#i'm probably headed to bed now

[notyetfixed-a]

things done today:

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#( such tomfoolery | ooc ) #i went through a huge following purge #finally made myself go through it #was tired of seeing people on my dash #who i've reached out to #but no effort was made #anyways #i'm probably headed to bed now #i had a really great friend talk with me through my sad girl hours #it was very helpful #very insightful #glad to end the day on a good note

[wildflowercryptid]

messing around with my dorothy design again for my portfolio ( + a design for the cowardly lion that still needs some polishing. )

#i'm also planning on making a dorothy doll for my mom as a late birthday / christmas gift #so that's another reason why i decided to work on her design for a sec #i'm not really happy w/ the lion's design yet i wanna play with it more so he looks a bit more unique #i need to give him more sad wet cat vibes bc that's literally what he is #anyways i stayed up late talking to my brother on the phone so i should probably head to bed now #my sleep schedule is a mess yet again #character design #the wizard of oz #dorothy gale #the cowardly lion #🎨 : mj draws

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[smolmakerel]

Life after the Ghostface killings in New York City was somewhat peaceful. As peaceful as it could be with the entire internet hounding you that you were going to end up becoming a serial killer like your dad.

If Sam had it her way, she would ban the internet. Because, honestly? Most of them were a bunch of incels (whatever that even meant. Sam overheard Mindy saying Richie was an incel and assumed it to mean a shitty person - which, true) who needed a positive social life.

And incels were why Sam usually stayed inside nowadays, because she didn't want to deal with shitty people trying to kill her. Again. For the third time.

Literally isolating herself led to the worst possible outcome.

For Tara.

"Um, Sam?"

Sam didn't bother putting the impact driver in her hand down. She whipped around and grinned at her bemused and annoyed sister coming into the living room.

Tara eyed the power tool in Sam's hand, the few screws poking out of her teeth, and the halfway-put-together hammock limp on the floor.

"Is there a reason why you're drilling holes in the wall?" Tara deadpanned, pulling her arms tight across her chest.

Sam looked down at the hammock as if it was obvious. It was kind of obvious. No, it was really obvious. The hammock was still half drilled into the wall and patiently waiting to be stuck across the room to stretch out. She opened her mouth to let the screws fall into her palm.

"I'm hanging a hammock."

"Why?"

"Because?"

"At 2 in the morning?" Sam went to open her mouth to defend herself, but Tara quickly narrowed her eyes and spoke up again. "When I have a final worth 40% of my grade at 9 in the morning?"

Sam slowly closed her jaw.

Tara held her angry glare for exactly 10 seconds before her shoulders dropped as she sighed. She trudged to the chair and curled up in it, patiently watching Sam watching her. Sam perked up at the silent "go on" from her sister.

"It was supposed to be a surprise for you," Sam admitted. She began to stretch the hammock to the other wall and used her stud finder on the wall. She sighed. "I guess I lost track of time."

Tara raised an unimpressed eyebrow. "So you haven't eaten all day?"

Sam laughed at that, nearly slipping and drilling her hand to the wall. Tara jolted at that but calmed down once Sam continued to laugh.

"That's my line, Tara." Sam tugged on the newly drilled hammock and sighed once she was satisfied it wasn't coming down. "Do you like it?"

"I think I'd like it even more if I didn't have to wake up during the installation."

Ok. Fine. Whatever.

Sam dramatically rolled her eyes and discarded the impact driver and stud finder on the half of the couch the hammock didn't cover. She flopped onto the hammock with a groan, hands behind her head.

"I'll just use it then," Sam teased with her eyes closed, "since someone doesn't appreciate honest work."

She could feel the side eye Tara was giving her, and she couldn't help but feel slightly panicked.

Did Tara really not like the gift? Was it over the top? Did it remind Tara too much of... before?

Before Sam could mentally degrade herself about how she should've known better than to burden Tara with this gift, the hammock rocked.

Sam snapped her eyes open at the tipping of the hammock and immediately threw her foot down to the floor for stability. Tara, from Sam's sudden movement, fell the rest of the way into the hammock.

