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ickypuppi3 · 1 year

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there’s something about the events leading up to billy being flayed that i can’t stop thinking about

like you’ve got this 17 year old who gets sent out to look for his little sister and he winds up at a much older woman’s house where he essentially has to flirt with her to get the information he needs and she reciprocates, all while knowing he’s underage

then the whole situation at the byers happens and no one sees it the way billy does, no one except for him seems to realise that it’s fucking weird for steve to be in the middle of nowhere with a group of kids while lying about it, no one believes billy and he still comes out worse in the end with him being even more isolated than he already was

and then you move onto season 3 and you have the first episode where a newly 18 year old billy is introduced by being sexualised and objectified by a group of women way older than him, karen included, and it’s made obvious that they had to have learnt his work schedule by the way they talk and that they do this often which.. yeah

then billy goes up to karen and she reciprocates his flirting once again and agrees to meet up with him later with the full intention of having sex with him out at some motel somewhere, despite knowing his age

and it’s so wild to me that all of this predatory behaviour is what actually lead to billy crashing his car - he was literally on his way to see karen when it happened, that’s the only reason he was ever there - and that all of this grooming is essentially what lead to billy being attacked in such a brutal way that is so reminiscent of sa

then there’s the scene after he gets dragged to the basement where he manages to call 911 and he doesn’t answer when asked what his emergency is because he doesn’t know what to say/doesn’t think he’ll even be believed which is all too common among victims

and then you circle back to the night at the byers, the night where billy’s seen as irrational for thinking anything’s off, where he ends up being the person ‘in the wrong’ and where all of that happened right after karen started being predatory towards him and the first time he was (unknowingly) in a situation relating to the upside down

i have a lot of thoughts

something about the chain of events leading up to billy being flayed, about how everything is so interconnected and how that works when you’re looking at it in this specific way

something about grooming, something about victims not being believed, something about billy in particular never being believed and people blaming things on how he acts rather than seeing that the way he acts is a direct result of things that have happened to him

something about how he’s immediately isolated after the fight at the byers, something about how isolated he is after he’s attacked, the way his demeanour changes when he leaves karen’s house, how his behaviour seems to change after the byers, and how his behaviour changes completely once he’s attacked

how all of it fits this allegory, right from the start

#yes his reaction afterwards but also the events leading up to it #billy hargrove #cw grooming #cw assault #cw sa mention #yeah i’m still on this #like something about the mindflayer being a metaphor for karen being a metaphor for the whole process of grooming and eventually sa #something about how abuse victims are more likely to have something like this happen #something about not being able to deal with the after affects and no one helping #something about how experiences like that isolate you #and the fact billy quite literally kills himself at the end #idk call me crazy but it’s there #i could go into the whole ‘it’s like a shadow’ thing #considering my therapist and i literally had a whole conversation about how you can see shit that isn’t there due to trauma #like your brain is so stressed that it makes up something to be scared of #it’s all there !#and then it’s like #the fact i know they didn’t do it on purpose #considering they use the whole karen billy situation as a funny #and yk it’s the duffers #really hate them for that #if you see any spelling mistakes no you don’t #does this make sense? i hope it makes sense #it’s one of those things that’s been stuck in my brain and that whole talk yesterday brought it back full force

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hyolks · 1 year

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idiot who doesnt realize how much theyre gonna have to draw cowboy hats: uhmmmm scifi western fma au

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #edward elric #alphonse elric #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fmab #inspired by me slowly getting absorbed into rdr2 and everything ive been seeing of trigun stampede #and the singular cowboy ed madootles posted the other day #changing my life yall #and yes they have guns but the secret IS is that those guns are FAKE #bc their intimidation factor is so impressive that they never need to use them #i mean? firebomb short king edward elric going crazy on you and 6'4" alphonse elric looming over u with his hat tipped down?#gone. gone like the wind #idk might call this the wastelands au bc fun :^)#wastelands au

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aleeyenn · 24 days

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#bfdi #bfb #flower #ruby #flowby #floweruby #IDK i call them flowby #FHEYRE SOOO CUUTWWE ILOCE THME FOREVER #I HAD THE BIGGEST PHASE WITH THEM IN 2020… forever in my heart #bfdia made me crazy ILOVE YOU FLOWER

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dawnbreakersgaze · 21 days

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This suit this suit this suit 🤬

What is it about this STUPID FREAKING SUIT that makes me so god damned feral for this man

All his other clothes? Totally normal. Yeah he looks good. Great even. He's attractive and lovely and I enjoy looking at him.

