#i’m just in a weird mood lately

[ridestomars]

Scream I can’t believe you posted about alt!reader x Eddie as I was thinking about sending an ask about them, great minds omg

I was just thinking of their potential dynamic. He annoys the shit out of her but in a sweet affectionate way, sprinkles in flirty lines in between his roasts for sure. Alt!reader would roll her eyes at him and act as though those flirty lines and his strategy isn’t affecting her (it is, it’s successful she adores but won’t tell him that)

I also imagine Eddie getting her lunch, to the point that he knows her exact order off the top of his head, how she likes her burger, how she like a small cherry coke, how she likes to dip fries into her milkshake (which he thinks is odd, she flips him off as she does so) and how she likes to smush her burger down to eat. (Just some examples, the point is he notices and remembers the little things).

One day he comes by and she hands him the extra sandwich she made for lunch for him. And he’s so shocked and confused? You made this sandwich for me? (Something tells me it’s not something he’s used to) And she’s like you always buy food that’s not the healthiest, so you even eat vegetables, that ones for you…to eat. I just think Eddie’s love language is doing things for people. Food is also the best love language

💭 liv's thoughts: this is longer than i thought it would be lmao. TW: mentions of food and bad alimentary habits. not proofread, as always.

you know, i believe that eddie loves attention, better yet, thrives off it. he enjoys having all the eyes set on him while he narrates the new and awesome campaign he's been planning for months; or how dustin always seems to look at him like he's the wisest person he has ever met, even though eddie finishes every motivational pep talk with a rock sign and "rock on, dude!". but the guys from hellfire aren't like the rest of hawkins' population, and he knows that the eyes his fellow clubmates make for him aren't the same as the town's citizens. outside of his club, he's just hawkins' freak. nothing else.

but for you, he is the cutest guy that you ever laid your eyes upon, even though he could be insufferable at times. eddie always thinks he's dreaming whenever he catches you looking his way, with your gaze full of admiration, much like the kids from his club, but with something else that he hasn't been able to put his finger on. not yet. only to think that you slightly glance at him whenever he walks in the record shop is enough to make his day... and, hell, when you do as much as greet him? yeah, you just made his whole week. he loves every single interaction you're willing to give him, honestly. but he can't deny the way his heart flutters when you take notice of his new iron maiden shirt, or when you compliment how sparkly the scrunchie he's using to tie his hair is. and yet, he goes wild for the little petty arguments you have over music (and whatever else, really); oh man, he loooves when he annoys you enough to make that furrow in your brow appear. the highlight of his day, really.

and even though he might be a dumbass sometimes, at the end of the day he is a sweet dumbass. the best kind there is. and that's simply because he is the type of person where if you do as much as comment that you enjoy something, he'll get it for you as soon as possible. you know, the type of guy that stocks half a cabinet full of your favorite type of chips because one day he thinks he heard you say that you really liked salt chips. and then boom! now you have salt chips for the rest of your life. like, for example, that time when you told him that you really wanted some pop rocks since you haven't had them since middle school. an innocent comment, just something you absentmindedly said while organizing some peter gabriel records. but boy, oh boy, the next day, eddie came with a bag full of every flavor of pop rocks available in the entirety of hawkins. because, you know, "they were on sale! and i didn't remember which one i liked best so i just... bought them all. want one?" as he's already slipping the whole bag in your direction, not leaving a single one for him.

but i got to say that eddie's eating habits aren't healthy in the slightest. i truly believe that his idea of a good fulfilling lunch is frozen hamburgers and a tall glass of coke. i mean, we can't really expect much from someone who lives off of pretzel anything. so i don't think he was expecting you to slip him a sandwich right before your lunch break and ask him to eat with you – because usually, he'd just pretend he's distracted by the music magazines you sell at the store while you eat quietly behind the counter. but the main reason for the overwhelming sense of surprise that took over him is that this is probably the nicest thing anybody's ever done for him. and eddie eats the whole thing with the biggest smile on his face, not even minding the mustard and the weird green leaves you put in. because he's just so happy!!!

i truly feel like you changed his eating habits from that day on. and even changed a few your own habits as well, since now you always make sure to leave the house with three sandwiches – because eddie eats two. <3

small note: anon, i just wanted to leave you a little note because i don't think you can understand how happy this ask made me. i was really not in the mood for writing but i was so happy that you completely understood the dynamic i was going for!! and i knew i had to write this for you – so i hope you enjoy it as much as i did! thank you so much, baby!

