#i’ll try to be normal soon!

[utterdrip]

listen i always try to save as many “innocent” people as i can but there is just something so fucking funny about listening to gandrel talk about astarion being his mark and warning us about the dangers of vampires and then being like

“hm. that’s interesting. hey, astarion, what do you think about this vampire he’s hunting?”

#bg3 spoilers #frankie posts #like im sorry its so funnykdiakdjdsk #i know it forces a fight but #mhm mhm yeah ur after a spawn huh? interesting #and honestly. honestly #it’s kinda cute that he goes ‘may i?’ to ask for permission to kill him #and he wont kill him if u say no but gandrel still forces the fight #sorry im obsessed with astarion #i’ll try to be normal soon! #fp

[art-fries-87]

#the thems! #im trying to make them normal 😭 #veronica sawyer #heather chandler #heather duke #heather mcnamara #heathers #soon i’ll actually draw full bodies

[smittyw]

HELLO RAZZ NATION i know u knew haha! im sure youre popping bottles abt YEAR 2 !!!! can we talk about it ive been dyin to talk abt it with u ALL DAY

bonus below the cut

(apart from this regularly scheduled redraw, i might be posting more silly and personally challenging oc art to celebrate. look forward to it (?))

#ocs #no id #FUCK i forgot abt ids again guys dw i’ll fix it soon probably #razzposting #they truly cant help being a libra #im so yay and happy!! a bit stressed and wrist a bit hurting but we ball anyway!!!! #im trying to take it slow and be normal but i have so many wips.. they will probs become a personal inktober type thing for me #either a birthweek or birthmonth nightmare gauntlet depending on my schedule lol

[ace-robot-has-matcha]

Bound by chains of fate

#i promise I’ll try to be more normal about them #soon #slay the princess #slay the princess game #black tabby games #stp #the hero stp #the princess stp #my art #sketch #hero x princess #fanart #horror game #visual novel

[ink-the-squid-gremlin]

‼️WARNING! Brief mention of mental health issues‼️

Just making a quick post about my absence as of late. College has been really draining since it’s getting close to the end of the semester and my mental health has taken a bit of a decline. I apologize if you have reached out to me lately and I just haven’t responded. Im just really stressed right now and have a lot thoughts going on in my head right now (both good and bad thoughts) I promise I’ll get back to posting again/talking to you all again soon, I’m just handling a lot of stress right now.

#squidposting #inkposts #inktalks #I’m gonna be going into my final year of college starting in the fall #and trying to balance things like required classes to graduate and internships has really messed with me #I promise I’ll be back to my normal account soon #I just don’t know how soon it’ll be. #I’m so sorry for just vanishing like this #(again) #it’s a habit I have I’m sorry.

[lem-argentum]

life updatez:!!!!! im still alive, all my new art professors are really nice :), aaand im still gay.💛 I mean um straight

#lem text #i’ve ​been using that podcast as primary distraction/entertainment and i like it lots the dm is really good at making npcs i like <333. #<- WHEN I CATCH UP ON ALL THE SEASONS IDK WHAT I’LL DO but a game im excited for comes out in a few days so.!.!!!! <33 #i will try to get back to being normal soon ive been like ‘*likes one post* ok that’s my social limit for the day’ hkfndn <3 #i also designed that oc f/o i mentioned wanting to make a while ago maybe i will post him sometimeee <3. ok BYE <3.

[todayisafridaynight]

psst for my stream regulars

How does the idea of me starting streams at like 1:30PM (EST) sound. i’ll still plan to run them to like 5:00PM (EST) but now its more definite it’ll actually end then opposed to accidentally going on until like. 7:30PM (EST)

Also im on mobile so i cant make a poll so you gotta let me know through like a comment or somethin ok ty

