#if i had the skill or energy to write

[tepikvinxi]

i keep forgetting this is tumblr and i can just share whatever

Have my silly little Spiritfarer as TF2 mercs idea thingy that sprouted simply because i was fixating on both in the same time frame.. I have my who's what, along with my reasonings and whatever else under the cut :)

warning, this is scatterbrained and i also have Not done my research this is all mostly based off of vibes

My brain said i would be limiting to two spirits per class, so it's not completly even since there's not enough spirits to fill both teams. I could use some of the off ship characters too tho... haven't been on that

Anyways, to start off, we have:

Stella as a Scout/Ms. Pauling. I kinda had is as a tie since she seems to fit both? She runs around doing athletic feats, wears a hat, and is a general nuciance to the public (at times). She can also double jump, Irrefutable Evidence right there! I also have a much easier time imagining Stella as a scout than whaterer pauling does lol. Plus she gets called scout by Bruce, which is something i love. For the Pauling Arguement, she is the playable character in the game, so it feels kinda weird to mix her in with the other spirits (for whatever reason). She also, more so, does a lot of things (which is part of the game mechanic but still) for the others, an obligation a scout wouldn't have to meet. Especially for both teams! Also that. She would be interacting with both teams, so it'd be tough as a member of one to peacfully interact with the other. I'm thinking it'd be a change from one role to the other. Either she starts as a Pauling/admin's asisstant/whatever, and then one way or another transfers to a scout, or she starts as a scout on the battlefield and somehow ranks up out of it. I think i like the second idea better, but oh well. I probably won't ever fully flesh this out anyways.

Daffodil is still just Stella's cat, no change there

Gwen is a Spy. She's the whole spark of this idea lol. I just saw her and was like: spy tf2 vibes fr, and here we are. What can i say, she smokes, she's posh, she looks like she could most definately stab you. 10/10. I say she's still Stella's childhood friend.

Atul is a Soldier. He hops. That's not all but that's the main reason. He's a very boisturous fella, and a loud one too!

Summer is a Sniper. I dunno, maybe it's cuz she's a snake and a plant, spirituality person. It works for me. She could totally snipe someone.

Astrid would be a Heavy. Strong, dependable, intelligent. I feel like the role of a heavy fits her greatly.

Alice as an Engineer. No matter where i put here i felt awkward since how could i put a sweet old hedgehog lady onto a battlefield?? This felt like my best bet lol. If anything, she would work as a support class with a lower requirement for mobility.

Gustav is a Medic. Look at him.

Giovanni just feels like a Demo. He's got that brash, lively attitude and a compulsive behaviour to match.

Bruce would be a Scout. He's shown at a hummingbird, small and gone with a flash. He also has the personality for sure.

Mickey could be a Heavy. Strong and silent (at least in-game). Bruce and Mickey would still be brothers, as they should be.

Beverly would also be a Medic. Is it because she's a bird? Honestly, probably! Her personality also meshes well with the medic class

Buck is a Soldier. Not sure where i pulled this one from but he's a soldier.

Stanley is a Pyro. Childish and a big imagination. Because he's a literal child but still.

Jackie would be a Demo. He's got that loud, sharp, self-hating vibe that only a demoman could contain.

Daria as a Sniper. Isolated, spiritual. Plus she's a flying critter and higher grounds are good for sniping. I don't really know what else she'd be. It seems like the best option since a sniping spot would be out of the way of a loud battle.

Elena would be a great fit for The Administrator lol. I almost forgot about her. My leftover roles on the list didn't seem like they would work for her minimalist personality anyways.

There is no personality changes or whatever. Just basically these characters in the spots of the others.

I have a lot less then i thought i did, but that makes sense lol. I've had ideas for drawing them but not the motivation :/ I'm also unsure if it would be better to give the spirits human designs or just leave them as their respective animals. Who knows if i'll work on this more... I just wanted to get this idea out! I might add more stuff later

Here's some of the sketches i did when i was still playing spiritfarer

Also this picture I sent to my friend while making references because it's just so silly to me???!?? What??? Swag Deer Lady vs French Man

#this is like a little game to me now #what tf2 class is this character? lets find out! #even if the content is nowhere near the same vibe! #its like taking two figurines from different toysets and making them play together #or making lps toys play war #this was also like a couple months ago so i dont remember all of my reasonings #all i know is that i love gwen and she has spy energy #thank you for coming to my ted talk #itd be fun to make this an actual story methinks #if i had the skill or energy to write #oh well #spiritfarer #tf2 #crossover #misc tep

[caterpillarinacave]

sometime's I sit and think about how interesting an AU where the curious cat was after Roman instead could be, but then I remember that Roman would just. not.

