#if nobody else believes in me I guess I'll just have to believe in myself

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

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#why does my mother have to be so terribly difficult? the divorce affected her too ofc (it was her idea and her divorce. not mine.) #but she acts like i'm personally attacking her every time i even so much as mention my home state or talk about my dad #in a positive manner for too long. like? she acts like i'm okay with everything that turned out and that i'd just get used to all the #changes and immediately disregard my life before. when that is not the case at all. #nobody's a mind reader but just because i'm not saying anything doesn't mean i don't have feelings about it. it's on her for #expecting something of me she didn't even care to ask how i really feel about it. #she talks a lot about how harmful assumptions about others are but then turns around and assumes i'm peachy keen because i'm not #actively protesting. she takes everything i say and do personally. it's note even fucking funny. #and she says i'm sensitive. i've been a fucking champ about it for the most part bc she's a #pussy ass cheating lying skank who thinks she can gaslight and manipulate me into submitting to her. #i can't believe she fucking gets mad at me for wanting to cook my own separate meal but also expects me to want to know how to drive and #have my whole next 5 to 10 years all planned out. and heaven forbid i move out or even want to live with my dad (/s) #she says i'm so smart and above everyone else my age intellectually but then she treats me like a child!! she regularly insults my #emotional intelligence. i guess because i had to teach myself all that nitty-gritty that she doesn't know better. maybe. but it could be #presumed that when she says i'm soooo smart she's including my emotional maturity. she literally says i'm Smarter Than Her (!!!!) and #and i'll 'do amazing things' but also expects me to want to live with her until i'm thirty!!! #there's nothing wrong with living with your parents but there's no way in hell i'm staying any longer than i have to living with her. #if push comes to shove i have a couple friends i can go live with closer to home. #i literally fucking hate it here. help me. #personal #don't rb ig lol #parents tw #divorce tw #emotional abuse tw #/vent

[stinkbeck]

try to calm down and have a good time but then it’s like shit goes downhill sooo fast if i’m not overthinking everything. like UGH look what my trust has gotten me! god i hate relying on people.

#i just got too TIRED!!!!! i’m stressed and exhausted and i slipped a few times and now i already know my options have narrowed to one. #every time i have to rely on my parents the Worst Case Scenario happens. the thing i’m absolutely trying to avoid at all costs is what they #sabotage me into doing. i’m so fucking tired!!!!! i can’t rest for a second!!!!! god i’m such an idiot #whatever. whatever. how many times have i had to start my life over from scratch? it's not like it's fucking new. #but u know what. that means i'm tossing all my goddamned sketchbooks. photos too. they can come out here + see what's #worth salvaging #you think my life is so temporary it isn't worth anything at all? you come out here and sort it out. #jk i'm gonna just tell them to forget about it all and i'll figure it out on my own. sometimes i guess i ask for help + it's the wrong move #if i just think a little more on my own and say 'nobody else exists so i'll have to make the sacrifices on my own and take the long #arduous route' then it's fine. i knew i shouldn't have asked for help to begin with. i just sometimes want to believe there's someone there #who can help me. i think i just get weak sometimes. i want someone to care when i'm scared and have no knowledge about #what steps i have to take to do something #if i just let myself be scared alone but not fall into a total doom spiral then i can eventually pull myself out by researching #i just need to remember that. everything takes work and sacrifice but it's better than making some kind of deal.

[jawnscoffee]

Sherlock's Wedding Speech

ok so this is a very random onehsot i've head in my head for AGES and it rained today and that means: perfect day to stay inside and write :D

the title says everything (even though i have NO idea if sherlock would actually say sth like this but i just love his best man speech way too much). hope you like it!

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Ladies and gentlemen, family, friends, and...uhm... others. 

When I stood here for the first time, I was babbling something about telegrams that John received, which, in case you forgot, are still not actually telegrams; we just call them telegrams. I still haven't figured out why, by the way. I guess I'll just have to be content with the fact that it's a wedding tradition.  

When I stood here for the first time, I thought telegrams were stupid because I didn't know what it was like to receive telegrams myself. I didn't understand why people would congratulate you on something like a wedding or on finding somebody you want to spend the rest of your life with. I thought it was stupid since a wedding is nobody else's business anyway, and after all, it is very rare that you actually do end up spending the rest of your life with the particular person you married that day.  I didn't understand because I didn't know back then what it felt like to have found someone you knew you would love for the rest of your life and even longer still, no matter what. I didn't understand because I didn't know what it felt like to be loved by this particular person just as much in return. 

When John Watson asked me to marry him, I suddenly did.  

John Watson. My friend, John Watson. My...love. 

When John first broached the subject of getting married, I was confused—even more so when he asked me to be his best man.  I confess that at first, once again, I didn't realise he was asking me. It took me a little longer to understand what he was saying than when he asked me to be his best man and why he, all of a sudden, knelt down in front of me. I couldn't express just a scrap of emotion, which, understandably, unsettled John a bit.  Looking back at it, I think the reason why I couldn't do it was because, just as I didn't expect to be anybody's best man or best friend, I didn't expect anybody to ever kneel down for me. Or, well, propose to me, as I later understood.  

For a very long time, I thought that a wedding was nothing short of a celebration of all that is false, specious, irrational, and sentimental in this ailing and morally compromised world. I considered a wedding to be nothing but honouring the death watch beetle that is the doom of our society and, in time, one feels certain, our entire species. I, unfortunately, stated both of these fairly openly, if anyone has trouble remembering.  

When John knelt down in front of me and asked me to be his husband, though, this mindset died just like my false belief about telegrams, and I finally started to understand. 

John Watson right here is not only my helpmate during my adventures, which I consider to have been ours for a long time, actually. John Watson is not only the bravest, kindest, and wisest human being I have ever had the good fortune of knowing, even though this is, by any means, the case. 

This man, whom I am lucky enough to call my husband from now on, is far more than that.  

John Watson is the person I have never even imagined meeting, since it takes a good bit of luck to meet your special someone. But I did have this luck. Because John Watson is my special someone.

He is the person I will love for the rest of my life and even longer, and he has saved me from so many misfortunes I'm unable to put into words.

He is not only my best friend and the one whom I love most in this world, but also the one who showed me what it's like to be loved in return. He showed me that receiving felicitating telegrams is actually not a stupid thing at all, because sometimes even I cannot believe how lucky I am to have found my very own kind of forever.

He showed me that weddings are not a death watch beetle that is the doom of our society, but rather a promise that I am more than willing to make.  

This time, I cannot congratulate you on your choice of companion, John. I'm still an utterly ridiculous man, redeemed only by the warmth and constancy of your friendship and...love. But, nevertheless, I will happily thank everyone who congratulates me. 

When I say I love this man and will love him until all eternity, it is the truest promise of which I'm capable.

I won't say that I love John more than anybody has ever loved anyone before, since you cannot and should not compare one love to another. However, when I say I love this man, I mean that I love him more than anyone will ever love him and has ever loved him before, and that I have a lifetime ahead to prove that.  

With the bright rings on our ring fingers, I've made an even brighter promise I will never forget to try to fulfil. 

John, when you knelt down, you made me, and this is something I can say for certain, the happiest man on earth.  I wish I could describe it more in detail, but I simply love you more than words can say.  

With the rings on our fingers, you stole the very last piece of my heart, and I'm not afraid to call myself a heartless man any more. 

I don't need legal papers to say that I'm yours and you're mine, because I already am and will always be yours. But if this is the way to celebrate the luck I've got, I'll be more than happy to raise my glass to the man who is not only my love but also my husband from this day on.  

