#i'm still like fighting the cringe to post but at the same time it's kinda a vibe

[currentlyonstandbi]

#like minds #murderous intent #like minds 2006 #tom sturridge #eddie redmayne #nigel colbie #alex forbes #OKAY BEFORE ANYONE SAYS ANYTHING #i know i said last post that that was the only contribution i'd make about this fim and then never again #but i think the spring sun turned me temporarily insane today and this happened #even i can't believe i willingly made another like minds post #and an edit too???? i don't make edits i make shitposts and the occasional analysis/meta post if the media is worth the effort #but an edit? with edgy quotes to boot? i just don't do that and yet here we are #i'm still like fighting the cringe to post but at the same time it's kinda a vibe #i see people make incredibly well put together edits and i'm over here with an on fire garbage can of a post #quote #literature #tom sturridge edit #eddie redmayne edit

[lvrslvt3]

TEMPER | e.laundry

main masterlist | scream masterlist

pairings : ethan landry x reader

summary : reader feels like her boyfriend - ethan - is avoiding her.

warnings : angsty, not feeling loved, established relationship, arguing

notes : this is the very angsty post i’ve really done, so it might be cringe.

"ethan!" i felt myself grow lighter as my boyfriend finally entered the living room, his hair messy and eyes looking tired after returning from the library. he was studying for econ, again, but now he was doing it at the library for a reason unknown to me. i didn't ask; afraid i'd get my feelings hurt by it.

"is he okay?" chad questioned me from the other side of the couch we were laying back on, both of us each having a blanket while we watched a movie as i waited on ethan to come back. i had met chad through ethan but he had slowly became my friend aswell.

i shrugged, still staring at his bedroom door. since he had ignored me i decided to let him have some alone time to cool down before speaking to him. "let's just finish the movie." i decided after a moment.

chad unpaused the tv just as i heard the shower begin running. hopefully that would put ethan in a better mood, or relax him so we could talk about whatever was bothering him.

"it's so cold." chad groaned as he let the blanket drop from himself, folding it quickly and throwing it over the back of the couch. “good luck.” he patted my shoulder as he passed me.

i sighed out, rubbing my eyes. "night." i murmured but chad was already speed walking to his room to avoid the cold. that means i was left with my own thoughts, but i hadn't been able to escape them even as we watched tv.

all i had thought about was ethan and his lack of affection in the past two weeks — avoiding touching my hand, not even looking at me ever. if he was my boyfriend surely he would want to look at me?

he used to be such a doting boyfriend but now he had done a complete 360. even our friends had asked me if things were okay and if we were fighting but i had just said that he was stressed from school. i was tired of defending him but it was like a second nature now.

getting up from the couch i folded the blanket just like chad had before scurrying over to ethan's room. the cold air had already caused goosebumps to form all over my body despite being in all warm clothing.

when i realised how cold it was earlier i stole one of ethan's hoodies, as always, but now all i wanted was to be curled up in his bed and forget that i can feel him slipping away from me. i may aswell try and enjoy our last moments.

i opened and closed the door without any noise. i turned to ethan - hoping he would do something to help me - however, he didn't as much as even look at me. the man stayed glued to his phone.

"hey." i whispered quietly through the dark room in hopes for a reaction. i felt out of place, something that i thought i’d never feel around ethan. he glanced up at me, finally looking at me.

"you and chad done hanging out?" it sounded like venom coming out of his mouth but it only confused me. he knew chad and i were friends and despite him being jealous of me and other guys that never happened with his roommate.

"yeah." i decided to not hear the tone he was using, "i was waiting on you and he was watching a movie so i just joined him...is that okay?" i felt stupid for asking. i didn't need him to decide what i did.

"it just feels like you're hanging out with chad more than me." he finally turned off his phone and sat it down on his nightstand, leaving us with only light from his small lamp.

i scoffed slightly but tried to stay calm. we should be able to talk this through like adults. "i'm sorry if i've made you feel that way, ethan, but i've kind of felt the same way with you...kinda."

i fidgeted with my fingers as i stood by the end of his bed, not comfortable enough to join him just yet. "what do you mean?" he scrunched his nose up to make it clear he had no clue what i was referring to.

his expression towards me made me feel stupid, like i was the one in the wrong when i knew i was definitely not. "i just...i feel like we're pretending to be a couple. i don't know, it's stupid." i tried to brush it off.

he just stared at me as if i was speaking some unknown language at him. nervously, i let out a small chuckle and looked down at the floor, "you make me feel so insecure." i mumbled out after taking a moment to try and regain some bravery.

when i had mentioned an insecurity to him, around when we first got together, he had made sure i never felt that way again with him. he always worshipped me even at my worse so i knew that i could always come to him.

this time he let out a deep audible sigh, visibly frustrated at me. "what are you talking about?" he questioned in an almost bored tone. i could barely look at him, he wasn't the ethan i knew before.

but he didn't persist on my answer. he only continued to stare at me as if i was invisible until i met his eyes. "did you just forget about me or something?" my throat almost broke down halfway through. in the darkness of the room i could feel tears begin to brim my eyes.

he scoffed at me this time. "i gave you everything i had, i'm sorry if that's not good enough for you!" his voice grew louder as we spoke. i knew for a fact chad could hear us through the walls.

"you don't understand, ethan—" i tried to reason but he was already too worked up. "i can never do anything right can i?" he threw his arms out in an agitated state, his eyes narrowing on me.

my mouth opened to try and diffuse the situation but i couldn't. he looked the angriest i had ever seen him, ever. we had argued before but he never made me feel this way — so stupid.

i felt exposed and vulnerable in a way that made me not able to speak fully. "fine, if i'm not enough for you then you'll never see me again, okay?" he yelled out once again, his eyebrows raising mockingly at me,

"eth—"

"just get out!" he got up from his bed, stepping towards me. "get the fuck out, and don't come back!" he continued to yell as i backed up to the door i had just came through.

just as my hand clutched around the door handle i tried one last attempt to salvage our relationship. "please, ethan, it's not what i meant. you know i lo—" before i could respond he began yelling again.

"get out!" i opened the door just as he picked up his lamp, "just fucking get out!" he threw the lamp at the wall beside his bed just as i shut the door behind me.

i stared at the door as another thud came, leaving me in shock as i tried to process what had just happened. "y/n? are you okay?" a new voice entered the situation, causing my mind to become clearer.

i glanced over at chad that was peeking out from his bedroom door. he knew ethan wouldn't hurt me physically which was why he hadn't stormed in as soon as the yelling began.

"um.." i trailed off as i tried to make sense of the situation, "i think ethan just broke up with me." my voice grew quiet as i finally said the dreadful words out loud, everything suddenly becoming more real.

chad didn't say anything else, instead coming over and wrapping his arms around me just as another smash came from inside ethans room. the thud made me finally break.

i felt my lip begin to quiver as i flung myself into chad’s chest, the sobs finally escaping me as he guided me into his room and let me hyperventilate into his shoulder at the fact my relationship had just ended.

i awoke to the feeling of dry eyes and an empty feeling nestled into my chest. i knew where i was as soon as i woke up but it felt like a dream, that last night was only a bad nightmare instead of my reality.

but it wasn't. afterwards i had fallen asleep in chads bed and he had blown up the air mattress and laid on the floor by my side the whole night afraid i would have another panick attack or something.

i was grateful he did, but now i was stuck in ethan's apartment while he hated my guts for an reason i didn’t know. the bedroom door opened and chad slipped in, a small sad smile on his face.

"ethan's in the kitchen pacing," he updated me, "he thought you had went home by yourself last night, was worried sick cause you weren't answering your phone."

"i think my phones somewhere in the living room." i answered with a raspy tone, not sure what my next move was. all i wanted really was to see ethan but i didn't want to argue again.

"he's okay. he came in to wake me up so we could go search for you but saw you here. waited in the kitchen to speak to me but he just left for his room again, i think." chad tapped his fingers against the door he was leaning against.

i nodded in acknowledgment to chads words. "i don't know what to say to him." i confessed to my friend, but he didn't seem to have much advice for me either since he only shrugged at my direction.

"just go and see how things go. if he starts bad mouthing you just leave or scream my name and i'll come deal with him." he walked over and sat beside me, placing a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"thanks, chad." i whispered before getting up and stretching. my bones still felt tense as i left his room for my boyfriends, or my ex boyfriends now. i waited by his door for a moment before finally entering.

i closed the door just as he got off of his bed to approach me. though, he stopped a few steps away from me. i just stared at him, he had the same look he used to have when he looked at me — no disgust.

he had the same messy curls, and the same comforting feeling i missed when i was in his presence. "you're still in my clothes." he commented while glancing at my figure.

"i didn't have anything else to wear." i mumbled the lie. i had pyjamas in one of his drawers but i was too scared to go back into his room again. "sorry about sleeping in chads room, i promise nothing happened—"

ethan only shook his head and finally took the last steps to meet me, flinging his arms around my shoulders and holding my body close to his. "i shouldn't have said that, y/n."

i nodded along. "i know." i mumbled but he only continued to shake his head, holding me closer to his chest. "you should be screaming at me right now, i was so cruel to you."

i didn't reply, unsure on what to say, and let him hold me tightly so i could finally find the comfort in his chest that i had been aching for. there was a soft kiss placed on my head before speaking again.

"you don't ever have to pretend. not with me, not ever." he referenced what i had said last night. he pulled away to hold my head softly in his hands to make sure i looked at him as he spoke.

"i love you, every part of you, and i'm a dick for making you feel otherwise. you know that, don't you?" i nodded, unsure on why he wasn't defending himself more.

"i'm so sorry, baby." he leaned in to kiss me and i let it happen, his grip tightening as if i would somehow slip from his grasp. he stopped after a moment to lean his forehead against mine; both of us unable to open our eyes yet.

we knew what had happened last night, and we both knew who was to blame for it, but i didn't want to talk about it anymore. "will you just.....hold me? please." i didn't try to hide my desperation from him.

i didn’t want to hide anything from him anymore, i wanted us to get back to how we used to be. ethan nodded and led me into his bed, covering us with his duvet and letting me tuck myself into his chest. "you shouldn't love me, y/n." he told me while running a hand through my hair.

i didn't answer but instead slipped my hand under his hoodie to gather more of his warmth. i didn’t feel close enough to him despite there not being any room for air between us.

"i don't want anyone else." i answered in a quiet tone. my head was spinning from all the dramatics of the past two days but i was finally grounded as we lay together in peace.

he sighed, disappointed in my answer, almost as if he wanted me to hate him. "next time you feel like that come and tell me, okay? i promise i won't blow up in your face like last night."

i nodded. i didn't want to speak anymore but he continued on. "how did i make you insecure?" he questioned while moving his hand to run up and down my arm.

i shrugged, not sure how to answer him. "you changed," i finally decided after a moment of silence, "i just...i didn't feel loved anymore. you wouldn't even look at me, ethan."

ethan leaned forward to place another gentle kiss on top of my head. "i love you more than life itself, y/n. i'm sorry you thought otherwise," he moved his finger to my chin to make me look up at him.

"but don't think like that again, okay? no matter what we argue about you should always know how deeply inlove i am with you." he spoke sternly, holding me tighter while my eyes fluttered closed.

i nodded, finally feeling what i had been missing.

[stackthedeck]

do you have any spideydevil headcanon’s to share? i’m honestly desperate for new spideydevil content and no one in this fandom is making any anymore :(

I KNOW RIGHT!! About a month or two after no way home, Peter and Matt kinda dropped from the mcu fans' radar. I actually have a lot of thoughts about how Marvel's constant stream of content is bad for transformative fandom in the long run and migratory sub-fandoms within relatively stable fandoms but that's a post that requires academic citations someone please ask me about this dear god I couldn't fit it into a three minute tiktok and if I just post an essay about the mcu that'd a special unhinged cringe

But spideydevil headcanons! (this isn't about mcu Peter, hate that I have to say that, but you know)

They get together almost by accident. Both of them almost exclusively date non-heroes and that always goes wrong, there's always something they can't give to their partner because they have to be a hero. And so they swear off dating, in fact, they swear off dating together. They were venting to each other and decided hey let's do this together. And when you're really aware of the fact that you're not dating, you realize you're acting like you're dating. Bringing food to stake-outs that quickly just become picnics, crashing at each others' places just be annoyingly touching on the couch, panicking whenever either of them are in an above average amount of danger. They have like a whole brothers-in-arms type of deal but also kind of a friends with benefits type of deal because it's Matt and it's also Peter let's be real they're both sluts. After about the fifth time of waking up to Peter clinging to him in bed after a dinner at the top of a skyscraper the night before, Matt's like "okay, I'm pretty sure this is dating."

