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tosye · 2 years

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art-related rant incoming, if you read this I love u and if you have some advice I love u even more

I’m at this weird (annoying really) point in my drawing skill where I’m either good at bodies or faces, not both at the same time and it’s so frustrating and idk what the case is all I can think of is that I’ve trained my eye a lot and not my hand and so I can catch more errors than before and observe things better and kinda understand and conceptualise them but not like put it into practice in a confident and timely manner?? like I will draw a face hell if I’m struggling with it I’ll construct it but like it’s so frustrating bc it’s taking me forever?? I’ve been wanting to do themed sketch sheets and basically like 10 half bodies took me 2 hours and it went rather smoothly but then I’ve been struggling with the faces (and mind you I only have 5 to draw since half of them is just din in the helmet and I’m already done with those lmao) for additional 5 hours already and I’m not even halfway done????? like what the fuck is going on and idk if I should kinda focus on simplifying features but I kinda don’t want to do that??

and i mean I know it’s my neurotic perfectionism peeking through but like my latest piece took me 5 hours total to make and I’d say it’s semi-realistic and now I can’t seem to draw even like 5 sketchy messy faces in under 5 hours?? and like I’ve noticed that at some point I started doing some things differently than before but in a way I’m not sure I like and so I think it’s adding to the whole thing??

and I know I’m supposed to take breaks but like hyperfixation hello?? and I know that i will inevitably be getting seemingly worse at drawing for a bit here and there and then I’ll get like enlightened and I’m gonna be even better bc yk the learning curve blahblahblah but like how much longer?? will this one last?? bc I’m kinda over it ngl

also I seem to have lost the ability to make full coloured pieces like the ones I’ve used to do but we don’t talk abt this lmao

#tosye talks #I’m really REALLY sick and tired of this slump #and like idk if it’s burnout bc I don’t feel like it is but at the same time if this is going to last #I’m very much heading straight to burnout hell #and I do not need or want that rn #also I can’t chill and have the worst work ethic possible lmao so that’s def not helping #like I’m either doing smth 24/7 or like not doing it at all for months #I think I kinda need a break but my adhd brain doesn’t like breaks from hyperfixations we need dopamine here in this house #and I can’t remember the last time I watched a movie or smth #I mean it just doesn’t hit the dopamine spot as much as it used to before I started meds #mind u I used to be such a film buff I’d watch 3 movies in a day most days of the week for the longest time #basically idk what to do with myself if drawings off the table lmao

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humongousgothskeletonfarm · 17 days

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tsc thoughts while reading (beware of spoilers) starting with -

david wymack my fucking beloved

also i never rlly liked/cared for thea but her scene with jean and her nickname for him was cute

chapter 3 thoughts:

jeremy being in awe of neil and the foxes is giving me life

fanfics with alvarez in them gonna go crazy now that we actually have a first name for her (and don’t have to invent one)

oh they rich rich (in reference to jeremy’s family butler?!)

jerejean first interaction!!!!

chapter 4:

omg sunshine court mentioned

having the sudden realisation that i can never read fanfics that have jean’s perspective or anything about the how the ravens work, raven!neil/aftermath of the kings men in the same way again

my neighbours are having a party and while i’m loving the music and absolutely jealous i’m not there, it’s really distracting me from reading

ngl i rlly miss neil and andrew and the foxes please let me see my family soon

‘ what you hold onto is less important than the act of holding on itself’ nora sakavic shut the fuck up you philosophical genius i’m gonna cry this is so real to me

renee i love u

WIT WTF JEAN IS NINETEEN I DIDNT KNOW THAT OH MY GOD BABY HE JOINED THE RAVEN LINEUP AT SIXTEEN WTF

i’m drinking red wine while reading and i think that’s appropriate… also i’m listening to that jean moreau playlist someone made and it’s mega depressing https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5zlPt63Ap0AjJQ1Ff5OKrd?si=75oEzLE8SO-bfJwewM8Evw&pi=a-ge04jIlVTJGY

this is so funny to only me but i’ve been hyperfixating on one direction again and zayn just dropped new music so everytime i read about jean’s raven roomate zane i think of one direction and confused myself a bit about what fandom i’m reading rn

fuck riko u sick fucking fuck u put jean into a box with a singular hole for air and left him to die u fucking cunt