I love you, John Watson, more than everything I've ever loved before. Thank you for making me the happiest I've ever been.    

tagging: @topsyturvy-turtely @a-victorian-girl @lisbeth-kk @peanitbear @just-a-fixed-point-in-time @dw91165 @writingloud @7-percent @blogstandbygoy @johnlockifconvenient @kat987 @mary-johnlocked @meohmycroft @consultingtribble @paulineholmes02 @jameshavinganxiety @lastsociopaths @catlock-holmes @jobooksncoffee (hope that's okay! tbh still don't get when and what people you're supposed to tag...)

#johnlock #bbc sherlock #sherlock #sherlock holmes #sherlock bbc #sherlock fandom #john watson #johnlock fanfiction #sherlock x john #wedding #wedding speech #jawnscoffeewrites

[phoebepheebsphibs]

Using only lyrics from music, convey the dreams of each of your oc’s

You said OC’s, so in addition to the Until I Found bois (which I’m not so sure count as original characters so much as re-envisioned versions of the characters) I’ll also be doing songs for my babies from The Future and a Robot

UIFY

Leon: "But I have a plan... and I will be remembered -- I will be great -- Just wait and see! You'd better wise up, 'cuz I'll rise up! BRING ON ANY CHALLENGE! And someday soon, I swear -- I don't know how or when -- but I promise you, I'll never be invisible again! Someone will notice... me."

‘Phael: "I can't be what you expect of me... and I'm not what I seem... but I would love to know you --! Is it dangerous... to dream??"

DvD: "I will make you proud! I will make you have faith in me. I will prove that the way I used to be is all in the past. I will save the day, and come back here triumphantly! 'Cause I long for that look of surprise when you see your son rising at last! The pride in your eyes when you see your son rising at last!!"

Michael: "Just let me give you the freedom to dream and it'll wake you up, cure your aching, take your walls and start 'em breaking -- now that's a deal that seems worth taking! ...But I guess, I'll leave that up to you."

April: "One normal night, that's all I want, that's all I need from you. One normal house without a mouse to feed a plant or two!”

Karai: "As a child you would wait and watch from far away, but you always knew that you'd be the one that worked while they all played. In youth, you'd lay awake at night and scheme of all the things that you would change, but it was just a dream... Here we are, don't turn away now - we are the warriors that built this town!"

Draxum: “The rule of the land, it's so crucial to obey… Believe in yourself, or you won't be appreciated -- Don’t you overthink it, JUST DO WHAT I SAY!! Lay the politics out before me, whatever it takes to get my glory!”

Big Mama: “Money, money matters most! Money, money I can boast -- Money, money, make a toast to -- Money! Money! Money!” OR "Come live with us in the garden… there’s a room waiting for you… come on, come on, come on! Just let us adore you…”

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TFaaR

Lloyd: “So now I'll sing for you 'til I can't talk! I've been teaching myself to speak for when the music's not enough. I'm gonna be just like you and never stop, mm-mm. But since I'm made from you, do you think I could be someone like you?"

Julia: "And when I find my hope Imma bring it on home!”

Harris: "I don’t know when… I don’t know how… but I know something’s starting right now! Watch and you’ll see, someday I’ll be part of your world!”

Imogen Love: “What good’s a dreamer without a believer? We all just need someone to care! One who might listen and root for our wishes, someone to simply be glad that we’re there — what good’s a hand if nobody needs holding? When everything else falls away… if no one believes her, what good’s a dreamer, anyway?”

Ms. Delilah Emelyn: “One way, or another, I’m gonna find ya -- I’m gonna getchya, getchya, getchya!”

Dr. Alger J: “Can't wait to meet you! So join the animatronic family! We open real soon; try your best to hold onto sanity.”

If you can guess the songs the lyrics are from, you get 10 points

#rottmnt #tfaar #until i found you au #rottmnt until i found you #until i found you #rottmnt leo #rottmnt raph #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt april #mutant april #rottmnt draxum #baron draxum #big mama #rottmnt big mama #rottmnt karai #lloyd the android #julia gonzales #harris smith #imogen love davies #ms delilah emelyn #dr alger j #ocs #my ocs <3 #my ocs my beloved #my original characters #original characters #music #lyrics #tumblr asks

[0w0tsuki]

(Screenshot.The post this is from is three posts below if people need it for reference)

It's always pathetic to me whenever chuds on here try to frame their purity cult No Kink at Pride bullshit as "just thinking it's a little weird UwU"

Like oh you just have a personal squick? That's all it is? Oh I'm sorry! I thought people were drumming up weekly harassment campaigns, sending death threats/suicide bait, and socially murdering trans women over this! I'll be sure to leave you be yourself where you're not making your personal disgust other people's problems!

Get real.

Nobody cares about your personal squick. Nobody's saying "You HAVE to like incest, rape, and ageplay and masturbate to all three at once or else you're a transmisogynist!1!" people are asking to not turn your disgust into violence.

Like guess what? I Do Not Like Incest. Because of how society views any relationship between those perceived as a man and women through oppositional sexism, most of the time when people see a man and a woman together out in public they often come to the conclusion that the only reason they have for doing so is because they are in a romantic relationship. This resulted in me and my sibling often getting mistaken for a couple anytime we went anywhere together before we both came out. One time an old man at a flea market tried to sell us BDSM handcuffs and continued to do so even AFTER we told him we were siblings.

Do I plaster "PRO-INCEST DNI" over my blog? Do I personally go out and harass anyone who posts incest? Do I go into anons to "warn" people of other bloggers being into incest. Do I go about mass reporting people who post about incest? Do I write/spread call-out posts for people who post incest?

FUCK NO

Hell I'll go one step further. I HATE sissy kink. I have personally talked about it in my blog about how I have been personally traumatized by it, how it set back my transition by years, and how I believe it ultimately does more harm than good to trasfem eggs. I have talked about how sissy communities prey on transfem eggs and purposely set up in spaces where transgirls who are discovering themselves the same time they are experiencing puberty and are having a harm time separating their trans awakening from their sexual one frequent and tell them that their trans existence is a sexual one that they should be ashamed and humiliated by. 80% of my notifications on my alternate kink account are cis men with sissy kinks ignoring my DNI. I've called it transmisogyny kink. I reject the notion that cis men with sissy kinks are TMA and there are trans women who I've unfollowed/blocked over this and I know there are trans women who have me blocked about my stance on this.

STILL. I keep all my hostility to myself. I will rant on my own blog about it. If a post trying to lump me in with cissies gets under my ass I will throw it underwater to rant about and keep it to a screenshot with their name cropped outreblog on another rant so it doesn't gain too much traction and leads to any harassment. The MOST confrontational I'll get is going into posts dedicated to discourse about it and arguing with people specifically signing up to argue about it.

You can be anti-something without being an Anti about it. It's called not liking a thing. It's called being a hater. I fucking wish y'all just "thought it was a little weird"

#call-out culture #callout culture #purity culture #transmisogyny

[fullstcp]

"The Sun Will Come Up, The Seasons Will Change" by Nina Nesbitt Sentence Starters

SACRED

"Lately I'm getting too drunk at the same old club."

"I'm living my life on a budget, trying to find love."

"I don't want a lover who I'm only gonna love when I'm wasted."

"I want something sacred. I want something amazing."

"But inside I feel funny, feel dirty, feel out of place."

"It's part of the journey, they tell me, but I just want to escape this."

"I know strangers better than my friends."

"All these people just play pretend."

"There ain't no integrity, no."

THE MOMENTS I'M MISSING

"I met a boy, first time I kissed him, well, it was the last."

"I got afraid when everyone there started moving too fast."

"These are the moments I'm missing."

