#idk maybe im just overthinking this

[robinfollies]

some design comcepts for older lily + lewis!!! my latest and greatest headcanon for them is that in the future they get gems and can do magic of their own :33 i just think it’d be neat,,, something to do with their love of magic!!!! 🥺

#im normal about stdwolom. number one fan have been since i was 15 #i need them EXPLODED AND GONE THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME BYE #anyways these designs are still. rather up in the air #definitely need some more refining and all that #but yknow!!! for now theyre pretty good kickoff points 🥺 #lewis’s fit is loosely based off a wizard fit i gave him in a halloween piece from 2022 hehehe!! #I THINK THEY SHOULD GET MAGIC. I THINK THEY SHOULD AS A TREAT #billie helps them learn ofc!!! AND SO DOES STOTLE. THEM AND THEIR THREE WEIRD KIDS OR WHATEVER #i love them so bad. stdwolom….☹️☹️☹️ #dont overthink the gem colours or anything btw. i think theyre just… general ones? question mark? #IDK MAYBE ILL PUT MORE THOUGHT INTO THE SPECIFICS LATER #BUT FOR NOW THEYRE JUST. GENERAL ONES WITH NO SPECIFIC POWERS IN PARTICULAR LMAO #robin’s art #billie bust up #2024 art #bbu billie #bbu lewis #bbu lily #stdwolom #this all started bc i looked at stdwolom and went ‘i think they should be she/her they/them cool hat coded. lewis should get a cool hat’ #then i brain blasted. #whats more cool hat than a wizard and whats more wizard than ACTUAL MAGIC #i like to think im smart sometimes #okay hi update these guys are part of my… oc lore? now so uhhh guess theyre getting the story tag #The Panderity Chapter

[to-hope-against-hope]

Hyuna... A curly haired blonde boy ruined you why are you (presumably) dating another curly haired blonde boy

#alien stage #alnst #alnst luka #alnst hyuna #im squinting so hard actually #dewey isnt even a natural blonde u can see his roots starting to grow out #whys his hair bleached... is it a fashion choice or did hyuna ask #idk maybe im overthinking things but like dewey just looks like a buffer more str8 ver of luka to me??? 😭 #i SWEAR im not saying this just for the hyuna x luka ship to sail......... however #the irony is that i didnt even care for hyuna x luka until this vid came out. thank u vivinos

[aroace-void]

love being demi aro/ace because literally all of my friends knew i had a crush before i did <3 funsies

#aro #demiromantic #ace #asexual #im dumb #im so so so dumb #yes im planning on asking this person out but imma wait a week because they have tech week for theater #and i dont want ti stress them out #maybe im just overthinking with that idk

[strawglicks]

Random animatic cuz i was bored

#toontown #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #toontown firestarter #flint bonpyre #toontown pacesetter #graham payser #firesetter #they have band shirts bc im sick of drawing suits. #i think its part of the reason im sorta burnt out #so im gonna start dripping them out . or altering their suits somehow #also! i wanna make more animatics for other chars #i realized today i have maybe one very old firesetter animatic #so i need more #also i overthink my animatics a lot in many ways #this one is. idk. its just silly. exists for fun #didnt overthink it. it was fun

[synthshenanigans]

Ik Heart literal wise is the actual heart but like what would Mind be? Cos im thinkin it about it an since Heart & Mind are stated to be the halves of the brain, he cant be the brain then?

#or maybe im overthinking that #like im trying to go for literal stuff in some drawings #an like Heart is obvious cos he's the heart like yea #but in the songs Soul mentions many times that they're both the brain [the left brain & right brain] #SO LIKE WHAT IS MIND THEN THE SKULL?? WHAT DO I USE FOR YOU BUDDY??? #shaking Mind like im that little girl from finding nemo with the fish bag #WHAT ARE YOU #heart = the heart. soul = the body. mind = ??? #maybe like hands??? i would say the voice/throat or smth but be born makes it seem like the two of them are voice/voices? #idk man im too dumb for this #maybe eyes?? #i have no idea #“what are you guys?” (oh im the heart) {im the body/self} [idfk man the nose?? an eyeball??? im asking the same question myself] #ig he's just the logic half of the brain #am i stupid? am i missing a lyric or misinterpreting a line? #okay its IS 4am so ya know maybe that's why im like this #idk im dumb #I might delete later cos I feel stupid but I am curious to other ideas/interpretations #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #moss post