KEVIN ASKING JEAN TO PROMISE NOT TO KILL HIMSELF AFTER NORA WROTE COUNTLESS DRAFTS IN WHICH JEAN KILLED HIMSELF WHILE ON THE PHONE TO KEVIN AND THE ONLY TIME SHE DIDNT KILL JEAN OFF IS THE VERSION SHE PUBLISHED AND THE REASON WE GET TO HEAR HIS STORY TODAY IM SO BROKEN

jean’s ‘gift’ from the ravens with his broken magnets, blacked out postcards and angry letters is making me cry he deserves so much better

slowly realising that this book is gonna be super triggering lol whoops

a cool evening breeze 🥲

THAT CREEPY LITTLE GOALKEEPER IS MY FAVOURITE GUY OK

‘kevin saw nothingn but the court, but jean had stopped hoping for more than that years ago’ shut the fuckkkk uppppp i cant do this anymore kevin/jean relationship is so deeply important to me (i say this about everything)

chapter 5:

SECOND NEIL/ JEAN INTERACTION OF THE BOOK IM SO FUCKING EXCITED

‘of course it’d be you, you tedious malcontent’ ‘good morning to you too’ is so ‘morning sunshine’ ‘fuck you’ coded (neil and matt bromance confirmed)

the amount of mitski on this jean playlist is making me sick

FUCKING SCREAMING OMFG THIS IS THE JEAN/NEIL CONTENT I YEARN FOR

‘abominable cockroach’ aww jean u say the sweetest things 🥰❤️ neil loves u too babe

literally devouring every last scrap of information jean feeds us about neil - his slow, hungry, hateful smile and the madness in his eyes (neil baby i love u never change)

oh jean don’t diss aaron, do u know how many fanfics have been written about u two

tsc is confirmation that jean moreau will come into ur house and judge u based on the contents of ur fridge (and then throw out ur stash of lollies)

‘to have a real match as a palate cleanser’ jean is really trying to win my favour by borrowing neil’s sassiness huh (no wonder i love them so much together) ((and yes i know he’s BEEN sassy ok))

jean reaching for the tv screen as if he could save neil and describing andrew running for neil as if hell was on his heels is making me absolutely giddy idk whether to scream or cry i’m doing both and i’m giggling

I bet on losing dogs is so jean moreau coded omg

holy fuck nora, the moments after the raven/fox match when riko tries to kill neil is fucking amazingly written. reading from jean’s perspective as he watches the game on tv, the tension, the breathless anxiety and confusion of the scene is palpable i coukd fucking taste it, my chest is tight just reading it

JEAN SAYING ANDREW WILL BE COURT IS IMMACULATE

#tsc #the sunshine court #jean moreau #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #neil josten #andreil #andrew minyard #palmetto state foxes #kevin day #jeremy knox #usc trojans #nora sakavic #tsc spoilers

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succulentsofa · 1 day

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anyways … im a new omgcp fan in hyperfix hell,, is there an audience for a british uni au because that’s the fic i’m writing rn 🙏🙏🙏

#omgcp #fanfic

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aliengeist13 · 5 months

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I hath entered one HELL of a hyperfixation. Who cares if the fandoms barely there rn, I’m an artist. I hand make my own dopamine

#art #traditional art #fanart #metal family #metal family glam #glam #metal family fanart #hyperfixation go brrr

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griancraft · 2 years

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hey, so uh. I’m a former dteam fan but there is no way I’m going to support him after everything that came out (tbh very sad and angry rn) but honestly I am a person who like. Needs a hyperfixation in my life so I’m trying to pivot to hermitcraft and last life. You seem like a cool/chill person with an interesting blog so I was wondering if you might have any blog recs? Totally chill if not (and feel free to ignore this if that’s the case)

:D Hi you are so welcome here and I’m glad you came to me. I hope I can help! I will likely add people in the reblogs as I think of them as this is all just off the top of my head.

