#i too have been away more than usual

[analogwriting]

Ohhh to be loved like how rosi loves y/n 😭❤️ AND WE GOT A KISS NOW?!!! OMAGSJSLSMSNFKA. I'm going insaneeee!!!

And.. ehem ehem...

AMBROSEEEE!!! DID YOU MISS ME?!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA I AM BACK!!

And I got 2 chapters as a treat again hooraaaay. I should do this more often lmao. Just busy these dayss. Anyways, I love everything!! As always! Thank you for those beautiful chapters!! You are truly amazing, your majesty! 👏👑

-💙

AHAHAHA YES I DIIIIIID!!! i was wonderin' where you was at. glad to see you're all good lmaooo

but hell yeah smoochy smooch time!!! earlier than i originally planned, but it's fiiiine.

im glad you're enjoying like always ;a;

#i too have been away more than usual #i would've usually had another chapter or two by now but holy shit has my writers block been absolutely killing me #that and im getting railed by a million different things and none of them in the fun way smh #BUT WELCOME BACK #am answers

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Ok I’m glad I found the actual ask box instead of the EMBARASSING thing I did earlier, aside from that

How long does it usually take you to make a drawing? :3 I know it’s different depending on the caliber of the drawing but for an example let’s say just Barnaby and Wally doing whatever in a scene

I’m very curious about your process!! ^w^

i just saw what you mean and for your sake i'll Pretend I Did Not See lol. its ok tho it happens, Tumblr's a tough cookie to wrangle

hm. it Does vary wildly, both depending on quality, how used to scribbling a thing i am, and how well the art-mojo is flowing! on a bad night, a simple sketch could take an hour while the same sketch on a good night could take 15 minutes

and it's also hard to say since i don't really keep track! for example, The First One in this collage is a more involved sketch and i suspect it took thirty minutes maybe? i remember having some Difficulties so maybe longer? trying to get size differences between multiple characters in the same sketch adds a Lot of time, as does making sure they interact properly. while the last one in the collage (the Nom) probably took closer to ten minutes

i know the Laughingstock in Aziracrow's outfits i belted out in, oh... an hour or three? it's really hard to say! i think it was several bc i was watching gomens at the time, and i think it got through a couple of episodes... clothes add a lot of time! but certain things that i thought i did Quickly took hours in reality, and i only notice when i look up and see the clock has Changed Drastically! i have a very loose perception of time!

it really just depends on my motivation & how used to drawing something i am. like scribbling Eddie takes a while, lots of guidelines and erasing and redrawing. but scribbling Barnaby? easy. takes me seconds in comparison. way less guidelines - i know where everything is and where it goes! drawing dragons takes even less time - This One was done in a Blink, and the only guides i used were head circle / snout circle / jawline.

#the Size of the sketch absolutely makes a big difference #like sketch comms are really tough since im drawing them at a Much bigger resolution #and it throws off the feel of the brush & i have to go about it in a drastically different way than what im comfortable with #because i want to provide the Best Resolution/Quality possible! #and then tiny sketches are easy and quick cause it's close quarters. cozy! #and im more accustomed to keeping my brushstrokes Tight and Short #but im slowly getting used to scribbling Bigger! #just today i realized i was automatically scribbling larger than i used to #good! higher quality! #it will translate into my comms hopefully! #i still have one left... ive been slowly chipping away at it #rambles from the bog #i think im underestimating the time... #bc i Do draw slowly i think #it usually takes a while! #unless im In The Zone and then im belting things out at lightspeed #like remember that glorious time period where i was posting every day often Twice a day and the queue was backed up for Days? #yeah.... me too.... #i am very rarely in the Zone #its tough to think and its tough to Create and the process is so much!!! #it takes Energy i rarely have! so that slows it down too... #but yeah my 'process' is very much Not a process lmao #in the wise words of hobie brown: i dont believe in consistency #its not in my nature! to my detriment more often than not!