They do a lot of fixing each other up after fights. Peter's healing factor is good, but it's not that good and Matt is Matt so the first aid kit is well stocked. Peter usually tries to patch himself up, he's too precious with his secret identity that he's often suffering alone. The injuries will always heal eventually, but Matt still fuses over him and know that he's hurting, touching him carefully. Matt has plenty of people that know he's Daredevil, he could call Claire or Foggy or Karen, but he calls Peter. Peter doesn't touch him like he's made out of glass, just slaps the bandage on and tells him to be more careful next time, or call him before the fight. Even though he knows Matt can handle himself, he still presses his bruised knuckles to his lips and kisses them better. Knows that Matt can take the pain, needs the pain, but still doesn't want him to suffer.

Peter is Jewish and Matt is Catholic and you'd think that'd cause some problems, but it doesn't. Peter's non-practicing and Matt's a bad Catholic, but they both love to talk about religion. They don't argue the little details because neither of them keeps the little details of their own faiths, it's always more about throwing questions at each other the "what ifs" and the "how do we know" and "are we really sure" kind of questions. vocalizing that doubt, it grounds them and connects them to that higher force. They both like talking and thinking and letting faith be a place of doubt is oddly enough reassuring. They both have very different experiences with faith, both practice very different faiths, but that connection to something higher, little rituals when they can, connecting with a community, it's different but it's the same. Peter still thinks Christians are superstitious and weird and he's right and you couldn't pay him to go to a mass, but he likes how Matt sounds when he prays, his fingers gently rubbing the rosary beads. Matt gets invited to high holidays and he adores the joy that religion brings to Peter's family and community and respects the solemn history, aspires to the level of knowledge and discussion. Anytime Peter brings Matt to Aunt May, she asks, "so when are you going to convert" and Matt says, "when Peter proposes" and Peter hates them both and is pretty sure they're both joking...maybe.

Peter's spidey sense has nothing on Matt's radar, but it is better than most people. They throw things a lot. If it is not nailed down and it must be given to the other person, it's getting thrown. Foggy nearly has a heartache when Peter swings by the office and just chucks a thermos of hot coffee at Matt who catches it without flinching. This also results in them throwing themselves at each other (insert that Brooklyn 99 meme). Which results in trying to sneak up on each other. Peter falls from the ceiling into Matt's open arms and pouts because "I was so fucking quiet how did you know? I was really trying this time!" Matt uses his ninja skills to sneak into Peter's apartment, controlling his breathing and heart rate, surely he's not a danger to Peter's spidey sense because they're dating. Peter finds him within moments of stepping in the door and dips him into a kiss which Matt accepts but he does whine the rest of the night. But both of them have reflexes that board on pre-cognition and this makes for some wild team-up fighting. Like Matt flips off a skyscraper the same second Peter arcs into a swing, catching him and then throwing him again so that both their swings are perfect, the two of them tossing the billy clubs around like a ping pong ball so fast the bad guys can't even see it, lot of crazy acrobatic shit

Matt is horrified when he actually witnesses Peter's hand-to-hand combat skills. Like Peter's web combat is something completely by his own design, Matt can't touch that. But holy shit who taught Peter to throw a punch? No one?! He can't let this stand, super strength and healing are the only things keeping him standing. Matt brings Peter to Fogwell's and it brings up old memories of Elektra, but also his dad and the good and the bad, old and new mix together and there's nowhere else he wants Peter. He shows him how to throw a punch, how to hold himself, how to make a fist and there's so much touching. Like Matt, you don't need to put your hands on him to make sure he's in the right position. But if they also fuck in that boxing ring that's nobody's business but theirs. Suddenly Peter isn't all awkward long harsh lines, he's tight and controlled and there's always been power behind him but now it's focussed. It's beautiful and terrifying, but that proper form works wonders like holy shit he has so much energy now that his body doesn't need to pour extra strength into shitty punches and heal micro fractures in his hands

Peter has a spot with everyone he's ever been serious about. With Gwen, it was the Brooklyn Bridge. With Johnny, it was the statue of liberty. With MJ, it's the top of the Rockerfeller center. With Matt, it's the Chrysler Building. It's very climbable, lots of places to swing from. The right kind of quiet when you get up high enough. Late night meetings that started as all business that turned into friends hanging out and shooting the breeze that turned into their spot. turned into picnics and secrets they couldn't tell anyone else and nervous kiss that turned confident slower than they should have

they have this fun game called "if you don't sleep I'll personally knock you unconscious" it was a joke at first, but their "self-care" talks have devolved into violence multiple times. It's how they show affection. MJ has walked into Peter's apartment, Matt in the full devil costume and shoving water down his throat. She preceded to help hold Peter down and also made sure he took his vitamins. They both have equally terrible self-destructive personal habits that they both hypocritically criticize each other for, but coffee is the no go zone. They both have crippling caffeine addictions and neither will challenge the other about it, in fact, they're enablers. "how much did you sleep last night" "I've got five hours max this whole week" "I'll cover your patrol while you get eight hours" "It sounds like you're trying to break up with me" "fine, I'll make a pot of coffee, but we're only staying out till four tonight."

Matt and Peter are both massive nerds but in different directions. Stem kids vs humanities kids. Peter will sit and babble at Matt for a solid hour about this one chemical reaction he's observing in the lab and there's evidence that it could be occurring in the human body but they need to run more tests but if it's the case then... and on and on and once he pauses to talk a breath, Matt's like so cool babe let me tell you about this court case from the 80s that actually sets a legal preciden that could be destroy copyright law if we spun it right. This goes on for hours. They adore it, it's great.

Matt is a cat person, Peter's a reptile guy, and they do not own pets. They don't want kids, they don't want to get married. They are both allergic to commitment. But the fact that neither of them has offered commitment or even asked about it is its own form of commitment. Like an unspoken promise that they want to be together in some fashion, probably dying in battle together, is enough and exactly what they need. Because they risk death every time they put on the suit and they can't commit to anyone because they're so fragile they have nothing to commit. They work because no one understands the superhero life like them

(nsfw) Matt—both in and out of costume—is constantly fighting for control, fighting to be respected and seen as powerful. If he lets go of that control for even a second, if he's seen as less than perfect for even a second, his life falls apart. Peter feels like he has no control, his life has been one unstoppable force after the other. They kinda naturally fall into a dynamic in the bedroom of Matt giving up control and Peter taking it. It works for them, they have safewords, and it's really really good. Peter is really into tying Matt up whether this is a spider thing or a Peter thing is a subject of endless debate. He likes hearing Matt beg, knowing that he wants him, wants what he can do. Matt likes the noises Peter makes, those small gasps of pleasure when he finally takes what he needs. He likes the praise that he gives so easily and openly, it makes Matt feel precious and wanted. He likes being manhandled a bit, Matt's a big guy almost pure muscle, but Peter is stronger, can throw him around if he wants or if Matt asks, begs.

#asks #spideydevil #matt murdock #peter parker #this is not about mcu peter!! #this is about literally any other peter #frankly it's about comics peter #who has been an adult for decades now

[anarchy-and-piglins]

obviously not trying to like, vent or anything and you dont have to respond or anything but your most recent post is something I've been dealing with a lot too. I've been passively suicidal for a decade now and ever since technos passing I've kinda gained a new perspective? like if this incredible man who brought joy to millions wasnt able to live his full life who am I to want to throw mine away?(those arent quite the words but I'm floundering rn) and it sounds like I'm being mean to myself when I put it that way but it really just shifted how I thought of myself/my mortality. Made me more willing to stay alive Ig? idk I guess I just wanted to let you know I relate, sorry if this is uncomfortable;;

No, I know exactly what you mean Anon and I'm in the same boat.

After Techno's death, one thing I kept repeating to myself was how unfair it is. How unfair, that there was this guy who was younger than me (fuck, still not over that) and who was so kind and funny and ambitious and smart and who died despite fighting so hard not to.

And then there's me, pathetic wet cat who has tried to take their own life multiple times but never quite stuck the landing lol.

It just feels so viscerally unfair. I wish we could have traded places.

But at the same time, it has helped me hold onto some idea that, well I can't die now because Techno died and he asked me to keep living as best I could in his final video, and fuck can you imagine the cringe if after all that his content did for me I couldn't grant the man's final request? No, no, no, that'd be terrible. Long and prosperous life, here I come!

I'm not egotistical enough to believe I'm living the life Technoblade couldn't have. I won't ever measure up to even a tenth of that guy.

But on those days when suicidal thoughts hit me like a brick and I can't lift myself up by believing in a future worth staying alive for, I hold on instead to thinking that I'm honoring him somehow? And that it's okay if I'm only able to keep going because I know he couldn't.

I don't know, I think that's an alright reason to stick around.

#asks #technoblade's passing #suicidal ideation tw #suicide mention

[motleyfolk]

I saw your post about "Cringe Culture is dead" and while I agree with it, I didn't agree initially because I started realizing I partly don't view cringe the same way. My friends and I have been redefining cringe in our circle so my initial disagreement was me thinking about it from my friends perspective.

Like elderly people dancing in a club MAY be partly cring enducing but not part of cringe culture in my group. It is just some folks enjoying their time and theres nothing wrong with it.

Wars, starting fights over stupid shit, being manipulative, all that's cringe but kids trying cosplay, artist drawing anthro animals (this isn't just a furry thing) and stuff like that isn't cringe.

Then I realized, yeah the popular idea of cringe culture is dead. People really should enjoy themselves but maybe we can all try to redefine what is cringe to something that genuienly gets us reeling back? I'm not sure if this makes sense. Sorry for the ramble.

Don't apologise for the ramble, I like a good ramble.

For me, my new definition of cringe is people doing things that make me physically recoil. Like face contorting, toes curling, shoulders hunching kinda way.

That's still most people's definition of cringe, the problem is they apply it liberally and don't have the common and social sense of when to keep it to themselves.

Stunning your toe into the wall with a toothpick? Makes me cringe. Watching old anime crack compilations? Makes me cringe. Seeing Urban Outfitters? Makes me cringe.

Do I openly cringe at the first two? Yeah. Did I walk into Urban Outfitters today and make a face at every customer I saw? No, because I'm not an arsehole.

You usually can't control what you cringe it. No one is morally pure, you might genuinely find furries or the Naruto kid fans that ninja run through the hallways as cringe and whatever, shit happens. The problem happens when you take that private judgement and make it public, putting it into other people's minds and weighing them with it.

That's what cringe culture is, the arrogant and self important action of forcing your reaction to things on others in attempt to shame them out of innocent forms of self expression. That's the culture part of it, people expressing their arrogant opinions to make that the new value consensus and shaming those that don't fit it so they will now mold into it.

Its not just a new thing people do on the internet or white, middle class teens and young adults do. Everyone does it, has been doing it, for centuries. People have always been seen as outcasts and shamed when they don't fit social norms. Now we just do it on the internet too, a place that originally was full of people outside of social norms (the nerdy star trek forums and all). Since the internet is now everyone + one trillion bots raised on dry hate feed the old value consensus is now being applied here.

We should bring back the definition of cringe to being something that makes you eeeeeeesh 😟😟🫣. We should also bring back not feeling the need to share negative opinions and learning to keep them to ourselves and dealing with them instead of giving them to others to deal with.

Now I've rambled. 🤝 Same time next week pls

#motleyspoke

[dmclemblems]

A couple things confuse me about the "Edelgard was never the Flame Emperor in Hopes so that's why people are acting differently with her" thing people try to say to explain GW and SB.

