#i’ve never been so lost

[missegyptiana]

still to this day confused and stressed abt that stephen colbert interview with taylor

#i’ve never been so lost #stephen colbert #taylor swift

[why-the-heck-not]

christmas things

#and since christmas I made a grand error of starting to watch Lost bc never did watch that and ik it was very popular at one point and I #wanted to see and it’s been 2-3 days and I’ve watched the whole first season #if something happens to charlie sayid or vincent I’m going to have a nervous breakdown #and I’m so sure that there’s no way that the dog (vincent) could survive the whole thing #nice to watch a good show I haven’t seen a billion spoilers about (a rare thing) #so that’s how my ’’i’ll be productive after christmas’’ is going #bookblr #studyblr #booklr #aesthetic #books #study #reading #read #book #christmas #december 2023 #2023

[shepards-folly]

Smoke & Mirrors

#shep arts #hermitcraft #hermitblr #xisuma #xisumavoid #evil xisuma #I just think its funny that i never draw EX without his helmet and I made his visor just flat and reflective #and then i draw xisuma without his helmet all the time cause drawing the smokey void look is fun for me #so yknow haha smoke n mirrors #twins. reflections of eachother… something something thematic to some of my ideas for things #I had more of a train of thought about the caption that existed before the drawing was done but uh thats lost to time now #i’ve been kinda exhausted/burned out recently so its pretty much just flats for this one #i think it looks cool still though

[kicktwine]

miskellaneous

#tumblr is still my doodle archive #my art #venitas #ffxiv #kh #sprawl au #ooooo veni you are so creature #first of all. Bunny. Bnnuy. I would like to consider the bunny. Sorry for trapping him he’s doing plot in my brain #I drew vani a while ago but I should have made him a catboy. I will next time I draw him #second of all back in pic order #ari is trying to be kind but violence is extremely fun for him. He loves it. He loves to gloat and he loves to cackle #if he’s allowed at a target for his pent up rage and aggression he gets weird #second of all I’ve been thinking about gender as one does. And what it would look like 5000 years in the future #so like in sprawl. there’s an entire timeline of gender studies and anthropology that leads from our time #through where the entire notion COMPLETELY fell apart; through where there was a resurgence of ancient gender roles #back and forth and in circles and where new things sprung up and fell and debates about the validity of self went nuts #Xion knows a lot about it bc she will claim trans as a label vanitas also knows a lot of things because he Doesn’t consider himself #trans. vens confused he was literally never taught about any of this. unity(divine) has its own… kinda messed up way of doing it #he got lost somewhere around the advent of gene augmentation and nonhuman drag (she didn’t have to go into that detail she just thinks it’s #really cool) #(Also that was really early —) #Anyways. vanitas is also getting his sense of touch back up there. xions a miracle worker #transgender is even a slightly archaic term. it completely died for about a thousand years and then came back with a retro wave

[aturnoftheearth]

“hey we need you to run as fast as you can for the next 5 minutes” say no more

#was going soooo slow towards the end of my workout but then i put this bad boy on and next thing i know it’s over and i can’t feel my legs #i love this song live so so much but this version???? the one he’s specifically been doing on the long lost and lord huron lives tours????? #there aren’t words. i’ve never felt more alive. #lord huron

[multifanrae]

Jonathon Sims proved that even us cringe fail losers out here can be loved and he needs more credit for that I think

#justice for my fellow overthinking idiots #(and also under thinking because it’s somehow both) #the magnus archives #tma #magnuspod #jonathan sims #I took so many Ls today #I’ve never been so disappointed in myself #but if Mr you don’t sound Russian have us and Martin there for him maybe all hope is not lost

[lavenderjewels]

you fascinate me

#sukuna #jjk spoilers #I’m not smart enough to talk about this but 1) love a little symbolic cannibalism/hunger thing going on #and 2) Im interested in seeing what Sukuna’s end is and if we’ll get more of his past #I remember when people theorized that sukuna in that jogo scene #where jogo asks ‘what is this’ and sukuna replies with ‘idk either’ #that it was a result of Yuuji’s self breaking through when complimenting jogo #but I like that it’s more clear that that IS who sukuna is #it’s a little more complex than a simple generic villain #which I appreciate bc honestly he’s never been my favorite of the villains #and partially that WAS bc I think some things are lost in translation (also dub makes him seem SO casual like just some guy lol) #I find him most interesting with these moments #and it’s funny comparing his interactions with others vs yuuji in hindsight #ok that’s enough rambling in the notes. yes I’m back to enjoying sukuna more now that gojo vs sukuna is over and he’s in his original form #I’m VERY excited for that scene animated soon and his censored powers #I’ve talked a lot about how much I love jogos death scene it’s definitely up there in moments I love from the series

[nc-vb]

if it’s gotten to the fucking point that the Ministry of Education has to announce that “the school year is cancelled” for part of Gaza because all its students have been murdered, humanity has failed, failed at everything— flat out, point blank, and unequivocally failed.