Tara wriggled around, trying to get comfortable, and Sam laid as still as she could. As soon as Tara relaxed, almost completely on top of her older sister, Sam wrapped her arms around Tara and squeezed.

"Gotcha!" Sam said with a kiss to the crown of her head.

Tara grumbled, exhausted.

It was quiet after that. Sam rubbed soothing circles into Tara's back and hummed whatever song came to mind.

"Sammy?" Tara's tired voice slurred into Sam's shoulder. Sam hummed. "I love it; thank you so, so much. I feel like a kid again."

Sam swallowed. Wow. No one had ever really shown appreciation for the things she gave them. To hear how much Tara loved it made Sam love the gift too.

"It's nothing," Sam tried to downplay how happy she was, but the pitch in her voice gave it away.

Tara nuzzled deeper into her sister's bodywarmth, and Sam reached out to snag the wooly blanket from the couch beneath the hammock and toss it over them. Humming, Tara fully relaxed.

"Dos oruguitas," Sam softly sang, tucking Tara's hair behind her ear, "enamoradas.¹"

"Pasan sus noches," Tara mumbled, not even bothering to try and sing right now, "y madrugadas.²"

Sam snorted. Her foot began to lightly kick against the ground to sway the hammock.

The whir of the heater drowned out the honking outside of people rushing to get home and out of the way of the incoming snow storm.

Tara's shoulders hitched, drawing Sam's attention to them. Her eyes went wide when warm tears began to soak her shirt collar.

"Tara? Mi mariposa, ¿qué ocurre?" Sam lifted the two of them up enough so she could wipe away the tears flowing down Tara's cheeks. Each tear was a punch to the gut, and Sam wanted nothing more than to lightly assault whatever made Tara cry. "¿Estás bien?³"

Tara shook her head. "No es nada.⁴ I was thinking about our backyard. We used to do this all the time." She laughed wetly, full of tears. "I didn't know how much I missed it until now."

So... Sam needed to lightly assault herself. Got it.

At least she could make up for all of those afternoon naps in their backyard hammock she missed now.

"Me too," Sam agreed with a smile. She cupped Tara's face and kissed her forehead, and Tara sank into the action with a tired sigh. "Now -" Sam pulled back with a mock stern glare -"you're going back to sleep. You have your final in the morning. Why are you even awake right now?"

"What? You're the one that -"

"Shh, less talking more sleeping."

Tara huffed, but it sounded suspiciously like muffled laughter.

Sam pulled Tara back down and continued to rub her back and push her foot to move the hammock. The soothing motions combined with Sam's warmth lulled Tara into an easy sleep.

But Sam never stopped rocking her foot. She pulled the blanket higher over both of them before hugging her sister.

With Tara now sleeping, Sam silently dissolved into a mess of tears. She was glad Tara wasn't seeing this moment of weakness from her. What would she think of Sam if she knew Sam cried so easily over her?

"Te amo, Tara," she said as she gathered Tara as close as she could, until the world shifted and the puzzle completed. She was whole again. "Te amo mucho, mi corazón.⁵"

Sam closed her eyes and fell asleep with her entire world in her arms.

— ● — ○ — ● — ○ —

1: Two little caterpillars in love

2: They spend their nights and early mornings

3: My butterfly, what's going on? Are you ok?

4: It's nothing.

5: I love you, Tara. I love you so much, my heart.

#I haven't written in a while so bear with me 😭 #Sam is such a dad #Sam getting out her toolbox: I have the tools for success #Tara: *side eyes her* #I have so many headcanons of these two that will probably never leave my head #I love them so much #Anyway #Tara was wearing a Freddy Fazbear onesie to bed in this I don't make the rules I just enforce them #Sam was wearing a Bonnie onesie /j #Now I'm thinking about a FNAF au 🙄 #In the morning: #Tara ended up missing her exam and Sam was freaking out about it #Then Sam's stomach growling reminded Tara of how Sam didn't eat at all yesterday #So they had breakfast together ❤ #Chad and Mindy crashed the breakfast party for free food #sam carpenter #tara carpenter #scream 2022 #scream vi #scream #I wrote this while having 4% battery on my phone also so I was doing a rush lol #my writing #This was originally angsty as hell but I'll write that another time #They're both crybabies but Tara's the one that cries in public while Sam breaks down when Tara isn't around

