*sobbing* so how bout that chapter guys
not much to laugh abt this time ;-;
do feel like I should apologise to Danny, that chapter sure was a doozy, huh π¬
for chapter 12 of cetbwa, tysm!! β€οΈ
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sorry for buying so much snake jewelry i promise im not a majima stan
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hmmm .... can you tell us about evelin or sarah in this au :3
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Evelyn and Sarah are best friends and this is just. A fact. They've been best friends since 3rd grade and Sarah, even being a lesbian, helps Evelyn sort out any problems with Adam should they arise. Sarah always down for a beatdown <3
Sarah has been researching the reincarnation process ever since Mark died. She heard about it through Evelyn one day during summer camp and it's become an obsession. She believes Mark was a part of this process, due to evidence of him having supernatural prowess because of people listening to him when he used certain voices, but she still has not figured out how close Mark really is to her- through Jonah. She also does research on Alternates, of course, but does not know their full connection to the reincarnations. Sarah does end up meeting a certain angel someday, however, which fully integrates her more into the plot.
Evelyn met Adam in high school sophomore year, and the two are together still and started daring senior year. Evelyn works both at MandelaTech and at BPS part-time, though MandelaTech takes up most of her time. She knows Adam and Jonah are part of the reincarnation process because of her own research she did with her mother- a cryptologist- but doesn't exactly know how to tell them, due to social anxiety and just generally being bad with words. Her social anxiety doesn't do any favors for Adam and Evelyn's relationship, but seeing as to how Adam's a reincarnation, there are bigger things to worry about. She is also very close with Adam's little sister Mary, and often invites Mary to go out to outings with her and Sarah.
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right where you left lover girl [ charles leclerc , ben chilwell ]
[ π£πππ₯ππ‘π ππ‘π ππππ₯πππ§ππ₯π¦ ] β charles leclerc x singer!ex!reader ; ben chilwell x singer!reader . βΉ βΆ γ π« Β°. Β *
[ πππ§ππππ¦ & πͺππ₯π‘ππ‘ππ¦ ] β mostly angst, some romance . βΉ βΆ γ βΉοΈ Β°. Β *
ΰ£ͺΛ π ..Β ππ¬πβπ¦ π‘π’π§ππ¦Β β clearing my drafts again π΅βπ« if you ask me, iβm obsessed with singer!reader fics lol
this work is purely fictional. names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the authorβs imagination or areΒ used fictitiously. Β© httpsuniverse, 2023. doΒ notΒ steal, repost in other platforms, translate and/or claim this work as your own.
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cleclercsource double date in wimbledon πΎ charles, alex, kika and pierre spotted in todayβs game!
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user alex looks so pretty and i know sheβs nice because i met her once, but i miss y/n βΉοΈ
user :(( i do too, but itβs just not meant to be. they both want different things and are in different places in the relationship
user damn why did THAT hurt
user no offense/hate towards alex but the fact that y/n and charles have been together since they were thirteen just...pains me and iβm not even part of their relationship
user me too!! π they literally went through ups and downs together and saw their careers go big :(
user yeah but i hate to break it to you guys but itβs been two years since they broke up and charles being in a new relationship is okay, theyβre both adults! i mean, you guys know that eventually theyβll meet somebody, no?
user what pains me the most is that y/n hasnβt released anything since she and charles broke hp π£π i miss my girl
user they look like mean girls
user i would be scared to walk past them
user love how alex is just happy to be there hahaha sheβs so cute
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yourusername oh hi hello ππ» i know itβs been a while since iβve last released music and contributed to the industry, and i see everyoneβs tweets saying how much they miss me and guess what? i missed you guys too, so hereβs a little something for being so patient with meπ€ this song is very personal and important to me and i hope youβll love it just how i loved writing it. right where you left me is now available to all streaming platforms πΆ
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sabrinacarpenter π«Ά masterpiece
selenagomez proud of youβ¨π
user omg y/n!!!
user the queen is back :( welcome back y/n!!
user streaming right NOW
user you cant do this to me y/n y/l/n!!!!!!!
user just got out of a 4-year relationship today, thanks for the masterpiece maam <3
yourusername π€ wish you all the best with healing
user OMG
user thanks y/n, now i do have a reason to cry today π
yourusername stopp bahahaha enjoyyy
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prodbymika glad to have produced another song and film a music video with my bestie π«Ά hereβs some behind the scenes of y/n during recording and filming the music video of right where you left me <3
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yourusername mika my love!!! βΉοΈπ€ thank youu couldnβt have done it without youuuu π«Ά
user wait that place on the 3rd photo is familiar
user itβs charles and y/nβs place from their 24 hour with vogue video π
user omfg thatβs probably why itβs titled right where you left me π
user the π restaurant π she π and π charles π loved π
user fuck me im trying to move on π
user y/n wearing the same clothes she would wear during date nights with charles πβΉοΈ
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yourprivate i know eventually it will lead to one of us meeting someone new. i hope sheβll love you the way that i did, more than how i loved you, charles. and i canβt believe that itβs been two years since we broke up. in my mind iβm still 23, living in my own delusion that one day youβll come back to me. i loved you, charles_leclerc. and i still do. i really meant it when i said i wish you both the best. now, itβs time for me to move on and leave the place where you left me.
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yourusername me doing big girl things π bye bye monaco π²π¨, hello london π¬π§ ready to make new memories, new songs and of course, new apartment tour video soon :p
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user omggggggg the chances of me running to you are HIGHHHHH
yourusername see you aroundddd <3
user AAAAAAA
user omg omg omg sheβs finally out of her delusions, weβre officially over right were you left me era !!!!!!
user she finally let go of the house she and charles shared π
user no bc imagine the adjustment!! she lived there even when she and charles broke up :(
user my girl can finally FINALLY breathe
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benchilwell youβre my, my, my, my lover π©·
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jackgrealish mate, thatβs so cheesy π
reecejames i know something you donβt π€§
masonmount i know something you will never know π
user NAHHHH QUIT PLAYING WITH US
user NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
user congπratuπlationsπ
user now who is the lucky woman π€
user wait is that y/n
user what the hell
user i think soo!!!!
user STOP IM GONNA FUCKING CRY RN
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yourusername guys meet my london boy π©·
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benchilwell i told you not to post that picture of me
yourusername π΅βπ« but you looked so cute and you helped me compose a song
masonmount he did? π¨
yourusername took us a while, but yep π«‘
user im so happy for you y/n!!!!
β β€οΈ by yourusername
user why is y/n, a person who loves chinese food, dating a man who hasnβt eaten chinese food
yourusername donβt worry, i bought chinese the other day. heβs no longer chinese food virgin. i took his virginity.
benchilwell y/n y/l/n.
yourusername π you liked it though
benchilwell okay fine yeah
user why do i feel like a new album will come out ...
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yourusername suprise (well... not so surprise haha) !! been working on this album the past year and itβs finally here and i canβt wait to share it with you guys so HERE YA GO π©·π the whole album is dedicated to, of course, my lover, my benji, benchilwell i love youuuu and this album is my love letter to you (you spoiled the lyrics on your previous post π but its ok i forgive u now pls come back faster bc i miss u) enjoy everyone ! lover girl, y/n π©·β¨
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benchilwell i love you angel π©·
yourusername stopp im shy i miss you
benchilwell π im coming over
user y/n in her lover era π₯Ή happy for her, she deserves this!
user she really does π₯Ή
user STOPPP THIS WJOLE ALBUM IS JUST Y/N AND BEN BEING IN LOVENWITH EACH OTHER
user βall that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothingβ BENJAMIN JAMES CHILWELL YOU ONE LUCKY MF
user y/n is SO in love iβm here for it
charles_leclerc congratulations on another amazing album, y/n!
yourusername thank you charles! π«Ά
user HEY WHAT IS MR. RIGHT WHERE YOU LEFT ME DOING HERE
user ARIANA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE
yourusername weβre still friends guys, chill π
sabrinacarpenter YOU ARE AMAZING, Y/N
yourusername SAAAABBBB i love you ,, you are amazing
user from right where you left me to paper rings π₯Ί THE GLOW UP
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# ENHYPEN SMAU RECS π
# RIKI
# more time with you! β by @yenqa, itβs very CUTE and the ANGST is scrumptious :))
# love dive β by @tzyuki, RIKIY/N ARE SO CUTE
# love is (not) easy! β by @kynrki, riki smau, THE ANGST RHAHAHA MADE ME CRY BUT I LOVE IT
# shoot! β by @amakumos, again ADORABLE and THE FLUFF (rikiy/n is what i want in an relationship), canβt believe you can find the love of your life in genshin
# cupidβs corner β by @amakumos, ANOTHER GREAT SMAU, ITS JUST SO CUTE & RIKIY/N MAKES ME WANNA JUMP OFF A BRIDGE
# trial and error β by @kyyuri, AGHHHH, again rikiy/n>>the world
# beat the allegations β by @woonierkiz (aka my mutual), it only has two chapters for now BUT AHHHHHHHHH
# donβt date my brother β by @mosinterlude , LOVED HOW YOU ADDED KONON AND THE ANGST π€π€, also love the fact that it has some idolβs sisters (and brother) <33
# soulmate tracker β by @son4taa, i remember reading this a while back but forgot about it im sorry ππ, ITS VERY GOOD THOUGH
# π c u p i d π β by @roseyrays (aka me!), yes this is self promoting π€π€
# ( ε°€γ ) natural β by @ifearjwn, NOT THE PADDLE BOARD, y/n simps π«΅π, love u riki, canβt wait for more chapters!
# oh, ni-ki youβre so fine! β by @aernx ,made by mutual! ,sooha jumpscare π, NI-KI SO CUTE
# JUNGWON
# stuck by glue β by @yyunari, WINX CLUB AU!, me when y/nwon ππ
# mint chocolate shirt β by @wonieleles, i love me some one-sided rivalry, won just stop being mean and kiss her already π
# idol crush! β by @enhas-bestie, I WANT TO PUNCH THE ANTIS SO BAD
# whats after like?! β by @haew0nz, i forgot about what happened π, will reread but ik itβs good!!
# cat hotline β‘ β by @faelyncore, CATS AND LOVE=FAV
# wrβ©ng rβ©β©m! β by @soov, SO CUTE SHSJSJSJSJ
# our beloved leaders β by @tzyuki, yes i just binged the whole smau today, f that zira anti fr, Y/NWON πππ©·π©·
# JUNGWON & RIKI
# pick me! β by @urszn, YUUURRRRR
# SUNOO
(i only read one π please recommend me some)
# ykwim? β by @astrae4, still only has a few chapters but i love it already ππ
# SUNGHOON
(i only read one π please recommend me some)
# vlive confession β by @starjaeyun, ITS JUST SO AHH, waiting for more chapters ππ
# JAKE
# paper rings β by @117luv, the kids are adorable β€οΈβ€οΈ, when he changed his user π
# dad diaries β by @117luv, spinoff of paper rings, cute βΉοΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
# hey prez!! β° β by @yeeunjia, on hiatus but really good β€οΈ
# rink of love β by @pagesofmiracles, so cute πππ©·π©·
# JAY
unfortunately didnβt read a jay one yet π« will read after iβm done with this
# HEESEUNG
# dear, heeseung β by @jungwnies, will reread β€οΈ, itβs cute too
# twitter sucks! β by @filmbyjy, the comedy here LMAO, riki in this is literally me
# curious cat β by @heerocks, AHHHH π
# JUST ADDED
# donβt date my brother β by @mosinterlude, LOVED HOW YOU ADDED KONON AND THE ANGST π€π€, also love the fact that it has some idolβs sisters (and brother) <33
# soulmate tracker β by @son4taa, i remember reading this a while back but forgot about it im sorry ππ, ITS VERY GOOD THOUGH
# rink of love β by @pagesofmiracles, so cute πππ©·π©·
# our beloved leaders β by @tzyuki, yes i just binged the whole smau today, f that zira anti fr, Y/NWON πππ©·π©·
# π c u p i d π β by @roseyrays (aka me!), yes this is self promoting π€π€
# ( ε°€γ ) natural β by @ifearjwn, NOT THE PADDLE BOARD, y/n simps π«΅π, love u riki, canβt wait for more chapters!
# oh, ni-ki youβre so fine! β by @aernx ,made by mutual! ,sooha jumpscare π, NI-KI SO CUTE
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RUMOR HAS IT..
: CL16
genre: fluff,angst? (if you squint),social media (smau) + written
warnings: translated french and korean,cussing
A/N: imma just add angst just in case i forget but if you squint maybe itβll be there? also broken humor here i made this in the morning soo excuse any typos..not proofread btw!
synopsis: charles is in a new relationship with a runway model and fashion icon readerβall is well until a rumor comes around saying he is cheating on you with your bestie.. (fc: tingting_lai)
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yourusername yacht trips with you are always wonderful <3
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yourbestie yβall are so cute it makes me wanna puke <3
alex_albon werent you there with themβ¦
yourbestie yeah but that doesnβt mean i wasnt third wheeling half the timeβ¦
yourusername you literally invited your bf..
yourbestie he fell asleep π
arthur_leclerc β¦slanderous.οΏΌ
οΏΌcharles_leclerc everyday with you is a wonder day mon ange <3
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pierregasly i think imma throw up
maxverstappen1 me too
landonorris me three
charles_leclerc go away.π
f1wags beautiful as always!!
user5 check your dms bestieβ¦
user3 drop the workout routine.
user2 okay BUT how does he bag someone like you. TELL ME THE SECRETS
user4 right the math isnβt mathing !
user1 he fr must of bribed her with like a castle in monaco or smthing
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yourusername i wish π«€ i kinda just got stuck babysitting him
charles_leclerc thatβs not true and you know thatβ¦
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f1wags was dmed a photo of what looks to be yourbestie and charles staring at eachother lovingly while yn is away! is this the case of playboy charles returning after years of being in a relationship with yn πππ«£
user1 doesnβt yourbestie have a bfβ¦
user6 yeah and itβs charlesβ brother!!
user5 SOMETHING DOESNT FEEL RIGHT
user1 nah..she a brother hopperπ, yn and arthur deserve better
user8 idk where yall seeing the love like eye contact because i for-one do not see it!!
user9 RIGHT like it doesnβt make sense, it was yourbestie who introduced charles to yn so why would she want to get with him now when she had all those years ago to get with him? ppl making stuff up.
user8 itβs like you were reading my mind!
user10 it shouldnβt be our business too!
user3 PIERRE LIKED THIS?!:!he probably knows something we donβtβ¦
user5 @pierregasly spill the beans mister; i know you know all the f1 gossip
user4 okay but why did yn like it too? does she know something too?
user2 yn liking this is definitely giving hot girl revenge arc!!
yourusername now wtf is this?
user13 SHE REPLIED. OMG SHE KNOWS.
user4 YN REVENGE ARC YESSS
user3 charles gonna regret he hurt this girls feelings
user9 we love a good villain arc!
user10 her replying is iconic
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yourbestie cheers to an 14 year friendship! you truly are the world to me, you are like the sister iβve always wanted. i cherish every memory with you, i am greatful for everything you do for me! i canβt wait to see what the future leads us too~ λ무 μ¬λν΄μ!! i love you so much
yourusername YOURE SO ADORABLE. :( i wish you werenβt busy so we could hang out today, λλ λΉμ μ λ μ¬λ !!! i love you more
yourbestie I KNOW IM SORRY something came up last minute but i promise to make it up to you in a girls day<3
yourusername yeah you better.
yourbestie anything for you!
yourusername @charles_leclerc take notes!
charles_leclerc you two are literally just flirting with eachother in the commentsβ¦what more do you want me to do:(
arthur_leclerc feel my pain
user3 aint no way she posted this while quiet literally fcking her bffβs bf behind her back..
user7 THIS IS SO CUTE IM SOBBING
user12 not until you find out she flirting with charles.
user9 can yβall take these negative ass comments somewhere else and just enjoy the fact ITS AN 14 YR FRIENDSHIP.
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user13 i want what they have.
user4 brother hopper!!!π
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yourusername just posted a story
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f1wags charles leclerc and your bestie spotted roaming around monaco βΌοΈ charles and your bestie were reported to go on a shopping spree and they looked very happy and giggly. reportedly they came out of cartier with two bags, both were holding a bag. maybe this a sign that these two are actually together ππ₯
user1 no fcking way..
user3 ON THE FRIEND-VERSARY ??
user6 didnβt she tell yn she was busy..
user13 busy fcking charles..thats for sure
user5 this is more disgusting than i thought
user9 imma give them the benefit of the doubt maybe we werenβt supposed to see these photos!!
user10 we should fr respect their privacy, idc if he is cheating on her or not this is fr creepy.
user7 okay but coming out of Cartier with bags?! now iβm even more suspicious..
user11 i feel so bad for yn and arthur, the fact they liked this too. they need to find better bf and gf frπ
yourusername μ§μ¬μ΄μΌ, μ΄κ±° μ§μ§μΌ? π« seriously, is this real?
arthur_leclerc lets not get ahead of ourselves, you guys donβt know whatβs going on..
user6 arthur you know what is going on between these two? and what they are doing together?
arthur_leclerc yeah, i know the plans but i donβt like that you guys are jumping to conclusions like this
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a small pout formed onto your lips, ohone in hand screen frozen on the f1wag page. a part of you wanted to be in disbelief of what you saw. charles had told you that he something important to do and bestie name had said she was busy as well. the dots were slowly connecting as if it was a game of squares.
the thought of your boyfriend of almost two and a half years cheating on you with your best friend was not a pleasing thought, scowling at the idea of it. you were sitting down on the couch knees tucked into you, your head resting on them staring down at the phone screen. dozens of thoughts flooded your brain.
is he cheating on me? how long? does arthur know he is being cheated on? are they for sure cheating on me? theyβre childhood friends i donβt think he is cheating on me! bestie name doesnβt even like charles like that! am i being played? the thoughts had flooded your brain you had completely forgotten to get ready. the vibration of your phone had broken you out of your dazed state. looking at the caller id it was him. it was charles, the words in bold βlover boy<3β had popped up with a cute picture of him. pressing the accept button you put it on speaker,
yn : hello?
lover boy<3 : mon ange! are you ready?
yn : ..uh yeah im almost ready!
lover boy<3 : okay iβll be there to pick you up in 15 minutes~
his voice sounded deeper through the phone, a small smile formed onto your lips
yn : where did you go charlie? youβve been out for a while..
lover boy<3 : have i? dΓ©solΓ© chΓ©rie je devais faire quelque chose d'important, sorry honey i had to do something important why? are you worried about me? how sweet
charles had a small smirk formed on his lips, he just dropped off your bestie name at her house as he called you.
yn : who said that? no i was just curious, thats all.
ynβs smile slowly formed back to a pout. he didnβt tell her but rather just said something important, it didnβt make her feel any better.
yn : (sigh)
lover boy<3 : whatβs wrong mon-
yn : κΏ honey iβll you back i need to go to the bathroom.
you quickly ended the call ruffling your hair taking in a deep inhale before getting up to go get ready quickly.
after rummaging through your closet you found a cute brown pleated skirt, to match with it you grabbed a white tank top and black and white cardigan with a black beret. looking at the mirror you smiled at the outfit heading to the bathroom to do some quick makeup. nothing too fancy
charles furrowed his brows at the erupted ending of the call. he didnβt think much of it shrugging it off. maybe you were just tired was a thought he had, not once did he think you found out he was with your bestie name.
you had just finished in time, charles texted you that he was outside. grabbing a small purse putting your wallet and phone in there pranced your way to the front putting on a pair of brown boots you had just bought. the walk to the car felt dreadful. the more you stepped closer more thoughts flew over your head, you were starting to convince yourself that maybe he was cheating on you with her.
you needed to shake the idea out of your head and you had to do it now, your hand was on the car door handle but you hesitated. charles noticed your hesitation, his brows furrowed some more as he leaned over to the other seat opening the door for you. βmon angΓ© are you alright?β he watched you climb into the seat buckling up. one thing about charles, he is a person who is very expressive from the body language to the faces to the voice itself. yn looked at him placing a small peck on his cheek, βyeah im just a little tired thatβs allβ
charles stared you down he was trying to see if you were lying or not, βwell tu sais tu peux toujours me dire n'importe quoi mon ange, si Γ§a te dΓ©range tellement dis le moi. you know you can always tell me anything my angel, if it bothers you so much tell me.β he tucked a piece of your hair behind your exposing your cheek that got what felt like a genuine kiss. the ride to wherever you were going was suffocating, both of you hated it. you cleared your thought brushing your hand against his free hand. βso mister charles where was this important place you went to today?β you wanted answers so you kept pushing for him to tell the truth. οΏΌ
charles quickly looked and you before looking back at the road, βif i tell you where i was and what i was doing it wouldnβt be a secret mon ange!β he was being very smiley, your lips formed an o shape. βwhy do you wanna know? are you trying to stalk me?β charles snickered his shoulders slowly bouncing up and down. you shook your head clearing your throat, βi donβt need to do that i already have someone for that..β your tone was bitterly.
you were staring out the window, you didnβt want to bare the sight of him. what if questions flew everywhere you got more upset with yourself you didnβt want them, charles noticed the shift in attitude; βmon ange seriously tell me whatβs wrong,β concern laced his voice as he grabbed your hand placing mini kisses on them β, i donβt like seeing you upset. i can any questions you have just talk to me..β
a sigh escaped your lips looking at the pouty monegasque, βwhy were you with bestie name today? she said she was busy and you said you had an important thing to do today. are the two of you you knββοΏΌ your throat throbbed as each word managed to escape your throat, βwhat?β was all charles could reply with, he quickly parked the car before facing yn.
βrumor has it you were with bestie name today at a mall together..there of pictures of the two of you together charlieβ his grip on your hands tightened as each word flowed out of your mouth. βchΓ©rie im not cheating on you with bestie name, i would never.β his heart broke seeing you think of all that, βokay but what was important that the two of you had to go to the mall together?β you just wanted to few reassurance.
βwell..fuck i cant say it but its a surpise. you werenβt supposed to see those photos seriously, im not cheating on you when i went to the mall with her earlier. we went to go get some gifts for arthur you can even ask him mon amor!β he watched as her shoulders that were tensed up became relaxed. βoh. iβm sorry that i jumped to conclusions so fast it waββ
charles chuckled letting go of her hand, βitβs okay mon ange. its those stupid fan accounts fault for making you think that.β he said getting out of the car to go open the door for you.
he had taken you to a nice small cafe, it wasnβt very popular but it was one of your favorites. the honey outside atmosphere was definitely to die for, the way green plants coated everywhere. the two of you sat at what was a four person table. pointing at the two empty seats charles just smiled, βtwo people will be joining us but theyβre running a little late..β
βi didnt get to say this but you look beautiful my loveβ charles who grabbed your hand the table fiddling with it. βam i never beautiful to you?β you scoffed playfullyβcharles was taken aback from that comment βno no youβre always beautiful you just look extra beautiful!β charles justified or well he believed. βso you donβt think iβm extra beautiful whenever?β you pouted playfully. charles who was lost for words βno you are just soβyou know what i mean mon amour!!β he sighed frustratedly causing you to giggle at his frustration.
βyouβre so mean mon chΓ©rie~β he scrunched up his face to make it look like he was upset, βiβm not mean you are just easy to pick at!β you justified, βmean.β βnoβ βmeanβ βnoβ βcharlie we sound like children..β βwell you started itβ he smirked making you roll your eyes at him. a comfortable silence fell between the two, you started to believe the other two were just not going to come at all.
βyou have pretty eyes charlieβ you blurted out without a care, a blush crept onto his face. he didnβt know if it was the compliment or if it was the fact you were staring at him as if he was the only thing that mattered in the world, maybe it was both. βyou think so chΓ©rie?β he felt the grip of his hand that had been interlocked with yours tighten. βi donβt think so i know soβ she had such loving stares it made charles weak to his knees. the stares she gives him make his heart flutter like a teenage boy seeing his school crush, he was always lost for words, he was little butter melting in your touch and stares.
the truth is, he was upset with himself finding out that you had these thoughts, these thoughts that he was cheating on you with your best friend. he wanted to get you a gift and he didnβt want to fuck it up; he believed bringing someone who you held dear to your heart and who knew you best wouldβve been the right choiceβhe didnβt think once you would take it as him cheating on you with her bestie. it hurt him inside.
he had always wanted to show you how appreciative he was of you, he never had the time but now he does. you do so much for him and he wants to thank you for that, the states you give him; they were loving and warmly. the way you love him throughout his career taking time to visit his races it did something to him. from how you looked at him, touched him, smiled and laughed at his jokes, how you talk about him so much to family, how you make playlist about him, and even made sure he felt like he was the priority in everythingβit did something for him. since the first day he met you he knew you were the one for him.
the way you made sure youβre there for him after the races and that you were okay made his heart skip beats. he had always felt like the knight in shining armor in previous relationships but with you he felt like the princess and you were the knight. he loved everything about that; it was something new to him something he never wouldβve thought he would love. the small cartier box warmed in his pockets. you are always doing stuff for him he just wants to do one simple thing for you, is that too much for him to ask for? he knew he had to wait for arthur and bestie name to get here but he seriously couldnβt.
he thought any longer he waited he would spill the beans about everything, βchΓ©rie you know how much i love you right?β his lips parted as his hand slowly made his way to his pocket grabbing the small cartier box. βalways know, you tell me like every hour even on the race trackβ you had teased a smile evident on your lips. βtu sais Γ quel point je t'aime mais sais-tu Γ quel point je t'aime ? Je te chΓ©ris tellement, j'aime tout ce que tu fais pour moi, j'aime la faΓ§on dont tu es toujours lΓ pour moi, peu importe Γ quel point je fais mal sur la piste de course ou je suis contrariΓ©. tu fais tellement pour moi, c'est vraiment comme un cadeau! you know how much i love you but do you know how much i love you? I cherish you so much, I love everything you do for me, I love how you are always there for me no matter how badly I do on the racetrack or how upset I am. you do so much for me, it's really like a gift.β
βtu es un cadeau que je dois protΓ©ger de tout ce qui arrive, je n'ai jamais Γ©tΓ© douΓ© avec les mots mais chaque fois que tu es avec moi, je fond. tu as sur moi cet effet que je n'avais jamais ressenti auparavant dans les relations que j'avais. you are a gift that i have to protect from everything that happens, i have never been good with words but every time you are with me i melt. you have this effect on me that i have never felt before in the relationships i had.β charles titled his head to the side closing his eyes taking a deep breathe, βcharlie whatβs this about?β you had questioned sitting up properly instead of slouching. βjust promise me something mon amour. promise me that you will be with me no matter how hard times are.β charles slowly pulled out the red velvet textured box from his pocket.
it was a small rectangular box with gold like lettering saying βcartierβ. charles had placed it into your hands, βyou do so much for me so the least i could do is buy a promise ring.β his voice turned soft, it was silky soft. the box on the other hand was in your grasp you were staring at it, a prominent smile rushed to your face, βcharlie..β you had opened the box to see a singular gold band with jewels graves into it, βits a promise ring, a promise that i will love you endlessly.β charles held up his hand showing how he was already wearing his.
βits beautifulβ¦charlie. i love itβ you took the ring out of the box putting it on a one your right index finger, βand i promise to love you endlessly.β a blush creeped onto your cheeks, βthank you μκΈ°. μ¬λν΄μ baby. i love youβ charles wasnt fluent i.n korean thatβs for sure but he knows how to say he loves you, βi love you too mon ange.β he grabbed your hand with the ring on it placing a soft kiss, smiling to himself.
βCHARLES I TOLD YOU WAIT TILL WE GOT HERE.β you heard your bestie nameβs voice boom near you, it startled you but it made you giggle. βwell you two were taking too long and i got impatientβ¦hurry up next timeβ he scoffed, your bestie name didnβt let that slide and she started to punch him lightly. βi hope you didnβt fuck it up. be glad i went with you to get the proper ring size!β your bestie grabbed his ear and the two started to fight.
it truly did feel like home with them, βiβm guessing he gave you the ring?β arthur said standing behind you with his hands in his pockets, βyou knew?β yn looked at him your lips forming an a line. βof course i knew thats why i tried to defend them but it was no use at that point, people jump to conclusions too muchβ he shortened a chuckle. βyeah youβre right they do.β
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hey bestie, could you do a vinnie imagine where the reader do the "asking my boyfriend questions so i can start an argument" trend π
ARGUMENTATIVE QUESTIONS
thank you for the request !! i hope you like it <33 (ps. vin in his lil snoopy shirt is so cute π₯Ή)
pairing; vinnie hacker x fem!reader
warnings; cussing, use of pet names, bit of angst, arguing, if i missed anything lmk !!
summary; you try a trend you saw on tiktok on your boyfriend but it does not go as planned
today was not the day you expected to start an argument with your boyfriend, but once you saw the video of a new trend going around, you just knew you had to do it.
you watched a few videos, seeing that girlfriends were asking their boyfriends random questions just to start an argument.
you giggled at the reactions the girlfriends got out of their boyfriends, some genuinely taking the questions a bit too serious. οΏΌ
you decided to look through the videos and pick out a few of the questions others had asked.
once you had a handful down on a notepad, you smiled to yourself as you walked with your phone and the notepad into vinnieβs room.
βbaby!β you exclaim, smile on your face as you see the blonde on his bed with hera in his lap.
βwhatβs got you so excited?β vinnie asks as he averts his gaze to you, still petting the cat.
you donβt reply right away. you sit on his bed, making vinnie sit up, hera eventually running off in the room as he does.
vinnie sees the notebook and phone in your hands and puts two and two together.
βanother trend?β he asks, and you give him a wide smile.
you let out an βmhmβ before placing your phone against the lamp on vinnieβs bedside table and starting up the tiktok app to record the two of you.
pressing the record button, the two of you situate yourselves next to each other, vinnie looking at you, ready for what youβre about to get him into.
βi feel like starting an argument,β you tell the camera, averting your gaze to smile at vinnie. βyou ready?β
vinnie sighs but doesnβt protest, he just leans back on his hands and waits for you to ask a question.
βif we were to break up, would you date again?β you ask with such seriousness in your tone of voice, making vinnie almost laugh.
you wait for your boyfriend to respond, you hear a quiet, βoh shit, youβre for real.β before he speaks up.
βnot right away, but yeah.β he replies.
βwrong,β you immediately say before he can get another word out. βwhy would we break up?β
vinnie furrows his eyebrows at you. the question was more rhetorical, but you watch as he starts to speak up.
βwrong?β he asks. βhowβs that the wrong answer?β
βbecause we wouldnβt break up, thatβs how.β you tell him, a smile on your face as you watch his turn into aggravation.
you kiss his cheek to try and soften his mood before you go onto the next question.
βif you tell me youβre hungry but i say im not, would you still order me something?β you decided to ask a bit of a trick question to see if he picks up on it.
vinnie chuckles. βyeah, youβd steal all my fuckinβ food then claim you werenβt hungry after you ate it.β he replies.
you laugh. βcorrect,β you kiss his cheek again before moving on. βiβm on my period β whatβs the one thing i need?β
it takes vinnie half a second to answer. βme, easy.β he replies, and you chuckle.
βwhat?!β he dramatically asks, making you laugh even more. βyouβre always like, βvin come here! vin i want cuddles!ββ
βthe answer is hera, but iβll give you a half point.β you reply, watching as vinnie rolls his eyes.
you fake scoff. βdonβt roll your eyes at me, you know iβm right.β
βyeah okay, well next time your period comes, donβt come whining to me.β
you let out a quiet laugh as you watch your boyfriend cross his arms over his chest like a child who didnβt get his way.
βnext question!β you try to rid the tension in the room, only to definitely have more to come soon.
βone of the guys asked me out to the club but it was only me and them, not you. what would you do?β
you can tell vinnieβs getting frustrated at you and doesnβt want to answer the question, but does anyway.
βtheyβre your friends too, iβd say go ahead.β he responds, to which he already knows youβre about to say heβs wrong.
βiβm wrong, arenβt i?β he asks once he doesnβt hear you reply.
you nod and watch as he scoffs and rubs his hands over his face. vinnie stands up and turns to face you.
with the look in his eyes you can tell heβs aggravated either with you or just with the questions you had asked.
you quickly turn off your phone so the video catches none of the words that are about to be thrown out of vinnieβs mouth.