1) 3H almost never makes it a narrative focus that Edelgard was the Flame Emperor, just that the Flame Emperor as a separate entity was bad. Barring Dimitri, barely anyone says "hey wow, Edelgard sure is a giant fucking asshole since we know she's the Flame Emperor" - they're more like "wow, can't believe she smeckledorfed us like that, not based and kinda cringe." So many people go "I don't wanna fight her tho, I regret having to fight her :/" as though the fact that she clearly never gave a shit about any of them, proven by her lying about being the Flame Emperor for damn near a year, doesn't mean anything to them. She's still their beloved classmate, no matter what she does to a lot of them, so I don't see why it's only now that they'd suddenly give THIS much of a shit about something they never put focus on before. And to the extent that they'd 180 on their characters just to be chill with her.

2) What actual, substantial difference is there between "I am willing to torture my citizens by turning them into Demonic Beasts," and "I will torture my citizens by slowly starving them through my war that is draining away the country's food supplies"? She is still needlessly and cruelly making her people go through suffering, just because it isn't as loud as Aegir mindlessly pillaging shit doesn't mean she isn't still responsible for mass suffering and death of her own citizens. And this isn't even getting into the rest of Fodlan either, who she is similarly ruining/ending the lives of in similarly cruel, torturous ways. But it's not specifically Demonic Beasts or specifically with TWS, so suddenly she's fine? It's morally acceptable for certain characters to join her for no reason other than her (lying) words? Hell, being a pragmatic, amoral asshole for a second - at least a weapon's being made with the Demonic Beasts method of slow and cruel death, the starving citizens do no good for anyone!

I dunno, just seems like a pretty thin straw to reach for to explain why certain characters (WINK WINK) act so wildly OOC :/

Preface after writing: I'm sorry, this is stupid long and two months late. I hope it being stupid long makes up for the wait. :D... :'D...

Yeah, the Flame Emperor portion of her character has nothing to do with Hopes. Between both games, Dimitri treats her completely differently because she didn't do the same things and he has a very direct attachment to her and TWS both, but other characters don't just like her more because she wasn't the Flame Emperor.

For example, Dimitri never spirals into the mess he became in Houses because Edelgard never hid her identity, and the Flame Emperor was very openly allied with TWS. Edelgard in Hopes broke off her ties with them as soon as the game really begins, i.e. post the prologue (in all routes, but you only see it actually be discussed in her route).

I do agree it's a flaw in the writing that they kind of switch on the whole "the Flame Emperor is a bad person" to deciding they don't agree with that anymore once they know who it is. What she did doesn't change just because she was "someone else" at the time, the same way Dimitri's actions don't change just because he was "someone else" for those five years. Difference being, there are actually allied characters who hold Dimitri accountable for it, and Dimitri holds himself accountable too. Just another instance of the writing making women wound like saints because they gotta sell their merch. I'm saying that as a woman, mind you, and it's frutsrating that gender dictactes how a story gets written. Gender also doesn't define someone's personality and who they are, so it shouldn't make a story geared around uwu waifu not bad, we don't wanna fight her.

The thing is, this is one of the problems people have with the narrative of Houses is not committing. It's true that Edelgard didn't care about a lot of people because she explicitly didn't let herself care, because she went into the year fully expecting and being aware of her inevitable "betrayal" (which I quote because she didn't really intend to be friends with them to begin with, so in her view it's probably not really a betrayal. It would be to them, but not so much to her).

It's also true that she decides to "care" about people who side with her simply for siding with her. Unfortunately the writing can't commit to kepeing her consistent as a character because they don't want her to be the villain because it's harder to market villains. That is, in part, why TWS exists, because they're meant to be the 'true villains".

Basically, TWS exists to make Edelgard look better as a person. Since they made her look pretty and cute, they didn't want to commit to making her a more villainous person, despite openly saying in an interview that they made her the villain. If she were a man, they would have made her more of a villain.

Regarding Houses and her evils:

The characters are sad about classmates being their enemies, but they set aside all the bad things as soon as they know the ringleader is a woman. Remember how they all considered her a horrible villain who had to be taken down when they knew her as the Flame Emperor? They thought the Flame Emperor was a man. As soon as it turns out that, that very same person was a woman they uwu went to school with, they don't think he's such a horrible villain who needs to be taken down anymore.

The point of the first half of Houses is that you're involved in all these happy academy days (as far as their relationships go, less so about the missions and stuff). They all trust each other and see each other as people they will one day have to work alongside. Suddenly they find out a pair among the students were plotting against them and weren't really ever on their side. The people they met in school were, in some ways, "fake". They weren't their true selves because they were in enemy territory the whole time (even if they were safe there, but in their minds these were enemies).

Like, personally, would I feel bad when I found out these people were lying to me the whole time and planned to kill me one day if I didn't agree with them? lol no. The characters went from thinking her actions were horrific to "well let's hear her out because she's actually our friend, even though for being our 'friend' we actually know nothing about her and our 'friend' lied to us the whole time".

Regarding Hopes and her supposed lack of evils:

In Hopes, even though none of that is there, it's still true she lied to them and was their enemy. It's still true she started a war and did all the same things from there, and in fact, some of it she actually had to do herself because she broke off with TWS. This includes trying to invade the Kingdom, which Cornelia was the one to do and succeed in doing in Houses. However, Edelgard herself, and the might of the Empire, is canonically not enough to subdue the Kingdom in Hopes. This does mean, however, that she had to do the deeds herself and cou;pdn't hide behind anyone else.

Breaking it down for why she seems less evil in Hopes though, we have SB. Technically both the Empire and Alliance took on the Kingdom, meaning that the Empire alone couldn't handle it. Reminder that, Dimitri, Dedue and Felix all survive SB, so the Empire can't take down three of the strongest fighters in the Kingdom (so less people die, because in SB she's not allied with TWS and does nothave the strength given to her by them, such as the beasts). Ingrid went out specifically to die because she planned to fight as long as possible so Dimitri could get away, meaning she never intended to survive that battle. Sylvain went out in a fit of rage seeking revenge for Ingrid, so his head wasn't on straight and he wasn't fighting with his brain, but his emotions.

Could they have taken these people down otherwise? Sylvain, no. He's too smart. If he wasn't so angry he would have backed off as soon as he realized he was overmatched in that battle. He wouldn't have died there because Dimitri wasn't there to die for, and neither was Felix. Also, he's not nearly as suicidal in this game. If he wasn't seeking revenge, he wouldn't have died, plain and simple. Could they have beaten Ingrid normally? No, because similarly, she would've retreated if she didn't go into the battle planning to fight until she died. She would've left to continue protecting her friends, home and king.

What this means is that she looks less bad because less people died, meaning her war killed less named and beloved characters. The difference though is that it doesn't make her less evil - it just means that alone, her might isn't capable of taking these people down. She needs to be allied with another army to win her war, which is why she took with TWS in the first place in Houses. Since they wanted her to look better in Hopes, she ditched them... but that means she still needs allies for her war. She knows she can't take down the Kingdom alone and they're allied with the Church, and she knows she can't take down Rhea because Rhea is a dragon.

Then there's GW, which just makes Edelgard look FUNNY. It's Claude who has to invade the Kingdom, because she can't break through the west front. Even after Claude fights in Fhirdiad, she still can't take down the west front. This means that, not only did the Empire have people do their bidding for what they weren't strong enough to do, but they had to take any other matters into their own hands for what TWS wouldn't help with in this story. It means Edelgard had to dirty her hands because they weren't there to do it, and she just wasn't strong enough to win her own war.

Remember, in SB, she doesn't win her own war. Her enemies kill each other, and the Kingdom is weakened because she allied with another army to fight them because she doesn't have the strength to do it herself. She looks less evil in Hopes because, being totally frank and not even saying this out of a hatred for her, she's weak. She's too weak to actually win and conquer, and she looks worse if she wins and takes control of all the lands she stomped on to win. When she loses, she looks better because she's not the tyrannical leader of all of Fodlan. In Hopes, no matter what route you're on, Edelgard does not win the war and does not achieve anything with her own army's strength. In CF, she does win because her allies are TWS for the entire game and they're only defeated post game because the game's duration is her war, which she needed them for the entirety of to actually win.

In GW, she doesn't win the war. She doesn't defeat Rhea, instead leaving that to Claude, who had Shez in his army (and was probably the only one with the actual power to rival Rhea's, for obvious reasons).

This also is why the kingdom survives and is never taken over. In Houses, it was never Edelgard's strength that conquered it. However, it does mean every single thing that happened in the war was on her head, because there was no TWS to take the fall for her the bad things that happened.

How it looks on her character:

So, looking at it from both ways, to sum it up... why are they so upset that they have to fight their classmate, who lied to them and was faking around them? Why are they upset about fighting her when she's been doing all this stuff in the war by her own desires and orders? There's no getting mad at TWS for what she does.

The Empire when pitted against the Kingdom can't win without allies, and Edelgard presumbly knew that in Houses and had allies - TWS. In Hopes, she gets Claude on her side because she can't do, well, jack shit to the Kingdom without him. Without something unexpected in the mix (the Alliance in Hopes, TWS in Houses), the Kingdom's strength is enough to defend.

Since TWS are her enemies in this story, she never actually wins. She doesn't lose, but she doesn't win. The only reason she doesn't lose is because she allied with another army (who she was canonically losing to in both routes anyway).

So basically, how do the writers make up for Edelgard not teaming up with TWS here? They have her use the Alliance instead, making her look better for not siding with TWS. To make her look even better, they have TWS do horrific things as a third party to it all, independently fucking around and making Edelgard have to go stop them. It makes TWS look like the worst of all scum, and it props up the "less evil" villains.

In GW, Claude does shady shit because ??? and that also makes Edelgard look better because she's very up front and doesn't do tactics the way he does. She's very forthright and if she didn't want to ally with the Alliance, she would have said as much and not have teamed up with them to stab them in the back later. Instead, that's given to Claude because, well, let's face it, it makes him look worse than her. She also gets no flak for killing Rhea in this game because she can't, because she doesn't have the power TWS gave her. She fights Rhea, certainly, even with Shez's power... but it's not enough. Rhea survives everything you do and only dies against Thales.

So basically, Edelgard is just weak and incapable of winning in this game, and it makes her look better and nicer, since she doesn't have the ability to use Demonic Beasts. The characters feel like upset because she did "less evil" things and killed fewer people (again, because she's not capable of doing so).

And again, I'm not even saying that out of hate. Edelgard admits they needed TWS in CF if they were going to win the war. Consequently, she doesn't win the war in any route in Hopes because she splits off from them in all routes.

No, it doesn't make her a better person or more worthy of people's pity, but they used Claude as a means of having someone else do worse things than her to make the characters doubt Claude while believing wholly in Edelgard for being so forthright. Since TWS is worse than Claude, it makes a tier of "bad", and she's at the very bottom of it. Thus, the characters see her in a better light and don't want to kill her.

Other stuff:

In AG it's actually kinda interesting, because even though the Empire has fallen because of Thales, literally nobody pities Edelgard for the situation she ended up in. Nobody feels bad about it and nobody thinks man, we should save Edelgard, she isn't the one who made the Empire fall into ruin like this. They still understand she's the one who started this war and enabled enough of a situation for TWS to take advantage of it. She gave them the opening instead of fighting them in the first place.

Even if you went along with her strategy of siding with the Church to take out TWS, but then she betrays the Church and starts her war against them because she also sees them as her enemy, that would have been the most reasonable strategy. Side with the Church, take out the strongest enemy first so they can't run around wreaking havoc while you ignore them to fight your war, then deal with the Church after when they won't have distractions and a potential other enemy creeping up on them.

Point being, it was stupid to start a war against the Church after simply driving out Thales from the capital. She should've waited to start the war until they'd taken out TWS completely. Why didn't they do this? Because they needed TWS in the story to make her look like a better person. Removing them too soon would mean she can't go back and stop their destruction. She can't seem like the better person because there's nobody worse than her. By making her strategy, well, let's face it, incredibly stupid to the point even Hubert told her outright not to do it/that he didn't agree with it, it made her look, well, honestly, dumb... but a better person in the long run.

Like I said, in AG it's done in a more interesting way because her situation doesn't get pitied by anyone. The people loyal to her are still loyal to her, but that's about it. None of her enemies feel sorry for her. None of them see that her war brought about something bad on her (i.e. being controlled by Thales) and went awww poor thing. She reaps what she sows and faces the consequeces of both starting a war and not being smart about it (i.e. dealing with TWS altogether at the start or remaining allied with them until the war was over like in CF). The characters in AG see it for it was, and Edelgard had to have known that there would be potential consequences of doing what she did.