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

Seeing the same people who perpetuated or sent vicious misogynistic hate to Hannah Schmitz, as well as disgusting racist abuse towards Yuki and Alex because of FUCKING CONSPIRACY THEORIES and those who just straight up ignored it, now up in arms regarding whatever the fuck is going on between the FIA and the wolffs is beginning to piss me off. Because now that it's not someone red bull affiliated involved, it's somehow now unacceptable.

#f1 #formula 1 #formula one #who knows wtf is going on not the fia and not the teams but anyways #i will say toto needs to be investigated because of previous info breaches #but I've been saying that for years long before F1 academy was ever a thing #there's just been too many instances of him having info he shouldn't and things quietly and quickly changing for his benefit #I'm tired and stressed with trying to finish everything up for the semester hence why I've been less active #but this is just pissing me off #i never forgot or forgave the bs and abuse hannah yuki and alex got and i won't ever forget or forgive #i remember after monaco 22 i saw the anti red bull gang were claiming toto fucked up by “allowing' alex the Williams seat #apparently it was alexs fault ferrari fucked up and red bull were turning the tide smh #the bullshit ted began about hannah and yuki he will never see heaven i swear #and i know not everyone calling out the situation partook in the aforementioned but I'm seeing certain people who did #and they don't seem to notice their hypocrisy or double standards #anyway i get my one annoyed post that I'll probably delete later but at least I've got it out and can now return to watching the clown show #and ignore those with doublestandards #anyways bed now because i think I'm slowly losing my mind #it's not a good sign when you hear the imperial march in your head when thinking of college work is it

[pocketramblr]

fae court but it's a legal court, changelings are fae they leave in place of human jurors during the trial because it's the best way to prevent the trial from just becoming a bunch of fairies trying to one up the best bargain for their vote with the accused

#now this could be funny or concerning based on how much time a trial actually takes #but i think it would be funny if fairies had a constitutional right to NOT be tried by their peers (aka other fairies) so that they didn't #have to incur debt to get a fair ruling) #and also if. fairies had a constitution. #but also this means fae get jury duty letters too. or more accurately changeling duty let's #*letters #or maybe some fae are career changelings that just are good at acting human and so the court pays them to do it full time #maybe it's both like a big city can afford court appointed career changelings #but it smaller counties with less resources well. it's changeling duty time #'pocket why are you thinking so much about jury duty' because i was trying to think of funny places to say you met your spouse #(because i just learned something funny about a relative lol) #and 'oh yeah we met at jury duty' popped into my head #so now I've been thinking about it. like is this an established trope in romance circles? i could see it but dunno myself #and also thinking about how i have got to get that jury duty experience approved for my students so many of them don't know.... #and then the fae court fic I'm reading in the background bled in #probably fed by that one post that's like small claims fae court #and now. considering the systems of government that would be in place to allow these scenarios fbchvjm #... o need to go to be #bed

[keeps-ache]

hehe. crackling

#just me hi #hey do your ears crackle and get kind of uncomfortable when people yell lol #sometimes regular loud noises do it but not really #it started happening like a year or so ago and blahh hfh #and then like a chill goes down from my ears to the back of my neck ? it's weird man #do i probably know why that is? yea lmao. do i wanna speculate anyway? Yes it's fun ehehehehegh :33 #the fairies dropped some dust on my bed during one visit and now it makes my ears itchy on the inside i guess #the ocean is whispering but reception is poor #old tissue paper from some birthday some years ago is still hangin around #tv static lives in my head and goes for walks sometimes :) #the characters stored inside are opening their packages #Thought Blender 3000 (Guaranteed Blending (Max Puree)) has been invoked #my neurons are playing musical chairs #brain is doin a little jig #the possibilities... Endless......... #//anywhoooo i have GOT to write #not because i have to but because i Need to. you understand #so i'm going to see which part of the universe will decide No. Not Now when i start hbvfhs :3 #let's seee #ofc i'm going to reblog a handful of things beforehand though. it's just the way things are done lol :33 #toooooodles :>>

