Here's the thing about me as a person with SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder): I hate interviews. They freak me out. Like so bad. Especially when they ask you that question of introducing yourself. My God. I just want the void to eat me. Like what do I say? There's nothing remarkable about me. I have nothing substantial to say. What? What about my hobbies? Why are you asking about that? Do you really need that information? My education? Yes I did go to college and no i did not graduate, I'm sorry for that? 😭😭😭 What? Dealing with people? Sure. Sure. I can deal with them. I need this job. I have to. Am I okay? I'm okay. Totally not freaking out right now. Just spewing bullshit at the top of my head. Totally fine. Not obsessing over the responses I've said to the previous questions and just wondering whether I'll be hired or not because of what I said. Expected salary? What? What? Why are you asking that!?! I don't know. I have no expectations. I didn't know I was supposed to have one. Did I have that right? To negotiate? My poor mind is about to short circuit and you're asking me if I would be able to deal with people screaming at my face??? Would I ve able to deal with my boss screaming at me? ....sure. sure. I can. I have to. You don't understand. I NEED THIS JOB!!!
Maybe that concept you really need to understand isn't going into your brain, but that's okay.
Maybe there is a big test coming up in a month, and you just know half of the syllabus, heck maybe not even so much, but that's okay.
It's okay to not understand something, not understand yourself, or what's currently happening. Just because something is this way now doesn't mean it'll stay so forever.
Relax a bit, you worrying over that test is not going to help you anyways. Take a deep breath, a warm shower, put on your comfiest clothes, clear up your room, and your study place, and make a to-do list.
Mindlessly cramming for the test, in fears of losing your grade, or the idea people have of you is no good, try to resume your preparation after some refreshment. Sometimes this makes your prep easier. Eat something you feel like, cook for yourself if that makes you better, and listen to soft upbeat music. It's gonna help.
Remember, it's not worth ruining your health(mental and physical) and peace over a test, or someone's opinion on you.
It's okay to feel out of sort sometimes, as long as you know you'll get figure stuff out in some time