"These are the moments I never took in when I was just standing there wishing I could grow up and my life would be different."

"I've been so caught in the motion."

"But I had a dream, I had a goal."

"I met somebody who changed my life."

"That fucked me up, so then I had issues with falling in love."

THE BEST YOU HAD

"Does she/he/they ever feel like me?"

"Do you ever talk about us?"

"Is it just the bad times we had?"

"It's been three weeks and I'm going out my mind."

"I've been using bodies just to get me through the night."

"Is it the same high?"

"It's crazy that you're moving on so fast."

"It's okay if I am still the best you had."

"It hurts that you would just leave like that."

"Nobody did it like us."

"Nobody did it like you did."

"I know that we're fucked, but you know my ego is stupid."

"I don't want you, no, nothing more."

"I don't need you."

COLDER

"Used to be vulnerable."

"Used to be dumb."

"I used to give it all."

"Why'd you never trust?"

"Why'd you never love?"

"Whey'd you never let them in?"

"Why'd you hurt them?"

"All they do is fuck my head up."

"Don't you wanna stay?"

"Don't you wanna try?"

"You know you could make it right."

"Don't just give in."

LOYAL TO ME

"We're in and out of love."

"We're vulnerable, but we'll tell you that we're tough."

"Take your heart and turn around while you still can."

"I got somewhere else to be."

"I don't lose my head for nobody."

"If you have to question, 'is he loyal to me?', well then he's probably not and you should probably leave."

"Swears you're the one, but he's not the label type."

"They're not loyal to me."

SOMEBODY SPECIAL

"You could turn this bar into a good time."

"You see the best in me."

"You're making me believe that I'm somebody special."

"I've been losing but lately, you've got me thinking maybe I got potential to be somebody special."

"You would do anything just to make me believe that I'm somebody special."

"I've been lonely way too long."

"I've been loving all the wrong kind."

"I've been falling in your arms feeling like I'm good here for life."

IS IT REALLY ME YOU'RE MISSING

"Is it really me you're missing? Or am I the only one who'll listen?"

"I hope you know just how much it hurts to believe you."

"I should cut this off, but I need you."

"I should help myself, but I can't help myself."

"And if I pick up the phone tonight, will it be pieces by the morning?"

"Am I the only number that you've tried? Or is it just another lonely night?"

"Everybody tells me what I should've done now."

"I only ever tell them when you're letting me down."

"I hope you know just how much I've wanted to leave you."

"There's nobody else that can be you."

"And when you get what you wanted, is that the end of the story?"

"I know you'll never be sorry."

LOVE LETTER

"We started good, crossed our hearts, we made a promise."

"All my friends say you're dishonest."

"You had me questioning what I was worth."

"You said it would be different."

"You couldn't get it together."

"I tried to make it work, gave a million chances."

"I know I can do better."

"You were getting way too comfortable."

EMPIRE

"I haven't played a show in so long."

"People keep asking me where I have gone."

"I started fading quick."

"I guess that I lost my sight."

"I was way too young."

"I guess I'll never learn."

"It's all that I'm thinking about."

"I'm gonna take it for what it's worth."

"Everyone in this game, we lie too much."

"We're doing it for the love."

"I'm not ashamed to say, that I wanna be rich someday."

"I'm gonna show them just what they're worth."

"Gonna build an empire."

"Gonna build a castle in my head and a kingdom from my bed."

CHLOE

"Something about you has changed."

"There's a look in your eyes."

"I know that you found the answer."

"Am I doing it right?"

"I don't think I found the answer."

"We are drifting apart, but I'm still here for you."

THINGS I SAY WHEN YOU SLEEP

"I know I let you down before."

"When I'm sad, my eyes run like streams."

"That's how I know that you're the one for me."

"I think about you on the train."

"Love the way you say my second name."

"It seems, without you, I'm insane."

"Now you're asleep, but I'm gonna say it anyway. I love you."

"You took me to heaven when I had no faith, and showed me love is really like."

LAST DECEMBER

"You were different to anyone I'd ever known."

"When I met you, I felt like I wanted to save you somehow."

"I loved the way you always put me first."

"You gave me your best and I gave you my worst."

"I took it for granted because I couldn't see why you'd let me in just to get hurt."

"Moments stay when people leave."

"Don't think that I don't remember it all now."

"You were the safety blanket I needed most."

"You were so drunk out your mind."

"It's all I remember."

"But that was last December, and this is now."

THE SUN WILL COME UP, THE SEASONS WILL CHANGE

"Crazy that I was stood right here just five years ago, with the heat on my skin and a lover who's now someone I don't know."

"You don't see it when it's happening. Happens over time."

"My life's uncertain and sometimes it's strange."

"One thing I've learned is it won't stay the same."

"Even in the darkness, I'll be okay."

"The sun will come up, the seasons will change."

"Crazy how much my life has changed in just a year."

"There's people I've met, people I've left, and some that didn't make it here."

#rp memes #rp starters #rp prompts #rp lyric meme #lyric prompts #lyric starters #sentence starters #roleplay starters #roleplay prompts #not the old me. 2.0 me. no it's all of meme combined (ask meme) #when there was me and queue (queue)

[fritextramole]

in my dreams, i have a plan

part 1 of a Jenny Humphrey playlist - best heard in order

tracklist and quotes under the cut

Money, Money, Money ~ ABBA

Money, money, money Must be funny In the rich man's world Money, money, money Always sunny In the rich man's world

Ordinary Superstar ~ Rina Sawayama

Girl on the screen lookin' mean I never woulda guessed that we'd be friends Oh, but you don't want to be seen With me

Adult Diversion ~ Alvvays

One more cocktail Is it a good time? Or is it highly inappropriate?

jealousy, jealousy ~ Olivia Rodrigo

All I see is what I should be Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy All I see is what I should be I'm losing it, all I get's, jealousy, jealousy

Cool ~ Soccer Mommy

She’ll treat you like a fucking toy She’ll break your heart and steal your joy, like a criminal

Dreaming of You ~ The Coral

When I’m down and my hands are tied I cannot reach a pen for me to draw the line From this pain I just can’t disguise It’s gonna hurt but I’ll have to say goodbye

Self Esteem ~ The Offspring

Well, I guess I should stick up for myself But I really think it's better this way The more you suffer The more it shows you really care Right? Yeah

Brick by Boring Brick ~ Paramore

Well, you built up a world of magic Because your real life is tragic

Seashore ~ The Regrettes

You're talkin' to me like a child But my words are growin' stronger And my legs keep gettin' longer I'm like nobody else, so you can just go fuck yourself

I'm Free ~ King Tuff

Late at night, the light turns to blue I wonder if you're out there thinking of me too Have you ever thought you might not be what you believe? You might be something different, you might be free

Jigsaw

Killin' parts of myself to fit you Clear as shit I was not the issue If I made you like me, would I even like myself? Pointin' out all my flaws doesn't help Why don't you love me? Don't you love me?

Oh No! ~ MARINA

I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!

You're Gonna Go Far, Kid ~ The Offspring

There's something in your way and now someone is gonna pay And if you can't get what you want, well, it's all because of me

Soap ~ Melanie Martinez

Darling, you're just soaking in it But I know you'll get out the minute You notice all your fingers pruning up

Arms Tonite ~ Mother Mother

I try to escape afterlife I try hard to get back inside your arms alive

Miss Nothing ~ The Pretty Reckless

And as I watch you disappear into the ground My one mistake was that I couldn't let you down So I'll waste my time and I'll burn my mind On miss nothing, miss everything

Supermassive Black Hole ~ Muse

I thought I was a fool for no one Oh baby, I'm a fool for you You're the queen of the superficial And how long before you tell the truth?