But in this? This 90s lesbian-chic turtleneck and blazer combo? That looks like it would be super warm and maybe a little itchy (probably a wool blend??)? That shows 0 skin and leaves literally so much to the imagination that even a Quaker would tell you to let loose and live a little???

Absolutely FERAL. I'm a mess. I want to launch myself into orbit because of this stupid stupid suit.

#Zayne and this suit #if youve been here since the beginning you know i call this his slutty suit #bc it makes me feel things #idk what this post is accomplishing other than me just being crazy at 2:30 am #i just needed to get out lol #lnds #love and deepspace #lads #love & deepspace #zayne #zayne love and deepspace #l&ds #love and deepspace zayne

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velvetsart · 10 months

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some pet portraits from 2021 that i dont think i posted, on the left is Angus and on the right is Momma Mora (Angus’ mom). they were 2 out of 5 pet portraits i did for a lovely client. she has 4 rescue kitties and one dog and we came up with outfits to match their personalities. challenging but fun !!

#momma mora is prob my favourite out of the 5 #the owner rescued them both and said Mora was very shy #so i tried to show that with the reserved outfit #whereas angus was described as crazy and adventurous so he got a little solider outfit #are knights soliders?? idk #painting the armour was SO cool. i love painting shiny stuff #i dont really understand how armour works so dont call me out #i dont normally draw/paint outfits so it was difficult but rewarding #she also provided incredibly high quality reference photos of them which was a godsend #pet portraits #cats #catblr #cat art #cat painting #art #artists on tumblr #traditional #acrylic painting

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dizzybizz · 9 days

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al lsasints steret 🥺

i lvoe alll saints stereettttrahghghhhh

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pablohunie1993 · 1 month

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I know I poke fun at the john constantine pink triangle incident but jokes aside i'm genuinely curious what other people think about it. imo it's a great blaring example of how incapable dc is at writing john's bisexuality into a story that doesn't surround corporate pride or getting together with a man.

I tried talking about it once on tiktok (idk what i was thinking either) and a few people defended it saying things like "how else would you explain a blond hair blue eyed man being sent to a ww2 ghetto?"

didn't the joker send him there? was that not reason enough? 'the joker' was kidnapping girls and ordering soldiers around, we can't suspend our belief that she had the power to send a british soldier caught undercover as a nazi away? the pink triangle and 'bunny that doesn't breed' comment was necessary to the plot?

#maybe i'm being dramatic or chronically online i'm genuinely curious what other people think #i know there's some big bombshell fans and i'm not gonna act like i didn't read it issue by issue as a kid #also call me crazy but that whole issue was weird #from the pacing to the raven stuff #but make me see a pink triangle stitched into ((the trenchcoat)) again i'm dropping comics bruh #also correct me if it's just a different tone in the west like something you can joke about and it just went over my head or something IDK 😭#john constantine #dc comics #dcu #dc bombshells #zatanna zatara

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petrichormore · 5 months

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God q!BBH is fascinating. His paranoia especially. q!Bad has called himself paranoid in character btw. multiple times. but the one example that immediately comes to mind is when he was talking to q!Aypierre. When people call him paranoid he doesn’t really say “Nuh uh” (at least not seriously - he’s become a little more self-aware) he says “okay maybe I am, maybe I’m not. but don’t you understand why?”

for q!BBH the price of potentially overreacting and hurting his friends’ feelings with his lack of trust is significantly outweighed by the price of an egg fucking dying because he decided to relax. He has been the deciding factor in a life-or-death situation for an egg multiple times. And his overreactions have saved lives. Obviously his developing belief that he’s like the Lone Responsible Caretaker of the Eggs is like blatantly incorrect but it didn’t come into existence in a void. It isn’t just one of his inventions it’s a consequence of other parents putting (whether purposely or accidentally) a lot of pressure on him that he tried and failed to escape from.