Even at the very end, Dimitri doesn't pity her when she her mentality reverts to a child's. He doesn't feel it necessary to stain his hands with her blood at that point because the war is over. If she was still a threat they would defeat her but she wasn't, and she also didn't have any memory of starting the war, so killing her would be for nothing but personal gain, which at that point Dimitri didn't have. If anything, it might have staved off even more more because the emperor would be returned home safely, and possibly even by Dimitri (because I can't imagine the Church would do it after she declared explicitly on them, and I doubt Claude would even care to do it because he has no history with her like Dimitri does) or someone he trusts.

The Empire would need to focus on dealing with what happened to her, and they wouldn't be in a position to keep fighting or even need to since the person who wanted the war doesn't even have the memories leading up to why the war was started. All they could really do at that point was take care of her and decide what to do about leadership (and in this moment, we're going to prefend Ferdinand wasn't killed offscreen. They didn't say he was, so he wasn't! Got it? Yeah? Great!).

This last part doesn't really have much to do with your ask, but I wanted to add it in as a contrast to the way SB/GW were written and how they did make her seem like a better person than Claude. They made it seem like she was less bad for doing whats he did with her own hands this time because there was no TWS to do it for her. AG flips that on its head and says no, we don't care that she ended up in a bad situation because she brought it on herself. They said no, we're not going to pity her just because someone worse than her came along because she still did what she did.

Imo AG was just a much more refreshing and realistic take. They didn't look at her and see uwu classmate. They looked at her and saw the woman who started a war and knew what she was doing. Just because she lost in her own war and just because someone got the jump on her didn't make her worth pitying.

Instead, we get a wholly satisfying conclusion to the Duscur story, whcih was completely dropped in AM and probably because they ran out of chapters. We can bring a literal army of victims from that tragedy with us and have them be able to face the person who caused all of it. Since Duscur was also allied with Faerghus for a long while at this point, it wraps up that storyline in a nice, neat bow. The only thing left is to assume that things with Duscur went well and that Claude determined starting a new war over the Church just wasn't worth it.

Claude post AG (in contrast to him in the other routes):

Yes, I think Claude considered taking advantage of an existing war to fight the Church and might have done so in Hopes if Edelgard wasn't out of commission, because if she wasn't the war would continue. However, the war was over right then and there and more fighting on his part would just be a really stupid move that would turn everyone around him against him.

The war ended, the person who started it lost, and the third party was defeated. People would not want to fight another war just because Claude doesn't understand Fodlan at all in this game. Quite ironic that Edeglgard's rhetoric to him in VW about not knowing enough about Fodlan to lead it was completely true in this game... or maybe they did that on purpose to make her look better! Again! :D :'D

So yeah, Claude didn't start another war after AG ended. I say that, of course, assuming AG Claude has a brain and knows how to use it. Also, I don't think he would want to make enemies of the Kingdom at that point. If his goal remained to bring people together, he had already succeeded in getting every territory on the same page by allying with the sides opposing Edelgard in the first place.

The only people left are the Empire's people, who weren't in a position to fight and would probably just agree to an allying sort of truce so that all of Fodlan was on the same page. Even without Hubert or Ferdinand, they have Waldemar, and he's smart enough imo to make the right moves there. Claude has no reason to start a new war/renew an existing war that just ended when now that there's no war to just jump into to use as an excuse for something, he can just use words and his presumably route working brain to figure out how to work with the Church. Like, you know, he does in VW.

#this is two months late im so sorry ahjfgsahfd #also I recall it being somewhere in Houses that she knows their army can't win their war alone #hence allying with TWS. her army needed their power to actually get through her win #and I recall her saying that she has to wait to fight them specifically bc she needed them for the war #i.e. she knew if she ditched them too soon that she wouldn't win #that's what made her route sound initially interesting in Hopes bc she did ditch them #but it also proved her points in CF that she didn't have the strength to win the war she started #she was losing to the Alliance in GW and SB both iirc #the best way to win her war would be - well - to ally with someone better than her in strength #get the strong people on her side to fight her war for her bc she can't do it. TWS was also that in Houses #however in CF she actually wins while allied with horrific people. it makes her look worse #in SB she doesn't win no matter what route you're on and allies with normal people #in CF she crushes TWS after the story but she ultimately has an ending that expresses oppression #her ending mural and the fact that she started a war and destroyed all opposing powers is the evidence of that #in Hopes she crushed... nothing. nobody. her enemies crushed each other bc Rhea determined that TWS #was a much worse threat /for Fodlan/ than Edelgard was and so chose to die fighting Thales #presumably she figured whoever was left in Fodlan could deal with Edelgard later without her help #i.e. Claude and Dimitri who are still alive in one version of SB and Dimitri who is still alive in the other #so either way in SB there will ALWAYS be opposition to her war because /she will always be stuck between not winning or losing/ #she doesn't get to win and be the big bad leader of Fodlan. it makes her look like a better person #ALSO (him in the other routes): is perfect bc it made a frowny face JKDGUJGF LOL #DCE Ask

[thorne1435]

Wait.. what kinda stuff could someone say about ur profile pic? It's just thorne...

I'm not gonna yell about this one because you're clearly just curious.

Yes. My profile picture is the letter Thorn. A name I use rather frequently, as a holdover from when I was deciding what I wanted my name to be when I realized that my birthname made me uncomfortable.

Now, this all goes back to my first real social media account, on Reddit. I was "u/thorne-in-your-side" with the same profile picture. It was particularly apt there because my presence on the platform was made up of interjecting into random arguments and vehemently fighting for my side of things. Y'know. Reddit shit.

Without fail, every 3rd or 4th post some dipshit would think they were clever and would reply to my comment with "Haha! Great profile picture bro! Bring back Þorn!"

I would proceed to type an angry response at them, every time, without fail.

Now, because my bio on Tumblr and my bio on Reddit were word-for-word copies of each other (at least for a bit, while I was still active on both platforms), I decided to put a little warning in that bio. "Say some shit about the profile picture, get yelled at." That way people had the chance to check and see that before they thought they'd ruin the linguistic inside-joke of the profile picture with their insistence on unrespectably stupid English spelling reforms.

Am I really mad at them? Nah, not really. I mean, I guess I find it, like, cringe. But cringing isn't a reason to be angry unless you're really insecure. I just pretend to be mad at them for the bit. It's not a particularly funny bit, though. I'm just dedicated.

#oh shit tumblr wants me to tag this #yeah idk man #Sophie Exposition

[solarpunkani]

the point of the post you reblogged, about the socialism and the democrats and republicans who voted for it; is that ultimately, voting democrats won't/isn't doing much of anything in the end for people. democrats have still overseen and supported much of the same things republicans do but just under a more 'inclusive' banner. while they may manage to get some 'rights' through (and even then, they are more than willing to not if it benefits them: for example, roe vs wade's protections were never made into law which would have given more protection to abortion rights). it's how the democrat party has always functioned this way; to advocate for actual change the best ways to do so would be to inform yourself, support radical organizations, etc.. they offered researching for and voting independent candidates because even if they don't get elected at least they (in theory) would try and do more than democrats lmao (and this is part of a bigger conversation entirely but even if they do get elected in the u.s as a state is built to make sure almost anything they do try get through doesn't, so like... lol)

take all of what i said with a grain of salt though, i'm not too experienced with this either but these are a somewhat simplified understanding of these things i've come to on my own research & entry into this

Oh no 100% you raise good points I just

I guess this is part of the '2 party system indoctrinization' thing that I and a lot of other people fall victim to but like. IDK. As a person in Florida, where it's already pretty hard to get Democrats in office because of gerrymandering and the high amount of Republican votes, even the thought of voting Independent kinda feels like just. Handing over a win to Republicans. But at the same time, you're right in the sense that oftentimes Democrats run on empty promises, don't take action, or are blocked from taking action a lot by the other party or even their own party. Yet, voting Democrat just feels... better? Safer? Because they at least give the illusion that they'll change things, improve things, etc. and will fight for what we want, abc, xyz.

I dunno. Definitely something I'm gonna have to work on unpacking. Cause I don't wanna be a cringe Liberal lol.

#ani rambles #out of queue #answered asks #anonymous #I do wish voting Independent had more of. An Effect? Impact? But right now (at least here in FL) it feels like it Doesn't(TM)

[vampyreki]

who are your twst faves? I've seen you reblog some posts about them and, while i'm not planning to get into it, i'm willing to absorb knowledge from you :3

so you see the characters are designed by yana toboso (the author of black butler )( i love black butler i even have the artbooks)

My favorite dorm is Ignihyde which consist of the pairs of brothers ortho and idia !

That's Idia the older brother , he's a gamer and honestly kinda cringe but that makes for some very funny lines

He's very introverted and can be very relatable lol

(His backstory is very sad though :'c)

He dotes on his little brother Ortho (its more like he cant say no to him)

And that's normal because ortho is literally so adorable ! He's a robot artificial intelligence that gained sentience after book 6 se he's like a real boy now lol

He has some really beautiful card like the fairy gala one

and some cute one like this halloween one

(i think its cute because its the same expression that idia often does 🥺)

Overall he's a cute and cheerful kid that can be a little mischievous but also like. hes a little brother obviously hes gonna be like that .

I also really like epel and riddle !

Epel is a first year from pomefiore and feels out of place because he's from a farmer family and doesnt care about pomefiore's ideals of being the most beautiful possible lol. He's a fun guy because you'd think he's cute and dainty but he literally tried to fight his dorm leader day one of being in school and is very good at flying (considered a sport ingame world ) !

He doesn't like being called cute or being mistaken for a girl because he thinks he's being considered weak (yea thats a little mysogynistic but he gets character development and stop thinking like that dw abt it )

Riddle is the Heartslaybul housewarden and has a short temper and kinda (very much) a control freak , he's the antagonist (?) of book 1 (Antagonist doesnt fit because there's no good or bad guy in twst everyone has flaws and act towards their interests but uh he's the first boss we fight)

He's a straight A student and always strive for perfection , as a dorm leader he upholds the queen of heart rule's that are kinda stupid very strictly , after overblotting (becoming a boss after accumulating too much negative energy and using magic ) he notices his mommy issues (literally, his mother sheltered him from the outside world and forbade him to go outside to play and was generally way too demanding ) and he chills out a bit , he gained patience and doesnt ask for the impossible still very serious abt the rules tho

I also love grim !

He's the magical cat (his species is unknown ) you meet in game and is pretty much inseparable from the prefect (player) because the two are considered one student because as a human from earth the prefect cant use magic but Grim tried to sneak into the opening ceremony to be a student because he want to be a great mage !

He's a huge trouble maker and very mischievous , always thinks about food and call the prefect his hench human , but he's honestly really cute and endearing and worry about the prefect when he notices they're not well 🥺

So basically he's just a little kitty :3 . He gets outfits during events , most of the time it's just his ribbon but sometimes he gets full outfits !

I also like Rollo who is a character that appeared in one (1) limited halloween event (of which he was the boss at the end and generally the "villain" of the story).

He's a student of noble bell college , and is very serious and proper . He really really hates one of the guy from night raven college (for backstory reasons ) . idk i just think he's neat

#asks #collectorcookie #i cant put more image but basically idia speaks in memes and video games/ anime terms #he has a really funny one where he speaks like miette the cat like: you bother my dorm students??Oh jail for you!Jail for Thousands of year

[wikiangela]

okay, I watched the winchesters 1x01

here's some random and chaotic thoughts and comments I had while watching

spoilers ahead! (kinda long post sns haha)

before I start - I will try to keep an open mind even though I'm kinda meh on the whole premise of the prequel (I still think there's so many more cool concepts that could have been done about the spn universe instead of getting the winchester family again but whatever lol) and I only ever saw the actress playing Mary in Disney's zombies and even her Disney Channel acting wasn't that great so I'm not looking forward to seeing her.....

but again, keeping an open mind (I'll try lol)

here we go:

first time seeing John and I already know it's gonna take me a while to see anyone but JDM or Matt as John 😂😂 like, I guess I can kinda see it, but I need to get used to it haha

hearing Dean again - I'm immediately even more excited haha it's so weird, because I heard and saw Jensen in other things etc but this is Dean and it's so different

"story might sound familiar but I'm gonna put the pieces together in a way that just might surprise you" please do, the thing I was worried the most was it not fitting canon but also being the same story we already know haha

such a cheesy meet cute 😂 classic tho 💁🏻‍♀️😂

yeah, I can learn to see him as John, but I just do not like the actress that plays Mary sns

random thought: will we see Dean convincing John to buy the Impala?? because we kinda have to right? 😂 (I just googled it, he did it in 1973, the show starts in 72 - there's time but eventually I need this to happen pls 😂😂)

loved the fight scene, John accidentally hitting Mary was so funny 😂 and the exorcism!!! we haven't seen that since like the first few seasons of spn! love that!

