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mazeinthemiroh · 1 year

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seo changbin boyfriend headcanons

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this soft boy, oh gosh here we go...

he makes my heart skip a beat so this gonna be fun

changbin. the man, the myth, the legend

he's an amazing guy, what can i say? respectful, loyal, genuine... god it's so hard not to fall in love with him

idk as a boyfriend he is just the sweetest guy you could ever ask for. he technically acts the same way with you if he was just besties. the main difference is, once he's your boyfriend he tones up the affection to 100%. no holding back anymore

this man is SO TOUCHY

physical affection is totally his thing. he finds himself just wanting to touch you or hold your hand or anything like that because he just needs that contact

he's not ashamed of any pda. he doesn't care who's watching: he's kissing and cuddling and squishing your cheeks no matter who is watching! he's cute like that

even if the other members were to make fun of him for being a massive softie with you, he literally couldn't care less

"you're just jealous that i'm in a happy relationship"

he's so petty lmaooo

btw i mentioned cuddling... yeah there's gonna be a lot of that

changbin works out a lot. he's got a lot of muscle on him, so his chest and arms proved to be a perfect pillow give me one chance changbin ONE CHANCE IM BEGGING so it only makes sense to snuggle into his perfect body and enjoy having his arms wrapped around you

he likes doing spontaneous things with you. it's always a fun time around him. you're always getting up to some sort of mischief

also loves spoiling you omg

he doesn't make a big deal out of it but damn he buys you so many quality gifts because apparently he can't help it??

will talk to you about anything. usually when he speaks to you it's very casual and general chat. he's very comfortable talking about anything with you. if you want to talk about anything important or personal, he's very attentive and provides you with any support you need

for him, he's a very open person, especially if he has his trust in you. there are not a lot of things he would keep from you. how he views it is: he wouldn't date you if he didn't trust you. and with that, he can know in his heart that he can be vulnerable with you if needed because the mutual love and trust is there

likes to spend his nights just relaxing and unwinding from his busy day at work. there are occasions, of course, when he will stay late at night in the studio or bring some work back to do at home. he tries to make time for you but there are some things he can't help. he appreciates how supportive you are of his career, either way. and he always makes sure how much he loves you for being so kind to him as his partner

above all, he wants to be a source of comfort to you. and he sure does a good job at it

dates with him would include:

gym dates - i mean this goes without saying but if you MUST be told again, changbin loves/lives in the gym. he would love for you to share that part of his life, even if you aren't particularly keen on working out. he also proves to be a very good personal trainer so there's a plus! working to improve himself with you makes going to the gym even more of a joy for him. he would appreciate you joining him a lot and finds it all the more fun to workout with you

food date - a bit of a contradiction, i know. changbin not only loves food but also likes to taste and try different types of food. he loves going to different places in the city to try street food or other snacks that he wouldn't usually get by himself. makes for a fun experience with you <3

late night walks - changbin loves the outside but especially at nightime. he also thinks it's romantic going out for a walk in the dark with the city lights lighting the way. it's a good opportunity to have deeper talks with you as well as check out any nightlife

overall, he's the sweetest guy you'll ever meet

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usagihoppu · 1 year

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0, 11?

0. Height!

I am about 5' 8". Or 172cm

11. Best friend

Okay I'm not gonna do the obvious and say my partner cause that's well

Duh lol

But my best friend friend.

I don't wanna give too much about myself away so I'm gonna keep some stuff private but. Here's the lil core memories you've unlocked in my brain.

I had a best friend in college. We fell out after graduation but were inseparable the entire time we went. We were roommates and he and I came from the same high school. Well, he starts dating this girl one day. Cute, short, sassy, sweet, and curly curly dirty blonde hair. She's an artist and is actually studying graphic design and is a genuinely amazing painter/person.

She and I ALSO become inseparable. We spend nights with my roommate aka her bf and the three of us game and drink and laugh until like 3 am every night we can.

Well. Soon the bf's major (same as mine) gets in the way so he starts meeting us up after work or his classes so she and I basically spend tons of days a week chilling in a cafe or studio or practice room talking and doing whatever to kill time. So it kinda turns into either she and I wait on him or he and she wait on me.

And one night while we wait we, being young bright eyed 20-somethings get existential and talk about being curious about this or that sexuality wise. It's like 2 am and ended up learning the roommate bf had passed out back at the room. So, the three of us share everything together so we know porn preference and interests, some in a vague level and most on an "omfg look at this" sharing level, and she mentions curiousity towards women. She says she has basically moved to only watching WLW stuff. But is very much still attracted to men too. I of course say you like what you like and labels can come later but if what's you want then you should let you be happy. No guilt. And of course not taking my own advice, I mention my whole sexuality gender curious mess as best as I could understand it at the time and we both kinda just ...clicked. Neither of us actually came out until a literal decade later but that night things kinda settled into a "yup they're mine for life and if anyone hurts them they die" kinda relationship.

Well

Bf became ex bf surprisingly out of nowhere. I knew this guy better than myself but I get a call at like 2pm from BFF out of NO WHERE. And she never calls me out the blue. I answer it and am just told in a very shakey voice "(pet name) can you come over? I need to talk"

And I know nothing about what's just gone down until she opens the door and falls into me crying "x broke up with me" and then my whole day and night from then on is just caring for her. Ice cream, movies, etc. I take one moment to step out when her mom and dad come home to get us food and also drinks. Vodka and lemonade cause...college duh. And I stop by my room to get some of my stuff and I cross paths with X. And we kinda chat and just goes "so. I broke up with BFF."

"Yeah I heard. You doing okay? Shes kinda..."

"I'm as alright as I can be. Imma head home for the weekend to kinda breathe but yeah. I'm okay and from how you're asking, no I have no problem with you helping her and kinda expected you to. She needs you more than I need you right now. I live with you, we can get drunk later in the week and talk stuff. I'll see you Monday "

So I do just that. Get us drinks, we throw on bond movies, sing songs, share stories, hug, snug under the blanket never ever slightly watching the movies, etc and just all around I let her vent, distract her, do whatever I can to help.

And just from that point on we just...idk. Soul linked I guess lol

She describes is as having told her husband "I believe in friend-soul mates and that's her(me) and (other friend)."

There lol that's my best friend and I love her and will til I die.

#wlw #lgbtq #sapphic #wlw community #ask box #ask me

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dana-chan-the-control-brain · 3 years

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Happy new year everyone 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

I know 2020 has been hard for everyone.

And I want everyone to know, suffering isn't a contest and we all suffer in different ways. But I feel I should give my year in Review. Just some things that happened to me personally.

This was an intense, and long and spiritual and emotional journey for me...

I really discovered what it meant to have community, family and what my life means to me.

But I feel I need to get this in writing cause I can remember the year with vivid detail and I will probably forget if I don't get it down.

Do I have to share this publically online to my tumblr account for a bunch of strangers to see? not really.

Do I want to?

Yes. I think so. Just from how so many people on tumblr and real life have touched me.

This is kinda long and no one needs to read this.

(idk how to do a readmore on mobile. But this is where I would add it later. No one needs to read if they don't want to.)

January/February: (and some background on the last five years of my life cause.....well. it's important.)

As people knew, I got way into Invader Zim last summer. I spent most of my waking life working a dead end job at a grocery store. I lived a sad lonely life, going straight home to a single dark studio apartment. With not many material possessions outside of games, my laptop and my tablet to my name. Half of my material loves, such as home furnishings and books were still in boxes from when I moved in. In case I ever had to move again, or get some "big screenshot or copywriter" job in the city.

....

I lived in that city in the same dead end job and apartment for five years.

No friends. No social life. I often refused to make doctor appointments or attempt to establish myself in that city. I didn't even talk to anyone in my workplace.

Work. Go online. Go to sleep.

I lived like that for five years.

I thought it was good.

Even my therapist thought I was doing well.

When I really wasn't. My main character flaw I struggle with is motivation.

I can talk to someone about very detailed plans I have to fix a problem... But I tend to never follow through.

Just because I can describe in detail how to fix my personal problems, it doesn't mean I will do it.

(I have gotten better at this but it's a major struggle)

I might have been a Zombie during the day...

But by night I was pouring my soul into my AU and my analysis.

After being so thoughly ignored or overlooked by the Naruto fandom and the Undertale fandom, I felt like I had finally found my home and was settling into a community there.

I just loved that people loved what I had to say.

Especially my AU.

It's no secret that a lot of themes in my au revolve around found family, grief, and loss.......

Fatherhood, in particular.

What it means to be a father, how much do you need to try when you mess up, how willing should a child forgive their parent, especially those that have wronged you and how much of it is factually accurate and simply a self projection of what children want their parents to be and visa versa... What amount of forgiveness and change is nessasary...is it needed?

....

It's no secret that a lot of my AU is a giant coping mechanism for my Dad's death. Espessially the falling out and growing closer with a lot of my family members throughout the years following his death. (Most of the time I keep it ambiguous to how it relates to my personal life unless I include a readmore that states so outright. I feel my au can be enjoyed by a variety of people in the fandom who don't need to know me as a person or my life story.)

My Dad passed away in 2016 in February and my family still feels the aftershocks to this day.

It's part of the reason I moved to the city, alienated myself from my family and people that loved me and refused to experience life for five years.

My entire world was Zim, and I was okay.

March: When America finally realized and started to feel the effects of the pandemic....

A lot of people got scared.

Me included.

I didn't have any streaming services or access to the news. So I only heard accounts from my mom.

I didn't understand why the store was so dead quiet and empty for a few days, then it went into mass chaos and panic in the span of two days.

