#im in the deep end now

[atinyladybug-daydreams]

I can't believe I got into TMA because @eepy-turtl pipebombed me with fucking cunty bitch boy bastard twink ass motherfucker Elias Fucking Bouchard.

The fact that all it takes is one twink to get me into a piece of media is not something I am proud of and is being exploited repeatedly by my friends 😭😭😭

#alt rambles #i'M STILL THINKING ABOUT HIM #elias bouchard #tma #this isn't me being mad or anything/gen #im actually really happy with coming into tma because itried drawing and i straight up developed a whole ass new style (again) #im having so much fun tbh #thank you teeth and ciaran for like #fucking #offering me an scp tma au and then i got ambushed #im in the deep end now #i need to know more about elias

[naraven]

update: i didnt know orv had a novel at first but i got to about 140 of the webtoon in less than a day im GONE

#im in the deep end now #im having the time of my LIFE rn holy #wish i read this sooner i cant wait to cry about this in like a week #I LOVE WOMEN #all the women are so hot #like teehee twirls hair #sooyoung is really cute #actually all the women are badass i wish they had more screentime lwk #orv

[fleapit]

can we pleasee please please stop fucking fearmongering and blaming trans men for the predstrogen situation. please god. posts about "trans men teaming up with terfs to get trans women banned!" with zero sources all over my dash. blaming "transandrophobia truthers" for all the transmisogyny. have you all lost your fucking minds?? what the fuck happened to t4t??? what the fuck happened to trans solidarity??? why is "transfem separatism" even a subject worth entertaining????

anyone who says other trans people are the enemy is a fucking fed. jesus christ

#my blood is fucking boiling right now and my heart is breaking #i keep seeing people go off the deep end with 'trans men arent oppressed! trans men face no discrimination because they have male privilege #its the fucking 2010 “trans men are betraying their female gender!” shit all over again! #transandrophobia #fleapit's patented rants #sorry im just. so sick of it. #saw it from a fucking FORCE-MASC BLOG like are you serious???

[b1rdeyes]

Totally normal way to look at your boy best friend as he walks away ‼️

#after shutting you down (and might I add that you INSTANTLY shut up and just stared at him wide eyed⁉️) #THE LITTLE GLANCE BACK AT THE END IM LOSING IT #literally 👁️👁️ (but with the most violently blue eyes you’ve ever seen) #house md #im making gifs now ig #im in too deep #hilson

[x-gon-give-it]

Headcanon, theory, prediction, whatever you want to call it,

but I think the reason that the universe Miquel hijacked collapsed, and not Miles, despite them both being “anomalies” is because Miquel was trying to change someone else’s story, as opposed to Miles who inspires other people to change their own stories.

Like, Miquel tried to force himself into a universe that wasn’t his. He took the place of his counterpart and pretended to be him, he was playing a part that wasn’t meant for him, he was changing a story that wasn’t his. And the universe rejected that.

Whereas Miles inspires people to change their own stories. His universe didn’t collapse because that’s HIS universe. It’s HIS story to tell, and sure the plot changed along the way, but he’s still telling it.

The same with 42-Miles. His story was drastically changed because he wasn’t bitten by that spider, but his universe isn’t collapsing because he’s the one still telling the story. He’s still shaping his own future.

And like how Miles inspired Peter B to have Mayday at all. Without Miles, Peter wouldn’t have gone back to his and he wouldn’t have had Mayday. But his universe isn’t collapsing because that’s a decision PETER made. No one forced him to make up with MJ and have Mayday. But Miles gave him faith and inspired him to go back and give life another try. (Don’t even get me started how Peter would have literally DIED if not for Miles. He was going to stay in Miles dimension. He was fully ready to deteriorate. He literally would have died if not for Miles saying “NO BITCH YOU GOTTA GO HOME” much less inspiring him to have Mayday, I’m just saying I’m just saying.)

And the thing is I don’t think Miquel realizes that. He’s so caught up in his grief and anger that he’s completely consumed with following canon and my never disrupting ANYTHING. He doesn’t realize that that universe collapsed because he tried to change someone ELSES story. He tried to become someone else to live their story. He didn’t try to make his own and that’s not how it works.

