i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((
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Why would I work on the next chapter when I can instead think of what will happen years down the line when Kix meets Arla and calls her Omega directly to her face instead
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For the first time since before Thanksgiving last year I just. Do not want to exist. I don't know if it's a coincidence that I went off the antidepressant I was taking for migraines, if it's just because I never sleep and have hit a record state of misery or what but boy I haven't missed this.
What I'd give to just. Hibernate for a few months
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Ever since getting a cane, ppl ask me all kinds of shit. But the one thing that hits me the most is my family/ppl i know irl asking me “so how long will you have this? when will you be able to get rid of it?”
I know theyre asking cause they want me to get better and care about my health, but its a little unsettling. I was told my back pain would last for AT LEAST a year. All of 2024 will have back pain. No heavy lifting, no excessive bending over, having to correct my movements/positions that ive been accustom to, physical therapy twice a day, and other things.
But theres a chance that i could have pain for more than a year. There was never a guarantee, it will improve yes, but it might not go away. Especially since i also have (mild) narrow disk spacing which will become an issue when im older. I think my family just isnt ready/willing to accept that one of their children might have chronic pain and need a mobility aid for the rest of their life. All before I’m 30.
This paired with job hunting and other personal issues have just made me more aware of how alienated i feel. I dont blame anyone in particular, i just feel like im at a point in my life that i never couldve predicted. Ive accepted my health and am trying to do better, but i guess i wish others around me would accept that too and help in a way that wasnt dehumanizing.
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swaggy please please please tell me madrid has got some plans for city at the bernabeu I need to see them lose so badly it’s not even funny anymore
BHAHAHAHAHAHAHA UR SO FUNNY💀💀 we cant play at home against anyone for shit like one of my tags for my rm liveblogs is "watching real madrid play at home is so embarrassing". we also have the copa del rey final 3 days before the first leg and im praying and begging on my knees that none of them get injured before the first leg.
being an rm fan is pinning all ur hope in the power of friendship, vibes, and don carlo's eyebrow and somehow it works on the ucl scale (im ordering a hit on haaland and de ginger as we speak).
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