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i was thinking recently about dazai with chronic pain. dazai who spent his entire youth behaving recklessly, who was injured frequently and never let himself heal properly because didn't really care about the consequences and why would he? long-term consequences don't matter when you're convinced that you're going to die before you become an adult.

but he didn't die. he's not dying yet. he's still around. dazai, who never thought he'd reach the age twenty finds himself turning twenty-five. finds himself getting even older still. twenty-six, twenty-seven, twenty-eight. the age thirty is a shockingly real possibility now for this man who was certain he’d die in childhood.

dazai finds himself with more life than he knows what to do with and a body that's been broken too many times to ignore. he hates pain and he's never wanted to live and yet here he is, with a constant daily pain and a life too full of people he doesn't want to leave. he wants to walk away and to find oblivion but he can’t make himself go. there’s always someone who needs him, always something he still wants to do.

his hands aren’t so deft anymore, can’t be trusted the way they could before. he takes longer to lockpick his way out of handcuffs. there’s a stiffness in his fingers he cannot shake off. he throws himself around like he always used to, or gets himself thrown around, and finds it’s a challenge to pick himself back up.

he’d always thought that a life that just keeps going endlessly, full of pain and obligations and everyday difficulties would be the worst sort of fate, and here he is. and somehow, it’s not as bad as he expected it to be.

#days spent not relating to dazai: 0 #dazai osamu #bungou stray dogs #the truth and accuracy of this in perspective w dazai tho…… love it

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trying to leave a one night stand but he's sleeping on your wallet

#dazai 😭 #i Just know his broke ass would do this on purpose too…….

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... I play Baldurs Gate for the plot.

#reblogs #yummy

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Mc and Aventurine Met only once thus far

:3 we r cooking lads, first scene/interaction is done already

#Part 3 and im gonna Write their second interaction w a guest star:3

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This chapter hurt my soul…

#THIS PAGE #THOS ENTIRE BIT #AND SEEING EVERY MYSTERY WALKING IN THE BG AS REGULAR KIDS ONE BY ONE #reblogs #im ok i swear

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#111 and 112 broke me like #tbhk #reblogs

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started ep3

had tears in my eyes a total of 5 times

belos is now manipulating collector thru the fact that theyre just a lonely kid who wants to make friends and be happy I AM THIS CLOSE TO JUMP INTO THE SCREEN N BEAT THE LIVING SHIT OUTTA HIM

tfw u rmr u never finished owl house s3 and the flapjack scene hits u like a truck

#collectpr my messy ass chaotic child

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tfw u rmr u never finished owl house s3 and the flapjack scene hits u like a truck

#that bird/talisman deserved so much better bro wtf #not hunter saying 'i already know' HE FELT IT #danyl talks

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Get attacked!!❤️💗Send this to other bloggers you think you are wonderful! Keep the game going💕

Mwah love you silverrr

#ask games #silver !!

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:3 we r cooking lads, first scene/interaction is done already

#danyl talks #wips #aventurine x #honkai star rail

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"oh, you act so romantic with your friends-" SHUT UP! I CAN ACT ALL MUSHY AND SWEET WITH MY FRIENDS, WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT!? COWARD! YOU DON'T SHOWER YOUR FRIENDS IN AFFECTION AND LOVE!? YOU'RE WEAK! WEAK AND PATHETIC!

#reblogs

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she tower on my babel till I ἐπιούσιον

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❄️🪶Goofy Ravens Playing in the Snow🪶❄️

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Started writing the aventurine fic can I get a hell yea

#hype me up cheer me on tell me how much u love me and missed me #danyl talks

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Testing out some new brushes and coloring styles on Procreate~

#reblogs #pretty boy

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I’m omw to work, with an aventurine idea cooking and I haven’t been on this acc forever, Let’s talk!

#👉👈🥺 please? #danyl talks