βwhat the fuck is this?β he asks you, arms thrown into the air. βare you tryna fuck with me? βcause itβs workinββ
your mouth opens to speak but nothing comes out. you didnβt think heβd be so upset with you about this.
you stand, eye level with vinnieβs chest without looking up at him. β baby, iβm sorry.β you stand on your tip toes, giving him puppy dog eyes.
it doesnβt work, though. vinnie backs away from you, arms folded over his chest as he stares down at you.
you try so hard to not run into his arms, you know heβs upset with you, but you just thought itβd be a silly trend to do.
βvinnie, please,β you plead to him, trying to get him to crack so he can stop being mad with you. βit was just a dumb trend, cβmon, you of all people should know that.β
he scoffs, walking away from you. sighing, you sit back on his bed and just wait for him to cool off.
about twenty minutes later vinnie comes back and sees you curled up on his bed with hera in your arms.
βprincess,β vinnie crouches down, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear as he whispers softly. βi know youβre not asleep, my love.β
you smile when you hear him say that sentence. rolling over, you face him with that same smile.
βcan i talk?β he asks ever so softly, not wanting to make you upset again.
he knew his outburst, the tone in his voice, made you upset, and he didnβt want that to happen again.
nodding, you sat up slightly, just enough for vinnie to sit beside you. you rested your head on his chest as he ran his fingers through your hair.
βiβm sorry for getting upset with you. im sorry i ruined what was supposed to be a harmless and funny video.β he apologized to you.
he stroked your hair as he kissed the top of your head, whispering words of affirmation as he does so.
you melt into his touch, soaking up every single word he says to you, along with his apology.
βi really am sorry, sweetheart,β vinnie apologizes again. βto be fair, you do always need me when youβre on your period.β
smacking his chest, you both laugh at what vinnie says, even if it is true.
βitβs okay, vin. youβre right, though,β the two of you giggle. βand hera, so you werenβt totally off.β
both of you hug it out, vinnie apologizes profusely once more before you tell him itβs really okay and everything will be fine.
vinnie kisses you softly, both of you melting into the touch of each other. he cups your cheek and strokes it softly as he leaves kisses all along your face.
βi love you, sweet girl. forever nβ ever, alright?β he tells you, kissing the back of your hand.
you smile and lean in to kiss him again. βi love you more, baby. forever nβ ever.β
happy ending cus i donβt know a life without it !!
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Don't be Mean to Sannie
Pt 2 of stay with me
Pairing: Clingy San x Black/Poc Fem reader
Genre: Fluffy, angst, Smut
Warnings: Jealousy, clingy boyfriend, cheating, kinda?, cursing, arguing, possessiveness, San is kinda Toxic idk lol, mentions of other idols (Wooyoung, Hyunjin and Ryujin)
Smut warning: Kissing, licking, rubbing, public sexual acts, oral sex (F and M receiving), mentions of asshole??, Hard sex, breeding (tbh it was bound to happen I love breeding lol), mentions of pregnancy, Switch San, Switch reader, uh- if im missing something lemme know
A/N: Pt 2 is finally here lol, San has been driving me fucking mad with his selfies they look so fucking good fuck.
Bad smut under the cut
Minors dni
It was around 4pm Friday afternoon, you had the day off today due to some random holiday and you were determined to go out with your friends this time because your besties laid into you last time about ditching them. Not this time, you needed to go out and experience life again, and you were going to, but the only issue? The blood sucking leech that was laying on your bed wet and covered in a towel from the waist down. San was off as well so he came over early this morning to bring you breakfast and he stayed the entire day, you let him know your plans and he agreed to back off, you got into the shower, and he of course started to feel lonely and go in with you. You were still on track to go out despite him fucking you in the shower until the water turned cold, even then when you got out, he felt the need to fuck you on top of the bathroom counter, you felt tired but grabbed a red bull from the kitchen to keep yourself awake. You got dressed in plain grey jogging pants with a cropped jacket to match it, you dried your hair and kept put on your favorite Von Dutch hat (Sans Von Dutch that you stole), and a pair of socks. Then you started to pack up an outfit and your make-up and hair supplies, your plan was simple, the more time you spent around San the more of an opportunity he had to seduce you into staying with him that night.
βWoah, woah where are you going? I thought you were going out tonight?β he said as he leaned up on his elbows.
You continued to gather all the items you needed as you replied. βI am, Iβm getting dressed at Ericaβs house.β
He tilted his head. βWhy? What about our tradition of you letting me watch you get dress?β
βYou mean the tradition of you watching me get dressed until you get horny and jealous then fuck me until Iβm too tired to leave?β You turned to him and folded your arms.
βWell, yeah? Itβs the best part of my Friday night.β He said smiling with his sneaky little grin.
βWell, itβs not the best part of mine, I want to actually go and experience my youth for once San. I canβt keep spending every day and night with you, Iβll go stir crazy.β
βI go stir crazy when I DONβT spend every day and night with you.β He sat all the way up at this point.
βYouβll live, I promise you will, itβs not fair that I canβt see my friends because you want me all to yourself, they want time with me just like you do. Iβm sure your friends miss you too.βΒ You said as you placed your bag next to him on the bed to zip it up.
βI donβt give a damn about that; I only care about you.β He said giving you a duh face.
βThatβs not good San, you should care! Even if you donβt I do and so do they. Iβm not sure what youβre going to do tonight but Iβm going, you should call your friends and see what they are doing. Wooyoung texted me earlier saying he wanted to invite you out anyways.β
βWhy are you texting my best friend?β He said with a bit of irritation in his voice.
βFirst of all, you canβt be clingy AND jealous itβs not good, second of all, we text because you never answer the damn phone when youβre with me.β
βI can be as jealous as I want when my girlfriend looks like you, either way why are you even going out, what does a club have that I donβt? Besides your friends.β He got up to take off his towel and start getting dressed.
You rolled your eyes and shook your head βDonβt do that, donβt make this something itβs not.β
βIβm not making it anything, Iβm just saying why are you getting all dressed to go to some sweaty club and be drooled over by people when you could be home with me getting drooled over.β He said as he looked at you while he buttoned his pants, he hadnβt put on a shirt yet because he knew you had a weakness for his broad shoulders and chiseled abs, even now he was still trying to seduce you.
βMaybe because there is more to life than sitting in my boyfriends face all damn day, I really shouldnβt have to explain this to you.β You had a bit of an attitude in your voice that he immediately picked up on.
βDonβt get an attitude with me.β He said with a serious look.
βI can get whatever I want with you.β You rolled your neck and bit and folded your arms, you shot daggers directly at him and he did the same.
βSo, youβre really starting an argument because I want to spend time with you?β
Β βYou know damn well itβs not about that.β
βThen please tell me whatβs it about?β
βItβs about the fact that you are suffocating me, all I want is a day out with my friends and you canβt put aside your weird ass insecurities to let me enjoy my night if itβs not spent with you. You always manipulate me into staying with you everyday and night and the shit is getting old as hell, I had a life before you, and I damn sure am going to have one with or without you.β You said, anger filling your voice.
βWhat do you mean without me?β
βExactly what I just said, if I canβt go out and enjoy my life without you doing too much thenβ¦well...β you paused, trying to avoid saying something you would regret.
βWell what? Say it Y/N, say what the fuck is really on your mind. I get it, I can be clingy, but you knew I was clingy going into this relationship, even when we were talking, I was clingy and told you that. I understand that I can be a lot but donβt sit here and act like Iβm oh so manipulative all of a sudden. If you want to go out and get felt up on by some sweaty guy at the club then go do that, but donβt be mad if I go do the same thing.β He put on his shirt and started to gather his items so he could leave as well.
βFuck you San, you know Iβm not going out to be a hoe, but youβre right 2 can play that game, if you wanna go and find another bitch good fucking luck. I hope she deals with all your goofy ass bullshit and when she doesnβt donβt fucking call me.β
βWhatever Y/Nβ he started to ignore you and walked out the room, you followed behind him.
βWhatever nothinβ! If you walk out that door right now, I hope you know Iβm going to do exactly what you said and act single as hell tonight.β He froze in front of the door as you stood behind him.
βWhat the fuck did you say?β he said in a monotoned voice. The air seemed like it got thin, and your heart started to pound, you could feel the anger radiating off of him.
βI-I said if you walk out that door, Iβm going to act single as hell tonight.β
He nodded his head and licked his lips; he didnβt say another word just put on his shoes and walked out the door.
βFUCK!β you yelled as you sat down on your couch, this whole situation spiraled so far out of control for no real reason.
β¦
You decided to not let you and Sans argument ruin your night and still went out with your friends, Ericka got a section so luckily you didnβt have to be bothered. Of course, you wouldnβt want any guys talking to you, you were just saying that for argument sake. You were sitting babysitting your one drink and looking like a sad puppy.
βCome on girl get up and dance, stop being sad Iβm sure San will get over it.β Your friend Katrina said as she pulled you out of your seat. You sadly danced along with her as she swayed your body back and forth. You looked off in the distance, all you could think about was-
βSan?β you heard Ericka say, Katrina released you from her grasp and everyone stared in one direction, and you looked over to do the same. Thatβs when you saw it, the worse site ever, your boyfriend with his friends across the club sitting and giggling with a group of women, they were sitting so close, and one even had the audacity to out her hand on his thigh. You started to see red and wanted to march over there but then you felt your friends hand touch your shoulder.
βDonβt do it girl, itβs not worth it.β
She was right, and the best way to get back at him was to get even and even do a bit more.
βYouβre right, lets go dance, Fuck him.β You said with a vengeful smile that your friends shared with you.
Your friend group entered the dance floor and started to dance, you attracted a lot of attention and it felt like the entire room was staring.
A group of guys walked up and offered to buy you and your friends a bottle for your section. You all gladly accepted and sat back down to mingle, one of the men specifically came over to talk to you while you were sipping your drink.
βHello beautiful.β He said flashing a gorgeous smile.
βHiβ you smiled back.
βMay I ask your name beautiful?β now that you were looking at the man, he had longer black hair wit a half pulled back ponytail and half down, he was very handsome his self.
βY/N, itβs a pleasure to meet you.β You reached your hand out to offer him a handshake.
He grabbed your hand and kissed it instead then looked into your eyes.
βHyunjin, and the pleasure is all mine.β
He was a taller man, maybe an inch or two taller than San and had a slender and long build. He took at seat next to you.
βSo, Y/N, are you seeing someone?β he asked, you looked over to the other side of the club and saw San still giggling and laughing with the woman, they seemed to be having a great time, he was giving her all the attention he usually gave you and it burned you up on the inside. You were never the jealous type but to see someone else touching all over what was yours really set a fire inside of you. There wasnβt anything you could do though, but you were single for the night, and you made sure to not let that go to waste.
βNo, well not really, heβs an idiot so now Iβm here.β A little more honest than you wanted to be but that was your truth.
βWell, if he lets a beautiful woman like you out of his site then you are absolutely right, he is an idiot.β
You giggled at him, you two talked for about 15 minutes, your friends and Hyunjins friends went back to the dance floor while you two hung back. San and the girl he was talking to could also be seen still getting chummy, at this point she was damn near in his lap, as if things couldnβt possibly heat up more you saw her lean into his neck, and it took all the strength in your body not to go drag her off of him.
βYou know, if you want, I can help you forget about that guy.β Hyunjin said, you focused back on the conversation.
βHuh, what ?β
βThat idiot guy, I can help you forget all about him, a sexy woman like you shouldnβt be stuck feeling lonely and excuse me if Iβm overstepping but a body like yours shouldnβt go a day without being taken care of.β He said as he glided his long fingers up your thigh, naturally you would have told him to fuck off at this point, but you were pissed, you were hurt and just wanted to take your mind off of San.
βHow so?β you replied in a seductive voice.
He smiled and placed his hand on your other thigh to grip it and pull you closer, he was actually pretty strong for such a smaller man. He placed his hand on the side of your jaw and brought his lips to your ear.
βLet me treat you like how you deserve beautiful; I can take you back to my place and fuck you so good the only thing you would be able to think about is me.β He whispered into the shell of your ear, his smooth voice sent chills down your spine, damn maybe San was right to be worried about the guys in the club.
βAnd how do I know you can do that?β you gave him a flirty little smile and took your hand and placed it over his crotch , it didnβt take long for you to feel his almost fully erect length, you started to breathe a bit heavier and bit your bottom lip.
βDoes that feel like something you need baby?β he said into your ear, he started to drag his soft lips down your neck, you put your neck back a bit to give him more access and closed your eyes. The feeling was new and eased the hurt you were going through, you wanted to focus on the sensation but the only thing on your mind was San, you just wanted him to be touching you like this. You started to imagine it was him starting to slowly kiss down your neck. Imagining it was Sans fingers sliding up your dress and gripping your ass, it was San not Hyunjin telling you βLet me treat you right baby.β
βY/N!β
You shot your eyes open and jumped a bit. Hyunjin stopped and looked over to who was calling your name, it was your friend Katrina.
βExcuse me, your friends are looking for you sir I think they said they were ready to go.β She said.
He smiled at her.
βThank you for letting me know, Y/N make sure you use my number, okay?β Hyunjin said as he got up and waved both of you goodbye before he left.
βGirl what the hell was that?β Katrina said replacing Hyunjins place next to you.
βIβ¦I donβt know.β
βY/N, you need to fix whatever the fuck you got going on with your dude, you canβt be in here letting randoms kiss and touch on you.β
βI knowβ¦β
βWell bitch act like it, go to the bathroom and get yourself together we are about to go.β
You nodded your head slowly and go up to walk to the bathroom.
You opted out of going to the large bathroom instead you chose to go into the single unisex bathroom. You walked in and walked up to the sink and looked into the mirror. You stood looking at yourself in silence before tears started to sit at the corner of your eyes. You fought the urge to cry at the downfall of your relationship and just sighed, you hated to admit it, but you just wished you were at home cuddling with San watching TV while he gave you little kisses. A knock interrupted your thoughts.
βSomeoneβs in here.β You grabbed the towel and started to rub your eyes; you must not have locked the door because you heard the door open while you had your eyes closed to wipe them. The person walked in and walked up behind you.
βKatrina?β
They did respond then pressed their crotch to your butt and hugged you from behind.
ββ¦Hyunjin?β you said as your eyes got wide, and you looked up to the mirror to see who it was.
βIs that what his name was? Iβll remember that when I try to find him to kill him.β
Yeah, that was definitely San.
βWhat the hell are you doing here?β you said. He chose not to reply, he immediately started to kiss your neck, dropping his weight down on you so you had no choice but to start to bend over the sink, you butt pushing against his crotch even more.
"S-San what are-"
"Shut up."
His hands slid up your thigh and immediately went into your panties, his fingers caressed your fold roughly, you let out small moans while trying to stay quiet.
"So that little bastard out there made your slutty little pussy wet or were you just imagining it was me touching you?"
"San!"
"Answer me!" he yelled and with no warning he drove his two fingers into your hole, and you covered your mouth to keep yourself from being too loud, you used your other hand to grip the side of the sink. He drilled his fingers in and out of you like you weren't in public, San has always been the jealous type so honestly his acts of possessiveness shouldn't come as a shock, he hated when someone touches whatβs his.
Let's look at this from San's point of view.
After he left your apartment, he decided to call Wooyoung and take him up on his offer to go out tonight just so he could take his mind off of the fight. Once they were there for 15 minutes San was already over it and ready to get back home and apologize to you so you two could cuddle the night away with his face shoved right between your boobs and your thighs wrapped around his waist. A few girls invited San, Wooyoung and the rest of their friends over to their section and Wooyoung accepted the invite telling San it would be a great distraction. Once in the section San had one drink and a girl sat beside him.
"Can you pour me a drink?" She said smiling at him.
"Sure." San said with an expressionless voice, sure this lady was probably flirting but she wasn't you, so he didn't really care. He poured her a drink and another for himself because alcohol was the only things that would help get him through tonight. San passed the woman the drink and took the other cup for himself.
"Cheers to being young and single?" she said as she held her glass up and waited for San to meet her halfway.
San sighed because the thought of him being single made him cringe but technically you two were being single tonight, so he clinked the womanβs glass, they both tapped their glasses on the table before downing what was in the cup.
"I'm San, it's nice to meet you." He nodded at her.
"Ryujin." she said while putting the cup back down, San decided to pour himself another.
"Woah you're getting fucked up tonight whatβs the occasion?" she said as she watched San drink from his cup.
"I got into a fight with my girlfriend." he said then took another drink of his cup.
"Daaaamn and here I was about to flirt with you." she said with a slight giggle.
"I guess you still can because according to her we are "acting single tonight", whatever the fuck that means."
"Oh fuck what did you do? Bitches don't just say that to say it, you had to do something."
San looked over at her and decided to say fuck it and vent to her, he told her about the fight, and she was honestly intrigued.
"Yeah, it's just like I thought, you're the problem." She said as she finished her cup that San poured her while he was talking, meanwhile he was on his 4th and feeling the effects.
"What the fuck how?" he said, genuinely confused.
"Let that girl loose a bit, you can't keep her locked in a cage and get mad when she wants to break out."
San rolled his eyes.
"Lemme see her."
San quickly pulled out his phone to go toΒ your Instagram, he loved showing you off every chance he got. Ryujin took the phone and scrolled through the various photos you had posted, some of you, your life and of course you and San.
"Oh, wait never mind you're right keep her ass locked up sheβs hot asf."
"See!!" he said looking at her with a red face, she laughed and passed the phone back to him, San started to stalk your page as well, he didn't notice Ryujin scoot closer.
"Honestly San, you two make a sexy ass couple so I hope you work it out."
"Thanks, I do too."
She flashed a devious smile leaned into his neck to whisper in his ear.
" Cause honestly I would love to fuck you both." Sans eyes got wide, and he looked up, he was going to respond but that's when he saw you and Hyunjin and he just froze. Ryujin got up and giggled and walked back to her friends. San was stuck watching Hyunjin kiss and rub on you, just like you, San saw red, he was going to kill that man that dared to touch his precious angel. Who did he think he was? He watched the entire moment up until Katrina stopped it and you walked to the bathroom. When he realized where you were going, he let Wooyoung know that he "had to pee" and followed you. Now your here with his two digits being pushed into you erratically.
"You fucking little slut, how dare you let that peasant touch what's mine. I don't give a fuck about what little fight we got into, I don't ever want to see another manβs hands or lips or anything near you. Do you hear me?" he said while his fingers fucked you so deep and fast that you had to fully behind over almost with your head in the sink, you were a moaning mess at this point.
"You can't talk now whore? Okay that's fine." he took his fingers out of your core as it unclenched and clenched around nothing, like it was begging San to enter you again. He squatted down and pushed your dress up to your waist. He immediately shoved his face into your wet pussy and licked a few stripes from your hole to your clit. You yelp at the feeling of his cold tongue on your hot pussy as he ate it from the back. San stuck his tongue in your hole and started to fuck you with his while his big nose little brushed your asshole. You started to pant and whimper trying to keep yourself together.
A sudden knock on the door scared you but San was unmoved, he continued to fuck you with his tongue.
"Y/N you in there sis?" You heard your friend say on the other side of the door.
San gripped the front of your hips and pulled you down on to his face, he didn't give a single fuck if someone caught you two, if anything he would love it, then you couldn't deny who you belonged to.
"Y-yeah, I'll be out soon." you stuttered.
"Oh, okay then I'll wait here for you."
"NO! I mean...no just wa-ahh~ wait for me at the seeeection please."
Your friend raised an eyebrow behind the door.
"Uh- okay girl." you could hear footsteps walking away from the door and your mind focused back on San silk tongue deep inside your walls. Your knees were weak, and your mind was blanking as you gripped both sides of the wet porcelain sink and leaned into it.
"S-San p-please I can't..."
His hands made their home on both your ass cheeks as he spread them apart to bury his face deep in your dripping pussy, you reached your hand back to push him back, yet your efforts were wasted because San didn't budge.
You could feel yourself reaching your peak, your eyes were rolling to the back of your head as you tightly bit your lip to fight back the moans that threatened to fall from your mouth. Just as you started to feel yourself fall apart San pulled back, he silently breathed heavily and stood up not saying a word, you whined from being denied.
"San please- I need to cum please-" you started to beg.
"No, sounds like something a boyfriend would do, you're single remember?" he walked over to the paper towel dispenser and waved his hand to grab a paper towel from the automatic dispenser and wipe your slick from his mouth and chin. You watched him move about in the bathroom with your eyebrows arched and your pussy still pulsing, waiting for someone to finish the job.
"Call the one guy, what was his name again? Hyun-?"
"Fuck you San." you said pulling your panties back up with an aggressive attitude.
"Nope." He said before walking out the door like nothing ever happened.
You exited the bathroom to rejoin your friends and leave the club, the next morning you woke up with a throbbing hangover headache and an empty bed. Usually San would be here, especially on weekends, sleeping under you while you woke up with his strong arms wrapped around you and his plush lips kissing the shell of your ear to wake you up, but not today. You grabbed your phone from your nightstand and see no text from San but one from Hyunjin, guess you must have given him your number last night, when you opened the message, it read:
"Good morning beautiful, would love to take you out to breakfast, or have you for breakfast π"
you rolled your eyes, you forgot how much guys sucked, you were so used to being treated with the utmost respect by San that regular men disgusted you. You needed your man back and you needed him back now. Later in that day you decided to put your pride aside after not hearing from San and called him, the phone rang a few times before he answered, his background was noisy, and he was obviously with others.
"Hello?" you said first.
"What's up, I'm busy." He said speaking over the noise.
"I...I wanted to talk to you..." you said softly.
"Talk? What?"
"Can we talk, I wanna talk about what happ-"
"San get off the phone and come back." you could hear a female voice say, it made your stomach drop.
"Listen I gotta go, talk to you when ever bro." he said then silence, he hung up on you and called you bro? This shit was sick, you needed to do something. You texted San asking him to stop by that night if he was free so you could talk, your friends invited you out as well, but you decided to stay in since San texted you back saying he would try to stop by later. Unfortunately, later never came, you waited for hours for him to come by until you passed out curled up in your bed. You woke up feeling sad that you were on the second day without making up with San, this wasn't normal, this wasn't San. Fuck it though! If this was how he was going to act then fine, two can play that game!
And you would be the loser, a fully work week had passed and it was Friday night once again. You and San hadn't spoken since the last text, and you could put your pride aside again to reach out first, but damn was it killing you. You missed him so much and it was driving you crazy, between the overall sadness of him not being around and your horniness. You even decided to say fuck it and text back Hyunjin to pass the time, but no one could compare to San. You laid in your robe, fresh out the shower sprawled out on your bed just staring at the ceiling. Your phone started to ring next to you and you grabbed it to see who it was, your eyes got wide as you saw the 3 lettered name with a purple heart emoji flashed across the screen. You could feel your heart start to beat faster, you breathed in and out a few times before answering.
"What do you need San?" you said trying to play it cool.
"My biker jacket, I left it at your house, and I need it for tonight I'm at your door."
You got somewhat excited but tried to keep up your front.
"You got a key sir."
"I didn't want to just walk into your apartment, plus I don't know where I put it."
"Neither do I." oh but you did but letβs act coy for now.
"Look, are you going to open the door or not?"
"Fine, here I come." you hung up and speedily ran to the door as you pulled your bonnet off and fixed your hair a bit in the mirror by your door, you didn't have time to change but at least your robe was nice and short and showed a good amount of cleavage. you made it to the front door and calmed yourself before you opened it, when you opened it, you saw San standing there in a dark blue jean set with a black tank top.
"I thought you came over for your jacket you look pretty dressed to me."
"It's for tomorrow..." he said slightly annoyed.
"You're going out today and tomorrow?"
"Y/N why does that matter can I come in to look?"
You rolled your eyes and walked back toward your bedroom while San shut the door and started to shut the door behind him.
"Uh uhn, take your shoes off, you know better."
"Are you being serious? I'm only going to be here for a second."
"I don't care you're not about to be walking on my bedroom carpet with shoes on." Yes, it was only a small fluffy area rug but who cares.
He shook his head and went back to the door to remove his shoes and you both walked to the bedroom. You took a seat at your vanity, and he started to look through your closet. You started to brush your hair out to get ready for your night, you were invited out by your friends but since you and San were "single" you wanted to act just as bad as San and Hyunjin invited you over and you accepted. As San was digging through your closet, he noticed you getting ready.
"Plans with your friends tonight?β he said as he continued to look.
"No... someone else." you said as you also continued your task.
"oh... who?" he questioned
"That's not really any of your concern now is it?" you said quickly
"I guess not, must be a date then."
"Maybe."
"Well good for you, hope he isn't clingy and annoying like I was."
"San I never said you were annoying."
"Right, you just treated me like I was."
"Oh my fucking god for someone with so much to say you sure have been ignoring my existence all week." You said as irritation started to leaked into your voice.
"Why would I contact someone that just broke up with me?" He said, knowing it was pressing your buttons.
"I never broke up with you San, you're just over fucking dramatic."
"Sorry I give a fuck about you."
"Whatever San hurry up and find your shit so I can go."
"Well get up and help me since you want me gone so bad."
You rolled your eyes once again and walked over to meet him at the closet and pushed him out the way.
"I put all your stuff in a box move so I can get it."
He moved out your way to sit on the bed and watch you, you stood on your tippy toes to reach to the top of the closet shelf to get the box, San was going to get up to help you instead of watching you struggle but your short silk robe was rising and revealing a bit of the bottom of your ass so he chose to sit back and watch instead.
"Where are you going on your little date?"
"No where, he just invited me to his house to watch movies and hang out."
"Netflix and chill? What is this guy 16?"
"Haha so funny." You said as you finally reached the box and brought it down, you walked over to the bed and placed it down next to him, you were about to walk back over to finish getting ready, but you felt a strong set of hands yank you back by your hips and pull you onto his lap.
"You're really going to go out to get some dick from some random."
You felt your face heat up, you missed the feeling of Sans touch and being able to sit in his lap, but you couldn't fold just yet.
"He's not random, it's the guy I met at the club the other day."
"Oh so you're going to go fuck him while some random movie is playing right?"
"N-no one is fucking me San, and you're one to talk, you had a girl all over you in the club and when I called you, I heard some girl in the background, how do I know you aren't fucking someone?" said while wrapping your arms around his neck and looking into his eyes, your big doe eyes could melt him right now.
"Because no one will ever be you."
"And no one can ever replace you San..."
You two gave each other a longing gaze before you both threw your pride out the window and your lips connected for a slow and passionate kiss, Sans hands still gripping your hips while one of them glided up the side of your body to rub your back and pull you in closer. The kiss progressed and you switched your position to straddle him, his other hand returned to your hips as he began to rock your hip against his crotch, a light moan came out of your mouth and entered his.
"I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry for what I said and saying you're too clingy... this whole week all I wanted was for you to be here." you said as you cupped his sharp jaw.
"I'm sorry too, I need to learn to give you space sometimes." you both smile at each other then he pecked you on your lips one again.
"Well... does this mean we are back together?"
"Boy we never broke up." You said giggling at him.
"The way you were acting in the club I couldn't tell."
"... right... I'm sorry about that."
"It's okay Angel, but you gotta make it up to me now."
"And how would you like me to do that?"
"I don't know, he's been so lonely without you keeping him warm, so how about you say sorry to him too."
You already knew exactly who "He" was, you got off the bed and sunk down to your knees in front of San, he laid back while sitting up using his elbows and giving you full control. You unbuttoned his jeans to and shimmed them down his hips to the middle of his thigh, Sans dick was already so hard that you could see the print of if through his boxers. You cupped his length and started to rub it up and down then looked up at him with a lustful gaze.
"Did I make you this hard baby?"
"Yes, ma'am." He said as he hissed from the sensitivity.
"I need you so bad Y/N you don't understand how much I've missed you."
You pulled his underwear down as his beautiful rock-hard dick sprung out, you wrapped your fingers around his girth and pumped a few times as he continued to hiss and watch you.
"Mm, tell me how much you've missed me, Sannie."
The mix of the nickname and your hand jacking his dick was killing him but then you started to kiss up his shaft and he swore he could cum right then and there but chose to wait.
"So much baby, I couldn't even go one night without wanting to eat your sweet pussy or fuck you into this bed." You kissed your way up to his red tip that had precum drooling out of it, you cleaned it up with one long and slow stripe from the bottom to the top of his dick.
"Oh really? Why didn't you come and fuck me then Sannie? You always say this pussy is yours."
He gulped as you finally stopped teasing him and took him into your wet and hot mouth. Bobbing your head slowly as you made it to the middle of his dick and then coming back up to the tip just too slowly go back down. San whimpered a bit at the feeling, this was somewhat foreign for him. He rarely ever let you suck his dick because he loved to worship you, constantly wanting to kiss and drag his tongue across every inch of your body. When you did get the chance to suck him off it was always such an experience because San was rarely so submissive and whiny.
"Sannie, I asked you a question baby." You said to a very dazed San. "Why didn't you come and fuck me like the slut I am and put me in my place." you continued to tease him, returning your mouth to his length, and going even deeper on it, Sans incredibly adorable whimpering was music to your ears, he started to breathe heavy while his ears and face felt hot with a red blush taking over.
"I-I wanted to make you wait, s-so I could make you beg." He said biting back his moans.
You once again removed your mouth from his dick and used your hand to pump it, coating his dick in your saliva.
"And how did that work out for you? It looks like I'm about to have you begging me to cum."
Before he could reply your mouth was back on him, going deeper, his tip scraping the back of your throat, he couldn't hold back anymore, and pretty moans feel out of his soft lips. His hand flew to the back of your head to help you keep a steady motion up and down his rod.
"Fuck Y/N if you keep going, I'm going to cum down your throat." He groaned; you could feel his grip getting tighter on your hair while he rolled his hips for him to go deeper into your mouth. You looked up at him to see him falling apart, his mouth was agape as sighs and whimpers fell out, you could tell he was at his breaking point already, your eyes met and the next thing you know he said a drug out "Fuuuuuck" then hot liquid shot directly down your throat and you swallowed as it dripped out, but it started to become too much and you pulled back as you started to choke. The rest of the cum dripped down onto his underwear and down his shaft. You finished swallowing what was in your mouth then licked the remainder from off his dick.
"I guess you haven't been seeing anyone else, that was a lot." you said as you stood up. San didn't reply, he was too busy catching his breath. "Tired already baby? We aren't done yet." you undid the knot in on your robe to reveal your fully nude body underneath, it was like a cartoon the way Sans dick immediately started to get hard again. He removed his shirt and jacket and finished taking off his pants, he laid back down on his back and you straddled him, you hovered you soaking core over his hard dick as Sans hands sat on your hips, you leaned down to give him a quick peck before easing down his length, wincing a bit when you felt him enter you. San's head flew back onto the bed, and he moved back and forth between putting his head back and watching your pussy swallow him. Moans could be heard from both of you as you reached the base of his dick, even just fully sitting on San made you feel full, riding him was always a challenge.
"You're so fucking beautiful my love, but please move you're driving me crazy." He said trying to focus on anything but cumming again.
You placed your hands on both of Sans broad shoulders and started to move your body up and down his length.
"You're so fucking big San I can't take it." you said between your moans, his grip on your hips became tighter, you could even start to feel his nails.
"Yes you can beautiful, you take me so well, this pussy was made just for me right?"
You continued bouncing on him as you sped up the pace, your walls pulsing around him.
"Yes, only for you baby."
"I need more baby, I need more." San said, you were already stuffed full of him so what else could he possibly want. Suddenly you felt San lift you off of him and place you on your back next to him as he got on top of you. He place himself between your legs and placed your legs on his shoulders. Before you could even question it, he slid back into your velvet walls and started to thrust into you at a fast pace. You cried out then he leaned forward to muffle your moans with a kiss, he swallowed every cry into his mouth.
"I'm sorry baby I've missed you so much I just need to fuck into you so bad."
San was like a dog in heat the way that his strokes were fast and sloppy, he just needed to feel you, he felt crazy not having you wrapped around him for a week, he doesn't even wait that long when it's your time of the month. He placed his head into the crook of your neck as he continued to pound into you, you could hear his heavy breathing.
