#idk how to even describe it

[revenantghost]

Just a heads-up: The covid brainfog is SO REAL and I cannot remember ANYTHING, so if I haven't done something I promised to do, or if I haven't responded to something, or whatever, please feel free to poke me until I do the thing. I keep discovering things I thought I couldn't forget and I, predictably, forgot them

#I'm also behind on. Everything. #Today is the first day I'm not almost in tears trying to crawl out of my own skin tho? #Idk how to even describe it #But #0/10 do not recommend #I'm so nervous because my mom has long covid #And I watched her start to recover #And then backslide into HELL #I'm not better by a longshot #But I am starting to realize I forgot stuff so...? #Okay I need to go to sleep soon #Yadda yadda

[foxgloveinspace]

No matter how many times I listen to it, Jericho always makes my lungs hurt when it starts.

#very much so #sleep token #idk how to even describe it #edit: I do and I did in the post on my blog above this haha

[tthankstoyou]

I’ve never had a more stressful first day of school. Oh my god

#idk how to even describe it #ana.txt

[yanqings]

I’m running on four hours of sleep i want to kill someone

#it wasnt even my fault . at around 5:30am i heard a loud af noise it sounded like someone was breaking down my door #no one was thankfully but what the hell! theres a bunch of noise here from all the people coming and going but never that kind #idk how to even describe it #anyways I couldn’t fall asleep after that

[the-punforgiven]

Me, thinking of shit like Lethal League Blaze, Guilty Gear Strive, and Okami: I absolutely LOVE games with really stylized 3d graphics, I definitely prefer hyper stylized artsy textures way more than even AAA "Good" graphics, ever. I do honestly and genuinely prefer Darkest Dungeon 2 over the new God of War graphically, and I will die proudly on the Style Over Realism hill

Me, thinking of shit like Fortnite, Battleborn, and Valorant: OK maybe I only prefer stylized graphics sometimes, actually

#pun's text posts #like no hate but I just idk #sometimes I just Do Not Vibe with a specific graphical style #and like this is purely an aesthetic thing too I just idk sometimes certain artstyles just Do Not Spark Joy #idk how to even describe it

[blushouyo]

literally have nothing to contribute to raiden metal gear posts except from something along the lines of "raiden :)" or "raiden :(" because he means so much to me that I can't even verbalise it

#hes just. so important to me #like... #idk how to even describe it #personal

[ossified-arteries]

i started testosterone about a month ago and oh boy can i feel it

#idk how to even describe it #it’s just #different #transgender

[funkybluedog]

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#going to vent a little bit #lately ive been catching myself thinking that i so much wish i could be normal abt my dogs special interest and just #able to fucking talk abt it with anyone #i am literally unable to talk seriously about dogs with anyone #when i was a child my closest family was discouraging me from talking abt my special interest and getting so angry with me #it was in genuinely good faith #there were a few years when i was literally unable to talk abt anything but dogs #so nobody wanted to talk with me in turn lol not other children no adults #it was so many years ago but they did their job alright #i'm twenty and unable to have a true deeper talk abt something that is my biggest love and comfort in the world #just having the biggest mental barrier #idk how to even describe it #it just makes me sad and miserable and lonely a lot lately #everyday just wishing i wasnt the way i am. sorry for being so dramatic but the latest family issues are making me extra miserable #:(

[saracastically]

out of reach 🌕✨ a comic about scrolling on your phone and falling in love collected in full below 💕

fin 🌕

#art #comics #the theme for this was definitely 'done not perfect'. and even then i technically. shortened it. but i'm calling it done 💛 #lesbian #and so on! idk how to tag things #described in alt #idk if i'll do more comics but it's nice to branch out

[dailyloopdeloop]

