#im hurting really bad

[squirmydonnie]

Just so you know, the freaking hand dryers don't work if your black.

I have to turn my hands to the white side and face them up to get air or paper towels.

#cheeseburgerboy #its ridiculous #theres no way they made hand dryers racist #guess whos at their grandparents house?! #i wonder what i did this time? #im hurting really bad #those 2 things aren't related

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[ccassettetape]

i am writing an accidental haiku to attract haiku bot

#haiku bot #🦾 finn txt #normal post. average. average words in these tags. #need to catch it. with a net maybe. like those ones that they always show ppl catching butterflies and junk with on shows. pspsppspspspspsp #ooooooooooh u wanna look at this post so bad oooooooooh #<- attempting to attract haiku bot to this post #wowoowoooowowowowowoowowowowowowoowowowoowowowoowowiwoowiwiwoowowowowoowowwwww (<- normal noises) #I wonder if there’s a limit to how many tags you can add #time to begin the haiku bot summoning ritual um #oooowowowowoowowowwwwooooo haiku bot haiku bot haiku bot oooowoowowowowwwwwwwu you wanna look at this post haiku bot ooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuoo #throws flower. get over here please. #man. my arm hurts. #its weird bc one #why does my arm hurt thats really donking random but two im not?? why do i have an arm. i still get kinda surprised by it when i front lmao #why am i rambling so much in the tags #oh right trying to figure out if theres a limit to how many tags there can be dhdjdjndhdjsjmsjdjd #i think lesbians are cool. girls who like other girls are awesome. keep existing 👍 #uhhhhhhhh #never mind im done with that now i dont anything more to say :( #never mind again #tags tags tags tags tags #LISTEN IM BORED AS HECK AND WANT TO DO SOMETHING RANDOM AND SILLY SHUSH #journal

[solargeist]

Xelqua & Grian

#my art #grian #evo smp #<- ok not really but.. #xelqua #xelqua: im not omnipresent. i dont know everything. i just have your memories ! so i know everything about you !- #-but i get to view them from this perspective now instead of yours. #grian: my head hurts so bad rn you need to die

[holy-watercolors]

Why is bro trying to come out?!!??!?!!11 Get outta here man!!

more Kinito pet fanart!! I love this game so so much :333

#ohh my god i THINK this might be the last drawing for today #probably not #this guy is too silly #i gotta draw him #ive actually drawn so much that my arm is starting to hurt OW #kinito my beloved #kinito fanart #kinitopet fanart #kinito pet #kinitopet #kinito the axolotl #i would give him my credit card information #digital drawing #drawing #artwork #sorry i've been dead i was having really bad artblock #again #but now im back and this is all your gonna get for a week and a half #silly

[ryssbelle]

Just two kids who got left behind

So now we got Clay's side of the cave in!! He didnt really have time to process any of the emotions he was feeling due to having to immediately run for his life, then guide others to safety alongside Viva.

This was made mostly in response to this fun little tag by @zivazivc

I wasn't planning on drawing it up so soon but AUGH I had to, also ty I pride myself in drawing raw emotions

Btw I do read all the tags and comments I get on my posts I'm very happy to have crushed you all thoroughly 💖

#my art #n2 au #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls au #trolls band together #trolls clay #trolls viva #trolls john dory #im having a lot of fun #i also have like 4 or 5 mor posts locked and loaded about this au #ill probably schedule them to go out for the next few days while i work on other stuff #but ill still like answer asks #i just have been hyper fixating on this and i forgor i have another comic im supposed to be focusing on #but thats for another day #im really excited to share all the silly things ive made #theres quite a few #when i go bonkers insane about something i go #bonkers insane #my wrist hurts so bad but that will not stop me #im so much stronger than possible carpal tunnel #but yeah about little clay doh #he is not well lmao #mentally or physically #hes grieving and terrified and theres so much responsibility on his shoulders #he also feels like its his fault if JD got caught in the cave in #because if hed gone back with his brothers before the escape JD wouldnt have to go back for him #but he loves being with Viva so #its a whole mess of emotions #the reunion with his bros minus jd when they find him is going to be very different