#it would require a) listening skills and b) talking to the cat #that man his been in survival mode since he was four you think he's gonna stay in the same room as a creepy cat for more than thirty second #CC: “I can make your life wor- wait where'd he go.” #caterpillars dream sequence doesn't work Roman forgot what he looked like as a child #Young Roman: “Look we can forget all about remnent! It would be safe here-” #Roman: “who are you???" #Young Roman: #Young Roman: just drink the tea #Roman: I don't accept food from strang- #The tree itself giving up at that moment: oh FOR FUCKS- #actually I rotate this au in my head constantly #if I had energy I would write like a forty chapter fic about it #I have actually worked out all the kinks it would be very angsty it would be amazing I would have no idea how to end it

[geolato]

Reading This Is How You Lose The Time War is extremely creepy for me specifically because I just so happen to have two time-traveling ocs named Red and Blue.

#this book is like it came from a future where i actually had the energy and writing skill to write their story. #its terrifyingly close #okay my oc are literally God and A Guy that has time related trauma but!!! #g talks #g reads #g reads tihylttw #ocs*

[beastblade69]

I cannot describe how much I fucking ENVY people who can write a story/dialogue w already existing characters and it won't seem even slightly off the character. LIKE GUYS UR INSANE HOW ARE Y'ALL ABLE TO DO THAT, IT'S SO COOL

#I'm prolly never writing a story of my own tho I can draw but I can't develop an interesting story without clichés #I'm sure I could develop the skill for storytelling but idk man it has to be in you already I guess #every story I've ever written became too boring to me because it was too huge and required too much energy #but if I can't create smth great I don't think I want to create smth at all #and ik great doesn't necessarily mean something huge and flawless #for example Sarah kane's plays weren't long but the stories were always incredible and insane in a good way #in simple words her plays are impressive shocking even. but they don't leave you emotionless #but I don't have a vision like hers that's why her plays were so unique like she fr had her own perception of everything #so I just end up creating a messive huge idea and become overwhelmed by the amount of thinking I have to do #and then I abandon this story #won't hurt to give writing short stories a try tho #ig I will try sometime idk

[topax616]

an idea I'm spittin out there

Transformers AU, ideally an animatic, set to the music of Kill Bill by SZA, where Pharma plots to kill Ratchet and Drift because crazy jealous ex, ya know

And disregard the fact that both Ratchet and Drift are very formidable bots

At the end of the song it can be either pharma succeeds in killing the two of them, or he dies due to some reason and he imagines killing the two of them in his mind's final throes of life

#Writing prompt #transformers #animatic prompt #oohoohoo this idea had been sitting in my head for a whILE and I think it's really cool #unfortunately I have neither the time #skill #or energy to pull off something like this #pharma #drift #ratchet

[bonestrouslingbones]

goddammit all that LV worldbuilding has lead me to creating a scene in my head that now has me wondering if i have to put a plot-important sex scene in what will be a main-storyline arc instead of a fade to black or disconnected easily-skippable oneshot

#theres a point where the guy HAS to get some energy out and the bf is RIGHT THERE ........................... #sigh. a bit ago i made a lil agreement with myself that actual sex stuff wouldn't really be in the main plot outside of allusions #and that anything Real would stay in epilogue fics & oneshots #but now im like. man. there is something here that i can use!!!! but its like im still in the mindset of writing as a young teen!!!! #too scared to make other ppl uncomfortable with MY OWN DAMN STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHEN will my brain catch up that other people finding selfcest weird is a skill issue on THEIR part fucks SAKE!!!!!!!! #laying facedown on the ground . as if thats not the entire reason i made this blog in the first place 😔 #every time i go on atbb and the pinned rules reminds me of a time that is not necessary anymore #im GROWN NOW !!!! I NEED NOT RESTRICT MYSELF ANY LONGER #but my AUDIENCE.................. #ppl said it was refreshing that i had selfcest where everything wasnt about sex and obv it still wont be but that is IN MY BRAIN FOREVER #AUUYHGHGHGHGH SOMEBODY PLEASE GET THIS 14 YEAR OLD OUT OF MY HEAD SO EDGE CAN FINALLY GET DICKED DOWN COME ONNNNNN