@go-learn-esperanto (amazing starter person and has a lot of more niche mcyt interests that are frequently posted so a good jumping off point)

@mcyt (a pillar in the community, and an excellent artist.)

@grimdogs (GOT ME INTO THIS ALL!!! Super fun to read through the blog)

@cocoabats (amazing artist)

@daily-grian (two amazing artists)

@regallotus (amazing artist, good friend, and bloom is super underrated.)

@synless (an amazing artist and mutual(?))

@noctude (AMAZING ARTIST posts a lot of funny stuff too)

@hoolyelina (amazing artist)

@redstonedust (good posts, fun to look through blog, funny)

@thedialup (I would follow through hell and high water)

@teamranchers (great artist, I adore it so much. It’s super cool and makes a lot of good content.)

@aroaceacacia (funny posts, great art, cool person)

@theminecraftbee (amazing analysis and writing)

@made-nondescript (I could gush about how amazing of an artist chel is for hours. They are an inspiration)

@spooky-dyke-shit (GREAT ARTIST!!!!!!!! hi hi hi hi)

@dyketango (amazing artist I have been mutual with for over a year. An OG.)

@jukeboxtea (variety content, very kind, great writer)

@panidanya (great artist I look at her art soooo much)

@potionofinstantdamage (great artist, huge recommend!)

@shepscapades (great artist with so many creative ideas and AUs)

@astronomical-bagel (hiiii ilysm)

#some of these are fav artists some of these are mutual and friends #and some of these are just pillars of the community #I love all these people and think they will be a good starting point #remember to follow smaller blogs too! everyone is so accepting and kind here

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fyreflys · 1 year

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I’m on my hunger games arc rn (the hyperfixation has swooped back in & it has me in a fucking choke hold)

So take this ENTIRE LONG ASS SCENE from the fic I’ve been cranking out like crazy the past four days because it’s deliciously tragic & I need to share.

(Context: Takes place right after Peeta’s Massive Bombshell during his interview with Caesar before the Quarter Quell- yes I’m hopping on the bandwagon and writing a “Katniss is pregnant during the Quarter Quell” fic I’m unoriginal as hell I know sue me)

EDIT/UPDATE: this has been posted! Check my pin! (Called Swan Upon Leda)

#the hunger games #peeta mellark #katniss everdeen #everlark #writing wip #snippet #quarter quell

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plasmasimagination · 5 months

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Hi! I hope You’re doing well and I wanted to ask who you’d match me with from HSR, preferably the guys because ahhahdjsbdks my pfp, but ignore jingy rn I want your true and honest opinion. (I don’t mind a female suggestion either)

I’m going to really try and keep this short (I feel like I will fail this as I literally over-explain everything—) but don’t feel pressured at all to reply to this or anything! (I kinda feel i alr did this but im forgetful too help-)

A quick summary:

I’m afab, like 160cm(5’2? With chest which I hate because I want the dark academia dressing style (i dont have money)), she/they, libra, INFP, I’m sorry, I haven’t really had the hyperfixation on sun moon and rising and well astrology stuff tbh 😭

My personality (a mess im so sorry):

Well, I don’t think I could tell you. What I know of myself is that I try to be honest, I am loyal to my friends and probably obsessive when someone shows me interest and i dont know- (there’s some mental disorders going around, along a suspicion of autism) Personally I see myself as a shy annoying brat, while in reality I don’t ever initiate conversation and never know what to say unless it’s about a hyperfixation or something—AGAIN I OVEREXPLAIN EVERYTHING. My mouth doesn’t work as well as I’d like to, I cry too much (imo) I’m sensitive to well a lot, I get overstimulated quickly depending on the situation and um well I’m a picky eater I guess.