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#this got too emotional 🤨 #sorry if i scared u off anon #i’m just in a weird mood lately #liv answers anon #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x alt!reader #eddie x alt!reader #liv talks about eddie #eddie <3

[bluuscreen]

i think. there’s more than one kind of unconditional love. like it’s not all ignoring peoples flaws and staying by someone’s side forever, it’s also like

you hurt me and made me feel awful sometimes, and it’s a good thing we aren’t friends anymore. but i hope you changed and got better, and you were important to me at some point, and i love you

we drifted apart and haven’t spoken properly in years, but i still think of you sometimes and i hope you’re doing well, and i love you

you were a relative stranger i spoke to a few times on the train and while eventually we both stopped needing public transport, i wish you the best in getting wherever you’re going, and i love you

you stopped talking to me one day and never really explained why, and i just had to move on from that even though i saw you every day, and i still love you

sometimes it’s not unconditional because you’re with someone forever, but because you’re not

#.txt #half asleep thinking abt all the friends i’ve had over the years that i don’t have anymore let’s goooo #half asleep because i just woke up. good morning #i say at 2:30pm #i’m having a weird day i guess #the waking up this late isn’t that weird i mostly mean my Mood

[bizarrescribblez]

I need to draw self ship stuff I really need to because ermmmm going through it rn ☹️☹️☹️

#I’m just RAHH IDK just feeling sad and stuff #mainly about my dog but I’m just boughh mood lately #tldr my dogs got something up with her and is acting weird and like went to the bathroom inside twice today #so yeah that’s fun !!!!

[vhagarlovebot]

hello, besties! <333 i’ve been really busy this week and that’s why i haven’t been so active around here, but now that i’m back it’s time to catch up with some fics and, obviously, try to write a few things. probably a part 2 to ‘no one has to know’? and i’m definitely gonna be updating my WIPS because i need to stop ignoring that. i just need to motivate myself. 😮‍💨

#𓄹 ˚ ˖ ࣪ ⟢ gwen is talking. #is it just me or the mood has been a little off/weird lately? #i’m probably gonna be on and off a lot because i just can’t seem to find the motivation to be here anymore

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞 #real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS??? #ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

[giddlygoat]

uh oh i’ve developed both a hyperfix on customizing rubber ducks and argos and mr plant within a matter of hours. on top of ttcc. how am i going to be able to sleep with all this adhd energy dawg

#gear diary #also i’m laying in bed at like 1:45 just now realizing that not only have i only eaten once today but i’ve been standing up so long #that now my legs are spasming like crazy and i’m hyper aware of every muscle in my body #and if the last few weeks are anything to go by i’m going to have nightmares at worst and stress dreams at best #tho i’ve had tf2 pop up a weird number of times in my dreams lately ? it’s come up a few times #and what sucks is i think i’ve only ever woke up from a nightmare like 3-4 times since my early childhood so when the dreams veer into that #i’m just …. stuck with it until i wake up in a rancid mood in da morning 👍 #lately it hasn’t even been the cool nightmares. i want to go back to getting swallowed by sea monsters and stuck in animatronics lawl #mostly i just dream about my mom #or the fan-favorite “i’m in charge of the safety of a bunch of people and end up unable to save them leaving me alone with my guilt” #also. some dreams about being lost lately? like in big buildings/cities/subdivisions i think #it’s all fuzzy but i remember the feeling #good lort i got so off track. what is this. so sorry

[skhardwarevers1]

I think my main issue is I wanna be in love but I’m too scared of getting into a relationship that hurts me again

#Vent #ish. Kinda #Idk I’ve been thinking about it alot #I’ve been like….just completely void of any sort of feeling of “love” that I had with one person #And I know I love her. I do. I really do. But I don’t want to end up in the same situation with my last relationship #Or accidentally put them in that situation #So I’m kinda just stuck doubting my own feelinfs #But that’s okay cuz I probably should focus more on breaking my habits (aka focus on yourself bitch!! Don’t date anyone for the love of god #I keep forgetting I can post and like nobody fucking cares. Like I won’t get spammed with messages the second I’m active somewhere #It’s a lot to get used to I feel like it shouldn’t??? Maybe??? Idk maybe it’s the eight months I spent being used to it #Plus now I can actually have friends??? And interests that I can talk about??? Without anyone being petty and jealous ???? #Like my brain can’t fathom that. I’m getting used to going out with people more. It’s weird #Idk. I don’t talk out my issues enough so I kinda just wanted to get my feelings out. #I’m not like in a sad mood or anything. It’s just late and I’m thinking a lot. #So I’m good Dw just thinking abt myself like I’m not myself so I can figure out what’s wrong (with myself)