[starkslydia]

hotd au but aemma lives so aegon, helaena, aemond and daeron are hers and viserys' children and rhaenyra is still heir because that's what viserys wants and as king he can do whatever the fuck he wants, and otto gets fired for conspiring against the heir and mistreating alicent (so alicent becomes a targ-protected lady) and viserys grants daemon an annulment and agrees to marry rhaenyra to him and she gets to be queen, and laena marries harwin and they have a bunch of dragon-riding babys to rule over harrenhal and driftmark so laenor gets to be free from his duties as lord so he joins the queensguard as rhaenyra's sworn sword and joffrey does too so they can still be together because fuck westerosi laws anyways, and alicent gets to marry someone decent and with otto out of the picture maybe criston is not so bad but he's a nobody so rhaenyra is kind enough to give him a small lordship to make her friend happy and both alicent and laena become her ladies-in-waiting alongside some other cool ladies from the dance and helaena gets betrothed to aemond instead of aegon and aegon gets to get drunk and flirt with ladies without being a creep because here he's raised by caring parents and rhaenyra is actually involved in her sibling's lifes AND

#starkslydia rants #hotd #house of the dragon #hotd au #i could write a 1000000 incoherent words about this #but GOD #i wish i had the brain energy and the actual skills to write fics #and not only word-vomiting thoughts in here #daemyra #laena x harwin #laenor x joffrey #alicole #helmond

[joyridingmp3]

crazy to me to think that my dads birth chart is predominantly fire, my mothers is mostly water, my sister is super earth heavy, and i have a lot of air in mine

#like it just perfectly encapsulates exactly our dynamics #i just narrated this to myself out loud for like half an hour #like we are SOOOO our own archetypes #my dad is super passionate and ambitious and reactive and hot headed. like SOOO fire stereotypical #which is also good for the patriarch of a traditional house #my mother is very emotional and considerate and sensitive and reactive. which works great for the traditional matriarch of the house #my sister is very earthy. she always had a really pleasant environment around her physically. like a tidy well decorated room #into fashion and learning skills that will practically help her or be useful for her #and i was always super analytical and creative and interested in learning and pulling the strings and all of that air sign stuff #always listening to music or writing stories or coming up with ideas etc etc #and it's interesting because both our parents are fire and water which are quite reactive and explosive signs #and they were like always fighting and stuff which is whatever #but then my sister and I were always very level headed and even tempered #plus on top of that she's a taurus rising and I'm a libra rising #so with the venus energy there to contrast my dads aries sun (mars placement) and my mothers scorpio moon (also mars placement) #it was very us like. doing our own things listening to music and learning things together #while the bombs went off in the background behind us and we were just like balancing it out kinda #anyway i love astrology this is so fucking cool #you guys can talk to me abiut astrology any time #mine #this doesn't include my younger 3 sisters who completely turned the dynamics around #but we didn't grow up with them so they're kinda like the family 2.0

[reneesbooks]

a little jarthur for sunday morning

*claws out of my own grave* the students haven't killed me yet. here's the first coherent thing i've written in literal weeks

A rap at Arthur’s window makes him look up from his notes. He see’s Jack’s beaming smile through the crack of the shutters and throws them open, leaning on his elbows on the sill. “You know you’re not supposed to be here.”

“That’s what makes it fun.” Jack’s smile grows impossibly brighter. “It’s the coronation today.”

“I know.”

“Everyone’s invited.”

Arthur raises an eyebrow. “Even street rats and orphans like us?”

“As long as you don’t announce yourself as such.” Jack offers him a hand. “Come with me?”

Arthur glances over his shoulder at his bedroom door. The nuns won’t expect him until dinner; he has plenty of time to get back before they’ll notice he’s gone. He turns back to Jack and takes his hand, smiling back at him. “You’re going to get me in so much trouble.”

“Don’t threaten me with a good time.”

