#if i get mad at her

[sga-owns-my-soul]

i love waking up at 4am crying bc i'm having an existential crisis about my life

#don't mind me #just sobbing over realizing that my longest friendship is basically over #realizing that every single one of my interests has been attacked or belittled by my 'best friend' #realizing that she's insulted every one of my other friends #on top of screwing me over in our job for months #i literally don't know how to bring any of this up without ending our friendship #bc i know her #and i know calling her out for this will cause her to blow up #bc she can do no wrong #and me telling her that's she's being shitty will cause so many issues #and she's my fu king cousin. so i'll basically be cutting myself off from. everyone #if i get mad at her #so yeah no it's fine #my chest and throat hurt #im doing So Bad!!! #anywyas fuck being an adult #im having the worst fucking morning #thank fuck i don't work today oh my god #im so fucking tired #ignore this #personal rambles #don't mind me just being negative and sad at 429am on a monday #not stargate

[overlymetaromantic]

Dungeon Meshi, or as I like to call it, Marcille's-increasingly-difficult-to-ignore-revelations-that-her-endless-devotion-to-Falin-may-in-fact-be-more-rooted-in-lesbianism-than-she-originally-thought

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon spoilers #dunmeshi #dunmeshi spoilers #farcille #marcille donato #falin touden #falin x marcille #let's go lesbians let's gooooooo!!!! #listen I fully respect those who ship farcille starting from their school days it is very good #but I find it FAR funnier to think that Marcille does not realize her feelings are super not-platonic actually until WAY late lmao #let's pretend i can draw #I. genuinely don't know if this needs a mature label or any cws or not. I never draw anything that normally toes that territory lmaoooo #tumblr please don't get mad at me if I tagged this wrong!!! T_T

[inkskinned]

the problem is that being single is seen as the consolidation prize, and not the natural neutral state of being-a-person. at the end of the movie or the book or the poetry, there is a person waiting for you at the altar, and they love you. if the play is a comedy, everyone gets married. the metaphor is about how you are not-whole. the metaphor is about how everyone is going to be happily-ever-after. the metaphor is that romantic love is the most important resource on the planet, not just all-love. all-love is not a thing, that is a disappointment. the treasure is not the friends we made along the way. the treasure is the girl you landed.

the metaphor is that you cannot be alone, that means you are broken. are you getting over someone? that is acceptable, you can be getting over someone, but not for long. you must be single because you would rather not be single. you must be single and looking to not-be-single. you must want to date, eventually.

friendship and community are never seen as being equal-to or even-better than romantic connection. that person is your one! you need to find them. you need to hunt through the sand particles until you can shift out some kind of gem. this is regardless to your own experience of the beach and the sun. you need to be somewhere with someone.

if you are taking this time alone to heal, that is so sad. everyone gives you this little pitying look. the understanding is that you are not actually happier than you were before you were single. it is seen as a sort of pity - oh, you are choosing yourself, making yourself the priority? - that isn't quite right. you must mean that you are making yourself ready for the right person. you are just laying the bed better this time. open up your heart. you'll find them, we promise!

what do you mean you're really-truly genuinely-very happy? you are probably misremembering what it was like to be in a relationship. and besides, once you meet your person, that time will look grey and bland and wasted. your person is the only way for you to see in color. so what if you have taken this time - for the first time in your entire life - to actually-for-real do the fucking work. you can be proud of yourself, sure. but the way we need to know that you got better is that you get a partner. you're healed enough for the next bad part!

people don't choose to be single, they just say they're choosing to be single - they actually mean "nobody wants to date me." it doesn't matter how many people you have gently rejected or how many times you've talked it over carefully in therapy. what matters is that you are single, and by all accounts - that means you are something worth our pity. your successes and life all seem pale in the sunlight. sure, you have done amazing things and finally found your way in life. what matters is that there wasn't a person in the room with you while you did it.

you want to tell them - that's the whole thing. i didn't know how to be alone in the room. i didn't know how to handle the silence. every moment was so sharp, and i kept choosing the wrong way to close the door. i have spent my entire life in the empty well, living in the ricochet of someone else's cruelty. for once i have built myself a ladder. for once everything i taste is all mine, every bite of sunshine and laughter. i have learned how to sleep out in the open with my memories. recently, they have started to purr.

your father rolls his eyes. listen. this isn't about you. i just want a grandchild in my future.

#writeblr #i actually didn't want a girlfriend before nat #and my dad recently said to me - raquel. i don't approve of the promiscuity #1. i am 30. #2. i had casually dated about 4 people over 18 months. #3. i do believe he was just mad that i get more girls than he ever did #i had to look this 60 yr old deacon in the eye and say. okay so i have a girlfriend first of all im just not tellin yall about her #and secondly. #OKAY???? OLD MAN I DONT EVEN LIVE HERE WHAT ARE U GONNA DO ABOUT IT #briefly considered asking nat if i could pretend we were a one night stand kind of a thing

[r0semultiverse]

WHAT HAPPENED TO THE ORIGINAL MARCELINE OF THE WINTER KING'S UNIVERSE!? 😨

Is the implication that Ice King took her out with all of the other oozers or did the oozers end up killing her?? Either way, it seems that this Simon was not coping well with any of what was going on in his life. Living a life of hypocrisy & ruling a false kingdom.