[puppyeared]

#UAUHGG im havung oc thoughts. plaguing myBRAIN. i can feel my heartrate spiking holy shit #ok so. i rly wanna touch up presto and shuffles story without scaring myself out of it by overthinking it. esp the implications of #them having animal features and what they would eat. as well as worldbuilding character dynamics setting background characters ugghh. #constantly have to tell myself its just for fun. basically theyre rival magicians who keep their identities secret and fuck it up in #the funniest way possible LMAO. they rent the same apartment and the landlady accidentally gives it to both of them without them knowing #so they end up walking in on each other out of costume and have this weird tension around not revealing each others identities despite thei #borderline malicious rivalry. blackmail may or may not be involved i havent decided yet #they DO consider backing out of tenancy but they decide not to so they can make sure they dont reveal each others identities #thats the idea but its really abstract bc i dont have a direction or writing in mind. they just rattle in my head like spare change #other stuff i have rn is. they both consider each other a copycat and they have the same skill level of magic #but they have different styles and techniques theyre just too focused on outperforming each other to notice #presto likes to make people laugh so they probably include gags and impossible feats. shuffle is more elegant and focuses on #smooth movements and dangerous stunts. i want to make that reflect in their costumes but its hard bc stage magician costumes tend to stick #to suits and capes.. so idk. then maybe side characters like the landlady and other tenants but i havent given em much thought orz #i really should practice with concepts because i have a bad habit of making everything similar to the first try so its frustrating #and i suck at writing characters. but im doing this for fun so im trying not to get hung up on whether its generic or not #yapping #stares at the floor. maybe i should make a carrd for my ocs #oc talk #presto #shuffle

[silenthillbunni]

funny that therapists whose job it is to listen to u are the WORST listeners in society lmaooooooo. they dont hear a single word u say. they genuinely dont care abt what u say at all, they're just gnna take what theyve read in some textbook and apply it on to u. whatever u say you're not a person speaking words, your just a box filled with their judgements and pre constructed notions abt whatever diagnosis theyve assigned to u. therapists and psychiatrists are the most useless and incompetent ppl in society lmao. such a fkn joke it's insane how theyre even allowed to get paid for the shit quality job they perform ._.

#im not even convinced they process or register anything i say #also do they even have an education.....? #i've tried bringing up my depersonalization experiences and they just sit there like blank pages #and look at me like I AM THE WEIRD ONE!!!!!! u have gone to school for it yet i am familiar w more concepts than u?!?!?????? #they dont even know what DEPERSONALIZATION or derealization or any of that is!!!!!!!!! #they just look at me w a bored dead look in their eyes and say yeah u are depressed #i've even been called WEIRD!! by therapists!!!!!!!!!!! #i now know that it was avpd behaviors but when i didnt know and i talked abt it w therapists #they scrunched their eyebrows and got frustrated w me for not just having social anxiety so i could be easy to deal e #and they were like 'uh huh thats strange' ?!?!!???? #that made it SO much harder to talk in therapy bc now i just constantly overthink every single thing i say and wonder if theyre gonna call #me weird. like idk i just rlly... hate therapists. i hate them so much #and psychiatrists? 🤢🤮 they look at u like a lab rat or a statistic or an annoyance #they dont give a single fuck abt u. they arent even competent enough to help u!!! #like idk maybe u have to be rich and buy quality care but every single one of them i have met have been utterly worthless #rndz

[nilefreemans]

I like to send people like recipes or memes or a post about a restaurant that is near them that I'd like they like

it's my way of saying I'm thinking of you!

but man when people are just like "why did you send this?" does it cut a little

#tbd #especially family like idk #im trying so hard lately but nothing is working #depression hitting read hard lately so maybe im overthinking everything #might get a second job just to keep my brain busy and not be so goddamn lonely #depression #sorry if anyone reads this

[scripturiends]