They blend into the crowds streaming towards the castle gates and Arthur cranes his neck to see as much of the gardens as possible as they are herded down the main path by the royal guard. The great hall is even bigger than he’d imagined, the chandeliers sparkling with light that dances across the walls. He and Jack climb the stairs up to the balcony around the perimeter of the room and jostle their way to the front, leaning against the railing. From this point, they can see the nobility snacking on pastries and the priest pacing back and forth on the dais, ordering around altar girls and snapping at servants. Next to the ornately carved wooden throne stands a scowling soldier in a deep purple cloak, his piercing green eyes scanning the crowds continuously.

“That’s Keelan O’Leyne,” Jack whispers to him, bouncing on the balls of his feet. “Have you heard the songs?”

Arthur shrugs. “The nuns have mentioned him once or twice. They don’t seem to be a fan.”

“They wouldn’t be.” Jack strings his fingers through his hair, his eyes taking on an admiring quality that makes Arthur’s chest ache. “He’s dangerous and violent.” He sighs a little dreamily. “He’d probably cut my tongue out within ten minutes of meeting me.”

“It’s weird that you sound like you want him to.”

“Can you blame me?” Jack gestures at him, Arthur rakes his gaze over the knight again, admitting to himself that he is quite handsome. He would be more so without the deep scowl on his face. “Anyway, he’s famous for how he escaped the massacre of his village by slaughtering the twelve thieves that burned it down. He’s been the princess’s sworn shield since. I heard a rumor that he threatened to cut out the tongue of anyone who used her name in his presence.”

Arthur shivers. “No wonder the nuns don’t like him.”

The crowd hushes and the priest begins to chant. The doors at the end of the great hall swing open and Arthur cranes his neck as the princess steps into the room, floating down the aisle in a gown of blue silk. There is a black mourning stripe down the back. Jack whistles loudly and Arthur sees Keelan O’Leyne’s head whip in their direction, green eyes narrow with cold, calculated anger. Arthur hopes he isn’t able to tell which of them whistled and elbows Jack in the side. “You’re going to get your wish about meeting Keelan O’Leyne if you keep that up. It’s inappropriate.”

“I don’t care about the princess’s beauty, though it is great,” Jack says, his eyes still locked on where she’s advancing slowly down the aisle while the priest chants. “O’Leyne can have her. I’m looking at those jewels on her head and around her pretty neck.”

Arthur looks again, focusing on the crown and necklaces that she’s wearing. The necklace is three strands of jewels twisted together—rubies, pearls, and sapphires shaped into perfect spheres resting on her collarbone. The golden crown has been worked into the shape of flowers, the metal nearly blending into the princess’s braided hair. As she reaches the dais and turns to face the crowd, he gets a better view of it. The jeweled flowers glint in the light, more rubies and sapphires and pearls than Arthur has ever seen in his life set into the intricately wrought metal. He remembers from his reading that the crown jewels were made by the first queen of Raedora and placed on her head by her magical students. There were old stories, buried in the backs of his books, that they once served as powerful magical conduits for the moons.

“Long live Queen Maura of Raedora, blessed by rivers and moons!”

The room erupts in cheers and Arthur gets caught up in it, the shouting crowd around him and the carefree grin on Jack’s face. He could stay in this moment forever, the two of them anonymous in the crowd, not a gutter rat and an orphan but just two kids attending the coronation like everyone else.

Jack turns to him with that wide grin and says over the cheers, “I’m going to steal the crown jewels.”

Arthur laughs, perfect and unburdened. “Sure you are, Jack.”

“Oh, I am.” His eyes are full of plans and mirth and more plans. “And you’re going to help me.”

thieves of morbhard taglist (ask to be added <3): @k–havok @theharpywrites @allianaavelinjackson @oh-no-another-idea

#throwing this out there and running away #i have not had time for tubml.hell bc these students be killin me :( #also the antisemitism keeps rearing its ugly head in my inbox and tbh i just don't have the energy for it rn #but!! have some gay idiot thieves in the meantime!! #write #writers on tumblr #writeblr community #original fiction #fantasy novel #thieves #the raedoran cycle #jack #arthur #keelan #maura #rb original #hhhhhhhh they're so stupid i love them so much #keelan and jack's relationship my beloved. they are obsessed with each other in very different ways. #jack is obsessed with keelan in a way that is very homoerotic. keelan is obsessed with jack in a way that is unfortunately very. not. #they do meet face to face a few times. there is usually attempted murder involved. #for jack that's very sexy. keelan just wants him to die already #also fun fact!! jack has many different skills (street rat survival technique) including playing a couple of instruments!! #guess his favorite song ;)

[earl-grey-love]

😳 Let me tell you my feelings for Barbs are next level. I woke up suddenly possessed with inspiration and spent 5 uninterrupted hours writing a 5.3k word fic about him and my s/i before I even had coffee. I didn't even PLAN to write that much. Good grief.