It felt like Retail black friday in the worst way. Everyone was packed like sardines. Everyone was yelling. The lines at the registers bled into the clothing department.

I was witness to customers shoving others for toilet paper, being rude to cashier's and just overall unpleasantness.

At the time, I didn't even fully grasp what the pandemic was, and I feel a lot of people at the time didn't either.

I ended up absentmindedly scratching my eyebrow in front of a customer and she screamed and villanised me for it. That they didn't want groceries touched by my "unclean hands"

I ended up breaking down into tears.

The customer behind me gave me a hug and told me I was doing a great job.

But the damage was done. It was the final straw, I couldn't stop crying and I was breaking apart.

Thankfully my Boss (the one who likes me) pulled me aside and asked what's wrong.

It was then that I quit. No notice. Same day. I had to get out of there.

I was planning to move to an apartment with my sister in the summer, but my Mom offered for me to move back in with her temperarily just so I can get out of the city and away from the pandemic.

So I did.

I got scared, broke my lease a month early and quit my job of five years that gave me nothing back.

He told me, "take care of yourself and your family, I won't keep you here, do what you need to do."

So I did.

April-June:

A very eventful few months.

My mom offered for me to live at her place, but for some reason she was acting like I would live there forever. That this wasn't a temporary arrangement, and that I didn't have an apartment set up already.

This was in large part to my sister, who had lived with my mom taking advantage of her for years.

Even though my sister and I were going to move in together, I was just never sure about it cause of how she never packed her stuff or made any effort to find a job.

My mom often acted like I was lazy and not searching and was treating me like... Well, an unruly teenager instead of a woman of 29 years. She acted like I was a failure for returning home when it was her idea in the first place.

I would have just been petrified in the city.

Like usual, I retreated to my au again.... And in the spring, something eventful happened.

In may, 8th 2020:

I was invited by @rissynicole to join an invader zim discord.

Now, I've never really used discord before. I always thought it's interface is too confusing.. and I'm a member of a few other iz discords and I usually don't follow them that closely.

Rissy assured me it was different cause some friends of thiers made it and it was smaller.

Before I knew it, I was sharing memes and getting to know everyone there.

It wasn't long after I invited my partner in IZ crimes, @paketdimensioncomic who was genuinely wary of iz servers due to a bad experience with the last one they were a part of.

But soon they were sharing memes and laughing with everyone else.

My eyes were starting to open and I was able to connect to fans of my work in an interpersonal way. And I was able to discover new artists and aus I never knew about.

I was also able to meet so many others of the community and invite them to the server myself.

The moo-ping 10 server kept me sane while I was living with my judgmental mother.

Not only that, the summer was very productive for my au.

Drawing was all I did, and it was a huge break from the job as a cashier I had.

Not only that, June came, and with it, me and Ceph's first collab fic:

A result of us just going back and forth in our DMs constantly about Professor Membrane and how he changed in ETF for the better and how much we adamantly stan "trying-to-be-a-good-dad-brane" and how much of his ETF development has to be implied off screen in order for the emotional resolution in the movie to matter.

The only reason I never professed my love for Membrane as a character in the fandom before the fic dropped was.... Well....

Membrane can be a decisive character in the fandom and I was so worried people would hate me if I did an analysis on him, simply because he's not the best parent in the world. (As an understatement)

Ceph and I really encouraged each other to scream our love for the science himbo loud and proud more frequently and so often.... I actually start to see less Membrane hate posts and breakdowns then their used to be.... I like to think it's a combination of Me and Ceph's influence, along with ETF and the Quarterly's painting Membrane in a slightly more nuanced light then he was previously.

I never wrote a collab fic before and it's such a rewarding and fun and unique experience that I don't think I'll ever have again. And I love working with Ceph on our fics so much.

So much so we did it again...

July-August:

I never thought I would be one of those people who writes NSFW IZ fic... But here I am.

The Brainbrane au started.... An au of my au where Membrane and the Computer fall in love and Membrane makes him a body.

This ship was based around the idea where we joked that Membrane and Zim's Computer would have funny interactions if they ever met, under the pretense Membrane thinks Computer is Zim's parent.

Our headcanons morphed and shifted until we just full blown started shipping them.

Just because Membrane and Zim's Computer have overall REALLY entertaining chemistry.

It's a character dynamic never seen in the show or comics (yet) and I imagine thier interactions to be nothing but entertaining banter.

The fic was also born from spite... Making fun of the troupes and cliches that we found personally destestible in some questionable zadr fics.

So an angry ace and a demi-bisexual collab on a porn and end up blessing the fandom with

Compapa headcanons,

Computer being recognized as a more common used fanon character,

The ship of Brainbrane.

The fandom having a crisis of "oh God, not only are we xenophiles we're technophiles too!!!" Or "why you gotta give Zim's Computer an ass"

More android Computer designs

It was an eventful summer.

In the midst of all this, I moved into my new place, got a new job, and I was able to see my friend (who is def my platonic straight soul mate) who lives in Indiana.

She came to visit, showed me how to decorate and how to take care of my body better! Things were looking up! It was great.

September-November:

My job was at a boat store. If was approaching the fall and my hours were being severely cut.

I was getting into a rut of depression again.

I thought things were changing but the same routine I was trying to escape from was the same thing coming back.

But instead of letting it take hold, I decided I was going to do something about it... I was gonna visit a museum and go with my sister. Just... variety stimulation.

Well that didn't happen.

I talked about this shortly in my au itself...but..

My sister had a complete mental breakdown.

She stopped taking her meds, went off the deep end and was in the hospital a total of five times throughout November.

A lot of it was acting out and the perfect storm of environmental factors that made her scream and act out so she would keep going back to the hospital.

It was traumatizing for me.

I just can't explain what it's like. For her and for me to be in that position.

I'm not telling the full story and a lot of bullshit things happened I won't share here.

She got diagnosed with bipolar one and my mom expected me to be a caretaker for her.

I threatened to disown my family and move away out of state.

It was just too much for me to handle.

So much I was a nervous wreck.

I tried to pick up a second job... Cause my sister was in the mental ward so frequently and couldn't pay the bills.

But I was fired within a week cause I was so stressed I couldn't retain the basic information they were training me for.

It was an office job.

My dream.

It could have been.

I was fired from something I really wanted.

I was only there for three days.

I could not retain any information.

I was a mess.

My sister was a trigger, my mom wanted me to live with her. I couldn't live like this.... I had to get out.

I had to get out.

December:

Remember my Indiana friend?

Well the first week of December is my birthday.

My 30th to be exact.

While I did pick up a seasonal position at Target (not my first pick)

I took the first week of December off so I could spend time with her. Cause she agreed, I needed a break from this crap.

Surviving 30 years is cause to celebrate and if I had to celebrate with my sister I would have cried.

I know there was a risk traveling out of state during a pandemic...

But I needed out, I needed a friend..

And I kinda wanted to look at the place since I was considering moving there.

My friend's mom was sick so she avoided me and her daughter and got us a hotel room.

It was fun! I got to swim in a salt water pool, we talked about Naruto, I showed her the iz and su art books I brought, also Computer and Membrane tea.

I also got to meet her other friends and get crunk. And her bf who is super nice and funny!

I had a super fun birthday....

Until her mom told my friend that her grandparents had covid and that was what she had. And my friend got sick within that same day.... As did I.

I owe so much to her family.

I was an entire state away...about a ten hour drive from home.... She let me stay at her house. "The covid house" we called it.

Cause everyone (except the father. He avoided everyone and booked a hotel immediately cus he was an ER doctor) had covid within a day.

I called in, the test results were positive and I had to stay with her family for ten days quarantine before I could work again.

Which would have been fine....

If my tumblr didn't log me out perminately of my old account. @dana-chan325 .... Which really sucked cause I had a constant headache and was too sick to engage with tumblr or much of the fandom. I didn't want to make a new account when my head was in a bad fog and I could barely breathe or smell.

It's not like I saw much of my friend either.... We all slept at different hours and she had more symptoms then I did.

It was just netflix, danganronpa v3 and cry.

I was miserable, but at the same time.... Not?

I really feel like God himself was the one who pulled me off from tumblr, and my living situation.

Maybe a whole extra week feeling like a bobblehead was what I needed.

It gave me some much needed clarity on my relationships with my mom and sis and friend.

Running away to Indiana was not the solution here.

Once I was better within ten days and no longer had a leave of absence, I drove home.

I am glad I fully recovered (but from how I understand it, my dear friend is still ill. I'm praying for her)

I might have gone to work a bit too soon, cause I had an asthma attack after trying to unload a single cart in the span of six hours.

My boss lectured that my speed was unacceptable, and even though I explained the covid situation and breathing problems many times, she threatened that I'd be fired if I'm that slow again.

Que the next few days of work where they put me on register.

Instantly I was sent into a panic remembering the last time I was on the register and how that panic attack caused me to quit.

I even asked if I could go back to stocking, since my breathing had improved. My boss assured me that I was put on the register cause they needed help and nothing to do with my covid thing.

Then as December concluded and the new year began, my boss said that this was the last shift for me cause my position was seasonal and they were letting a lot of people go.

I then asked why I was on the schedule for Sunday, and he told me to ignore it and I'm free to reapply for full-time.

I mean.... They can act smart about it...

But putting your general merchandise stocker onto register after she had an asthma attack and missed working the first two weeks of December due to covid.....

Not a good look.

So once again, I'm jobless once more.

Will probably continue to live with my sister for awhile.

But I do not feel as if it's a bad thing....

I met so many good people this year....

My friend's family even gave me 500 usd to cover my rent since I couldn't work for a majority of December.

I've seen evil and good from humanity this year. I've seen acts of god, good friends and what my real family means to me as well as friends I consider family.