RAHHH I LOVE FOOD. And I’m chubby. I’m VERY self conscious and messy (which I’m sure you’ve noticed if you got this far)

Fun fact! If i were to live alone (still living with parents because house market is hell) I’d probably forget to eat a lot/overeat even more than I already do. Why? Because I don’t feel it. I don’t feel a limit to my ‘hunger’ and I don’t even really think I feel hungry at times.

Also, I hate to be perceived by people. It makes me feel like… too much alive. I don’t really feel a connection between my mind and my body, like someone sees my body and I’m just: THAT AINT ME YALL PLEASE IT AINT MEEEEE 😭😭😭😭 but id never say that bc again, my mouth doesn’t work.

I think I’m pretty useless at a lot too, but I don’t mean for this to be a traumadump thingy, which I also don’t realise when I should stop or not like RIGHT NOW I SHOULD PROBABLY STOP (the doubt is real, I’m so sorry—)

LAST THING!

I’m a Jing Yuan simp, obviously, name and all, but I also firmly believe we wouldn’t be good together? Like he’d be great for me. But what would I bring to him? Besides messy thoughts and nothing?… Which is literally nothing. I want to be someone he could properly rely on and not just a hopeless random girlypop who stops processing information after something becomes a bit too much mentally.

I have my serious moments, which will for most part go unnoticed online, but it’s not like I’m inherently useful or whatever. I feel like I’m really lacking in lots of aspects, and yes I’m aware I’m not ‘old’ yet, but my thoughts eat me alive and I won’t be surprised if I well blablah me me me I hate talking about me. Nothing bad even happened I’m just weird at this point, apologies! (Im a mess, my mind is still that 12 year old kid who just wanted a good hug from her mom and a good chat with her mom without all the school and later college problems aghh I wanna be 5 again.)

ANYWAYS if you made it this far, kudos to your determination anddd i hope you stay hydrated! And eat well. Health before anything.

I FAILED TO KEEP IT SHORT. Sorry I- AAAA that’s how my brain is.

Good god jingsnuggler you're Litteraly the best request I've had in my inbox- (IM SORRY MY OTHER CUTIEPIES DONT GET JEALOUS)

And I also was scrolling from like bottom to top to write some request and saw your pfp and was like "wait didn't I just recently get another one of them?" And I was right >:} You really did stay in my memory HSHSHS anyways anyways not tryna chit chat too long since we know why you're here, and I'll use both of your submits to give you the perfect match...

Drumrolls please....

🥁🥁🥁

JING YUAN!

WAIT ! LISTEN IM NOT BIASED.

I genuinely with all of my heart think that you guys would be perfect like no joke

He would balance you out, just fine.

He's a gentle soul, and would find you very amusing and enjoy being around you

Your talkative and bubbly nature would soothe his soul and calm him even.

Sensitive personality? Don't worry Jing yuan will pat your head and tell you it's fine

Forget to eat? Jing yuan will take note of it. And make sure you never forget. Ever

Okay enough of fluff you said you don't think you have anything to offer for him while I strongly disagree

I think Jing yuan needs someone who can keep him entertained, someone that can talk to him, he's a lonely man believe it or not, he doesn't really interact much with plp other than Yanqing, and between you and me Yanqing is boring af

So he'll greatly appreciate having a small birdie on his shoulder that will tell him all that they think , after hours of doing general work all he would need is to have someone talk to him about some casual stuff and random thoughts, yk?

I also think he would turn to you in case of a crisis, sometimes just come home to you and lay down to cuddle with you, it comforts him somewhat, youre like his stress reliever, hes usually very reserved and calm with other people, but with you..it's so different

To him you're like a fresh breath of air, like just a slap to the face to wake him up, you keep him from going freaking insane

I don't think Jing yuan is usually fit for people with a personality of like blade or Dan Heng (just an example of personality I am no shipper nor anti shipper don't shoot me)

Like ...yeah I guess they can be friends but like...Jing yuan wouldn't click with them? I don't know how to explain it but jing yuan needs someone lively and like all over the place, so he can take time to slowly organize you and your thoughts in his mind.