Power & Control ~ MARINA

A human vulnerability Doesn't mean that I am weak That I am weak, I am weak I am weak, I am weak, weak Weak, weak, weak, weak

Hotel California ~ Eagles

Mirrors on the ceiling The pink champagne on ice And she said, 'We are all just prisoners here Of our own device"

South Elroy ~ Maya Hawke

Focused on the trouble each nightfall You swallowed bubbles, made me beg for a biteful Give me your hand and moved it inside me Smirk, what a jerk, good and plenty

Make Me Wanna Die ~ The Pretty Reckless

Take me, I'm alive Never was a girl with a wicked mind But everything looks better when the sun goes down

Playing God ~ Paramore

If God's the game that you're playing Well, we must get more acquainted Because it has to be so lonely To be the only one who's holy

Full Control ~ Snail Mail

And in full control I'm not lost Even when it's love Even when it's not Even when it's love Even when it's love Even when it's love Even though it's not

David ~ Noah Gundersen

I try to wash my hands for you every night Lest you find my strangling fingers wrapped around tight

Pity Party ~ Melanie Martinez

Tell me why the hell no one is here Tell me what to do to make it all feel better

Sober II (Melodrama) ~ Lorde

All the glamour and the trauma And the fuckin' melodrama, whoa, whoa

Troublemaker Doppelgänger ~ Lucy Dacus

Was it that girl, that beautiful girl Thirsty for love and eager for attention Was it that girl who taught me about destruction?

#gg #ggplaylists #jenny humphrey #gossip girl #source: senamarais

[vorish-wonderland]

I love your stories! How about Ruggie snatching up a snack he found. Keeping them safe and keeping his belly full! Win win!

Includes: soft/safe vore, unwilling prey

★✦Gotta Look Out For Each Other✦★

☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ

You took a tiny bite out of the gigantic doughnut. There was so much of this thing... you were in awe.

You just hope nobody sees you.

"And what do you think you're doing?" Somebody asked.

Complete fear paralyzed your body.

"That's mine, you know that?" They asked. "So... why are you stealing from me?"

"St...stealing...?" You asked, petrified. "I-I... I was just hungry... I'm s-sorry..."

"Well if you were hungry, you could've just asked. I probably would've shared with you if you just explained yourself."

"Wait... wait, you... y-you don't want to hurt me...?" You nervously asked, as the hyena boy sat down at his desk (the desk you were standing on.)

"Nah, I don't see any reason to. You're hungry, and you gotta do what you gotta do to get food, believe me I understand..." He laid his head down on his desk, looking at you. "Name's Ruggie, by the way. You?"

"Huh? I'm, uh... (Y-Y/N)."

"So how's that doughnut taste, (Y/N)?" Ruggie asked you.

"It's, uh... it's good..." You said.

"Well that's good to know. To be honest I completely understand you, I've had to steal food to eat before... sucks that people punish you just for trying to survive, yeah?"

"...sucks that because of that I have to be scared of people like you."

"Huh?"

"Giant people like you have tried to eat me before... just because I stole their food." You explained.

"Well that sucks. But, luckily for you, I'm not like that." Ruggie smiled.

"...that's nice to know."

Ruggie feels... safe.

He feels like somebody you can trust.

...

And then, there was a knock at his door.

"Ruggie, you in there? You told me you'd do the damn laundry today."

Ruggie looked worried and surprised.

"Ohhhhh no. That's Leona-!" He suddenly stood up.

"Huh? Who's Leona?" You asked.

"No one you want to get involved with." Ruggie said, grabbing you. He frantically looked around, trying to find somewhere to hide you. Then, he realized something. "I've gotta hide you somewhere he can't see you or smell you... and I know the perfect place. I'm sorry about this (Y/N), but, uh..."

Ruggie opened his mouth.

"Wait, what-?"

And then, he stuffed you in there.

"R-Ruggie...?"

Ruggie swallowed you just as Leona oopened the door.

"Ruggie, I thought you said you'd clan the laundry today, and you still haven't. What's up with that?" Leona passive-aggressively asked.

"Don't worry Leona, I'll get it done! I just want some time to myself, ok?"

"...just get it done sometime today, alright? I need my uniform cleaned for tomorrow."

You have to say, you didn't expect to be snuggled up inside of someone today.

"Ruggie, am I... am I going to be ok...?" You asked nervously.

"Eh? Oh, yeah, of course you are, (Y/N)!" Ruggie said, happily rubbing his belly. "Sorry about eating you by the way... that was the only place I could think of to hide ya where Leona couldn't find you."

"Oh, so... y-you did this to... protect me...?" You asked.

"Y'see, Leona's a beastman like me with heavy- and I mean heavy- predator instincts... if I hid you anywhere else, he'd know exactly where you were. So I hid you the one place he wouldn't find ya, in me!"

"Oh. Um... thank you... I guess." You said, resting your head against the squishy wall of Ruggie's stomach.

"It's a win win, you know?" He asked. "You get somewhere safe to hide, and I get to have a nice full belly for a while~" Ruggie contently sighed. "I gotta do the laundry now. You just let me know if you want anything, even if you just want to talk, ok?"

"You aren't letting me out...?"

"Nah, not yet at least... I mean, you don't want anyone else doing this, do ya? You're safer in there right now than out here. I'll let you out later..."

"Um... a-alright, then..."

"I'm gonna do the laundry... you just relax in there, ok?"

"Ok...! I, uh... thanks for keeping me safe, Ruggie." You quietly said.

Ruggie smiled to himself.

"No problem, (Y/N)~"

#i AM a bit of a sucker for stories where the pred eats someone just to keep them safe lol #i hope this is what you wanted! #safe vore #soft vore #twst vore #twisted wonderland vore #gt vore #ruggie bucchi #twisted wonderland x reader #v.ore #v/ore #ruggie bucchi x reader

[mermaidsirennikita]

since we're on the topic former or current mistresses/lovers also get treated weirdly by those readers

Lol dude.

I personally really dislike "Safety Warnings" or whatever, in reviews... Because like, they don't serve the same (important) purposes as TWs/CWs. They often cover things like... oh no, the hero looked at another woman. And exes are always categorized as "OW" (other woman).

Like??? No??????? That lady was just minding her damn business, lol. And the hero is not inherently a bad person for having been with or loved other people before his partner (and heroines aren't either).

I just find the idea that nobody ever mattered ever before the hero/heroine like... it works in the hands of a skillful author. But a lot of skillful author use this fantasy as a way to make up for poor relationship development betweent he leads. "He's never felt this way about anyone else before, all the other women were nothing, just go with it". The harder (better) thing to write and what should be written whether or not the hero has ever loved before... is the believability of the heroine being the only one who matters NOW. The FUTURE.

I mean, Lorraine Heath is an author who showed that it could be done (I mean, Lorraine also just writes without fear 9 times out of 10). In When the Duke Was Wicked (I know lol but it's an amazing book) Lovingdon has a dead wife that he legit loves. And I'll be real--there are many books I adore that have the "my wife is dead but don't worry she sucked" device, and while that doesn't stop me from loving those books... I found Lovingdon being legitimate devastated by the loss of his wife (and daughter) so much more authentic than "well I actually didn't really vibe with her".

I'm honestly more tolerant of "my dead husband sucked", in historicals at least, because it feels more likely. When it's constantly this "MY DEAD WIFE WAS HORRIBLE AND DIDN'T GET ME"... A good author can make me look past it, but I do find it on the misogynistic side. I guess my default is to go "it makes sense that the guy sucked". And it's not that every woman doesn't suck, lol. But I also think it's the sense of the author placating ME as a woman reader, going "don't worry, the other girl didn't even matter". I don't... care if she mattered. In fact, I'd kinda rather she did--it gives the hero added depth.