[heartorbit]

start remembering ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

#his whimsical ass is not remembering #i didnt realize it's 8/8. i fucking forgot. hwlp #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #proseka #tsukasa tenma #^_^ #congratulations to me for drawing something without emu for the firsst time in um a month even as agag #My commitment to the bit #I WANT TO DRAW THINGS FROM THE WXS CONNECT LIVE REALLY BAD. BUT. MYTUMYM HURTS #i really wanted to draw in general today but cramps rnso bad and painkilelrs so i already had this as a sketch so i just colored it #and gifded it #i also rewatched ummmm all of mado/ka for no reasom. Wheee #im gonna be out of commission all of today too so i hope somebodys uplaoded the 2nd and 3rd showings of the wxs live on yt or something #i wanna watch them .... clowns give me strength #lately ive been obsessed with this emoji combination -> 🎺🦐 #idk i noticed that the shrimps head lines up with the trumpet so now she's playing it. bwaaaaah. #goodngiht

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Am I the Asshole for correcting a child by letting him know that since his family members were criminals, they deserved to die?

I (36M) work for the government and recently went on a long work trip. While there, I met a new coworker (16M). Let’s call him Jon. We immediately hit it off and started talking about work and stuff. Since his family has a long history of government work and I even knew his dad, we began talking about some of the recent political events that have impacted his family a lot. To make a long story short, his dad was supposedly involved in a coup to oust the king and was later beheaded in front of a lot of people. His brother got super mad about that and tried to rebel, but he also died at a wedding hosted by some allies of his. This is where I might have been the asshole. I told Jon that his brother was a criminal by rebelling against the crown and so he deserved to die. I even said that his dad was overrated, and I didn’t care for him much. The mood immediately shifted after this and while he didn’t really react much outwardly, our conversation became very curt. It’s almost like he stopped liking me at that very moment. I really wasn’t trying to hurt his feelings on purpose. He’s a hardworking kid and I even offered him an internship because I believe that he can go really far. But he ended up rejecting my offer, quite rudely if I may add, and our conversations aren’t as warm as they were before this. I don’t have the best social cues so I’m afraid that I may have accidentally hurt his feelings. I want to talk to him more normally but don’t really know how. However, I did stress in that moment that I don’t actually hate his family members and was just talking about the technicality of the law. So AITA?

#im really starting to feel bad about it but i didnt actually say anything incorrect #they wouldve died anyway #but im just asking for other people’s pov because he seemed really hurt by my comments #asoiaf #stannis baratheon #jon snow #jon logs onto reddit and sees this post first thing and to make it worse everyone votes NTA ☹️ #valyrianscrolls

[krotiation]

Feeling absolutely distraught over the face Rhys makes when he realizes just what he's gonna have to do to himself to cut Jack off

And Jack's face when he realizes that oh. This is actually happening. This is really it

#cant mansplain manspread manipulate yourself out of this one #one thing i will always love abt jacks writing is how you sorta get manipulated by him through the screen #despite knowing everything you know about him #and this scene + angels death segment is such good examples of that bc they really make you feel Bad #so imagine how rhysie feels when he has to literally rip jack out of his body right in front of him #while jack is pleading with him to stop #it doesnt matter that he tried to strangle him just moments ago because truly? things could have ended differently and thats what hurts most #and rhys is forced to learn that he cant “fix” jack or placate him enough to just let him go #rhack #txt #babe wake up new rhack ramble just dropped #im going insane

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!

the perched king / tigerstar I

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #tigerclaw #tigerstar #warriors #warrior cats #wc art #waca #UHHHHH squints i havent posted fanart in a while i think those are all of my tags #DO YOU KNOW HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO HAVE A LITTLE TIME TO DO A LEGIT PIECE LIKE THIS. oh my god its wonderful #im experiencing a calm before the storm because this is the week before finals #I PROMISE ILL GET BACK TO DOING THE STARCLAN GAMES SOON I JUST NEED TO SURVIVE FINALS AND THEN I DONT HAVE SCHOOL TO JUGGLE WITH WORK #ANYMORE ABJLHBKHDFBG #I SPENT THE ENTIRE LIKE 2 HOURS WORKING ON THIS LISTENING TO THE HUNGER GAMES MOCKINGJAY AUDIOBOOK im. GOOD GOD. im hurting #the movies dont do hardly enough justice to how awful the things the characters go through are #recovering peeta makes me so :( i love him so bad #still got four hours left of the audio book and its really nice since i can listen to it while working #i love drawing tigerclawstar so much i think hes one of the warrior cats ever #for a while a couple years ago if i wanted to draw a wc character i would only draw him but i dont think i ever posted ANY of it

