lol) prev snippet.

"It's okay, it's okay," Buck says, adjusting around in the bed for a few seconds, before turning to his side, tugging lightly on Eddie's arm, and he blindly moves again, chasing the warmth of Buck's chest. He half expected to panic, this isn't something they do, but he's too comfortable to worry. Besides, it's Buck.  Everything about him is familiar. Even if this is something they have never done before. It's just warm.  Buck is warmth. But it's not only heat.  This is… safe? Eddie doesn't know.  And he doesn't have the energy to find out. Or the presence of mind.  He's just letting the feeling wash over him as he drifts off.

No pressure tagging 🩷: @eddiebabygirldiaz @bucks118 @honestlyeddie @watchyourbuck @housewifebuck @giddyupbuck @wildlife4life and anyone else that feels like it!!

#the trauma fic verse #writing #911 wip #buddie wip #seven sentence sunday #i mean #the canon of the trauma fic is that eddie is aware of something he cant name since the well #i think im doing a good job at that but i don't know #anyway #eddie is gonna wake up to buck getting chris ready and then he's gonna realize he needs to talk to his lawyer and hopefully the fic will en #but who knows? #definitely not me #eddie does what he wants im just a vessel trying to get him to follow a script he doesn't really feel like following lol

[tai-janai]

Does the lady change? Because even if she takes the role of the narrator, she's still the shifting mound, the embodiment of change

you must be new here

princess ≠ shifting mound

#and im pretty sure thats like. semi-canon #so to answer your question. not really #she is still just a vessel and a perspective #but from your own rather than outside #stp #stp au

[polteergeistt]

im looking at the way vessel moves his hand and the way he jumps around and the way he jams when he isn't singing and that guy is STIMMING

#stimming #maybe he is nd #maybe he just likes to vibe this way #whatever the reason may be im gonna copy him #it feels really nice #sleep token vessel #sleep token #vessel #vessel sleep token

[jorisjurgen]

Realizes that Touga (the "Anthy" of Saionji) is in love with Utena, while Saionji (the "Utena" of Touga) is in love wth Anthy.

Kills self instantly.

#these allegorier allegories are truly the allegoriest huh. #rgu #revolutionary girl utena #i just want touga to get therapy and reconcile with nanami and say sorry. #and suck sloppy dick from each other with saionji if touga is comfortable with that after therapy bc like. nobody has really asked him this #like. ITS NOT TOO LATE. YOURE NOT AKIO LEVEL EVIL YET. YOU HAVE A HEART. YOUR BODY IS NOT A VESSEL TO WHICH ACTIONS ARE DONE. AAAAAAAAAAAAA #anyway i think touga and anthy and kozue and shiori should have started a witch union or whatever. i don't know #they could build the torment nexus together. #yeah im rewatching rgu again. instead of watching the rgu visual novel letsplay. im dying. man.

[potatobugz]

oh greenpath from the hollow knight ost, we're really in it now

#rambles #hollow knight #ough. yknow i think greenpath might be one of my favorite hollow knight songs #but of course im heavily biased just bc it reminds me of an oc of mine #that happens to be a wizard that is also vaguely insect like #ive only got like three of those so its not hard 2 figure out who #NO SORRY ACTUALLY I HAVE TO KEEP SEALED VESSEL IN MY #NUMBA ONE SPOT #GREENPATH I LOVE U BUT. DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DU (imagine thta hut to the tune of sealed vessel) #this turned into me just gushing about the hk ost. god its so good #but greenpath is so peaceful and sweet and whimsical and nice! #i nevee really payed attemtion to it b4 until now #its... really cute

[cherry-shipping]

a mediocre at best spidersona that came to me in a dream. and, uh. s,ome other stuff .

#cherry chats #doodle #im not gonna tag this as anything. also spot isnt an f/o not really so this isnt even techincally a selfship #like. i just wanted to visualize my innermost thoughts and my stupid spidersona was the vessel for convenience sakes #its. i dont know #ive never drawn him before adnd i doubt i ever will again. i find the results to be astoundingly mid and im fine with that. #anyway. i just wanted something to do i guess