#I will not pretend that I’ve known the extent of the situation up until now #I feel I’ve been out of touch with true reality and have only now been catching up #and my heart and mind will never fully be able to comprehend why and how and WHY this is happening #but GOD these children #I once worked with Syrian youth who had come to Canada with their families #to hear their pain and listen to their cries— I still don’t sleep well at night. I hear them all the time. #now children are writing their names on their bodies so they can be IDENTIFIED. #humanity has failed; this is NOT humanity. #it’s just so insane and unbelievable and just simply UNFATHOMABLE that this is going on #LET ALONE FOR OVER 17 YEARS. #to hear my friends and coworkers cry over their lost friends and family members #to have to hold them for THIS REASON. #I have never been a praying person in my life but I am believing in any and every god for the people of Palestine. #I will not believe that choosing to pray does nothing. #because while those beautiful people keep praying I will keep praying. #and it’s not even corny to say that I’m praying for that bright break in the clouds #for the sun to shine upon them SOON AND QUICKLY. #for my friends and my coworkers and my neighbours who grieve and mourn but still pray for an end. #hugging and kissing and holding everyone very tightly from where I am. because I can do little else than I already am. #palestine #free palestine #free gaza #✦ nc vb. #cw murder

[summer-fire]

Muppet ass bird movie

#the boy and the heron was good! visually stunning #however. I think it falls into the same trap that everything since ponyo and arietty has fallen into #which is too many elements. the ‘rock’ was unnecessary. it should have just been more of a… crazy wizard guy found some way to alter the spo #spirit world/afterlife on his own? I think the element of accepting new family members was a bit lost. #the heron wanting to bring him to the spirit world would have been a bit more impactful if he had been the g.grand uncle in disguise? #parrots were a really fun element but using them as the end-villain was not satisfying #there was a chance to have the main character decide the end of the plot but that was just taken away from him #cursed with never remembering character names. but the plot I was expecting was a bit more mature with the pregnant aunt being asked to give #up her child to be the next wizard or something. like that’s why she was brought there. because the main character resisted so much so they #took the next youngest of kin to raise in the spirit world #man. that said the scenery surrounding the first pelican scene until they get the fish is like. directly from many dreams I’ve had

[byronstan]

playing connect the dots with birds in the sky

#personal #birds #sky #i’ve been reminiscing on old days socials. days when you could just post things and everyone was cool with it #not in a right-wing ‘they’re censoring us grumble grumble cancel culture’ but more of a ‘these are places designed to jot your thoughts’ #i was never someone that posted bc i was a minor with paranoid parents #idk. the things i saw at least emphasized finding beauty and meaning in the mundane. and i’ve lost touch with that. #i want to reconnect with that so i’m taking pictures of the world again and writing poetry again and gazing out of windows again #so fuck it. birds in the sky. #the first one is mine and i see a teapot the second one is my partner’s and they see a man pointing

[francis-mulcahys-angels]

Okay so maybe it’s my fault that I read an article about the quantum leap reboot but I did not expect the spoiler

SAM BECKETT NEVER GOT HOME LIKE WHAT

I haven’t finished the show as I’m in the beginning of the fourth season but what </3

Like I’m here hopelessly wishing he gets home and he never gets home what ??!???

I’m so not fucking ready for the finale omfg

#I’ve never quantum leap posted as I’ve only been into the show for the last month ish but damn has it infested my life #it’s really good #I’m not upset over being spoiled #the show is like 30ish years old so it’s whatever #it’s just the idea that Sam never makes it home that gets me #Sam is one of the most well-being and nicest guys out there and he’s still lost #I just can’t handle that:( #anyways hopes this means anything to anyone #quantum leap #sam beckett #my poor baby #spoilers #quantum leap spoilers #emotionally wrecked

[wyrm-with-a-why]

Me explaining that if it can’t be my night then it can’t be Megatron’s night either

Everyone’s favourite girl failure🩷

#transformers #megatron #wyrms art tag #traditional drawing #doodles #everyone’s so mean to me💔 -Megatron #I wanted to draw her huddling #if my night is sent down the tubes then so is yours bitch #that’s right cry over the best friend you loved and lost because you’re selfish #also I’ve never been confident about eye bags what are we thinking #my irl bestie has this art style and I took inspo for the eye bags #also I fucked up on her hand in the headshot like six times #like I did good then erased it then regretted it

[sunnibits]

he literally. fucking. he wants to be better but he doesn’t know how. he wants romance deep down but he doesn’t know how to be romantic. he’s in love but he can’t even recognize it. he wants to be softer but he’s all hard edges and he just doesn’t know how!! he doesn’t know how to make himself gentle!!! he doesn’t fucking know!!!!