But I also think that some what all of these reading behaviors swirl around is the idea of projection as a reader versus reading without projection. I don't think there's a wrong way to read, but I do think that when writers are writing with the intent that the reader will project onto a character (usually a woman reader projecting onto a heroine) they tend to sacrifice quality.

I don't put myself in the heroine's perspective. I can tell you right now--even when it's first person, I don't think of myself in any character's place. It's like watching a movie, but I can read their minds (albeit, without any actors in mind because I also don't do that lol). I do not project. And I personally find that this removal makes it easier for me to enjoy stories with moral quandaries and characters acting the way I would not. Morality doesn't really figure as much into your perspective when you're not picturing what YOU would do or how YOU would react.

So yeah. Tbh, I'm not an overly jealous person re: romantic relationships, and I don't think it's ever bothered me, the idea of my partner's exes, etc. But I know that not everyone feels that way, and I do think that if you feel that way and you're a projection reader, you feel reassured by stories where he's NEVER FELT THAT WAY BEFORE and somehow he's so good at everything but he REALLY DIDN'T EVEN GET AROUND THAT MUCH!!! The other women meant NOTHING!!!!!

I do think that there's a habit that has been encouraged by the industry, by RPfic , etc, of just imagining yourself as the character and thinking about what YOU would want, versus what the characters want. And like, you do you, but where I get annoyed is when the industry and writers feel pressured to respond to these desires and do so, churning out low quality work that doesn't offer anything interesting or challenging.

#romance novel blogging #this is also how i feel about the NO CHEATING readers #i mean first off a lot of what they say is cheating is not in fact cheating lmao #second... yeah i know YOU can't get past cheating #but the book is not about YOU. #it is about THE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS

[sophieinwonderland]

Here's an ask that (probably) stands out: Tell us, your followers, about a time where you or someone else from your system rolled a natural 20. (Figuratively speaking.)

Ghost: Soph spent a long time trying to figure out a good answer to this and drew blanks. She did come up with several but they all seemed too boring to her. So I'll snag this one.

And share a picture of my Maleficent!

I don't collect Funko Pops. Never had even the slightest interest in them. But Maleficent here is surprisingly one of my most cherished possessions.

Something you need to know about me is that I don't put myself out there. Ever. I like Reddit because it's safe. Nobody knows who I am there. Nobody even remembers my user name. Even on here, there's a reason I was more than happy just being known as "the host" for the first year of Soph's blog, only settling on Ghost when we decided to have a system blog.

The few times I've tried to dip my toes into something, I get scared and back out.

Being like I am, I don't actually have many accomplishments to speak of.

But I do have this one so I'm going to talk about it.

Some years back, I signed up with a fan website called... um... you know, I can't for the life of me remember what that site was called.

But that doesn't matter. There was a fan website where you could post articles, and I had recently read about The Disney Theory. This theory attempted to link together all Disney movies into a shared universe, using cameos from the various films to tie them together.

Now I grew up in the 2000s, with cartoons like Lilo & Stitch, Kim Possible and American Dragon: Jake Long. All of these shows crossed over, placing them in the same universe. And with Lilo and Stitch, they could be linked to the wider shared Disney Universe.

In American Dragon: Jake Long, there was a character called The Dark Dragon. As you can see here:

The Dark Dragon's color scheme bears a striking resemblance to a classic Disney villain. I'm sure you can guess who.

The Dark Dragon ends up getting a makeover in season 2 with a different color scheme with the purple replaced by dark blue, but the sharp purple spikes on his back get replaced with jutting black spines resembling Maleficent's dragon form.

They clearly wanted the Dark Dragon to retain his Maleficent influence, even if in a different way.

Additionally, Maleficent functions like the dragons in ADJL, having both a normal form and a dragon form.

Working off of these intentional design motifs and their connection through the Disney Theory, I theorized that the two were related somehow.

The theory that I presented was that Maleficent is the half-fairy daughter of the Dark Dragon.

And she likely would have been the World Dragon of her area. A World Dragon is a dragon that presides over a specific country in ADJL. I don't recall if the term "world dragon" is used in the show or if it's just a fan term, but the concept is very much present in the show. It's why Jake isn't just an American dragon, but he's "The American Dragon."

This would further contextualize Maleficent anger at being snubbed from Aurora's birth. World Dragons are supposed to be guardians of the magical. And during this period, humans and magical creatures were closely connected. One would imagine that a World Dragon would be highly respected, making it a severe insult when lesser fairies (who she refers to as "rabble") are invited but Maleficent is snubbed.

The site's staff would select a number of articles every week for their top list, and mine made it!

And then they sent this Maleficent Funko Pop with a letter congratulating me for making it into the top 16.

It may not be a huge accomplishment, but I'm proud of it. And I think it was really cool of them to personalized the Funko Pop to what the article was about.

To someone else, that Maleficent is a $10 toy. But to me, it's a trophy.

Unfortunately, despite common wisdom, things on the internet are not, in fact, forever. I believe the site I posted that theory on no longer exists today. But I still have my Maleficent.

#ghost post

[spookmemepls]

☠ ― 𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑇𝑜𝑦 𝑊𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑀𝑒 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠. (𝑆𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑠 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑜𝑟 𝑣𝑖𝑠𝑢𝑎𝑙 𝑛𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑙 "𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑇𝑜𝑦 𝑊𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑀𝑒".)

"____, you've hardly touched your tea."

"Geez, you're so moody lately."

"It was only a suggestion!"

"There you are..."

"Oh my... A present?"

"...Ah. Are they dead?"

"I don't want anything, thanks."

"Do you want some quiet?"

"We could lie on the floor and watch the star projector."

"What do you get when you boil a clown? ...A laughing stock."

"Oh, don't stop smiling just because I pointed it out."

"Are you just assuming I'd be bad at it?"

"I choose to keep my answer to myself."

"Your cruelty knows no bounds, ____."

"Whatever you want to do with it. It's not mine."

"A little bit of a gothic at heart, are you?"

"I've heard my share of bedtime stories in my day."

"I'd be happy to read to you!"

"It's not too bad. The spiders have been keeping me company at night."

"I have wondered about some of the things you keep up here, though."

"What sort of clothing is it?"

"Do you think some of this was left from whoever lived in the house before you?"

"It's not as though I planned to argue with you."

"I swear... I can't count on anyone to just be civil."

"...I'll just make myself some toast if that's alright."

"Yeah... well I was having trouble sleeping so I'm up early."

"What's wrong with you? Coming into my room and stealing things! You horrible creature!"

"I wanted to know what was going on in your head."

"You're accusing me of being mean when you've stolen from me?"

"Disagreeing with you isn't rude!"

"I already apologized!"

"You're being ridiculous about this!"

"Get rid of it! Get it out of my house!"

"I- I didn't mean--"

"What? You got by without it before."

"You'll figure something out all by yourself."

"I was playing nice. That was my mistake."

"Honestly, can you believe the nerve of him/her/them/it?"

"I shouldn't have expected much sense from a clown anyway."

"Thank you for looking out for me."

"I love you my dear~"

"I guess this is a little awkward for you, isn't it?"

"You spoiled him/her/them/it, you know."

"But hey, you have a new favorite now, right?"

"Even if you hate me, I'm the only one now."

"You're probably going to break me now anyway, right?"

"Ah, we'll have oatmeal then!"

"Oh, it has been a long time since I've made crêpes!"

"You're going to love them, I promise."

"Do be careful with the knife."