This year really made me look back at the person in the mirror and say,

"I deserve better."

And actually worked for it this time.

Oh and after Christmas I got a horrible yeast infection that burns over most of my body currently.

Very accurate doodle to the pain I'm in right now.

(seriously my body is a fungus.)

But hey, good news, I respected myself enough to go to the doctor about it!!

So that's progress.

I really hope 2021 holds good things for me.

Thank you to the mooping 10 server for always being there and keeping me sane,

Thank you tumblr for liking my au and everything.

AND A SUPER SPECIAL THANK YOU TO @evartandadam and her family for housing me and my dumb diseased ass. Everyone, she is an angel and I can't express how much she means to me. Please check out her art and buy her stuff on redbubble.

Anyways... Byebye 2020.

I look forward to what I can accomplish for myself this year.

#danachan's posts #personal stuff #new year post #tw: covid #tw: yeast infection

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moondustaeil · 5 years

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secret taste, jjh

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⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ chapter 2

⠀ about

⋅ genre : non-idol au. mainly romance + smut (additionally : fluff , angst)

⋅ characters : Jung Jaehyun x reader (other nct members)

⋅ word of warning : a whole bunch of sexual themes , cursing , idk

⋅ word count : 2.4k

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⠀ summary

⋅ to provide creative content on a YouTube channel, Jung Jaehyun and y/n are invited together with a bunch of other strangers to test out objects. Unlike the useless gadgets you can buy on the home-shopping channel, they are given the opportunity to test out the most sensual lifestyle products together.

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⋅ ⠀ Intro , chapter 1

“I can’t believe they gave us the wrong hour,” You said in disbelief as you and Jaehyun walked further away from the filming set.

Jaehyun let out a scoff when he thought about everything that he could have been doing if only he had received the right hour to show up. “It’s as if they did it on purpose. As if we don’t have other things to do” he said, by the words he said you could conclude that the two of you were starting to think the same way about the so-called opportunity.

“Let’s just get something to drink instead, by the time we’d get home now, it’s time to leave again” You suggested as you kept the actual time you had to be there in mind, your eyes wandering to Jaehyun to check if he was okay with it, and as you already expected him to, he agreed.

The building’s cafeteria was ignored by you both, just heading out the building to get drinks somewhere else. A little bit too much of the unexpected had happened in the past week for you and Jaehyun to be in that building when you didn’t have to be there.

“Do you know what we’re filming today?” Jaehyun questioned as you two walked through the street, waiting until a random little cafe or coffee shop would pop up just like that. He eyed you for a couple of seconds as he awaited your answer. “Nope, do we ever know?” You said, knowing the answer already, your shoulders shrugged as if you were done caring about it anyway.

The small talk you two had was the longest conversation you had in the short week that you had known each other, though even in that week you had only seen each other three times only. Those three times were probably too awkward for either of you to get used to each other and the partnership.

Before you could talk another step, Jaehyun pulled you with him to the right, into a small coffee shop that you hadn’t even noticed. He was the one to go inside first, but made sure to keep the door open for you and close it behind you as well, at least being half the gentleman society requested him to be.

The two of you walked to a small table, wanting to have a seat first before you would go and order. “Do you already know what you want?” you asked, without the menu already deciding what kind of drink you wanted. Jaehyun hummed, nodding as soon as you looked up at him. “I always order the same, even though I always claim I want something else. Call me boring”

“I’ll go and order” He said and listened to what you wanted before disappearing to go to the counter, your eyes never leaving the sight of him. He was looking so good and yet simple: dressed in black clothes and his black hair making the dark look complete. His body to die for even if you only saw the back now. As good as his body looked in those clothes, his smile and eyes were always the most impressive thing about him.

Even though you had been looking at him the entire time, you hadn’t noticed how Jaehyun came back, both of your drinks in his hands. “Staring at someone? Hm” you heard, making you snap out of your little daydream.

By the tone, you could hear how he was smiling even if you weren’t looking at him. “Nah, not really, no one interesting,” you said, telling yourself and Jaehyun a little lie to stop your cheeks from changing into a rosier color.

“Luckily, wouldn’t want you to stare the entire time” He said back, you didn’t reply anymore, pretending you were too busy sipping from your drink. He didn’t have to know how embarrassed you were, and surely not how you had been staring at him instead of another person in the coffee shop

There fell a short silence between the two of you, at least being less awkward than last time you saw each other. You still remembered how weird it felt to take a kinky BDSM test right beside him, you were glad that moment wasn’t mentioned today or not yet at least.

Jaehyun cleared his throat “so what do you do in your life?” he asked curiously, wanting to share some more personal details now that you two had time to spend alone instead of in front of the cameras. “I’m in college and I got asked to do this as like something to earn some money” you said, shrugging your shoulders as the accomplishment list in your life wasn’t that superior yet. “You?”

“That’s cool. I actually don’t do anything, or not yet at least. I wanted to start up something with my friends, but the music industry is hard to get into” He admitted, his dream of being a singer probably would always stay but he didn’t know if he was ready for the failure that came along with it. “I’ll start looking for a different job though, maybe something with kids, or translator, I don’t really know” he said, sighing softly as if he didn’t feel sure about what he was telling.

“You still have time, you’re still young,” You said, smiling to cheer him up a bit more, you weren’t sure if he was actually feeling bad about it. But you felt bad to see him being scared to achieve his dream and instead forced to do something else.

He nodded at your words, and couldn’t help but smile right back at you when you flashed him a smile. “True, at least I didn’t become a teen dad like I always wished I would be. I mean, I surely wouldn’t have a chance to sing” he said, his voice a bit softer as he admitted the thing he had always dreamed of. As much as the words shocked you, your smile grew even bigger. It was the cutest thing you had heard, it meant that he loved kids and probably loved the thought of having his own little family. “You can still be a young dad,” you said, which only made him nod.

The two of you continued to talk about some other things in your lives or just random things. Your studies, his dreams of being a singer, how the two of you had ended up in the YouTube show, some other personal details like where you lived and if you had significant others.

Time seemed to go fast as the two of you talked, it was like meeting a stranger who was a friend at the same time. But it had been nice, comfortable and something you’d surely want to do again whenever you had time. With that another promise came to do this at least twice a month, to just be able to catch up and form a bond as the two of you were partners on the channel after all.

It almost looked like he was let down when it was time to leave again, filming wasn’t as fun as spending time just with the two of you.

Once the two of you were at the filming studio, you two immediately could head to the set and sit down. Maybe it was because you two were barely four minutes later than when you were supposed to be back, but on the walk back you two just shared some more good conversations and laughter which made it take longer.

As the two of you sat on the usual chairs and looked at the camera, the staff showed you a forced smile, clearly a little bit annoyed by the late arrival you two made. There were still couples that had to film after you. “So for today we are going to do a challenge involving your heartbeat, we will be trying different things to see what gives the most reaction. We will be having five rounds, the couple who have the lowest heartbeats in total will be able to go on a weekend trip together. Results will be announced later” She explained, loud enough for it to be heard by the microphones as well.

You and Jaehyun just nodded, not sure what to expect but in real variety shows, it usually was things like just acting cute to each other and then see who had the highest heartbeat. Though hearing how it was some sort of competition against the other couples, it made things more fun and challenging to win.

“First round: acting cute”

She announced before she sat down, meaning that it was time for you and Jaehyun to start the challenge. It was you who had to go first this time.

You looked at Jaehyun and thought about all the different kinds of aegyo you had seen before. Most of them were cringy, embarrassing for the people who did it but even for those who had to watch it. It took a few seconds before you had decided what you wanted to do. You crossed your arms over your chest, a pout taking over your lips. “I don’t like this!” you said, your tone childish and sad. In your mind, it would keep his heartbeat low, because why would he melt over something that was sad and surely not cute at all.

Jaehyun’s heartbeat that was displayed on a screen behind the camera, didn’t change that much at all. The 86 beats only making it as far as 88, before lowering again which meant you had done a good job in not being cute but a bad job in trying to get Jaehyun to like you more.

After your turn, Jaehyun’s turn was there. As simple as it was, it made your heart beat a little bit faster when he shot you a smile and poked his dimple in a cute way. Rather than cute, it was heartwarming for some reason. Your heart went from 90 to an unsteady number of 95, just enough to stay in the limit of not being too high.

“The next round is, confessing to each other”

The words left you perplexed, how were you supposed to confess to someone you barely knew, and what were you supposed to confess? Love, friendship, your darkest secrets? You had no idea but apparently, Jaehyun made up his mind as he turned his chair towards you to start.

“Here we go” Jaehyun started and pretended to look nervous or maybe he genuinely was nervous, you couldn’t tell yet. “I really like you y/n, you make me smile all the time with everything you say and do.”

The words were short, yet you felt a sudden rush go through your heart, you didn’t know if it stood still for a few seconds or if the beat was speeding up at a fast pace. The unsteady number suddenly consisted of three numbers instead of two. Of course, such a confession made your heart beat faster, everyone would have the same reaction when Jaehyun would be right in front of them, confessing his love.

Jaehyun looked at you with expecting eyes when his turn was over, knowing now you had to do the same back to him, probably without as much reaction as you gave him. “Okay, I’ll start” you announced and got a little bit closer to him.

“I’ve been wanting to tell you this, ever since we met, I feel as if you’re special. You make me feel things I didn’t know existed. And, I guess I want to say that, I like you” You said, a soft sigh leaving your lips but it was luckily inaudible. Through your words, you kept on remembering how you felt when the two of you got coffee just a bit ago.