#it's such a great outlet for my passion #he's so beautiful I can't help but write vivid descriptions of him and his personality and little details #I honestly feel kind of embarrassed about it but also I don't because I love without shame #I wish I had the confidence to post my fics but I don't #not that I doubt my writing skills or anything its more because its so personal #god forbid anyone understand why I feel the way I do about him #anyways I got no energy left I poured it all into writing about Barbs #ship: anything for you dear #yes they said that to each other in my fic too you best believe it #also I think thats like 25k words in total Ive written for Barbs now woweee #sunny speaks

[writingfics-passingtime]

Love love love your Bucky x reader platonic fics. We need more platonic/bff Bucky content! Im new to tumblr so still figuring out how requests work 🥺 but if you’re taking requests, would love more platonic bucky fics. Some ideas maybe:

- Bucky joining you on a night out / is protective of you

- Bucky wanting to become friends with you because you remind him of his sister Sarah. When you become good friends, he’s nervous to tell you why he wanted to get to know you.

Thank you, anon !!

I’m currently writing a Bucky drabble and was considering making it romantic but something about Buck is platonic as fuck??? I cannot explain why but the idea of writing romantic Bucky feels so strange.

My prompts technically aren’t open but I’m working on a short series of drabbles (link here) and I love these ideas so may very well incorporate them into the current series! Thank you for the suggestions 😊

#Answered #Thanks anon! #Bucky Barnes has big platonic energy #That being said …… #there’s an upcoming drabble…. #It’s so steamy in my head and I’m trying to hone my writing skills before I tackle it #I have this image of them riding up a snowy mountain on a motorcycle together #In a setting kind of like Iceland ?? #When they get to this sleek modern safe house its the first time in a very long time that they’re alone together #And all of this tension had been building #And suddenly there’s no one around #And it’s like….. what do they do #who makes the move #JJ shut up in the tags

[pens-swords-stuff]

I'm so sorry that last year brought so many challenges for you. Honestly, up until recently I had labelled 2022 as one of the most challenging/dark years in my life (similarly due to family-related and school/career-related things) until some friends made me dwell on our *best memories* of the year and I realized how many good things had actually happened through the year too that just got overshadowed. I love the idea of giving yourself a chance to explore new things and focus more on your many hobbies! I’m sure that will also bring some internal peace of mind when facing any not-so-pleasant challenges that come your way. I wish you all the luck with it, and - though you’re entitled to keep your sketches to yourself - I would love to see any you’re willing to share :)

In response to this ask.

Oh yeah I totally know what you mean! All of the overwhelming and difficult events happened in the last few months of 2022 for me, and so those left a major impression. But so many good things happened in between that and before that, even if it's easily overshadowed by the bad sometimes.

I'm glad that you were able to realize those good moments again and hold onto them!

I'm probably not going to be actively posting many of my sketches on my blog. The internet can be a vast, scary place and I don't think I want even well-intentioned, gentle criticism right now. My interest in drawing is still tenuous, fragile, and something to nurture rather than try to improve by seeking out feedback.

But thank you so much for asking, I really appreciate your willingness! Maybe I'll sneak some future sketches into your DMs since you're nice enough to ask, and I've known you for a long tme!

