#im going to make myself tea

[missygoesmeow]

i adore sharing media i love with friends and having them go insane over it :) is this how jesus felt when he spread the word of god?

#god. the original blorbo. #also i just made the worst coffee this morning and i am depressed #i ran outta my special milk and had to use my housemates and it is Not Good #fuck me dead #also i randomly booked myself an optometrist appointment at midnight last night #well a contact lense consult #as i need a refresh prescription for them #and i wanna use contacts for the festival so i can wear cheap sunglasses and not lose my prescription ones #anyway #hello to u if u read this :) #im going to make myself tea #u have a lovely day silly person reading my silly tags :) #cock :) #hehe #missy meows

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

helloooo my dearest darling listeners, i am back on my soapbox to regale you all with the marvelous things i witnessed/experienced on my Whimsical As Fuck™️ three hour drive today. not necessarily in order <3

some cute does with bigass floppy ears / very sweet waitress who called me "hon" and put the most tasty looking crepes on my table / a pair of hawks divebombing a golden eagle / a kite (the bird) / a flock of magpies / some GORGEOUS scenery / a rainbow / lovely rain sprinklings / MORE gorgeous scenery, i mean what the fuck / fields of purple/orange/red tipped bushes / a meadow of buttercup-yellow very tall grass, in which many picturesque trees stood / lots of fluffy, adorable, tasty cows / a large herd of likely-feral horses with a wonderful variety of patterns & colors / the fluffiest husky ever / the juxtaposition of cold wind through an open window + warm sunlight / the most stunning snow-coated mountain of whites and blues in the sun, wreathed in clouds / no seriously some really fucking Gorgeous scenery, i was near tears with some of it

#i am feeling. Better Than I Have In A While #you know! last night i was very unhappy that i would have to do this drive! #but after my 2 hour doze in the ihop parking lot #and a nice breakfast of crepes and tea w/ my book #i was feeling better and decided Fuck It. im gonna make myself enjoy this drive #im gonna take my goddamn time and really absorb my surroundings #by fuck i will stop at a rest stop and take a walk! and i did all of it! #life is actually worth it! glad to have continuous confirmation of that #its so nice to drive and actually see things #beautiful landscapes... wildlife... Geography... #instead of just Flat. Scrub. Brown. More Scrub. Dirt. Dead Scrub aka Tumbleweed. Boring Brown Hills. No Weather. #i can go outside the clouds are Full and the air is Fresh and birds are Singing and i am Alive #absolutely unprompted #i expect the feeling of realness to fade soon but i will enjoy it while it lasts! #and maybe if i feel it often enough it will outlast the disconnect! #now i think i am going to treat myself to a pork bun i just bought & get one of the nice beers from the garage #ive Earned It! #you all treat yourself to something you like as well. we have all earned it simply by existing! #you're here today! Yippee! indulge! #im feeling so fucking whimsical today... ill go work on setting up my extra monitor and figuring out how the fuck that works! #my mic has already arrived! i have hope that i will do a test stream Soon!

[anglerflsh]

Trying out a new brush for simple shading

#[.art] #self #the blueification of my sketches... it's because I've been writing in blue ink lately #anyway. Without my computer drawing anything more than doodles is awful so : / #im going to go make myself tea now #there are more sketches I could post but eh. not as good

[kisaraslover]

if anyone has any problem making sense of the way i interpret Kaiba just remember this: Tea Gardner looks at him one day and has the dawning realization "hes like a lesbian of some kind" this should make all the pieces fall into place

#not art #tea gardner #anzu mazaki #seto kaiba #yugioh #ygo #i mean it. kisara existing or not. i mean ittttt #i look at him. i look at myself. i look at his barely contained animosity towards all men- immediate competition- rivals #and then his much more calm reception of women. and i go ''hes literally me'' #this is why im forever kaiba-mai valentine kaiba-ishizu friendship truther. tea doesnt make the cut but like. #if i write the series again id have to make him choose her for anything that isnt dueling. that spot is determinedly atem #but hes gotta sit next to someone from yugi gang for a flight? gardner. hes gotta share a cab? gardner. hes gotta save a yugi friend? #gardner. #not that they speak. not that hed want to spend time with her he doesnt have to. but to me hes like those dogs that hate men always #mai valentine would genuinely have his respect -she seems to have given battles of her own and came out a bit similar to him #hed actively enjoy her humor especially if joey is the butt of it. she would actively make an effort to get close too. birds of a feather #ishizu though. ohhh hed be so annoyed anytime shes like ''fate and gods and magic'' the way i am when straight girls bring up. #astrology. and tarot and whatnot. half disproving and trying to convince them. half listening to see where they take it #but 100% not taking it seriously for himself #but shes an accomplished woman who can be a deadly business woman and hed like that part of her. #again he can see himself reflected in powerful women and the sexist writing aside he just wouldnt be threatened by them #COUGH gozaburo COUGH. #sigh i just gotta make everything about that asshole dont i. #<- actual seto kaiba thought whenever he has an emotional awakening to his trauma once again being tied to gozaburo #DAMN im a good kinnie. yeeeesh