Idk just thinking thots tonight, And ATSV is always at the top of my brain

#i May just being delusional and rambling #but idk #it makes sense to me #im excited to see how the third movie ends #the conclusión #I WANT ANSWERS DAMMIT #gimme gimme gimme #also I think we collectively brushed over the fact real quick that Peter would have literally DIED if not for Miles #like i jusr think about that sometimes #Peter was in such a low place that he was okay with sacrificing himself in Miles’ universe #sacrificing himself to an INCREDIBLY painful death #but Miles saved him and inspired him to keep living and now he has a beautiful daughter and a beautiful wife #and he couldn’t have a better life if he tried #all thanks to that amazing kid who made him feel alive again #im deep in the feels tonight fam #i don’t know what else to say #peter parker #spider-man #miles Morales #miguel o'hara #Spider-Man 2099 #ATSV #ITSV #atsv spoilers

[lovesickeros]

☆ love; heretical and divine

{☆} characters tsaritsa {☆} notes cult au, yandere, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings blood {☆} word count 0.8k

To love a God is heretical. It is an act of blasphemy– it is to drag them down from their throne of hollow gold, to topple the pedestal the worshipers uphold on their shoulders like lambs at the herders heel. It is the act of forcing them to their knees and ripping that beating heart of glorious gold and beautiful, cruel divinity from their chest, so pure it burns.

To love a God is to make them sin. To make them painfully, horribly human.

To love a God is to sin.

The love of a worshiper is no love at all, brilliant in its raw purity, untainted by sin. It is fear and obedience masked by adoration so overpowering it corrupts. It makes the lamb so unquestioning in it's faith it will never question the knife that cuts, the teeth that rip, the claws that tear. If the Creator deemed them unworthy of the very life crafted by their hands, then they must have committed a sin so grave there lay no salvation for their horrid soul.

But she is no worshiper– her lips speak of heresy as easily as she breathes, her words nothing but lies, cold and cruel like the ice that crawls along her skin like webs.

She loves a God like a lover should.

A damned sinner reaching longingly for the heavens.

She loves a God in the subtle brush of their lips, their muffled voices behind closed doors as they indulge in curiosity untamed. She is a sinner through and through, but she feels herself fall further with every brush of her hand across their cheeks, every touch she bestows upon them like a lover. She memorizes the imperfections of their body like memorizing a map– every scar, every mark, every line drawn on their body like a canvas, her touch the brush that stains the pristine white.

No devoted lamb shall ever see the painting they create in these stolen moments– it is for the eyes of a heretic so vile it makes them shudder, their body dirtied by the love of a woman so vile even their divinity is obscured by the ice.

The lambs may be satisfied with fleeting glimpses of gold and empty words from lips that guide them to the jaws of the wolves, but she is not. Her hands crave them like a starving hound, aching to touch that imperfect skin hidden by the veil of gold that obscures the painfully human body beneath. She longs to free them from the golden cage that binds them– to see their wings blot out the sky, their divinity tainted by sin and making them all the more beautiful for it.

It is a longing that leaves a festering wound that cannot heal, will not heal. Even if it could, she would not let it.

For as much as she tries, deny it as she may, she is no better then the blind lambs following the herder who holds a blade in their hand, glittering like gold in the sun, stained by dull red.

She is a fool, and what a fool they make of her with the touch of their hands against her skin– so cold it leaves frost on their fingertips. Yet they do not fear the cold, mapping out every inch of her imperfections, carved into her body by her own hands.

She has always been a heretic, cursing the divine until she could speak no more, but if divinity can be found in them – in this love that consumes, that burns her hands and her lips – then she is a Saint, praying at the altar until her throat bled.

But in the end, she has and will always be a cold woman with hands stained with blood. Until it is all she can taste, until it is all she can smell, until it is all she can feel. These hands of hers, heretical and divine, will bleed the God from their veins– she will become the wolf to their lamb until the rivers of Teyvat run gold with their ichor, until the gold bleeds into red, the taste of their divinity on her tongue.