"You feel so fucking good baby, I want to cum in you so bad, feel you up nice and full." as the words finished leaving Sans lips your moans got louder and your pussy started to squeeze him, San being San of course noticed your reaction and decided to see how far he could go.
"Do you want that pretty? Do you want me to fill this pussy up?"
"Mm, San... please..." You said not wanting to admit to wanting it because you knew that would unleash a whole other demon you weren't sure you were ready for.
"Please what baby? You want me to cum in you and put a baby in your belly? Then everyone would for sure know you're mine, right?"
His thrusting became relentless, all you could do was moan and call his name, tears started to form in your eyes because of the amazing sensation you were feeling, you started to see the light at the end of the tunnel and Sans words only made it worse.
"Would you like that baby? Want me to make you a mommy?" he said, you tried to fight replying but you couldn't even think straight anymore, words just began to fly out.
"Fuck, yes please San, please cum in me! I want to have all your babies please Sannie, please."
San smiled and on command you started to feel his hot cum shoot into you, you swore you could feel him filling up your womb, San continued to fuck you while you felt his dick jumping inside of you, you started to cum as well. Covering every each of him in your slick, once San was done, he kept himself plugged into you and wrapped his arms around you.
"I love you so much Y/N."
You giggled at how cute he can be after rearranging your insides and hugged him back "I love you too San."
Your phone started to ring, and you reached over to grab it, you noticed it was now almost 2 hours after your meet up time for your date and he was calling. San took the phone and answered it for you.
"Hello?"
"Hello? Who is this?"
"This is Y/N's husband, sorry she won't be talking to you anymore." San simply said as he hung up and laid his head back on your chest.
"San that was mean!"
"I don't care."
You rolled your eyes because why did you expect him to care?
Bonus:
After getting cleaned up and after a bath and some decompressing and Sans friends also calling happy that you two made up you and San got dressed for bed. He cuddled his head into your bosom while you played in his hair.
"Y/n, were you being serious earlier?"
"About what?"
"Do you really want to have my baby?"
"...Well... yeah"
"Like now?"
"I mean, if it was to happen now, I wouldn't be upset about it."
San popped his head up like a puppy when his owner seeing his owner come home.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I mean I love you and I do see myself being with you for the rest of my life so... why not?"
"Oh my God Y/N that's all you had to say! Come on let's go to the store and buy some pregnancy test and some ovulation and fertility test and-"
you interrupted his excited rambling by placing your hand on his shoulder.
"San... it's 1 am, calm down, weβll prep everything in the next few days."
"...You're right...I'll calm down."
"Good-"
"But we gotta make sure you're good and pregnant, that means we have to go a few more times." he said with the cutest little smile.
"I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight." You whispered to yourself
The answer was no, no you werenβt.
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β³ warnings: this is rated for 18+ only! minors, please do not interact. smut, oral m! and f!receiving, fingering, joel is emotionally distant because the world has gone to shit, violence (reader gets hit once by a FEDRA soldier), mentions of blood and wounds, angst!!!, no use of y/n. let me know if i forgot anything.Β
β³ a/n: WADDUP PARTY PEOPLE!!! were back again with another post outbreak!joel miller one shot, horrible canva graphic done by yours truly, and a quiet obsession with this idea while i had covid.
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He deserves it all.Β
You know that for certain.Β
And they were all right about him, dangerous.Β
But maybe they only spewed a half truth. Because yes, dangerous. But only because he shouldn't feel so good, shouldn't be so gentle, shouldn't call you baby, and angel, and sweetheart, and darlinβ.Β
Youβve been morphed into a daredevil by kisses and soft touches and two fingers notched inside your wanting cunt while his tongue slides over your bundle of nerves.Β
If Joel Miller is dangerous, you're willing to risk it all.Β
βHeβs not a good man.βΒ
βYou donβt know that,β you said, shaking your head.Β
βI know what heβs done. Heβs β dangerous.β
βBut does that make him a bad man?βΒ
βIt certainly doesnβt make him a good one.β
___
βGood morning,β you say, zipping up the front of your jacket, doubling the extra layer of warmth. Itβs freezing today, and youβve managed to fit both of your long sleeves under your coat.Β
You smile at him, like always. Almost practiced, almost rehearsed. And he always gives you a gruff nod, and saysβ
βMorninβ.βΒ
βCold out,β you acknowledge, following in stride, a stair behind him. Your boots slap down onto the wood but it only creaks under the weight of his body. He slumps down the steps, one big, heavy foot in front of the other. You notice how he waits for you to go first when you both round the corner.Β
He just grunts in response. Heβs not rude, or mean. Itβs just how he is. Itβs what youβve gotten used to. But thereβs something different in his tone this time. The etches marked in his face right between his eyebrows are stronger and his lip quivers on the right side, shaking with an uncertainty that changes his entire face into something youβre not quite sure youβve ever seen before. A face like heβs worried about something.Β
You both get to the bottom of the stairs, nearing the entrance to the building. This is the part where he goes his way and you go yours. You follow the sunβs path, towards your daily jobs, he goes towards the ration line, towards other Areas. Itβs just how it is.Β
Until it isnβt.Β
You know him.
Well, thatβs not to say muchβeveryone knows him. But youβve had the lucky chance of actually meeting him. Not really knowing him. But you know who he is and the deep, dark, drawl of his voice.Β
If someone were to say, βHey, you know Joel Miller, right?βΒ
Youβd honestly probably say no.Β
But thatβs just because truly knowing Joel Miller comes with its consequences.Β
But you do know he always wears his green flannel when itβs a little chilly out. You know his mug broke and that he needed to borrow one of yours a couple days ago. And you can hear every time he opens his door. Whether heβs inviting someone in, or seeing someone out is a different story. A story you donβt care to find out.Β
And maybe thatβs enough to know himβor so you thought.Β
You see him.
Everyday.Β
Same time.Β
Same place.Β
Whoever previously stayed in your apartment left an open unit for you to settle into when you first arrived in Boston three months ago. Theyβre probably dead now. You try not to think of that fact too often. You kept to yourself mostly. Almost a βspeak when spoken toβ situation. You felt like you were back in Sunday school.Β
But then, when you had settled into your new routine, you saw him. Same time, same place, everyday.Β
You know Joel Miller leaves his apartment at 8:02 am. You figured itβs because he tells himself to be out the door by 8:00 am but doesnβt actually start leaving until the hour hand hitsβjust like you. You know that he prefers to take the back stairs, just like you. And you also know that he heads straight for the ration lines when the fresh air finally hits.
You like to watch him as he walks away, stalking in another direction, almost into a different world.
He barely speaks to you. Maybe less than two words per sighting. Youβre not really looking for a thought provoking conversation, but a conversation might be nice.
Though, you canβt really focus on much besides how handsome you think he is. You even saw him smile once. His face turned kind of boyish. You had said something about needing coffee, desperately, and he actually smiled.Β
It almost felt like something normal.Β
Maybe in some sick and backwards way you thought you two were friends. But, in retrospect, that mightβve been silly. Because in reality, you canβt stop thinking about him. You wake up, having replaced your need for coffee by the thought of seeing him.Β
Whatβs he going to wear today?Β
Is he gonna look at you?
Whatβs he going to say? Something practiced? Something new?
You always hope for the latter.Β
You like how he scares people. How he can cut the radio comm line and the most anyone would dare say is garbled into a low and nonthreatening, thereβs a line here. How he seems to put on a front, but in those fleeting minutes when you both walk in tandem down the back stairs, he doesnβt put it on. Not for youβnot in front of you. You tried not to let that get to your head. But Joel Miller mixed with polite small talk, and good mornings, and you canβt help but feel special. So that stupid naive part of you thought that you knew him. You heard stories of him, sure. But decidedly, you donβt really know him. Not like that.Β
Because just as you give him a small smile and turn to walk off in the opposite direction, he grabs your arm.Β
Itβs not hard or threatening. Heβs surprisingly soft, almost gentle. His hand is so starkly warmβa living furnace. He pulls you back to the stairwell, you get so flustered that you trip over yourself, but he holds you up. He looks down at you, and heβs still got that worried look on his face masked by something eerily calm.Β
The hand on your bicep doesnβt moveβeven when you relax your arm. You wouldnβt dare speak. His presence sewed your mouth shut, one look and youβre a ghost. He looks you up and down, his eyes catching at your chest, your lips, your heated cheeks. Almost like itβs the first time heβs really seen you.Β Β
You highly doubt that though.Β
Did he notice when a firefly left your apartment in the dead of night?
Did he care that you ventured into the world of pleasure over good judgment?Β
You think he does.Β
βYou need to be careful,β he drawls, finite, stern.Β
You let your eyes go big, your mouth parts. Itβs the most this man has ever said to you, let alone touch you. Youβve never been this close to him. The air is so cold your breath puffs out in clouds. Your heels dig into the molding of the wall.Β
βAround Area 3,β he clarifies when you remain silent.Β
You can feel his hand push into the layers covering your arm. It seeps something sickly down to your bones. Even through the thickness of it, his hand is warm, and his grip is inviting.Β
He has big eyes. Itβs really the only thing you can think about. You can only see Joel Millerβs big puppy dog eyes staring down at you. Theyβre black, pitch-dark. Maybe in the light they might be brown. You wonder if you'll ever see them look at you in any other way. You silently hope you will.Β
His grip tightens a fraction of an inch, pushing you back into the wall a little. Almost like heβs saying β do you hear me?
βWhy?β you manage to squeak out.Β
βJustββ he huffs, maybe sighs, ββdonβt get too close. Itβs dangerous.β
It almost seems like heβs waiting for you to respond. To confirm that you hear him and that you understand. Acknowledge that youβll at least try to be safe. Though you both know safety around these parts are few and far between.Β
And maybe you should be careful, because the most dangerous thing right now is that Joel Millerβs got you pinned to the wall. Where no one can see either of you. Or hear the darkened drawl whispering off his scruff into a white cloud. But youβre not really scared, and you silently think you should be.Β
Dangerousβeveryone had said to you when you first got here. Heβs fucking dangerous. But how can dangerous be spelled out into something kind? How can dangerous look like he doesnβt ever want to let you go?
βOkay,β you say, breathless. He releases your arm, it leaves its mark burned into you. He backs away from you with his eyes studying yours. You donβt move, and he nods towards the exit.
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Joel was right. About Area 3.Β
A day later, youβre walking to the ration lines and you can hear the trucks rolling through. You pick up your speed, put your head down, and try to walk a little faster.Β
βMiss?βΒ
Shit.Β
Youβre almost there. Just a couple more blocks.Β
βMiss, you canβt be out here,β it calls out again. You donβt recognize the voiceβyou keep walking.Β
βHey!β he says, pulling at your arm. You fight away, but he hits you across the face and you fall, clutching your cheek with a cold palm. The sting is dulled, your vision wobbles a little and you begin to taste something metallically and familiar looming against the inside of your cheek.Β
βYou fuckinβ deaf?β the soldier says, picking you up roughly by an arm. Heβs not warm. Or soft. Or surprisingly gentle.Β
βFuck off,β you bite back, standing, pushing out of his grip, and shaking your jacket of the dust. It flutters off you like soot while you stumble back onto the curb.Β
βI saidβgoββ the soldier grabs at his gun slung lazily over his shoulder, ββhome.β
βI need to get to the lines,β you say, making a move towards your original direction. He grabs you again, and your head hits the brick wall behind you with a thunk.Β
βWeβre under curfew,β he growls. The safety of his rifle notched under a gloved finger unlatches with a click. The front of the barrel comes up to kiss your forehead. βLast chance.β
You hear your name get called from down the street and freeze, silently cursing to yourself. A fast approaching voice accompanies your beating heart. It snakes around your lungs and gives you a good squeeze.Β
βI got her, Davis,β Joel says, pushing the soldierβs body away from you, wedging himself, etched with a stern look, between you and Davis. The gun now sits soundly against Joelβs chest. The part of your forehead that kissed the metal aches.Β
βGet outta here, Miller,β he warns, shaking his head, like Joel should know better, like Joel should be smarter, like Joel shouldn't be risking everything for you. But he doesnβt move. He pushes the soldier back with a stern palm on the front of his bullet proof vest. Davis stumbles a little, backing away, his feet falling off the curb and onto the dirty street.Β Β
βI got her.β
A tense couple beats. You pick at the skin of your pointer finger, running your nail over the ridge of your knuckles. You can hear more trucks barreling down the streets as you wait. Your lungs havenβt been reprieved of their tightness yet.
βDonβt fuck with me,β Davis shakes his head, pushing away from Joelβs hand. You watch silently over his shoulder.Β
ββM not.βΒ
βGo home,β Davis warns under his breath, looking around the street for any signs of life, βdonβtβ fucking come out until morning.β
βYeah,β Joel breathes out, βalright.β
βI mean it,β he says, βand keep her locked in,β he points a warning finger over Joel's shoulder at you. βThey see you, it's on sight.β
βWe're good,β Joel says, shielding your body from Davis, like your own bullet proof vest. Armor. A personal chest plate and helmet and knee pads combined into one man. Maybe thatβs what should feel dangerousβthat you feel so safe between Joel Miller and a brick wall where all you can do is watch in earnest.Β
βAnd I want double β next time,β Davis adds, latching the safety of his gun back on and straightening out his vest.Β
βJust get outta here,β Joel says, backing away towards the apartment. You follow him. The soldier goes the opposite direction.Β
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Your hands are shaking.Β
Theyβre shaking as you close the door, and forget to lock it. Theyβre fucking shaking when you slip out of your jacket and unsheath the knife from your waistband.Β
You can see your right hand, coming up as if an instinct to touch your cheek, the redness on your fingertips are the only indication you need. You try to rub the pads of your fingers together to erase the evidence of damage. But it doesnβt disappear. It never does.Β
βShit,β you mumble. Your fucking cheek hurts.Β
Heβs so quiet. He doesnβt even knock, just slips into your apartment. You only hear him shut the door with a click and you spin around, grabbing at the knife left strewn on the table. Your hands fumble on the handle.Β
βWhatβre youβ¦β
Joel gestures to something in his hand, then towards the fast forming bruise on your cheekbone. You drop the knife on the table.Β
βIce,β he says in that southern drawl that pulls on that place between your thighs.Β
You suddenly donβt care about the cut on your cheek, or the blood or the bruises. He takes in your apartment, noting each and every thing that makes you so starkly different from him. How you put up curtains, a table cloth you found in some antique shop before arriving in Boston, canned food that youβve been saving.Β
βYou didnβt have toββ you say, nodding towards the window, towards outside. Then towards your cheek, the black and blue littered there.Β
You didnβt have to do any of it.
βYou okay?β is all he says in reply.Β
βYeah. Thank you.βΒ
βI ββ he shakes his head, ββIβm sorry.β
βYou warned me,β you huff out through a lazy kind of laugh. He doesnβt even smile. But you want him to. You want to see the way it transformed his face. The things you would do to see his lips pull and maybe, just maybe, youβd give anything to hear him laugh.Β
βStill,β he mumbles, finally looking at your eyes instead of your cheek.Β
Heβs not a good man.
You think to yourself that he is.Β
βYouβre dripping,β you say, nodding towards his hand clutching onto the ice leaving behind a small puddle seeping through his knuckles. The drops fall in tune with a second hand ticking away against the face of a clock.Β
He looks down, but doesnβt say anything, just stalks towards you, tentatively. Like youβre a scared, jumpy cat heβs trying to approach. You sit back against the table and dig your nails into the wood.Β
βI shouldβveβ¦β he whispers, nearing your legs outstretched towards him, βshouldβve killed him,β his eyes flick to your cheek, βfor what he did.β
You shake your head at his words. You silently think to yourself maybe thatβs the only thing he knows for certainβthe only thing he knows how to do. To get his hands dirty for someone he cares about, so that the blood wonβt ever come off his soiled palms. Like your fingertips, like the bed of your nails.
He huffs a long sigh, you look into his eyes for anything but wind up empty handed.Β
The ice bites into your open palms. He rustles with it before placing the little pack into your fingers, his, all encompassing and brushing over yours and turning them ice cold and burning hot at the same time. Heβs close, and he keeps staring at your lips when heβs not occupied with your cheek.
Dangerous smells like pine and musk and dangerous has got you wrapped around his finger.Β
βJoel,β you whimper.Β
He shakes his head, βDonβt.βΒ
Donβt say his name, not like that. And donβt make those breathy sounds and certainly donβt look at him like that. Because itβs been way too long for him and youβre too good and he is too fucking bad.Β
So you donβt say anything. But you pull him closer against your body, wedged between something scary and something soft and sweet, tipping on the edge. One foot on either side of the thin line.Β
He just sighs, pushes out a heavy breath, trying to contain himself. Like he canβt believe this is really happening, despite everyoneβs better judgment. Despite his own.Β
βIββ his voice quivers, he almost shakes his head, but it just pulls you two closer together.Β
βYou donβt want to?β you whimper, entranced by the way his breath punches on top of your nose. You think if you dragged your lips down his chest you would be able to feel his steady heartbeat.Β
ββS been a while,β he admits through ragged whispered breaths.Β
βBut do youβ¦?β you question, placing your hands on his forearms, pulling him impossibly close until heβs slotted between your open legs. The ice is abandoned on the table to melt with your discernment.Β
He nods and gives you a certain lookββcourse I do. His lip pulls a little, looking down suddenly towards your chest. Pleading with himself.Β
A losing battle.Β
Maybe he thinks he isnβt worthy.Β
You pull him forward, kiss him, throw your arms around his shoulders and he picks you up off the table at that, finding your bedroom through the mess.Β
Youβre convinced that he is.
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As it turns out, dangerous feels fucking amazing. It tastes like something oddly sweet. It definitely shouldn't feel as good as it does. It shouldnβt be sweet nothings, and grunting, pleading whispers wrapped around a heady background tune.Β
βJoel,β you moan. This time he doesnβt stop you, ββfuck,β you whimper, tangling your face into the sheets, dragging his hands over your body.Β
You kiss his neck, his pulse strums as strong as you thought it might be.
βDarlinβ, Iββ he grunts softly, ββare you sureββΒ
βYes,β you puff out, βyes, I β yes.β
You want to give him things. You want to be the softness for him to come back to in those early mornings and those late nights. You want it all, you want it with him. You want him to be gentle like you know he canβrelax in the way he never does because he pleads with himself that he shouldn't.
He deserves it all.Β
You know that for certain.Β
And they were all right about him, dangerous.Β
But maybe they only spewed a half truth. Because yes, dangerous. But only because he shouldn't feel so good, shouldn't be so gentle, shouldn't call you baby, and angel, and sweetheart, and darlinβ.Β
Youβve been morphed into a daredevil by kisses and soft touches and two fingers notched inside your wanting cunt while his tongue slides over your bundle of nerves.Β
If Joel Miller is dangerous, you're willing to risk it all.Β
βFuckβOh myβgod, Joelββ you whine and pull at the curls at the base of his neck.Β
βTaste so good, angel,β he whispers against your cunt, quickening his pace, a man starved.Β
You push out something sounding close to his name. He looks wrecked, you know you probably look worse. His fingers crook somewhere deep inside you, you garble out something coherent only to your mind. Youβre sensitive, but heβs gentle. The firefly didnβt do this, you didnβt even ask him to.Β
Your name is something broken on his lips, burying his tongue deep into your cunt, tasting you, lapping up your wetness smeared across the inside of your thighs. The ceiling might be spinning, but youβre too fucked out to care. For an out of practice man, Joel Miller seems to be an expertβlike riding a bike. His mouth is warm and soft and gentle and he keeps going until you have to push his head away.Β
He says those fucking words again, something desperate behind his pleading eyes.Β
ββS been a while.β
You donβt acknowledge them, just push him back, until he's sitting at the edge of the bed, running your hands across his chest.Β
βSweetheartβ¦β he says, a feeble attempt to stop you.Β
βRelax,β you laugh a little, running your hands down to his belt, the tell tale sound of the metal clinking makes you slither your way down to kneel, until your faceβyour mouth, is perfectly, lazily hung over the bulge in his pants.Β
βYou donβtβfuckβdonβt have to,β he groans, tangling his fingers in your hair. You almost whimper, everything threatening to boil over when he cups your face, pushing his thumb tenderly into your uninjured cheek.Β
βI want to,β you whimper.Β
He almost looks pained.Β
Your hands find the button and the zipper, and pull it down as you reach forward to kiss him. He moans into your mouth, already hard just from your featherlight touches. When you pull him out of his boxers, the hand on your cheek reaches around to grasp your jaw, angling your head to look up at him.Β Β
He breaks the kiss, you wrap your hand around him experimentally.Β
βFuckββ he groans, and his eyes flutter shut. You try to move your lips down towards his length, but he keeps you there, looking at him.Β
ββM not gonna last,β he whispers.Β
You whimper at the prospect.Β
βItβs okay,β you whisper back.
Itβs a shame. You realize. That itβs been a while for him. You want him to feel good. You want him to feel better. He doesnβt think heβs a good man. He doesnβt think heβs good enough for you.Β
You know that he is.Β
He removes his hand.Β
You take him into your mouth.Β
βF-fuckββ he groans, locking his hand back into your hair. You swirl your tongue over the head of his cock and he throws his head back, looking up at the ceiling for something to focus on.Β
βBabyβIββ he pants, his fingers bury into your roots and lock onto your bed sheets beneath him. His desperate breath shoots right to your core. Youβre no doubt dripping with need when he accidentally grinds his hips into your mouth.
βShitββ he sits forward a little, taking your head between his two big palms, ββM sorry, darlinβββΒ
You cut him off, his words are swallowed with his own grit. You take him deeper, adding your hand to the parts you canβt quite reach.Β
βGood?β you say, lapping at the underside of his cock before taking him in your mouth again.Β
βYeah,β he groans, βyeah, fuckinββgood.β
Your mouth fits tight around the base of his cock. He swallows back moans. His hands become desperate, like his panting breath and his fucked out expression.Β
He spills into your throat, pushing his hips up into your mouth until you choke on him. He tastes like desperate gasps, stolen glances, good mornings, goodnights, and be carefuls. His eyes look lighter, like you thought theyβd be in the sunlight.Β
You pull yourself off of his cock, resting your head on his thigh, sitting back on your heels so you can look up at him. His fingers are still rooted in your hair. Itβs silent for a few short moments. You can still taste him on your tongue. His hand runs across the top of your head, and down to your shoulders and settles to rest on the outside of your throat.Β
And you laugh.Β
And he smiles.Β
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SEVEN ROYALTIES
βonce upon a time a prince mistakenly fell in love with the wrong princessβ β kim sunoo
kim sunoo x fem!reader genre: mistakenly falling in love , strangers to lovers , fluff , a bit of angst ! warnings: none (at least not that im aware of! please update me if you find anything!!) || NOT FULLY PROOFREAD !!
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NOTE. besties its been A REAL WHILE!! iβve been trying to balance my life but i fail miserably honestly. i wrote all of this on one of my free days instead of studying for math!!π you better like it or iβll cry. please leave feedbacks!! i love reading them!! hope you have a good day / afternoon / evening / night!! mentions of jungwonβs story are here too!!<3
βy/n did you forget you have manners class today? get up!β your mother was the one to wake you up after your maids failed attempts, she pulled your blanket away and you groaned.
manners classes always annoyed you. probably because it had something to do with βhow to act in front of your future husbandβ rules and manners.
βdo i have to go?β you whined. your mother raised her eyebrow, βdid you really just ask me that question?β
you rolled your eyes and got up, βiβm up, you can go nowβ
she left your room without saying anything else. you sighed loudly and sat on your bed.
βgood morning your highness, letβs get you readyβ one of your maids smiled softly at you.
βgive me only five more minutesβ you begged and she shook her head, βyour mother will get furious if youβll be lateβ
you closed your eyes in defeat, you know sheβs right. sometimes you wish your mother wouldnβt be so strict about everything in your life.
after getting ready you rushed to eat dinner with your parents, who were already waiting for you.
βmother, fatherβ you greeted them, without even a good morning.
your relationship with your parents is quite weird. if youβd be asked to address it you wouldβve said its a co-workers relationship. you barely talk about your problems with them, nor they ask about your well-being. all they care about is royalty, royalty and royalty.
βhave you heard? hybeβs kingdom will have a ball for their youngestβs birthdayβ your father spoke.
βoh yes! i saw the invitationβ your mother answered, βitβs a no-adults party except for his older brothers, y/n youβre invited thereβ
you glanced at your mother who was busy cutting her bread, βhm?β
βhybe kingdom invited all younger royals to celebrate the youngest sonβs birthday, youβre definitely going!!β your mother smiled.
βyouβll be able to meet your future husband there! we didnβt want you two to meet up yet but who knows, maybe itβll be a start of somethingβ your father added.
βweβll tell you into more details later, now go to your class! your teacher is waitingβ your mother ordered and you did as she said.
youβve had manners classes as soon as you turned into a beautiful young lady, according to your mom, you shouldβve taken them earlierβso youβd be more prepared and will have some manners in front of her friends.
when you turned fifteen, your family already informed you they decided on your future husband, and you had no option to resist, they forced this marriage on you and didnβt even give you the chance to say no.
youβve never heard of the man, you donβt know anything about him. the only thing you do know is that youβre going to get married to him as soon as you turn 21 which means, your clock is ticking and youβre slowly going out of options.
ever since you can remember yourself, you wanted your own fairytale love story, a one love story that will make anyone envy you, a one true love story you can use when you want to tell your future kids a night story, a one true love story where youβd be the one to pick the person youβll spend the rest of your life with.
your parents however, thought it was a good joke, and always used to laugh at it.
βtrue love story? thereβs no such a thingβ your mother always says.
βwe got married for the benefit of our kingdoms, and we fell in love through the marriage, youβll get to experience it tooβ your father adds.
βmarrying someone you donβt know isnβt that bad! youβll get to know each other after the weddingβ your parents both love to laugh about it whenever they could.
your manners class shouldβve been called βhow to be a good wifeβ class in your opinion, you learn nothing other than how to behave around your future husband and how to take care of him. stupid primitive royalties.
βgood morning y/n, letβs get to class quicklyβ your teacher who had been waiting for you in your usually room greeted you and you greeted her back.
βwhat do you do if your husband tells you that heβs tired from duties and heβs hungry but the maids are already asleep?β you teacher asked.
you sighed before answering, βi get up and massage him, then go to the kitchen and make him something the eatβ
your teacher clapped her hands in excitement, βthatβs all for today, good job!β
this life is tiring.
when you look at your other friends who youβve met in ball events, they seem to enjoy their single life. none of them was promised to marry someone they donβt like, so where did you go wrong?
feeling too tired from class, you decided to go and take a short nap, it wouldnβt hurt to go back to sleep right? itβs not like you have something important to do anyway.
before going to nap you laid down on your bed and stared at the ceiling.
βwill i ever get to meet the person i would choose to marry?β you asked yourself before you drafted to sleep.
βsunoo!! focus!β while you were sleeping loudly, the fifth prince of hybe kingdom was busy taking manners class.
βi was just now at (your kingdomβs name) kingdom, how come itβs easier to teach ladies than gentlemen?β his teacher complained.
his teacher is your teacher as well, but of course both of you doesnβt know that.
βi apologizeβ sunoo quickly then bowed as an apologetic gesture.
βfocus!β the teacher tsked and sunoo sat straight.
βif your wife comes home from duties and she tells you sheβs quite tired, what do you do?β she asked.
βiβd ask her to tell me how her day was and iβll make her some foodβ sunoo smiled widely and the teacher shook her head.
βno, no, no! you ask your maids to make her something to eat!β his teacher sounded disappointed.
sunoo pout, he didnβt understand the logic behind it all, a husband needs to take care of his wife, and what are those manners classes? who made those stupid classes anyway?
out of all 7 brothers, his parents chose him as the one who needs to suffer the most in his opinion.
sunoo is the only one who has been taking manners classes, and heβs the only one whoβs promise to marry someone he doesnβt know.
does his parents think he wonβt be able to find someone heβd like to marry?
βthatβs it for today, practice and study more! for the next time i want you to be betterβ the teacher left without giving him a chance to send her off.
she must be really angry then, huh?
sunoo then sighed and gathered his papers.
βtough day?β he heard a voice and shoot his eyes to the figure who was standing right at the door.
βyou could say thatβ sunoo nodded and dropped his glance.
jungwon pitied his older brother, he has always been the one to suffer from their parentsβ endless bickering, and jungwon always wondered whyβs that.
βjust hold it in for a while, itβs going to end soonβ jungwon walked closer to his brother and pat his shoulder.
sunoo groaned, βeasy for you to say, you already basically know who youβre going to marryβ
jungwon smiled a bit, βmom and dad are starting to get on your nerves, arenβt they?β
sunoo nodded, βcanβt they just let me live my life the way i want to?β
a door slammed and you woke up immediately.
βi apologize your majesty, the queen asked me to wake you up from your napβ one of your maids said, βshe wants to meet you in the gardenβ
you dismissed your maid and went down to your castleβs garden, your favorite place on earth.
βmother,β you called her, βyou were asking for meβ
your mother who was sitting on one of the benches turned her glance to you and smiled, βdo you know why i called you, y/n?β she asked.
you shook your head and moved closer to her.
βyour wedding of course!β she opened her arms and hugged you.
you let out a big sigh, of course! why would she want to talk with you about anything else?
βiβm joking, jokingβ she giggled, βi was a bit bored, i wouldnβt mind some companyβ
you nodded and proceeded to sit on the bench next to her. both of you sat in silence, she looked pretty relaxed, but youβre always being extra careful around her.
βhave you ever heard of hybe kingdom?β she suddenly asked.
βno, the only thing i know about them is that theyβre seven siblings, and each one is soon to get a throneβ
βtheir family is quite weird i must say,β your mother chuckled, βthe oldest son is going to marry a commoner! can you believe it??β
you nodded, βif they really do love each other, they deserve to be happy togetherβ
your mother looked at you in disbelief, βitβs not a good reason to break a royal rule!β she argued.
βwhat royal rule? theyβre ancient and no oneβs even looking at them anymore!!β you argued back.
βancient or not!! a royal rule is a royal rule!!β
βsometimes love is more important than a stupid rule!!β
βyouββ your mother stopped for a second to take a deep breathe, βif thatβs another way of you to try and convince me to let you marry whoever you want, itβs not going to workβ
you rolled your eyes and looked away, βyou donβt even realize how important it is to meβ you mumbled and she stayed quiet, completely ignoring what youβve just said.
βyouβre going to meet your soon to be husband at hybeβs kingdom party, you should be preparedβ
eventually you left her alone and went back to your room, you had nothing to talk about together anyway.
βthere you are sunoo!! weβve been searching for you!!β hybeβs queen remarked.
βhello motherβ sunoo whispered.
βyour teacher told me youβre not doing well!! sunoo, whatβs wrong with you?β she raised her voice and sunoo shut his eyes.
βif youβd just let me feel free and let me do what i want maybe iβll be able to be mannered enough for you!β he spoke back and his mother stepped back.
βsunoo!!β
βwhat? did i say something wrong? instead of letting me find someone iβd truly love and want to marry, youβre forcing me into it!β he raised his voice back.
βthis is not up to discussion!! your marriage is final!β his mother fired back, βitβs okay if you dont love her now, youβll force yourself into it and eventually fall in love!β
sunoo sighed and tears filled his eyes, βyouβd never let me live the way i want to, would you?β
his mother stayed quiet and he slowly nodded, βgot itβ he whispered and went to his room.
the next mornings felt all the same, manners class and getting back to sleep, it was the same for sunoo, other than the fact that he had to help his younger brothers with their own love stories. love stories that heβd never have.
βi donβt know what to do, it hurts, i miss herβ jungwon cried to his older brother as he hugged him and suggested him a few steps.
looking at his brothers living freely as they want made him really happy for them, but also envy them for being their parentsβ favorite in his opinion.
eventually, ni-kiβs birthday came and everyone around the castle were busy getting ready.
βgood morning sunoo! time to get readyβ the maids said and he barely got himself up.
βyouβre going to meet your soon-to-be wife!! isnβt that exciting?β jay, who came in together with sunooβs maids, decided to tease him a bit.
sunoo groaned and covered himself with his pillow.