The heartbeat of the boy next to you went higher as well, and even though that meant that the challenge wasn’t going as expected, it was a good sign to you. A sign that he liked you, if it wasn’t in a romantic way then it surely was in a friendly way. Or he was just easy to convince and flirt with, but you guessed that wasn’t the case.

“Last round, you’re allowed to touch. No lower than shoulders”

The announcement made you and Jaehyun share looks for a couple of seconds, maybe silence communicating whether you two wanted to win this challenge or not. Or maybe a silent question if you were okay with being touched and touching him. When he nodded his head, you did too. Giving the confirmation that it was okay.

“Let’s do this,” you said as you scooted a little bit closer to Jaehyun, giving him a small and nervous smile before you started. You placed your hand on his upper arm and gently ran your thumb over the skin, it probably was more soothing than sexy but essentially you weren’t here to lose. Your hand slowly ran up until it was on his shoulder, which gave you access to run your fingers over his collarbones.

You no longer looked at the heartbeat meter, it would only make you more nervous about this all. As a sign that you had ended your turn, you sat back and motioned to Jaehyun that it was his turn to take action now.

Without a word, he got closer to you and brought his hand up to your face. His left hand more towards your hair and moved a little strand away from your face, almost like a scene you would see or read in everything related to teen romance. Teen romance or not, the feelings seemed real and genuine from his side, especially when he leaned in a bit closer and pressed his lips to the side of your head.

Though the touching came to an abrupt ending when the producer said that you ran out of time to continue filming the video. As weird as it had been, you also thought the ending could have been more fitting to the theme of the video. But they told you to do the ending just like that. As any YouTuber would do, the two of you ended it with the words to give it a like and subscribe to the channel before the filming ended.

“Good acting” Jaehyun said to you and gave you a hug, the conflicted feelings of the actions and words made you confused but you returned the hug. You were already happy that the two of you managed to start a little friendship. “You too” you said as you pulled back from the hug.

Once the two of you had grabbed your belongings, you left again. Both like usually parting your ways at the parking, though this time a little bit of talking had happened beforehand.

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『 LANDON LIBOIRON ❙ GENDERQUEER 』 ⟿ looks like ETHAN DIGBY is here for THEIR SECOND year as a VISUAL ART GRAD student. HE is 27 years old & known to be DEDICATED, HONEST, STUBBORN & PESSIMISTIC. They’re living in NOLAND, so if you’re there, watch out for them. ⬳ drew. twenty-two. est. he/him. ethan’s pinterest

trivia:

he really likes white cholate & hot chocolate, often eating handfuls of white chocolate baking discs regardless of the time of day.

visual art major --- tends to stray towards sculptures and installation pieces, though he does have a love for bob ross style landscape pieces. draws a lot of inspiration from older art, and many of his pieces are designed to look worn-out and as though they are missing pieces.

perpetually exhausted --- for all his love of schedules, he has never managed to consistently get enough sleep and though he loves tea, that never seems to have enough of an impact to truly wake him up ---- a.k.a he is a yawn prone little fuck

doesn’t quite believe the local legends, though he doesn’t dismiss them outright either. the statue by wishing tree has, however, made it into several of his works ---- statues seem to have her facial features without him ever meaning to and he will swear to anyone that asks that in sophomore year of his bachelor’s degree he woke up one morning to her face staring at him from amongst the trees on a painting he had been working on. he will hesitantly add that it’s possible that he had just been thinking of her while half asleep, though ethan doesn’t really believe that

currently working as a TA for some of the freshman art classes, as well as overseeing the use of the different art studios from time to time.

doesn’t believe in labels --- and that’s corny as hell, but he just wants to be able to be whoever he is in the moment and has had some harsher reactions when he uses umbrella terms, so he just refuses to label himself. relationship-wise it’s a whole different issue, he floats from one major relationship to another and often times will cycle back to one that’s already gone sour.

has recently started going to a therapist to talk about some of the issues he has processing emotions and his fear of change ---- it’s been helping but he’s still very much on the verge of flight mode and will run away from situations that demand any real sort of emotional input from him on occasion.

personality:

he is cynical, despite a desire to believe the best in people and the world - he has seen too much of the darker side of the world to ever truly believe it ---- this is reflected not only in his interactions with people ( he is open about expressing doubt and disbelief, he won’t believe a word you say, and he overanalyzes promises / invitations / declarations of love ) but also in his art and aesthetic which veers towards the dark and damned, a lot of his work is themed around broken things

stubborn as a mule ---- once he gets an idea in his mind, it can be hard to change his mind with logical arguments though an emotional appeal will have a better chance ---- he’s very set in his ways and struggles with questioning why things are the way they are, insisting that somethings should just be. loathes change and isn’t afraid to express this dislike --- tends to eat the same foods, wear the same clothes, go to the same places ---- despite a childhood dislike of routine, he finds it comforting nowadays, it feels safe.

loyal as all hell, you can hurt him a million times and he will still struggle to walk away and a genuine apology will win him back in an instant. he struggles to cut ties, even with those that he knows aren’t the best for him and has only successfully done so when it is possible for him to do so in a swift and permanent way. in most cases, he will eventually find his way back to those that he knows.

friendly but not overly so --- he has no issue approaching people if he needs something, but he’s not generally one to approach you just to “chat” b/c he’s not big on small talk in general and honestly? he’d never say it but if he doesn’t know you, he doesn’t really give a damn how your day went or how you feel about the weather or current events. if he drinks, he becomes a little more sociable in that matter, but that often drifts into “ethan is going to info-dump about whatever has his interest in the moment and the only way to stop him is to like physically place something in / on his mouth” territory which is a whole different level of awkward.

backstory:

growing up in a household where routine took priority, ethan spent a long time feel stifled by his parent’s demands that everything turned out perfectly ---- the neverending need to do things at just the right time, in just the right way. it was like fitting into a sweater that was just a tad too small, wrong in a way that is hard to explain

it’s in high school that he meets a true kindred spirit in the form of his art teacher ---- he helps ethan to realize his need for freedom and self-expression, and embraces his abilities in a way that he had always been afraid to. it’s a change that his parents are disapproving of, trying to reroute their son’s future to one of the paths that they would have approved of. but for once, he allows himself to rebel.

and after graduation, he leaves. running to new york, where he throws himself into the art scene head first without any real plans. for two years, he works multiple jobs as he cycles through sketchy roommates in his shitty apartment and equally shitty life partners, trying to discover things about himself that he hadn’t known before.

he’s still figuring some of that out, unsure of how to label his gender or his sexuality --- wishing more than anything that he could just be, a desire that he has long held onto since childhood that’s coming back to haunt them at last.

that’s not the only thing that’s caught up with them as of late, the digby’s finally managing to track him down in new york and showing up at his apartment two years after he initially ran off. they came with open minds and a burning desire to see their son do something other than work minimum wage jobs and live in run-down apartments. they were quiet and subdued in a way that they never had been.

it took six months for them to convince him to enroll in college, and he eventually chose to attend radcliffe with an undeclared major. it was far enough from his hometown that his parents couldn’t reasonably drive up too often, but close enough that he could go home if he had wanted. a three-hour drive in the best traffic.

the distance proved to be the right amount --- though his parents certainly seemed to pop up over the first three months with containers of food and worries that their child would have run off, they eventually learned to trust him. and slowly, the wounds healed ---- ethan wouldn’t say that they’re close but they’ve learned to respect each other’s boundaries.

and he’s never seen them more proud than at graduation, except maybe when he told them that he was going to apply to grad school. it wasn’t the path that they had planned for ethan, but they had learned to be enthusiastic about his success, about his dreams and about his art.

doing his master’s degree - it’s been weird. being here is weird for him in general, he still misses new york even though it was a whole different kind of existence ---- he misses the stability of going to work everyday and being completely independent. here, he has to rely on his professors and classmates, he has people that expect him to check in with them and there’s more socialization --- mostly because he’s been trying to do better with that.

connections:

good / bad influence: okay so traditionally, i think these would be separate connections but i think in this case, it’s more convoluted than that. for all of ethan running away from the environment his parents made, he’s very much stuck to those rules and expectations --- i would love for someone to start to break him out of that --- encourage him to party and drink and live life, and it doesn’t all have to be bad, it can be good too. you know, them bringing him to parties and him learning actually valuable lessons from it --- idk open to talking about their potential influence on each other, i think it could be fun

frenemies ( onesided or not ): i think a lot of ethan’s trust issues are a projection mechanism because he knows that in some ways that he can’t be trusted --- so i wld love for someone who they act like best friends when they’re together and then ethan just ... talks smack about them and doesn’t keep their secrets ( and maybe they do the same?? )

exes ( of all types / genders / whatever ): this one, my dear ethan, has gotten around a bit --- maybe they hooked up and now it’s awkward ---- maybe they dated for a while and keep circling back to each other despite knowing that they’re bad for each other ( a la unmiss you by clara mae ) ---- maybe they dated for a while and now they never talk so when they do see each other it’s just ... awkward as hell ---- open to literally anything with this one guys

art buddies: just two pals, palling around --- only prerequisite is that your character has some sort of interest in an art ( writing, theatre, music, film, etc etc ) --- and hey maybe they don’t get along but they put up a united front against the STEM majors who mock their choices in major?

other: open to discussing dormates, coworkers, current love interests and literally anything else that you can think of --- does your character need someone over 21 to buy them alcohol? call ethan. for real tho, hit me up and let’s come up with some stuff!

