#ignore me need to vent

[totallylesbians]

I really wish life had a reset or pause button. Or if it could just give you a hint for what to do next. It would make life a whole lot easier… because I’m lost and struggling and I fucking hate it.

#personal #ignore me #just needed to vent

[sharpbutsoft]

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#anti taylor swift #anti ts #swifties love to act opressed when people make mean spitting memes about their favourite mulimillionaire #trust me i would Love to know nothing about her #but unfortunately none of you know how to tag ur posts #and so despite my best efforts i have seen takes such as #’making fun of taylor swift’s bad lyrics is #ableist against the mentally ill’ #and i personally think that is untrue and silly #but my opinion means nothing because i dont care about taylor swift? #convenient for them i guess #anywhoo ignore me! i just need 2 vent i dont want to argue

[scuderia-hamilton]

i’m happy for Lewis going to Ferrari and that he's leaving a toxic environment and i am so so excited to see him in red, in a team that wants him, but then sometimes i see a sad edit of him leaving and it’s just truly devastating.

how he always said that Mercedes is his family, that it’s the place where he wants to retire from, that he cannot imagine not being a Mercedes driver. he was so loyal, he gave everything he had to that team and somehow, it just still wasn’t good enough. they didn’t listen to him, they excluded him, made him feel unwanted and alienated, didn’t prioritize him at all. it’s been so clear that he wasn’t part of their future plans, which was just heartbreaking.

and when he decided to take back his career and go to a team that clearly appreciates him for all that he’s achieved, they spin this whole narrative around, going completely against him. suddenly everything was an issue and a problem, his age, his attitude, his commitment and determination.

and still, he didn’t say a single bad word about them, always expressing how hard of a decision it was. the hardest he ever had to make. he makes sure they know how grateful he is, how proud he is of their journey and shared history, that he'll miss them tremendously and it just doesn't feel reciprocated at all.

and i can’t imagine how drastically the situation must have worsened for him to decide this over winter break, in such a short period of time. he was always so full of hope regarding the team, no matter how horrible the situation was. something broke his unwavering support and hope.

he built a legacy way bigger than any world champion in the sport, he built a legacy that is bigger than f1. and it still wasn't enough. he felt like he had to leave first, before he got left behind. and that is just gut wrenching. he's the most successful formula 1 driver in history and they just couldn't appreciate him.

Mercedes was his family. until it wasn't.

#formula 1 #f1 #sir lewis hamilton #lewis hamilton #lh44 #mercedes amg f1 #scuderia ferrari #saw a sad edit of him and i needed to vent #i'm starting to like merc less and less but he always loved that team with his whole heart #and for him to leave this way it's just tragic #he deserved so much better #the fact that he had to beg to be listened to makes me genuinely nauseous #and they still ignored him even though he was right #i hope ferrari treats him the way he deserves to be treated

[oniii-fans]

Today I imagined you railing me in the public bathroom because I got you hard while we were out and we both couldn’t wait until we got home 😩

#SIGH. #I need it 😭 #Ignore me please I’m venting 😂

[yesloulou]

#im blogging like i don't have 2.3k today please scroll on and pretend you didn’t see this i just really need to vent a lil #the fact that 800 ppl apparently thought this made sense is so upsetting #max did not ignore carlos on the podium and if he did it would not have been funny #in the cool down room was NOT ​the wrong ferrari charles was fucked by his car which was a shame but carlos podiumed fair and square #max was also not pouting he gave carlos compliments like he would've any fellow racer he respects #finally that man was not down horrendous that day even by lstappen standard #these 'scholarships' are so so bad that they actually made me unblock il-p #she's so normal in comparison #tbd #idk #*

[night-creeps]

I love chilchuck as much as the next guy but why the fuck are so many anime onlys thirsting after him now? Like I don't want to see chilchuck porn I wanna see homoerotic farcille art and the fact that anime onlys are rly destroying the ecosystem of dunmeshi content is annoying

#sorry i just need to be a hater so that i dont vent post about how my life just got fucked up plz ignore me

[kyouka-supremacy]

If we’re talking about sexism in BSD can we talk about Dazai Osamu’s Entrance Exam? (Not the anime adaptation) I really really really hated how Dazai and Kunikida would talk about Sasaki right in front of her like she wasn’t even there?? And just how they generally were with her…Reading that light novel was a genuinely unpleasant experience more times than I’d like to admit solely because of how egregiously gross it was when it came to Sasaki's character and how the guys would treat her. I've never seen anyone talk about it but it's been bugging me for a while now.