[tamagotchikgs]

my mom said my cats cant live with us in the trailer which . i just can’t do that man i cant live w/o them they are my only reason for getting up everyday,..... they’re the only thing i have irl that makes me smile or feel any amount of joy or anything whatsoever. i wonder if i could get my own used trailer too,,,,, i was looking & there r RVs for 12k,, if only i could get hired somewhere maybe i could afford it by summer :(

#im still probably going to kill myself hving to go back to my childhood . there is no escape #it never ends its always there & it’s always rotting me away #even my therapist agrees i need to get as far as i can #but i never can. #also #i got turned down from the other cafe i was trying to work at a month or so ago #ive been trying to ignore it to not fuck my mental health into a spiral but i do hav to face it I guess o(-< #there’s still the bubble tea spot I’ve been trying to get my resume to since they opened #but i checked my resumes today and something pink spilt on them o(-< #and i have no way of printing new ones #unless i go buy usb stick and pay to have them printed at staples or something but i. don’t have any fucking money #they really make it as hard as possible huh

[1v1jc]

🎵We’ve been in a maze of love🎵

🎵And we are losing control to get away🎵

#konami please make a dance game with anzu as the main character 🙏 #in my mind the plot of the game would be something like: #everyone visits anzu in NYC while she’s going to dance school #but then they all get forced into dance battles on the street instead of card games #almost everyone in YGO is an uncoordinated super nerd so the skill hierarchy would be completely inverted compared to the DM series #where everyone who really sucked at card games turns out to be ok to good at dancing #and everyone who was amazing at card games is absolute dogshit #the final boss would probably be otogi lol he definitely looks like he’s good at dancing #or maybe it would be pegasus??? he could ballroom dance lol #also i like to think that yugi would be the worst dancer to start with #but with the encouragement of anzu he becomes pretty good #sort of like what yugi did for anzu in DM ❤️ #also im still on hiatus i just can't fucking stop myself from drawing ygo pictures 😭 #yugioh #anzu mazaki #tea gardener #yugi mutou #yami yugi #atem #peachshipping #revolutionshipping #encourageshipping

[spatio-rift]

fundamentally im incapable of accepting compliments or simply positive comments about myself but my presentation went well and apparently the prof and the class both thought it was very good esp for a first try 👍

#now im going to make myself tea and sleep

[todayisafridaynight]

IW fr just felt like yokoyama's cope for killing Aoki off and then regretting it

im not saying yoko shouldve ryuji'd aoki but im just saying maybe the aoki-lives truthers were onto something if not copium but serving a warning for what was to come

#iw spoilers #spoilers #not really but shut up #snap chats #actually no shut up ill make those tags valid #LIIIIKKKEEEEEE EIJI WAS DONE WELL AS A MASATO-ADJACENT CHARACTER #why make ebina .......... i hate him so much ........... yoko it is not 2009 anymore who is this deviantART-oc-backstory ass mfer #why not even have ichi interact with him more or have him fight ebina ... #if yu really had to fuck it have kiryu and ichi fight ebina together idc just #with ichi's core being about family its so fucking bizarre ichi never gets to properly interact With His Family #IM NOT GETTING INTO THIS RANT FUCK OFF #there's just ... so much that could've been done differently that wouldve worked so much more interestingly .... im angry now ... #im gonna drink this tea ... #cyborg aoki wouldve been so funny but also so unnecessary #he just got shanked like. fuck if i know where brb #no i need to stop because im literally going to sit here and do an autopsy report if i dont force myself to put it to rest #anyways i dont think aoki should be brought back and with this game ending i at least hope they put him to rest now #i was happy with what the ending with eiji provided like FINE that was sweet #im still pissed that kume was just. brushed aside like that like can i at least watch his arrest ........ if i cant kill him myself ......

[icyfox17]

man my day got completely derailed by bee posting sandduo i am SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW IOJFWEKLFJKLSJKL PEAK VIBES KJSDFKJDS I HAVE NEVER VIBED HARDER IN MMY LIFE JFKSDKDJFJSD

now to remember what the heck i was going to write before i got distracted...