DAY 71: shy

#codacheetah #isat #loop isat #isabeau isat #isat spoilers #i'll never get over loop being described as 'shy'. what a wonderful image #top one casual remarks from isabeau that cleaves loop's facade #like loop's personality is just a targeted missile to piss siffrin off. they're not at all confident and snarky #they're doing like the physical manifestation of winning an argument against yourself in the shower #second they see the party though Oopsies we're in scary territory. That's your family and they dont know it's you Oops #ok anyways ever since i saw that post i was like damn. this is just how i view loop in party postcanon #for as much as I think they SHOULD go explore around and be their own person for a while i think realistically they would not do that. #theyre going to go be a weird freak hovering around the party and refusing to socialize with anyone but siffrin and theyre gonna feel awful #(read: they're going to antagonize siffrin and it fails tremendously bc now The Rumor Come Out and siffrin knows what loop is doing.) #like loop as much as they can barely stand to even look at isabeau (for instance) i think their claws are sunk far too deep in. #onehats maybe the circumstances are different because there is a gap in understanding. there's no point forcing siffrin to confront the #obvious conclusion that loop is them (and thus siffrin's happy ending nails loop's coffin) #(THIS IS IGNORING TWOHATS PREREQS GOTTEN ONEHATS. BC THATS ITS OWN CAN OF WORMS) #but twohats. idk. for as much as it lets loop release some of their rage and process their feelings a bit. i think it might also be the pus #that makes loop consider their own existence as a person a bit more. theyre not a sponsor->corpse theyre just loop #theyre just somebody who wants desperately. they want to stay with them #theyre still siffrin. if also loop. #i think loop would force themself to reconnect with the party in the same vein as siffrin forcing himself to communicate more. #but of course having conviction and living an experience are not the same thing. so siffrin's going to flounder the emotional honesty thing #tremendously and loop's going to be. blair witching it in the corner. #hey i might have forgotten which post i was writing the tags under. oopsies #idk if these tags are comprehensible at all. i just really want to see loop fail upwards into friendship with everyone

[mourninglamby]

i get really panicked every time i see video essays in my recommendations about dsmp ... you dont get it youll never get it unless u were truly IN it and even if u were at the frontlines after lore streams (if they even acknowledge the story), i dont know u like that so idk if u know what ur actually talking about. like i dont wanna hear it lalalala dsmp exists in my head I MADE IT UP

#gibberish ass post #sorryyyy #i wish i. could find the words to describe #how seeing pics of those videos thumbnails even makes me feel #so fearful that someone would never understand wut happened #or WORSE sympathize with the fucking weirdos #idk. idk! im very frightened these days

[stiffyck]

I'm posting it before I can back out

No one will ever see me again goodbye I'm going to chuck myself off a cliff now

#i dont even wanna tag this #its bad quality on purpose btw #i totally could give you the hd version but i would most likely have to kill myself to do so SKFFKVKSG #my urge to draw gay people is strong but my embarrassement is stronger #gtws #jimmy #trafficshipping #hermitshipping #i dont even know if i should tag it with my art tag.... #ill do it. just for you guys. but i will be ignoring it every time i see it #my art #OKAY I SHOULD STOP RAMBLING #GOODBYE EVERYONE IM GONNA GO DIE IN A DITCH NOW NO ONE TALK TO ME #solidaritimes #i was made aware there is another tag for them: #scaridarity #which is somehow worse #(i do not like their shipname its so. weird idk how to describe it djgkrgls) #how do people draw kissing this is EMBARASSING #okay okay ramble over i really nees to stop procrastinating and just post it

[eggcats]

seeing the phrase "al your bitches are fighting" when referring to vox and lucifer in a fanfic singlehandedly made me ship radioapple AND radiostatic together at the same time, he's got 2 hands

#hazbin hotel #alastor #vox #lucifer morningstar #radioapple #radiostatic #hazbin alastor #hazbin lucifer #hazbin vox #i very much ship radioapple but i felt like radiostatic was more one sided but now its like #theyre both his bitches and thats so funny #i dont ship lucifer and vox tho #just them both with Alastor and they fight for his attention #its even funnier if alastor doesnt even notice that he's dating them both #he just is #idk how to describe it but i ship them EXACTLY in the 'your bitches are fighting ' way now #just vox and lucifer constantly trying to show each other up for Alastor's attention and him not even noticing #meanwhile everyone else is watching like damn get your bitches in line its causing a ring wide incident- and lucifer is about to involve #the other rings out of spite pls get your bitches in line #and Alastor is just there like i made food for us all and now suddenly everyone is fine again #up until the moment he looks at one of them .1 second longer than the other #and then it restarts