#radintro #i refuse to make this longer by introducing myself hi i'm drew

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yuhoht-t · 4 years

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For the ask thing do 1 through 50 please because you're cool

OH my god. WHO ARE YOU because i Hate you now omg

but okay here we go:

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

BI! i am bi bi bi :)

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

right now? here in the year of our lord 2020? at 9:25 am?? march 11th? nothing, my brain is a little preoccupied atm with the absolute stupidity of the american college system

3. Ever done any drugs?

i have not, sometimes i want to, but then simply do not

4. What piercings do you want?

i kinda want snake bites? or maybe a second ear piercing. but im not really sure

5. How many people have you kissed?

uno

and honestly? it kinda sucked?

6. Describe your dream home.

a cottage situated in a nice little cliff-side meadow, a beautiful forest to one side and the ocean to the other. I have a small little garden for herbs and easier to grow staples. Maybe a couple of chickens. There’s a whole room, maybe even a whole other structure, dedicated to just being my art studio. It almost definitely smells like oil paint and graphite. There also has to be a large bay window with a seat, two floor to ceiling bookcases on either side.

There’s a lot more I could say, but basically look up cottagecore/goblincore/dark academia and that’s basically it

7. Who are you jealous of?

anyone who gets to go to art school

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

usually it’s a mix between parks n rec and the office

9. Do you watch porn?

i am an adult

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

oohohohohahahahaaaaaa, yes. many actually

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

question. am i immune to any diseases in the region? if yes. can i just take the teleporter and go wherever? there are too many places i want to go

but really i suppose, Ireland? I mean it is March

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

that someone likes me

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

no i don’t think so. it just kinda sounds a little uncomfortable. but it is pretty hot i won’t lie

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

art school. i mean i’d have to see if i get in first! but then after that i’d give the rest to my mom. i owe her and if i ever get the chance i will be paying her back.

15. Are you in a relationship?

bitch? who do you think i am? what do you think i look like? of course fucking not.

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

[this image violates tumblrs guidelines]

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

yes. is it petty? also yes. but it’s affecting my sleep and how comfortable i am in my environment so i think actually kind of justified.

18. What tattoos do you want?

i want a design with poppies and lavender and maybe my mountain, and i’d like to have it, well, let me see if i can find a picture

like this

but it’s kind of a pipe dream since tattoos are expensive and hurt lol

or this:

AHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAAAA

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

so, heres the thing, i don’t technically mind my name. it’s a good name. it’s gender neutral both in long form and my preferred nickname. BUT. it is very common and i certainly don’t actually love it all that much. However, i have no fucking clue what i’d change it to.

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

internet culture. i don’t usually talk about it, but i absolutely love culture and specifically the cultures that have been cultivated from the internet. it’s so cool!

21. Describe your best friend.

okay, so, she’s amazing. extremely talented and smart. and honestly has the coolest style of anyone i’ve ever met. the biggest gemini bitch you’ve ever met and i love her for it. she knows so much about horror and movies and is just really informed about so many interesting things. And she’s not afraid to get into politics and religion and all that “taboo” stuff. she’s actually taught me so many things! she’s great n i don’t get to gush often about the people i genuinely like in this world so yeah. also, she HOT AS SHIT N EVERYONE IN THE WORLD IS DUMB IF THEY DON AGREEEEEE

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

ahahhhahahhahahahhaaaaa no.

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

- Ghost

- Gorillaz

- Phoebe Bridgers

- Orville Peck

- FIDLAR

(okay, so I was doing this and really there are too many, this is not a great list but I think it covers the range of taste???)

24. What are three places you want to travel?

Japan, Italy (for the art), and ummm, probably Iceland (for the continental divide)

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

this gonna sound so sad but, literally, all of my roommates leave and i get to spend it in solitude doing whatever the fuck i want without having to worry about being watched (that’s what we call paranoia kids!)

26. What’s your favorite season?

it depends. but right now i’m jonesin’ for some good ol’ fashioned summer thunderstorms.

27. What’s your pet peeve?

people

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

me bitch, next question

nah i’m kidding, maybe my little brother? or maybe my friend Shareeza? there is somethin about that girl that just makes me die every time she talks

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

maybe because it’s been a long time, but like, Frozen? idk. it’s what my intuition is telling me so ima go with that.

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

you know i’m not really sure at this moment, but straight up, this is now an open call for anyone who wants to message me, shy or not, i promise i’ll answer lol ^-^

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

paper, obviously. who do you think i am?

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

maybe Spiderwick Chronicles? I love the idea of being able to actually see the fey. or really any world where there’s a hint of me possibly being able to actually have magic or a magical experience.

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

ALL

34. What’s your coffee order?

carmel mocha, if i’m paying for coffee i want it to taste like pure caffeinated sugar

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

maybe? i have a hard time deciphering those types of feelings

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

don’t got none. for past crushes tho? i’m not really sure.

37. Have any tattoos?

38. Do you drink?

39. Are you a virgin?

i don’t have to answer this, do i?

(that basically is an answer)

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

again, hard time with understanding romantic feelings.

41. How many followers do you have?

642

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

i feel a liiitlel uncomfortable with this question. and on those grounds i don’t think i’m gonna answer it.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

not killing myself :)

44. Do you read erotica?

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

too fresh bro, mmmm can’t open up those wounds quite yet

46. How many people do you follow?

293

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

maybe Jameela Jamil? she’s just so pretty and smart

or maybe David Tennant cause like. i’ve had a crush on him since my doctor who days so really, why not

48. Describe your ideal partner.

willing to go to battle for and with me. and against me.

also it’s important that they’re understanding of me and my struggles, as well as accepting my points of view as my truth and not belittle me for having them. And be willing to give there all in these aspects because I will give my all in these ways for them. That’s just how i work.

49. Who do you text the most?

oh idk, maybe my mom?

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

clouds. and wind. i like to feel like i’m gonna blow away

okay, jeezus, this was a lot. I hope one of you fuckers actually reads this

#about a mouse #ask a mouse

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sunflowerstrays · 6 years

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sixteen candles // seo changbin // au // part 2

anon requested:

here's part two!

seo changbin x reader.

words: 2.3k.

genre: idk but not inappropriate lmao.

summary: see anon post

(part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 4)

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“We look ridiculous,” Seungmin can’t help but burst out laughing at your incredulous face. It was true, the pair of you did stand out and make a fashion statement; every other girl in your year had pretty, flowing dresses on, and every boy had fashionable dress pants, yet here you two stood, in jeans, Seungmin in a white shirt and you in an old dress top of your sisters. Your mother always used to call you a wallflower, but here you stood, standing out like the elephant in the room.

Your slightly hyper exchange student friend, Felix, darts off to the long line of girls waiting for a partner. His blond hair disappears into the crowd and you worry that that is the last you’ll see of him tonight. His Australian accent is loud and clear over the awkward disco music and very excited younger years.

“Well, may I ask you to be my partner for this dance-”

“Y/N, you made it!” A familiar but unfriendly voice behind you calls. You inwardly groan, before turning around and seeing Minho sitting there, a grin on his face so bright he outshines the disco ball turning sadly above everyone’s head. “You said you wasn’t going to come. Why did you lie to me?”

“Get a hint, dude,” Seungmin says, clearly annoyed by the interrupting younger boy, and shoving Minho aside by swiftly turning his back and linking arms with you, “she’s not available.”

As Seungmin pulled you on to the dance floor, you aren’t able to control your laughter when you see Minho’s face. It drops, jaw hitting the ground as Seungmin pulls you into the groovy tune of the next song, making you laugh even more with his awful dad dancing.

Despite the mess of your family pushing you aside and forgetting your birthday completely, your sister’s wedding and the new sudden infatuation that Minho has developed for you, you manage to have a good time. Seungmin disappears halfway through the evening, leaving you to idly bop for a little while before deciding to go for a wander through the school halls to clear your mind. Even though you are having a good time and surprisingly enjoying yourself, something feels wrong; your head is foggy with thoughts of something, but what it is you don’t know.

You end up in the school’s dancing room. It’s a small studio where you know Seungmin often spends lunchtimes if he isn’t with you. He has other friends apparently that all hang out here, but tonight it is empty, and cold, and for that you are thankful. The younger kids are burning off so much heat with all that energy from the sugary sweets at the food table that the entire school gym has turned into a sauna. That, and it is quiet, and Minho isn’t watching you from the other side of the room.

Or so you thought. After sitting down on the bench at the side of the studio and taking off your shoes, which were too tight for you now, Minho’s face appeared in the window of the dance studio, and you couldn’t help but let out the sigh. He took that as an invitation though to let himself into the dance studio and sway across the room to you.

“Seungmin was right, you really can't get a hint,” you sigh tiredly, resting your head against the cool wall, shutting your eyes and hoping that Minho will just disappear.

Alas, he does not when he goes on rambling about how he is just really desperate to dance with you. You finally snap and ask him why and his answer gives you a shock in response.

“I made a bet with my friends that I could get you to kiss me. They wouldn't believe me as they know you have your own heart set on someone else, but it was worth a try,” Minho says deflated, and you freeze at who else he mentions. “See I always thought Seungmin and you were only friends but after I saw you tonight…”

“Seungmin?” You gasp, shocked by his accusation. “Oh gosh no, Seungmin is like my brother. That's wrong on so many levels, Minho, never.”

“Wait, seriously?” The boy asks, a glimmer of hope in his eyes as he twists to face you. “So, a kiss wouldn't be too much to spare?” The look you give him kills that hint of hope instantly, but you don’t feel bad about it for a second. You are angry at the world, at the lack of Changbin in your life, your oblivious family, how against you the odds are, and unfortunately for Minho you are taking that out on him. You feel bad, but not bad enough to stop.

“Have you ever regretted something, Minho?” You ask after a long period of surprising quiet. Minho looks at you, confused, before nodding. “Meeting someone?”