(I'm curious as to who gave him the letter 👀👀👀)

so John just knows about demons now......... idk how I feel about that, I think I'm too hung up on canon where he didn't know until after Mary died 😂😂 i hope they explain it well later on 😂

it feels kinda weird how quickly they share sensitive information with each other tbh 😂 like, I get it under the circumstances, but still, they're basically strangers 😂 Mary is just casually explaining every single thing to this boy she just met, and he's just minimally freaked out 😂 I'm kinda loving it, it's funny 😂

oooh, is this a men of letters bunker?? so John already finds out about it... that's interesting

okay, I kinda like John 😂😂 It didn't take me that long to get used to this actor as John either, I'm only 15 minutes in and he's okay 💁🏻‍♀️

Mary is still not it - and the thing is, I think if it was anyone else, I'd love her, she's the type of characters I usually enjoy - but I just do not like this actress 😩

Latika is so cute tho omg 😍😍😍 and after one scene I already love her character too 😂 so I guess I know who my crush in this show is 😂😂😂 there's always someone 😂😂

I really like the war flashbacks, and just seeing what John is struggling with

the conversations while driving - it's the supernatural kind of scene and I love it 😂😂

"nothing more hydrating than holy water" why was Carlos' whole entrance so fucking cringe 😂😂 in a funny way tho so it's good 😂😂 but the sandwich recipe bit was a bit much 🙄😂 (loving his outfit tho 😍)

also, I looked it up just to make sure I wasn't misremembering or making it up, and apparently John and Mary couldn't stand each other and cupid had to get them together - and I hope we'll see that because so far they've been pretty friendly lol what's with the looks?? you're not supposed to like each other yet!! - again, I am way too hung up on canon but it is supposedly a prequel lol

oh, so Carlos is a walking stereotype, got it 😑 at least we have a bi character so at least we got some representation and diversity?🤷🏻‍♀️

I absolutely adore the way Latika speaks - just her voice and accent and cadence, it's so cute 😍 I just wanna listen to her forever 😂

"she's a lot meaner when you get to know her" well I hope so 😂 but also, I might be biased bc, like I mentioned, I saw this actress for the first time in zombies, but she has such a sweet disney energy, I just can't see her as Mary sns 😂😂

God, please, can Latika talk all the time, because seriously, I am in love with her voice and the way she speaks 😍 and she's so pretty 😍 I'm not even done with the first episode and I already fell in love with another fictional character 😂😂😂 what is wrong with me

oh so we're already finding out about Maggie, okay - and Mary wants out! I mean, we all knew that, but it's still interesting to see - and I loved that conversation tbh (also, "my mom and dad put a knife in my hand before I was able to carry one. I didn't sign up for any of this" 👀 so familiar lol)

they seem to know quite a lot about different kinds of creatures without having to consult any books huh

the pacing is kinda weird, on one hand everything's happening very fucking quickly, but then it also feels longish idk 😂

"saving people, hunting things" I almost teared up lol and added out loud: the family business 😂😂

I really like John's actor (don't know names yet sns) he's good - and cute too 👀 -😂😂 we all know what John is going to be later on, but I'm enjoying his character atm 💁🏻‍♀️

loving the premise, the big bad seems interesting, I think I'm genuinely invested 😂

oh wow I almost forgot Dean's narrating 😂😂

DEAN!!! MY LOVE 😍❤️❤️ and Baby!!! "I'll keep picking the music" I genuinely teared up 😭❤️ I miss him so much, I think I need to finally rewatch supernatural (maybe once this season ends lol)

not the last scene being the most exciting thing in the episode 😂 I fucking squealed when I saw Dean and Baby 😂😂😂

so, overall thoughts:

I liked it 😂 like, I genuinely enjoyed it

the vibe was great, it felt different than spn but also familiar, and I liked that

there was a loooot of cheesiness, some lines were were so cringe, but in a good way, and I enjoyed them (at least most lol)

I like the characters - John was great, it took less time than I expected to get used to him as John, and I like him right now - I'm still confused about him knowing about hunting already and clearly liking Mary already but we'll see how they approach this haha

I LOVE Latika as I already mentioned, and I just want to see much more of her, she seems awesome 😍😂

Carlos was kinda whatever for now, everything he said was a bit too over the top and cringe, and he's kinda a stereotype, but he seems fun, and I want to get to know him more before I judge haha

when it comes to Mary... her personality is great and I normally would like her, she's my type of character - but, and I'm gonna repeat this once again: I do not like Mary's actress, she's just not it, maybe it's gonna take me a while to get used to her, for now I just don't see it, I hope she'll grow on me

but even tho Mary's actress is not great, they won me over with Latika, whoever plays her (gotta look her up) is the star for me and I will keep watching for sure 😂😂

and again, I'm hung up on canon, and I can't help but compare the story of John and Mary we saw with this - obviously it's different - or just more - as Dean said at the beginning, but I just hope the major things won't change, because while I can still enjoy it either way, I can get nitpicky lol

so, it wasn't amazing, but I enjoyed it and had fun watching it, and I'm gonna keep watching (if only for Latika lol)

#the winchesters #the winchesters spoilers #long post #thoughts while watching #episode commentary #the winchesters 1x01 #spnwin

[guanana]

Uhm, hello...I just read your imagine of YUTA, the one called motherFUCKER I think? And even though I just reblogged it screaming, I wanted to message you and tell you, girl (I'm assuming you are a girl as you write m x f, sorry if you arent) you are fucking talented.

I usually cringe so much at smut writtings and stuff, overall in general...I tend to dislike all of it and read it only when I'm bored, but this work? Dude, you literally broke me emotionally. Like this post had me wanting to throw the computer to the damn wall, and that's something only "real" books like Shadowhunters got me to do, like bro...BRO I CRIED! AND I ONLY CRIED WHEN MY BOY WILL HERONDALE BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIS BESTIE BC HE LOVED HIS GIRL TOO MUCH (heartbreaking, yall should read it), like IT WAS THAT GOOD BRO!!! Seriously, I feel emotionally broken, and now I want a bf like Yuta in your work, man....wow, just wow.

OH MY GOD, I JUST LOGGED ONTO TUMBLR ON MY LAPTOP. I DIDN'T GET THIS VIA MOBILE and NOW I WANT TO FIGHT THE TUMBLR HIGHER UPS. i'm so sorry i couldn't get to this sooner, please trust the moment i would've seen this ask i would've been bawling on the floor from such kind words!!!!

i am a degenerate through and through, and i'm very easy to please, so i love smut very much (i kind of apologize for being cum brained). if the fucking is good, i'm already into it-- story wise though? i go absolutely belligerent for a good plot <3 so i try to make sure i hold myself to the same standards as the fics i enjoy. but to know that i actually got people to CRY??? AGHHH my heart is so warm

realistically speaking i would never want a man like motherfucker yuta LOL, but in regards to fiction i kinda do.. something about a dude that is just so passionate for you that he's willing to go to hell and back for you is just... a lil hot. i'm a fiend for angst <3

i'll definitely peep shadowhunters!! i love young adult sci fi/fantasies very much because a lot of them have excellent romances, even more so than actual adult sci fis!! honestly i read a book called 'daughter of the moon goddess' around the time i posted the first part of motherfucker, and his characterization is very loosely based off of one of the love interests.

again thank you SO SO much, i'm so grateful for you and everyone else who's stopped by for motherfucker because i still have really mixed feelings about it <3 but you've really made my night, i can't thank you enough for reading and enjoying

#jessamine-room #the sweetest readers #opened my laptop and fell to my knees after reading this message you are SO SO AMAZING

[chelseasasimmer]

Check In Tag

Tagged by @kissalopa (thank you!!)

Why did you choose your url?

Top 10 mysteries science still can't answer Honestly, idfk, it's just the first thing that came to my head when creating this blog. I'm thinking about changing it to be the same as my Origin ID, although I don't know how I came up with that one either so...

2. Any side blogs? If you have them name them and why you have them.

Nah, if you follow me on here you get subjected to everything I post.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

I've been posting to this account since September 2021, but I actually made this account a couple months before that.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

No lol. I don't even have a queue going at the moment.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I made it mostly so I could share my Plumgo legacy challenge gameplay, lol (#rip).

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Idk, it's just a piccrew I made that vaguely resembles me.

7. Why did you choose your header?

It's a photo of the Grim Reaper playing on one of my sim's computer after he'd reaped her mum, which I thought was kinda funny. Idk.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

Um, it's this one: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/chelseasanidiot/673333734186057728 (tbh, every now and then this post'll get a handful of notes all at once and I'm just like 'oh shit, oh fuck, what happened, and in what community??')

The most notes I have on a sims related post though is this one: https://chelseasanidiot.tumblr.com/post/669190134115254272/100-followers-gift-sim-dump-this-preview-is (shout out to Lorraine for reblogging it, at least half of the notes on it came from that, lol)

9. How many mutuals do you have?

A lot. I don't actually talk to many of them though :)

10. How many followers do you have?

440 (!!!) as of writing this

11. How many people do you follow?

672

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

Maybe? I think the only non-sims things I've posted have been about my trainwreck mental health, which I don't think counts as a shitpost, but maybe it does?

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

Too much. Far, far too much.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

Uhm, I did make a vague call-out post (see question 8) about another simmer for being acephobic. They ended up deactivating, but I kinda cringe at myself every time I think about. So I guess I won, but at what cost?

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

Fuck off, I post what I want.

16. Do you like tag games?

YEAH!!!

17. Do you like ask games?

YEAH!!!!!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Um, I have a couple of followers who I happen to know are at least decently simblr famous. And tbh that's kinda wild cause, like, why are you following me? I'm just some guy, you know?

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

First of all, I haven't had a crush on anyone at all for, like, over 3 years now, so... (yes it is a major concern of mine, thanks for asking)

Oh, fuck, I've gotta tag people now, huh?

@autismtrait, @c-ookie, @plumbponette, @kimbr3 and I guess anyone else who wants to do this :)

#ask game #fuck i always get so anxious tagging people in these things #its mental illness innit

[maxemilianverstappen]

Lol, both the admins are acting like they are using their personal accounts, this is so funny and embarrassing, like what the fuck are you thinking before typing any of that out??

And while there are people who are calling it out, there are also fans who are literally saying it's the admin's job to be uWu, like no honey it's not, their job is to maintain good PR for the team and THEIR drivers, something they have forgotten... I have seen them talk about Seb with Lewis and Mick this season more than I have seen them talk about Seb & Lance, and Lance in general. Like please focus on your drivers, the fans of the team are here for them. And while Merc admin can still get away with the cringe because at least the Mercedes has good results this season so the focus shifts on the on track performance, the AM admin is just making the situation worse for the team... A team everyone expected to be fighting for wins this year, has dropped to 7th in the pecking order, there are no results to show for anything the drivers are doing, and you lit are going around engaging in uWu bestie Sewis nonsense, who is going to take the team seriously? Your PR in a competitive sport is supposed to make you look ambitious, and they are celebrating being overtaken, like I understand a post race congratulatory comment under another team's post, but why are you focussed on another driver's race?

Also funny, that Lewis/Sewis fans are busy defending all the nonsense from yesterday, like besties stop, if they had crashed you lot would be asking for Seb's head, regardless of whether it was his fault or not, you're not fooling anyone.

Motherfuckers flip-flop on Yuki so much, it's disgusting to watch, everytime they have to slander RB, they use Yuki for it, and then when Yuki defended against Lewis at COTA they started attacking him saying he was showing his true colours, because he raced Lewis lmao, and then the same people/accounts went back to give him moral support last week, I mean why are you all so shallow... choose one narrative and run with please

Anon, whoever you are I don't know, but since you have the higher brain power than me for putting what I feel into words, I want you to know that you have an admirer.