#snap chats #maybe end even sooner at like 4:50 idk point is how does this sound... #ik everyone shows up for the 3:30 time but im also wondering if 1 is just really too early for some people #maaaaybe 2 if not ??? #reason for the time switch is that my moms starting to like. actually use our gym equipment now #and all of thats in the basement. Where I Hang Out #and she’s been getting home just a bit earlier nowadays so im tryig to play it safe #i dont want this arrangement to be permanent and if things go my way for once it shouldnt be #but just for now.. #if its not alright then i’ll prob have to pause on streaming for a bit #not forever just. A Bit until i get some personal things sorted #‘personal things’ Wow So Im Not Oversharing For Once leave me ALONE its a complicated situation so we’re going with Personal Things #ok im gonna enjoy my walk. or try to #my therapist is making me take my blood pressure daily and yesterday it was like #149/107 or something and i was like ‘yeah i might as well have high blood pressure’ #luckily. or unluckily to me i just took my blood pressure wrong #‘snap how the fuck do you manage that’ I Am Very Stupid. I Am An Idiot Even anyway i didnt know i had to sit POINT IS #took it today and it was actually a Normal reading but man it Would Not be unbelievable if i had HBP #when my dad was with my mom he had HBP all the time and as soon as he got out he was at a normal level... lol... #ok enough rambling bye #im lying I Had That bout myself cause theres a stereotype with filipinos #where bitches just Cannot Say Goodbye like fam will say ‘bye’ and talk another ten minutes and i keep proving it true ENOUGH #BYE FR THIS TIME PLEASE LET ME KNOW HOW WE FEEL BOUT THIS TIME SHIFT

[hella1975]

absolutely getting fined for this ❤️

#soooo I took my fairy lights off my walls bc we’re all moving out soon and we’ve been joking about accidentally peeling the paint #and not only did the paint peel but there was soot EVERYWHERE #and naturally I took a wet cloth to it to clean it and yeah the small dots of soot where my lights had been came off #but instead they became huge smears of soot all over the fucking wall #and when I tried to clean THAT I made it worse #one wall is actually unsalvagable I’m gonna have to fully repaint it and pray #luckily it’s white so I don’t need to worry about shade matching and the lighting in my room is so appalling that I don’t think my landlord #will notice the one white wall is Significantly Brighter than the other #BUT ONE WALL IS THIS UGLY GREY BROWN COLOUR THAT MY FLATMATE ALREADY TRIED TO SHADE MATCH BC HERS PEELED #AND SHE CANT AND I LITERALLY HAVE SOOT SMEARS EVERYWHERE #it’s an £80 fine per wall im looking at potentially £160 in fines if I can’t fix this #my flatmate is gonna try fix it tomorrow bc I’m going home #she was actually really good about it like when I freak out I get angry and I was just raging about trying to fix it #and she was like ‘it’s okay I’ve seen worse I’ll do it tomorrow I guarantee I can get it off’ and I didn’t even ask her to #bc it didn’t even cross my mind to expect her to help with it so it was just sweet #I hope she can fix at least the coloured wall bc I can’t paint over that #the white wall I fucking doubt can be fixed but I can paint that one at least #I’m just so pissed off bc normally you put a deposit down at the start of the tenancy and if u damage the property they use that money #to cover the charges. like it’d be shit to not get my deposit back but in my head that’s money already spent #whereas this is just a straight up fee of £160 potentially #and I’m already so behind with money like I saved £2k for america so I have NOTHING ELSE banked #I owe my parents that £600 from rent still AND I owe my friend £155 bc we’re going to Ireland in September #like at least my friend is v understanding and I made it very clear before she agreed to cover me that I wouldn’t be able to pay back for #a good few months and she didn’t mind #so I’ll put that one on the back burner #but STILL WHAT THE FUCKKKKK I’m so mad why do I make such a mess out of literally everything it’s acc impressive #hella goes to uni

[tsubasagirl]

Special Champion Stadium (Psychic) Lobby Dialogue (Japanese Dub)

(disclaimer: I can’t replay it so I don’t have an English dub recording)

#trainer hop #rival hop #pokemon masters #pokemon sword and shield #my screen recording #ignore the fact that this came out a few months ago #this has just been sitting in my camera roll for a few months #now that I’m not so busy and I’m sorting thru my recordings #got a shit ton of recordings for Hugh and especially Lodge Gladion :3c #I’ll kinda try to start posting those soon-ish #Still confused on why the recordings for the normal rotation battle didn’t get any attention #oh well #other than this #HOW WE FEELING NATE FANS #FINALLY GETTING THE JUSTICE HE DESERVES #PLUS ROSA LOOKS SO LOVELY #AND THE NEW/UPCOMING LOADING SCREEN LOOKS SO CUTE #saved up over 10k gems pls gacha gods don’t fuck me over

[bugdogg]