“Can’t say I’ve regretted meeting someone, yet,” Minho says, running a hand through his soft hair and shrugging. “But I’ve definitely regretted things. What makes you ask?”

“You know Seo Changbin?”

“He’s only the coolest, most attractive, athletic, interesting and popular guy in town. Yes, I’m familiar with him,” Minho says, before gasping suddenly, “oh my gosh- You like Changbin!”

“What? No I don’t,” you say in a far too squeaky voice, making Minho laugh and poke your sides. He was right, you really liked Changbin, to the point it was beginning to make you miserable.

“Well, I heard some things,” Minho says, making your heart flutter at what he could say. “I can’t promise anything but… I’m friendly with Woojin, one of Changbin’s best friends. And apparently in their lunch practice today, they were talking about how Changbin doesn’t like Jisoo anymore, and your name was mentioned a few times.” Your heart explodes at the thought, and this is clearly evident on your face by the way Minho reacts, “I said I can’t promise, remember, it’s just something I heard which could or could not be true.”

“But, Minho why would he be asking about me?” You ask, still in a half state of shock. Perhaps you didn’t daydream that he was looking at you earlier… And if he wants to break up with Jisoo?

But the thought is ridiculous. They’ve been dating for over a year, and last time you saw, you’d never seen Changbin happier to have her in his arms. Although they didn’t dance a lot tonight, and he’d barely sat with her earlier.

“Like I said, I told you all I know,” Minho says, before his face lights up. “Although, I can promise you this. I’m going to Changbin’s party later, I’ll see if I can drop your name in conversation, yeah?”

“You’d do that for me?”

“At a cost,” Minho giggles, before tapping his lips. You roll your eyes before kissing his cheek instead, leaving the trace of your pink lipstick on his cheek before you jump to your feet and run to go find Seungmin. He will definitely hate you for mentioning Changbin’s name in his earshot again, but you feel like you are going to explode with so much joy that you can face the wrath of Kim Seungmin afterwards.

Back at the dance, Changbin has just finished approaching Minho’s friends, Jeongin and Jisung, about the whereabouts of their more well known friend, and the girl he disappeared after. As usual, his minions had been useless, rambling on about some intergalatic space game they had just downloaded and wished they were playing. Somehow Changbin had been given an invite to a space war, but past that point he was lost in space talk and decided to walk away.

Y/N was fairly unmissable tonight; one of the only two people in the entire room wearing jeans and definitely the only girl wearing a shirt - even the DJ had dressed up in dress pants. Yet despite his constant search for the younger girl, Changbin couldn’t locate her anywhere between the fluff and puff of all the dresses tonight.

Suddenly darting towards him from what looks like the direction of the dance and drama studios, Minho appears, a fluffy brown head full of hair running straight towards Changbin. Half a second later he spots an animated Y/N talking to her red haired friend Seungmin, about what though Changbin can’t decide.

“Changbin, boy have I got news for you,” Minho is about to burst into a vibrant conversation with his senior, but Changbin isn’t in the mood for such niceties.

“The girl you just came out of the studios with, Minho, is she yours?” Changbin asks, now watching you sit down beside your best friend and his new partner. You are absentmindedly scanning the room now, trying to look for Changbin and Minho. To your delight, they are talking; but to your horror, they are both looking directly at you. You fall back on the chair and cover your face with your hand, horrified.

This only makes Changbin smile though as he turns back to Minho, who is explaining the story of tonight. The conversation Minho and you had in the studio seems genuine to Changbin, although he doesn't quite believe its real. There's no way you'd be asking about him right?

Minho finally scuttles away when Jisoo appears and Changbin gives Minho a dark look to shut him up. As usual she's whining about how boring this place is and that she wants to go home, so Changbin decides to go grab their coats whilst accidently bumping into you on the way.

“Y/N, I'm so sorry,” he begins to apologise, then frowns when he sees you've completely frozen. One would describe you as buffering, as that literally was what was happening to you; where his arm had bumped yours, it had felt incredible, before you'd gone all light headed and giddy.

But someone suddenly presses the play button and you come back to consciousness, where Changbin is staring at you with concern through his dark hair, eyes soft with worry. You turn and grab your coat, before fleeing the room. When you get outside and into a dark corridor you fall to your feet, not believing that you just did that.

The perfect chance to talk to Changbin, and you shut down completely. You bash your head against the wall twice before opening your eyes and seeing a sympathetic looking Seungmin watching you. You can't quite believe that just happened to you, and neither can he either apparently.

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“I hate them all,” you huff sadly, lying on the cramped couch with an awful pain in your lower back. “Boys. They are all awful.”

“Including me?” your brother, Hyunjin, asks. He's a year older than you and definitely uses this to his advantage whenever he can. He pops his head into the living room, and upon seeing you on the couch, bursts into laughter. “Ah, I’d feel bad for you but with Felix singing as loud as he has been all night, I don’t envy you.”

“Felix is at Changbin’s party, Hyunjin,” you say, frowning as your brother’s face drops into utter confusion. He dashes upstairs, and consequently follows this with a shout of annoyance about how Felix has had various recordings of him singing on loop in the bathroom.

You laugh softly, settling back into the couch and attempting to fall asleep. This is until your dad walks in, looking very sorry for himself. He perches himself on the arm of the couch before looking at you, eyes resembling that of a sad dog.

“I’m sorry hun,” he says with a sad smile, “we completely forgot your birthday today, didn’t we?” His sad voice makes you almost regret you feeling so angry with him for the whole day. “Happy birthday sweetie,” he whispers, patting your leg when you nod that he had forgotten.

“It’s okay. It wasn’t that important anyway,” you shrug, rubbing your arm and smiling at him. “I get that everyone is stressed for Jennie’s wedding that they forgot. I’m not mad.”

“I promise after her wedding is done and she’s away living her wonderful life on her honeymoon, we will get you the biggest cake, party and presents one could ask for. I feel so awful,” he sighs, before rattling on about Jennie and her wedding. Again, the conversation has deviated from you and to the stupid wedding, just like your entire day, but you can’t complain; at least they remembered somewhat, and it was still two hours to midnight, so strictly speaking still your birthday.

“Never grow up, Y/N. Don’t date stupid boys with stupid families,” your dad sighs, making you freeze. Your dad notices your saddened expression and frowns at you. “What’s wrong?”

“It’s just a boy,” you sigh frustratedly, making your dad sigh and shake his head. “It’s ridiculous.”

“It isn’t ridiculous if it’s making you sad, sweetie,” your dad replies, and makes you explain the whole situation. You begin with your feelings for Changbin and for how long they've been around, and that they aren't getting any better. You include the new development of the story tonight as well, which makes your dad smile.

“But whenever I have the opportunity to chat with him, I completely melt and freeze, its ridiculous. I just want to be like a normal girl who can talk to boys,” you sulk.

“All I can say honey is that if it's meant to be, it will become a thing. He sounds like a lovely young boy and I can't wait for you to bring him home one day,” the thought almost makes you choke, but your dad fails to notice this. “I will let you sleep now hun. It's a busy day tomorrow for all of us and I want you as bright eyed and bushy tailed as possible - for what it's worth though I don't know. But I won't be able to sleep unless I know you've taken something constructive from this conversation?” When you give him a deflated nod, he smiles bright before blowing you a kiss and wishing you goodnight.

Again you are left feeling deflated and lonely in your thoughts, replaying the horror of the cloakroom over again and again in your head and wondering where it went so wrong. You can't pinpoint a specific moment in time, but you know that there's no going back from this mess up now.

You could quite literally punch yourself for your idiotic actions with the dark haired heartthrob tonight. All the what ifs and buts of the night play on loop all night, probably leaving you absolutely exhausted for a day full of chaotic family members tomorrow. What a wonderful way to ruin your already ruined sixteenth birthday.

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here's part two. mocks have finished, I can write full-time properly again. bless. I missed this. also I posted this at 11:40 pm so my apologises if there are mistakes heh.

requests are open <3

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warmau · 7 years

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{Special} College!AU Jooheon

major: accounting

minor: music technology/digital music production

sports: said he’d try out for fencing because of his friend jackson but completely forgot about it,,,,,,,,,even though jackson texted him like 405282 times

clubs: joined a movie club which is essentially like a book club but you all gather, pick a movie, and watch it. jooheon has picked pulp fiction like five times because he still doesn’t get the majority of what was happening in that movie,,,,,,,,,,

if you’ve ever seen those memes about super stressed college students just laying down asleep in the library surrounded by unfinished homework, candy wrappers, and highlighters,,,,,,,,,,that is jooheon

if you look closely enough you’ll all see the light in his eyes is gone, his soul has left his body. left the library. left the campus. left this atmosphere.

and it is all because of his major,,,,,,,,,,,,which he hates,,,,,,,,,because accounting is just mathematics and droned out professors who sound like they’re saying the same thing over and over and over again

and jooheon has thought of bludgeoning himself with his auditing textbook on multiple occasions because,,,,,,,,everything is pain. College is Terrible

and all of his friends are like,,,,,bro you’re dragging yourself into a black hole just switch. changkyun is always like “look at me, i love my major because it’s interesting - you look like you haven’t slept in four days and i think your business tax homework is stuck onto your back with some gum.”