[osoreruna]

oh god — i never updated my card, toshi still doesn't have a proper about page up ! AND I STILL HAVE IZUKU'S HORRIBLE FANART AS MY ICON WHY DIDN'T YOU GUYS TELL ME —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #tbd #i don't get to look at my icon #i never see it #i genuinely forgot about it. #y'all pulled up my blog #saw that as my icon #and still chose to follow huh — #y'all some real ones. #i am just now getting home from laundry #and i am still aching. #somehow worse than yesterday. #and i have work in the morning so imma head to bed. #i've gotta get up and get to work so i can get off so we can watch TWO HEROES TOMORROW !! #i'm EXCITED it's so fun and good — #the ad will be posted tomorrow morning for good measure and then one more time probably 30-ish minutes before we start. #keep an eye on the dash for delays though #there shouldn't be any but i also wasn't expecting to work on sunday. i originally had the day off. #and there's a lot of things i can't control at work so this is just a warning. #but anyway goodnight besties #i will see y'all in the watchparty #be there or be SQUARE —

[ghcstcd]

Y'all wanna see Omega's o face so bad, oooooo

#I've only been out of bed for like an hour and a half #I'm sorry there's no brain cells today #the little dog woke me up like 20 times last night because he decided he was going to sleep RIGHT AGAINST MY HEAD #I also remember waking up at one point and like viciously taking my wrist brace off for SOME REASON??? #like I remember even thinking 'why did I do that?' and then I passed out again #IDK LAST NIGHT WAS A TRIP #probably not a good sign I got the chills right now

[asjjohnson]

I've finished the bottle of pain killers I bought in November. haha, I guess I hadn't needed to worry about their short expiration date. (I already bought more, by the way)

I thought it would've helped a bit more for this morning's headache. (if I didn't think it would also increase the risk of side effects I would drink some coffee to increase the dose.)

If I'm not careful, one of these days during a headache I'll tell a doctor to go ahead and crack my head open.

...When not having a headache, I want to avoid that.

(but I'll probably be fine soonish. Just whining a bit. Despite the headaches having been getting more mild over these months, I seem to be getting more sensitive. I guess I'm just tired of it.)

(...pondering risking the internal bleeding and other bad side effects of a coffee boost. ...But then again the taste/smell of coffee might make me throw up. :/ )

#the brain scan I'd insisted on showed a tiny little bump. too small yet to push against anything. I shouldn't be able to feel it. #It's probably a red herring but that's what sawing my head open would be for if I were to impulsively do it. #...of course; if I did; I would have headaches for possibly months after from the surgery itself. ...maybe worse ones. #...and I don't want part of my head shaved. It's even where I part my hair. It takes at least seven years to grow back! #there's also the likely ridges and scars; and infections. And chance of damaging part of the brain. #I wanna leave it be unless it becomes daaangerous. don't consider it. it's probably not even related to the headaches. #...coffee boost? ...I'm probably just feeling pressurey now instead of pain-pain though. Medicine doesn't help with that. :/ #...I'm probably imagining it into hurting more by focusing on it so much. #...or maybe lying in bed is why. I should probably not be horizontal. ...but I also don't wanna get up. getting up might hurt too. I don't #aah it's getting boring I guess I'll get up. ...very slowly.

[imwritesometimes]

nothing like waking up and immediately having horrible migraine aura followed by a horrible fckn migraine to just completely derail all the plans you had 😖