βget up sleepy head! itβs your brotherβs birthday today!! at least wish him a happy birthday!!β jay took the pillow and threw it at him a few times.
sunoo really didnt want to wake up today. dont get him wrong, he loves his brother, its just something about today that makes it extremely hard for him to wake up.
βright, what was her name again?β this was the exact reason sunoo couldnβt wake up, his parents couldnβt even recall his future wifeβs name!
βnevermind, you need to go get ready!β his father commented.
βyouβll know it when you see her, sheβs awfully pretty!β both of them said and pushed him back to his room to get ready.
βoh my dear! youβre awfully pretty!β your mother clapped as you gave her a twirl of your dress.
βyouβre only saying that because youβre my momβ you scoffed and she shook her head.
βyou really are really pretty, our pretty princessβ your father got involved and smiled.
you gave them a short smile, βthank youββ
βcan you believe it? youβre going to meet your future husband!! are you ready for it?β your mother stepped closer to you, cupping your cheeks in both hands.
βnoβ you sighed. βwell then, be ready for it! we donβt want him to think youβre messy and unorganizedβ
what does not being ready for this even have to do with being messy and unorganized??
you just nodded and closed your eyes. if you start crying now, the beautiful makeup your maid had put on you would get ruined.
βweβre so proud of you, y/nβ both of them said and you just nodded.
βoh! you look exactly like a princeβ his brother sunghoon remarked. βi didnt look like one up until now?β sunoo rolled his eyes but sunghoon only chuckled.
βhey im just joking, you look really good sunooβ the older complimented him and sunoo smiled, βthank youβ
βoff you go!! enjoy the party!β your parents said as they sent you off to hybe kingdom, with a thumping heart you smiled and nodded.
five minutes into the drive and it finally sank into your mind, your parents never mentioned his name, not even once.
quick!! what should you do?? risk it all and just continue the drive and hope to find him in mysterious way? or get back to your parents and ask them for it??
obviously option one is the best option.
βwe have arrived, your majestyβ your driver informed you and went out to open the door for you.
you took a few deep breaths, βyou can do itβ
as you got out you saw lots of princesses and princes, all entering the big and beautiful castle.
βplease welcome princess y/n from (name of kingdom)β the door opened for you and all eyes were on you, you hated it, you hated this welcoming.
it was somehow a royal thing, to inform of a royal entering a castle, but then what? it drew everyoneβs attention to you.
you felt everyoneβs gaze on you, mumbling nothings and whispering whatever. you slowly entered deep into the crowd until the other royals didnt care about you anymore.
βhello there, beautyβ you heard someone say, you turned around to meet with a very pretty looking guy.
βhelloβ you replied back and extended him your hand for him to kiss.
you hated this too, the feeling of a stranger on your hand, why was this even a royal rule??
βi couldnβt stand seeing you alone soββ
βand finally, please welcome the hybe familyβ all of your heads turned to the door.
first one to enter was prince heeseung, you could see him searching for a specific person in the crowd and as soon as he saw her, he smiled.
second to enter was prince jay, he looked super focused, he too, was searching for a specific person in the crowd.
third to enter was prince jake, he looked so peaceful somehow, as if he already knew where was the specific person he was searching for.
fourth to enter was prince sunghoon and god, his visuals were no joke, whoever will end up with him definitely won a handsome one of a kind.
fifth to enter was prince sunoo, as soon as he entered you felt as if the world had stopped.
you two somehow made an eye contact for a few good seconds, as if he already found the person he was searching for.
is heβ¦.? no, he canβt be, can he?
the voice of the welcoming of the sixth prince woke you up from your deep thoughts.
sixth to enter was prince jungwon, he looked around, smiling at everyone while obviously trying to search for someone.
βand lastly, please welcome the birthday boy, riki!β as the seventh prince riki entered, everyone clapped and cheered.
only he, was smirking at everyone. he was definitely up to something.
as the party started, you started to feel tired. what if you just ditch early? no one will notice anyway.
you started walking towards what you thought was the exit, turns out it was a door for the castleβs garden.
βgreat, how do i get out nowβ you mumbled.
you heard steps behind you and turned around immediately.
your eyes widened as you saw the person that was standing in front of you.
βhelloβ he said with a warm smile.
βprince sunooβ you whispered under your breath, βhelloβ
βyou probably have already heard who i am, but iβm sunooβ he said and bowed to you.
you couldnβt understand why, but you felt your cheeks heating up. focus y/n, focus!!
is he your promised prince?
βiβm l/n y/nβ you introduced yourself with a curtsy, sunoo took your hand and kissed the back of it, βyou look awfully pretty, y/nβ
you said you hated it, hated it when a stranger kissed your hand, but why did it feel so different when he did it?
you wanted him to keep kissing your hand, and maybe not only your hand.
no, y/n what are you thinking!!
sunoo couldnβt explain it, ever since he laid his eyes on you, he felt something.
you were so, so pretty in his eyes. he saw the whole crowd but his eyes only looked at you. he wanted to get to know you more, heβs more than 100% sure youβre promised to him, how could his parents forget your beautiful name?
and if it turns out youβre not the one whoβs promised to him, heβs more than determined now to make you his wife.
βwould you like to have a dance y/n?β he suddenly asked, looking into your soft eyes.
you could still hear the music at the back, you enjoy dancing anyway, so why not?
βiβd love thatβ you replied.
sunoo took your hand and guided you, you were extremely close to each other.
your hands were around his neck, and his held your waist.
βhow come iβve never seen you before?β he asked.
βiβm not the type to go to royal celebrations, i came here for the first time since iβm kind of forced to meet my future husbandβ you replied softly.
βfuture husband?β sunoo disappointedly looked down.
did you already find your future husband? your promised one?
you shook your hand, βi have yet to find him, but now that iβm being here with youβ¦β you stayed quiet for a bit, βi think i found himβ
oh you were bold. what if he already has someone heβs going to marry to?
βoh,β he suddenly said and chuckled, βi think i already found my future wife tooβ
both of you shared a long eye contact, god he was so attractive and you were so beautiful in his eyes.
you changed position and crossed your hands together, going in circle while not even breaking your eye contact for a mere second.
you didnβt want to let go of each other, as the song ended, so did your dance.
you decided to sit on one of the benches at the garden and share a little conversation.
a little conversation ended up lasting for almost until midnight. youβve been at the garden since eight pm.
you talked about your hobbies, your family, your miserable life with your manners classes.
βno way! youβre having them too?? i thought only my parents were old schoolβ he said in excitement.
βyeah, i guess both of us are experiencing the old school parentsβ you chuckled.
the conversation just kept on going further and further until the maids reminded you itβs time to go.
both of you got up from the bench and looked at each other.
βi donβt want this night to endβ you pout.
sunoo giggled and put his hands around your waist.
βi donβt want it to end eitherβ he replied.
it was a comforting silence between the two of you, until he started getting closer.
βcan iβ¦..?β he asked and you nodded.
he crushed his lips on yours and held you tightly. you kissed him back and put your hands around his neck.
the kiss was so innocent and sweet, as if youβre having your first teen love.
as you slowly let go of the kiss you opened your eyes and giggled.
βthere youβam i interrupting something?β you recognize this prince, itβs prince jake.
βnot at all, i was just about to leaveβ you said after and curtsied to the prince.
you walked away but not before whispering into sunooβs ear, βhopefully i get to see you againβ
as you left, jake pushed sunoo and cheered for him. βyou found her didnβt you!!β
sunoo smiled, his cheeks still blushing from the kiss you shared a few minutes ago. it was just like in the love stories he liked to read.
βoh! her name is minju!β
no. this canβt be.
after the celebration, his parents came up to him to ask him how was meeting his future wife.
only then he realized he has been wrong this whole time.
βwhat?β he asked.
they nodded and smiled, βweβre so glad you enjoyed! we were actually worried about you not liking herβ
βi need to sleepβ he mumbled.
βwhat?β
βi need to sleep nowβ he said louder.
his parents left his room, shocked and speechless. did they say something wrong?
βy/n dear, how was the party?β your parents came up to you, theyβve probably been waiting for you to get back.
you knew they didnβt really care about the party, but more about the person youβve met there.
you already knew that the person youβre promised to marry wasnβt sunoo, but you couldnβt help it but fall in love with him.
you realized it wasnβt sunoo halfway into your conversation. your parents told you a few facts about your future husband, and none of them matched sunoo. still, you kept on spending the night with him instead of going to search your promised one.
βit was fineβ you replied.
βjust fineβ¦.?β they asked surprised.
βyeahβ
βwhat aboutβ¦.?β
βoh, it was amazing actually, i already feel myself falling for him, heβs the person i want to marry to and no one elseβ you smiled, βever since i saw him i only think of himβ
your parents looked at you in confusion. they werenβt expecting to hear that from you, especially because you hated this idea.
βare youβ¦doing okay?β they asked and you nodded, cheeks heating up after remembering your past events.
βiβll be going to sleep nowβ you skipped to your room happily, leaving your parents dumbfounded.
the next day you woke up, βy/n! you got a letterβ one of your maids brought your letter to you and you opened it.
βmeet me at xxxx around 9pm β sunooβ
you smiled after reading the letter, and you couldnβt help but wait for the eve to come.
around 8:30pm you sneaked out, telling your parents you werenβt feeling well and getting out slowly and surely, no one noticed you.
you arrived the place and waited for him. you sat on a bench and looked at the sky.
the sky was so dark and the stars were shining brightly, you enjoyed looking at the sky, until you couldnβt see anything.
someone covered your eyes, βguess whoβ you heard a familiar voice and chuckled.
βmy future husbandβ you said.
this new nickname you gave him made him flutter each time he hears it coming out of your mouth.
he removed his hands and pecked your cheeks, βding ding ding, we have a winnerβ he smiled and went to sit next to you on the bench.
βi missed youβ he added.
βyou saw me yesterdayβ you replied.
β24 hours without seeing you, my heart canβt handle itβ he held his hand against his heart and you rolled your eyes, βyouβre so cheesyβ
βyou didnt mind it yesterdayβ he shrugged, βi still donβtβ
both of you chuckled and kept talking with a wide smile all over your faces.
the two of you knew, you knew youβre not promised to each other, you knew you wonβt end up getting married to each other, so why does none of you bring this up?
you kept talking and talking without even realizing it was past 3 am. you have manners class later today, you have to get some sleep.
βyou have to go?β he asked and you nodded sadly.
βmy parents will kill me if i dont wake up in timeβ you sighed.
βletβs meet up tomorrow too, same time, same placeβ he said and you nodded.
you pecked his lips and ran back, leaving him with blushing cheeks.
none of you wants to admit it, but youβre not going to end up together. so youβll just spend your time together as long as you can, holding into the fact that maybe, maybe you actually will have a chance to marry each other.
your sneaking out became a usual thing for you and sunoo, you really did keep your promise and met up every day.
βhow do you want our wedding to be?β he asked you once.
your head was resting on his lap as he caressed your hair.
βmy family, your family, and maybe just a few important royals, in your castle too, because thatβs where we first metβ you smiled and he smiled back at you.
both of you knew itβs not really going to happen, but you still held into the hope that maybe, against all the odds, maybe you will be able to change your fate.
βi love it, what do you think about honeymoon?β he asked in addition to the wedding part and you just giggled.
as you came back to your room that day from meeting sunoo, you noticed a figure sitting on your bed.
you got scared and immediately turned on the lights, just to notice it was your mother.
βmother,β you whispered.
βi thought youβre not feeling well?β she asked seriously.
βi-i went to catch some airββ βdont try to excuse yourselfβ she said firmly.
you looked down and sighed, βi met up with my future husbandβ
her serious face turned into a wide smile, βreally? what did you twoββ
βkim sunoo from hybe kingdomβ you cut her off as you just now told her who you met up.
βwhat?β she asked, the wide smile turning into confusion.
βi met up with sunoo, my future husbandβ you boldly said.
your mother laughed, βthat was a good joke! dont scare me like that againβ she continued to laugh but her laugh faded when she noticed you were serious.
βoh, youβre serious?β she asked and you nodded.
βi want to marry sunoo, momβ you said.
βthatβs not possibleβ she argued.
βwhy not? i love him, heβs the person i want to marryβ you said.
βa no is a no, i donβt want to argue about itβ she got up.
βbut i do, i wonβt marry any other person, even that βfuture husbandβ youβve been telling me to marryβ youβre a one stubborn child, and youβre not going to give up on sunoo that easily.
your mother sighed, βi will not argue about this with you, youβre grounded, iβll put hundreds of guards around just to keep you hereβ she raised her voice.
βyou can try and keep me here all you want! itβs not going to change my feelings!β you shout as she went out of your room.
sunoo wasnβt doing any better, he too, got caught as he came back.
βno!β his mother argued, βyouβre promised to marry minji and thatβs final! i donβt want to hear another word!β
sunoo scoffed, βout of all seven of us, you chose to be strict with me, now that i finally found someone i love, youβre taking her away from me? why did you let heeseung marry a commoner then?β he shout.
his mother stayed speechless.
βexactly, you have no good reasonβ he said in disbelief.
βyouβre not allowed to go out anymore until you realize what you just did, minju is your future wife and no one elseβ she said before smacking the door.
while both of you werenβt allowed out of your castles, you could send letters one to other.
you kept communicating through that, however, it was slow and hard as one letter per day came in.
on one of the days you shared dinner with your parents, as usual you stayed quiet and didnβt talk to neither of them.
only today was different, βy/n,β your father called you but you ignored.
βweβve decided to break off the agreement with the other kingdomβ he continued and your eyes light up.
βme and your mother decided itβs what best for you, and we want nothing more than to see you happyβ he said.
βdoes that meanβ¦..?β you whispered and your mother nodded, βyou can marry prince sunoo, we talked some sense in his parents tooβ
you looked at the clock and saw the time, 8:30pm.
you looked over your parents, βcan iβ¦.?β and they nodded.
you pushed away your chair and ran out of the castle to search for your sunoo.
you arrived at your place with a wild smile, expecting to see him already, your smile faded as you saw no one.
your eyes teared up, until someone covered your eyes behind you, βguess whoβ
without waiting, you turned around and hugged the person you were so longing for.
βmy future husband, my real future husbandβ you cried into the hug as he hugged you back tightly, not wanting to let you go.
βi missed youβ he said and you cupped his face.
βi love youβ you said before kissing him.
you caught him off guard but he was quick to kiss you back, holding your waist and getting you closer to him than ever.
both of you pulled away when you felt you were out of air.
you pressed your foreheads against each other with eyes closed, βitβs been so long, it feels so good to hold you again, i love youβ he said and you smiled.
βi was wondering how long itβs going to take for my parents to realize i only want to marry youβ you chuckled.
βtook them too longβ he scoffed and you nodded.
βwhatβs important is that youβre here nowβ you whispered.
βiβm here, forever and ever, i love youβ
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would you mind?ο½zhang hao
synopsis: how to get over a guy you didnβt even date in ten easy steps with the help of zhang hao.
tags: zhang hao x gn!reader, acquaintances to lovers, university au, fluff, slight angst, y/n likes someone else at the beginning, y/n is very drunk, making out when drunk, shy!hao, bestie!matthew has no filter, roommate!taerae, hanbin keeps laughing, what did jiwoong do though? y/n overthinks a little sometimes, mentions of sex and implied sex but no explicit smut! (im a minor and canβt write smut for the life of me)
word count: 6k (how did this get so long?)
a/n: this is my first fic in like six years and the first in english altogether! idk how to feel about this one but i thought to post it anyway. writing this honestly made me respect fanfic writers so much more, it really isnβt easy! this took me like five days to make. not sure how often iβll be doing this but i enjoyed writing a lot. sorry for any grammar errors or such, i proofread this a couple of times, but my english isnβt perfect, so some mistakes might go past me. anyway, thanks and sorry! enjoy reading!
my playlist while writing: in bloom & new kidz on the block by zb1, cream soda & private party by exo, roller coaster & party oβclock by nmixx !!
i. drink your feelings away
βfinally youβre hereβ matthew mumbled in his slightly drunken stage, leaning onto a wall as you closed the door behind you. you could hear the music and peopleβs chatter coming from the living room. the smell of alcohol was also very strong, especially on your friend. you wished you could just turn back and go home. you were way too miserable to party right now but the sweet smile matthew was giving you was making you stay. you couldnβt possibly disappoint your best friend on his special day.
βyeah, sorry for being lateβ you finally answered to the birthday boy as you handed out your gift with a forced smile. βhappy birthday matt.βΒ
he took the bottle of wine and chuckled. βthank you y/nβ he said, looking at the bottle of his favourite. βfor this and for coming tonightβ he continued as he raised his gaze to you apologetically.Β
βof courseβ you uttered, trying your best to convince your friend you wanted to be here, as if you didnβt just think about leaving two seconds ago. your convincing didnβt seem to be working as matthew sighed. matthew put down the bottle and walked in front of you. he examined your face for a while before he embraced you in a hug. βhe didnβt deserve you anywayβ he whispered close to your ear.
right.
jaemin.
the guy who broke your heart just a few days ago. he didnβt mean to, you suppose. he just didnβt realise you were totally in love with him when he introduced you to his partner of three years. how stupid could you be?
you held your tiers in at the mention of him. not today. you can cry about it later.Β
you embraced your friend for a while as you collected yourself. βyou know what matt?β You finally spoke as you made eye contact with him. matthew hummed, looking at you with anticipation.Β
βiβm going to have fun tonight.β
ii. embarrass yourself
about five bottles of soju and a couple beers later you were completely out of it. you were somewhere in matthewβs apartment, kitchen or living room, you were not entirely sure. laying on the cold floor with zero thoughts of your shattered heart. you felt at peace. your peace, however, didnβt last long as it was eventually broken by a familiar voice calling your name.Β
βy/n? you okay down there?β the voice asked with amusement. you opened your eyes and were met with hanbinβs gaze from above you. he must have found your state hilarious as he bursted out laughing.Β
you got up from the floor with difficulty and flopped next to him on the couch. βnever been betterβ you mumbled to your friend with a relaxed smile. you started making yourself comfortable and leaned your head on hanbinβs shoulder. what you failed to notice in your drunken state was the other person sitting on the couch. the one you were currently cuddling up to.
βhaoβ your friend started. βI donβt think Iβve ever seen y/n so wastedβ hanbin laughed with tears in his eyes.Β
what.Β
suddenly, you were too aware of your surroundings, like there was no alcohol in your system anymore. you quickly got up and saw that hanbin was not in fact the person you had leaned into. the person sitting next to you was hanbinβs good friend, zhang hao. the boyβs face flushed as he looked at your shocked face.
oh my god.
you were not that familiar with zhang hao. you knew he was good friends with hanbin and matthew. he was from the music department just like your roommate taerae, and you were pretty sure he played the violin. he was reserved and quiet, and definitely not the most fond of you (even though your friends have tried to convince you otherwise). a friend of a friend. thatβs what he was. not someone who you could comfortably cuddle with. this is so embarrassing.
βiβm so sorry!β you quickly blurted out as you hid your face behind your palms. you could still hear hanbinβs laugh as you were thinking about your way out of the situation.Β
βitβs o-okayβ zhang hao managed to stutter. you were in too deep thought to hear what the boy in front of you was saying. you searched for your other friend in the crowd. itβs time for me to leave. as you found matthew by the balcony with a girl, you turned back to the men on the couch. βiβm just gonna go!β you quickly said to prevent any more embarrassment and made your way to your best friend.
he saw you coming from afar and smirked at you. βyouβve definitely enjoyed yourselfβ matthew said delightfully. oh. he definitely saw everything.
βyou saw nothingβ you bit back and leaned onto your friend as the alcohol started to kick back in again. βiβm going homeβ you continued. could you even walk straight? no. but you could just call your roommate to meet you halfway.
βin this state? no youβre notβ the boy slurred just as drunk as you were. he wrapped his arm around your shoulder in an attempt to keep you from leaving. you were glad your friend cared about your safety even when he was drunk. his company, however, was not enjoying the sight in front of her and you could tell you had interrupted something.Β
βiβll call taerae to pick me up, donβt worry.β you assured your friend. βiβll leave you two alone now.β you gave a smile to the girl and mouthed βsorryβ as you left the two before matthew could protest any further.
iii. make a foolish choice
walking down four sets of stairs with your hands occupied by your phone was a challenge. you somehow made it though and were trying to contact your roommate. he was not answering. where is he? your apartment wasnβt that far from matthewβs but the darkness was creeping you out a little. you sent a quick text to taerae, saying you were coming home before you started your journey.Β
you had made it past a couple turns when you started feeling like someone was following you. youβre just being paranoid, that's all. but the feeling only grew stronger as you clearly heard footsteps behind you. you were already walking as fast as you could in your state. is this the end? Β βiβm gonna die-β
βy/n,β you quickly turned around to the familiar voice.Β
zhang hao.
βoh itβs just youβ you said as you relaxed until it hit you. zhang hao. the reason why you had run away from the party in the first place. your surprise finally showed on your face, which zhang hao found amusing.Β
"sorry if I scared youβ he let out an airy laugh while awkwardly standing in front of you. for some reason you had never really looked at the boy. he was tall and his hair was still styled nicely even after a long day. he was wearing a light blue button up shirt with black jeans that seemed way out of your price range. there was something about the way he was looking at you under the glow of the streetlights. he was looking at you with stars in his eyes, like there was no one else but the two of you in the world. the sight of him almost made your heart skip a beat. he had a few moles on his face, one right under his eye and another on his cheek that you wish you could kiss right now. has he always been this pretty?Β
no. why is he here?Β
he tried to give you a reassuring smile as he took a step closer. βyou shouldnβt walk alone at this hour, itβs not safe for you.β he continued like he had just read your mind.
βso you think I'm safe with you?β you asked, slightly teasing. it was definitely the alcohol speaking.
the boyβs eyes widened in shock and he opened his mouth to say something but failed. βwell- I meanβ zhang hao finally responded with panic, not quite sure what he was supposed to say. you couldnβt hold your giggles which seemed to ease his nerves. his figure seemed to relax as he walked past you. βmy apartment isnβt that far from yours, so we can just walk together. itβs safer for both of us.β zhang hao finished.Β
lies. youβve once picked hanbin up from his apartment and it's nowhere near yours. however, zhang hao didnβt need to know that you knew. you wouldnβt mind walking home with him even if the two of you werenβt that close, because he was right β this was safer (not because he suddenly made you think of things you haven't before).
so, the two of you continued walking towards your place. zhang hao didnβt say much as you walked, only telling you to be more careful as you almost stumbled to the ground. he also decided to hold you up from your waist from that point on β which you definitely didnβt mind. he didnβt seem to mind either as there was no signs of annoyance that you wouldβve except from zhang hao in this situation.Β Β
βweβre hereβ he said as the two of you stood in front of your apartment building. you really didnβt want him to go. you really didnβt want to be alone at all. because you knew the moment you were alone again youβd break down again and cry about the guy who broke your heart. just for this one night, you wished not to cry yourself to sleep. maybe it was foolish of you to ask zhang hao of all people to comfort you, but right now you couldnβt think of anything else.Β
βwould you like to come in?β
βdo you need help to get to your door?β
you both had talked at the same time. you broke eye contact as the two of you chuckled. so he didnβt want to leave yet either? as it got quiet again you decided to look at the boy again. zhang hao seemed hesitant as he studied your face. then he smiled at you as he said βif thatβs what you need.β
iv. get cockbocked by a roommate
some might find the silence between you and zhang hao awkward, but you found it soothing. he was drinking the water you had given him as you sat on the kitchen counter. he looked even more handsome up close. the way he was leaning onto the counter and the way he was looking at you. oh, how much you wished to make him yours tonight. would he mind?Β
your mind stopped wandering as the boy put down his glass on the sink. βi should probably go and let you sleepβ he said quietly as he stood in front of you. he was incredibly close to you, his hand on your knee, his nose almost touching yours β like he didnβt want to leave. you couldnβt help but lower your gaze to his lips. they were pink and puffy, slightly wet like they were waiting to be kissed. you looked back to zhang haoβs eyes but they didnβt meet yours. he was doing the same thing β staring at your lips.Β
maybe you were going to regret it. maybe this wasnβt right, kissing your friendsβ friend. but you couldnβt possibly think about any of that as you leaned in.Β
his lips felt as soft as they looked. it took a moment for zhang hao to realise what was happening but eventually he kissed you back. his left hand landed on your cheek as his right hand went up your thigh. the kiss deepened as you put your hands around the boy's neck, pulling him closer to you. you donβt remember the last time you have been kissed like this. he was driving you insane and you wished heβd never stop.Β
βy/n?β you hear a voice say at the door.Β
taerae.
you and zhang hao froze before you rapidly let go of each other. sleepy taerae rubbed his eyes walking into the kitchen as you tried to calm your beating heart. so he didnβt answer because he was asleep. you took a look at zhang hao whoβs blush was prominent even in the dark. βwhen did you get home?β your roommate asked as he yawned.
βzhang hao walked me, i was just giving him some water before he left.β you blurted out an excuse, which wasnβt inherently a lie β taerae didnβt need to know what happened after that. your sleepy roommate didnβt look suspicious and seemed to buy it. βhe was actually just about to leave.β you took another look at zhang hao, trying to get him to say something.Β
βyeah, iβll just get going then.β he said, bid taerae goodbye, and was out of the apartment in mere minutes.Β
fuck.
v. overthink your life choices
lunch used to be your favourite time of the day, mostly because you used to share it with jaemin all the time. matthew barely ever had time to eat lunch with you, which is how you got to know jaemin in the first place. the two of you clicked instantly and you thought there was something between you. how wrong you were. the past week you have been distancing yourself from jaemin and he hasn't been asking after you. you really meant nothing to him in the end. even now heβs just a few tables away loudly debating about something with his group of friends, completely unaware of the effect he has had on you.
taeraeβs giggles seem to wake you from your slumber. you moved your gaze from jaemin to your roommate. he was laughing over a video hanbin had just shown him. βwhat is jiwoong doing?β he managed to say between giggles.Β
βspeaking of the devilβ hanbin said as he waved past your shoulder. jiwoong walked to your table with zhang hao next to him, which was odd as the two of youβve had a similar relationship with the chinese boy up until a few days ago (unless jiwoong had also been making out with him recently). βwhat did i do?β jiwoong questioned his friends as he placed his lunch on the table.
βnothing, nothing. whereβs matthew?β hanbin said as he hid his phone with a grin.
βheβs on a dateβ you said nonchalantly. everyone at the table suddenly turned their heads towards you. they had totally forgotten you were even there as you had spent most of your break staring at a certain someone. you should get your shit together.
βoh right, zhang hao! thanks for walking y/n home the other night.β taerae said as zhang hao sat next to hanbin. well shit. you hadnβt told anyone of what had happened with zhang hao after matthewβs party. you hadnβt even talked to zhang hao since then. you felt awful that you had tried to use him to forget about someone else, and then kicked him out as your roommate found the two of you. you werenβt sure how you were supposed to even bring it up to him when you were never alone with him anyway.Β
βyou walked her home?β hanbin questioned as he turned his head to his left where zhang hao was sitting. the boy only gave his friend a small nod as he dug into his food. his aura seemed so different in the daylight. his hair wasnβt styled like at the party, it was a bit all over the place. the way he stuffed his mouth full of food made him look cute. his cheeks were slightly pink with blush. while observing the boy, you had completely missed the teasing smile on hanbinβs face.
how were you supposed to talk to him? thanks for walking me home and making out with me in my kitchen. does he even want to talk about it? the two of you had seen each other around campus a couple times since then and he hasn't tried to talk to you once. maybe all of it was just a spur of the moment thing for him that he now wished to forget about.
you sighed as you decided it was your time to leave for class. there was no way you were going to talk to zhang hao now anyway, not in front of all your friends. βmy lecture is starting soon, iβll go now.β you said as you stood up. taking your things with you and hearing people say their goodbyes, you were on your way.
βwait, are we just going to ignore the fact that matthew is on a date?β you could hear jiwoong ask behind you.
vi. get help
βsoβ¦β matthew said in a teasing tone as he sat across from you at the library.Β
βso, what?β you questioned, like you had no idea what your best friend was referring to. well, in your defence, you never knew with matthew, but you had a feeling this conversation topic started with a z and ended with hang hao. βyou and hao?β he continued, just like you had anticipated, raising his eyebrows.Β
βwhat about me and zhang hao?β you continued, acting clueless in the hopes of him dropping the conversation.Β
βafter what i saw at my birthday party and then hearing he walked you home, i hoped the two of you worked out the weird tension between you two and finally fuckedβ your friend blurted out in a very matthew way, like it was the most obvious conclusion to come to in the world.Β
βwe did not!β you raised your voice a little too much as you tried to defend yourself. you got a few judging stares from the people around you who were trying to study. something you were supposed to do as well, instead of having this conversation about zhang hao. βwe didnβt fuckβ¦β you continued more quietly. there was no reason for you to lie to your best friend. not when you could use his help.
βbut you were going to?β he gave you a knowing look.
βwell yeah, but then taerae woke up and i panicked and i kinda kicked zhang hao out-β you started rambling. wait. βhow did you know we almost fucked? did he talk to you? what did he say? does he totally hate me now?β you continued like you were going to lose your mind. and now matthew was laughing at you, trying his best to stay quiet.Β
βi havenβt talked to anyone, except hanbin, heβs just as convinced thereβs something going on between you and hao as i amβ your friend finally spoke. if only you knew what was going on between the two of you. you sighed and hit your head on the table. βwhatβs the problem y/n? you know, you could just text him and ask him" matthew said.
βi donβt have his numberβ you mumble in despair.Β
βwhat? how can you not have his number?β matthew asked, confused.
βwhy would i? was i supposed to ask for it when we were making out or something?β you said as you lifted your head from the table, looking at your friend who definitely didnβt need to hear any more details of that night.
matthew took his phone out of his pocket, and gave it to you after a moment. βhere, take his number and text himβ
vii. become friends
you were currently sitting down at a park you had agreed to meet with zhang hao. matthew was able to convince you it was better to sort things out with zhang hao sooner than later. but now that you were here, waiting for the guy, you couldnβt help but feel nervous. it was warm as summer was finally coming and you felt like you were sweating buckets. was it the weather or your nerves β you were not quite sure.
βhi, did you have to wait long?β you hear a familiar voice from your left and see zhang haoβs figure coming towards you. he waved at you while giving you a sweet smile. damn. heβs so pretty.Β
βoh no, not at allβ you answered, trying to give the boy a smile to hide your nervousness.Β
βwhat did you want to talk about?β zhang hao said calmly as he sat down next to you. unlike the other night, now he had left much space between the two of you. he didnβt seem nervous at all, which made you feel uneasy. maybe this wasnβt as big of a deal for him as it was for you.Β
βat mattβs party, iβm sorry for being such a mess and dragging you into itβ you decided to tell him. βi had a few too many drinks that night.β you took a look at zhang hao. he seemed surprised, maybe a little hurt as he tried to get comfortable on the bench. was that not the right thing to say? Β βi mean, i probably made you uncomfortable and then i rushed you out of my place when taerae woke up, it was super rude of me to-β you were starting to ramble.Β
βi wasnβt uncomfortableβ he cut you off. he finally turned to look at you again βi wouldnβt have come in if i was.β there was the look again, making your heart beat louder on your chest. he was looking at you like he did under the streetlights, like you were the only person in the world that mattered. you wouldnβt mind getting lost in his eyes. βso donβt be too sorry, i enjoyed it as long as it lasted.β he gave you a shy smile.
oh.
this was the first time the boy had made you blush, usually it was the other way around. you broke eye contact to hide your shyness from him. βcool, coolβ you started quite awkwardly. βwe should probably be casual about all this, since we're friends and allβ¦β
βweβre friends now? iβm cool with thatβ zhang hao replied with amusement.