jooheon with bags under his eyes: i haven’t slept in four days. i haven’t eaten a decent meal in a week. and no changkyun, it isn’t “stuck” to me. my backpack is too full so im being innovative

like it’s not even that he doesn’t study,,,,it’s just it’s so bland and boring of a subject that he can’t even motivate himself to apply what he’s learned

shownu literally had to come to his class once and pick up a passed out jooheon ,,,,,,,, it’s a Mess

the thing jooheon is really interested in is music,,,,,and he’s friends with a lot of the music majors so he gets to use their equipment and stuff if he asks

and like,,,,,,he wants to produce songs. and he has,,,,,,,,it’s just that no one knows it’s him

he has a soundcloud and every now and then he’ll drop a link to it on the student resource page and like,,,,,,,,,,it’s really popular

he publishes them under the fake name h*ney and any of his singles will go viral through school and be played at every dorm party on campus

even got off campus when someone tweeted that they were playing a h*ney song at this club that they were at and when jooheon saw he almost fell off his chair because??????? woah people really like what he does

but he knows a future with music is practically impossible, plus his own parents don’t know he took the production major as a minor because they’d be totally against it

and it sucks to feel like you’re being pulled in two directions; one toward what you really love, and one toward whats best for your future

like,,,,,not even his close friends know he’s actually h*ney and minhyuk’s literally always talking about how much he loves the songs and so is changkyun and even picky kihyun,,,,,,,

it’s like he’s living a double life LOL and jooheon wishes he could just be himself,,,,but it’s hard when he’s in class and the other accounting majors are all competing with each other for internships at huge companies and trash talking arts majors

i mean he already doesn’t really fit in perfectly,,,,,,,jooheon is much more social than a lot of people in his classes and he goes out on the weekends with wonho and minhyuk and sometimes he’ll crack jokes in class and the serious, no-fun students are just like “did you do the homework? what did you get on the midterm? are you working anywhere right now, i just got a job as a lackey at a bank-”

and so even with his grades slipping, jooheon knows that he’s never going to be an accountant, work in a bank, like the thought is so????? not him?????????

but all he does to deal with it is like,,,,,,work on his music even though he gets nothing in return because of his anonymity

and you,,,,,,,unlike jooheon who has a major he hates,,,,,,are undecided

and you’ve spent most of college taking random classes and not finding anything that interests you in the least and like it SUCKS

because everyone has a plan and you’re kinda like,,,,,,,,shrugging your shoulders because your friend looks at your schedule and is like ?? physics lab??????? international dance???? gender in the eighteenth century???? microeconomics????

and you’re just on your phone scrolling through texts or whatever shrugging your shoulders like yeah,,,idk,,,i can’t make up my mind

and you actually have microeconomics with jooheon and you sit next to each other in the lecture hall

which,,,,,is hilarious because out of all the people there you two have literally zero clue about what is going on because???? microeconomics,,,,,,,,,,,,,,doesn’t make sense to you guys

and instead of paying attention and studying you always fall asleep with your headphones on and jooheon has had to get into the habit of nudging you awake if the teacher comes by or there’s homework being passed out

and one day,,,, you have your earphones on as usual and you’re blasting the new song by h*ney,,,,and jooheon can hear it you’re listening to it so loud

and,,,,he just can’t help but smile to himself because,,,,,,,you don’t even know it but you’re sitting right next to the composer of that song

but also right before class ends everyone gathers around to talk about the final and you take your headphones out and you’re like,,,,,,,oh shit,,,,,the final

and jooheon is like,,,,,,,,we gotta get notes from someone fast or else we’ll both flunk and you agree but when you ask around most of the students either don’t have organized notes to give out or,,,,,you know,,,,just don’t want to

even though you and jooheon pull together a grand total of $22.47 as an offering ,,,, but you realize really fast you and jooheon are royal,,,,totally,,,,,Screwed

the both of you sitting on a bench on campus with your head in your hands until you sit up and you’re like “well,,,,,if we fail we fail,,,,not much we can do now. except-”

and jooheon turns to see you smirking and he’s like ???? and you’re like “wanna go party our misery away?” and he perks up because oh,,,, now that might make him feel better and you’re like “there’s this place i really like in the city, i go with friends but today ill go with my,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,partner in failure of microeconomics!!”

and that’s how you and jooheon end up on the cramped dancefloor of a popular club amongst college students and you can tell that over half of them are doing exactly what you and jooheon are doing: trying to forget the horrors of finals

and you and jooheon are having a great conversation on just how much college really stinks

jooheon spilling his hatred out for his major while you laugh and tell him at least he has a major,,,,,you’re just floating through completely unaware of what to pick

and you’re both shaking your heads with sighs until suddenly the song changes to h*ney’s new song and you light up and you’re like jOOHEON,,,,THIS SONG IS MY FAVORITE and it jusT CAME OUT h*ney really outdid himself this time,,,,,

and jooheon watches as you dance a little to the song and he has to take a sip of his drink in order not to break out into a grin

because again,,,,,you don’t know he’s h*ney

but you look cute,,, enjoying his music,,,,,,and jooheon realizes there’s a reason he loves music and not accounting,,,,,he loves it because it makes other people happy

like in this moment there’s a hundred or more other people here,,,young good looking people,,,,,but you somehow hold jooheon’s attention because of how genuinely you’re enjoying his music,,,something he created,,,,

and nothing has ever overcome jooheon like right now because suddenly he wants to tell you ,,,,, only you,,,,,,his secret

and he reaches out to take your hand and you’re like ????? and he’s like “im going to tell you something but you need to keep it a secret.” and you’re like ??????? sure????

and he’s like follow me, ill tell you but i think i need to show you so you’ll believe it

and you’re walking behind jooheon and instead of going toward the subway back to campus he’s telling you to come with him on the bus

and before you know it you’re in front of an apartment building and jooheon is like “,,,,,you know how im an accounting major right? well im also,,,,,into making music. you might know some of my music,,,.”

you tilt your head in wonder because???? how could you know his music you’ve never heard of an artist named jooheon before

but when you step inside to the small apartment, turned into a mini recording studio jooheon starts up his computer and he’s like “here - tell me if this sounds familiar”

and the minute you hear it the minute you realize,,,,,jooheon,,,,,,is h*ney

and you’re like HOLY HELL NO WAY and jooheon is slightly embarrassed by your shocked expression but he’s like iT’s true,,,,h*ney is my side project and stage name

and you’re like oh mY GOD im in a room with a LEGEND DUDE YOURE A LEGEND ON CAMPUS

and jooheon shrugs, but the compliments make him feel really proud

and you’re like “oh my god oh my g OD,,,,,,,,,do you have anything you’re working on???? id love to hear it???????” and jooheon nods excitedly and sits down to start opening up some samples

and you literally spend the next two hours going through all of the stuff jooheon is working on and him just telling you about how h*ney came to be, how he learned to sing and rap and produce

and you’re in awe,,,,you’re like jooheon you’re amazing,,,,,,god why are you even an accounting major???? music is your talent????

and you get up and tell jooheon to play that one song you really liked and you just,,,,dance because it’s so good it’s impossible to hold still

and you outstretch your arm for jooheon and he’s turning red like,,,ah i couldn’t,,,,dance to my oWN song,,,,,

but you pull him up anyway and even in the tight space,,,, with snack wrappers and magazines all over the floor,,,, you and jooheon dance to the song

and jooheon,,,,,,for a moment he swears when he looks at you it’s like he’s seeing you in slow motion

your hair hitting your face as you twist back and forth

the way your mouth is open just ajar, eyes sparkling with something he’s never seen before

and jooheon doesn’t believe in love at first sight or whatever,,,,because he’s seen you enough in class,,,,,,but there’s something about you,,,,,something that draws him in

so much so that he shared his bIGGEST secret with you,,,,,,

and when you both realize it’s like wayyyy past curfew you decide you’ll just go back to campus in the morning and jooheon pulls out the inflatable mattress he has and lets you take it and he falls asleep in his computer chair

but it’s cute when you wake up you’re just like WOW you’re h*ney i still can’t believe it,,,,,

but jooheon shrugs and is like “it’s true” and as you’re getting coffee before heading back to school you’re like “oh! by the way - i promise i won’t tell anyone,,, you want to keep it a secret right?” and jooheon nods and you’re like well,,,,,,you have my promise

and jooheon thanks you and you tell him you’ll see him in microeconomics for that final you’re both gonna cry during

and jooheon is like waving,,,,but for some reason with you gone it feels,,,,empty,,,,,

and throughout the day he keeps thinking about how happy you had gotten listening to his music,,,,,,how apparently a lot of people get happy listening to his music

and everytime he’d look down at his accounting textbooks,,,,,,he could just feel that this wasn’t for him

and so,,,,,,, at the end of the day he decides he’s going to switch

and when microeconomics class comes around and you’re like heY ready to die jooheon tells you his decision and you’re like!!!!!!!! dude im so happy for you!!!!!!

and he’s like,,,,,,,,it’s thanks to you,,,,,and you’re like mE??? and he’s like you made me see that music has the benefit of making someone feel something,,,,,i can’t do that with accounting

and you’re like flushing a bit because oh,,, you didn’t know you had such an impact but you’re happy you could help!! and jooheon turns to look athis paper but he’s like

before the test starts--after,,,do you wanna,,,,,,grab something to eat??

and you’re like,,,, as a oh-shit-we-failed-this-final kind of hang out or,,, a date??

and jooheon swallows and lowers his eyes but then he’s like “,,,,,like a date” and you feel your stomach do a little flip but you’re like ok!!!! deal

tldr; you and jooheon go on that date and it’s,,,,,fun you guys have a similar taste in music and you want to hear jooheon tell you more about his future plans

but at the end,,,,when you’re doing circles around campus jooheon stops and goes “you helped me find what i want to do,,,,i want to help you too.”