Good PR, joking around and having a bit of fun is one thing, blatantly ignoring your other drivers inorder to milk a ship/nonexistent friendship (ahahahaha) by using the social media of a corporation playing with millions is another.

True, some fans like this stuff and I am one of them when it is done in moderation, it is nice, but..... But.... 🙄🙄🙄 What the fuck was this?

Why the fuck are these ppl even racing? To certify they are actually a Merc sidekick? To get discount in the new engines? Do they remember they are talking about a 4 times WDC who used to be a rival to the other driver they are so in love with? Whose fans and British media used to tear him down at every given chance including the said driver himself... LoL, how the turn tables when you stop being a threat and the new spot you find yourself in reduces you to a part of a ship instead of a rival so that PR can milk money 🤑🤑🤑

Also, since when it is okay to make sexual innuendos on official accounts?

I'm a shipper, but pleeeeease.... This kinda shit needs to be kept in fannish spaces not get promoted by official accounts that might draw attention on us. You should see all the replies to the last tweet asking about what a "s*ewis" is and where does it come from 😬

And yes, I would be cringed if it was done on Simi, too... Subtle bromance stuff is nice, but this kind of stuff has its own time and place.

#eri.exe #i answer things

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

Do you find any of the BTS members attractive? I was enjoying the mayhem Taehyung's naked insta story caused,but at the same time,I'm completely unbothered by it. I love Tae,but he's not hot to me,at all. Jungkook too. His personality is so endearing and he is so insanely pretty,but I just feel admiration and a lil bit of envy when I look at his body,not attraction. I'm supposed to be bisexual but they're too "manly" to me.

I kinda enjoy generally not being distracted by their hotness(with some exceptions) but it does make me feel a little like an outsider too.

The exceptions are Jimin and Yoongi, but Jimin is still often too "manly". It's hard to find the words to describe these traits without falling into harmful stereotypes. Jimin is very "feminine" and I don't mean this in any shape or form as an insult(I mean I like women,it's a compliment),but it feels directed towards other men,not me. While Yoongi's "femininity" is just general,and it feels it can be directed towards women too. So I can respond to that,if that makes any sense? or maybe it's the Min Yoonji effect lol.

(There could be a lot of debates over what we mean by feminine and masculine,but right now I used these words just in the sense of traits that I find attractive or less attractive,and it has not got to do with their personalities. If I decided strictly by personality,I'd want to date a woman like Taehyung(or Jin) most. But his body isn't "feminine" at all,so I mean it like that. This is not about the beard,I can grow one too lmao)

Anyway,since you are bi/lesbian,I was wondering how it's like for you,if it's not too personal to ask?

Hellooo. I'm bi, yes. No, it's not too personal to ask (tho this answer might get too personal). I do find some of them attractive and some others no. Then there are also periods of time I find someone attractive and other periods where I don't find the same members attractive at all lmao. I'm already cringing at the amount of times I will use the word attractive in this post btw.

This might sound so lame and tired but I'm all about somebody's personality. Of course there's an element of physical attraction, I mean I have to think the other person is handsome/beautiful etc first to be interested in them, but ultimately what seals the deal for me is personality. I'm attracted to simplicity. I don't tolerate fighting, lying, being lied to, being made feel insecure or like I have to guess what the other is thinking. I'm attracted to people who are open and vulnerable and that are easy to talk to and connect with. I don't like feeling like I'm fighting for someone's affection/interest. I just leave inmediately if I feel like that. It's really a turn off for me when people try to be all hard to get and mysterious and like they're too cool for feelings.

There are other things I'm not attracted to but that's pretty much the gist of it for me.

(I just remembered this poem I really love https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/930538-i-loved-you-on-purpose-i-was-open-on-purpose and this quote sums it up perfectly "i loved you on purpose i was open on purpose i still crave vulnerability & close talk")

I have always been aware that I was and am so attracted to Jimin because I see all these qualities in him. Of course I've always thought he's incredibly pretty and handsome at the same time but I think the same about other BTS members and I was never attracted to them.

In BTS, only Jimin is attractive for me. The rest fluctuates a lot... and there are things I find attractive and other things that are a total No for me. For example Namjoon and Jungkook. I think Namjoon is hot and his intelligence, his humbleness when admitting own mistakes, his desire to learn and grow to become a more understanding and compassionate man is to die for, really. All of these things about Namjoon are really attractive for me. BUT he doesn't seem like an affectionate person, and that's not attractive for me at all lol. I don't know how he's in a relationship but from what I see and know about him, apparently he's not the affectionate cuddly guy and I like people who are openly affectionate. Something similar happens to me with Jungkook, too. I think he's hot hot hot but there's always the latent feeling that there's more to his personality that he's not showing/is hiding, and that just throws me off. Around 2018, 2019 I felt attraction for him because he seemed more open and like he was putting himself out there and he was so transparent, so lively. The way he jumped into the crowd at that one concert just to shake the hand of a fan in a wheelchair, that’s attractive to me. But after a while I stopped perceiving that from him and just... I really don't like wondering "is there more to him?"

With Taehyung, I don't feel anything either. I realize, I can see (duh) that he's incredibly good looking but there are many things about his personality that I never really vibed with, so seeing him I feel nothing.

Like I've said, it really is all about personality and even if I think you're the hottest person on Earth, I just can't possibly feel any attraction if I don't like your personality.

And as far as physical appearance/vibe goes, I like men that go from looking like Tom Hardy to... Park Jimin lol. I really don't have a type when it comes to the way men look.

[goth-girlfriend]

Good evening😬or morning or whateva :D I'm going to spoil you with a Endeavor request: Endeavor having sex with his affair and she gets pregnant but is too scared to tell him because of his past and when Endeavor finds out on accident he promises to be a good father and it turns out right :) like he plays with the baby all the time and cuddles it, super fluffy 😌

Good!.....night? It’s like 1:34 in the morning.... sooooo Good! morning! (8-24-2020) To you, you lovely person, spoiling me with such a great Endeavor Request 😌

I hope your day goes well as soon as I post this! Stay hydrated! 💦💙

💙💙❤️🖤❤️💙💙❤️🖤❤️💙💙

I couldn’t fight the tears as they started to sting along my water lines, I forced my eyes closed and tried to kick my lips, they tasted like poison and rubbed. I reached out for the countertop in-front of me. Finger shaking, just slightly as I grabbed the plastic in my hand. Three of four, say positive, the fourth didn’t give me an answer. How did this happen?!

“I know how this happen, in a very pleasurable way.....because I was being an idiot four months ago!” I scolded myself after asking my self the questions.

I swallowed and looked at my phone, it was new, Enji, bought it for me when I’d lost my old one off the roof of his car. I shuffled on my seat that were the steps to my tub. I took a deep breath, “I can’t tell him, I’ll have to leave him. I don’t want my child to go through the same things his children did.”

I stood up and started pacing the bathroom, “good plan good plan.” I lied to myself.

“Maybe I should tell him? I won’t be able to do it alone....” I stopped and looked at myself in the mirror, “No! What if.”

I felt the hot streaks running down the curves of my cheeks and jaw, but it didn’t register. I clenched my jaw and forced my eyes shut, I felt queasy, and the puking began. I stood up after kneeling for like ten minutes and rushed over to my legs mirror. I rose my hoodie, and it all made sense why I’d gained weight, if you looked hard enough, you could the bulge slowly not really, but just becoming visible, I looked bloated... maybe that’s why he never realized it.... also since it’s winter I’ve been using sweaters and hoodies much to Enji’s distaste. I laughed to myself before pouting, and placing both my hands on either side of my stomach, “I’m scared....” I swallowed the taste of fear, maybe puke, “I’ve never done this... I can’t call my parents... there not in Japan....” I fidgeted and pulled my shirt down, I heard the door bell and perked up, “Oh! My Noodles are here!”

I rushed to the door wallet in hand and ready to get my dood only to come face with Enji.

“Heeeeyyyyyy,” I poked my head out the door and looked around then poured and looked up at him, “You’re not the delivery guy.”

He gave me a look that clearly stated “Are you SERIOUS?”

“Right! You should come in before my pesky neighbor sees!” I pulled him in and looked around once more, my closest neighbor was actually about a quarter mile away, but that doesn’t matter.

“Soooooo,” I turned around and licked the door, “I didn’t expect you at all.” I smiled and fidgeted with my hands feeling sick.

“I’ve come to discuss this relationship.” His words were straight, I felt a fill run through my blood and bones, if he leaves.... what am I gonna do?

“Oh,” I nodded looked down, my voice was a whisper, “I guess say what you need.”

“I can’t keep having an affair, there are rumors rising already. My image can’t be ruined like this.”

I felt my heart pick up, my breathing felt struggled.

“I see,” I didn’t look up as I made myself take a breath feeling my heartbeat in my throat, “well, if this is it, I guess I should give back the jewelry, and other expensive gifts huh?”

“No, keep them, that’s not what I’m here for.” He shook his head eyes closed.

“Alright, is there anything else you need to say? Before you go?”

“I’m getting a divorce,” the words were like a punch to the stomach, I wasn’t the one being divorced but it definitely hit, I felt it rushing up. I rushed or my bathroom and stuffed the pregnancy tests into my hoodie pocket so Enji wouldn’t see them, I clung to the toilet shoving up the seat puked letting it all out. I was met with a tug at my hair, Enji was holding it back and fumbling with a black scrunches I’d left on my sink. He sighed as he rubbed my back, he kneeled beside me rubbing my back and handing me toilet tissue to wipe my mouth a bit that burned its wya through my nose. I took it and wiped my mouth away, I dry heaved a bit, and felt myself shaking, cold, so cold. Enji kept flushing the toilet until it was all gone, he helped me to sit on the toilet, “You’re sick.”

He sighed and closed his eyes, “Don’t move from here until I get back.”

I nodded and looked down, I let out a sigh and groaned, a divorce? He’s leaving Rei? Officially? I mean, it’s good cause this won’t be so scandalous anymore, but... it’s sudden.

I tried to stand by my thighs were shaky and weak. I paced my hands into hem and felt tears, I closed my eyes and let them fall, a new heat on my cheeks wiped them away, I looked to see Enji there, hands on my face, he could definitely crush my skull, his eyes looked sad, but his face was not showing that.

“I brought you water and some medicine to help with nausea. I don’t know what this is, but let’s get you to bed, you look tired, your cheeks and eyes are red and you look weak.” He didn’t let me answer as he gave me the medicine and stood up making his way to my room outside the bathroom and I could hear him moving the blankets.

Getting it my bed Enji told my to put my hand up, I did, he pulled my hoodie off leaving me in the tank top I wore underneath. Something fell but I don’t pay attention to what, but mostly because Enji was helping me sit, even if I didn’t want to. “You’ve already order food, I’ll wait here with you until gets here.”

He took my hand squeezed and I just nodded, the tears in my eyes, I didn’t even feel them, “So sweet.”

For a minute I forgot I was pregnant, until my phone gave a buzz, I looked ya it on the nightstand. I know the chime, it was for my period tracker, I’d neglected completely four times now. Enji didn’t read my phone simply handing it to me. I thanked him and swiped away the notification, “sleep.” He said and brought his free hand to brush my hair back, I craved his warm hand in this cold moment, “If you leave wake me up.” He nodded, and I sighed and started to shuffle in the blanket.

***

“(Y/n),” I was shook awake, I blinked a few times feeling hot in the blanket I sat and pushed it back, I stood up and just as I was about to answer, back in the bathroom.

“We should take you to a doctor.” I hugged and nodded, “yeeaaahhhh.”

“Do you have one?” He asked and looked at his phone.

“No sir.” I was honest.

I heard him sigh, “Take off that shirt,” I hear him walk away followed by some clattering. I pulled off my shirt and he brought back my hoodie, “Wear this, I’m taking you to a doctor.”

He left again and started to talk on the phone, I pouted and pulled on my hoodie after taking off my shirt, “bully, I didn’t even get my lunch.”

I walked spurns my house in the socks I just pulled on looking for my shoes, “where?” I dropped to my knees looking under the sofa, “are you?” I reached aliens and felt something.

“Shoes?” I asked and pulled out some old low sneakers that I used to wear.... once, when I tried to work out.