[the-grape-entity]

When a bad day at the end of a few bad weeks turns into being terrified you’re getting worse and terrified you’re never getting better

#vent #<? #I’m not doing too hot if you couldn’t tell #disabled #tourettes #mobility aid #when not being able to decide which leg feels worse right now turns into using both canes at once and then spiraling slightly over the #implications of that #I swear I’m normally positive about these kinds of things but the last few weeks have just been hell and the thought of becoming more disabl #disabled than I already am is terrifying to me #as much as I’m usually normal about this. I don’t want things to get worse. I don’t want to have to face the possibility of the things I lov #love being taken away from me because my body has decided it can’t or won’t handle them #I’m so tired. #edit: this is ok to rb btw

[quirkle2]

oh nooo that's quite a bummer :( but i'm very glad that i helped brightening up your day :") tbh your writing brightens up my day too (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

AND WAIT I'VE BEEN ACTUALLY QUITE THINKING ABOUT WHETHER ZOMBIE MOB HAS FOUGHT OFF A ZOMBIE WHEN I ASKED IF HE HAS EVER BITTEN SOMEONE and since you brought it up, well, would be okay to ask about the details of how it went 👁️👁️ (also him fighting off a fellow zombie to protect tome got me sobbing)

- 🪻

aww im glad my silly little words brighten ur day!! ur so sweet :]

and yes, it went horribly <3! tome prolly wasn't paying attention as closely as she should've been and got herself surrounded by a crowd. to be clear, that's not Always dangerous, since zombies arent like,, after ur brains in this constantly. but these zombies did look quite hungry, and human or not, she looked like a good meal,,

she had wandered off a bit from mob n ritsu, but mob heard the commotion first. tome has a big fucking baseball bat in this au that she likes to swing around, but a baseball bat can only get u so far in terms of self defense. she thins the horde but there's simply too many of them

mob lets exactly One zombie grab her and yank her toward them before he goes ballistic

watching zombies fight is a lot closer to watching wild animals fight than anything else, and it gets quite horrid sometimes. since their bites aren't rly "dangerous" to each other beyond the typical Oh No a Chunk of Flesh is Gone (not even painful for them, since their nerves r.. less than functional), the fight is a lot more close up and gruesome than a fight against a zombie and a human would be. humans usually back away from zombies immediately and try not to touch them at all in fear of getting bitten; zombies don't need to care abt that

most of the horde realizes that this meal isn't going to be easy and they wander off, but a few more hungry, more desperate ones try to rip into mob's throat at the first sign of defiance. it's not exactly a fair fight; it's like 1 against 4, so he's sorta bound to lose

thankfully ritsu shows up and shoots two of them down (he's Terrified of shooting mob by accident, but either way he'll probably die, so) and tome gets the last one with a good swing to the head. ritsu rushes to mob and is horrified by the amount of blood dripping from his neck and his arm; tome is equally as shocked, but she's mostly thinking, "ive Never seen a zombie defend a human before"

mob's neck is thankfully mostly just scraped up and clawed, but there Is some gruesome punctures where canines sank in and tugged. it's a lot worse along his arm that's bitten and gouged beyond belief. he loses a lot of blood here, but the whole nerves-no-longer-work thing is a blessing in disguise atm; he'd be in a lot of pain otherwise. while ritsu and tome are patching him up w shaky hands he simply glares beyond their shoulders like he thinks he's still in danger, even when they tighten the bandages. it's like he barely notices what they’re doing

his strangely alert behavior makes them think abt the possibility that maybe mob Knows he could've easily been shredded apart there, and he's a little scared and worked up abt it. the only reason he managed to fight as long as he did without dying is prolly bc the other zombies weren't as well-fed as mob—they were kinda weak and shaky from days of no food, but mob has humans taking care of him and keeping him fed 24/7

they're all shaken up by it pretty good.. tome is still reeling from the fact that mob defended her so valiantly, and ritsu is quietly horrified by the idea of another zombie killing mob instead of a human. he doesn't know which is worse