(个_个)

I understand how that's all sorts of fucked up. I haven't read the Entrance Exam novel but in my opinion the Sasaki / Kunikida / Dazai anime scenes rub just as wrong. There's really the whole deal of talking in front of women like they were lesser / objects which is plain atrocious. But then again, the bsd novels produced the unfamous Naomi description, so it's really the author giving their worst apparently.

The sexism in bsd is pathologic. Something I've brought up before but that is really explicative to me, Dazai going “The murder must have occurred in the early morning, because that's the only time of the day a woman wouldn't be wearing make-up”. And it's probably silly of me to pick up on such a small thing when wearing make-up is debated within feminist spaces itself, and it's probably something I have personal issues with, but the way in the story it serves the role of an objective hint, something plain and unconfutable, that women are expected to wear make-up at every hour of the day and them not doing so is just absurd and unthinkable… To me it really speaks of how the world of bsd is a world were women are expected to fit a determined ideal that is very distant from reality, and the author really has a very limited understanding of what women are actually like irl.

If we’re talking about sexism in bsd, can we talk about what was up with the Yosano / buisnessman (?) scene in chapter 7? It's been two years since I've watched and read that scene, and I still can't figure out what it's supposed to mean or convey. First, Yosano is shown being tame and overly polite towards someone who was being extremely rude; then, after he hits her and tells her to know her place, she replies “Well, a thousand pardons, sir. Would it be more womanly for me to crush your puny ××××× under my heels, perhaps?”. Now, her reply is somewhat funny, but really, doesn't mean anything. And I'm not talking about the censure. Why is her behaviour so fluctuating and inconsistent? What does womanhood has to do with anything here? Why would she be so polite and then suddenly backtrack? Really, why was she being polite in the first place to someone being so vulgar and disrespectful towards her? Honestly, that doesn't feel Yosano at all. At most it feels like that's supposed to portray how a woman is expected to react in an imaginary and unrealistic world, but that has so little standing potential irl, not even Yosano in this manga could hold the charade for long, and the result ends up looking awkward and nonsensical. Every time I see this scene I'm just like… What is going on here. Not even in a judgemental way, just as in “I seriously can't understand what the author was trying to say with this”, and frankly, I don't think they do know either. It really makes evident their struggle to write female characters, like women were this strange, foreign, very abstract concept that's impossible to crack or relate to. And when the answer is so simple, that you shouldn't write women as an unknown and indecipherable species, but simply as people— it would almost be endearing if it wasn't so detrimental. I won't even get to her “It is an era of equality for men and women” line which, put in the context of this manga, comes off as the most unfunny joke ever. Here, I can see what the author was trying to do alright, nodding to irl Yosano Akiko feminist viewpoints, but making the character Yosano talk in cheap feminist slogans to rival mcu movies ends up doing her a disservice more than anything, and I doubt it would leave the actual Yosano Akiko positively impressed at all.

If we’re talking about sexism in bsd, can we talk about how Kouyou should be the next pm boss, and the fact that the spot is canonly reserved for Chuuya instead is insane and nonsensical and outrageous to the point that even CHUUYA agrees on the fact that she should be the one? You know, Kouyou, the powerful ability user, experienced, senior in hierarchy, who has been shown to be both loyal to the current boss Mori and close to him on a personal level? Compared to Chuuya who never wanted to be the boss in the first place? But he gets to be either way, because the concept of a woman pm boss is just unthinkable. I feel like there's more reasons to cry for that Cannibalism stage play scene than the Flags' voices.

If we’re talking about sexism in bsd, can we talk about Higuchi? Can we talk about Lucy? Bsd offers so many examples of its sexism, we could be here to talk about it for days. At this point I feel like I might come across as someone who loves hating on things, but in reality every time I write a post of this kind it's a desperate prayer to the author: “Prove me wrong! Please, prove me wrong! Write women with layers and agencies! Expand on their virtues and flaws and ambitions! Dedicate narrative arcs to them! Prove me wrong!”

#On one hand I'd say let's try and keep the negativity levels low but on the other you know what? #Actually speaking of this from time to time can be helpful for everyone. #And I truly get how genuinely frustrating it gets ESPECIALLY to see it ignored and not talked about so like. #I've changed my mind in reality we should TALK about this. And if you need to vent about this in my inbox feel free to. #nobuko sasaki #akiko yosano #kōyō ozaki #bsd #bsd negativity #mine #people asks me stuff #If the wording sounds dramatic in some points there's a very simple explanation for that and that is: I like to be dramatic