#is the implication that Ice King took her out with all of the other mutated people? #or did the mutated people end up taking her out? #right as he was talking about making an ice Betty as being 'unethical;' but he had ice Marceline hidden away in his castle #there was nothing ethical about the Winter King's methods; though I'm curious about how he learned to cast a spell to project the madness #of the crown specifically onto this universe's PB?? I wanna know more about that & I wonder if a similar method will be how Fionna & Cake's #reality gets saved? Maybe! 👀 #mine #op #marceline abadeer #winter king #marceline the vampire queen #adventure time fionna & cake #adventure time #adventure time fionna and cake #adventure time spoilers #atimers #ice king #ice simon #simon petrikov #fionna and cake

[blucoded]

i hope this reaches its extremely niche target audience

#DO YOU THINK WILLA GETS WAR FLASHBACKS EVERY TIME ENID GETS EVEN SLIGHTLY MAD AT HER…? my gf is mad at me. i hope i die. #THIS IS A REFERENCE TO AN IMESSAGE MEME BTW #my art #wednesday 2022 #wenclair #wednesday addams #enid sinclair #lgbtq #lesbian

[mayasaura]

I don't wanna further hijack that poor poll, but the thing about Harrow's schizophrenia is that it's canon. The author has confirmed it, and shared that it's based on her own experience.

It's a pretty obscure bit of canon, so of course there's no shame in not already knowing, but that's why I'm so obnoxiously persistent about letting people know.

Whatever else is up with Harrow, autism or cptsd or any number of likely headcanons, she is also schizophrenic. I feel like that's too important to be handwaved away as a difference of opinion.

#like of course not everyone knows I'm not the kind of asshole who gets mad about someone not having heard about an unrecorded con panel #not knowing is one thing #erasing or ignoring that aspect of her is something completely different #like yeah she's incredibly relateable in that way #and I know how comforting it can be to project your own dx onto someone and go 'wow shes just like me fr' #but I really feel like doing that re: Harrow's schizophrenia is a huge lost opportunity for growth #and I hate that the takeaway for so many people is 'Harrow is autistic' #and not 'oh cool didn't know autism and schizophrenia had so much overlap in experience' #relate to psychotic people without flinching challenge #anyway. tl;dr: #if you didn't already know then I have the coolest new fun fact about Harrow to share with you!! #if you do already know but have elicted to ignore it then a little bit fuck you actually #but I will ALWAYS assume someone didn't know before assuming they're being a dick #the locked tomb #harrow nonagesimus #harrowhark nonagesimus #harrow the ninth

[mabbbish]

wonderful day to remember ninjago has a canon highschool au

#mad as hell i posted this like two days ago and tumblr ate it then logged me out of my acc???? #lloyd has dyed blue hair inspired by mr snail dood inspired by that one ninjago scriptwriter that said he would btw. if you even care #anyway there are many scenarios buzzing in my noggin about gaps in the movie i’m filling them all with hcs #like i am so sure nya could go into service or social work or law or security because shes a genius when it comes to laws and rights #but she has anger issues and she hates authority so she can’t get a job anywhere #that’s why she loves being a ninja!! #plus her steel cap boots are for stomping on people!!! #hate zane’s characterisation in the movie it’s creepy asf in this he’s just everyone’s favourite lab partner #anyway more hcs in art cominbb soon #ninjago #the lego ninjago movie #tlnm #lego ninjago #lloyd garmadon #ninjago lloyd #ninjago jay #ninjago nya #kai smith #nya smith #ninjago kai #ninjago cole #ninjago zane

[civetside]

im very busy and working on like 7 things at once but here i am still drawing them for my warm ups

#griddlehark #gideon the ninth #the locked tomb #tlt shitposting #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon nav #hope you can read the very tiny text in the phone one #i am LIVING #at first i was gonna have gideon just do that thing that like older brothers do #where they do a finger gun and say LASER I WIN #and then harrow getting mad at her or something #but i figured a nice scissoring joke would be funnier

[opera-ghost]

it's immensely funny to me how andrew lloyd webber read this passage from the book and was like yeah the journey down to the phantom's lair is this really breathtaking magical gondola ride where christine is just captivated by the strange and fantastical beauty of it all (see below)

when in the novel they're both like in a rowboat in the dark with christine scared out of her mind and confused as hell while erik is paddling like he's out for an extreme day of fishing and just staring christine down for the entire duration of the journey without blinking once . like mind you his eyes quite literally GLOW in the DARK and he's just fucking staring into her soul and silently rowing and probably not even breathing like