OHHHHH the mirror shot in this scene between joy and jerome is actually soo excellent i love a good intentional mirror shot because obviously this is a divisive moment for joy right like she has seriously fallen for jerome already but mara is determined to embarrass him so joy is at a crossroads whether to follow her heart or be a good friend. whereas for jerome, with his body almost fully turned away from the mirror, who is earnestly baring his soul, completely vulnerable and honest about his love for joy, noticing that she’s feeling down and determined to make her feel better. it’s like.. the world of difference between keeping a secret that’s eating you up inside on joy’s end and feeling so comfortable and so sure about the person on the other end that you can fully be yourself for jerome. same mirror, two completely different meanings.

i know this scene is so simple but it fits so well within the context of where these two characters stand emotionally because this is essentially the calm before the storm. after this scene jerome is going to learn the truth and there’s a shift in their relationship. both of them are going to be shattered by the end of this play. and it’s because jerome finds out what joy has been so desperate to keep hidden from him, and joy realizes she’s taken for granted all the vulnerability and honesty jerome offered to her only.

so to use these tools! the vanity for a play of all things! to create subtext… in a one-minute b-plot scene!!!! im foaming at the mouth actually. with this scene as well as the first time jerome asks joy out, why do i feel like the director and the editors approached their scenes with such care? like i don’t know just the framing and the actors’ blocking and everything.. is chef’s kiss

#or idk maybe im just overthinking and placing meaning where there isn’t one #but it feels intentional! #and so did that scene where he asks her out on the staircase #BFFR IT LOOKED LIKE A PROPOSAL #in which i am jeroy trash once again #im a sucker for camerawork like this #AND AS A SIDEBAR #i also feel like i explained it poorly #but i watched this video essay for 헤어질 결심 #where they explain the significance of the blocking and the focus and the camerawork #in the interrogation scenes between tang wei and park haeil #AND IT WORKS EXACTLY LIKE THIS BUT IN A BABY WAY #in a baby nickelodeon way #house of anubis #hoa #jerome clarke #joy mercer #jeroy #otp: being with you made me happy in ways they don’t even have names for #mine

[deus-ex-mona]

i hope they fight (can’t read past this point)

#l e m m e i n n n n n n n n n n #never thought that i’d ever find something in common with mr face reveal but here we are (dude’s a retail pharmacy cashier. poor guy :() #i need to know if the pharmacy manages to survive the encounter #i hope he calls out her bs and enforces the ‘1 lxl gummy per person’ rule to extremes #this is unfair i can’t even skip ahead to the ch 3 previews bc this site doesn’t even have them yet auaaaaaaa #but hm. looking at this and the calendar… plus chizuutan’s planner from doutan kyohi… this encounter takes place on 1 august #july and august are the only 2 consecutive months of 31 days after all. sooooooooo #so ig it’d put the nonfan release somewhere in july… hmmmmmmmmmm #which would kinda make sense i think… in the nonfan novel hiyo’s contract was supposed to end in august… right? i can’t rem lol #hmmmmmmmmmmmm. but that’d only be the case if the chizuutan mvs complement the [redacted] anime/kawaikute gomen manga timelines… #i hope we get to see her pov of the hiyo makeover for the nagisa visit lmao #but then again. maybe lxl have had 2 separate gummy collabs and im just overthinking it. #idk why am i wasting my precious lunch break thinking about lxl and chizuutan anyway i’ve had enough of them ausuxyshxhshhshajsjshshs #chizuutan chizpost

[clonehub]

I think I would like a narrative about clones that is not "we've finally realized the truth about ourselves....our purpose is to fight!!"

#ch posts #please just get me a guy (who isnt cut) who just fucks off and doesnt deal w the empire or the rebellion #and isnt coded as shitty for it #idk like. ig bc im in my own head w my OCs like #all this ''we have a greater purpose than being canon fodder'' and then some of them CHOOSE to be canon fodder for the underdog this #time like HUH #maybe im overthinking it #disney should put me in charge of clone content

[faunandfloraas]

Hmmm, online pal and I exchanged addresses to send Christmas cards but hilariously have both yet to send one, but do you think it'd be weird or too much if I sent a present for them and their sister as well 🤔

#for context their sister has been getting chemo for a brain tumor and even tho the sister and i have never interacted #ive been following the homie for years so have constsntly read and seen pictures of the both of them #and have been told their sister loves the pics i post of my pets n stuff #so i thought well since i accidentally took this long maybe i can send a koala soft toy and a couple other lil australiana things i got #pretty sketch book with a print from a cool indigenous artist to send my pal bc theyre an artist too #like we just said cards but i thought since shit has been rough maybe a lil care package would be a nice surprise #im probably overthinking this like most people would probably like getting free gift from random on other side of the planet lmao #i mean i sure wouldnt mind but idk #😮‍💨