[borkb]

empanada (wip kinda)

#doobles #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp eggs #qsmp empanada #q empanada #q!empanada #empanada the egg #empanada fanart #yes #this isnt really finished #its technically a wip #idk when or if im gonna finish jt #ive just been staring at it for too long #and if i keep working on it ill go insane #looking at the same thing for a while do be like that #but yes #i hope im getting better at painting #it hurts #so bad

[rapidhighway]

ok ok just let me have this

#fleetway super sonic #knuckles the echidna #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic the hedghog fanart #art #doodle #i want to put them thought so much suffering you have no idea #what’s better than calming down from supernatural rage by being hugged and hurting your best friend REALLY bad #nothing #im being very self indulgent tonight but thats good actually

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[sampilled]

it's weird how in the flashback episodes we never really see sam as an angry kid when we hear so much about how he argued with john nonstop and how vocal he was about hating the life throughout the show, he's always portrayed as kinda timid and quiet.

the only time we see him act out like that (that i remember right now anyway) is in after school special and he spends the entire episode pushing it down and swallowing everything he wants to say until he is finally pushed too far

its almost like sam wasn't a horribly angry child (or adult)

#this goes doubly for early seasons sam who kept getting told he was so filled with rage #i also just think that its kinda bad writing. i feel like the writers forgot that sam was constantly standing up for him and dean never did #im also reading weechesters fics rn and the most frustraiting thing is reading a fic that portrays dean as the rebelious one who stood up t #john for sam #you literally have never watched the show ever #we also never really get to see teen sam which is so hurtful to me personally :( #i know it would have been difficult because sam was 22 in the pilot so people kinda know what teen him and early 20s dean look like #but i prommy people woyld have suspended their disbelief

[wanderingcoyotes]

oh god its done. I really don’t like this but i wanted it done w/o worrying abt not working on it

i never wanna see enot again. /lh /j

enots in tha box (most of thrm outside but wtv) waoow

i got super lazy and i did NOT feel like shading or making an actual bg

also SUPER sorry if i got ur design wrong i had 2 make the refs super small 2 fit em all and couldnt see some colors/patterns right :’D

also im missing like half of these designs im so sorry like. Begging 4 foregiveness rn i was stressing out over this and did like ,, half of them

anyways tag time

@pastelpillbug @sp1resong @fadebolt @draagu @pookapufferfish @skybristle @eeveekitti @twocakesinacup @erratic-pulsee @soaricarus @squenble @bean-named-rifty @verdeltiathedead @zarithial @mayabunny23 @dollybeagle @grianthedecayingbird @cheddar-inq @cubicpeebles @moshieee @sugarr-moon @fishsfailureson @metallic-rosefinch @emperormoth101 @wicked-gator @toastedbreado @outacontrolrobotz @foxdoesshit

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#my hands hurt so bad argh #im gonna draw objects i think im all slugged out #; atlas draws #barely i really . dont like this i dont feel like making ti better urhg #rw #rain world #rain world fanart #rw fanart #rw slugcat #rw downpour #rw enot #rw inv #rain world downpour #rw sofanthiel

[riverrunscold]

Since we're sharing youtube comments, I wanted to share this underrated one

#watcher #watcher entertainment #disappointed but not completely surprised #i haven't watched them in a hot minute and i think this situation made me realize why #all the content is too perfect now. maybe even slightly too long. i say this as someone who loves long videos #i watch retrospectives on shows ive never seen or actively dislike and love every moment of it #but sitting with the silenced of ghost files is just boring now. which i hate to say but it is #there hasn't been any really funny bits in a while either. and the jokes that they do on the set feel not super authentic #that's just me though #im worried they made a bad business decision and it's gonna hurt them. and the situation isn't super serious so i enjoy laughing about it #i really think i was into watcher for a hot minute but sometimes it feels like im slogging through a video just to get a glimmer of #what i used to love #which is super depressing xD