βi mean, weβve known each other long enough to call us that, i guessβ you tried to reason, not realising your friend was only teasing you. as you turned your gaze back to him you saw him still smiling at you. this man will be the death of me. βwell thatβs that. sorry i canβt stay longer, i have places to be. bye zhang hao.β you said as you got up from the bench. you had nowhere to be, but you couldnβt possibly handle being in zhang haoβs presence any longer.Β
βbye friend!β he yelled after you still with a teasing tone.
viii. feel nothing
you and your new friend zhang hao have gotten along well since your talk at the park. nothing has changed that much, except now you greet each other at campus, engage in conversation together, and sometimes share memes with each other. you have tried to convince matthew that you and zhang hao are really just friends and nothing more. matthew just canβt help himself when he teases you with kissy noises every time you interact with zhang hao. heβs the only other person that knows about your little secret. even hanbin doesnβt know, because if he did β everyone would.Β
you were finally finished with your last class of the day, walking out of your department building. you felt at ease as everything in your life was finally going well. you were able to sort things out with zhang hao, you werenβt particularly struggling with any classes, and you were barely thinking about him, who shall not be named.Β
as if on cue, there he was standing a few meters away from you. jaemin. he wasnβt alone though, as he was having a conversation with someone. you couldnβt quite tell what the two were talking about, not that really even mattered to you. contrary to popular belief, your heart no longer ached at the sight of him. you continued your journey with no intent to interact with jaemin, at least not until you realised who exactly he was talking with. when you were close enough you could recognize the other manβs voice.
what was zhang hao doing with jaemin? the sight in front of you felt really odd, but you couldnβt possibly look away. zhang hao almost towered over jaemin, paying attention to what the latter was talking about. he was wearing glasses that complimented his face well. one of his sleeves was rolled up revealing his toned arm. he looked so mesmerising, you couldn't help but stare.
it didnβt take long for you to be caught staring as jaemin called out your name. βwow itβs been so long. how have you been?β he asked happily as you took a few steps closer to the two. zhang hao was surprised to see you, his gaze moving between you and jaemin. his face filled with worry made you think he must have heard about jaemin and you from someone (definitely not from hanbin). you gave zhang hao a reassuring smile as you greeted jaemin, who was ready to embrace you in a hug.Β
βiβve been wellβ you sounded a little awkward as the two of you let go. an act that used to make your heart do backflips no longer felt like anything. βwhat were you two talking about? i didnβt know you even knew each other.β you asked out of curiosity as you stood next to zhang hao, who suddenly put his arm around your shoulder. you turned your head towards your friend, trying to understand what he was up to.Β
βweβve shared a few classes here and thereβ zhang hao said as he turned his head to face you. he was so close to you again, making your heart beat louder on your chest. βyouβre ready to go?β he continued. you could only show your confusion on your face as you didnβt trust your voice to say anything at the close proximity. βdinner? remember?β he gave you a wink.
what? you were completely lost. what was this man talking about?Β
βoooh, date night?β jaemin cooed in front of you. he took his headphones out of his back and put them over his ears. βi won't waste your time anymore then. y/n we should totally catch up sometime!β he didnβt wait for your response before he left.Β
you and zhang hao stayed close to each other in silence for a while. you wondered if he could hear the way your heart was beating for him. you tried to look for answers from his face but to no avail. finally, zhang hao moved and removed his hand off of you, what had felt like way too soon. βsorryβ he said as he stood in front of you. βyou must have felt awkward seeing himβ he continued, scratching the back of his neck.Β
βdid you do all that to get rid of him? iβm fine, i donβt like him like that anymoreβ you felt the need to clarify to him.
βohβ he said, blush breaking to his face and neck. βwell, i was getting tired of him anywayβ he excused and removed his gaze from you to hide his embarrassment. you thought he looked the cutest whenever he got shy or embarrassed.Β
your laugh seemed to peak his interest again, as he turned his gaze back on you. your blushing face, matching his own. a comfortable silence fell between you again. βjust friends huh?β you could hear matthewβs teasing voice in your head.
βy/n?β zhang hao eventually spoke. you hummed as a response, waiting him to carry on. βhave you eaten yet?β the boy continued hesitantly.Β
βno, not yetβ you answered truthfully, not quite sure where the conversation was going. zhang hao stayed quiet for a while. he was nervously shifting on his place, turning his face away from you once again. he was trying to find the right way to ask you.
βwould you like to go out for dinner then?β he asked carefully.Β
βsure!β you answered enthusiastically. you were starving at this point and wouldnβt mind spending some time with friends as well. βwho else is coming?βΒ
βwell, i thought it could be just usβ¦β the boy responded, still not daring to look at you.Β
oh.
βoh! that works too. sure. yeah.β you replied, definitely not embarrassed that you didnβt get the hint right away. βdoes indian sound good to you? iβm craving butter chickenβ you continued, trying to move the conversation onwards, while your heart kept beating hard against your chest.Β
βif thatβs what you want, itβs good with meβ zhang hao said and the two of you started your way out of campus, both a blushing mess.
ix. feel everything
you were not entirely sure what to think. had you just been on a date? zhang hao didnβt explicitly call it that, but it surely had felt like one. the dinner went smoothly, it didnβt feel awkward and the two of you were able to talk to each other comfortably. he constantly smiled at you and asked you questions about your life, putting the effort into getting to know you. he even insisted on paying for your meal in the end.Β
you got to know things about him as well, as zhang hao no longer felt shy talking to you. heβs an only child and very close with his mom. he chose to play the violin, because itβs much easier to carry around compared to a cello. him and jiwoong have gotten closer lately because jiwoong had asked him to help him with a song he has been working on. he also revealed that he was glad that the two of you have gotten closer, which made you question things even more.
you were walking to your apartment in silence, completely sober this time. zhang hao had insisted on walking you home again, βas a man shouldβ he had said. the way his hand was accidentally brushing against yours every once in a while was giving you butterflies in your stomach. you were not entirely sure if the man next to you even realises how much of an effect he had on you. you werenβt walking that fast because you really didnβt want the night to end.Β
must to your dismay, you ended up in front of your apartment building. it felt like deja vu, standing in front of him again. you didnβt want zhang hao to leave, but you werenβt sure if it was appropriate to invite him in. you couldn't hide behind the confidence alcohol had given you last time. you didn't know what to say, so you settled on just staring at his face, completely mesmerised. he was doing the same, his gaze wandering on your face, like he was trying to remember each little detail of you.Β
βi shouldβ¦β zhang hao started, now looking straight into your eyes. βi should probably go nowβ he continued, not at all convincing. he made no effort to move, which finally gave you the confidence to talk. it wonβt hurt to ask, right?
βi could offer you a glass of water before you goβ you said, tearing your gaze away, still slightly scared of what he might answer. βyou know, taeraeβs not home tonightβ¦β you added. as you heard no answer from the boy, you hesitantly took a look at him. he was smiling at you again, the way he had been all dinner.Β
zhang hao took a step closer, raising his hand to hold your chin, making you hold eye contact with him. he lowered his gaze slowly to your lips, looking at you like you were someone to be desired. βyou sure?β he finally spoke in a lower voice, still staring at your lips. you could only hum in response. and then he leaned in to kiss you.Β
his lips were soft, but he pushed them hard against yours. he tasted like cherries as you kissed him back. the kiss deepened quickly as his tongue pushed past your lips. his arms lowered to your hips, pulling you closer, as you put yours behind his neck, playing with his hair. you didnβt stop until you both were almost running out of air.
zhang hao let out an airy laugh. βiβve wanted to do that for a whileβ he confessed, your arms still tangled around each other. he was looking at you with so much adoration.
βyeah? me tooβ you smiled, your cheeks slightly pink. you let go of the boy to open the door to your apartment building. he held onto your arm as the two of you walked towards the elevator. you turned to look at zhang hao, whoβs cheeks were a shade of pink as well. he noticed you staring and gave you another sweet smile. the door finally opened, and he couldnβt even wait till you got to your apartment, as he stole another kiss from you as you entered the elevator.
βi honestly thought you didnβt like me at allβ you admitted to him as you parted from the kiss.
βthatβs what hanbin always told meβ zhang hao answered, now with a pout on his lips. βi was just too shy to talk to you, youβre like the most gorgeous person iβve ever laid my eyes onβ he continued, no longer daring to look you in the eye. even he seemed a little surprised by his sudden confession.Β
oh.Β
youβve received compliments before, but hearing one from zhang hao felt different. your cheeks heated up again, and you could feel your excitement all the way down on your stomach. you wanted him so badly, you could only wish he felt the same way. when the elevator stopped, you decided to quickly peck the boy's cheek before you dragged him to your apartment.
once the door to your apartment closed behind you, you were all over each other. his lips connected with yours as your arms roamed all over your bodies. you couldnβt get enough of him, wanting him even closer to you. you stumbled over to your bedroom, where you gave him one more kiss before backing away.
zhang hao looked at you with concern. βare you okay?β he asked while still holding you closely.
βyeah, i just- i want to make sure you want this as much i doβ you answered, studying his face for any signs of regret or hesitation.Β
βi really like you y/n, and i want this more than you thinkβ he admitted. he detached one of his hands from you to remove his glasses out of the way, putting them down to your nightstand. he lowered his hand on your cheek, cherishing it gently. βlet me show you just how much you mean to me.β
so you let him, as you kissed him again.
x. fall in love
you were still out of breath as you cuddled up to zhang haoβs bare body. he wrapped his hand around you and squeezed you closer to him, twirling your hair with his fingers. you laid your head against his chest, drawing circles on his toned body, sighing with content. you felt zhang haoβs lips against your forehead, giving you a peck after peck. the act made you giggle, turning your gaze to him.
βwhat?β you asked.
βnothing, iβm just really happyβ he answered, giving you one more kiss on your lips. he looked at you with so much love and warmth, which made you feel like you were dreaming. you couldnβt help but wonder what made you deserve to meet someone like zhang hao. no one has made you feel this good in such a long time, if ever. suddenly, very overwhelmed with your feelings, you hid your face on the crook of his neck.
you felt zhang haoβs chest vibrate from the laughter he let out. βcuteβ he whispered quietly, mostly to just himself, cherishing your head again. you got comfortable again, almost falling asleep in his embrace. his breath also evening out as he was slowly drifting away to sleep too.
βi really like you too, zhang haoβ you sleepily mumbled against his skin, before the two of you fell into dreamland together.
- end
bonus:
βwhy do you always call me zhang hao?β
βmaybe because itβs your name??β
βyes, but everyone calls me hao. youβre the only one who calls me zhang haoβ
βohβ
βwell, hao, iβll call you that from now onβ
the boyβs face flushed red as he finally heard you say his name.Β
βoh my god, youβre so cute!βΒ
he turns his face to hide his blush from you.
βshut upβ
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SLIGHTLY proofread | f!reader | poly relationship with nick & charlie though reader isnβt dating charlie | pretty damn long i got ahead of myself, sorry :,) | theyβre so cute but im so bad at details fr | lunch date, walks, stargazing w fireflies & movie night! (you got headbands to wearβ¦ guess what movie charlie is having yβall watch rn) | what is stargazing | author questioning what color sonicβs eyes are | theres some crying at the end and a mention of breaking up but its just those negative thoughts actin up, theyre all okay :) | angst/comfort? | not many kisses unfortunately but THERE ARE SOME, like three scenesβ¦ two? | there is cussing, not much | nick & reader flashbacks
#%a/n%#;; first request done! thanks for it, they mean so much to me. i didnβt wanna make it too long but here we are lolol, hope itβs enjoyable though π₯Ήπ also ntm on your family details but your mom does appear and she has a βsetβ personality! no one else appears though so you can imagine the readerβs family how you want, though it is mentioned your mom is married. also note, since reader is a lady she goes to the same school as like, elle darcy tara (and probably imogen too, right?). meant to post this yesterday but i wanted to add some stuff at the end haha, sorry sorry this is a whole ass wattpad book fr, feel like i wrote so much and nothing at the same time. hope you enjoy if you give it a read thought fhdhdj
OH YEAH last thing, the emotions in this story is kind of a whiplash π one minute theyβre happy the next theyre kinda sad or bittersweet so- hopefully the pacing doesnt seem badβ¦ BE WARNED. shouldnβt be too crazy. okay thats it this time do enjoy
character(s):
nick & charlie (heartstopper)
elle & tao cameo
readerβs mom omg sheβs a sweetheart, charlieβs parents are mentioned/super small cameo, nickβs mom also has a small cameo/is mentioned
darcy, imogen and sahar are very briefly mentioned!
The sweet sound of the school bell rings throughout and the school and every single student sighs in relief of the noise. You glance up at the clock on the wall before looking around the classroom where students are packing up their bags while talking noisily to one another.
You allow yourself to recline in your chair, left arm reaching back to where your backpack dangles off the seat and slide your hands into the side pocket, grabbing your phone.
Nicky Ricky Dicky: Iβm alive!
Char: you live! i live too :) wanna walk together today or are you both busy? (gonna pick you up bestie)
Y/N: iβll meet you outside (ty loveliest)
Char: awesome!!! nick?
Nicky Ricky Dicky: Sorry aha, I need to go home quickly today but Iβll be sure to join tomorrow!
This makes you pout and you can imagine your bestfriend having the same expression because the sad emoji he wrote in the group-chat even makes you sadder.
Char: βΉοΈ
Y/N: donβf worry charlie
Y/N: Donβt*
Nicky Ricky Dicky: Sorry :,)
Char: Itβs fine! Do what you have to doβ¦ we gonna facetime tonight though?
Char hearts your message βdonβf worry charlieβ.
Nicky Ricky Dicky: No promises but Iβll do my best. π β€οΈ
Nicky Ricky Dicky: i gtg now, love you both <3
Y/N: lym! β€οΈ
Char: love you! β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
Y/N: three hearts π₯Ή
Char: y/n. STOP. come outside before i die
Y/N: omg⦠such a drama king like okay
You write and yet, youβre quick to jump from your chair and snatch your bag before sliding it on your shoulder. You push in your chair and skip out into the hallways where you see Elle. βHeya, Elle!β
She smiles warmly and waves goodbye to her friends before stepping in sync with you. βHey there, Miss, didnβt catch your name.β You bump her shoulder and she bumps you back. βWhatβre you up to?β
βCharlieβs gonna come pick me up, hopefully via bikeβ¦ mines broke the other day.β You sigh and she gives you a look of pity while trying to bite back a grin. Then she perks up.
βNot Nick?β
You shake your head, rubbing a hand against your temple. βMm-mm, you ever just get a feeling something is off?β
Elle nods, turning her face away from you and her hands grip onto the handle of her bag that bounces against her legs. βYeah, just putting it out thereβ¦ graduation may be on his mind, I know its on mine and itβs been kicking my ass to be honest,β You wrap an arm around her in comfort and she hums in appreciation. βJust all that weird stuff, weird thoughts and anxietyβ¦β Then she pauses, raising a hand and flicking her wrist. βOkay- not weird, but you know.β
That makes you snort, βYeah, I getβchaβ¦ maybe, but weβve always been open about that kind of stuff, I just donβt understand why itβd be a issueβ¦ I mean, weβve talked about it many times before so itβs kind of odd, I guess?β You and Elle share a look of confusion before shrugging.
βMaybe itβs been having more of an impact yβknow? You can speak easily about something when youβre not there yet butβ¦ graduation is coming up and everyone is worried about the future. You know how things donβt hit you till itβs happening literally next week or something? Maybe its hitting harder.β
Your heart clenches in pain at those words. Sheβs not wrong, there is a high chance itβs staring to affect him moreβ¦ hitting harder than youβd know. You nibble on your bottom lip in concern and furrow your eyebrows,
βWell. If heβs being an idiot and isnβt gonna come to us about it then Iβll beat him up.β You place your hands on your hips, lightly joking to disperse the tense air between the two of you. Of course he isnβt being an idiot but you refuse to let him stress on his own. Elle chokes out a laugh in surprise.
βOh god, he better run, sheβs scary when sheβs angry.β One of her hands let go of her bag and she hold her stomach while laughing a bit more. βWouldnβt that be a sight?β
You scoff, βLike we havenβt argued before.β
βYou argue about literal video games.β
βStop.β You laugh and push at her shoulder. βOh, and Elle, you know Iβm your friend and if you ever need an ear to lend about college talk or need help to get your mind off of it to just relax, you got me.β She stares at you for a few beats before cracking into a grin.
βThank you, Y/N. You know you got me too.β
Outside the school building youβre quick to spot two familiar figures by the gate. βYes, heβs here!β Your arms raise in celebration then instantly flop down, βThereβs no bikeβ¦!β
Elle calls out which makes the two boys stiff in seconds.
βGet your butts over here, Mr. Xu and Mr. Spring!β They awkwardly crane their necks to your direction and simultaneously sigh in relief β probably thinking you were teachers.
βYou nearly gave me a heart attack!β Tao exclaims as you and Elle once youβre right infront of the two, gesturing to his heart. Elle is quick to place a hand over his chest β Taoβs cheeks lowkey reddening but you decide not to point it out for his sake β and her eyes widen a bit.
βTao, your chest is gonna shoot out your chest.β
βSee?β
βThat is the goal, sire.β You finger gun at him and he smacks your hand away lightly with an exasperated look. It makes you giggle. βElle is just feeling a little silly today.β
βItβs my agenda.β She grins before engulfing Charlie into a hug and he squeaks in surprise before squeezing her back. βHello, Charlie!β
βAre you sure your heart isnβt pounding because youβve gotten your daily dose of Elle?β You whisper while stepping in line next to Tao, facing your head to your other friends but you can see him tense at the corner of your eye.
He pinches his nose bridge, mumbling and you catch some of the words, suspiciously sounding like him saying heβs gonna fight you. His cheeks bloom a rosy rose so you take the win either way and smugly smirk at him.
βHi, Elle!β His muffled laugh catches your attention, making you and Tao smile at the interaction before you wrap an arm around the latter, making him eyeroll, of course he does, but he wraps an arm around your shoulder and gives you a light squeeze in response.
βWe best be off on our merry way,β You speak up, checking the time as the two friends let go of eachother. βI wanna stop by that new shop that opened a few weeks agoβ¦ Is that fine, Char?β
He gives you a thumbs up and Elle speaks, βLet me know how their desserts taste, Iβve been wondering but honestly they donβt look that good soβ¦β She stares at you with a grimace before shrugging.
βNoted~β You say in a singsong voice before wrapping your arms around Charlie. βIβll call you later, enjoy your afternoon date.β You and Charlie give the couple teasing grins and they take the bait, looking away in shyness but Tao takes the initiative and connects their hands together. It makes you melt.
βShut up.β He groans, snapping but tone very much unthreatening adding on the fact heβs trying to cover his flustered face with his free hand.
βYes, yes grumpy old man, weβll see you later.β You and Charlie waist no time to start down the road with waves.
βBye!β He shouts.
βIβm not a grumpy old man!β Tao stomps his foot, comedically. Right. How could you make that mistake?
βBye, Y/N and Charlie!β Elle laughs with a wave and tugs her totally-not-grumpy boyfriend off in the other direction. You watch their hands tighten around eachother, squinting in amusement when Taoβs scowl instantly softens into a lovestruck gaze.
βAhhh, young love.β
βYouβre starting to sound like the old one here.β Charlie snickers, hands coming up to hold onto your forearms that are still bounded around him.
βYou wound me, Char.β You squeeze him and he huffs. βI literally think the same when you and Nick are interacting, itβs so,β You make weird noises, fingers wiggling. βYβknow? Very sweet. Very cute, I even have some photos of you latching onto eachother while sleeping. Wanna see-?β
His brain feels like itβs shutting down, lightly smacking your arm when you lift it as to grab your phone. βStop it.β You could practically see those animated stars swirling around his head and laugh.
You relent and unwrap your arms with a cheeky smile. He glances at you before hiding his face in his hands. βUghh, whatever. You act like you donβt jump Nick the minute you see him.β Yeah, thatβs crazy. You feel your own cheeks flaring up.
βYou must be blind.β
βNo, no, no. Donβt do that.β
βDo what?β
βLie!β He exclaims in a joking tone, uncovering his face and poking you in accusation. You lean away, losing your balance and forcing yourself to lean on your tippy toe. Your other foot comes down onto pavement with a stomp and you twirl like youβre dancing. Charlie definitely notices this misstep, doesnβt say anything but you see his shoulders shaking in silence. Heβs laughing.
βI never lie?β You pick off the conversation.
βWas that a question?β He tilts his head back at you.
βNo?β
He stares at you, eyebrow twitching and you puff out your cheeks like a frog, looking anywhere but in his direction. βYouβre awfully cheeky today.β
βHow am I being cheeky?β He gives you a look like youβre being ridiculous.
βCharlie Spring is a little cheeky today, my oh my, what have I done to deserve this.β Then you raise your voice in a slight yell, βAhhh! Who is this?! This isnβt my Charlieeeeβ¦!β Your arms reach for the sky.
βYouβre an idiot.β He takes the chance and poke you again which makes you yelp. You narrow your eyes. He runs off, you chase.
That was last week. You havenβt seen your boyfriend in a couple of days and itβs concerning. He responds hours late to your messages, doesnβt even respond in your group chat with Charlie, his calls barely last ten minutes and you literally havenβt seen this man in person. Charlie tells you he still shows up at school but his eye-bags are pretty bad.
βIs he avoiding me? Iβm confused.β You frown, balled up on Charlieβs bed and feeling very mixed. A little annoyed, a little sad, and alot of worried. Charlie sets down two mugs on his bedside table and sits next to you on the bed. His rests a hand atop of your head and lightly taps it.
βNoβ¦ I donβt think so. I see him at school and he tries to act normal but even he doesnβt respond to me like that outside of school.β The scowl his face makes has deepened and youβre quick to wrap an arm around his leg in comfort. He lets out a weak smile but itβs quick to fall off his face. βIβm confused tooβ¦β
You both stay silent, itβs nearly deafening. βI donβt wanna force him to tell us anything β I mean, he knows he can come to us if he needs it but if heβs really stressed about school maybe we can help give him some space to not think about it. Even if its only for a bit, you know?β Charlie listens to you mumble while tugging at a loose thread on his sweater and nods slowly, eyes lost in thought.
βShould we go somewhere?β He tilts his head back to look at the ceiling before his gaze travels around his roomβs walls, hoping to find an inkling of inspection.
βThat sounds fine.β The somber feeling in the room lifts a bit when you start to grin. You shift onto your back, raising your right arm in the air and sprawl out your fingers. βWe could go out, do something and eatβ¦ I kinda wanna stargaze, is that weird?β
He lets out a chuckle, glancing down at you with a teasing glint in his eyes, βWow, youβre such a romantic, Y/N. Iβm shocked.β To which you scoff.
βWell, duh. Who makes all the date plans?β
βOkay, no, thatβs because you say weβre bad at planning dates β you refuse us to even be involved.β
βCharlie, Nick brought you to a dog park as a date.β
βWhatβs wrong with that?β
βYou both stayed there till nine.β
He full on laughs now, bumping you with his knee and you smack it back in retort. βNo judgement though, I would do the same but that was for the whole day! Who stays at a dog park from Eleven to Nine?β He continues to laugh until they turn into giggles.
βMaybeβ¦ weβre unique.β
βTrue that. You didnβt even bring baby Nells, shaking my head.β To put emphasis, you shake your head and your friend has to gasp out for air. βDonβt die, now.β
βWhatever whatever.β He brings his hands to his face and rubs his cheeks in circular motion to calm himself. His face is flushed and he exhales slowly before reaching for his phone. βDo you want your drink?β
You remove your arm from his leg and sit up properly, holding on your hands and he complies, placing the mug between them. βThank you~β You lean on the wall, flopping your legs onto Charlieβs before crossing them at the ankles β to which he sighs in annoyance and it makes you grin. βWhatβre you doing?β
βIβm gonna search for places to go that is nearby but not too closeβ¦ you have a place in mind for stargazing?β He grabs his own mug that is black and littered with yellow stars, how ironic. You nod sleepily, slowly sipping your preferred drink and tap at the cup absentmindedly.
βYeah, itβs near my house.β
He flicks his eyes towards you for a second.
Then goes back to typing on his phone.
βYou mean it is your home.β
βMaybe.β
You smirk, he sighs and you both go back to planning. Nick honestly better be willing to get his ass dragged out of the house by his lovely girlfriend and boyfriend because money is involved and you both would be damned if he just wallows in self despair, alone.
So, thatβs what happens, you fill Charlieβs parents in on needing to steal your bestfriend during the weekend and some of the plans involved like a movie night. They agreed to let him stay over for the night but he must call every few hours or atleast text.
Your parents love the boys and were completely down with the idea. Of course you also secretly called Nickβs mum and she had filled you in on a couple things that made you a tad bit more nervous to see your boyfriend.
Seems like your assumption was correct (more like Elleβs). βLately heβs been talking about colleges, rightβ¦ heβs planning to go on a trip sometime this month to check them out but he seems stressed, itβs been worrying me. You know though, kids probably donβt want their parents all in their business, haha,β She laughs softly and you can hear running water cut off on her end β probably washing something β βHe knows he can come to me so Iβm just letting him have his space. Itβs lovely you and Charlie want to ease his mind! Glad heβs with and friends with two sweethearts,β This makes your face flare up in embarrassment but your chest puffs with pride.
βOf course, and I know he appreciates you being patient and understanding with him. The thing we donβt wanna do is pressure himβ¦ I just hope this can help take his mind off of the stress and you knowβ¦ relax?β You grimace a bit, tugging at the end of your sleeve as the phone sits between your ear and shoulder.
βI get it, mhm. Thank you, Y/N.β Her voice is still soft but gets even more sincere with a hint of emotion. Had you feeling emotional too.
Saturday is quick to arrive and you stare at your reflection with determination. Brushing down your outfit, you admire your date look a bit more before turning around slowly and snatch your bag off the bed which is filled with random necessities that you may or may not need along with your wallet.
βAlright, Nick Nelson, prepare yourself for the best date youβll ever be on.β You puff out your cheeks, grab you phone of the charger and exit your room. βIβll be off, Mother~β You hum once you reach the end of the staircase and spot your Mom on the couch with a paper in hand.
βWhat is with the formal address?β She chuckles behind her hand, standing up and following you towards the front door. βIβll see you later tonight with Nick and Charlie, right? Enjoy yourselves.β She smiles, wrapping her arms around your head and you hug her back with a gentle squeeze.
βOh! Wait.β
She quickly unravels herself from you and speeds down the hall to the kitchen. Your eyes stare down the direction she went for a few seconds before deciding to slip on your shoes.
βOkay, here you go.β Youβre standing with the door open by the time she comes back and she gives you a picnic basket. Itβs not super big but you have to grab it with two hands. Less from the size, more from the weight.
βMom. What did you pack in here?β You huff out a laugh, going to open the lid but she stops you.
βNo, do not open it. Itβs likeβ¦ a wedding. You canβt see your spouse or itβll be bad luck!β She speaks with a finger raised and you cock an eyebrow up. Whatever you say, Mom is basically your expression and she seems to notice because she places her hands on her hips with an exasperated look. βJust trust me, Iβve done it before and it was bad luck all day.β
βMhm, mhm, right.β You nod, half listening and backing up on your porch. She follows, hand on the doorknob with a soft smile and she pinches your cheek with her other hand. βThanks, I love you.β
βLove you too, honey.β She full on grins now and waves. After your βsee you laterβ promises, youβre quick to dart down the street and across the roads to a nearby park where Charlie said heβd meet you after picking up Nick. It gives you enough time to unload the nice lunch packed for the three of you and hopefully buy some refreshing popsicles or ice creams before they arrive.
Seems like luck is on your side though β maybe your Mom was right β because the minute you finish laying out the huge blanket in a nice shaded area you hear the sound of someone ringing a familiar bell sound. You turn your head so quick it nearly gave you whiplash and your eyes widen at the person walking along the parkβs path, pushing a white squared cart decorated with photos of different types of cold treats.
You take your bag and phone, dialing Charlieβs number while speedwalking across the grassy field. It takes two rings before you hear his voice.
βYes, partner in crime?β His voice comes off as staticky for a moment.
βWhat the hell are you doinβ, your mic is scuffed as hellβ¦β
βIβm walking!β You could imagine the eyeroll Charlie would do and bite your cheek to not laugh.
βAre you with Nick?β You continue to talk but smile in greeting when the ice cream seller stops at you coming over. He says hello and you wave before looking over all the choices on the cart.
βYes. Weβre grabbing drinks right now, you okay?β
βYeah! Iβm at the park, set up the picnic β though the food is still in the basket,β You glance back at your spot and after making sure nothing seems out of the ordinary you look back at the cart. βYou remember those ice cream cart things? You want something?β
Itβs silent between the two of you as Charlie ponders, in the meantime you point to your desired choice and the guy nods with a smile, opening the ice cream cart before digging around in the pile of cold desserts until he finds the one you want.
βDo they-β He cuts himself off with a chuckle and you perk up at his voice, βDo they um,β He snorts this time then sighs to calm himself, βThe ones with the bubblegum eyes. I wanna try one.β
You laugh a little, thanking the ice cream man as he sets the packaged treat in your hand. βDo you want the sonic one or something?β
βWhatever you spot first or whichever is given. Oh wait- Nick-β You zone out a bit as he speaks to the blond and point to the blue hedgehog. The ice cream man continues his search. βHe said he wants the crybaby ice cream.β
βOh god.β You sigh in adoration, tilting your head back to the clear blue sky. βWerenβt they, like, terrible the last time we tried them?β
This time you hear Nickβs cheerful voice and he scoffs, βOkay, no. That was because for some weird reason you and Darcy wanted to put warheads into the mix.β
βThank you,β You say to the nice man, grabbing a ten and a five dollar bill as a tip out of your wallet with a smile. You then put all the treats into your bag along with the wallet, waving the man bye which he returns and goes on his merry way. Your focus goes back to the two boys. βAh yes, I remember the part where your face went sooo red. Hilarious, I have videos I think.β
He groans in prospect and you hear muffled giggles erupt from Charlie. βWhy do you do this to me?β
βWhat are you talking about?β You tease and he groans again.
Charlie then speaks up, sounding way closer to the phone. βAlright! Weβll see you in two-point-five seconds.β You hum in response and say your goodbyes before hanging up the phone.
You reach the blanket again, flopping on your tush and take the ice creams out, aligning them with precision on top of the picnic basket. Charlie doesnβt disappoint because not two minutes later you see two familiar figures walking down the park path, one of them pointing towards your general direction and ditching the path to the grass.
You could feel your heart pound fromβ¦ nervousness or excitement? Maybe both and it makes you grin, waving at the two. They get closer and Charlie waves awkwardly with a hand that has a drink in it, to which you notice his other hand also had a drinkβ¦ and one of Nickβs. The blondβs other hand is carrying headbands of some sort and a bag is hanging off his arm.
βChar told me to get these while we were in the grocery store.β Nick speaks first when they get to you, he lifts the hand with headbands. βI decided not to question it.β You raise your hands and he carefully sets the accessories in them. Ah. Barbie headbands.
βCharlieβ¦β Your brows pinch in amusement but also bewilderment. βWhat have you decided?β
He chuckles mysteriously, lifting a foot off the ground to point at your hand. βPut those down and take your drink, please. My hands are freezing.β
βOops.β You comply and take the cup. The two eventual settle down with Nick in the middle and you quietly take a nice sip of the beverages. βThank you.β
The boys nod and you glance at Nick, noticing the shadows of bags under his eyes. It makes you frown for a second, βSo, what am I doing here on this lovely day.β Before you could inquire, Nick speaks up first, eyes shutting in contentment and a pretty smile adoring his face.
You lean back on the palm of your hand, eyeing Charlie and he meets your gaze. βCan we not want to hang out with the one and only, Mr. Nick Nelson?β You speak with a teasing tone, leaning into his side. His smile goes wider and he opens his eyes to meet yours.
βYou make me sound like some big shot.β
Your eyes narrow.
βWell it was hard to reach youβ¦ soβ¦β His gaze falters along with his smile, nervously tapping the top of his cup. βNot to pressure you, you know that but Charlie and I will always be there to listen if you need it.β You poke his arm gently and you spot Charlieβs hand sliding into Nickβs.
βYeah.β Charlie nods, squeezing their hands, βBut if not, thatβs fine too. Y/N and I wanted to just, relax with you. Spend some time together.β
That makes Nick let out a shaky laugh and a wobbly smile. βThanks.β He pauses. βReally. Itβs just been, crazy?β He nibbles at his bottom lip before sighing and flops on his back, leaving his cup between his crossed legs and dragging the two of you down with him β which makes you all share a laugh.
Charlie rests against his boyfriendβs chest β facing his direction and you flip onto your stomach to play with both of their soft locks. βWhat has?β You ask softly.