"I tried by myself but you know me. Butterfingers."

"You should have told me! I would be happy to help."

"Actually... where did you get this? I don't remember seeing this before."

"You should know I'm feeling very cross with you about this."

"I expect you to do something to make this up to me."

"My head feels empty and my body feels boneless."

"I never get up this early."

"Are you paying attention? You look ready to fall asleep."

"Wait, you're distracting me!"

"Seriously! What did I even do!?"

"B-bull! You didn't break anything else. You only broke something that was for me!"

"____, are you crying?"

"Nobody's ever made something just for me."

"I thought maybe you were going to leave me in here forever."

"You have no purpose. Nobody does."

"Just because you lack any purpose doesn't mean I do too."

"I should have known better than to confide in you."

"Geez... I've just realized I don't really know how to talk to you."

"I really didn't think you'd care about me at all."

"You're just trying to get a rise out of me now."

"Why are you so jealous of me?"

"You make yourself miserable, ____."

"If you don't want to be my friend, just leave me alone."

#rp sentence starters #rp sentence meme #sentence starters #sentence meme #roleplay starters #[ Starters. ] #[ General Starters. ] #[ Mine. ] #[ My Starters. ] #I've gotta do starters from the game my fc is from of course!!!!

[jessource]

LYRIC SENTENCE STARTERS: SABRINA CARPENTER. — emails i can't send fwd edition bonus tracks.

opposite.

“oh, so you do have a type?” “and it's not me.” “oh, so you can reply, just to not me.” “if you wanted brown eyes i could have got contacts.” “so, ya'll are in paris now?” “guess it's public.” “face like that other girl you're in love with.” “you knew i would see that.” “you knew i would notice.” “she looks nothing like me.” “tryna take it as a compliment, it's kinda feeling like the opposite.” “she looks nothing like me, so why do you look so happy?” “now i think i could the cause of it.” “you were holding out to find the opposite.” “and i know now, even if i tried to change that somehow, you'd end up with her anyway.” “does she say nothing so you feel good?” “does she step out of the spotlight so you bathe in it?” “does she get up on top of you more than i would?” “does she just love the picture 'cause you're painting it?” “i care but i don't.” “just wondering when you said i'm beautiful, was i being lied to?”

feather.

“oh, it's like that.” “i'm your dream come true.” “then you pull back when i try to make plans more than two hours in advance.” “i hit 'igonre'.” “no, no, no, no more.” “i finally cut you off.” “i feel so much lighter, like a feather with you off my mind.” “like whatever, you're a waste of time.” “your signals are mixed.” “you act like a bitch.” “you fit every stereotype.” “i feel so much lighter, like a feather with you out of my life.” “it feels so good not caring where you are tonight.” “it feels so good not pretending to like the one you like.”

lonesome.

“if i fall in love with all my problems, will they leave me too?” “well maybe i believed in all your lies, 'cause i believed in you.” “why were you somewhere else when you were next to me?” “i know, you know, it keeps me up.” “did you think about her face with your hands around my waist?” “did you even give a fuck?” “you can't spell lonesome without me.” “there's no hope in misery.” “i can't escape your history.” “tell me i was more than just a decent opportunity.” “or will you tell me anything i wanna hear to control how you're perceived?” “isn't it kind of strange how it all changed when i wasn't the one they wanted you to love.”

things i wish you said.

“baby, sorry i left you in the dark.” “i always reach for your leg over there on your side of the car.” “baby, everything reminds me of you.” “nobody gets my jokes, everyone here thinks i'm fuckin' rude.” “when i saw you cry, i didn't handle it well.” “without you here i don't know what to do with myself.” “i think about these things at night before i fall asleep.” “things i wish you said to me.” “darling, i hope you know it scared me to death.” “the night that your sister said that you got in an accident.” “and god i, i'm watching everything that you do.” “i can't get your songs out of my head, or your hair out of my room.” “i saw you met somebody and i'm jealous as hell.” “i can't even stomach loving somebody else.” “sorry that i pulled the 'it's not you, it's me'.” “one day i'll make sure you get a real apology.” “i'll waste my time.” “i'll waste my life on idiotic things, like things you never said.” “things you'll never say to me.”

#rp prompt #rp lyrics #rp sentence starters #sentence starters #prompts #rp meme #rp lyric starters #rp starters #mymemes. #*

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #103

Today passed by in a bit of a blur.

This is mostly due to the fact that I certainly did not get enough sleep last night. Given the reasons for it, I am not sad about it. But my brain is soupy nonetheless.

J and I went to the good place earlier than usual because a great big breakfast was planned. I signed up to bring bacon, which Br cooked yesterday in the oven (I was pulled in many directions yesterday, so I wouldn't have gotten a chance to do it!). Br made AMAZINGLY CRISPY BACON, oh my goodness!!! And everyone thought it was really good!!! There wasn't any left by the end!!!

The awesome leader of the place talked on a really sad story about some guy from a really long time ago getting terrible punishments for being so kind to everyone that he was upsetting the social order. This guy liked to hang with and to help the rejects and the socially outcast, and I guess a non-trivial number of folks thought he was arrogant and creepy and kinda gross for this (whoof, that's kind of relatable), so although lots of ordinary folks followed him around while he was useful and helping, when push came to shove and the folks in power came around to put an end to him because they didn't like the fact that he was helping the people that they were trying to oppress, most, if not all of his followers turned tail and ran off like cowards. It seems like nobody tried to protect him at all. And uh. Well. The whole notion of "people chilling with me while I'm useful and then fucking right off when the going gets rough" is also, sadly, kinda relatable.

And you know? He was found by the folks in power in the first place because some selfish, short-sighted prick sold him out for a few coins. It's the lamest fucking shit. It is the LAMEST FUCKING SHIT.

Supposedly, they all loved this guy, but if they loved him this much, then why did no one try to take the punishment in his place? I'll never understand it. And you know what else I'll never understand? I'll never understand how seemingly the vast majority of people who hear this story and believe it end up using it to justify hating and oppressing certain kinds of people. People like me, for example. It seems like the vast majority of people who believe in this story REALLY SUPER DESPISE people like me (and they also hate people like the leader of this place I go to! can you imagine it??), for a wide variety of reasons.

…It's complicated. In my world, in order to be "normal", you're supposed to believe in this story in such a way that it denies humans of their humanity and inherent goodness in a variety of respects, and I just… I can't bring myself to do that. Not anymore. The place I go to doesn't teach the story in the "normal" way that I'm used to hearing, though, so although I cannot bring myself to speak most of the words (especially not the weirder ones revolving around being "punished" and whatnot… it sounds too close for comfort to living with an abusive parent and begging for their "mercy"…), I still go, because the leader says the things from a loving, self-and-other-celebrating, and courageous lens rather than the typical self-loathing, humanity-denying, fear-driven lens that is most common where I'm from.

I don't really know how to describe my own relationship to this story. For a very long time, this story has been and continues to be used by others to justify saying and doing all kinds of horrid shit to me and to the people I love, as well as to justify oppressing and even torturing and killing certain groups of people on a mass scale. And this is NEVER acceptable, so needless to say, I tend to view the more ah… enthusiastic… believers of this story with a hefty dose of caution and hesitation; I don't wanna write anyone off, but at the same time, for my own safety, I also don't want to end up getting caught off-guard around people who could potentially think and behave abusively. I am terrified of the kinds of people who wanna see me locked away into some institution to be electroshocked until I'm forced to psychically amputate aspects of my being that hurt no one, and the fact that there is still a non-zero number of people who advocate for these kinds of facilities is VERY alarming. I've already had other aspects of my being beaten out of me, and I've been desperately trying to regrow them.