Until she drags a God from their lofty throne and makes of them a monster.

There is no greater triumph to the heretic then to love a God into sin. To make a God sin to love.

To love is to be human, and they are no God.

Even if she must tear the gold from their very being until all that's left is something human. Even if Teyvat crumbles and decays, even if it begins over and over again..

She will do it again and again, until the gold can bleed no longer. Until her sins grow too great for Teyvat to contain.

To love a God is to devour, and be devoured. An endless cycle of sin that dulls the glow of gold into something new– something horrifying and divine, in it's own right. Something just as horrid as her, just as divinely corrupted by the sins she carries on her shoulders like a trophy, as gold as the sun and as cold as ice.

Divinity, carved into something human by love all consuming, until it all bleeds away and they begin their dance anew, for as many cycles as it takes.

An eternity, if she must, of dooming this world of theirs to fire and decay for a glimpse of the being snared by their golden shackles.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #genshin cult au #genshin impact cult au #fic tag #tsaritsa #tsaritsa x reader #rip 2 anyone who expected like. a normal fic lol. lmao. #im very normal abt the tsaritsa and love its so tasty #i left it very up to interpretation what like. actually happens but. yknow. #i just think tsaritsa being the god of love and not knowing how 2 love without being weird abt it is fun #also wanted to dig into the concept of reader being fundamentally changed by being the creator besides gold blood yknow #but the tsaritsa Knows its changed you and she hates it. she hates it but how does one destroy what is divine? #how do you destroy the very thing that has created you in its hands so cruel and kind? #ive really gone off the deep end huh #this is a warning 2 the normal ppl u might as well leave now. lol #lowkey going for her actually straight up eating u but decided that was too weird for my first fic in a while. had 2 tone it down #i also wanted to add a bit of a concept of the constant resets teyvat goes through and how it plays into the themes #the tsaritsa constantly stuck in a cycle of getting rid of your divinity to be with you as you actually are but teyvat “dies” shortly after #bc obvs ur not the creator afterward so it just croaks and then it all resets again and again #but its the tsaritsa we r talking abt do u think that stops her. NO #obvs still up 2 interpretation go wild this was just what i intended #can u tell i have a lot of feelings abt tsaritsa and concepts of love from her pov. haha. I PROMISE IM NORMAL #i am mentally well why do u ask #what warnings do i add here. dont open this fic ive lost it maybe. yeah #covid rewiring my brain or smth idk man

[unguidedhand]

ive been seeing a lot of posts about how martyn isnt and never was loyal or trust worthy and (while i cant speak for other seasons) i have to say, in my opinion:

i dont think martyn betrayed scott in limited life. at all.

more than once this season, scott made it very clear that he didnt mind dying or being killed-- on his own terms. and thats the important part! he asked martyn to kill him once because he was tired of running from the inevitable and he wanted the time to at least go to his closest ally.

it wasnt being killed for time that he had a problem with, it was having the time taken against his will.

he literally said "my own mean gill- and i wouldnt have had it any other way" because you know what the other option was? winning. dying to the narrative. to the watchers. whether by their timer or by a /kill command.

do you really think thats what he wanted? no. winning once was an act of spite and defiance, but winning again would just be playing along with their games.

martyn took scott out on their own terms. he wasnt betraying scott as much as he was just ending the game.

#im also a fan of the 'martyn was influenced by the watchers and now going off the deep end' theories too #and i think that could be a very cool direction for canon to go #but this is how i choose to see it #and i think my take has some merit #trafficblr #limited life smp #lilsmp #lilsmp spoilers #limited life spoilers #limited life smp spoilers #limited life #mean gills #limited life martyn #limited life scott #<- im still not sure if thats how to tag characters but im going with it #traffic smp #life smp #the hand that speaks

[aroaceleovaldez]

Jason, Reyna, and Nico have one billion in-jokes about Mediterranean history between the bronze age to the renaissance that they find absolutely hilarious and no one else understands in the slightest. i know this in my heart to be true.