Heβs silent for a bit, tapping his fingers on your back with his free hand. βIβm not sure, school? Life? β¦Me? Thereβs no exact reason, everything just seems to be crashing down in my brain and itβs annoying to say the least.β He sighs heavily, βIβm probably just having that kind of month where everything is just feels like alot.β He frowns and you move the hand in his hair down under his chin, gently squeezing his cheeks and he chuckles.
βThatβs perfectly fine, it happens.β You move the hand to trail up the left side of his face and place your palm over his forehead like youβre checking his temperature and it makes Charlie join in, prodding at Nickβs neck gently.
βThereβs a lot going through your life right now, perfectly understandable why it feels overwhelming and such. Thank you for talking to us about it.β Charlie speaks softly.
βOf course. I donβt,β Nick pauses, opening his eyes with a flash of worry, βI donβt want it to feel like Iβm shutting you both out or anything, or if it feels like youβve done something wrong. I feel less weird thinking Iβm overreacting, hahaβ¦β The laugh comes off flat but from the reassuring smiles from his lovers, he feels at ease.
βYouβre not.β
βNuh-uh.β You and Charlie speak simultaneously, denying such thoughts. It makes Nick laugh which sounds less forceful.
βI donβt think Iβll be able to talk about everything right now since I donβt even think Iβm doneβ¦ accessing everything but really, thank you. You both are my anchors.β If you didnβt tear up from that, your heart definitely did. Charlie gets up off Nick, letting go of the blondβs hand and tilts his head back with his hands over his face.
βSame, Charlie.β You cover your own face and lay flat against the blanket.
βIβ¦β Nick trails off with another laugh and he sits back up which catches both of your attention. βCan we eat though, Iβm getting a little hungry.β He gives a shy smile and you also sit up.
βOh shit, what if the ice cream melted?!β This realization has the three of you shooting towards the basket, grabbing the packaged delights and simultaneously sigh in relief. Theyβre not meltedβ¦ yet.
βShould we just eat these first and then eat the actual lunch next?β Charlie bites back a laugh, already opening up the plastic and pulling out the bubblegum eye Sonic, wasting no time to put it in his mouth with wide adorning eyes.
You and Nick watch him in amusement before opening your own. βI wanted this lime popsicle they usually sell but there were none.β You sigh before eyeing Nickβs container of airhead ice cream. He opens the top and it reveals the swirls ofβ¦ red? Or pink and green.
βThatβs funny, we saw those while we were at the store. There were these coconut flavors too.β Nick reminisces, plucking the taped but wrapped in itβs own plastic wooden spoon off the side of the ice cream container.
Charlie hums before looking down at the bitten into Sonic, βWhy does Sonic have green eyes? Are they actually green?β
You all stay silent.
βI thought they were black or brown?β You speak in confusion.
βRight? Even blueβ¦.β Charlie tilts his head.
βTechnically all of those are correct though they turn red as wellβ¦ Itβs the different franchises, I guess?β Nick furrows his brows in thought, scooping into his sour treat after freeing the wooden stick and eats away, wincing here and there. You watch with amusement.
The lunch date you can say with absolute certainty was very successful. You all catch up on things that have been going on and different shows youβve been watching. Sharing ice cream, stuffing yourselves full with your Momβs cooking β there was even a drink war? All you knew was one minute you were nearly done with your beverage and the next itβs being tossed in Nickβs direction as you try and run away from Charlieβs retort from you getting him seconds before. Ah, canβt forget the classic kisses shared under one of the many trees at the park and the newest photos stored in your βNick & Char β€οΈβ album, like the picture of Charlie βpaintingβ Nickβs face with whip cream. Where the fuck did you get whip cream from? Ask your mother.
Around the time you were all packing up, a teenager around your age ran up with their four other friends and inform you there is a nice walking trail β pointing towards the area where the park path splits, one continuing into a circle around the whole field and the other going into an area with rows of trees.
βYβthink weβll get jumpscared? Like a haunted path or something.β You joked.
βThey said thereβs a nice stream down the path.β Nick smirks at your joking, placing a hand on your head and you puff out your cheeks, feeling them heat up a bit.
βAh yes, you can take a nice swim in it when I push you in there, Y/N.β Charlie hums, quick to dart his eyes away when you flip your head in his direction.
βYouβre so evil to me?β You watch him with wild eyes, mouth agape and he laughs.
βDo you think weβll actually able to get in?β Nick ponders and you flip the wild gaze to him now.
βWith us three, Iβm sure we can pull it off.β Charlie responds with a menacing grin, mischief all up in his eyes and youβre playing ping pong with your eyes, flitting back and forth between them.
βIβm gonna be arrested today, huhβ¦β Your boyfriend and bestfriend just giggle like evil people.
In the end, you three didnβt get in the streamβs water but there were some fishes so you decided to feel them the crust that Charlie didnβt eat from his sandwich and take some more photos. Nick had picked Charlie up bridal-style, getting dangerously close to the water and you record it all.
βDonβt drop me!β Charlie tightens his hold around Nick, fear and excitement in his tone.
βThis takes me back to the beachβ¦β Nick ignores his boyfriendβs pleas and spins around carefully.
βDo not reminisce while Iβm in your arms, please and thank you?!β He exclaims and it makes you full on laugh, an arm over your stomach while watching the whole exchange happen.
Itβs not long before it turns from afternoon to evening, you three return back from the area with Nick and Charlie debating on if they saw a deer or not. Charlie saying it was definitely there and Nick saying it wasnβt there.
βCarl Grimes flashbacksβ¦β You hum and Charlie puts you in a headlock.
βDo not. I will cry right here.β He pouts and pulls at your cheeks, ignoring your protests. Nick watches with a soft gleam in his eyes, rocking the picnic basket back and forth with a hand.
You all walk down the sidewalk side by side once Charlie lets you go, talking about random things before Nick realizes the direction youβre going.
βAre we dropping Y/N off?β He frowns.
It catches you and Charlie off guard. βWhat? What makes you think that?β You raise an eyebrow. Nick points ahead and your house in slowly coming up in view. Ah.
βAh.β Charlie speaks your thought and you both share a laugh. βNo, weβre not dropping her off.β Charlie stretches his arms with a grunt before eyeing the bag strapped around Nick. βYou brought pajamas and clothes for tomorrow, right?β
Nick nods, pursing his lips. βStill confused about that.β
You scoff in amusement and place a hand on your forehead with an endearing smile. βNickβ¦β
βDonβt worry, youβll understand soon.β Charlie gives him a thumbs up, paired with a wink before darting ahead of the two of you. Nick flicks his gaze to you in question but you put on an act and shrug.
βWhat he said,β You pause for a moment, eyes burning into Nickβs, βDo you like stargazing?β
He moves closer to you, closing the gap and tugs your hand in his. The question makes him look up at the sky for a moment. βMmm. Never tried it before? What counts as stargazing? Iβveβ¦ been in the car on trips and looked out the windowβ¦?β You give him a perplexed look which he returns.
βAlright, well-β You chuckle, βThat canβ¦ technically count? I guess? Justβ¦ Yeah.β You give up midway, tugging Nick along when you get closer to the front of your house where Charlie awaits. βYouβre on your phone while youβre on a date? Tsk tsk.β You tut your lips in disapproval and Charlie startles.
He rolls his eyes, flipping his phone to the two of you bounding up the steps. βI was texting Saha- oops, hold on-β He cuts himself off, flipping the phone back around with a nervous smile.
You glance at Nick before moving your hand to cover his eyes with your other hand. He gasps in surprise but doesnβt question it any further, grinning a bit. Facing back to Charlie you mouth the word, βBarbie?β and tilt your head in confusion. He nods.
βYouβre silly.β You remove your hand from Nickβs face and flatten your hand, tapping Charlieβs forehead in a chopping motion. He rubs the area with a laugh and you knock on your front door.
βDid you forget your keys?β Nick giggles when you give him a look of shame.
βMaybe.β
Your Mom is quick to open the door, grinning widely. βWelcome back. Hello, Charlie and Nick.β They wave in shyness and she scoots back to let the three of you in. βWhatβs the plan next, soldier?β She bumps the door closed with her hip and loosely crosses her arms, raising an eyebrow at you specifically.
βGonna go in the back for about an hourβ¦β You trail off, taking your shoes off in the most complicated way. With your feet, or the heels per-say. When you finish you take the basket from Nick and walk to the kitchen with your mom as the boys finish taking off their own shoes. βTo stargaze.β You finally finish when Nickβs ears are out of reach.
She pats you on the back with approval, βAttagirl. How was lunch?β
βIt was fun! We spoke a bit, ate and went down a trail.β You bounce your head to the side while listening the activities before pausing. βHe seems moreβ¦ energized?β Your lips purse.
βWas that a question?β She leans against the counter, one arm coming out of the self-hug and she combs her hand through your hair. You give her an awkward look and she breathes out a laugh. Tapping the crown of your forehead, she moves away to the fridge with a soft smile. βWell, if he seems to be uplifted,β She eyes you before taking out three water bottles. βThatβs great news, no?β Then sets them infront of you on counter.
βYouβre right butβ¦ I donβt know. I just feel like I can do more,β You huff. βBut thatβs dumb because of course I canβt, this has to be something Nick figures out and all I can do is support him.β
βHoney, that is doing more for him. Supporting him is the biggest help you can five someone, along with what youβre already doing. Taking him out, letting him have space to clear his mind and being a safe net. Same thing with Charlie, no?β Her hands latch onto your shoulders and give the muscles a gentle squeeze. βI know it feels like you want to do so much more but, thereβs only so much.β You tilt your head back and look up at her with a half-smile before relenting.
βYouβre right.β
βA mother is always right.β She lets go and moves towards the stove, giving you a smug side eyeβ¦ which you return with an unamused eyeroll.
βYes, yes. My mother is always right. Sometimes.β
βAbout ninety-nine percent.β
βNinety-fiveβ¦β You lift an eyebrow and give her pointed look. She has a spoon in her hand when she looks over you and points it to her chin in thought, itβs just a bit though.
βNinety-seven. Take it or leave it.β
You scoff in amusement before scooping up the bottles, βWhatever you say, maβam. Weβll be outside.β She hums in understanding and you exit out the kitchen, walking into the dining room before reaching the living room where the duo waits.
βPleasure for you to join us.β Charlie smirks and takes two of the bottles from your arms with a nod of thanks.
βBe welcomed.β Nick muses with a grin and cracks open the bottle, taking a quick refreshing sip.
βWhat is this speech? I hate it.β Your face scrunches up in disgust before gesturing to the sliding glass door. βShall we?β
βLook whoβs doing it nowβ¦β Charlie stares at you cheekily. You give him the finger, he returns it.
There are slides in a shoe rack near the door and you three take a pair before stepping out. Nickβs eyes widen in wonder. Your backyard has a big blanket β similar to the one from the picnic β sitting in the middle of the area that has a plot of grass and lanterns that hang off metal rods sit nicely around in the grass that have curves at the end, doing nicely as handles. What surprises you are the little bugs that fly and flicker with a yellow-green gleam in the air.
βSince when do we get fireflies?β You speak first.
βSince forever, Y/N.β Charlie poked your back and you jump, flipping around to get him back but heβs already slipped behind Nick.
βYou littleβ¦β
βAh, ah ah, you have to be nice to me.β
βSays who?β Heβs being ridiculous.
βSays me. Your bestfriend.β He peaks around Nickβs side β who, mind you, is still focusing on the backyardβs look β with a teasing grin.
βIβmma beat you up.β
βNo!β He lets out a laugh when you lunge towards him, twirling out of your reach and running around with you flailing behind.
It felt special to Nick. The orange-red sky turning into itβs pitch dark blue color, stars twinkling down on you three with a full moon bright. His eyes are stuck on his two partners, the fireflies swirling around them out of disturbance but still they still decorate the backyard with green-yellow hues, not ready to leave. He remembers this conversation you had in this backyard a year agoβ¦
βDo you think fireflies come around this area?β You were sitting on a bean bag, legs tucked beneath yourself and were practically sunken into the βseat.β Charlie had insisted you to put it on the concrete side of the backyard so you did and now your face is hidden behind Nickβs switch in your hands.
Speaking of who, Nick is currently soaked wet, wringing out the ends of his shirt and Charlie wraps himself up in a towel. Itβs late night, pitch dark but they wanted to play with water balloons and your Mom happened to be out of the house to pick up dinner.
βMaybeβ¦β He leans back to look at the sky. βWhy? Do you like fireflies or something?β He looks back down at you. The question has you silent for a couple of beats before you set down the console. He watches you with an amused twinkle in his gaze, puffing out his chest in pride at seeing you in his sweater. Charlie had been wearing it earlier and you both traded before they brought out the balloons.
βI mean, I have never seen any so, maybe, maybe not.β You shrug, unfolding your legs and stretching them out with a groan. Your socked feet slap down against the concrete and you sit up a bit. βDonβt you think theyβre kinda special though? My Mom said itβs like theyβre glowing up your night, dancing around you and stuff.β You eye the floor. βAppearing on specials occasions like they know,β You lean back into the seat with a sigh, βSaid thatβs how she got married. Isnβt that crazy?β
Charlie purses his lips, tilting his head to the side before smiling, βSounds magical. Theyβre the βtrue loveβ bugs.β His smile widens into a grin.
βExactly!β You snap your fingers with a nod, bumping your heel against the stone pavement.
βIβm sure they do appear out here though, donβt they come out at Midnight?β Charlie shivers while speaking, hugging the towel around himself tighter. You sympathize with a playful grin.
βMaybe. But well, you boys should get inside and warm up. Weβll try next time.β
βNick! Are you gonna come and lay down?β He snaps out of his head, eyes darting to you and Charlie lying on the blanket though Charlie is trying to tap out from a leg lock you have him in.
He snorts in surprise, not missing a beat and closing the distance. βHow the hell did this happen?β
βNick! Help me~β Charlie wails before pinching your thigh, making you yelp and quickly let go.
βThat is cheating!β You exclaim, rubbing your leg with a wince.
βAllβs fair in war.β He snickers, reaching a hand out to Nick who takes it and sits down between you two.
Itβs a nice silence between the three of you, youβre not sure who laid down first but you eventually followed. Nick has his arms wrapped around the two of you and youβve glanced up at his face which shows contentment. You even met his gaze while peeking and it caught you off guard with how much his brown orbs were filled with much love and affection.
You reach a hand out towards Charlie and tussle at curls, making him whine in protest but lets you continue anyway. βIβm not good with constellations so youβre not gonna be getting that during this stargaze adventure.β You mumble against Nick with a laugh and it makes the other two chuckle.
βNah, thatβs alrightβ¦ Iβm happy with thisβ¦β You and Charlie freeze at how soft Nickβs voice sounds. Serene. Content. More than happy but not quite ecstatic. Filled with much love directed towards the two of you and it has your heart pounding.
You sit up on your elbow, making Nickβs arm slip off of you and he eyes you with suspicion. βActuallyβ¦β This would be way more comfortable on your knees so you sit up, tuck your calves beneath you and cuff Charlieβs face into your hands. Itβs nearly laugh worthy of how quick his face turns a deep red and how you felt it happen under your touch.
You lean forward, careful not to face-plant into him β that would be awkwardβ¦ and painful β pressing your lips against him. You both move into a soft but passionate rhythm. Your thumb brushes against his dusted cheeks, pressing hard against his lips one final time before moving back with a dazed grin.
He returns it, chuckling shyly before meeting Charlieβs intense gaze. You choke back a laugh with the swiftness of your friend sliding up a bit, hand softly cupping the side of Nickβs face and sharing their own kiss. Also very slow, and passionate. Your tilt your head up towards your house, eyeing the sliding door and sigh in relief to not see your Mom near it. By the time your gaze returns youβre meeting with the two boys staring at you with flushed faces.
βOh my god, youβre so red.β You laugh.
βShut up?β Charlie hands an arm over his face, probably burning up a bit more from the teasing.
The fireflies have died down, some still hanging around but you notice most are gone and a smile tugs at your lips. βWanna go inside now?β
Charlie removes his arm with a sharp inhale and the two nod. βDo you need to bring the blanket in?β He points to the cloth when you all stand and youβre quick to shake your head.
βNah. Iβll grab and wash it tomorrow,β You stretch your limbs, hearing some pop. βI need new bonesβ¦β
Nick sticks his tongue out in playful disgust, βThat sounds horrific.β
βWouldnβt that be crazy though? If we needed to trade in new bones when weβre old and seniors.β
βY/N.β Charlieβs eyebrows bend and he grimaces, βWhy do you come up with the most freaky scenarios.β Itβs not a question.
βYeah, like the apocalypse one from before.β Nick pitches in with a frown that falters into a smile.
You all step into the living room after youβre done turning off the lanterns and have grabbed your bottles, βBecause my brain is so amazing that I just think of things you would never think of.β You make a gesture to your brain before wiggling your fingers like youβve done a magic trick.
βOr so you sayβ¦β Charlie glances somewhere else before meeting your eyes, βLess would never think of more, shouldnβt think of.β He flicks his hand towards you, thumb and index finger out in a finger gun.
βHey, these could be real life events soon to happen.β
βYeah the bones theory would happen when we all become immortal.β He chuckles and you roll your eyes.
Then boom, jumpscare. Your Mom appears just as youβre settling on the couch. A screech leaves all of your mouths and she stares in shock with mild confusion and amusement.
βHello to you three, too.β She giggles, walking over to the glass door, tugging the lock between the handle down and pulls the thick curtains down. βEnjoy stargazing?β She turns back around with a soft smile.
You three shift your gazes away. Apparently it wasnβt just you that still had the intimate moment in the back of your brain, huh? βYeah, thanks Mom.β
If she noticed the slight awkwardness building up, she doesnβt mention it nor show it and instead clasps her hands together, βThatβs wonderful! Dinner is finished so feel free to grab whatever you want. Iβll be upstairs if you need me.β She fills you in on her own plan for the night which is pretty much staying in her room so you all have your own time. She then tilts her head, eyes spacing out until she perks up, βAnd then thereβs brownies that are baking, should be finished soon. I set a timer so when you hear it please take it our for me, Y/N.β
You nod before frowning, βWhy does it have to be me?β Apparently she didnβt understand from the confusion crossing her face. You then point to Charlie and Nick.
Charlie looks offended, βWe are a guest?β but his tone is light.
βYou practically live here? Your clothes are in my closet, mind you.β Nick and your Mom choke out a laugh while Charlie flares up, flustered.
βNickβs are too?!β
βWhich is why I included him in my pointing?!β
Two people are bickering, two people laughing at the scene. It doesnβt take long for you Mom to calm you both down, βIt doesnβt matter who, it doesnβt matter if itβs all three of you. Please just donβt let them burn.β She chuckles a bit more before rubbing her hand against her collarbone to calm herself, βHave a great time. Iβll be in my room.β You all wave her βgoodnightβ and she retreats upstairs.
You three share a silence. Then Nick speaks,
ββ¦So what exactly are we doing? It seems you both are full of surprises today,β He wears a teasing look which makes you and Charlie look away.
βDonβt worry about it, mister. You enjoy the ride.β You talk first before nudging Charlie with your leg. βYou put the movie on, Iβll go make our plates and...β You eye Nick for a moment not knowing what he should do.
βNick, I put the backpack in Y/Nβs room, could you go get it while we set up? Oh! The headbands too.β Charlie pitches in and grins at the mention of the headbands. You and Nick blink at him before standing up to dart down your own paths.
While youβre making the plates the oven timer does go off. You take a toothpick from one of the drawers, flick on the oven light, open the oven β making you flinch back from the heat β then poke the dark chocolate fudge goodness. It has baked all the way so you grab oven mitts and drag the pan of brownies out of itβs cooker, sets it on the stove and flick turn the oven off.
After making sure everything was set in the kitchen you grab two plates and exit the kitchen, back into the living room where the movie is paused on the TV right before it begins. Charlie stands up and helps grab the two plates, letting you dart back into the kitchen again for the last one just in time for Nick to return.
βDo you want drinks? We got juices, sodas, water, you name it.β You peak your head out behind the dining room wall and the two boys pause midway in putting on the barbie headbands. You bite your lip to hold back a laugh.
βDo you have that tropical mix?β Nick speaks and you nod, he points at you in affirmation of the drink then finishes adjusting the plastic accessory around his hair.
βRoot beer, please.β Charlie speaks next before his eyes shine open and wide, βDo you think we can have floatsβ¦β
Your eyebrows perk up, βI think we have vanilla? But youβre not getting that till the brownies cool down.β
βOh, theyβre out? Thank Barbie.β He holds his hands up in a prayer.
You stare at him, very much unamused and he gives you a cheeky grin.
βIβll have tropical juice for now then.β
With a thumbs up you return to the kitchen once more, grabbing three tall glass cups from the cabinet and grab the carton juice out the fridge. You fill up two cups before staring at your own. After deciding your choice of drink, you put everything away and startle while turning around and seeing Nick in the doorway.
βSorry,β He smiles apologetically, walking up to you and grabbing the cups filled with juice that is his and Charlieβs. He catches you off guard once again, planting a soft kiss on your cheek before bounding off to the living room again.
βWhat the fuck.β You stand in oblivion, feeling your face heat up. You decide you wonβt unpack that tonight, flicking off the kitchen light and rejoining your movie mates.
Nick and Charlie had switched spots to where the blond was in the middle like he had been all day and your boyfriend pats the free spot next to him. You comply, setting your cup on the table while sitting and you lean into Nick with a soft smile.
βYou forgot this, kind maβam.β Charlie grabs the plastic pink band and you lean forward. He puts it on carefully and leans back with a self-satisfied expression, grabbing the remote with a quite cheer. βAre we ready for the best movie night ever?β
You and Nick watch him with amusement, βYes, Charles, we are.β
βNot Charles, I will fight you.β He shivers at the name.
βYou call me Nicholas?β Nick speaks. It makes you laugh.
βItβs your real name.β He grins.
βIs Charles not your real name, Char?β You lift an eyebrow and he rolls his eyes, still wearing the grin.
βNo, it is βCharlie βCharβ Springβ.β
You let out an insufferable sigh.
βYβknow, Y/N has called me βLukeβ before.β Nick leans his head back with a scoff. This makes you have a full on belly laugh which makes Charlie react the same way. βYes, yes laugh it away.β He sighs like heβs in pain.
It takes five minutes to calm down. You wipe a precious tear away, βIt was on call too and he hung up. Would not answer for like, an hour.β You inhale deeply at the memory before laughing again.
βShould we start calling him Luke as a nickname?β
βPlease, please donβt.β Nick squeezes the arm wrapped around Charlieβs waist with a pleading look.
βAwwe you canβt do that.β He pouts, reaching up to pinch Nickβs face.
βDho wha?β He sounds funny with Charlie tugging at his face.
βThe puppy eyed look. The doe eyes.β You bat your eyelashes at Nick when he eyes you from the corner of his eyes before rolling them.
βWeβve gone all dahy withosut this, nowh yuu wanna shtart?β Now heβs the one doing the insufferable sighing.
βItβs a daily mission.β Charlie nods, a serious expression crossing his looks β putting on an act. He then lets go and grabs the remote again, βMovie time!β
βMovie time!β You cheer afterwards.
You three are silent for a bit as the movie plays, you and Charlie cuddling into Nick. He plants soft kisses down your face and you flush a bit. Then he moves to Charlie, repeating the action, who giggles quietly and eyes Nick with a shy look. It makes you laugh under your breath and Charlie doesnβt miss it, pointing to you with a brow raised and expression saying, βDonβt laugh at me when youβre acting the same.β You look away.
βHey,β Nick suddenly speaks up and the two of you look over. βThanks for today. It really helped calm me downβ¦β He continues to train his eyes on the TV but his ears burn from you and Charlie giving him your undivided attention. βAnd reassured me about a few thingsβ¦β He purses his lips.
βReassured?β Charlie asks quietly, as if afraid to make Nick snap his mouth shut and not speak again.
Nick sucks in a breath and you shiver from his fingers crawling up your arm. You watch Charlie lift his own hand and hold the arm wrapped around him.
βYeah. Since everything felt like it was crashing down, I donβt know. It kinda made me feelβ¦ negative? About certain stuff. Between us. Not that Iβm not happy, Iβm more than thankful to be with you two but just like, how you both felt towards meβ¦β His pursed lips flatten and your brows bend at the way his eyes dim.
βBreaking up with me for example because maybe you felt neglected or such. It made me so scared to think about I stopped responding to both of your messages most of the time and barely wanted to call because you know, what if one day you just went, βYeah I donβt think we should be together,β such and such.β You both stay quiet to let him speak his mind and you hate that he ever thought such things.
When Nick stays silent you take a sharp inhale, meeting eyes with Charlieβs glossed ones. The sight breaks your heart. βNickβ¦β You start off carefully and he looks over to you with so much exhaust. Slowly, you cuff his face β the same way you did outside β brushing your thumbs against him cheeks. Your right hand moves down, playfully you press your thumb against his bottom lip and smile gently.
βIβm sorry that you ever felt that way. Itβs far from the truth, sweetheart.β He lets out an airy chuckle and you watch with adoration. βYβknow brains come up with the craziest scenarios when youβre stressed and itβs annoying, and stupid.β You huff, left hand moving against his cheek and he leans into the touch. Your thumb and index finger latch onto his ear and you pinch it lightly. βDo you know that, that would never happen unless you came to me asking for such a thing?β You pucker out your lips.
He watches you in a daze before laughing. βDo you know that would never happen?β Then he turns to Charlie with a soft look. βAnd you, Char?β
Charlie rubs at his reddening eyes and inhales. He then nods, opening his mouth before faltering. You both give him and moment and he closes his eyes in frustration before heaving out a sigh. Concern is evident in both of your expressions but Charlie opens his eyes with a new look of determination, straight at Nick.
He smacks his hands against Nickβs shoulders which makes the latterβs mouth hang open in surprise. βNick. I love you. A lot. It hurts to know that you were dealing with these emotions, but know Iβm not blaming you. How could I? Itβs not your fault. Never feel bad for needing to take your time to sort out your own feelings and whatβs going on with yourself. Weβd never blame you for that because in the end, you know we have you, right?β
Nick nods and you can see his own eyes get glossy as well. Charlie then looks at you, βI love you too, Y/N, donβt tell Tao but youβre my bestfriend.β He chuckles, wiping at his eye again and you wipe at your owns.
βHey, he can be your guy bestfriend and we wouldnβt have to fight over titles.β You wink, before leaning to Nick and kissing him softly. βI love you both, very much so. Iβm glad you were able to talk to us, Nick.β
βWas that your goal today?β He grins in a joking manner, tilting his head in the crook of Charlieβs neck while entangling his fingers with yours.
βDid it work?β Charlie sniffles a bit before laughing. You laugh as well, βThis is ridiculous weβre supposed to be watching Barbie and now weβre sobbing.β
βI give up.β You throw your head back, side eyeing the TV.
βNooo, donβt give up.β Nicks chuckles before sitting upright. βWe can still watchβ¦ we should probably eat too.β He points to the lonely plates on the table.
βTrue.β You and Charlie agree. You three take a moment to collect yourselves with a few embarrassed laughs here and there before settling back down.
βWhatβs in the bag, by the way?β You gesture to the backpack under the coffee table as Charlie rewinds the movie back to the beginning. He glances down.
βSnacks.β
βItβs good.β You hum in approval, taking a bite of your food. The three of you enjoy the movie and dinner, later on making those root beer floats paired with the brownies. Charlie had explained to Nick that he was texting Sahar about the Barbie Movie and she told him she went with Imogen. Apparently, Imogen gives the movie a 2/10 because she messed up her outfit at the theaters.
βThatβs terrible.β Nick stares at Charlie in shock but it doesnβt last long with the way his lips curve into a smirk, βThatβs not her real rating though, is it?β
βOf course not, she loved it.β Charlie laughs.
Youβve been quiet this whole time but suddenly loll your head to face them. Nick already giving you an exasperated look when you got their attention. βNick. Your new name in my phone is Ken Nelson.β
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No. 1 Party Anthem - Mikey Berzatto x F!Reader - Chapter Six
Past!Mikey Berzatto x F!Reader
Carmy Berzatto x F!Platonic!Reader
Richie Jerimovich x F!Platonic!Reader
Summary:Β The human mind is a very scary thing.
Warnings:Β All my fics are 18+ regardless of the content. Heavy spoilers. Mentions of death, funerals, grief, angst, strained relationships, minor injuries, arguments/yelling matches, details of anxiety/panic attacks, bad coping mechanisms, mental health issues, running away, addiction, interventions, al-anon. Depiction of a gun and implication of suicide in a portion, not graphic but heavily implied/hinted at during a possibly distressing nightmare sequence.
Word Count:Β 3.4k
A/N:Β A little late bc i just moved into my dorm for the year <3 its been quite the adjustment so i took a bit of time to myself to just relax and get used to things ! ! ! Anyways today was my first day of class and it went SO GOOD ! ! ! ! Im so excited for the semester and the school year in general ily all sm have a slay day besties ! Also this is just angst again im sorry i swear it will get better at some point but probably not nowwwww π
Taglist: @marysucks-blog @shinebright2000 @jadeittic @eternallyvenus (MWAH <3 )
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You stood in the back of the room, leaning against the wall and wearing some sunglasses you dug out from your bag. Your arms were crossed and your face was neutral but, behind those dark frames you wore, your eyes darted back and forth between each person who sat in the chairs around the circle and to Amanda, the leader of this Al-Anon meeting.Β
Some were at ease, sharing freely and even throwing jokes in between their talks, while others sat stiffly and managed to get up on their shaky legs and share their own narratives.Β
But somehow, none of them judged one another.Β
Beside you stood your mom, gripping her purse straps so tightly that you could see the straps bending in her grip. She tapped her foot softly on the linoleum, smiling empathetically to each person and applauding politely when needed. But every once in a while, she would glance over at you and look away quickly, shoulder slumping and smile fading.Β
Your lips formed a line as you continued to look as neutral as possible, staring as the meeting started to get wrapped up. Amanda spoke to everyone, clasping her hands together before waving everyone off with a soft smile.Β
Everyone got up from their chairs, some joining one another to talk while others moved toward the door a couple feet away from you. They passed by you, most not really turning to you while a couple politely nodded and left.Β
But as the room started to get emptier and emptier, that scared-nauseous feeling came back in full force when your mother put a hand on your forearm and looked over at Amanda.Β
βYou know, Natalie was the one who recommended me to take you to some Al-Anon meetingsβ¦ but it was Carmy who told me to take you to one after you ran outβ¦β
You glanced over at your mom, eyebrows furrowing.Β
βWhy?β
Your question was both a rhetorical and actual one. Part of you was confused as to why Carmy was the one who spoke to your mom about the argument at The Beef earlier. Carmy was the person who didnβt bother to show up to Mikeyβs funeral and refused to reach out to those who tried to contact him, so why would he even bother to care about you facing your own feelings about this situation?