Impatient as hell rn

I wanna get home and flip out, run around room, think about the six idiots

#day is going very good #but it would also be good IF I WAS HOME #I had lunch w friends #trying to keep myself presentable and say things normally #apparently most people say things they don’t mean to sayyy?????? #do we all do that is that okay omgoshhh #hi everyone btw #days not over yetttt #I’ll be free soon #yippeee 🐛💥🫶🫂💪🏃

[wibble-wobbegong]

having mutuals has changed my entire tumblr experience. now when i post im kicking my feet waiting to see what they say and when none of them show up im on my knees begging google to tell me how to make my posts up to mutual standards. what in god’s name

#turns out actually doing things on tumblr has effects #i have to impress the 20-30 year old swifties on my phone. it’s a carnal need now #i am temporarily succumbing to the crave for internet validation #this won’t last long #i’ll be normal soon i swear #this might be about the scene analysis. this is also not me trying to make anyone read it #simply motivation to make the next one better so people engage with it #maybe it was the way i gave the info in the description??? should that have been more professional? #uughuhdvhshcnh

[rosicheeks]

I hope you’re doing good.

I miss you.

#hi!!! #I’m doing #ehhhhh 🤷🏽‍♀️ #but I’m doing alright tonight #a little buzzed chilling in my car #probably gonna go home soon to shower and try and go to bed early #(might end up doing my paint by number instead lol we will see) #I miss so many of you #I think about you guys all the time #I hope you feel the hugs and love I send you #idk who you are anon #but to all the people I used to talk to every now and then #and who would support me as much as they could #I love you and I miss you so much #I have a few special people I’m thinking of too #I hope you guys are doing alright #I’m hoping sometime soon I’ll start to feel a little more like myself? #really REALLY hoping I don’t have to wait until I move to feel normal again #anywayyyy #love and miss you guys 🤗🥰 #ask #anon

[aemiron-main]

me 🤝 mike

trying to make ourselves like girls

#ih and internalized transphobia has an unusually strong grip on me the past few days I’ll be normal soon #anyway working on my current analysis…. the butterfly imagery around Mike makes me INSANE #the duffers really said ‘we are going to show that Mike is trying to make himself like girls & that other people are trying to make him like #girls by paralleling it to some stuff in one of the most horrifying ways possible’ like they rlly. did that #cannot wait to elaborate on this in the analysis because……. now that I Know what the butterflies mean for Mike…… head in hands #LIKE THE DUFFERS JUST COULDNT HAVE DONE IT ANY OTHER WAY HUH??? like it makes sense and it’s lowkey brilliant but. Jesus Christ that’s dark #I’ll explain the full thing in the analysis so this probably doesn’t make sense without the contex but just like. damn #like yes 99% of the time I love being gay but also…. we rlly do live in society…. and then medical transitioning is stressful #like I’m doing it but like. time. money. fear of surgery yk #don’t mind me ranting but like. the ‘trying to make urself’ like girls thing with Mike hits me like a brick every time bc while I Know #lesbians do Not have it easy & im not saying they do but growing up I knew that with where I lived etc while being a lesbian would’ve been #looked down on compared to being straight it wouldn’t have been seen as nearly as ‘bad’ as being trans yk #like that’s just the case for my circumstances and just. even trying to force myself to be bi and feeling like I Had to be into girls bc no #guy would ever take me seriously as a guy and that dudes were supposed to be into girls and if I wasn’t then I was just actually a straight #woman/not queer at all and just. a whole fucking mess like seriously I spent so long Trying to be into girls both as a girl and as a guy

[milo-is-rambling]

Most of the time I think life is so so good and then I have one minuscule moment of pain again and it’s like nvm I need to die