#foxie rambles #also going to make myself tea that ive been procrastinating all morning for #im so excited for earl grey LETS GOOO #i looovee earl grey so much omonmnonmonom

[rubyneo]

So question bout your latest masterpiece, is Ruby under the control of Neo since I can see Ruby's eye is pink or is that just a clone

clone. i just think what if you found companionship in the facsimile of the person you hate the most because the idea of seeing the face of the person you failed makes you sick to your stomach? what if there was no roman clone but just a ruby who is everything neo THINKS of ruby, who's cold and callous and cruel and mean and neo can beat the fuck out of her and she comes back like a loyal dog every time and fights back and hurts neo back just as bad.

"what is this about?! roman torchwick?! you want me to apologize?! well that's too bad!" ruby yells and her own voice answers "no."

like a more fucked up version of the herbalist's test. "i can't wait to watch you break," not-ruby says with a chilling smile, holding neo aloft. ruby's broken, twisted mirror spitting all the vile things neo thinks of her and ruby secretly thinks of herself. she blames her for penny dying, for not being able to save pyrrha, for ironwood's descent into madness.

#pov youre having a stress induced breakdown and then your evil twin comes up and starts beating the shit out of you #'how does this turn into rubyneo???' you might ask. well. i think neo starts having feelings about all of this #and real ruby drinking the tea and then coming back wholly herself makes neo realize Oh. she's not any of the things i thought #i need to work on myself #(she wants to be worthy of standing in that light) (she already is. ruby would let her come back to remnant with them.) #so she lets go of the harsh horrific version she created in her head and salutes ruby to say i'll see you again someday #when i feel like im worth something again. #yeah #💌.txt #waltat04

[kelprot-old]

there's something to be said about the idea of headcanons, and of plastering bits you resonate with onto pre-written characters, in an effort to "see yourself" in them. it's not malicious at all, but sometimes I wonder what the whole purpose of it is.

if it's for some kind of representation, to see certain ideas or traits manifest in a story you like, i would understand but also tell you to just like....go read something else. instead of ordering a hawaiian pizza minus the pineapple, just order a ham and cheese pizza. if that makes sense. lots of people on here love to post all about their favorite stories with queer headcanons, but refuse to take the step outside their realm of comfort and read something that has those queer themes actually interwoven into the story.

other times, people claim to do it just to see themselves reflected more in their favorite characters. which feels equally as flimsy to me. if you can't emphasize or even find enjoyment in a story if the characters dont resemble you (or an idealized you) in some way, then. idk. maybe work on that or something

#thisisnt like. a mean targeted post im moreso just thinking about things. i do this myself sometimes lol im not immune #anyways sorry im stuck at home for 6 weeks so im gonna be posting nonsense like this #in reality none of this really matters too much at all #however as someone who used to be way into this shit when i was a teenager i wonder what kinda purpose it serves? other than the obvious #we're reaching a state online where fiction is restricted more and more to these headcanon-y fandom-like levels of nuance #which is in part due to how many people are just teenagers and dont tend to worry too much about metanarrative discussions #nor is that everyone's cup of tea in the first place #but over the past 5 or so years it feels like more and more people default to this method when it comes to any kind of storytelling #regardless of the initial values of the original media they're discussing. it all gets relegated to this fandom-o-vision #this isn't even tumblr-centric. it's very prevalent on here yes. but every other social media seems to be following in kind #perhaps not with the same exact methods. but the similar lack of nuance feels like its there too #i just worry sometimes. maybe it isnt that important. but. oh well #im gonna go make myself a delicious milkshake

[humanplaypretend]

The way Tabitha was Barbara's entire world

The way she stuck with her throughout all, good and bad, even when the times were rough and they got separated, she always came back, because they need each other. Because a part of one's soul has been ingrained into the others heart like a hot iron branding.

It's the way they matured together, the way they explored life together.

Tabitha came from a life where she was but a weapon for her brother to use. She wasn't a human, she was merely a hitman. Living in the shadows of a pathetic man, being denied the humanity and respect she deserves.

And Barbara could relate to her. She was brought up to become a cliché housewife. A blonde, rich little girl that was gonna become married to a good policeman. Her life had been planned out for her even before she could talk.

They met each other in a moment of chaos, and found peace within the others embrace.

A peace that was disrupted many times, yes, but that persisted throughout it all. The candle's fire dimmed, but never went off.

Barbara saw the intelligent, caring and loving human that was behind the war machine that Tabitha was made to be, and Tabby fell in love with the woman that understood her.

Barbara helped Tabby regain the humanity she was denied, and Tabby helped Barb to realise that she didn't need a man or anyone else for herself to be worthy. Worthy of love, of respect, worthy of a nice life.