For now, I've included the first real attempt at drawing something in 10 or so years underneath the read-more. I was surprisingly happy with it and it turned out much better than I thought it would. But for anyone curious enough to click and see it, please keep in mind that I am an absolute beginner 😊

#undine answers stuff #not writing #inkovert #trying to be positive and not engage in negative self talk #despite being happy with the way it turned out #definitely had to tamp down on the urge to be like ITS BAD OKAY #think it's a reflex and a coping skill to ward off criticism #so that last paragraph took me so long to write and rewrite looool #but this is an energy i want to take with me in 2023 as i work on my hobbies #no more negative self deprecating talk to appease the masses! #no one is being appeased anyway! #except my own self-deprecation #in 2023 we are PROUD of our beginner attempts at drawing

[senadimell]

uuuuugggggggh, I really want this fic to be ALREADY finished at the same level of quality that I produced for the opening bit

(which i guess expecting it to be done and easy discredits how much work went into the opening bit but still....it’s so so far from being done and i wish it was already done because i want to find someone who is also in love with this idea and analysis and talk to them about it)

#look it's a crossover so it's going to be doomed to obscurity #and the fact that i'm trying to ape danged sir terry pratchett does not make this any easier #BUT NO ONE ELSE IS GOING TO WRITE THIS IDEA SO GUESS I'M STUCK WITH WRITING IT #i've got about four fics total... #i've only got about four fics total...but only one is conceivably close to completion #and two are frankly above my skill level (this is one of them) #but...i get the feeling that these things are so niche that i am the only one who's gonna properly speak them into existence #(not necessarily niche as in no one will enjoy them but i also zero expect to find someone else writing them the way i want) #if only i had more energy more often to do anything other than army-drag myself once a week to working on any one of them #rose-ten cyborg dystopia thing that combines my favorite fandom-specific tropes has a monster plot #and i've been avoiding it for over a year because i can't bring myself to write this dang next scene #martha character analysis piece is super dang hard because i'm laser focused on every line (i swear i'm gonna have to be a poet or somthng #because i don't think i'm cut out for novel-ing with the amount of scrutiny that each line gets) #and also the martha piece involves Sensitive Subjects and Heavy Things that require respectful research and so. much. thought #susan character study/science-fangirling piece's end is literally in sight but i keep not writing it because i have to do describing #(i hate describing. it's so hard. stupid plot and things that happened are way harder than conversations or thoughts) #and also the remaining scene and ending involves writing about some kinda heavy stuff #then this crossover piece! which combines all of the problems! except i guess objective length #it's supposed to be only 4 chapters max but it's 4 plotted chapters of distilled prose with heavy subject matter and satire #and it needs aforementioned Plot which i don't care much about inventing but really is necessary for the story to work right #people who say fanfiction is easy are wrong actually

[marimbas]

AU where Tawan's betrayal isn't uncovered and at the time Kinn and Porsche meet, Kinn and Tawan are still together and rather happy. (Tawan is still working with Vegas to undermine the main family but it's directed at weakening Korn, and setting up Kinn to be the head of the family before they take over)

So when Porsche saves Kinn, and Korn sees Porsche on CCTV, Korn takes it as an opportunity to spy on Tawan and convinces Kinn to make Porsche a bodyguard.

EP 1 & 2 happen pretty much the same, Porsche is a disaster of a human and Kinn isn't blind, he can see Porsche is attractive but he's got Tawan and is so close to firing Porsche when he jumps in front of the bullet to save Kinn. While Porsche is recovering he gets put on Tankhun's team. Tankhun hates Tawan still and makes a point of dropping hints to Porsche that he shouldn't be trusted.

They still party at Yok's and sneak away to the pier but Kinn doesn't kiss Porsche and if Porsche thinks for a moment that he is going to, he tells himself he's an idiot and tries to get over it.

Porsche gets drugged at the diamond auction but because Tawan is there, Kinn doesn't stay to 'help' him. Arm and Pete help Porsche sober up and they run through the night again to work out what happened. When Kinn comes to see Porsche the next day Porsche makes the mistake of suggesting Tawan had something to do with it and Kinn gets hella mad and punishes Porsche.

Kinn is stressed out and has a fight with Tawan and feels bad when he hears Porsche quit so he goes to apologise.

AnD THEN it gets juicy. Porsche and Kinn get kidnapped and lost in the woods and they get the time to see themselves without real world drama and everything Kinn does Porsche finds cute and everything Porsche does Kinn finds hot. They have their first kiss under the waterfall, Kinn pulls away racked with guilt knowing Tawan is looking for him while he's having feelings for Porsche and wishing they could stay out here forever.