Phew that's all from me, sending lots of hugs and loves I hope to see you around on my blog since you're a small blessing on my acc (≧◡≦) ♡

#hsr x reader #honkai star rail x reader #honkai star rail #honkai x reader #jing yuan x you #jing yuan x y/n #honkai jing yuan #jing yuan x reader #jing yuan

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littlest-bugz · 2 months

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current hyperfixation? (feel free to infodump!!)

YIPPEEE!!! This made my day FR!! Thank you, mutual <3

ANYWAYS

This is kind of embarrassing, but I’ve been deeply invested by my own OCverse for going on 8 years now. Its my Special Interest, which sucks because,,, im the only one who can make content of these stinkies,,,,,

I really find it hard to hyperfixate on anything else because of the fact Ive been invested for so long (except for Web Design and coding, which I wont infodump about, since its literally all for these stories, deadass).

It is not fun at times because 1) all the characters live rent free in my head and criticize how I write them in my novels [that DID life] and 2) its SO hard to make new projects and get attached to them. Ive been trying for 2 years to make a horror project out of one concept but I seriously cant get fully invested and it SUCKS. Let me make my silly little horror web series damnit!!!!! (@ my brain)

I have 3 novels and one fantasy series im working on so,,,, Infodump time >:3c

TWs: Terminal Illness + brief mentions of (mental institute) hospitalization, murder, war, and some others that I’m not 110% sure the exact tags for them (basically kind of cannibalism, but between nonhuman species). Other than terminal illness, they’re super brief mentions, but still proceed with caution.

Right now, I’m working on one of the books I’ve been writing for nearly my whole time writing. Ive been only working on it since feb 1st (it’s, like, the THIRD draft tho).

Blurb about book

Melissa is a bassist in a rock band she formed with her high school friends. Just as her, and her friends’, career begins takes off, she gets diagnosed with a terminal illness. With a month left to live, and a shit ton of unfinished business, she invokes her best friend’s patron deity who is capable of miracles, Flip. Melissa and Flip make a pact to keep her alive until her business is over, but oh no! Melissa has caught the eyes of another god, and a pretty shitty one at that. How is she going to make her last months peaceful if she’s being hunted down by a god?

The working title is called “Ensuring Your Spot In Hell” because Flip is, essentially, a demon in the universe (rules an infernal ring of hell- it means I would have to explain the worldbuilding around hell and its A LOT), but titles are!!! So hard for me!!!

A list of random facts about the book™️ because I don’t want to write full paragraphs bc I can go on forever if u ask me to:

Flip’s name is a shortened version of his actual name, Fli’pyek. Furthermore, the domain Flip rules over is that of Wrath and Violence

Trinity (Melissa’s childhood bestie, and the friend that worship’s Flip) is a hereditary witch and pagan. Her family has been worshipping Flip and practicing witchcraft for several generations! They literally have their own holy book (generational BoS/Grimoire/whatever u want to call it).

Melissa had been sick with the disease™️ since she was 16. She just neglected the shit out of her own health (me too bestie, me too). It easily could have been prevented if she went to the doctor back when she was, at least, 18 years old, max 24.

At the time Melissa is diagnosed with her terminal illness, she’s 26. By the time she was supposed to die, she would’ve been freshly 27. Has anyone heard of the 27 club theory before? Or is it just an obscure reference I made LMAO

Melissa has extended biological family that worships Flip! It gets super awkward when Melissa visits them with Flip lol

The other primordial god that Melissa finds herself in a predicament with is named Ama, the god of Cruelty and Torture. Not a swell guy to get mixed up with, that’s for sure!

Melissa has an orange and white cat named Cheddar!

Flip always smells like whiskey and freshly cut tobacco. At all times. It’s bc his blood smells like it (and tastes like it too, but why are you tasting it? /j)

Any other facts might be getting into spoiler territory, BUT!! Thats the one Im working on rn, in February. In January I worked on another book, but that one honest to gods might be too triggering for this acc for an indepth thingy like the book I just did. It’s being rewritten to not be so triggering, but bc it’s a throw up of some of our trauma, it’s not an easy task to censor it.