“It’ll work.” I shrugged and started to pull them on.

“Ready?” I answered back with “YES DADDY SIR IM READY!” I heard a heavy sigh and smiled pushing myself off the floor as he walked into the room, he held up a bag, my food.

“Get in the car.” He tossed me my keys, “No driving.” I nodded and rushed to my car and got in the passenger side and turned it on. I pulled on my seat belt and sat waiting, I huffed after literally two minutes passed.

I honked then smiled seeing Enji come into the garage, I got happy, I like car rides with Enji...kinda like a dog I guess.... he handed me the plastic bag and placed a lime soda in the cup holder, “Do NOT, open it until were on the road.” I nodded and waited, until we pulled out and took the turn.

I opened my bag and found the stir fry noddles is been craving all day, “Don’t way to much, if you puke again well have to stop and clean the car.” “Okay, got it.”

I started of eat and look out the window and indulge in the noodles. I stopped a quarter way in when I felt a shuffle in my abdomen. My food was hitting on an empty stomach, and it’s showing. I covered the food up and placed it back in the bag and tried to didn’t some soda. I finished the drink by the time we pulled up to a clinc.... a women’s clinic. I cringed at the sight. “Why here?” I asked.

“I thought you’d be more comfortable with a woman for your doctor.

“Okaaaayyyy.” I prepped myself to get out, I watched Enji get out with no hesitation, I still hesitated, until he came and opened my door offering a hand. I took it and was pulled back by my seatbelt. I laughed sheepishly and I clicked it before getting help again. We walked in and surprisingly empty, I guess the parking lot gave that away though. We walked in, Enji made me sit, he went and got the paper work from the secretary, and brought it back and I started to fill it out. I smiled as I gave back to him, and he got up and took it back. He told the nurse something and she nodded with a big smile. He nodded and came back to sit by my side. I felt nervous, and didn’t fight the bouncing of my leg, I shimmied closer to his side and leaned my head on his shoulder. A few minutes passed until they called. They took blood for vitamin checks, and muscle and bone stuff, urine for some tests, something about protein and I didn’t catch the rest. They told me to sit on the bed my doctor would be here soon. Then asked if I’d like Enji in the room or not, I nodded and said yes let him stay, I kNOW WHAT THIS IS.... maybe it won’t be so bad with someone else. A few more minutes and here she came, a short plump woman with bright eyes.

“I’m here, so tell me whats happening.” She said and didn’t even look at me, just read some papers.

“Well, I’ve been queasy, and I’ve been puking most of the day-“ I was wished by a hand on my back, “This will help you.” I watched Enji reach into his pocket and pull out a ziplock I cringed at the sight, the four tests I’d stuffed in my jacket.

The doctor took it and looked at them and laughed, “Well,” she smiled and clipped them to her board, “I’ll tell them to run the urine for a test.”

“Thank you.” Enji answered and she nodded then left.

“.......sooooooo, hows the weather up there?” I said not looking up at him. “Why didn’t you tell me?” He didn’t look at me, just ahead at the wall. I looked around, “I was scared, that maybe, you wouldn’t want it or you know....your past... that you might... you know.....” The sigh he let out was depressing, I tried to look at him. I was hurt, out of every fight I’ve ever seen him in, I felt like maybe, just maybe, this would be the lowest I’d ever see him. “I-“ “No, don’t say your sorry,” his stare still on the floor, “I don’t blame you.... for thinking those things, if you want to leave with this child then you can do so. I just want you to know these few things before you make a choice.”

I swallowed the lump in my throat, it’s weird because I’m not the one who just got emotionally wounded.

“I don’t deserve to be a father again, I know it, I understand the things I’ve done are not right. It can’t easily be forgiven. The things I’ve done can last over a life time, I’m working to fix all these things, I don’t want to hurt the one I love anymore, but I can’t stand the thought of hurting innocent people. I wanted to spend what’s left of my life with you, this is sudden, and you have the decision and freedom to decide what you think is best, but I promise you, this time, I will be the best man I can for you, and for this child. I don’t want to hurt anyone, I want to be the best I can and prove that I know what it’s like to be real father, to show I know what love really is. I won’t force you to make any decisions, and I won’t force my way into its life, I only want to do this, if you do this with me.”

I nodded and swallowed, great now IM crying. I tired to reach for his hand, “Enji.” His hand squeezed mine once I held his, “I’d love to share my life and first child with you,” I sniffled, “I don’t want my first child to not know it’s dad, so please, do everything you can to be there for us.”

***

“ILL,” I grunted and squeezed the hand burning my flesh, “I promise,” I let out a deep breath, “I’ll show you pain when this is over.” I took a few labored breaths, squeezing his hand, I pulled my hand out of his and took of my new wedding ring, “hold this it’s about to hurt us both once this head starts coming out.” I hissed feeling a sharp pain and then I felt it, it felt like a poop you can’t hold it, it dropped lower and “Alright Mrs.Todoroki, it’s crowning, so just give us a nice push-“

I flexed my lower abdomen and stopped when he said, I took breath, and clenched to Enji’s hand making sure to not squeezed my lower muscles in pain to avoid excessive bruising, “1...2...3... and push.”

I pushed again feeling pressure leaving my inside and pouring out of me, “Breathe,” the Doctor said and she looked up at me, “Someone has definitely been doing their workouts, this is going very quick and smooth.” She disappeared behind my legs and said “Last one,” a paused that felt like an hour, “Push-“ crying filled the room, “It’s a boy! Congratulations! Would you like to cut the umbilical cord Mr.Todoroki?” I let go of his hand but he hesitated, I nodded at him with a smile, the blood drained from him when he saw what everything looked like down there, he took the scissors and quickly cut before coming back to my side, “Placenta is coming.” She sis do felt another wave of pressure leaving me stomach, and I heard a wet plop, and a metallic sound. I shivered but quickly recovered when my necked son was placed on my now bear chest, I held him close and cried, he was a bit bloody still but I was so happy. The tears started falling as I hugged his gently and kissed his head of already bright red hair. “Precious, boy.” I said and gen’s got tried to rub some stuff off his face, he quickly attached to my breast and started to suckle,t tears didn’t stop as I looked up at Enji, he was wiping his own eyes.

“Have you thought of any names? Or should we wait a while?” The doctors said replacing her gloves and smock. “Well,” I looked up at Enji, “Things worked out, so? How about it?”

The doctor looked between us and Enji took the pen and notepad a nurse was holding, he wrote down the name and they nodded and took it, “Well then, I’ll leave you two with him a while longer until your pain has subsided and then we’ll take him to be weighed, and a few other things.”

We nodded and she smiled, “Congratulations, to the both of you.” Once more, after he stopped suckling I handed him to Enji and pulled my gown up, Enji seemed so scared, the baby WASNT small, he had rolls already, and they’re beautiful, but in Enji’s hands, he’s so small. “Hello,” he whispered and tried to cradle it ashore his chest on his forearm, it’s head resting against his bicep and pec. He brought his free hand to cover its torso and side, “I’m your father, I won’t ever leave you, I won’t ever hurt you, I never want to lose you, I’ll be with you always.” Call the hormone imbalance and recent loss of my child, but I was crying, I covered my face with my hands wiping the tears away, so cute.

***

“Enji?” I peeked into my room, nothing, “Enji?” Nothing was in the babies room, “Enji-“ there he was ok his back, on the floor, baby held up in the air, in his hands. The baby was laughing and flailing his arms and kicking. It was cute, I’d bought him an endeavor themed baby onesie, and Enji was wearing his hero costume without the armor. I stayed quiet watching as he stood up, and held the baby up to his shoulder, the baby placing a fist and his cheek on his shoulder, his eyes closed as Enji held him close. “I promise, I’ll never leave you.”

***

“where is he?!” I panicked and looked for my son, who just disappeared. I ran around the house and panic rose through the round when I heard gurgling don’t DROWN PELASE DONT DROWN BABY! Bursting into the master room fight or flight on high I felt stupid seeing Enji sleeping on his back arm circled around and pulling into his side the bundle of fire and Todoroki I was panicking for. The baby cooed moving closer to Enji, I sighed, my adrenaline wearing down, it was cute, especially when Enji turned to his side to hug our son to his chest, and mumbled out, “I’ll become someone you’ll be proud of, someone you can count on always.”

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[hermitcraftheadcanons]

Apartment AU Masterpost:

-Everyone lives in an apartment complex.

-Xisuma as landlord? Or just a really well looked up to person in the complex. Whichever works for you!

-Pranks all the time. Everyone's constantly pranking each other.

-Everyone has 'normal people jobs.' Perhaps Joe is an English teacher? (Cleo's also a teacher. (Irl.) Omg, what if they teach at the same school?) Maybe Bdubs is a professional interior designer? Maybe Cub builds computers? Go nuts, get creative.

-Actually, screw it. Bdubs works at IKEA.

-Everyone meets up every Friday night to go to the pub or go bowling or just do something together.

-They have a discord server because of course they do.

-European Hermits are early-birds, American hermits are night-owls. (This is the only way I can think to portray timezones and waking hours when everyone's living in the same building.)

-They all still love minecraft, don't worry.

-Keralis has so many books his flat is basically a library. He lets people come in and borrow books for a small fee.

-Tinfoilchef is a bit of a shut in but everyone makes an effort to include him.

-Etho would also be a cryptid like Xisuma. Like, we've seen Xisuma's whole body other than his face but the best we know about Etho is that: 1. He exists and 2. From the, like, one single real life photo he's shared, he broke a headset. Also, 3. Allegedly, he's buff. Otherwise; Beef and Etho invite Pause (who lives elsewhere,) over at random intervals to [play ctm maps] and do god knows what. Bdoubs works at IKEA but is the person to make the room displays, y'know.

-Scar sells dice and other tabletop rpg supplies that he designs. His shop is magiccrystals. com

-Cub and Scar made business with the guy who runs the fight club. They get half of the profits and everyone’s always wondering how those two can always afford the most expensive Christmas gifts for everyone.

-Mumbo could be an engineer or work on a STEM field, and he works on some really important and impressive projects and that would explain his polish person, Exept, when it comes to helping another hermit to change a lightbulb or fix a microwave he is an absolute disaster.

-Grian owns a parrot that knows everyones' names and faces and greets them when they come in.

-Scar's apartment has a balcony filled with plants and he has to bring them inside for the winter. (I'm assuming that all 4 seasons happen) Even without the balcony plants, his place is still full of indoor plants including his favorite venus flytrap. There is always a plant knocked over from Jellie's shenanigans. Jellie is supposed to stay in his apartment, however she keeps on getting out somehow, even getting to Xisuma's apartment occasionally.

-There's a grassy patch out back that acts as a backyard, but Stress has effectively taken it over. Perfect for flowers of all colors in the spring and summer, and during the winter you KNOW she’s building an ice castle from which to throw snowball at all her friends.

-Beef and, when he’s visiting, Pause get a lot of questions about Etho (since unlike X who gets one tightlipped visitor in shape of his brother Etho gets two that are willing to be vague) however they charge a fee for people to guess. They’d never actually sell him out but the guesses are always something technical related so there’s not much of a risk, he actually works as a botanist/gardener.

-Iskall is extremely good at ice hockey and, as resident Canadians, Etho and Beef have played with him. However Iskall only knows that he’s played with Beef because both beef and etho refuse to tell him who in the rink was Etho when they played.

-The only person who’s seen Xisuma's face is Keralis.

-Nobody knows what Grian does for a job. Like, when they think they've figured it out what he does, they're thrown through a loop again because he does a lot of odd jobs. Need help with a pet? Grian can help! Rip on your clothes? Don't worry, Grian knows how to fix it! Ect.

-Grian's an assassin. Iskall will make assassin jokes and Grian, without looking up from his coffee will go: "that's not how that works!" And then go back to being quiet. Everyone's like ????

-I love the idea of Grian knowing all these cool facts and when anyone acts he says 'it's because of his job,' and they still can't figure out what he does. He keeps correcting Iskall on assassin facts but they're all just like 'oh Grian sure must love those types of movies, huh.'

-Cleo teaches Joe's kid. (That means she teaches either year 2 or year 3? // 1st grade or 2nd grade?)