#pjo #riordanverse #jason grace #reyna ramírez-arellano #nico di angelo #im just saying. reyna and jason are canonically HUGE history nerds and nico is at least a huge mythology nerd #though also is heavily implied to *also* be a history nerd #dude's special interests are pirates and world mythology you KNOW he has one specific segment of history he's obsessed with #plus he canonically use to travel all around italy and knows a bunch of historical places and their contexts #those three all accidentally ended up best friends with each other and now they have a BFFs trio of geeking out over ancient rome #theyre in so deep with layered in-jokes that one will just shout a singular word and the other two will double-over laughing #and nobody can fathom how this is funny and no the explanation of the historical context is not helping

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob: #BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY. #THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM.. #grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM. #I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much... #GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE.. #i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

[good-beansdraws]

Thinking of a fantasy au teamup.... ❄️🔥

#milgram #yuno kashiki #fuuta kajiyama #fire and ice pairs woooooo #i gave up on the bg sorry 😅 #i hope they do something visually with coldness in yunos t3 mv... #im so so crazy about fuuta acting like a leader but really just hungering for purpose #whether its amane or yuno or haruka i just love picturing him dedicating himself to them without realizing thats what hes doing #loyal bodyguard who thinks hes the one in charge sorta deal #i was told that yuno looked like the ice princess from sharkboy and lavagirl and Listen. thats a compliment. to me. #i may end up reworking that post afte deep cover but i think kotokos section is general enough for now #i still wanna do something with that au but just havent had the inspiration yet 🤔 #thinkin of them ;---;

[spearxwind]

HI FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO Here’s a big comprehensive reference post for The Big (Eel) Man !! This also means all the main guys’ references for Challenger Deep are done :D

#windyart #talas #oc ref sheet #challenger deep #WAHOOO FINALLY. YOU GUYS DONT KNOW HOW LONG THIS TOOK FOR ABSOLUTELY NO REASON #(the reason is im deranged and i kept catching mistakes and i ended up changing his markings in the process) #I know ive posted the last ref before but like. i tweaked it :] #[leans into the microphone] im mentally eel. #eel talas #i keep forgetting to use this tag. im not as thorough with it as i am with snadri #okay i feel like i can actually rest now #focus on other things. this was taking up 99% of my brains RAM fr #also i have been so passionate lately about. the fucking body type thing. that i added a disclaimer directly onto the ref itself #good lord. #okay i really need to go to bed holy shit #i hope yall enjoy this <3333 im so excited to shareeee #blows a kiss @ all yall

[notedchampagne]

i need alecto the ninth out only because i need a baseline for how griddlehark reacts sans The Worst Conflict Inducing Settings Ever

#im deep in the pression now i keep accidentally daydreaming about them dying together like its a happy ending #i need to know how theyd go about grocery shopping for one day so that i can adjust my expectations for them accordingly #chat #tlt

[all-too-unwell-13]

i just finished reading lockwood & co - hollow boy

and oh. my. god. (ik i said it for the last book too, but....) but i was not expecting that ending.

lucy leaving lockwood & co???? omg??? i can see why she did it (i probably would've if i was in her situation tbh), but still!! she actually needs the biggest hug ever after this whole book omg.

the locklyle crumbs we got in chapter 24; the "oh, come off it. you know i'd die for you." IM SCREAMING. lockwood is so ajfhakfhsjdhs

they're so cute :(

and the whole book how lucy was so jealous of holly because holly was just so perfect - everything that lucy didn't think she was.

ugh i loved the whole book, i think it was my favourite of the series so far!!!

#the locklyle crumbs tho <3333 #ugh i love them #lucy being jealous of holly was so sad but like i feel you girl 🫂 #i also feel bad for holly and i kinda love her too - even tho she was kind of annoying at times #lockwood lowkey pissed me off with how closed off he was to lucy for most of the book - but its ok bc he got there in the end!!! #god i love it when book ships have deep conversations in near death situations #anyway im going to start the fourth book now woohooo #wish me luck lmao #lockwood & co #anthony lockwood #lockwood and co #lucy carlyle #locklyle #george cubbins #george karim #holly munro #l&co #lockwood and co spoilers #the hollow boy

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

"It's just you now. Take care of mother."