[finniestoncrane]

also your girl is struggling. i'm putting this under a read more i just need to GET IT OUT and then i'm going to get back to writing because i've managed to get so much done today which is a small win

we got therapy tonight. trying to figure out how to be like "ok so there's this character called the riddler you remember i brought him up before YEAH ok so he's autistic, but also annoying. much like me. so i relate. HOWEVER. he has robots though, like he has consistent relationships. i have crippling self-doubt, anxiety, and a churning feeling in my stomach that no one likes me and i'm better off isolated because at least when i don't speak to anyone i don't have to worry about annoying them or wondering if they like me or comparing my relationship with them to every other relationship they have like a completely and totally normally sane person" without sounding like the MOST pathetic bitch ever and truly encapsulating that sad riddler vibe??

maybe i'll dress properly? i think my batman crocs are not the Mentally Well vibe i'm trying to achieve

or maybe the batman crocs/riddler t-shirt combo is exactly what i need. comfort uniform. strength in the blorbo

#PLEASE DO IGNORE ME i am going through it but in a really pathetic way? #i think the things i worry about are so boring and i worry about them constantly lmao #and i will be deleting this i just needed to OOF vent #finnie shouts into the void

[writing-forever]

Why has everyone decided to make Jax buff???? I want him to be fluffy!!!!

#he’s buny #he needs fluff #eve does dumb stuff #venting ignore me #the amazing digital circus #jax digital circus #jax

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[jankwritten]

yall wanna know how fucked up my anxiety is about some shit

i scroll past a post that's about a topic i don't like. whatever, it's fine. i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't care about. that's normal.

i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't like or care about but the person presenting it is a person of color? i IMMEDIATELY feel immensely guilty and need to "compensate" by "proving" it wasn't because of race by also skipping other random posts, JUST IN CASE someone thinks I'm racist because I didn't want to watch a video on a topic I didn't like or care about, that happened to be presented by a person of color.

this just in on: the police in my brain are loud and i'm scared of them

#this is also because i grew up in a racist area and in that culture and my own ignorance i also Was Kinda Racist #but like in that way where you don't realize it's racism until you're out of it and now feel so ashamed that you forcefully block all #those memories just so you don't ever have to associate yourself with them ever again? #(mind you I was like. 15-16 and closeted and scared scared scared all the time so I acted like the Crowd and that was awful of me to do) #BUT NOW that i've grown and am learning and have taken classes on anthropology and all kinds of stuff I just feel like I notice my own shit #like TENFOLD now #it's my anxiety overthinking thing plus if anybody ever knows I could have done anything SLIGHTLY problematic the world will explode #plus my constant paranoia that someone is always watching me and just Knows that I'm Secretly a Bad Person (even though I don't think I am? #also I feel like I need to clarify that the kind of racism in my town wasn't like. klan shit. it was like very hidden racism? #it was like. kids casually doing black accents and making jokes with racist undertones. the kind of racism where race was always #the butt of the joke instead of an outright HATED thing. and I think that's why it was so hard to unlearn #it's like that thing where in order to stop wanting to kill yourself you have to stop joking about wanting to kill yourself #this has become a vent post accidentally i'm so sorry #this is just. one of my Major anxieties that engulfs me every day because of 1) anxiety 2) potential OCD 3) being a bad person in my past #this is another reason I fucking hate florida #because I just know if I had grown up in my home town in MI I would not have been raised in that environment #and it's my own fucking fault for falling into the crowd like that. #all this to say i traumatized myself and likely some people around me by being A Fucking Idiot when I was a kid #and now adult me is doing everything in their power to not ever be that person ever fucking again #tw vent post #tw racism #tw past racism #but im better now and I know my mistakes and I refuse to make them again #fuck florida for every fucking reason under the sun

[moveddazeddreams]

It's missing something that you can't remember hours today lads

#Getting real for a moment tho (vent ahead) #Not being able to remember things that the system still misses is scary #Like. you miss things because they ment stuff to you #You forgot something that ment something to you #And that's honestly what scares me the most about being part of a system #I think that this can get a bit more attention aswell #Rather than just the “I miss my own body”/“I miss source”/“I need to share my body”/“I dissociate a lot” things. #Which also ofc are part of it and a struggle #But the memory issues?? That's what scares me the most #Anyways #Ignore the tags I was just trying to be silly #Jack harkness posts #Dazeddreams posts #did system #Osdd system #did osdd #plural system #traumagenic system #plural blog

[catholickedd]

the people who say they’re my friends have made it clear i’m not worthy of accomodation

#they’d rather ignore me than accept that i have different needs than a nt #sorry vent

[shellxrls]

i AM GOING TO SHOOT MYSELF

#guys sorry i’m tweaking so hard rn what the fuck #what the fuck omg #leave me alone what did i even do 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ok ignore this i’ll bounce back within 5 minutes i just needed to vent rq #tw vent