So he doesn’t care if he’s paranoid, he doesn’t care if his distrust hurts people, he doesn’t care about what’s reasonable or not - he cares about the eggs being alive. And if being unreasonable has kept the eggs alive in the past then damn you better believe he’s only going to get more unreasonable. And he’s not going to be sorry about it either, not while he feels responsible for every single child on the island.

#also people in real life experience paranoia so when people call q!bbh annoying or stupid for it… kinda makes me go Hm.#coming from someone w a personality disorder btw #and while I don’t experience paranoia as a symptom there are other aspects of q!bbh that I def relate to #idk I guess I’m just #like yeah sure he got defensive at q!Bagi and she probably didn’t expect him to go off on her like that but #experiencing paranoia does not make you less deserving of being acknowledged yknow?#anyway sometimes the way q!BBH is talked about kinda tows the line of ableism #am i being crazy rn? i don’t know #this is mostly about older twitter stuff that I’ve seen cropping up from wayyy back #I’ve had this in the drafts for a while but his convo w Bagi made it relevant again

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micamicster · 2 months

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She’s like a cult leader <- words of a man who’s about to join a cult 😂

#literally 2 seconds later he’s clapping along I love it #😂😂😂#this is giving me… hm. fight my way vibes kinda?#like just in the way that she’s struggling so hard but despite that she’s SO GOOD. AT HER JOB #and her lack of success is about bad luck and not lack of talent… I love that in a female lead #like to me they can be as crazy as you want I just want them to be good at their damn jobs haha #wedding impossible #<- is that what it’s called? or is it impossible wedding idk

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ashersanity · 4 months

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Vampire Asher? For real?

— all art made by @shokujin-art

Bonus doodles under cut

“Too.. sweet.” Asher muttered beneath his breath, swiping the corner of his lips clean with his thumb. (Why the hell does her blood taste unnaturally sweet?) | + Love ? | + Lust ?

GAY ASHLYR REAL?? Has to deal with two of them now.

#BANGER ART ONCE MORE #I’m actually going crazy if you couldn’t tell #the biggest thing you could ever do for me is drawing art of my ocs #one day I’ll draw johan for real.. promise #(never)#dol #dol pcs #dol pc #asher the disturbed #lyra the succubus #ashlyr #asher x lyra #VAMPIRE ASHER CANON?!??#idk how shoku willingly draws this like it’s nothing and calls it a doodle #art for me #shoku the beloved #m!lyra being a twink somehow caught me off guard despite knowing she’d be one

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beanghostprincess · 5 months

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the whole "doflamingo has always been evil" thing doesn't sit right with me. idk. maybe it's because i think the environment during childhood is what shapes someone's personality, especially if there's a traumatic experience. and call me crazy, but perhaps being raised in a world full of supremacists and classists with an extreme god complex can affect your views on the world and yourself at a very early age. and perhaps i'm being a bit insane here, but, like, idk. maybe being fucking tied up and tortured and seeing everything you love burnt down to ashes while a whole town tells you you're evil for your mere existence could make you develop a hatred towards them. and, wow! maybe i'm saying something wild, but if you're taking care of your little brother and an older man tells you you're the chosen one to create a fucking mafia and he boosts your god complex to an insane, unhealthy, and almost grooming-like extent, of fucking course you're gonna end up like doflamingo.

but idk, call me crazy.

#not justifying his actions because HE IS EVIL #however the whole 'he has always been evil' thing makes me a bit sick #i hate those types of plots tbh especially when it's OBVIOUS his personality was BUILT and he isn't inherently evil #we did not watch his childhood and his trauma responses in dressrosa for people to say he's evil reincarnated #i mean he is evil reincarnated but he has his reasons idk #and call me crazy but i think that killing KIDS is wrong and the ones who tortured them were fucking wild for that #idk man i support the abolishment of celestial dragons and i fucking hate their guts HOWEVER #kids??? KIDS????? c'mon #being a doffy stan is hard #one piece #donquixote doflamingo

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punkeropercyjackson · 4 months