REGARDLESS, Here’s a rundown of ALL of my main novels (minus the one I already talked about)

The Case of Twin Woods [mystery, drama, crime] (the one i worked on January)

Chastity hates her life. She hates her shitty job, she hates her shitty friends, and she hates her shitty family. After opening up too much to an online friend about her chronic suicidality, Chastity gets taken to Twin Woods Mental Institute, the state’s mental institution. There she befriends an eccentric group of patients, then finding out something terrible might be going on with the head warden, Leon Bellamy. She takes it upon herself to find out and solve the mystery, but she may have bitten off more than she can chew.

Untitled One (but leaning towards the name of ‘Jealousy’ or somethin idk) [drama, romance, crime]

Mia has a quiet life. She works at a library, she fosters cats, and by all means, has what could be considered a ‘boring life’. One day, she gets laid off from her job under the excuse of “cutting costs”, leaving her without a job and severance. While scrambling for a job, she finds one at a local cafe, the most frequented one in the city. There she befriends one of the regulars, a cold, quiet man named Zander, and after she unknowingly helps Zander’s brother, she becomes significantly closer to him. However, her boss, a bitter ex of Zander’s, hears about their ensuing closeness and decides she doesn’t like what’s going on. One failed dinner party and murder attempt later, Mia is left scrambling to hide that she killed Angelina in self defense. Will she be successful in hiding the murder? Or will the justice system make quick work of her?

Untitled Fantasy Series (has about 2 actual novels and 3 novellas… a possible third novel too) [drama, romance]

book one

Since his birth, King Sunshine has known his fate. He is to be sacrificed for the greater good of the realm he resides, killing his oppressive father, but losing his life in the process. It’s a prophecy that has been laid out since the beginning of Racktokian history, one King Sunshine was never able to escape due to his father’s unspoken rage at his own murder. After meeting a Vurtock for the first time, a species his father only used as cattle, Sunshine finds himself quickly entangled in a plot to overthrow his own father to liberate the Vurtockian race. He knows what he has to do, but it isn’t easy.

book two

The great war tore apart the country King Sunshine called home. His father left no stone unturned from his rage, and public opinions split the people. In the rubble of his home, he builds a new country founded on the importance of the civilians, only to be elected as a King in place of his father. Living in the palace he always called home, but had tried to escape, he finds that his father keeps sending assassins to make attempts on his life. One assassin, a vurtock with nothing to lose, hits a soft spot in Sunshines heart. After deescalating the attempt on his life, he offers the vurtock to stay in his castle until they’re able to find the proper resources to help him build a life in the new country. Far away from the oppressive dictatorship of his father. Yet, as his guest begins to stay for longer than intended, he sees that yet another step in the prophecy will begin.

Despite how the second book blurb is written, it’s more from the vurtock’s point of view than Sunshine’s. I just had a total brain fart.

The novellas for the fantasy book follow the POV of other important characters, such as the ruler of the Vurtockian rebellion, the POV of other rulers. For a while I wanted to write one from Raphaël’s POV, but I decided it wouldn’t be worth writing a whole book about a piece of shit finding joy in the pain he causes. Like, no thanks, ill pass.

Theres a possible 3rd book that would essentially be an extended epilogue, since the prophecy doesn’t stop at Sunshine’s death. I just haven’t thought as far as the 2 books and 3 novellas, in terms of outlining the books and stuff.