and you’re like idk if you can,,,,,im still undecided,,,,,and jooheon sadly nods but he’s like “for now all i can offer is this,,,” and you’re like ? and he leans down to softly kiss your cheek and you’re like oh,,,,well,,,,,,,ill gladly take it,,,,,,,,,,,,again,,,,kiss me again

and jooheon is like on the cheek?? and you’re like nope, on the lips please (-:

but jooheon is serious on helping you he gets together a bunch of his friends from different majors to talk with you and you’re like jooheon please it’s ok,,, but he’s like i want to help,,,,,,

you start spending more time with jooheon at his little studio and you’re always the first one to hear a h*ney song before it goes out

and you’re always hyping up his music because it’s SO GOOD seriously he could make money off producing

and jooheon never gets used to having someone stand beside him and praise him but he loves it even more because it’s you,,,,

his friend kihyun keeps demanding to know why you and jooheon keep going into the city together so much and you’re both like uMM,,,,,,,,for a group project,,,,,,,,,yeah,,,,,there’s a cafe there,,,,,,,we gtg,

and you like being the only one who knows jooheon is h*ney but also you keep encouraging him to maybe go public one day

because that means???? other musicians can contact him???

but for now everytime you guys hangout at the club you hear a song and you just knowingly grin at each other

jooheon,,,,when he hears a song he likes sends it to you

he makes playlists regularly and you listen to them whenever you miss him

you posted a photo on instagram of h*ney’s new soundcloud single and jooheon commented: oh! you’re a h*ney fan?

and you rolled your eyes because REALLY so you replied with ‘he’s my ideal type, are you jealous?’

to which minhyuk replied: OH SICK BURN JOOHEON REST IN PEACE

you and jooheon both passing out at the library instead of studying until you get kicked out for taking up space and end up cuddled in each others arms in his dorm complaining about how college is hard and you should have both stayed kids instead LOL

whenever jooheon overdoes it,,,,which he does a lot he stays up literally three nights in a row to work on a song,,,,,you have to come over and distract him with kisses

at some points you even have to sit in his lap and just use one hand to turn off the computer monitor and the other hand to go up jooheon’s shirt

and he whines about the song he was working on but the whines turn into low moans soon enough and yes now you’ve got his attention (-;

but his friends are all super thankful to you because fINALLY jooheon isn’t torturing himself with accounting

you guys literally shred all of his homework once he officially switches majors. you also wanted to do a ritual burning of his textbooks but you were like wait no let’s sell them instead

jooheon: good idea. you’re so smart. i love you so much,,,,,

also not to mention but jooheon is the sweetest boyfriend he’ll buy you flowers randomly and give them to you after class

or he’ll do small gestures that actually mean a lot like he knows you forget your charger so he buys one that fits your phone to carry with him,,,,,,bought you a plush bee and was like you’re my bumblebee and im you’re honey!~~~~~

does horribly cringe worthy aegyo to get you to pay attention to him when you’re on your phone

but you still think it’s cute because you end up giving in and smothering him in kisses

you go to movie club with him once and instead of watching the movie you cuddle and try to throw popcorn into jooheon’s mouth and everyone is like ahEM PDA

and you’re like yes pda? i love my boyfriend????

you explain to jooheon what pulp fiction is really about and he’s like oh ,,,,,,my god

you share earphones whenever you guys take the train together,,,,,it’s really cute,,,,,,,

you both did fail your microeconomics final like you predicted,,,,,,,,but it was ok because it was microeconomics that brought you two together,,,,,

but you two also totally ripped the final apart in anger and then made out for a good half hour to cope,,,,,,,,LOL

college!vixx (here) & college!bts (here) & college!seventeen (here)

find special college!amber (here) / special college!KARD (here)

find special college!monsta x (here) & special college!got7 (here)

and please look forward to more special college!aus!

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anti-yuri-on-ice · 7 years

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essay on why katsuki is a very generic character and is just as overrated as the anime itself

hello people today i wrote an essay on why ya boi pork katsuki is only a very generic and mary sue character and isn’t reall that Big Of A Deal as so many people insisted. im doing a comparison of him and 4 other sports anime protags, which is a fucking disgrace bc yo/i isn’t even a sports anime. but since so many people think it is i might as well cater to their taste.

now before you send me hate and ask me why dont i spend my time elsewhere or that i dont have a life, yes, i want to spend my time hating on this anime, and second, i really do not have a life. if i had to bear with the y/oi fandom for 4 fucking months, you can deal with a small meta which you dont even have to read if you dont click ‘keep reading’

i wont go far into defining what exactly is a sports anime but here is a link for you to check it out yourself https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Sports_anime_and_manga. this page contains almost every sports anime/manga.

imo sports anime/manga tend to focus 50/50 on the actual sport and character development. while they spend a lot of time explaining/portraying certain tactics and skills, or having characters monologue through a montage, they often focus on one character at a time (at most two) when giving character development, and such development is often done through realisation during a game/competition/practice. apart from these, sports anime/manga is also about teamwork and friendship. the ultimate goal is often set to be the ‘national champion’ and the whole team works together towards this dream. either they do achieve the goal or not varies in different anime/manga.

so, lets go back to our beloved katsuki shall we. since y'all like to think that yoi is a ‘serious ice-skating anime’ *coughs* *false advertisement*, let’s do a comparison between him, and the other sports anime/manga characters from actual sports anime/manga.

I have chosen a few popular/well-known characters from recent sports anime/manga

Hinata Shouyou from Haikyuu

Onoda Sakamichi from Yowapeda

Fujida Tatara from Ballroom e Youkosou

Sawamura Eijun from Diamond no Ace

And I’m going to do a compare and contrast by listing out their

personality

ability and skills

supporters (people who support him throughout the story)

hardships

Hinata Shouyou

personality: ray of sunshine, positive, cheerful, very determined, wants to play volleyball more than anything else, and doing so also gives him the utmost joy. may be a bit of a nuisance sometimes but the goods of this child still weighs out all the bads.

ability and skills: starts off as a 60% rookie, grows up as a strong player and a valuable member of the team. again, he achieved this by being determined. has stamina through extensive training, can jump very high.

supporters: his family, his middle school friends, and now his teammates

hardships: being at disadvantage because he is too short, being teased because of it, having doubts about himself and whether or not he can really be the next chiisana kyojin or not. losing his first competition (cries forever) (now i haven’t read the manga in a while or watched the third season of the anime so i don't want to add inaccurate details)

2. Onoda Sakamichi

personality: easily intimidated, has very low self-confidence and is very shy so he doesn’t have friends in middle school at all. can talk for hours about his favourite anime/character, very loyal to friends and is also helpful to others. genuinely enjoys being in a road racing team after mastering it.

ability and skills: again, starts off as a 100% rookie, grows up to be the national champion (sheds a tear). wins through sheer determination and the will to chase after others.

supporters: his mother, his two best friends in high school, his rival, and his senpais (especially Makishima, who is a great inspiration and role model to him)

hardships: having no friends before high school, zero self confidence, his mother has shown little knowledge in what he’s actually doing (tho she is still very supportive), nearly losing his first race because his bike broke down, chasing a hundred people in a race because he fell, and now holding the weigh of being a national champion and meeting people’s expectations and his own expectations.

3. Fujida Tatara

personality: very socially awkward, doesn’t really know how to express himself and gets teased/bullied because of it. starts dancing by chance and has no former interest/experience in it but learns to enjoy it and wants to master it.

ability and skills: starts of as a 100% rookie and now he is picking up skills here and there and has great potential in winning future competitions.

supporters: his teachers, his dance partners and the friends he met at the dance studio

hardships: still not yet very skilful in dancing and there is still a lot for him to learn. wants to ace every competition but at the same time knows it is impossible. had a big fight with his current dance partner and might cause collaborative problems with her.

4. Sawamura Eijun

personality: OVERHYPED all the time, shouts very loud, sometimes very annoying but is tolerated by his friends and teammates. at the same cares and encourages people all the time, very friendly, isn’t afraid to speak up, recognises rivals’ strengths and works hard to surpass them

ability and skills: he is scouted into a very good baseball team and has great skills and more potential yet to be discovered. trains hard, runs hard, and shouts a lot too.

supporters: his family, his childhood friends from his hometown, his teammates, and himself.

hardships: fear of being replaced mid-game, not being competitive enough in such a strong team, being very far away from home, very frustrated to why he can’t control the ball as he wish, fights with his catcher/captain a couple of times.

Now we look at katsuki

personality: very anxious all the time when he is a professional sportsman and should have a great deal of experience when dealing with defeat, low self-confidence, whiney, but sometimes is also weirdly positive and upbeat and non-whiney (inconsistent characterisation which is read as ‘unreliable narrator’ by the fandom)

ability and skills: is literally an international-level skater but somehow is not good at his job (?) idk because he is an ~unreliable narrator~ and has a lot of ~depth~

supporters: his family and friends back home (whose support is often neglected), and ofc, victor-senpai uwuwuwuwuwu

hardships: self-inflicted drama and inferiority complex and ‘omg what should i do victor-senpai will leave my ass if i dont win ;;;;;;;;;’

From this we can see

katsuki is a very generic character personality wise, and his personality isn't even charming. it’s just fucking annoying.

HIS JOB IS BEING A SKATER LITERALLY LIKE???? JUST HOW UNPROFESSIONAL CAN YOU BE WHINING ABOUT EVERY SINGLE ASPECT OF Y O U R JO B

he only values support from victor-senpai because his family and friends doesn't mean shit to him. they exist to run the onsen hotel where victor-senpai can flash him in front of everybody.

he hardly went through any real hardships as far as i can see. like i get that at first he was unfit to skate but then he magically can again and then everything was just great for him. everyone loves him (for some reason mmm do i sense a mary sue here) and he got noticed by victor-senpai through pole dancing and he hardly even practiced bc he spent all his time dating victor-senpai and won silver. lmao.

#anti yoi

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