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

One of the most frustrating things about being queer and living and growing up in a country that's not very accepting of queer people is that at some point you have to make a choice between trying to leave your country and living in one that's more accepting of you, and where you have more rights, and more of a chance of being able to openly be yourself, or stay home, the place that has your favourite food that you've loved since you were young that you can't find elsewhere, and the place where all your memories lay, and the only place you can visit your relatives that have passed and meet your friends who want to stay. I know there's ways to meet people from your home country living in other countries, but it's not really the same. I can talk to them in my native language, and we can participate in our shared culture, but I will still be walking streets foreign to me. And so I must choose whether to stay or to go elsewhere. I have to choose between acceptance and home. And I once thought that acceptance was the clear, easy winner, but now that I'm away from home, I can't even begin to describe how many things I miss about home

#and i know that maybe eventually the other place i live will start feeling like home but no matter how much time passes; #it will never be home in the same way as the home i grew up in #sorry im just really unsure of what to do. I've moved out of my home country but i find myself really missing home lately #i wish home was more accepting so I'd feel more comfortable staying there #maybe I'd still move eventually but i wish i could make that decision based on more than just wanting to feel accepted #because i think maybe i might've moved away before i was fully ready. and now I'm in a dilemma on what to do #or maybe its because its 1am and im overthinking things. idk. i just wish i could have both yknow #i hate that i cant have both #personal post

[oscill4te]

"ethical killing" sounds like an oxymoron to me idk why

#will ponder on this #my brain just saw this term and went “??????” #txt #i dont think humans always have to be ethical we should just admit we do fucked up things sometimes idk.. like killing in this instance #although humans are the only creatures who even care about ethics. ethics are a “social construct” right? #anywho im gonna overthink and ponder for a while this fine morning #theres only a few instances where i see killing as ethical as in the good outweighs the bad but idk if i should list them #like would killing an abuser who brings only terror to the people around them be ethical? or #im talking like very very violently and sxually abusive. like an absolutely dangerous person. is it ethical? #anyway this whole thing was just in reference to killing animals for food and here i am overthinking #i guess ethical killing would mean no pain. at all. but is it ethical if the creature didn't consent to die and we inflict it anyway?e #like no matter how kindly we kill or how mucy the good outweighs the bad; is it “ethical”.. #anyway i still think sxual abusers should die yet i scoff at killing animals if we dont need to for survival #maybe something is wrong w me for these opinions idk lol yet. i still hold them #im willing to admit im maybe a bit of loon idc tho. even if “ethical killing” of animals is a thing we are so far removed from it nowadays #templin grandin tried her best to make the slaughter process less stressful but i don't know if its enough

[purinfelix]

don't know if any other writers have this issue but i feel like i'm becoming so aware of my own writing habits to the point i feel so repetitive ??? 😭 just the way i write and the phrases i constantly use if that makes sense like i notice i like to use anaphora a lot (dw i had to google the word for it) and also start my fics with dialogue ...

#pls tell me other ppl have this problem too ... #also i hope it doesn't make my writing boring for readers either #IDK maybe im just an overthinker y'all. #fanfic #purinfelix #jet rambles 𖦹

[silenthillbunni]

sure i want friends but like only in theory not in practice ._.

#i think i have a longing for friends #but actually maintaining a friendship is smth v hard for me #like the girl from highschool i've seen a few times messaged me and asked if i wnna hang out at the library tmrw #and im like.... 😃😃 not rlly boo!! #but ig it's partially bc i dont have a buss pass rn so i'd have to walk for 1-2hrs there... #nd also i think that if i had friends i was compatiable w in my true state it'd be different #this girl is nice nd i like her but i just dont feel that *connection* w her #maybe the reason i dont rlly have friends is bc im not chill like who overthinks abt these things??? #in my defense im disordered so im just not normal #anyway yeah she asked but idk what to say bc i dont feel like it rn. if i did have a buss pass i'd do it anyway but to walk all the way? :( #idk what to say nd it's midnight so i have to reply soon lmao #it would be nice to sit at the library nd read w her doing her assignments but im not feeling great :(