I honestly could give TONS more info on the fantasy books because that part of my universe has been around nearly the whole time Ive been writing. I have maps of the world, maps of countries, maps of even just cities, house and castle layouts, moodboards, art. Visual references galore. Not to mention the playlists for each character + each book. I also made a document called “The Remian Bible” because it has everything about the world in it, including the alphabets of the languages, grammar structures for said languages and literally 5 holy books for the religions even tho they wont evEN BE TALKED ABOUT IN ENOUGH DEPTH (why did i do that to myself /lh j/. It doesn’t help that I still want the write the holy books in their native languages… oo,,, and imagine writing the actual novels in the native languages,,,,). It’s honestly kind of,,, surreal how much time Ive put into this world 🧍 Like??? Damn,,,,

BUT YEAH!!! Those are all the books that take place in my ocverse + some other info!!! The things that are my hyperfixation,,,, My own books and world LMAO— The books don’t include half of the ocs in my ocverse tho, so thats where the website im coding comes in. It’ll have short stories based on the backstories of various characters on it, and Yes, even the background characters will be on it bc Im fucking bonkers and fleshed them out, even though some of them are in one scene for 2 minutes.

That being said, if anyone, or u mutual (if u read this wall of text), found any of this interesting, or wants to read even just the prologue of any of these, DM me!! I’m always looking for beta readers!! Or people to talk to about it too, that’d be fantastic. I really need beta readers, so seriously. DM me if u want to read my cringey stories!! I can give better in depth tws too!!!

EDIT: I need to mention that I go through spurts of hyperfixating on only one book or series. Thats why its both my hyper fixation AND my Special Interest

#i also have art of 90% of the ocs bc im an artist #littlest_bugz og #original characters #original writing #book writing #creative writing #writing #what tags would I even use dawg?? idk idk

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robbinggoodfellows · 7 months

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im going to try to have a coherent thought about ofmd s2 really quickly so bear with me here:

it’s just so beautiful, like really it’s so so so beautiful. And it’s like that for so many reasons but especially because it feels like they aren’t holding back anymore. not that they really were holding back last season but this one just feels much freer. there’s no question of if Stede loves Ed, it’s just a fact. and everyone is okay with it, everyone understands. Stede dreams about Ed calling him “babe”. Ed dreams about Stede being there to protect him. hell, Ed dreams about dying because he can’t be with Stede. Izzy says outright that he loves Ed. And Ed says it back, in a way. Jim has both nblw and nblm interactions in the first three episodes. a Kate Bush song plays while Ed dreams about loving Stede. Pete full on tackles Lucius when he sees him again. it’s so queer. it’s not one of those shows where the queer characters are put through it*. God this season is so fucking queer. David Jenkins took every tiny detail that the gay people wanted and put it in. Season 2 is like a good fanfic. Jim and Archie homoerotic fighting. Stede earring and beard. Mermaids for gods sake. and it’s like i’ve been seen by a show about fucking pirates of all things. Who knew all it took for a depressed nonbinary loser to feel seen was a show about gay pirates. all of it just perfectly sums up the way i feel about my experience as a queer person. Like i would throw myself off of a boat to swim to someone i loved. i would make out with someone while covered in someone else’s blood. i would stand there and wait for someone who used to love me to shoot me because i can’t do this anymore. i feel so so so fucking seen. pirates are so inherently queer. and for a long time i’ve been hyperfixated on pirates and for a longer time pirate media has completely ignored the queerness of pirating. and fucking finally there’s something that doesn’t ignore that. and like i know ed is kinda dying rn and i know that he and stede have a lot of talking it through to do but god everyone just seems so in love and so happy in a weird way. i love it so much. also This Woman’s Work by Kate Bush is my favorite song so i’m kinda just winning rn.

*- i know obviously they are actively being put through it but i mean it in the sense that they dont have to deal with homophobia or transphobia while also dealing with being put through it. a lot of queer media likes to make a big deal out of coming out and a lot of that stuff has some sort of homophobia arc but it was never like that for ofmd

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd season 2 #our flag means death season 2

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Aaaaaahhhhh I started reading the Heaven Official’s Blessing web novel series bc of that gifset you reblogged and holy shit??? It’s so good??? I really love how MXTX writes, somehow it’s so perfectly descriptive I can see it in my head like a TV show. And I LIVE for how, even though it’s from Xie Lian’s (oblivious as hell) perspective you still 10000% can see how much Hua Cheng is in love with him and pining. Thanks for the new hyperfixation, I’m in hualian hell rn!