But in this place, I feel safe. This group that I go see once a week is filled with lots of people like me - "non-standard" folks who would be ostracized, hated, and oppressed by more "traditional" folks. And this place does not teach people to hate themselves or view themselves as dirty, wretched, or shameful; rather, this place teaches people to love themselves and each other as-is, and to use that love in order to be brave enough to do kind and helpful things for others and for oneself, even when those kind and helpful things are difficult or unpopular. This place paints the main character of this story as a bizarre but gentle man who rejects arbitrary social norms in favor of doing that which is kind and good. They paint him as some guy who has a VERY good sense of what he's doing and why, while simultaneously learning as he goes.

Though I have my own take on this story that maybe some folks would be uncomfortable with (my own beliefs system is eclectic, and it weaves elements from various systems, including this one, other traditions, quantum physics, as well as beliefs from more recent fiction and my own realizations together into something that makes sense to me in light of my own perceptions, abilities, and experiences; it's constantly changing as I learn new things, and it'll likely not work for someone else, and that's okay), I do find aspects of this character to be relatable and worthy of emulating in a variety of respects. Being reliably kind to myself and to the people society says I shouldn't be kind to is something I am constantly striving towards.

I think it's important for people to believe in whatever makes them reliably brave enough to be good to all other humans (whatever shape that takes, even if it's a belief in nothing), just as long as whatever that is does not justify the suffering of someone else. And I do mean ALL other humans. Even the ones you don't like spending time with. And even the ones who don't share the same beliefs. I sure as heck don't like spending time with people who think that certain kinds of people don't count as people (sadly, it's popular here to treat non-white, disabled, non-straight, or non-cis-male people as though they are subhuman, for example), but nonetheless, I do understand that dehumanizing beliefs come from being traumatized and conditioned into carrying them as a child (I was raised in this shit), so if I see someone like that in trouble, I'm still going to help them, if I'm able. I wasn't able to do better until I learned better, so I don't belong throwing stones at other people's beautiful glass houses; the only thing for it when people get weird is to wish them well and move on.

Anyhoot. I've probably prattled on long enough. I had other things to say, I think, but I've gone and forgotten them because I am sleep deprived and my brain is soup. Oh well. Maybe I'll remember tomorrow.

Please stay safe out there. Please learn to believe kind, gentle, and loving things about yourself, about the world you live in, and about the people in it. I'll be rooting for you, always.

Your friend, Lumine

#sephiroth #ThankYouFFVIIDevs #ThankYouFF7Devs #ThankYouSephiroth #final fantasy vii #final fantasy 7 #ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy vii crisis core #final fantasy 7 crisis core #final fantasy crisis core #ffvii crisis core #ff7 crisis core #crisis core #ff7r #final fantasy vii remake #final fantasy 7 remake #ffvii remake #ff7 remake #final fantasy vii rebirth #final fantasy 7 rebirth #ffvii rebirth #ff7 rebirth #final fantasy 7 ever crisis #ffvii ever crisis #ff7 ever crisis #ffvii first soldier #easter #beliefs systems #wholesome

[chaos-and-ink]

My fav lyrics from HOPE (NF)

HOPE What's my definition of success? / Creating something no one else can It's a person that can take the failures in their life and turn them into motivation / It's believing in yourself when no one else does If I'd have never hit rock bottom / Would I be the person that I am today? / I don't believe so

MOTTO Yeah, that don't make no sense to you, well, of course / See, one man's inconvenience is another's joy Where it ain't how big you are, it's how big you seem / Where people sacrifice the art tryna chase a dream / Then they wonder why they music's lackin' creativity

CAREFUL We come from the bottom, we still at the bottom

MAMA I look at the situation you had / Might of made the mistake of leavin', but it's makin' me sad / Thinkin' of you how you grew up, tryin' to cope with your past / Were you like me in your relationships and pushed away dad? I gotta know, mama Did you think you were trash? / Somethin' disposable that nobody could love or be glad? / To say they was with you, that issue is a issue I have Nobody's perfect, yeah, I guess we all fall short / And I can't hold this unforgiveness in my heart no more / So just know you're lovable to me and of course / You'll always be mama to us, so save a table for four, and know that

HAPPY Hanging by a thread's how I live / I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem / Go up in flames, acting like I don't Yeah, been this way so long / It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul / And the last to admit I need a hand to hold / Losing hope, headed down a dangerous road / Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm

PANDEMONIUM Keep my enemies at arm's length, but / Close enough to make me feel safe

SUFFICE Just part of the game, yeah, it comes with the territory / It's just another day, man, I'm used to it down pourin' Who cares if underneath I'm hurtin'? / If there's one thing I've learned in / My life, it's that life is uncertain Gettin' burned is unavoidable, isn't it? / Ain't a person alive that hasn't been a victim

GONE Always saw my glass as half empty, it was never full / You were always passive and I was irresponsible

BULLET Look, I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it / You ever need me for any reason, let me know Beautiful is what are you are, I know you doubt it daily Yeah, both got trauma sometimes I see it work against us / Other times I see it bring us close and connect us My lack of encouragement hovers over us both / Still you love me, it's mind blowing

TURN MY BACK I don't need nobody showing me the ropes / I don't need you, tellin' me to do my job

MISTAKE I've got qualities that I'm not proud of / I've made promises that I walked out on / I've had days I feel I don't deserve love No confidence / Struggle with it, that's obvious / But not enough to make me second guess / If I'd die for the ones I love I feel trapped / I might lash out / I gotta watch my back So think what you think, just don't call me a / Mistake

LET EM PRAY I've seen what it can do when I got both of my arms full / But still to continue to pile more on my back though Every step I've ever taken in the wrong direction / Helped me get to where I am today

RUNNING I'm tired / Of holding on to you, it's time to let / My pride / Go and learn to love myself again, yeah I'm done running from you / Spent my whole life in your shadow / Scared of who I'd be if I / Said goodbye and I didn't have you here I love you but not enough to allow you to continue to drown the both of us, you're / Holding me back, you're pulling me down, you're making me hate myself, I / Don't wanna leave, but that's what I need, I ain't got a choice, I can't just / Let you deceive and make me believe that I don't deserve to be loved

#chaos #fav songs #fav lyrics #nf #nf real music #nf music

[ell-vellan]

9 Ship Songs

Rules: List nine songs for one of your ships

Was tagged by @transprincecaspian and @idolsgf which i have been super excited about but haven't had time for until now!

Like both of them, I'm gonna split this up lol. Some El/Bull that I'm sure I've posted before, and gonna debut some of my new Solavellan song inspirations for a fic I've been vaguely plotting!

@thegoblinwitchqueen @meanestmeanie @beastofmoss @thebookworm0001 and anyone else!! (if you'd like to be tagged in things, feel free to shoot me a message and i'll include you too!)