[majicmarker]

every day i open my fic docs and in abt 12 seconds i’m like “…i don’t feel like doing any of this” and then i close the docs

#i Cannot get in the mood lately #ik i’ll finish them ig it just won’t be in as ~timely~ of a fashion as i’d like #there’s just no enthusiasm for fandom in my heart rn #i rly need to separate fandom from fic i think? so i can rediscover the joy of just writing this stuff #and *then* i can finish everything #in the meantime… focus up on book stuff #and fic updates only when the mood strikes #bc if the mood’s not there then fic just becomes a chore i do for the sake of other ppl #rather than smthn i do for myself and then share with other ppl #bc that’s what fic is!!!! it’s for the writer!!!! and then we SHARE IT #we shouldn’t be Doing It *for* everyone else #it’s not a job it’s a hobby i’m sick of my weird guilt complex abt it!!!!?? #but Here I Am :// #kattyshack fic

[i-am-beckyu]

Lackadaisical

I think you found a word to describe how I’ve been feeling atm. Except I feel more unmotivated and just not super social.

Dear anon if you’ve been feeling this word I hope it passes soon and you can get back to creating very soon ❤️

#anon my beloved #gonna use the tags as update for people who read my non writing posts so feel free to just skip but here’s an update #sorry if I haven’t been super active lately. I’ve been in weird moods where I’ll be super talkative and happy and then I’ll remember how #life is a bitch and I’ll want to just disassociate and not talk to anyone. life’s been really tough atm and I don’t want people to worry #about me. I’m fine and I have people supporting me #it’s just a lot and I’m trying to make it through each day. so I guess stories are probably on hold for awhile while I work stuff out #so sorry if I’m taking forever to respond to stuff. it’s not that I don’t want too I’m just in a weird headspace #and if you read this far thanks for caring❤️

[fallenfawnn]

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#not me like.. bursting in to tears just now over like.. ah god it’s so dumb #but anyways um.. so i’ve been having a super super hard time having sex lately like it’s been making me feel anxious and panicky and scared #and i mean that’s like fairly normal for me i go through big phases of sex repulsion and barely even like actual sex that much anywaysss #which i have a post about too #but anyways … so i have been going through that for months and months now #and my partner is amazing wonderful lovely doesn’t pressure me or make me feel bad at all #anywaysssssss #yesterday i was like finally in the mood n initiated and it was amazing and i cried bc i felt really safe and loved #but like during he would be going to do stuff that is pretty normal for us like choking slapping covering my face with a pillow degrading #etc. #but um i kept having to stop him bc it just.. didn’t feel good? (n he obviously was receptive n just moved on) #but i’m having a weird identity crisis now like um i just wanted to have fairly.. i guess ‘vanilla’ sex yesterday #which like.. GAH i know i know i knowwwwww i shouldn’t feel bad about that but for some reason i do????? #idk i feel like i can’t explain it right but i feel weirdly guilty and just like… :/

[voidcat]

I think I was writing a poem about being a black hole

But it has gone lost on me with time

#not even joking I was just idk cleaning my laptop or desk as I thought it up and then went in my head ‘yep I’m gonna forget this bc I’m not #writing it down rn’ lol #danyl talks #I’ve been in a rlly weird state of mind lately apologies #the only times I rmr to call my therapist r the rare moments I’m not in this mood so lol idk what to do

[soupflowers]

sometimes i feel like i’m measuring the way others react, like… every good interaction is +2 hp points for our relationship, every bad interaction is -2. sometimes i look at others to try to mimic the ways that they’re genuine… because a lot of the time, even if i feel something or i want to show that i care, i don’t know how to correctly show it. sometimes i try to look at myself and my body from an outsider’s perspective to make sure i’m doing everything right, or to perceive how i come across to other people. it’s weird because i think that sometimes i’m too much and too loud and too casual and too awkward and too blunt, but at the same time i’m not outgoing enough or charismatic enough or just… idk. i don’t always feel like a real person.