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Fandoms when you headcanon a canon male character as transmasc and call him 'a malewife/babygirl-coded/a man eldest daughter syndrome/etc',make him be abused by other male characters as 'dark content' and genuinely ship him with the ones who canonically treat him like shit,are too old for him or often even both:😁😁😁😉😉😉🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍😌😌😌🥺🥺🥺

Fandoms when you headcanon a canon male character as a trans woman egg and write her as going through realistic transfem experiences and her transfeminism respectfully,potray her as happier than ever because of finally being allowed to be her true self and ship her with her male friends and/or canon female love interests as wholesome but still interesting relathionships:🤔🤔🤔🤨🤨🤨😐😐😐😒😒😒🙄🙄🙄😵😵😵

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philzokman · 5 months

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whenever i read skk fanfiction theres always a point in the evening where i look across my room to my copy of dazai’s self portraits and feel the need to clarify to myself that i am not, in fact, reading fanfiction of two authors but rather the twinkified anime versions of said authors

#i don’t think it makes it much better😔😔 SLASH JAY SLASH JAY DJSKSJ #reading this one rn though that’s overall so fucking good but the author made dazai’s children in the fic named after his irl children and i #i think that might be a little bit too far i’m ngl to yous like i love adding in details of the irl authors novels and all that but.#idk man Maybe writing in their Actual children into an author au fanfic is teetering on the line of bsd fanfic and rpf #CALL ME CRAZY FHSKDHD #still continuing w it though i fucking love an author au #😔😔#lea.txt #bsd #bungo stray dogs #sobbing violently #bungou stray dogs #bsd skk #skk #soukoku #bsd soukoku #bungou stray dogs dazai #osamu dazai #dazai osamu

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oceanwithouthermoon · 4 months

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at the end of a lot of my posts involving toritsuka i always stop myself from elaborating too much cuz i end up thinking like 'ah everyones knows how i feel about toritsuka' but DO THEY ?? do they.. because ive gotten (and ignored) multiple asks from people who think i fucking hate toritsuka and its so insane to me because WHERE DID I FUCKING SAY THAT?? guys.

he is literally so silly! i lowkey feel like i need to make a masterpost of everything ive ever said about him just so that i can force it down everyones throats and make you all understand my complex feelings on this stupid dumb idiotic little freak!

its a love-hate kind of obsession <3

#its not really 'love-hate' i dont hate him at all i just think he is very complex and interesting #and i do like to focus on his wrongs more than his rights but its not because im trying to invalidate his progression #its because i think he does those bad things for a REASON and i want to build on that #my beautiful princess with a traumatic past and a redemption arc #its not really a redemption arc idk what else to call it though #this is also how i feel about kusuke btw like how can people think i hate him.#both of these characters i literalky just acknowledge the bad things they canonically do and people take it as hate #that tells me so much about how u guys ignore the bad parts of your fav characters #stop pretending they did nothing wrong. they did so much wrong.#'hes my babygirl he can do no wrong' NUH UH hes MY babygirl and he's committed atrocities #its just sooooo crazy to me that people refuse to acknowledge him doing shitty things just cuz they like him..#this is kind of why i created the meownalysis tag cuz i wanted people to b able to see my specific takes if they were looking #but sometimes i just talk and it doesnt quite fall under an analysis or i just like mention something quietly in a post #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k.#toritsuka reita #meows post #meownalysis #?? not realky but in gonna put it here

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themostefficientwaywithwater · 2 years

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I've seen a lot of people are as excited as me for a Zelda game that focus on how Ganon's constant reincarnations affects negatively to Zelda, Link and even Ganondorf. We've already seen this theme subtly in BotW (Zelda chastised for not awakening her power, Link unable to speak and enjoy himself because of how the Hero's title burdens him). However, I normally wouldn't expect "the harm the vicious cycle of reincarnation makes on it's unwitting pawns" to be the theme of a Zelda game. After all, it's Nintendo, and we know they don't like to stray so far from the "evil is bad and we must defeat it" plotline and they wouldn't dare to criticize the goddesses' plans...

Oh, wait, they already did it.