#and here comes this GUY who just knows everything and is everything he never even knew Ed wanted because he never TOLD him #and he thought he fucking NEEDED to be sharp and hard and cold like a shard of glass because nobody fucking TOLD him there was another way #nobody ever bothered to teach him how to be tender and Ed presumably never asked for it so how was he fucking supposed to KNOW. #how was he supposed to know!! how to be any different!!!!! #how could Ed possibly ever choose him now that he has all the tenderness he wants and Izzy is too mangled to ever be soft again!!!!! #how!!!! #he’s fucking lost and he doesn’t even know how to fight this battle!!! #izzy hands #ofmd #sorry but cons comments have been making me INSANE #and it’s 2am and I just can’t handle this right now #he literally wants to be better. he wants to love he wants to be loved but he doesn’t know how…. #something something when you train your dog for the pit fights then leave it on the street to go adopt a pretty little lapdog instead #I’ve just. had many discussions with my friend ab this concept and it murders me every tim wand cons fucking comments are just making it #so much worse

[quietwingsinthesky]

having a society that is so hellbent on the idea that “gaining weight=bad, losing weight=good” without any nuance makes it. fucking impossible. to bring up lost weight as a sign of Something Bad Going On

#which is. not to get too personal but ive lost an abnormal amount in only a month. #nothing i’ve been doing has changed. but it just vanished. and my body doesn’t do that. #i know my body i’ve lived in it for two decades i know how to live in it. it doesn’t do this. #but bring that up to anyone in my family and they just go :) oh but you’ve lost weight. it’s so much better for you now. #GIRL SOMETHING IS WRONG. god. #😔 never be a bear at this rate lol #vent

[classical-vanity]

There’s days when I really feel like a failure/ disappointment because I think everyone had pretty high expectations of me growing up and I feel like I’ve done nothing with my life

#i feel like it’s always just been assumed I’ll do well in life #because I did pretty well in school early on #but that was always just because i had to #it just felt like my duty to do well so I did #doing bad in school was not really an option #i was also called ambitious when i was young #but I never felt ambitious #again I just did what i had to do in my eyes #to be ambitious i think you need to work towards something #and I never knew what I wanted to do #i think I’ve always been sort of lost #and i see people I grew up with that seem to be doing so much better #and it makes me feel very inadequate and mediocre #I think it’s mostly bad brain bc idk these people anymore idk how their lives are for real #i always feel like i have to do more and what I do is not enough #but like half of last year all i had energy for was surviving day to day #idek what i’m supposed to be doing really #maybe I’m just a boring mediocre person and it is what it is at the end of the day #this is too long but whatever #tbd likely

[shima-draws]

Mhmm. Got new OC ideas on the brain. It’s basically the trope of “I thought I lost you when we were kids but you’ve actually been by my side now that we’re adults yet I was too fucking STUPID to realize it was you all along” which is like. MWAH chef’s kiss 😩👌

#Shima speaks #I’ve been trying to solidify the last few members of Nahu’s squad and I think these two are ittttt #See bc when I initially came up with his teammates I was like. Well I want to put a himbo in there somewhere. #Except I could never come up with a concept for the himbo character UNTIL NOW #(He’s still a himbo but to a much lesser degree. He’s an idiot but also smart unfortunately. LMAO) #And I had an idea for my baker boy but I’m changing it up #Anyway yeah can’t get this idea out of my head. #Person A being like I lost the one person I really cared about when I was a kid and I never fully recovered from that #And Person B being like I’ve been looking for you for SO long and now I finally found you #But things are such a fucking MESS I can’t reveal who I am to you right now #(Which is crazy bc you’d THINK you’d recognize me even after so long?) #Well Person B. Person A thinks you’ve been dead this whole time of COURSE he wouldn’t put two and two together #ALSO HE’S AN IDIOT!!!! #Person B: How did you not realize it was m #Person B: Ah. Wait. That’s right. You’re a dumbass #Person A: AHA!! OUCH!!! #I have SO many thoughts! Tee hee!! #Shima’s OCs #Among the Stars #ATS