#AND IT'S SOMEHOW STILL HOT #i always forget that by this point in the book there's no “i am your angel of music / come to me angel of music” like in the musical #like she has no idea who this mf kidnapping her is and when she says “who are you where is the voice” he's just like 🙄 #and when she DOES find out that *he's* the voice and he's been pretending to be an angel sent by her dead father for 3 months #it's when he's just set her down in his sitting room that's filled with a bunch of stupid pretentious flowers #and he's like “don't be afraid you're in no danger” despite the fact that she's been taken FIVE STORIES BENEATH THE OPERA against her will #by the guy who's been manipulating and lying to her through the goddamn walls #ohhhhhhhh and then fans have the audacity to get mad at christine for trying to snatch his mask like THIS MF ABDUCTED HER???? #(still love him though <3) #(his morals are questionable but so is my interest in men😍) #phantom of the opera #poto #poto shitpost

[excali8ur]

It's a shame Raph and April didn't spend more time hanging out in the show tbh. I figure their dynamic would be something like this

#I think their vibe is 'They both have a headache' #art #2012 raph #2012 april #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2012 #Raph #April O'Neil #I do think it's very funny when Casey gets injured or attacked or something and both April and Raph swoop in to save him #They have their hands so full. #But outside of fights and stuff they don't really spend much time interacting #Shakes my fist at the writers. You robbed us of April and Raph friendship and I'm mad about it #(To be fair. April doesn't have that many *extended* interactions with characters that aren't Donnie or Casey. Or her dad I guess) #ANYWAY. At least I can make it happen through the power of Imagination

[cfserkgk]

Young Maomao and Lahan siblings AU where there was no misunderstandings between Fengxian and Lakan in the beginning. They are very similar but they would never admit that themselves.

#I have no idea about the historical accuracies of clothing and the such but I think they look pretty #Maomao reluctantly refers to him as her brother #Of course neither of them would admit that #I think Maomao would get pissed if anyone spoke badly about Lahan (she's the only one allowed to speak badly about him) #And Lahan would be very very mad if he heard anything bad about Maomao (he learnt to be protective from Lakan) #maomao #lahan #kusuriya maomao #kusuriya no hitorigoto #knh #rahan #light novel spoilers #fengxian #lakan #the apothecary diaries #knh spoilers #kusuriya fanart

[homeofwyrm]

Have to try for Alecto now. This Barbie is gonna stab God.

#She's gonna need some work but First try #art #the locked tomb #tlt #Alecto #alecto the first #Definitely need to make her more mad #and more eldritch being than barbie girl #Once I get my vibe for Alecto and Anastasia down it's over for you fuckers #alecto the ninth

[citrussmootee]

i finaallly got to play one of my dream games WEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEE

#alice madne #alice liddell #art #my art #ive been rotting GODDD steam sale has me playing games during break instead of drawing #mb wrist has been a pain too O(-( #alice madness returns fanart #alice liddel fanart #fanart #horror #american mcgee's alice #i took some liberty with her dress. GUILTTYY #i wanted it to be like the caterpillar but more based on her butterflies EUGH im so EUG HHHHHH #the brain rot for this game has been going on for 10 YEARS #getting a hold of the game has been so hard and i couldnt play it before because i was dumb with computers #thank god its back on steam tho WEEEPEEEEEE

[i-wanna-hug]

CHOOSE YOUR CHAMPION

#((sry garrett i'm team marian i can't resist her charming voice & her piercing blue eyes & her perfectly toned arms that look like they c-) #((oh um s-sorry what was i talking about? i think i got distracted...)) #((also would you guys be mad if i said i'm kind of a wasian hawke truther? no evidence to support it just my own delusions <3 LOL)) #garrett hawke #marian hawke #dragon age 2 #dragon age #da2 #my art #((i always forget garrett has a real name cuz whenever i play m!hawke i always name him mike so he'll be m-mi.. mike ha- nvm you get it))

[all-lee24]

Radahn designs + Headcanons

Lands between's biggest horse girl

#Elden ring #I like to think Ranni and Miq were friends because they shared a love of scheming while being cutie patooties #like they had sleepovers together where they would just surf the dark web #meanwhile radahn befriended Malenia by throwing her like a football until she wasn’t scared of him anymore #she’s like ‘radahn my arm fell off but look Miquella made me an arm that’s a sword’ and radahn spent the next 15 years begging #Ranni to make him a sword prosthetic for Leonard #Ranni is like ‘that’s Miquella’s job’ and radahn gets mad and calls her a shitty empyrean #rykard is left alone in the corner and is planning how he wants to get eaten by a snake

[redliferiot]

grian pearl and scott: none of us chose or even truly desired to win, rather, victory was thrust upon us like the cloak of destiny that we all don. victory was unwelcome and in some cases unexpected, it could've been anyone but it was us martyn: i murdered cause i wanted to win and i won cause i wanted to murder

#this is a hyperbole guys b4 u get mad at me #i just think its funny how especially grain and pearl's victories were these big climatic things with a ton of emotional buildup #and especially pearls #whos victory was very much thrust upon her #compared to martyn who literally just lied and betrayed his teammate to win #bc! he wanted to win! #couple that with the hc that c!martyn has at least some idea abt the watchers I think that's pretty interesting lore wise #but who am i to say anythinh abt lore (<- knows nothing about nothing) #being stuck in situations vs murder for murders sake #grian #scott smajor #pearlescentmoon #martyn inthelittlewood #limited life spoilers #innsjotxt #1k #martyn itlw