Kinn opens up to Porsche about being heir and the ups and downs of his relationship with Tawan. Porsche apologises for kissing him but Kinn tells him not to be sorry, he kissed him first. They agree to be open with one another but not do it again.

Kinn takes the bullet for Porsche, still with the lingering taste of their goodbye kiss in his mouth. Porsche is dragged back into the family but Tawan senses something has changed so he forces Porsche to work with Vegas and the minor family to keep him away from Kinn.

Kinn gets word that Porsche is getting close with Vegas and thinks Porsche is trying to get back at him for their kisses. He hates Porsche working with Vegas but he can't say anything without it seeming weird to Tawan

Tawan makes sure that Pete gets Kinn to the minor family house just in time for Vegas to kiss Porsche in the bathroom. He hopes it with push them away but nope

They fight, Porsche calls out Kinn for being jealous but being the one with a boyfriend. Kinn is kind of helpless to his feelings and he stops denying it and they get each other off.

They start fucking in secret, all over the place. They feel bad but they can't help themselves.

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Idk how it ends I just like the extra angst of cheating

Tawan probably finds out and instead of confronting Kinn he decides the easier option is to take Porsche out so he kidnaps Chay and takes him hostage. Kinn thinks Vegas is behind it and doesn't listen to Porsche's doubts and they break up.

Kinn's brokenhearted and chainsmoking and Big realises what Porsche means to Kinn and let's him in on the Big and Ken spy club. They work together to expose Tawan, he dies ideally by Kinn actually shooting him this time

#kinnporsche #if i had the skill and energy to write i would but instead i throw up random amounts of words at 1am every now again

[ethereiling]

surely fatigue so bad i can barely stand and my heart rate spiking when im just sitting here is fine. surely. 

#avpswjy #im so tired lmao #this is the second time in like 2 months that ive had to take multiple days off work bc of debilitating fatigue #i dont even know whats wrong with me #ive always assumed its mental health and thats for sure an aspect but idk if something else is going on #and i dont have the time or money to figure it out #but also i cant easily keep working like this and if i cant work i am truly fucked #i just want to be able to live #society if i could make a living off of art or writing rn #but i dont have the skills rn and i dont have the time/energy to build skills or a portfolio #i have to say. got deeply terrified yesterday bc ive never had fatigue so bad #it was almost impossible to drive and thats never happened before #me looking at the fatigue scale like haha that was a 9 or 10 :) nice :))))) #today its like..... 7 or 8 maybe #i really need to be able to sit down at work again but im terrified of asking for that accomodation bc what if i get fired lmao #esp since i dont have any diagnosis that justifies it

[frogathy]

im just waiting until the day i can get married and be a mom what do you mean i have to “go to college” and “have ambitions”

#i do not want to #i do not want it #i do not want to be in the claws of the education system anymore #i want to learna and enjoy intellectual things on my own time #i hate school and i hate the way it works and i hate being there for 8 hours even if i enjoy what im learning i just hate the way #school treats its students and i hate how much is required of you i really really hate it #i hate that i have to write a 20 page thesis and present it in front of the entire school to graduate like BITCH IM PRETTY SURE MY ONLY #CAREER IS GOING TO BE MOTHERHOOD AND IM 100% OKAY WITH THAT AND WANT IT #i dont have ambitions i dont have special subject interests i dont have anything that i want to do in life except have babies🧍🏻‍♀️ #bro i wanna have a family and play piano and thats basically it i am a Simple girl #maybe im just in a mood bc im on my period but these are definitely not new tjouvhts i have Definitely had these before #i would thrive back in the times when women didnt go to school💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀PERHAPS THAT IS A TERRIBLE THING TO SAY BUT #DO U EVER WISH THAT. YOU COULD JUST BE A SIMPLE LADY AND LEARN HOME SKILLS AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ESSAYS AND GPA AND STANDARDIZED TESTS #I DO NOT HAVE SKILLS I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COOK WELL AND THIS BOTHERS ME BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE THE TIME OR EN #ENERGY TO INVEST MYSELF IN THESE THINGS BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS DEPRESSED AND ANXIOUS AND SAD BECAUSE SCHOOL REALLY FUCKS YOU UP MAN #god i hate it here i hate school all the girlies are depressed and this girlie wishes she was not required to be formally educated #froegis meep tag