i have the normal amount of emotions about them (lying) <3

#a redraw but also not really cus i ended up tracing a lot from the old one hfldsjdfs #it was only supposed to be for reference but i ended up keep messing w it instead of redrawing it proper...... #feel like i got his expression down better in the old one; looks more strained/ hearbroken like i feel #but thats fine #my art #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #i'm still not sure if liam or varric is the one who deals the killing blow #love both the thought of liam having his own sisters blood on his hands and never being able to wash it off fully #or his (future) best friend saving him that fate but now having that stand between them #cus liam would be grateful for it but part of him would always remember that and hold it against him #(both options also make the bartrand encounter crunchy in slightly different ways) #either way in that moment he kind of hates varric for even just being there. and fenris too #(though tbh im not sure how realistic it would be for him to take sb else except bethy and varric down into the deep roads) #((so maybe in canon fen wouldnt be there idk. havent decided this yet either)) #logically he knows its not fair ofc but it just feels like an invasion of privacy. it feels Wrong. #they have no place in this they shouldnt have been there they shouldnt have been part of it they shouldnt have seen him like this #but its sth that binds them too #the rest of the trek is miserable and awkward for all of them in any case #but yeah. #idk if they would be able to bury her down here properly so maybe they end up doing it via lava? #theyre not leaving her body out in the open to rot and/or become food for darkspawn or spiders thats for sure

[skitskatdacat63]

Hey do you remember all those videos of Fernando smelling flowers? Haha yeah....

#posting this both while im asleep and after whatever bee event ends up happening #so who knows what will happen! will we get nothing? will we get eye contact? will we possibly get an interaction? its a surprise!! #anyways this is basically me hearing about seb's bee event and he said the drivers will be there #me deep in my vettonso brainrot: OH MY GOD THEY'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME VICINITY #will be so funny for me if when i wake up i find out fernando didnt even go 😭 #but we remain hopeful 🙏 #also this is just very funny to me bcs like both seb and fernando have very specifc quirks #and what are two of their specific quirks? seb and his bee thing. fernando and his flower thing from this season #so this fanart is perfect y'know 🥰🥰🥰 #also screeching over how this is the first canon au drawing ive ever drawn. ive literally never drawn non-au until now 💀💀💀 #okay and now some horrible jokes thay happened during the process of this: #thesis of this drawing: whats Fernando gonna do? Pollinate him? 😏 #C. why did you have to make me think of bees that produce sex pollen 😭😭 this is gonna haunt me forever. but also vettonso post-japan fic- #and then also the barry benson thing. im like what do humanized bees look like and then realized 'oh no....oh no.' #fernando to seb at the bee event: 'ya like samurais...?' SORRY 😭 #also having to pick the colors from one of my historical au drawings was haunting. just the sheer difference btwn them yknow...... #anyways please take my old men yaoi. took a break from historical yaoi to draw this 😭😭😭😭 #this is my peak vettonso fanart cannot improve from here. also a fever dream #vettonso #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.art. #*not gonna edit the tags bcs i like the time capsule of it all but like. yeah. we were fed. #*catie from 2 hours prior(atm its 3 am) would be so pleased right now i think

[hiphopcherrrypop]

normal🧐??????

#idk why some says 6 days and some says 7 idk if theres some specific hour cutoff or what #this meltdown was all st the same time #but what is there shipname like actually 😭😭 #i dont tag them……no one tags them.... #snakeblade is what google translates it to for me on japanese tweets so idk 😭😭 #jabashiri nagare #hagure tatsuto #why i always scheduled to open on saturdays now #im in too deep i was refreshing ppl livetweetijg in japanese today😭😭😭😭 #i luv the ending song credit heart thing always but this one was for MEEEE SPEXIFICALLY 😆😆😆 #i had a visceral reaction to seeing screenshot #bucchigiri be lije what can arajin do to piss everyone off this week #can he get better next ep pleeeease i swear he just gets worse and worse #BOY IF U DONT ACT NORMAL!!!!! #i want to strangle him #he opens his mouth and my eyes rolls to the back of my head OHHH BROTHER!!!!! #bucchigiri?!