Ha, they are a very worthwhile hyperfixation. HOB is probably my favorite MXTX series, and I am so excited for the drama adaptation that should be coming out.

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lorddeath · 2 years

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we are back at it again, boyos - i know i posted something about this like, two years ago, but times have changed and so have my hyperfixations. : - )

hellooo. my name is katie, i’m 21+ yo, i work a fulltime job and i have five cats and a dog with my partner in crime and girlfriend. i do have 12 years of experience in the rp community both on and off tumblr (christ), and while i have tried to find a platform that suits my needs, i have come to the conclusion that tumblr is really the only place to find people like me, so i am opening up a ... roleplay partner call.

looking for:

someone to write ships/etc. with

someone who is willing to be friends outside of rp!

a buddy to throw hcs and ideas back and forth with all night rather than sleep (last part is kind of a joke but also isn’t 👀)

someone that is okay with/encourages playlists or pinterest boards for ships, characters, etc. and enjoys character development

putting preferences and fandom specifications under a read more!

my preferences:

i write in third person and tend to create para/novella style responses. fluent in english. no *action* writing, please.

smut’s cool. i enjoy writing it and do not need to fade to black, so if partners can be 18+, that would be fab.

i prefer to write over discord. willing to give my discord out to people who respond.

i am most comfortable writing canon/canon ships, however i do have a slew of ocs that i would not mind a) creating aus for and b) writing with other ocs or canon characters.

needing someone that is patient with replies - i am mentally ill af and my creative motivation waxes and wanes. i need as much room as possible to make sure that i can write a decent response to any active roleplays, and sometimes i can crank them out in minutes or days. it really just depends.

things/tropes that i want to write:

give me things like vampires, witches, werewolves - fantasy is HUGE for me right now!

friends to lovers

enemies to lovers

f/f, m/m, f/m !!

platonic love

doesn’t have to be fandom related, could just be oc/oc!

fandoms:

star wars (BIG HYPERFIXATION RN) - i am a huge prequels fan but i am willing to write pretty much any stage of the saga

characters i am willing to write: anakin skywalker, obi-wan kenobi, satine kryze, padme amidala, leia organa, han solo, poe dameron, myriad of different ocs. others upon request.

ships: obikin, obitine (!! a big one for me right now!) anidala, obidala, finnpoe, canon/oc.

dragon age - i have played all three games and am eagerly awaiting the next

characters i am willing to write: anders, solas, cullen rutherford, possibly alistair if i am in a certain mood, myriad of different ocs, others upon request.

ships: solavellan, anders/hawke (male or female), canon/oc.

mass effect - i have played the first two games, and i am 3/4s of the way through the 3rd

characters i am willing to write: garrus, thane, kaidan, liara, femshep, maleshep upon request, ocs.

ships: garrus/shepard, garrus/tali, thane/shepard, kaidan/shepard, liara/shepard.... y’know, any of the companions/shepard tbh.

fallout - i have played fallout new vegas, 4, and 76.

characters i am willing to write: this one is a bit of a smaller list but hancock is a favorite of mine. ocs are a thing here, too. i can try to write other canon characters upon request.

ships: available for discussion.

star trek - i have seen all of the nu!trek movies and most of the original series.

characters i am willing to write: leonard mccoy, montgomery scott, spock, ocs.

ships: spock/jim, jim/bones, spock/bones, canon/oc.

tertiary fandoms/series that i am well-versed in:

psycho pass

castlevania

netflix’s the witcher

good omens

example of my writing and shameless plug: https://archiveofourown.org/works/18647398?view_adult=true

if you have made it this far... COOL BEANS. thanks for being here! feel free to message me here on tungle dot hell if you are interested in any of the above. i am always willing to clarify or answer any questions.

thanks!

#RP Partner search #RP partner ad #looking for rp partner #star wars rp #dragon age rp #mass effect rp #fallout rp #star trek rp #obikin #anidala #obidala #finnpoe #solavellan #spirk #spones #: - )#come write wif me

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