But another part of you was touched.Β
Carmy was the kid brother who would follow you and Natalie around when you were in middle school. When you were in high school and started to date Mikey, Carmy was the kid that you would playfully bother when Mikey wasnβt giving you attention. As an adult, Carmy was your sense of peace whenever he was around, providing you with a much needed distraction during Berzatto family gatherings when he would finally open up (after much pestering on your part) about his own life away from Chicago. And while it seemed like that sense of peace was gone as he got farther and farther away from everyone, this news made you realize that it had never left.Β
He still wanted to give you that peace you desperately needed when it came to his family.Β
Your mom turned to look at you and gently reached up to take your sunglasses off. She looked into your eyes, seeing the way the bags under your eyes looked darker while you both stood in the corner of the room.Β
With a heavy sigh, she responded, βCarmy told me that he had just started to attend some meetings himself. Natalie told him over and over to go to some but heβ¦ he hadnβt gone until now. And when he heard the news that you came back, he jumped to tell me about taking you. Especially when he saw your erratic behavior, he knew you wouldnβt go unless we were the ones who took you.β
You looked away, arms falling to your sides.Β
βPlease give it a try, pleaseβ¦ you know that Mikey wouldnβt want you stressed out like thisβ¦β
Your chest tightened, βIβ¦ I donβt know what Mikey wouldβve wanted anymore.β
Amanda called your name as she began walking over to you, making you quickly rub your eyes and look at her, βHey you two, how are you feeling about possibly coming to a session?β
You shrugged and looked to the floor, βIβll have to think about it butβ¦ I might.β
Amanda smiled and nodded, βI know this is a huge first step and I understand that you need time to think about it. Our next session will be in two days, you're free to join us if you would like to. And, you're free to bring someone for support.β
You nodded and glanced at your mom, seeing her smile at you from the corner of your eye.Β
You soon found yourself back in your car, packed haphazardly full of your stuff, and looking out of the passengerβs seat window.Β
You leaned your head onto the glass as your eyes looked out the window at the way the sky started to turn from blue to orange. By the time you got home, the sky was filled up with colors similar to the ones you saw while sitting on the hood of your car all those months ago.Β
The car slowly pulled into the driveway and standing on the sidewalk, with his hands in his pocket, was your dad. He waved and smiled sadly, making you sigh and look away. You could feel the way your cheeks began to burn and your chest tightened.Β
Silently, he approached the car and opened the trunk. You passed by him, watching him begin to start to unpack the trunk that held the boxes of your life, one by one.Β
The three of you, in silence, emptied the entirety of your car. Any of the boxes and other belongings you had previously kept there were now placed in your room, each getting a designated spot and most getting unpacked completely.Β
The way that everything just seemed to fall into place in your own childhood bedroom made you shiver and walk away as your parents continued organizing.Β
In the dark hallway, you paced. Your fingers busied themselves with picking the skin of your bottom lip, leaving it raw and sting whenever your tongue ran over it. It wasnβt until your parents came back out that you managed to get yourself to pause, ignoring the way it stung.
Your mom smiled sympathetically and passed you, placing her arm comfortingly on your shoulder. You dad though, he paused and let your mom get downstairs and away from the two of you before he spoke up, βSome habits are hard to break, I know that, but staying here for a while will be good for you, okay honey? I love you so much, we all do, and we want you to stay.βΒ
Your eyes stung a bit, making you flutter your eyelids to stop any tears from forming, βOkayβ¦ I thinkβ¦ okay.β
Your dad wrapped his arms around you and hugged you. His arms squeezed around you, tight, as if you were going to fall into pieces if he didnβt hold onto you hard enough. You winced and he did so, but let him hold onto you.Β
βYour my little girl and I would,β He began to speak again, pausing as his voice cracked to clear his throat before continuing, βYour mother and I would never be the same if anything happened to you. We love you so much.β
βLove you too, Dad.βΒ
As you watched him go down the dark hallway and down the stairs, you felt your lips sting as you began to taste a salty wetness. The decision was done: you would stay here for however long it took to heal and would attend the Al-Anon meetings in the meantime.
Now that this major decision was made, it was time for another.Β
βTime to fix my fuck up,β you mumbled to yourself.
Later that night, after you had dinner and began to unwind for the night, you went over and sat on your bed. After washing the dayβs bad choices and tears down the drain, you had changed into something comfortable for bed. You hummed, feeling satisfied with the soft clothes you wore that you completely forgot you even had, thankfully your parentsβ unpacking and organizing allowed you to find them easily and happily.Β
With an exhausted groan, your back hit the plush mattress. You bounced softly for a second before wiggling around to get comfortable before pulling the blankets onto your body. With a glance to the ceiling, you began to think.
You had messed up majorly with Carmy, Sugar, and Richie; well, with the entirety of The Beef. You knew that you definitely needed to apologize and try to make things right, especially considering that you would be staying here now and could run into them. You might be the type of person to flee in the face of trouble, but you knew that not apologizing would sour your relationship with them even more than it already is.Β
And while it was a bit overwhelming to be around them now, you did miss them.Β
Showing up and just apologizing en masse made you cringe a little. You knew that Carmy probably wouldnβt receive that well, he was stubborn and held onto anger so this wouldnβt just be an easy thing to forgive for him. Richie would be a bit hesitant to show vulnerability in front of everyone so the tough and funny guy act would be brought up, and that wouldnβt feel like you properly apologized to him. And Sugarβ¦ she would take your apology in a heartbeat butβ¦ you didnβt want her to. She was tough when she wanted to be but was always too kind with you. You didnβt just want this to be a forgive and forget moment for her, you wanted her to be upset with you and let you work on gaining her forgiveness.
βI canβt let her be a doormatβ¦β you whispered to yourself.Β
But while you laid there, on the soft mattress of your childhood bedroom, the cocoon of blankets and fresh air that made it perfect to get all snuggled up started to work against you. The warm plushness made your thoughts get blurrier and your eyes droop and while your breathing got deeper and deeper, your body gave in to sleep.Β
You narrowed your eyes at the orange sun, letting yourself blink until your eyes got adjusted to the room. You then looked around and gasped when you realized where you were.Β
You were back in the kitchen of the place you and Mikey lived in together. The bright setting sun had come from the giant window of the kitchen, the window that overlooked the streets and had a view of the city, the exact window that made you and Mikey decide to rent this place in the first place.Β
Everything looked and felt hazey, half drowned in the warm yellow lighting of the sun. As you looked down at your hands, you saw them also overlaid with the sun, feeling warm and lookingβ¦ healthy.Β
Someone started humming behind you, voice deep. You whipped your head around to see who it was and was faced with the back of a tall, broad man.Β
He wore a black shirt that stretched over his muscular body. As your eyes wandered up his form, you noticed the attractive and slightly messy dark hair that was on his head.
βBaby?β
Your heart stopped.Β
You began to stumble backward, gasping giant gulps of air as your eyes zeroed in on the man in front of you. Slowly, he began to turn around, and give you a good look of himself.
His dark brown eyes focused on you. His eyebrows creased together as he watched you reel back, almost falling to the floor.
βBaby, whatβs wrong?β
You let out a strangled cry as he began to move forward, reaching his toned arm out to grab you. You froze, eyes trained on his large hand as it came closer and closer to your skin. You squeezed them shut, terrified.Β
His hand felt warm as it gently wrapped around your own.Β
You felt yourself being gently guided up and forward. The hand then let go of you and an arm wrapped around your body, resting the hand against the small of your back. Another hand wrapped around you on the opposite side and you were pulled close against a broad chest.Β
You could feel the way his relaxed heart was beating, unlike your own racing one.
βMikeyβ¦β you whispered in a broken breath, eyes still clamped shut.Β
Your entire body was stiff as a board as you stood there, but it began to betray you and give in to the person in front of you.
βLook at me baby,β The voice said, rumbling but calm.
With a sharp inhale, you began to blink your eyes open. You looked at the face in front of you, your own eyes connecting to those dark eyes you missed so much.
βMikeyβ¦ is it really you?β
You felt a deep rumble in his chest, followed by the twinkling of his laugh. He threw his head back, letting his unruly hair flutter as he moved.Β
βYes baby, itβs me. Who the hell else would it be?β He smiled at you, letting his eyes half lid as he looked at you.Β
βButβ¦ but youβ¦β you began, but were quickly interrupted.Β
βCome here babydoll, come try this for me.β
He moved away from you and ushered you forward with one arm, but regardless, you had no choice as the other arm that was still wrapped around your waist pulled you close into his side. Your body slotted against him, as if the missing piece to his puzzle.Β
You watched as Mikey dipped a finger into the giant pot of sauce that was bubbling on the stove and you slowly began to smell the scent of roasted garlic and fresh basil, straight from the pot you had growing on the windowsill.Β
He gently blew on his finger as steam rose from the sauce, he slowly brought it up to your lips, pausing just before he would touch them to look at you in the eyes again.Β
βGo on baby, try it and tell me what you think.β
You gulped and parted your lips. Leaning forward, your mouth encased his finger. As your tongue hit the sauce, your eyes shot wide open.
A multitude of flavors exploded in your mouth, all so familiar. That made your knees buckle.Β
With a laugh, Mikey caught you before you went down, taking his finger from your mouth and wrapping both arms around you again. He carefully lifted you up and placed you on the empty kitchen island to sit.
βWas it that good? How come you donβt react like that every other time I make it, hmm?β Teasingly, he smirked at you and turned away to wash his hands.
But all you could do was sit there, stone cold, and in shock. No matter how many times you swallowed, the taste of fresh sauce with a ton of garlic, basil, and San Marzano tomatoes would still linger on your tongue. A sauce that Mikey would make, claiming to be a recipe that only he could make perfectly, for family spaghetti night.Β
His voice interrupted your thoughts, bringing you back to where you sat, βDo you think it needs anything? I wanna make sure itβs perfect before Carmy, Sugar, and Richie get here.β
You coughed and shook your head rapidly, unsure what to do but along with it, βYea itβs, itβs perfect, my love.β
You paused, eyes wide again. A slip of the tongue. You hadnβt said βmy loveβ for such a long time that it felt foreign coming from your mouth, despite it being a nickname you commonly used for Mikey.
But Mikey either didnβt seem to notice or didnβt seem to care when you said that. He just beamed and turned back around to stir the pot for a second.Β
As you gathered yourself on that counter, you looked around again. Everything wasβ¦ everything was exactly like how you left it. The pots and pans were in their usual spots, the curtains were drawn just the way you liked them, and every framed photo in the house showed you and Mikey, grinning and holding onto one another.Β
You were home.Β
But you knew you werenβt supposed to be here.
βGive me a second babydoll, iβll be right back.β
Your head whipped around to look at Mikey as he stood in front of you. He smiled and reached over, kissing your temple, before walking off in the direction of the bathroom with a hand in his pocket.Β
Once he disappeared, you immediately threw yourself off the kitchen island.Β
Your hands immediately went to the back of your neck, holding onto it as your eyes raced over everything.Β
βWhat the fuck am i doing here?!β
Everything around you was perfectly in place, as if untouched by time.
The world around you spun as you threw your body around, desperately trying to find something that would prove that something was wrong. But alas, everything seemed okay.Β
You were too terrified to open any drawers or touch anything, so all you could do was hyperventilate and turn around over and over and over, scanning the walls to see the photographs you knew you buried under boxes and decorations you tried but failed to throw out.
Suddenly a phone began to ring.Β
You froze.
There was no phone in the kitchen, nor the living room, or anywhere else in the house. But there was a phone whose ringing sounded exactly like this oneβs; the phone in your parentβs house.Β
It was an analog, rotary style phone that rested on a table in the hallway of your parentβs house. This hallway led the front door to the living room and had picture frames of you and your family throughout the years. Next to the table with this phone was a small, single sofa chair/
A chill went down your spine as tears began to sting your eyes.
This was the phone you found out about Mikeyβs death. And that chair was the one you collapsed on before screaming.
The ringing stopped. Then, Mikeyβs voice echoed from the other room, calling you.Β
Hesitantly, you turned to the direction you heard his voice.Β
He called your name again, but this time, he beckoned you over.
βCome here for a second baby!β
You stared at the empty doorway where you watched him leave. From that direction, his voice called your name out again.Β
As your foot slowly inched forward, you held your breath.Β
βI just need you real quick, come over here!β
Your footsteps were silent as you stepped forward, closer to the sound of his voice and to the doorway that led from your kitchen and dining room to the hall.Β
His voice got louder and louder as you slowly rounded the doorway, continuing to call you.
Down the hall and in front of you was the bathroom door, wide open. There stood Mikey, back towards you, standing in the dimly lit hallway and dark bathroom.
Now, he was silent and still.Β
With a quiet and shaky voice, you managed to whisper out, βMikey?β
You heard a click coming from him, coming from his hand. When you looked down, you saw metal.
βI'm sorry babydoll.β
Your body jerked up with a strangled cry. You ripped the blankets from your body and threw yourself out of bed, falling straight to the floor with a loud thud.Β
Your knees ached and your palms did too as you hit the floor, but you didnβt care. In that moment, all you could think about was what you saw. All you could think about was the shine of the metal.
As a loud cry escaped your shaking body, your door swung open to reveal your alarmed parents. They called your name, rushing forward to hold you as you sobbed and screamed only for their alarmed questions werenβt heard as you continued to see the glint of the metal, despite it not being there.
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If I Cant Have You - #1
β€ Pairing: Taehyung x Reader
β€Angst: Angst (Shit Ton of it), Smut(Mature Content), Fluff.
β€Rating: 18+
β€Warning(s): Swearing, self doubts, crying,Cheating. Mentions of smut, sexual content, Lots of Yelling, Swearing, Heart break (Pretty Brutal). Taehyung is pretty heartbroken,Reader is confused. A lot of Heartbreak and angst, Sohee is a b@#$%.
β€Au: Idol au, cheating au, arranged marriage au.
β€Word Count: 8.5k
β€Summary: Loving Taehyung is easy. It's easy to get lost in his adorable smile, his glimmering eyes, his saccharine words and everything that is him, Thats what your best friend told you the ten years she had been dating him. But your life turns upside down when your best friend abandons her love and your chldhood friend at the altar and out of extra ordinary circumstances instead of Sohee its you whos staring at the same pair of glimmering eyes, wearing the white gown meant for her and feeling the weight of an expensive ring on your fingers and before you know it, you say 'I do'.
β€A/N: Thankyou for this wonderful banner Kiri @rkivian. Thankyou so much for making this for me at such short notice. Thankyou Nikki @xpeachesncream for letting me discuss this with you and taking a look on it for me, Youre the best.
@hobateas firstly, i am so sorry for missing out on such an important detail of mentioning you. That was jackass of me. Secondly, thankyou so much for helping me out so much with this fic, for everything. I don't know what i would have done with this if it weren't for you lending me a helping hand. Thankyou for being my go to for everything. Thankyou for being my bestie and for always cheering me.
This was supposed to be out a while ago, But work caught up and i had to legit dive head first into it. But im finally back after a lot of back and forth, Im definitely going to be more active now. Please let me know what you think about it, It makes me so happy when you guys leave comments or reblog it and send in asks.
β€Taglist- @bri-mal , @fr0g-queen , @justmewondering-recs , @halesandy , @craving4suga , @tetesland @astoriasx @kissme-ornot, @peachytanyaaa , @deliciousdetectivestranger
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You checked yourself once more in the mirror, making sure you looked perfect. The long flight hours had definitely taken a toll on your skin and the flight back tomorrow was definitely going to take a toll again too. You had just landed in Seoul for the bachelorette party of your best friend Sohee and your childhood friend Kim Taehyung's wedding.
The bride and the groom were your close friends. You knew Sohee since you both were in middle school, and Taehyung became your friend when his family moved in next door. You definitely played the matchmaker when Taehyung confessed to having a crush on your best friend. And you were more than aware of Sohee's crush on Taehyung when she had started visiting, way more than often under the excuse of some stupid homework and some lame project. It didn't take long enough for both of them to fall in love.
Taehyung and Sohee had a love story fit for a drama or a movie and you were extremely proud of the couple. Of the long way, they had come. It wasn't easy when Taehyung moved to Seoul to debut under his company. And it wasn't easy when Sohee moved to London with you to pursue her higher education. Time zones and different countries couldn't keep the love birds apart and they ended up crossing every hurdle until today when Sohee was an established DOP and Taehyung a global superstar.
"Y/n my dear, How have you been?" Mrs. Kim's cheerful voice stopped you in the lobby and you immediately ran into the arms of the older woman.
"Good as always Auntie, How have you been?"
"I'm good as ever dear. Why are you still here? The others left a while ago."
"Blame the flight Auntie, There was a delay. But I better rush now before Sohee and Tae have my head."
"That they will, But we definitely need to catch up. You should come over sometime."
"I would love Auntie, But I am leaving tomorrow after the wedding. Catching a flight back to New York."
"New York?" Mrs. Kim looked at you in a little confusion but was smiling sweetly nonetheless.
"I'm continuing my masters in The School of Drama in New York."
"Oh My My Y/n I'm so proud of you darling. Always the ambitious one." Mrs. Kim hugged you and patted your head fondly. You were about to bid her farewell when your mother's loud voice pulled you out of the older woman's embrace.
"There you are." Your mother pulled you in for a hug and Mrs. Kim chuckled, looking at the interaction between the mother and the daughter.
"Eomma you are ruining my hairstyle." You complained about trying to fix your hair.
"Kids these days."
"Where's Appa?"
"Oh, he's at the Bar with Mr.Kim."
"I'll get going unless you want everyone to kill me." You quickly bowed to the two women who just laughed at your antics.
You were about to make a beeline towards the entrance to the resort when a loud boisterous voice stopped you dead in your tracks.
"Yah Y/N have you no shame? How can you be late to your own best friend's bachelorette?" You were mortified would be the least to say. The lobby grew silent as Kim Seokjin walked towards you with a smirk on his face, followed by Jungkook, who was about to burst with the laughter he was trying to hold back so badly.
"Kim Seokjin, I will kill you." Jin laughed and pulled you in a hug. while Jungkook greeted you with his usual fist bump.
"Well, the married couple is hell-bent on having you dead for being late and arriving one day before your good friends got married. Sucks to be you."
"Jungkook let's go, let this old man keep bickering." You pulled Jungkook towards the door leaving a yelling Jin behind.
You met the bangtan boys in their second year of debut; Courtesy of Taehyung and Sohee, of course. You had known them for a couple of years between your and Sohee's transition to London and their intensely packed schedule. Your apartment was a den to the boys whenever they came to London.
The drive to the club where Taehyung and Sohee's parties were happening was fun-filled, to say the least. Jin and Jungkook had been specially instructed by Tehyung to haul your ass to the club somewhat by the lines of you would be late and only arrive after the party ended. Trust Taehyung and his over-enthusiastic ass.
"You better explain why you are late to the party Y/n? Your best friend is getting married for god sake." Taehyung enveloped you in his signature bear hug before he held you tightly against himself as if he was making sure you wouldn't disappear once his hold loosened.
"Blame the flights." You huffed and Taehyung rolled his eyes at you.
"And who do we blame for arriving just one day before your own best friend and childhood friend's wedding huh?"
"My finals. They just ended yesterday. I literally rushed to the airport after the exams."
"Oh, you better do it. You must know by now I can get out of murder." You elbowed Taehyung in the ribs and he let out a yelp, making you giggle.
"Speaking of, Where is the lady of the hour?"
"Oh, my wife is busy in the powder room touching up her already flawless face."
"Ooh, wife and all? The wedding is tomorrow Kim Taehyung."
"Oh please she is going to be my wife on papers tomorrow, I already married her in my head a few years ago." You rolled your eyes again at his comment. He was the biggest cheese ball in the group and an adorable one at that.
"How did ARMY react to the news of your wedding by the way? Must have been a ride."
"Oh don't ask, It's like the world has stopped revolving ever since the company announced my marriage. But we're keeping Sohee's identity a secret for now. Everyone will know I'm getting married but to whom that would be a secret." You were left speechless after Taehyung's confession. Damn, this must have been hard on the couple.
"I understand, People might go a little overboard if her identity is revealed. Her safety is the most important."
"See that's why you're my favorite, You seem to automatically get everything."
"Go away cheeseball." You playfully shove Taehyung away, who just tightened his arms around your shoulders.
"So when are you getting married babe? When can we expect an invitation to your wedding?"
"It's going to be a couple of years before you get that invitation, Taehyungssi. Who knows you might have mini versions of you and sohee running around by the time I walk down the aisle."
"Who said I was going to wait for a couple of years to have miniatures of me and Sohee running around?"
"Eww Taehyung, that's gross. I definitely didn't need to know that." Taehyung wheezed at your reaction and you just hit him playfully once again.
"So have you found a hot British Boyfriend yet?"
"Nope, I'm happily single and I definitely don't need to change that."
"Y/n if you and I are single when we are thirty, Then let's get married." Your eyes widened comically at Jungkook's statement, who had somehow managed to squeeze himself into the conversation.
"Oh god, you guys are insufferable." Taehyung and Jungkook laugh at your statement while you excuse yourself to find your best friend. You had to at least make sure you weren't getting killed for arriving just a day before your own best friend's wedding.
You were mentally prepared for an outburst when you and Sohee met in person, albeit being in touch almost every week; she still had threatened to have your head shattered when she would see you when you had revealed your exams would end just a day before her wedding.
But what you were definitely not prepared for was to see your best friend sitting near the bar, calmly sipping on her champagne, her eyes staring blankly into the wall in front of her.
"You okay there babe?" You asked Sohee, gently placing an arm around her shoulder.
Sohee made no movement and kept staring at the wall in front of her. You shook her a little more vigorously, and that seemed to have shaken her from her parallel universe.
"Hi." Sohee smiles at you. And you immediately mark that as the weirdest smile you've ever seen on your best friend.
"Just Hi?"
"Yeah. How was the flight?"
"Sohee what's wrong?" Sohee seemed to have realized something and that made her sit up.
"Oh nothing Y/n, I was just a little out of it."
"You're okay right?"
"Yeah yeah I'm okay, I'm getting married to my boyfriend of ten years, and everything is perfect." You start feeling a little uneasy at her statement. It sounded like she was trying to tell herself that. You don't question her further chalking it up to wedding jitters. Sohee quickly orders your favorite and you settle beside her.
Throughout the night you caught Sohee zoning out multiple times. There was definitely something wrong with her. She was still absent from the conversations when all the seven members gathered around you and she teased Taehyung and Sohee about their honeymoon and the number of children Sohee was going to have to give birth to. All she did was smile half-heartedly.
And you weren't the only one to notice, though, Namjoon and Yoongi caught you in a while, trying to inquire subtly if you knew something was up with Sohee. Honestly? You had no idea and nothing could come close to the feeling of not being there for your best friend. What had you ended up missing in your best friend's life while you were buried nose-deep in your books?
Sohee's eyes seemed to speak a lot more than the wedding jitters. There was definitely more to it than meets the eye like the normal situation. Where the bride and the groom would be joined at the hip before the wedding, Taehyung and Sohee were the exact opposite. Taehyung seemed to be over the moon with the wedding. His eyes literally shone every time he smiled. Sohee's eyes looked cold and empty.
You made a mental note of asking Sohee when no one was around but that immediately went down the drain exactly half an hour later Taehyung carried Sohee to his car. She ended up passing out because she had a little too much to drink. Taehyung quickly left with his driver to drop Sohee back at the hotel, promising he would be back once he tucked her in.
The rest of the guys and the people invited made themselves comfortable and soon enough within an hour, Taehyung was back.
"Is she okay?" Yoongi asked Taehyung as he made himself comfortable. Taehyung just sighed and had a sip of his drink.
"She is, She was a little overwhelmed but she said it was fine when I spoke to her this afternoon."
"You're sure, right? Sohee looked like too out of it? Isn't she getting enough rest?"
"Past few days have been a little busy with the travels and the wedding preparations and then the announcement."
"Understandable." Taehyung nodded and took another considerable sip of his drink and everybody dropped the topic, not wanting to probe further. It was assumed they might have had the discussion if anything was the issue.
By the time the party rolled to an end, most of them were already hammered. including Taehyung. Fortunately for you, alcohol seemed to kick in quite slowly. But the sleep that was overtaking every brain cell you had in you.
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"Fuck, Fuck fuck." You scrambled out of bed and rushed towards the bathroom to quickly have a shower and get ready for the wedding. The jet lag may have caught up to you. Which ended up in you sleeping in and waking up exactly an hour and a half before the wedding. Somehow, luck was never on your side for Sohee and Taehyung's wedding. First the exams, Then the flight, and now your sleep.
You got ready in record time and while you rushed out of the door and waited for the lift. A pleasant surprise awaited you when the doors of the lift opened. Jeon Jungkook smiled at you sheepishly when he saw you, and you smiled back at him. Busted.
"What's your excuse?" Jungkook looked up from his phone and gave you a questioning look.
"What excuse? We had stepped out in the backyard to drink some coffee." You burst out laughing at his excuse or the lie, but nevertheless, you showed him a thumbs up since this was going to save your ass as well.
"Smart."
"That I am."
"Why hasn't anybody called yet, it's just half an hour to the wedding."
"Come to think of it, that's surprising. How come none of the Hyungs have called yet?" Jungkook checks his phone, too, and there weren't any notifications from any of them either.
"Maybe they're all busy running around or just with Tae."
"Yeah maybe, I just put my phone on silent though. The entire internet is blowing up right now waiting for updates on Taehyung's wedding." You and Jungkook exit the lift and walk towards his car. You were thankful, at least you had some company.
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"Leave your phone in the car, phones are not allowed inside the venue." You quickly deposited your phone along with Jungkook's in his dashboard.
"That's some high-level security."
"That's not only it, you need to go through a check once you enter." You were amazed by the amount of security that had been put together. No electronic devices had been allowed inside the venue; special security measures were put in place to make sure of it.
After all, it was the wedding of the year, Kim Taehyung from BTS was getting married. Taehyung had taken special measures to prevent any kind of leak that would disclose Sohees' identity. According to Jungkook, only a few photographs would be released to the public, which would be taken at an angle where Sohee's face would be covered.
You and Jungkook went through security, and as soon as you walked to the venue, both of you blinked in confusion. The venue was unusually silent. It was still half an hour to the wedding, but there was an unusual amount of silence in the venue.
Although there were only forty people that were invited to the wedding, it looked like the place had been deserted. You both walk inside only to find not even half of them were being seated. None of the other members or your parents or Taehyung's could be seen.
Jungkook leads you to the room assigned to the groom and you find Jimin and Hobi frantically speaking on the phone right outside Taehyung's room. Their expressions looked scared as fuck, which made Jungkook sprint to his Hyungs
"What happened Hyung?" Jungkook asked Hobi, a little close to panicking, unable to figure out what had actually gotten them so scared.
Hobi raised a finger to Jungkook, signaling a minute.
"What happened?"
"I have no idea. I'll go inside, Can you please check on Sohee it's right down the hall. Something isn't right"
"Be right back." You ran the few steps to her room, your legs already hating you for running in your heels. The moment you open the door and enter her room is empty, and it doesn't look like there has been anyone in there before. You kind of were expecting a tornado in there considering there would be an army of stylists to help the bride get ready. But looking at the undisturbed state of the room and the wedding dress on the bed, it looked like there had been no moment here at all.
Your mind immediately rushes into the possibility of Sohee's safety, what if someone found out or what if she was sick. You immediately push the door close and head to Taehyung's room, only to be greeted by a sight you would have never imagined in a million years.
Taehyung sat in the middle of the room, crying silently while the rest of them sported a similar expression. Namjoon, Jin, and Yoongi were bent over to Taehyung's level, desperately trying to talk to him while the younger one kept sobbing.
You had no idea what had happened here, but looking at the situation, it looked like something deeply disturbing had happened. Mrs. Kim and Mr. Kim were being talked to by your parents and the rest of the elders, but it didn't make sense to ask them either.
Your eyes met Jungkook, his eyes wet from the tears, and he clutched a paper tightly in his hands. He wordlessly walks towards you and hands you the paper and walks out of the room, wiping his tears away.
You flip the paper which seemed like a letter, and just the beginning of it caused your head to spin and suddenly Shoes' behavior yesterday made a whole lot of sense.
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Dear Tae,
I am really sorry to do this, but I really couldn't gather the courage to do this in person.Β
I really, really can't get married to you knowing my heart lies somewhere else. I met Mark a year ago when I was visiting New York for work. He and I had a lot of common interests professionally and that led to us becoming friends.Β
Unknowingly, we started falling for each other, and before the project was over Mark confessed. I didn't return to his feelings, but I knew deep down I felt the same as him. I tried to avoid the feelings or the way I was suffering inside, knowing that I was doing wrong by you; I had been engaged to you after all.
I tried to suppress every feeling, every emotion I felt for him until yesterday and I thought it would be easier once I got married to you. but all of that changed when I arrived at the venue to get ready for the wedding. The moment I wore my wedding dress was the moment I knew I couldn't do this to you and I couldn't ignore the way I felt for Mark. So I decided to do what I know best, run away.
Please don't blame any of this on yourself. Tae, it wasn't you. I don't know what happened or why I grew apart, but none of this was your fault. Mark and I really tried hard to put our feelings aside and do what was right, but it just didn't happen.Β
I may be the biggest bitch on this planet, but I would have been a bigger one if I would have gone through with the wedding knowing that I was in love with another man.Β
I don't know how else I am supposed to ask for forgiveness from the man who had nothing but unconditional love for Me. I am really sorry for what I did and I truly believe it. But this is better than living a life out of a lie with you, and that would have broken you more.
I am sorry, Taehyung, and I will always love you and I want nothing but the best for you. I pray that one day you will forgive and find a person who gives you the same love in the same capacity as you do.
I am truly sorry,
Sohee.
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The moment you finished reading the letter tears welled up in your own eyes as well. How did Sohee never once mention all of this? She had been in touch with you until last week and she seemed okay; it wasn't like you could have figured something was wrong over the phone either, but all of this came as a shock to you as well. You had been best friends with her since you were ten.
You step out of the room. Seeing Jungkook standing by the window, looking out, lost in his own thoughts, you decided to walk to the youngest. You didn't want to imagine what he must be going through seeing his own best friend like this.
''Did you know about this?" Jungkook's sudden question startles you.
"Do you think I would have let any of this happen if I knew?"
"I will never ever forgive her for doing this to him, she broke him."
"I am neither."
"I don't want to imagine what Hyung must be going through right now. I don't even know how we are going to fix him. He's suffering for no fault of his"
"He must be dying from the inside. The person he loved and trusted the most betrayed him in the worst way possible."
"Y/n can we have you in here for a second?" Namjoon's voice interrupted your conversation with kook; you nodded and followed him inside while Jungkook tailed close to you.
The atmosphere in the room immediately shifted when you entered behind Namjoon. Suddenly all the eyes were on you except Taehyungs. He was still seated lifelessly on the chair, the only movement being the tears flowing on his face.
"Y/nah we need to talk to you." A man probably in his forties stepped forward, followed by another man who looked a little older, you recognized as Taehyung's boss stayed close to him.
"If you're going to ask if I knew any of this, trust me I swear on my life I didn't know any of this. She never told me, didn't even hint that she was going to do something like this." You spoke everything in a single breath, and the man only nodded his head furiously at your confession.
"That's not what we want to talk to you about." Taehyungs boss finally spoke up and you looked at him in confusion unsure of how you would be of any help in this situation.
"We need your assistance."
"I am sorry but I'm not quite following."
"We have a request to make, you must be well aware of the situation on the internet and we don't think that announcing the wedding cancellation is a good idea"
You kept silent still, not understanding your role in this; but upon your silence, the man continued.
"It wouldn't be wise to let the world know that the wedding has been canceled, everybody has been waiting with bated breaths for Taehyung's wedding albeit the identity being kept a secret."
This still didn't make any sense to you, but the hopeful eyes of the people around you had your gut feeling uneasy as hell.
"Could you marry Taehyung?" You choked on air at the boss' question, you looked at him again, trying to confirm if you had heard something wrong. Did he just ask you to marry Tae?
"I'm sorry what?"
"I know what I'm asking for you is absurd but this is the only way out. This is the only way out to avoid any kind of harm done to Tae's reputation and there is no chance of letting people outside this room know Sohee ran away." You stood frozen in your spot, absolutely rooted to the ground. The room was already spinning in front of your eyes; you wanted to pinch yourself to check if you were dreaming. How the hell could this possibly be true?
"You're joking right?"
"Does this look like a joke to you?"
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"I know we're asking too much of you, but please take some time to think it out. You would be helping your friend out of a potential public mess. Please he doesn't need this mess right now when he is this close to breaking down"
You had no words to counter that question. Taehyung was in a really bad state, and right now he definitely didn't need the internet passing judgment or a million theories floating about why his wedding was called off.
But you also didn't know how in the hell you could be obliged to the boss' request. You were to attend your best friend's wedding, and you were supposed to fly to New York tonight. You had the entire three years planned for you and the wedding was something that didn't even remotely fit in there.
" Can we talk to her please?" Your father spoke to the older man who just nodded.
Your parents and Taehyung's parents led you out of the room to the room right next door.
"Y/nah we want to know what you're thinking?" Your mom quickly sat you down on the bed while Mrs. Kim took a seat right opposite you, while your dad and Taes dad stood next to each other a little further from you.