The Wind Waker is about letting go of the past and how being unable to move on will harm you and future generations. Daphnes and Ganondorf can't let go of their kingdom, and they die with it because they can't imagine themselves living without it. It harms Medli and Makar, who are taken away from their home and family and are confined into the heart of a dungeon so the Master Sword can maintain it's full power. It harms Tetra, too, who sees her whole individuality taken away in favor of performing her role as "Princess Zelda". And it harms Link, who is treated as a pawn by Daphness to do the work of the Hero of Legend, despite literally being Just A Kid (TM) who just wanted to rescue his sister.

But, despite everything, they manage to break the cycle, as Ganondorf no longer appears in other titles situated in the Adult Timeline (neither do Hyrule, or the Triforce or the Master Sword, or most classical elements of TLOZ). By killing Ganondorf, Demise's hatred could no longer persist in the world, thus breaking the eternal cycle of death and reincarnation. But how could that happen? Sure stabbing a whole man in the head usually turns to be fatal, but that's been done before and they only managed to seal him away. Why did this time work?

I think he just gave up.

He realised he would never get Hyrule, that even when everything was at his favor (the Hero gone, the Princess at his power, the Master Sword was weakened, he even managed to get the Triforce of Courage from Link!) he still lost. He gave one last fight, but he didn't even transform to Ganon (it's only appearance is as a puppet, another symbol if he being treated as a pawn by a higher power) and after Link delivers the final blow, he accepts his fate and passes away.

Even though he's been treated as the major villain in the series, he's been as much as a pawn from the gods as the multiple Heroes and Princesses from the series. He may not have been the best man before OoT, but he was a victim of his circunstances and his initial motives where to grant his people a home where they could live in peace instead of fearing death day and night, turning into thieves just to survive. But he was corromped by anger, by revenge, by malice, and he turned the perfect vessel for Demise's curse. I think that BotW's Ganon was the same but it's been so many centuries that the man he once was can not be recognised, he's more of a beast now. But I still have hope, and now that his "mummy" has awakened, maybe we could get a more humanized version of Ganondorf instead of a simple "demon of malice". The old leader of a desert tribe who just wanted to give a better life to his people, and went too far.

I find this to be very unlikely, but not impossible. While WW's Ganondorf had it easier, as he was more collected and thoughtful, there's still the possibility that Ganondorf "awakes" from its Ganon-self and shows a bit more of characterization and his motives. Who knows, we could even break the cycle in BotW-TotK's timeline if Ganondorf refuses to continue this endless cicle of destruction and give up on Hyrule's conquest (a little more optimistic that being stabbed on the head, please and with sugar on top). But we may have to pay a big price to make it. After all, the cycle was broken in WW, but a great sacrifice was necessary...

Hyrule's destruction

#legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #wind waker #this is a mess and you're right for calling me out of this #i'm very tired ok but i can't stop rotating this like some rottiserie chicken #anyways nintendo please do something with ganondorf #acknowledge he's as much of a pawn as link and zelda #don't give us another mindless monster or evil overlord #lets put an end on this endless cycle #also i know the last bit of the post is batshit crazy #it's based on that ''tears'' could refer both as teardrops and rifts #like the whole kingdom is being teared apart #idk have this #play wind waker #let go on the past and look toward the future #drink some water #bye #also excuse my language my english is poor when i'm on no sleep #which is always

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aprofessionalwithoutstandards · 1 year

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You guys know I'm not a proponent at all for the "Medic tf2 has/had a wife" thing but like as an outsider looking in can I just say I kind of hate the way a lot of people will characterize her... Like tf2 both as a property and a community already have so many problems w misogyny and seeing people take this woman who might as well not even exist (I don't think she does lol), who they could choose to write in ANY way they want, and defaulting to like. "horrible controlling bitch" (ESPECIALLY in the context of "horrible controlling bitch who is keeping my gay bois uwu from being together!!!" like you CAN write a lot about the nuances of gay men who marry women but I am begging for Fandoms(tm) in general to abandon the "woman as an obstacle to my yaoi" thing in 2023 please)

#was talking abt this w someone the other day and it won't leave my head #tf2 #team fortress 2 #medic #medic tf2 #tf2 medic #idk it's not About Him but what other exposure tags could i use #anyway countdown timer until someone calls me a crazy bitch for talking abt misogyny again

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