#last week was very very VERY stressful & busy and a lot of my day to day shit fell to the wayside #and yesterday was really good in terms of getting back to normal! I was like hell yeah crushin it! #and then I started getting the tell tale pre migraine headache last night and I was like I'll take meds to combat this now! try and prevent! #lot of good that did me! haven't had the aura shit in a while fckn doozy of a day had to scrap everything and crawl back into bed #feel slightly better? vision still isn't uhhhh... like I wouldn't drive rn lol but at least it's a little better #head is still fucked but it'll probably be that was until tomorrow #god I hate this I know it's from the massive weather change coming gonna rain for a week straight 😞 #and because I'm so fckn old now AND have nerve damage my whole body is just FUCKED from going back to cold ass weather #I did find out today my brother and I experience different migraine auras though which was interesting #still can't wear my glasses tho so lmao def can't drive or do practically anything at all 🙃 #just now able to look at my phone (only apps in dark mode fck u tumblr for being one of the only apps that has dark mode) #can't even brainstorm on fic which is killing me I can only sit like a potato and just exist #brain cannot imagine things only pound pound pound #erin explains it all

[forgotten-daydreamer]

i took 3 ibuprofens in the past, like, 8 hrs, the highest dosage they sell (with prescription of course) and my migraine is still not letting up? i keep getting sudden spikes of pain, vertigo and nausea come and go, and when the pain worsens, my eyes feel like they're about to pop out of my skull and i can't keep them open. i've been alright for the past 20 mins but holy shit i'm exhausted. now i smell smoke but i'm not sure more pain's on the way so maybe someone's just setting shit on fire and it's not an aura.

#is it frowned upon if i curl up in bed at 8.30 pm disregarding my deadlines and just pass the fuck out after a 4th dose? #but i'd go over the max dosage (i reached it with the third dose) and it'd probably just make me more nauseous #now my head's ok but my eyes are tired and i'm shaky and dizzy #lord please transfer my migraines to someone else. i'm tired. #chronic migraines #migraines

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 16

"Coast of Carolina" by Jimmy Buffett

#song of the day #when I said my schedule would be back to normal today apparently what I meant was my sleep schedule would be obliterated today! #it snowed and I wanted to sleep in and so I reset my alarm but then my phone didn't get plugged back in and it died! #I slept through all my work day and woke up feeling quite refreshed to find several politely displeased messages from my boss #unfortunate! #I did sleep incredibly well though. better than I have in maybe a year #anyway my kitchen is clean again finally and my plants probably will not die and I have done quite a lot of frantic report-building for wor #and I'm going to sleep again now to nap for a few hours so I can be awake for real worktime tomorrow and apologize! unfortunate!!!! #love this song though. very soothing to croon. baked lovely brownies to this song while fretting tonight and it did help #edit: I'm awake and I've written out my apologies and Jo is here and purring so so loud #and I woke up with a different Jimmy Buffett song stuck in my head #Coast of Carolina is the one I was humming when I went to bed #but I've woken up with 'The Wino and I Know' which is also a fabulous song and which also did play as I made my sadness brownies #'just like a fool when those sweet goodies cool / I eat til I eat way too much #cause I'm livin on things that excite me / be they pastry or lobsters or love #I'm just tryin to get by / bein quiet and shy / in a world full of pushin and shovin #and the wino and I know / the pain of back bustin / like a farmer knows the pain / of his pickup truck rustin #strange situation / wild occupation / livin my life like a song' #a later edit: my lovely apology message has been left on read. unfortunate!!!!!!!! I do keep laughing though

[in--somnium]

((I need to add specific verses eventually, but aside from that Cassia's blog is finished! I'll probably start reblogging threads / answering things over there soon!

So if you want to follow her over at her new blog, feel free to do so! She's located over at: @astral-athame ))

#ooc. #((Now I'm headed to bed probably. But I'll be around a bit tomorrow <3))

[veliseraptor]

today I spent a truly unfortunate amount of time, during much of which I should have been doing other things, writing just over 3,200 words in three different vegaspete fics. whoops.

#don't worry cql folks i am not abandoning you #i've just got a real big problem right now #my problems scope will broaden again i expect #but oh boy #important text posts #puts head down on table. sighs #i'm going to bed #where i will probably think more about fic i want to write

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #🌗 #my head has been hurting for days now and the only relief is sleep so I've been a bit gone... #I managed to play in a ttrpg with friends but it's been so bad I'm kind of forced to stay in bed unless I force myself @@ #let's hope this passes soon -:( #going back to bed now probably... #Youtube