Barbara had not only found someone that understood her, but also someone that loved her for who she was. Not like Jim, who loved the "sane version" of her, who wishes for her to change and go back to who she wasn't. Tabitha saw the true Barbs and she decided to stick with her, be with and for her. She was her pillar of support, of unconditional love (although sometimes rough). And she was taken away from her in front of her eyes.

The love of her life, the only one that saw her for who she was and loved the true version of her, was ripped away from her. Her reason to strive and get better, her will to live, gone.

The fact that Barbara not only went behind Tabitha in what was essentially a suicide mission, she PUT HERSELF in the middle of the gunfire in a last attempt to get revenge, heartbroken and desperate. Something she would NEVER do for anyone else. If she had to go, it might as well be avenging the only person that truly ever loved her, die by her side, asking for forgiveness for all the ways she erred Tabitha.

The scream she let out when she saw Tabitha's eyes lose the beautiful glimpse they once had was HEARTWRENCHING. Never once has she acted this way about anyone else because never has she cared so deeply about anyone else

And Tabitha's last words being "Barbara, don't", meaning to not do anything that could get her killed or harmed out of revenge, just adds even MORE to the heartbreak because even in her dying moments, even in the agonising pain that is getting stabbed through the heart, she cares about Barbara. Even when the world is getting blurry, and the tiredness is scarily taking over, even then, the safety and health of Barbara are her priorities.

I am sobbing.

#yes i just started s5 #no i am NOT okay #I FEEL SICK #THIS IS SICK #SICK AND TWISTED #I WANNA THROW UP #IM NOT FUCKING OKAY I HAD TO STOP WHAG I WAS DOING AND GO MAKE MYSELF A TEA AND PONDER WHILE STARING AT THE WALL #IM IN FUCKING SHAMBLES #DEVASTATED HEARTBROKEN AGONISING EXCRUCIATING #IM NOT GONNA EVER RECOVER #im gonna write a fanfic on ao3 where everything is fine and Barbara takes Tabby to strange and she gets revived and everything is fine #everything will be FINE ITS ALL GOOD TICKETY BOO #SOMEBODY SEDATE ME #gotham #gotham show #gotham fox #gotham tv #barbara kean #tabitha galavan #barbara x tabitha #babitha #whipgun #whipbuck

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im devastated. i got a microwaveable curry from costco and. its not good. Why

#I JUST WANT FLAVOR. PLEASE. THE LACK OF SPICES IN MY LIFE RN- #i didnt see that the label said 'mango' #and its unexpectedly peppery #two flavors i Do Not Like! #which is deeply unfortunate bc i can taste how good it is Under those two prevailing flavors! #i wasted rice on this.... #i thought i was about to have a decadent as fuck breakfast... #now im just sad! i miss having access to so many different places for the occasional takeout... #no thai... no indian... no chinese... no korean... no japanese... no mexican... #im Suffering out here. i can go get subway or mediocre burgers. thats pretty much it #cmonnnn american cuisine tends to be so fucking bland.... i want Flavor... where is the Flavor.... #my taste buds are crying. they're sobbing. they are Wailing #absolutely unprompted #ive started to daydream about all my favorite restaurants ive been to #brazilian barbeque... shabu shabu... my beloved chinese takeout location... korean bbq... roadside tamale stand... #farmers market bao vendor... french bakery... the place with Banger pad see ew... the sushi restaurant with awesome bento & veggie rolls... #the boba store with delicious dragonfruit bowls... mall mongolian bbq... hibachi.... tea houses... many many more... #MAN IM MAKING MYSELF SO HUNGRY #nothing in this house or in this town will satisfy me #one of my great loves in life has been taken away! Flavor! delicious food! Where Is She!

[ofrandomthought]

the new chapter is out and I know. I just KNOW kusanagi is up to something truly diabolical

#im going to go make myself a cup of tea and see if i can find any sedatives in the medicine cabinet #because you know. precautions. #akatsuki no yona #yona of the dawn #yona of the red dawn

[darubyprincx]

k im back and am no longer experiencing the visceral feeling that i am being hunted for sport despite being tucked in nice and cosy into my warm safe bed

#ray's tag #gonna go make myself a cup of hot tea and have a think about some things #im fine now by the way in case it wasnt clear #just had a bit of a scare there

[seriemorder]

i know this isnt even real because i remember with stark clarity the cycles i used to have at 15 and how they fucked with my head and how they made me feel physically, but fucking hell this one is Bad(tm). like its not even bad. ive had worse even before What Shant Be Mentioned. but its Bad(tm) yknow. fuck.

#i think its just the nausea. im gonna go make myself a tea. thatll fix it. #im so not ready to start bleeding tho omg. fuck this stupid baka life.