#you ever have a good pain week and then you can feel your body getting tense again even when you’re trying to be proactive and it doesn’t #help anymore and you feel like a child again I feel like when I first started hurting when I first realized this was forever I feel like #when I would spend nights crying and thinking about how this was my body and this was my life and how it’ll be like this forever #I almost hate feeling good bc I forget how shitty it is when I hurt #like I truly forget that pain is forever when I have a good couple days and then it always comes back and even when it’s not brutal #immediately I know it will get there again. #I’m pmsing and I’m nervous bc I am stressed and I’ll be starting a new job next week and my shoulders are set more forward then they normal #are and ik it’s from driving and stress and sleeping in so many different places but like god how do I stop being afraid of my body #falling apart while im still using it. #I’m preparing myself for the inevitable endo flare. if it isn’t this month it’ll be some other month. how do I explain to a new boss that I #might have to call out a couple days in a row every month bc I’ll be busy curled up in a ball crying or sleeping for two days #how do I explain that I have to lie about how much I can carry and how long I can stay on my feet because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be able to #get a job anywhere #ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh I feel incredibly young and small and my life is short and just beginning and it feels like it’s racing me to the end #I will hurt in some capacity forever. I just have to deal with that. between emotional and physical pain I am hurting constantly but this #last week has been so fucking good and I have to go back to my regular life tomorrow and try to be good and fix myself and still remember to #stretch even when I’m not driving ten hours and it’s just so hard #I hope I take care of myself. I hope I stop hurting I hope I can be happy soon

[arthur-r]

actual footage of the smallest dance imaginable. a hundred people bought tickets which is. not a lot for an entire seven cities worth of students in a school. and then there was maybe fifty people total in the building at the most filled up time cause so many people just used the tickets as donating to charity and didn’t even want to go

#was excited to come home and laugh at the dance and then it just got a little much toward the end #but i still think it was pretty funny. also there were so many songs that literally no one there knew?? #my friends begged the dj (social studies teacher) to skip songs no one was dancing to and they wouldn’t #the entire night was really funny before i started falling apart about everything it just became a little much #kind of this whole week combined. monday i tried to take the bus to school showed up ten minutes early waited half an hour it never showed #(first time trying to take the bus from the apartment. school said there’s a stop here but apparently no) #tuesday i tried to take the bus after school and it never stopped within a mile of the apartment. got dropped off at a trailer park #that was not mine. had to have my mom pick me up. and then go to work after like regular #then wednesday was a little bit normal i think. pretty much regular. but did have trouble getting home again!! just not as exciting #anyway then thursday was probably maybe normal?? except my sister came in to school to visit her old favorite teacher. who is my teacher #in economics. and knows me trans and i had to have a conversation with my sister. so maybe not that normal #and then on friday. my older sister had my key card and i couldn’t get into the apartment building. waited outside for my little sister for #twenty minutes in the cold and then we went in the lobby and had to wait for a stranger to get close enough to ask for help. bad experience #so anyway there’s been a lot leading up to today. and it makes sense that i fell apart eventually. but no longer crying so call that a win #hope you all are well. i’ll go to sleep eventually. just a lot to get off my chest. in conclusion wasn’t this dance stupid #we hadn’t had a charity gala since pre-covid so i think just nobody knew what it would be like. i’m the only grade who’s been before #if it wasn’t for the charity gala i wouldn’t know i was trans. somebody complimented my transition there and i was like sorry i can do that? #(had cut my hair short and was wearing a suit. considered myself a stag bisexual and hadn’t heard of transmasculinity /gen) #so i had maybe high expectations. anyway i’m probably running out of tags soon just. yeah. idk. today was a lot #friends only #delete later

[tirednapentity]

I dunno man, maybe I’m just sick and tired of realizing how royally fucked I am in every aspect of my life and how badly I need to turn things around without actually knowing how to, while also constantly doubting myself. Or maybe I just haven’t slept in a while. Who knows.

#vent #Delete later #i am not having a good one ahahaha #i have so many things that need to get done and zero clue how to go about any of it and i hate it so much #it’s just. I feel out of the loop of normal human life #like i missed everything girls my age are supposed to know #half my friends are graduating this year. #And I’m trying so so hard to be okay with all that and all the other things that are changing soon #But it’s hard. It #feels like i can’t do it. Like i am wasting my time. #Like I’ll just be swept along and drowned forever #i feel younger than I really am. Time just keeps marching forward and I can’t keep up any more #i’m so tired. I’m so tired and worried and bored all the time. And i just wait for it to get better and it’s just not happening. #I’m standing still while the world goes on. And I’m sick of it #i just want to fall apart and drown and cry until there’s nothing left in me #i want to live and i don’t know how. I just don’t know how or why. #And i know I’m whining about trivial things. I know i should own up and be a fucking adult who can step up and take responsibility #but I’m not sure how. #i just want to rest #fuck This is another emotional breakdown isn’t it. Fuck fuck fuck.