[padfootastic]

i just want to put it out there that sirius black is scary as fuck from a purely physical point of view.

he’s tall as shit, has been since fifth year when he got his growth spurt, and he has tendency to loom over most people.

there’s also the matter of his poker face—it’s impeccable, untouchable. can make anyone feel like him stuck to the bottom of his shoe. he learnt it from the best in house black and it’s his default. there’s a reason people are afraid of approaching him, and are slightly awed by james’ ability to unconditionally do so at all times.

his magic is ridiculously sentient. it swirls around him at all times, often feeling suffocating to those near him. he doesn’t even notice how it swells with his emotions, rising in his defence without him having to call it. at times, it can feel like a brick wall, that’s how powerful it is. and it’s cold. people have been known to shiver and turn into metaphorical icicles around him.

and he’s also just intimidating in a—social capital way ykno? so much money, training, and status. it shows. he could be dressed in a potato sack and he’d still reek of royalty. which is essentially what the blacks are.

and this is it u don’t take padfoot into account. this fuckoff huge Grim who’s literally an omen of death, easily twice the size of any human around him, just bounding around with sharp canines on display and malice in his eyes. it’s the easiest thing to piss ur pants when u come into contact w him.

#sirius black #james potter #goes without saying most of these are hcs #not the height thing tho that’s just canon #(and what inspired this too lol) #i was just thinking of how sirius is physically imposing #and how u don’t need to be built like a truck for it #bc james is. but he’s not threatening. he is slightly intimidating in that he commands authority #but people aren’t *scared* of him #sirius tho? #people cross the road to avoid him #and this is just him as is #when he actually starts dressing up and shit #it’s worse #some of my fav sirius descriptions in fics are just when they’re describing his power lol #pura khada ho jaata hai ngl #bc he just??? has so much?!? of it?? #and that’s not to even touch the political or economic part of it #idk man he’s just hot all around bc of how powerful and this scary he is #also re sirius’ height; one of my fav posts on this hellsite will forever be the nba player sirius one lmao #v v accurate i think #pen’s notes

[shattered-earth]

I just found out discord lets you change your voice chat entrance sound if you have nitro so I made a sound file of the BG3 "aaaAAAAAaaaaa" sound to use for our co-op game so whenever i join the chat it'll make the aaaAAAAAaaa sound LOL. Feel free to use it for the same purpose :O

#baldur's gate 3 #not art #audio #ahhhhahh #idk how to even describe this post #bg3

[lemon-wedges]

Its been a while since I updated this little project but heres the dealio. I got "mysteriously" sick for the last 2 months and it kinda halted my work on getting this thing physically printed. BUT IM BACK and ready to start this up again. I'm really hoping i get everything done by Jan. or very latest feb (mostly anticipating for holiday slow down)

In the meantime i got a few questions on my interest check asking if i would offer a digital version of the zine. and the answer 2 months late is YES I WILL YOU CAN GET IT NOW ACTUALLY ON MY GUMROAD OR KO-FI HURRRAYYYYYY!!!! 🥳🥳 GO CHECK IT OUT ITS $3

GUMROAD | KO-FI

#the art of a lemon wedge #homumiko #baroryuu #otasune #feel like a fucking #victorian woman in a novel the way i got sick for no reason those months #vertigo. brain fog. parts of my body would go tingley. and for 2-3 hours at a random time of the day my entire body would just feel BAD #idk else how to describe it cause it was not pain #i could not predict what would trigger those 2-3 hours of BAD and it seemed to change every day #and then some days i wouldnt get them but i would still get vertigo and brain fog whenever i would go to bed #anyways #IT WAS THE WATER #STUPID LA WATER BLEH BLEH #I WENT TO TEXAS TO VISIT FAM FOR A WEEK AND ALL MY SYMPTOMS WENT AWAY #-_- #and now im on a strict distilled/purified bottle water diet #i cant even eat food thats been boiled in whatever the hell gets put into the gallons at the store.....sigh #BUT IM BETTER #and ready to get back into it #:D