El/Bull

Island by SVRCINA

Almost so perfect The way that I want you I'm almost deserving when I get close to you I disappear Lost in the waves I go under, under I am an island You are the ocean You're so close we're touching, completely surrounded But I cannot have you the way that I want to 'Cause I am an island you are the ocean No, I cannot have you, I cannot have you without drowning 'Cause I am deserted and you are too deep I cannot love you without losing me

Flight Risk by Tommy Lefroy

I wanted to be something You couldn't put down, but, hey It's wearing me out this time I wanted to stay, I tried But you'll never leave me You'll never leave me You'll never leave me You'll never leave me If I'm already gone

DYWTYLM by Sleep Token

And there is something eating me alive, I don't know what it is Maybe not that you conceal your feelings, they just don't exist Do you ever believe That we can turn into different people? It's getting harder to be (myself) Do you wish that you loved me? Could we ever release? Is it better to just not feel? Can we hit delete? Do you wish that you loved me? And it's been so long that I'm forgetting what it feels like But I'd rather not remind myself and leave it all behind And I've tried so hard to fix it all, but nothing seems to help But I cannot hope to give you what I cannot give myself Do you wish that you loved me? (Smile back) Do you wish that you loved me? (At me) Do you wish that you loved me? Oh, whoa Do you wish that you loved me? (Please)

Never Had a Chance by Katherine Li

Why am I still here and waiting for us to happen? 'Cause you'd never want it Everything I loved about you, I probably imagined 'Cause we never had it Stupid of me to think that you could ever be mine I could blame it on the drinks But I'm so sick and tired of lying And I wish I could think of you And not have to still feel Everything you probably don't,

But I still think it's real

Atish'anera and Solas

(basically it's all just Sleep Token's newest album)

Ascensionism by Sleep Token

Well, I know what you want from me You want someone to be Your reflection, your bitter deception Setting you free So you take what you want and leave Who made you like this? Who encrypted your dark gospel in body language? Synapses snap back in blissful anguish Tell me you met me in past lives, past life Past what might be eating me from the inside, darling Half algorithm, half deity Glitches in the code or gaps in a strange dream Tell me you guessed my future and it mapped onto your fantasy Turn me into your mannequin and I'll turn you into my puppet queen

And I know what you want from me You want the same as me My redemption, eternal ascension Setting me free So I'll take what I want then leave You make me wish I could disappear, oh You make me wish I could disappear

The Apparition by Sleep Token

Why are you never real? Whenever you appear You leave me with that grace I am trembling with fear But I know that you will disappear Just as I awake Whisper in my ear Well, I believe Somewhere in the past Something was between You and I, my dear And it remains With me to this day No matter what I do This scar will never fade

Why are you never real? The shifting states you follow me through Unrevealed Just let me go or take me with you

Rain by Sleep Token

For so long, I have waited So long that I almost became Just a stoic statue, fit for nobody And I don't wanna get in your way But I finally think I can say That the vicious cycle was over The moment you smiled at me And just like the rain You cast the dust into nothing And wash out the salt from my hands So touch me again I feel my shadow dissolving Will you cleanse me with pleasure?

I'm coiled up like the venomous serpent Tangled in your trance and I'm certain You have got your hooks in me I know, I know, the way that it goes You get what you give, you reap what you sow And I can see you in my fate And I know, I know, I am what I am The mouth of the wolf, the eyes of the lamb

Take Me Back to Eden by Sleep Token

I guess it goes to show, does it not? That we've no idea what we've got until we lose it And no amount of love will keep it around If we don't choose it And I don't know what's got its teeth in me But I'm about to bite back in anger No amount of self-sought fury Will bring back the glory of innocence My, my, those eyes like fire I'm a winged insect, you're a funeral pyre Come now, bite through these wires I'm a waking hell and the gods grow tired Reset my patient violence along both lines of a pathway higher Grow back your sharpest teeth, you know my desire I have traveled far beyond the path of reason Take me back to Eden

Euclid by Sleep Token

Just run it back, give me five whole minutes I am thick tar on the inside burning I've got a ghost in the hallway grinning And a heavy head that won't stop turning If my fate is a bad collision And if my mind is an open highway Give me the twilight two-way vision Give me one last ride on a sunset sky lane

I play along with the life signs anyway But hope to God you don't know this feeling Yet in reverse, you are all my symmetry A parallel I would lay my life on So if your wings won't find you Heaven I will bring it down like an ancient bygone

Do you remember me When the rain gathers? And do you still believe That nothing else matters? For me It's still the autumn leaves These ancient canopies That we used to lay beneath No, by now The night belongs to you This bough has broken through I must be someone new

In turning divine And we tangle endlessly Like lovers entwined I know for the last time You will not be mine So give me the night, the night, the night

#tag game #9 ship songs

[fettuccinewrites]

I AM HERE to give a fic review nobody asked for but i have no one else to talk about it

I have finished CWM couple hours ago and i've been obsessing over it ever since. Firstly would like to point out that cwm was already in my reading list and when i decided to start reading it after sending you that first ask i kept asking myself "why didn't i read it sooner?" cause i do have a severe case of love square brainrot and i have an unresolved passion with ice skating so why haven't i read that indeed.

Then I got the scene in which Adrien's ed is revealed and it was a big OH THAT'S WHY moment for me. I have been recovering from an ed myself for years and i try to avoid the topic because i dont think i'm there yet yk? ANYWAYS. That did make my reading take a little longer than planned, out of caution really, but nothing i couldn't handle (my therapist will be very proud). On that note, I would like to apologize for needing to skip some of the more in-depth ed related parts, but to also congratulate you on the way you handled the subject. I don't usually feel safe reading these type of stories, but cwm was an exception due to your writing and story telling skills.

MOVING ON cause i feel cringey talking about my ed but you really deserve the praise for this

It really is amazing how well you are able to sell rivals to lovers narrative. dymdc and cwm both had me invested in their rivalry. It didn't feel forced, the progression of the relationship had incredible pacing and the reasons behind were believable. Like, writing this trope is so hard because it's easy to fall in traps of the narrative – not making the rivalry strong enough or making it too strong and having to bullshit a reason to end it – but you do it SO WELL. LIKE. i actually don't have words, I keysmashed three times over this so yeah i guess that's what i have to say.

Something I would also like to point out: the choice of performances. bruh. You matched the characters vibes to the choreographies so well. Like I know nothing about the fem skater from the 2010 phantom of the opera but I can see Lila so clearly in her expressions that makes me want to punch her in the face. The way the snake dance has Kagami's seriousness and precision and Luka's edge and style. *chefs kiss*

Now on the note of Moulin Rouge for Adrienette, i feel like keysmashing is not enough i need to bark. The way the story of the performance is a parallel to their relationship AND andrien's condition. Part of me thought he was going to die. I lost cound how many times I cried while reading this and I wish I could have recorded the way i GASPED when they came in twelfth. Had me shaking and tearing up ngl.

The one thing i did not understand tho was why Marinette kept that Gabriel remade their costumes a secret. Like I get Adrien making his piece with the relationship with his bio father, and deciding not to pursue one with him anymore, but Marinette not telling him felt a little shady for me. Maybe I missed something, but I don't think that shutting that door was up to her. I like the ending for Gabriel and Adrien, but idk maybe i just don't like that Marinette kept it a secret from him.

Alright I think I've said enough for one ask holy shit look at the size of this so i'm gonna stop it here. I think I said everything I wanted to say, but if I remember anything else – and I'm still welcome in here –i'll come back to dump more unrequited opinions.

Thank you so much for sharing your amazing work with us 🧡

omg! thank you!! one thing about me is i LIVE for long comments, particularly about cwm (my forever favorite story) so you are always welcome

i figured the ed parts would be difficult for some people to read, so they are 100% skippable & i’m glad you were able to take advantage of that and still enjoy the story ❤️

i love that you actually went and looked up the performances bc i just feel like it enhances the reading experience so much??? moulin rouge felt like the ONLY choice for them, i am soooo glad the parallels were noticed bc it was very much my intention :)))))

re: costumes… really just needed to wrap up that plot line and didn’t know how else to do it haha. I’d spent far too long on it already, and thought of it as like a parting gift kinda thing? A was done with G so (in my head) she didn’t see a reason to tell him, i guess. 🤷🏻‍♀️

anywayyyyy always happy to talk cwm! or writing! or dymdc! or anything else <3333