#textp #MY MY THERAPIST SAID I GOT ADHD !!!! ION EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS #IM ALL DRUGGGGED UP IM ALLL DRUGGED UP! #ok but genuinely i’ve been seriously contemplating if i’m neurodivergent lately #mostly on account of my therapist saying i should try to get evaluated 😭 #idk i think i mostly just have a phone addiction #and maybe some weird trauma from my childhood bc i was painfully shy #and my family would just criticize me constantly for being rude #behind my back #in a weird mood tonight

[shrimpbiryani]

told myself I won’t get high during the week this week but I’ve been having a weird week so I wanna get high lol

#i shouldn’t tho because when I’m in a weird mood it’ll lead me to tweak lol #idk why I’ve been so off lately #maybe I just need a break #last time I had a break was December

[insanechayne]

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#late night thoughts at it again #sitting with my melancholy #not trying to feed into it necessarily but at the same time I’m starting to think that if I don’t let myself feel it and deal with it #then it just won’t ever go away #and of course it’s over something really stupid anyway but that’s just how I am I guess #my one friend and I used to be closer and things have cooled over the last couple weeks and I’m having a hard time handling it #I miss the flirting and talking about sex and calling each other baby and having that connection that we did #it was a bunch of positive attention for me and I grew accustomed to it #and he’s going through stuff right now and isn’t in the mood for all that and it’s not that I don’t completely understand that #and I’d never want to make him uncomfortable or be pushy or anything like that #just feels weird and makes me kinda sad because I miss him and us and all of that stuff #going from being one way every day for months to suddenly being nothing is really hard to handle and accept #it’s like filling a bath with nice hot water and being so excited to get in but then getting called away and having to let it drain out #it’s like that weird form of disappointment when you know you can’t change something #and I just have to wait around and hope he’ll come back to me like that one of these days #but sometimes it feels like that won’t happen #and if it doesn’t that isn’t a problem because whatever he decides/wants is fine #it’s just that I would want to know now so I can start getting him out of my head in that way #but keeping the hope around… if it goes south later on it’ll kill me #idk just a lot of dumb shit on my mind now #and he and I have a motto about our relationship #friends first #so I’m not going to let this effect our friendship #and I know we will always be good close friends and that does make me really happy #but I still have to sit with the rest of it and process it and keep myself calm about it #I guess sometimes we just have to let our demons talk for a while #personal

[rowanhoney]

Used to be able to identify my breakdowns before or during but now it’s taking me a whiiiiile to realise. I’ll look back on a few months ago and be like wow haha I was not right? I don’t believe in that?

#like it used to be very aware of a crappy mood and then doing shit to cope that likely made things worse or whatever whatever #lately it’s more like i just do something super out of character that’s damaging still but in a different way? #then I look back and I’m like errrrrrr girl u weren’t okay then either #I think I’m far away from myself #at least I was last year that was no doubt the issue and feeling powerless #all secondary stuff from the surrounding bs #and only in the past 2 months have i started to really move past some things #like maybe it’s just growth but it doesn’t feel that way?? idk idk I feel weird #I wanna start meditating again #Also #I need some modafinil cos that gave me such clarity it was actually the catalyst for breaking out of my mess

[softforallofit]

I left things off on the wrong foot with her before I left work tonight and now I feel terrible about it :/

#side note: her is one of my bosses.. well she isn’t that high up in the company so I wouldn’t consider her a boss but she is in charge #cont. at the end of the day if that makes sense?? #anyways I’ve had a major crush on her for the longest time and we are pretty close and joke around and this month and last have been so.. #weird between us. #I have just been in such a bad mood lately and my job sucking doesn’t help and I’m taking it out on her and I feel bad #I should make it up to her somehow before I’m off for a week of work cause we are close friends and I don’t want to leave on the wrong foot #maybe I’ll try apologizing to her tomorrow and talking to her about things to see how it goes #why am I ranting abou this to you guys.. well it’s cause I weirdly trust you all with this #I just need whatever it is our friendship or whatever to go back to normal #anyways. let’s ignore this :) #I just needed to let this out #lindsey rambles