-Grian's family is in the mafia but he mostly just vibes. Sure, he works with the mafia, but he keeps his regular life away from work and none of the hermits (besides False because she saved the Mafia boss) know. Imagine boss looking at False and going, 'oh hey, you're already protected.' False is confused and says 'what?' But the Mafia Boss has already left.

-Etho is always in full kakashi cosplay.

-Honorary hermits apartment au: zloy and pixl have a radio show but also act as private investigators. Falsie hires them to investigate how she got the protection of the mafia. On their investigation they start asking Elybeat (that lives on a building right next to the hermits) about weird behaviors that he might have seen. Ely just goes ‘all of what they do is weird. I’ve recorded weird stuff they say and remixed it. They though it was funny and put the remixes as their elevator music.'

-Everyone thinks Etho is an assassin, but really, he's a horticulturist/botanist. He doesn't bother to correct them cause it means he doesn't get pranked, (or, as often.) Maybe someone finds out eventually? I don't know who. Maybe Doc and they keep it hush hush cause they think it's funny or something. || Maybe Bdubs finds out, (because I think he's seen Naruto?? Swear I saw a Twitter post where he recognized a Naruto joke) and he's the only one that recognizes that Etho's dressed like Kakashi and NOT an assassin. (That's lowkey a joke though.)

-Someone warns Grian against parking euro because they think Etho's an assassin and Grian just kinda goes: "alright then." Knowing that there's no way Etho is an assassin, but also realising how the hermits view that profession, he most likely starts feeling kinda bad.

-Beef used to be a car photographer and Mumbo takes photographs as a sideline when he was in college. They would occasionally chat about their past experience in the photography field and sometimes gush about cars.

-Hermit Challenges was actually a truth or dare game among the hermits. Mumbo was basically delirious from lack of sleep to explain his absolute gremlin energy. Mumbo dares Grian to steal front doors before passing out and everyone decided that was the end of that game. No one thought Grian would do the dare. A week later, everyone but Etho and Xisuma were missing their front doors (including Grian.) He stuck them in his bathroom so no one immediately saw the doors.

-As already established, Joe constantly hangs at Keralis's library. Let's say he also has a hobby for writing, and one time he was asking to himself how *insert really specific murder scene* would work in real life. Grian or Doc then overheard him and answers him in a also very specific way, he thanks them with 0 concerns and continues with his writing.

-Etho has been an assassin but it was many years ago, and retired to care for plants. (As you do.) He got hired by The Goatfather but intentionally botched the killings because, 'hey now those two are friends >:(' He and Bdubs still have the endrod game but it involves the whole apartment building and several discord messages going "located" or "flashlight on the move.'

-Stress paints all the hermit's door and puts their names on them. (-🌿)

-The organisization Grian works for is called "The Watchers!" They text him in riddles of what his missions are. This is so that if anyone peaks at his phone, they don't understand immediately!

-What if in YHS happen because of grian family and Sam is from an other family who does not support the grain family. So grian will not bring up high school and school and when joe and Cleo talk about there student grian sometimes cringes remember what happened in high school. (-🌿)

-Grian and Mumbo's hobbits holes were two cupboards they found on their respective apartments and decided to make a room out of them and named them their hobbit holes after they found out they both had them (-🐿️)

-What if it's a really old apartment and the 'hobbit holes' actually connect to each others apartment. (-🐺)

-Mumbo has these periods when he overworks like crazy and when they're over - he sleeps for like 24-36 hours straight. Everybody knows about this and help him if he falls asleep in random plaxes around the apartment. Mumbo once fell asleep right before his door and Grian tried to help him get inside while mumbling. Guess which remix were aded to the elevator music next week.

-Whenever anyone is annoyed or upset, grian sometimes pops his head up from his book and goes "who do I need to kill?" No one takes him seriously though he *would* kill for any of his friends.

-People who have left the server work nearby but have moved to new apartments. (For example, Welsknight works at a nearby food truck) (-☘️)

-With the Grian being a spy you get several oints where he thinks he's been found out but no one puts the and two together. They're all like: "Grian just likes action movies I guess."

-Scar's "wizard robe" is a bathrobe he owns. One day he forgets to change and just walks out in a bathrobe and no pants.

-Since Cleo teaches Joe's kid, maybe that extends to all the hermits' kids? Like the ones that have them, like not at the same time but at some point you know?

-I don't think I saw any regarding headgames, but I could've missed it. Anyways, what if Cleo wanted to make a big Scrapbook in her free time of all her friends, so she asks everybody to try and get pictures. So the PVP heads are candid photos, and the tradeable one are like selfies or group pictures. The other heads could just be a requirement for the picture like have a sheep in the picture. And maybe she gives the winners dinner payed by her or something.

-On the head cannon that hermits that aren’t on the server work nearby, Biffa is the actual mayor.

-Are mobs (and half mobs by extension) still a thing in apartment au? Cause if not I propose that Jevin just has cloob blue dyed hair and a bunch of blue tattoos.

-XB bakes a lot and always shares the food he makes with the others. They adore his cookies. Scar really wants to make some cookies in the shapes of disney characters with him, but he's too shy to ask. (-nameless anon)

-Perhaps Mumbo and Iskall are also protected by the mafia because of grian (perhaps scar is too) They and False have a 'we are protected and have no idea why' group (-Frost Anon)

-Imagine the hermits want to throw a nice party but X and Etho were kinda like “yeah no i’ll pass” so they make it a masquerade so that they can come- and then the whole night no one knows who anyone really is, but still has a really good time.

-Grian wanted a pet parrot, but felt like he would be terrible at taking care of one so he has toy parrots instead, those that have pre made phrases and such, and he is proud of his toy parrot pets. (-🐿️)

-Xisuma hosts a podcast! That's where all of his Xisuma speaks content ends up coming from. (-🇵🇭)

-Etho has a secret food blog called "Cooking With Etho" (based on the actual cooking with Etho segment in usually his modded stuff.) He also knows that there's hermits that either: have no idea how to cook properly or can't cook real meals due to their work. To help with this, sometimes he leaves finished meals or recipes with them (outside their doors or somehow in their fridge) and no one knows who does it prompting the theory of a self care ghost haunting the building.

(All of those in red were from Anons!)

-Joe works as a LAMP Developer.

-False has an assortment of swords, knives, etc. She even had a bow! She also has a dummy to practice fighting on.

(-@unpredictable-pancake.)

-Stress is a wedding designer. (-@the-angry-numel.)

-Iskall also works at IKEA with Bdubs. (-@mandatedempathy.)

-There's a local club that's basically fight club a few people are in. False, Iskall and a couple others are in.

-Hypno is kind of a bit of a loner. Everyone on the floor considers him a friend but he doesn't really have a best friend. He just does his own thing and people usually let him do that. He's fine with it.

-XB and Joe spend a lot of time at Keralis' library house just reading the books. Keralis usually charges every except those two because 1. They're there so often and 2. They're basically his room mates at this point. (-@tomcatacaphe.)

-Ren works at a bar as a bartender or musician. (-@friendlyneighbourhoodpieceoftrash.)

-Building on the last thing with Ren as a musician or working at a bar, he works at a bar as a server but does live music on weekends. It's the bar/pub/restaurant that the hermits sometimes hang out at together.

-I can see Grian working at a pet shop but also on the side of the mafia because of YHS. Or at least he used to be involved with the mafia.

-Beef once had to cart Etho off to the hospital for a chemical burn and explain to the other tenants that the explosion heard suspiciously close by wasn’t mafia activity. Etho is just an idiot with a hobby of making homemade fireworks.

-(-@limelocked.)

-False is the chief of police for the town they live in. Iskall is a hired assassin who normally gets employed by the mysterious figure GOATfather. Doc is the GOATfather, head of the mafia. Falsie is trying to hunt down these two as well as any others associated with them. The nHo is part of the mafia. Falsie has no idea any of them are in the mafia and they refuse to kill her because she has become such a close friend to them.

-Maybe Grian is a spy instead of an assassin? The group the Watchers is a government policing organization bent on trying to crack down on mob activity in the area.

(-@creator0fchaos.)

-The elevator music is hermitgang and remixes. -(@lookitsspacekween.)

-Zedaph is a game show host. Tango makes cartoons. (-@aphion-and-on.)

-Come on, let Iskall play ice hockey! Maybe not professionally if it doesn't work for the AU but he's v good at least. (-@automnalsaffron.)

-Grian maybe works at an animal shelter or an animal rehabilitation center. So everyone who has a pet usually comes to him for help if their pet is sick or injured. (-@vahco.)

-Grian has a safe full of guns, all the Hermits know about it but think they're fake. (-@xxpzmistxx)

-X never comes out of his room so no one’s seen his face. The only way he communicates is via text, Discord, and an intercom right by his door. He almost always gets groceries whenever the hermits are busy and therefore have no time to go out- but the hermits know he’s a real person because sometimes they hear guitar solos coming from his room.

-Hypno is a voice actor!

-Joe and Cleo often go home at the same time, and all the way it's almost always Cleo complaining about her students being bratty and the likes (Bonus points if Joe carpools with Cleo, who owns a car.)

-False unknowingly helps the boss of the mafia after seeing him wounded on a street one day, earning her their protection.

-As a callback to Season 6, Stress became a cat lady for a bit while False became a dog lady. As an added bonus: Cleo became nuts when Cub decided to gift her with spiders for her birthday or some other event.

-Mumbo still sidelines as a cameraman/film director for short documentaries and comedy sketches where he often invites Zed and his buddy Jack to act maybe?

-The first time X was proven to be an actual person was when the girls temporarily kicked the boys out to have the apartment all to themselves for a girls’ night which prompted the boys to have their own boys’ night. X was wearing his grey helmet that night so his face was still obscured tho, and from that day forward they always had a weekly girls’ night and boys’ night alternating on which group gets to have the apartment to themselves.

-False may seem like she can take a shot or two, but in reality she’s very lightweight and easily drunk, and is always the first one wasted. She becomes a flirty drunk who flirts with everyone and everything when she’s tipsy, an angry drunk the more she drinks and eventually a sad drunk before passing out. Cleo and Stress, her drinking buddies, always find amusement in this.

-As a callback to Xb living a thousand blocks away from society in s7, maybe he lives at the highest floor where not many (if not no one) occupies?

(-@heyitsroby.)

-Civil War started because they used to get groceries delivered to their doors and Grian started stealing them when they were left in the doorstep. Everyone stole each others groceries until one day they went into teamss of one side vs the other side of the corridor to the other until Grian stole so many groceries Dic was like 'Dammit!' He started going to the store to get groceries instead of getting them delivered to his door after that. (-@sayeshaa1108.)

-Regarding apartment au: Zedaph is similar to miu iruma from danganronpa: making the weirdest inventions and coaxing the other hermits into doing weird things for science. (-@oh-hecc-im-stupid.)

-Idk if Doc has a profession yet in the apartment au, but it just struck me- what if he owned a private casino?? Cause of s7? Just a thought! (-@853dragons.)

-Cleo really enjoys doing miniature diorama scenes. Like the tiny dudes from "Night at The Museum". She's like crazy good at it, and Joe will sometimes base his poems and stories off of her dioramas. Also maybe Joe has published a book of poems and short stories? (-@lynxes15.)

-Doc works as a social engineer and part time mafia boss. He rarely shows up for game nights. However, when he does, nobody else stands a chance.

-Tango, Impulse and Zedaph go over to each other's rooms so often they practically live together in an apartment room 3X bigger than everyone else.

(-@trashedeggnog.)

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-Everyone finds out Grian is an assassin/mafia boss because someone from a different gang (*cough cough* sam gladiator *cough cough*) found out where he lives and tried to murder him. Queue epic gun fight scene. If you want some angst, Grian gets shot a couple of times in the fight but didn’t realize it because of the adrenaline and passes out. (-Anon.)

-Imagine someone like, finding Grian's guns and weapons and just being :0 and Grian is a little nervous. But then the other hermit just think the guns are cool (it's probably either etho or doc) and they're just gushing over how cool the guns are. Grian is relieved. (-Anon.)

-iJevin owns at least one gun. He's not in the mafia or a cop or anything, it's just cool and legal so he as one. He's the constant counter for the other gun owning hermits who have them for more mafia related purposes (context: jevin owns at least one gun irl) (-Anon.)

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