"Eomma this is, ugh I don't know" you threw your arms in the air in frustration. Taehyung was an absolute sweetheart and an extremely close friend. Hell, you didn't have any kind of feelings for him romantically, either. He was always the goofy guy who you adored initially, and then he was one of your close friends and then Sohees boyfriend. And it had been that way for the past ten years.
"Y/nah if you ask me, I would say do it for your friend. What Taehyung needs right now is some support and this isn't just something that can be solved by a single statement considering how popular he is"
"Appa I__ Mrs. Kim's loud sob absolutely shattered your heart and you looked at her with tears in your own eyes. Never in your life had you seen this sweet woman cry like this; she was almost a mother to you, and seeing her in this state was heartbreaking to you, too.
"God I wish he had never met that woman" Mrs. Kim spoke in between her sobs, and you hated Sohee right at this moment. She could have definitely done things better.
"This changes everything." You let out a sigh, panic settling in your veins at the mere thought of going out and doing what was being proposed. Never in a million years did you ever think you were flying out to attend your own wedding.
An hour of emotional breakdowns, confusing questions, and logical and emotional reasoning later, your parents and the rest of the guys convinced you to go through with the plan.
You agreed for the sake of your friend who was sitting in the next room; his dreams, his smile, and his life taken away forcibly from him. But as much as you loved your friend, you still were your own person, and there were a couple of things that you wanted clarity on.
All eyes were on you again the moment you walked into the room again, your face still etched in a frown at how eventful this wedding had turned out to be.
"Are you absolutely sure there is nothing that can be done besides this? How about you lie that he got married today and just say a year later he got divorced or something? The identity would be a secret right"
The man who was a little younger than the boss looked at you like you had grown a second head.
"Do you know how big of a scandal this can cause if by any chance the truth gets out that the marriage never happened?" You obviously didn't know, you were studying to become a director and definitely not someone from PR
"Listen y/nah we can compensate you if that's what you like?"
"No. I am not getting paid at the expense of my friends' misery. Thank You very much."
"Please understand we have to do this."
"Tae" you called out to Taehyung, but the guy even refused to look up. He didn't even move an inch when you called out to him, not even when Yoongi tried. Jimin and Jungkook stood by Namjoon, absolutely heartbroken to see their soulmate in this state.
"Please do as they say.'' His broken voice pulled out another sob from Mrs. Kim and you couldn't help but walk towards Taehyung and get on his level trying to at least get the guy to speak.
"Tae please say something."
"Do as they say please." Tears rushed out of his eyes furiously, and Taehyung made no effort to wipe them away. Jin quickly placed a hand on his shoulder and nodded his head in a no and you got up. There was no way he was thinking straight. The pain took precedence over logic.
"Namjoon, can I please to all you guys for a minute?" Namjoon quickly got up and the rest of the guys followed you both outside the room
"Do you really feel this is the only option, you guys are his friends? You tell me, without weighing the professional outcomes.
"Y/nah I wish we could give you a different outcome or an answer but unfortunately this is the only way that makes sense without doing any further damage."
"You're the best way out y/n" Hobi speaks up, and you look at the six men helplessly. No matter what, this still didn't make sense to you, but you weren't even that selfish to let Tae suffer. He was your friend, after all.
"Namjoon can you do me a favor"
"Anything."
"Please make sure that if anytime in the future Tae feels uncomfortable or he doesn't want to go ahead with this marriage please make sure he has an easy way out of it." Namjoon smiles lightly at your suggestion, the least you could do is to make sure he wouldn't be trapped if he didn't want to do anything with this weird relationship.
All the six boys gave you a hug and walked out of the room, leaving you alone with your thoughts. This definitely wasn't the way you had imagined your trip to Seoul.
It was supposed to be a fun-filled wedding and a return trip to New York to settle in for your first set of masters. But life always showed a middle finger to your plans, and you should have known it would be the same this time, too.
You walked back to the room; everybody was being instructed on what and what not to do. You felt a wave of suffocation when you watched the atmosphere being handled so professionally, although it was just you, the guys, your parents, and Tae. Sohees parents had passed away when she was twenty-two, other than that you didn't know if she had any relatives. This was a touchy subject for her.
While the world was waiting with happy smiles, broken hearts, and endless sobs because of the heartthrob of the millennium Taehyungs wedding.
You stood at the altar with the sad man who had nothing but tears in his eyes, his soul shattered, and his heart broken beyond repair, with the worst possible way you and Kim Taehyung had become man and wife.
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You didn't think you had ever seen a wedding that went by in such a short time as yours. You had never given much thought to your wedding. That was something you planned for in a far-away future. But sadness, confusion, doubt, and absurdity were never a part of it.
The loose ring on your finger was living proof of the changes that were going to happen in your life now. Nobody uttered a word even after the wedding was long over. Everybody seemed to be shocked to the core at how the events of the day turned out to be. Taehyung had not uttered a word either. His eyes were swollen and red from all the crying. You hated Sohee for what she did to him.
The industry that Taehyung belonged to was the easiest to sway. Money, Fame. Temptations came as easy as breathing, but the guy had never let any of that sway him. You had been there since the beginning of Taehyung and Sohee's love story and you were by Sohee's side when both of them cried when they couldn't see each other often.
Taehyung was a one-man woman and his loyalty to Sohee for the past ten years had never moved an inch. It was Sohee and it was always going to be Sohee for him. No one could come close to what Sohee was for Taehyung, and yet she decided to throw all of that away for what? You cursed at Sohee for losing the best thing that had happened to her.
"Miss Y/n we need you for the photo shoot." The photographer's voice broke your train of thoughts.
"I'm Sorry?"
"We need to do a photoshoot for the photos that are going to be released to the public. I am sorry but it's already too late and we can't cancel this." You nodded and looked around the room for Taehyung, but he was nowhere to be seen.
The rest of the members immediately scurried away to find him while you waited on the balcony that was already painted in the shades of sunset. The view and the beautiful sky would have been a magnificent background if only both the bride and the groom had been happy. In your case, Taehyung was heartbroken and betrayed by the love of his life. You were a total mess for different reasons. Where do you go from here? What happens to all the plans? What about your masters that you were supposed to start in a week? Could you even go to the US now or would you have to start a different life in Seoul because you were married?
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Never ever in your entire life had you felt any human hands so foreign on your body. Although Taehyung just held you by the waist and the fading light was enough to highlight both your silhouettes in the picture, you could make out the hesitation in his touch.
The photographs were taken quickly given the situation and the tears and the slight sobs coming from Taehyung. While your wedding photograph looked straight out of a dream, the truth behind it was the stark opposite.
While the picture screamed unison, love, and romance the reality was exactly the opposite, behind the fading lights and dark silhouettes lay the ugly truth of a man who was heartbroken and close to shambles and the girl who just got thrown in a mix of an unfortunate situation, who was finding it equally confusing on where exactly she stood in life.
Taehyung didn't spend a minute after the photos were taken. He pulled away his hands like they were burning and you didn't even have it in you to react.
You stood at the end of the balcony watching the end of the day, while the people continued to wrap up the equipment. While there was enough noise to drown on that terrace, your mind drowned itself in the chaos of the situation and the silence of your decision.
"It's out." Jungkook's voice broke you out of your thoughts and you gave the man Kane a confused look. He quickly pushed his phone into your hand and you sighed deeply when you saw the picture. Wasn't it a few moments ago that the picture was taken?
Your eyes watered seeing the comments and the likes raining on the photos like no tomorrow. Taehyung was a global superstar, and it was no surprise that millions of his fans were just waiting with bated breaths to have a look at their newly hitched idol and his wife.
"Don't think too much about it, they're just probably excited." You nodded as you handed his phone back to him. You could do nothing but think about this, how you were partially in the spotlight. Although the company as promised, had taken strict measures to not let your identity be revealed, the fact that you were actually unknowingly trending on every possible social media platform, news website, and news channel was a little unsettling.
"What do I do Kook? I have no idea where to go from here?" Jungkook gently linked his arms with yours, and the tears that were just waiting to be spilled finally let themselves out after you voiced your fears for the first time.
"I have no idea y/n, I'd be lying if I gave you any kind of reassurance right now. The entire situation is just too weird right now."
"How's Tae?"
"The worst. I've never seen him this low Y/N. He hasn't stopped crying at all. He isn't speaking either."
"God, I wish there was some magical way to take away his pain."
"You know, since the time we debuted Taehyung was the only guy who had a fight with the managers about his girlfriend. While the rest of them broke up or didn't prioritize their relationship, Tae was the only one who was fighting for him. Eventually, the managers gave up but the guy didn't."
"I really wish Sohee didn't do this to him."
"Me too y/n. Let's go inside, it's getting dark"
You unlink your arms with the maknae and begin walking toward the exit of the terrace, a small prayer repeating in your mind to let this falling darkness be the end of the damn day.
The moment you got down you saw people already arranging to exit the venue, the reception being canceled long ago.
Everyone already seemed to have been waiting for you from the site before you. Without a word you followed your parents and took your parents into the cars.
You didn't wait for anyone to say anything as you hastily made your way to your room; the moment you opened the door to your room, the suitcases neatly lined up in the corner broke out a sob from deep within. Your flight to New York was due in seven hours.
Every passing second seemed to put weight on your shoulders. What exactly were you supposed to do now? Do you leave like you planned or if you would have to forget everything you planned and devote yourself to this new life?
The harsh knock on the door startled you and you quickly wiped your tears and got up to open the door.
"Ms.Y/n the boss wants to see you." The man from earlier politely spoke while your heart started drumming faster against your rib cages, trying to take a guess what possibly could be left now?
You follow the man who introduced himself as Sejin and led you to a balcony on the same floor. Your eyes widened when you saw everyone present there except Jimin and Taehyung.
"Y/naah have a seat."
"What is this about?" The boss quickly placed a thick stack of papers along with a pen in front of you and your eyes almost popped out.
"These are some contracts that you need to sign."
"What contracts?"
"Consider them as a safety measure."
You picked the one on top and the contents of the contract started giving you a headache. It was an NDA, and the more you read about it, the more you began to contemplate your decisions. Without giving a fuck about them, you quickly pick up a pen and start signing it.
There are loud gasps in the room when you quickly start signing the contracts without reading much. The first page of the first contract was enough to give you an idea of what to expect from the rest of them.
"It's not like I have any Ill intentions anyway." You mutter to yourself as you sign the last page and push the stack to its original place, in the hands of the big boss.
"I have a copy sent to you in your email." He quickly checks them once more, and when he looks like he had cross-checked everything, you take that as a cue to leave.
"If that's all, I'll take your leave. I have a flight to catch."
"Where are you going?"
"New York."
The second loud gasps in the room decorate your skin in goosebumps, everyone's loud arguments draining out any kind of mental energy to fight back.
The sad part of the entire chaos was the way everyone seemed to care about Tae, but not once did anyone think about you, including your parents. You had been tangled in this mess, too. You were confused earlier, but you weren't about to let go of the plans you had. You worked hard to get things in place. Why should you let them go?
"Y/n you're married now, you can't just leave everything and go." Your mother's harsh voice broke your heart a little.
"Eomma what about my master's?"
"You can do that here y/nah, there are good universities here too."
"Eomma School of Drama New York is the best in the industry. I worked hard to get in. I can't just leave."
"Y/nah you can do it here, we'll arrange for the best colleges for you in Korea."
"Namjoon it won't be the same. That University is a gold mine."
"We can help you intern with some of the best directors here, it will be easier for you." Your eyes widened at the boss' suggestion, you didn't need a shortcut to your hard work.
"I don't want the easy way out, I've worked hard till here, and I want to continue to do so."
"Y/nah you're being stubborn." Yoongi's voice broke the second part of your heart. Why was fighting for your dreams stubborn? How were you in the wrong in all of this?
"No, don't be like that Tae needs you." Jungkook's words were the last straw for you. Your head was threatening to burst when everyone else agreed to it.
"What my son needs is a little space to grieve what he went through and what y/n needs is a little time and space to process this situation and to let her work towards her dream." Mrs. Kim's voice cut through all the tension in the room.
"My son is what he is today because he never gave up on his dreams and y/n doesn't need to give up on hers just because she's married now."
"I agree with Chae-won. The kids will figure the rest themselves. Right now what they need is a little space to process this." Mr. Kim agreed with his wife and everyone visibly deflated their strong stance.
"Y/nah get ready, me and Taehyung's father will drop you at the airport." You nodded at Mrs. Kim's request and quickly made a beeline to your room. You need to get out of here now.
You quickly shove your remaining belongings in your bag and get changed in record time. The moment you open the door to your room, you almost fall back in shock. Everyone except Taehyung and his parents were waiting outside. You immediately decided to give them a piece of your mind if they were here, to convince you to stay back just because you were married now.
"Y/nah we're sorry." Namjoon was the first one to speak. Your eyes wandered out to your parents, who were standing right next to Jin. They looked guilty, and that kind of gave you relief. You hated fighting with your parents and so far you have been lucky.
"We were just thinking about your well-being, But I guess you're big enough to decide that for yourself. We're sorry." Your eyes widened at your father's words. You nodded and decided not to question anything further. The situation was doing that enough already.
"That's okay, Really." You quickly hug everyone. Even though the lobby looks a little small for eight people. Your mind calmed a bit after that considering the earlier incident had left a sour taste in your mouth.
See, you had no problems with everyone being concerned for Tae. They should have been. He was hurt, rather, he was destroyed after what Sohee had done to him. But pushing that on you was unfair. You had not even the slightest hint in your wildest dreams that you would end up marrying your best friend's boyfriend.
Everybody muttered their share of apologies and walked you down to the lobby where supposedly Mrs. Kim and her husband were waiting for you. Mrs. Kim stopped talking to her husband and rushed to your side.
"All good Y/nah?"
"Yeah, Auntie. Let's go." The staff provided their assistance with your bags and your parents quickly gave you another hug before you left. Just as you were about to thank the heavens for finally concluding the day. You were proved wrong the very next second.
"Y/n.." A heavy baritone voice stopped the three of you dead in your tracks. You blinked your eyes twice to check if you were dreaming again, Mrs. Kim let out a loud sob seeing her son, and Mr. Kim let out a gasp. Taehyung was rushing towards you, barely managing to walk properly. His hair was disheveled, his shirt tucked out, eyes red, and a slur in his speech.
"Taehyung." Mrs. Kim tried to hold her son. But the said man just brushed her hand off and charged towards you. Before you could react to it, Taehyung grabbed your hand roughly and snatched the wedding ring on your finger, and walked away just the way he had come out of nowhere. Mrs. Kim's sobbing had now turned into angry shouting, but Tae paid no attention to his mother.
"Kim Taehyung came back here." Her angry outburst had no effect on Tae whatsoever, who just stumbled inside.
"Y/nah I'm so sorry, He's not in his right mind. Let me go get your ring." Mr. Kim began taking quick steps in the direction Taehyung went. But you quickly stopped him. That ring wasnt definitely yours to keep.
"Let it be Uncle, It was made for Sohee. It wasn't mine anyway." Mr. Kim gave you a sad look which made you feel like shit for a second. You hated pity with your entire existence and somehow today proved to be doing just that.
"But Y/nahβ
"Auntie please, Let him. Let's leave. We are getting late."
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"Y/nah I'm so sorry for what Taehyung did and also for the situation earlier."
"Auntie you don't need to ."
"No Y/nah a lot of things were on the line out there. Sohee had no right to do what she did."
"Uncle, I really don't know why she did what she did. If there was any chance that I could undo what happened, Trust me I would. Both of them are my friends and I don't want one suffering because of another."
"You're a good girl Y/nah, I don't know how to thank you for what you've done for my son."
"Auntie now you're just being formal, Trust me when I say I don't know how or if this is going to work out."
"I know, But I'm glad. It's You."
The interaction between the three of you had to be cut short because of the flight announcement. But you left with reassurance from Mrs. Kim and her husband, and with their numbers as well, promising them that you would keep in touch.
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Taehyung had never ever imagined in his wildest dreams that he would be specifically having these two thoughts about his life.
One, he would have never imagined in his wildest dreams that he would hate where he is today. It was because of who he was, that he had to marry his childhood friend. It was because of what he was he had to sit there and agree to whatever his boss told him, who knew the best way to minimize the damage that would be done to his and his band's reputation. It was because of who he was, that he had to throw away the idea of being selfish because he had six more others to care for. It was because of who he was. He was supposed to care what the world thought about him.
He had no chance to even process his pain, the moment the letter reached his hands, and he couldn't even read half of it because the tears had already started gushing down his face. All he knew was that his love had left him for another man.
The second being, he never had imagined in his wildest dreams of Sohee, leaving him. Never ever. He thought he and Sohee had found what others were looking for. That one true love.
Sohee wasn't only his love. She was the reason he wanted to do better every single day. She was the reason everything seemed alright in the world. She was the force that grounded him. She was the air that he breathed, and she was the soul of his body.
It pained him to even think of the fact that his Sohee had fallen in love with someone else. They had risen through everything, the pain. The urge to fly across countries and hug each other and never let go, the rising stardom. The recognition of everything. Taehyung loved all that he achieved because Sohee was with him. She taught him how to stay true to his roots and never forget them. She was the one who was by his side when things weren't working, and she was still the one who was by his side when he reached the highest pinnacles of success. And now she was gone, and he could do nothing.
Taehyung hated himself for not being able to notice the signs. He should have been more careful, if he had noticed he would have reminded her of their love, their memories, the dreams they saw when they set out to make it, and the promises they made when they had achieved it. Everything.
He would have reminded her of all that held them together for so many years.
Now she was gone, just like the smile on his face. Now she was nowhere to be found just like his happiness. Sohee hadn't just walked out of his life with another man. She had taken his soul and his hopes and dreams of a happy future with her. He was lost.
Now he was all alone, married to his childhood friend, and while his fans celebrated his happiness and wished him, love, Kim Taehyung sat locked in his room with his best friend, drinking his worries away and trying to forget his pain for just that night.
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Action! - 2023 - Social Media
Pairings: Director!Reader x Joseph Quinn (+Ex!Harry Styles)
Warnings: swearing, some angst in comments(?)
Summary: Harry unexpectedly releases a new album. Fans are shocked. Twitter is in flames. A small restaurant in London becomes a gossip place. New beginning.
Side note: The album is made of songs by Joji, Bruno Major, Giveon and Lewis Capaldi.
Also it was supposed to have a written blurb within, but it already has 3k words. Just let me know if you want to read about Joe listening to the album and the confrontation.
check out this series SM posts! part1 part2 part3 part4 part5
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Part based on a message I got from @little-freak-satellite. thank you and I hope you enjoy it!
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harrystyles β’1133β’27192β’ my new album is OUT AT MIDNIGHT
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hArrysbtch im sorry sir- YOUVE BEEN GONE FOR MONTHS AND NOW YOURE COMING BACK WITH A WHOLE NEW ALBUM- WITHOUT A WARNING???? WTF MAN
harrysmoustache excuse me???? i- speechless
harryupdates another sleepless night, thank you, harry!
ynupdates oh... i have a bad feeling
β€· ynsmybestie i do too, i hope it's nothing too bad
β€· ynshands besties.... you think he wrote a whole album for her (again)?
β€· ynsmybestie probably. look at the artwork. his hand is real and has a shadow. the other one is only a shadow. this person is probably no longer with him, just like yn
β€· ynshands noooo, im not ready to cry π
β€· ynsmymama i did a quick calculation and, well, 1133 days are 27192 hours, it's about 3 years and a month...
β€· ynshands youre kidding! the time they were in a relationship is an album title?????
β€· ynsmybestie oh god, he really hasn't moved on
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harryshoee ehmm, are you okay??
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harryupdates Like you all know Harry announced today his newest album - 1133 27192. His website also got an update - after it loads on your computer for a split second one of 13 photos is shown. Each photo can be seen only once on an individual IP address. Those photos are the ones that got caught by fans.
1133 27192 out at midnight. Pre-save it on Apple Music and Spotify now!
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ynupdates this is so fucked up... harry, what are you doing...
ynshands he used the photos we've never seen of them???? wtf, harry. wtf
ynsmybestie im ready to fight him. yn just got married two months ago, and had her first baby and he's pulling this shit??? nah, man. not with me those tricks
ynshands im just wondering if there wasn't even one person on his team that said 'Harry, its a little too far' BECAUSE IT IS TOO FUCKING FAR!!!
harrysmoustache well, i cant keep defending you, harry
harryshoee at least these are some nice photos! π¬
user182 isn't that an invasion of privacy?
joeandynfann im wondering what joe's thinking of it
β€· ynshands this poor man. he's a new dad, has a wonderful wife, and needs to somehow deal with her unrestrained ex
β€· ynsmybestie i feel so bad for him. if i were him, i would probably not last with yn. he loves her so much π«
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you remember me from Harry's house breakdown? well, the 'numbers' album dropped almost six hours ago and let me tell you... i've listened to it 5 times already, cried my eyes out - im dehydrated. but...this album is just for, about and everything YN so i have to do a breakdown (1)
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1. she chose me: it's the easy one - song that didn't make it to Fine Line (Harry's house too). just harry not comprehending how YN could love him. 'Why was it I and nobody else? The most beautiful girl that I'd ever seen And she chose me' (2)
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2. tapestry: through the first listen - this was the song that firstly made me cry. it's basically harry's response to champagne problems (that i BET is a story about how yn rejected his proposals). in champagne problems there is a line 'you'll find the real thing instead, she'll patch up your tapestry that i shread'. and harry's responding yn with 'you'll always be a part of my tapestry' meaning - without you, no one will patch up this tapestry - his life. ALSO it's a second on the album, just like champagne problems is. (3)
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3. nothing: again a song that didn't make it to Fine Line (either Harry's house) 'there is nothing like doing nothing with you' (4)
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4. pointless: ehh, this is a song where harry is in denial, i think. he's singing about how well yn and he know, love and cherish each other. 'i'll wait for you, you'll wait for me too' is repeated throughout the whole song until the actual end - when he realises the truth 'of all the things I'm chasing, there's only one I choose, everything is pointless without you'. (5)
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5. feeling like the end: i think he wrote this song while being angry, quite blaming yn for what had happened between them 'you used to promise me it would be forever, feeling like the end, don't think it will get better' (6)
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6. unholy matrimony: CHAMPAGNE PROBLEMS CONFIRMED! harry did propose to yn, she rejected him - break up. but this song is more or less a hypothetical turn of events if she accepted engagement. 'now i know we'll never know what happens when our love just ain't the same no more' - maybe it would be different if their love stayed the same. 'our love story's ended way too soon, you're supposed to love to the tomb' and also 'love will give you what you need but also take what you don't appreciate' (7)
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7. before the day is over: i think it made be the first song he wrote after the reality kicked in - yn was not his anymore, he wasn't hers; but he was still hoping she would call, text. 'say something soon, we might lose it all'. and then 'i can't take another day, i could go insane, there's only so much i can take' he deep down knew it was ultimate end, no turning back, no 'saying something soon'. (8)
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8. die for you: song about harry getting to know about yn and joe being together. 'i heard that you're happy without me, and i hope it's true' 'i hope you're getting everything you needed' when he is 'not the same without your head on my shoulder' 'and it's true i need you here closer'. yn being happy is killing him but 'that's okay 'cause i'd still die for you'. and they're not friends because 'only time we speak is in my dreams' im crying again... (9)
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9. glimpse of us: BE AWARE ! WATERFALL OF TEARS ! harry has/had a new woman, she's perfect but he still wishes it was yn - because 'sometimes when i look into her eyes, and that's where i found a glimpse of us'. he's a dick. because that lovely woman is his rebound. and then this man is crossing a line, ladies, gentleman and non-binary folks - 'maybe one day you'll feel lonely and in his eyes you'll get a glimpse, maybe you'll start slipping slowly and find me again' THE NERVE ?! im so angry but im crying so much as well (10)
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10. dissolve: here he knows that it was a dick move in glimpse of us, he sings 'who the hell am I to think you're my angel from above? it's not right' BRAVO, it's not, harry. and then again 'you got the life you always wanted, please don't leave me behind'. he can't stand yn being happy with joe (11)
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11. heartbreak anniversary: so, after using my math skills i calculated when the heartbreak happened. it was around 3rd of July 2020 - around the same day and month in 2023 yn's pregnancy got revealed. i think (i'm certain) this song is a product of harry getting the news. (12)
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12. to let a good thing die: it feels like a warning harry gives us, 'life isn't like a movie, but it sure will make you cry'. it also feels like harry's telling us about what that 'good thing' did to him, he wants to prevent us from that pain. ending the song with 'stop wishing for forever, 'cause nothing ever lasts, if it's keeping you from sleeping wipe the tear from you eye, 'cause sometimes, it's time to let a good thing die.' it's not a healthy advice but harry doesn't know any other, heartbreak consuming him still. (13)
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13. the most beautiful thing: it might be a song where harry's saying that he's over yn. i don't believe it. in 'she chose me' he calls yn 'the most beautiful girl' and here he's singing 'the most beautiful thing that i have never seen'. maybe he wants something new, maybe his over yn, but considering he released 12 songs saying how much he still loves her, i don't buy this 'i'm over you' bullshit, a a (14)
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harrysbtchΒ @iheartharryandyn 1h
i cried so much while listening to this album. and i still haven't stopped listening. he's voice - so heartbroken, hoarse and low???
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joseph my love @joemyman 1h
it's a beautiful album but i feel so sorry for joe, he hasn't got a day in peace since starting a relationship with yn
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yn the queen @ynmyqueenandsaviour 1h
@joemyman i just hope he and yn just haven't listened to it yet and don't plan to. it's really too much to handle, i think. especially with having a little baby under your roof.
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joeandynupdates Joe this morning at the London cafΓ©! The person that took the photo said that Joe was checking his phone constantly, getting visibly upset by something.
Just let me remind you that it's been just about 9 hours since Harry dropped another album about YN.
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ynupdates i hope it wasn't the moment he got the news about the album...
hArrysbtch i still have hope that Harry had contacted YN before releasing the album... i know, i am naive
harrysupdates please tell me no one was bothering this kind human being
β€· josephmyman so hi! im the one that took the photo. After that, i politely walked up to him to just say hello and literally praise his work. he was soooo kind and lovely, so smily. he refused a photo ('so sorry, love') but propose a hug and to sign something for me. i was more than happy!
β€· ynsmybestie do you know if him and yn know about the album?
β€· josephmyman im more than certain. his phone was on the table and from the corner of my eye, i saw IG opened with a post about THAT album. he also smirked at my t-shirt (unfortunately i had a tee with harry's photo with the text 'that's my man' on it)
β€· ynshands id love to see joe's face π
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yourinstagram meeting granny and papa for the first time π©· (I'm afraid i'm gonna turn into an instagram mum...)
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josephquinn best nannies in the world
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florencepugh little Mae my love π₯°
tchalamet THAT'S MY GODDAUGHTER!!! πΆ
taylorswift look at her holding her head without a problem! she's growing up so quick π
β€· yourinstagram don't, tay. i cried today because she has two times more hair than a few days ago...
ynshands her name is Mae???? it's so beautiful !!!!
β€· ynsmybestie i think it's a nickname
β€· ynsmymama what if its Maeve??? it matches and its from Irish mythology that yn likes so much
β€· hArrysbtch yes!!! i agree! Maeve was a warrior queen!
harrysmoustache look at you being unbothered, Queen behaviour!!!!
harryupdates beautiful family! π
harrysmylife i think she still doesn't know about the album...
β€· joemyman you think joe didn't tell her?
β€· harrysmylife I mean... if I were joe, i wouldn't tell her
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ynupdates HARRY, YN AND JOSEPH WERE SPOTTED AT THE REASTAURANT TOGETHER !!!!
There is no information of where it was on who got the photo.
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ynshands what in a matrix just happened?????
ynshands excuse me?????
ynshands im so confused i- WHAT?!
ynshands wtf
harrysmoustache jeixhejisjdjdiis you're kidding!!!!! its not real
hArrysbtch what in the fuck is going on???? is it real? is it photoshop? are the fans lying??? maybe it was someone else? not yn and joe? whaaaaat
joeandynfann this is so random
user492 is this some kind of pr move? why are they meeting in public?
β€· ynsmybestie i may be wrong but I can't imagine yn inviting harry to her and Joe's home. and neither going to harry's house where they made so many memories
β€· user492 it makes sense
β€· user917 but why not some low-key restaurant?
β€· ynsmymama tmz uploaded a video of them leaving. it's literally some small restaurant outside of London. there were just a few people there.
ynshands i calmed down, do we know more about it??
β€· ynsmybestie well, apparently it was all about the album. a person that got the photo also recorded them. tmz has it on its website
harrysupdates oh, that's so strange
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tmz "Well, it's not only about you. Not everything is. She didn't have a say in it. You did it behind her back. The least you can do now is apologise. And I don't think your proud ass can do that." Those were some of the words that Harry Styles (29) heard from his ex-girlfriend - YN YSN - husband - Joseph Quinn (29). The actor didn't hold back with words towards the pop star and neither did YN - just calmer. To listen to their conversation go to the link in our bio!
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harrysmoustache "You know how much it hurt to have my, our photos out there without permission. You said you felt the same. And now, you're reliving the past. But I'm the only one just off the boat. You betrayed all my trust, even the last strands of it that I've had." Oh man. it feels so wrong to listen to it, buuut tea π΅ yn said what needed to be said
hArrysbtch "Man, I'm not asking you to do anything for me or because of me. I know you hate me, and if I'm being honest you're not my favourite person on the planet either, but if what you sing and write is true about YN, do it for her. For the last three years, she didn't catch a break. You're everywhere and it's tiring. You're a famous one, so you really can just stop this. For her." JOSEPH YOURE THE MAN I LOVE. LET ME GET ON MY KNEES.
ynsmybestie "Talk with Anne and Gemma. They know you like nobody else, they're there for you. Just, just get better, Harry. All of this is consuming you. You deserve better than still hanging on something that is no longer there." she still cares. she still is giving him advice. π
harrysmylife "I really am sorry, YN. Please tell Joseph. I regret, I regret what I did. I know it looks like a PR move. It wasn't. I just was a prick, did it for myself, for private benefit. I'm sorry for affecting you and your family, again. I'm so sorry, darling." HE SLIPPED THE PET NAME. HARRY YOU SIMP, OH GOD
harrysupdates i literally hate the person that recorded them
ynshands does the person that recorded know its illegal???
ynsmymama you're sick for uploading it! it was a private conversation!
β€·user396 they were in public. should've stayed at home.
β€· ynsmymama just because it was at the restaurant, doesn't mean they had the right to record.
ynshands oh Harry... thank god Joseph is a nobleman and didn't beat your ass up. I wouldn't blame him. I'd beat you up if you were saying all this about MY WIFE
joeandynfann I can't believe im the only one drooling over joe smoking????? he looks so hot
β€· ynshands it is!! but didn't he quit (because of becoming a dad)?
β€· joemyman he did say that. maybe because of all the stress he just needed one?
joesupdates also joseph didn't say half of the things that are in your caption. why are you trying to put him in a bad light?
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esquire "They are my whole world. There is nothing I wouldn't do for them. Being a husband and a father are the best things that happened to me in 2023 or my life. I'm just so happy with having met YN those four years ago. Without her, I really don't know who I'd be." says Joseph Quinn, this year's last front page star. To read the whole article click the link in bio, or buy the paper magazine!
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ynupdates "I don't want to comment on that. It has enough attention, in my mind. I'd just wish it all went differently. Preferably without affecting my wife this badly." I knew that YN wouldn't take that album slightly...
ynshands "My wife is, how can I say it without talking for hours? She's special. Too good for this world. My best friend, my love, the mother of our beautiful daughter. She went through so much the last few years, I still am in awe. She's the strongest woman I know." crying....
ynsmybestie "It's scary to have a child. That little baby's counting on you with their life. It's- it's absolutely terrifying. But seeing her grow so quickly, learn and just be happy with the world is super exciting." Maeve, baby, can I borrow your daddy for a day or two???
joemyman lookin good dad
yourinstagram is he single???
β€· josephquinn nope. i have a wife, lady.
β€· yourinstagram damn it!
florencepugh dad life is paying of, joseph
ynsmymama b e a u t i f u l man
harryupdates he's so in love with yn. it's lovely to see!
hArrysbtch happy to see them happy besides all the drama
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i did it. i'm starting fresh.
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