#qktalks #anon #zombie au #this isn't the first time ritsu has had to kill a zombie btw ^ #this is just the first time he's had to kill one since he started seeing zombies in a different light #it was either letting his brother die or killing a zombie. ritsu's upset that he had to make that decision at all #but he's not afraid to say that the decision was incredibly easy to make #it sucks that he had to kill one but . for mob ? literally anything goes #ritsu checked tome over after they took care of mob too. tome's very surprised when he's rly gentle abt it #ritsu's been known to .. lose his head a little in moments of stress #and sometimes he snaps at tome bc of it. he never means to he's just..worked up #but this time he's kinda fretting over her and it opens her eyes a little bit #ritsu has indeed grown to care abt tome a lot. they bicker Most of the time but it's usually not very serious #in all the excitement tome just hadn't rly realized that until now. ritsu is so high-strung that it's hard to get a read on his softer side #but now he's not just directing his softer side to his brother‚ but to tome as well #i have 15 more tags to explain smth i wanna make clear btw let's hope i don't start rambling abt smth else entirely #so i've been using a lot of vocabulary in these au posts that hint toward mob being ''special'' or ''abnormal'' in his behavior #he is not special or abnormal in any way #Every zombie is like that. every zombie has a personality‚ and a gentler demeanor hidden behind that desperate starvation #and remnants of their past selves in there somewhere #mob is simply one of the only zombies that have been taken in and cared for and treated like a sick person rather than a monster #as i've said before most people just.. either run away or shoot them between the eyes when crossing paths with a zombie #they don't give any of them a Chance. mob is a very very lucky zombie. #he is healthier than most other zombies and he is treated far better #and the way ritsu constantly talks to him is actually great for his health ! gets those rusty gears in his head rollin #exercises that brain‚ even if‚ to ritsu‚ he's only responding in odd gibberish #that's only one of the things ritsu gives him that other zombies never receive in their lifetimes #i'd say mob prolly ? has one of the longest ''zombie lifespans'' #most zombies either die of starvation‚ dehydration‚ or sleep deprivation within a few weeks #he's lived a long zombie life !

[amplexadversary]

Ashton Greymoore: “See, this is what happens when you start externalizing every fucking problem that you have. Easy to take a look at.

There’s a bunch of people who are treating other people like, just like they’re fucking nothing, like they’re fucking pawns. It doesn’t matter what the fuck they want - they are doing it wrong, it is not hard to see.

You’re being fucked with. We’re all being fucked with; whatever the fuck they say they’re doing, that’s where I draw the g-, the line. If they had such a great idea of what the world was supposed to be and what that thing was, they could just tell people.

But instead they’re making everybody miserable. They’re killing people.

Fuck that, fuck them, and I am going to be more than happy to drop a fucking ship on them.

I’m so sick of this shit.”

-Critical Role, Campaign 3, Episode 49 1:43:02

#Critical Role #CR3 #CR3-49 #CR Ashton #Ashton my beloved #Taliesin Jaffe brings yet another character I vibe so goddamn hard with #man plays the constantly-curbed-at-the-last-second anger in his character voice so well I love it #and this may be the actor leaking through but Ashton has this reason to them that feels like it's been eaten away at by their emotions #like they've gotten so used to being dismissed they don't try to separate the two and persuade people #who aren't already used to them and their usual speech patterns #because that's not something they've ever really been able to get to work #so you get this character who by his stats and his description is not a talker #but who drops arguments like this that feel emotionally raw but not spur-of-the-moment. #it's occurring to me that Ashton's speech can be described in a way that matches their aesthetic #it's a jagged pointy crystal that would have needed time to build up to the size it is and it has not been polished or cleaned up #like at all #The impression I get is that Ashton thinks about things a lot more than they say them and their speech mirrors their overarching theme #kind of as a result of that #like sure *maybe* that's Taliesin being too erudite but it fits the theme anyway

[i-bring-crack]

You ever think Persephone, when she came back from the underworld, was ever asked by the other gods how their favorite humans are doing?

#persephone #greek mythology #i mean she isnt the ONLY god to go away but she does reign over the souls and also stays with them more than other psychopomps #like hermes per say #the idea in my head ranges from hilarious (Apollo crawling back again like 'so...' and persephone sighs like 'which one is it this time') #to outright sad (athena humbky passing by the fields her mother cares for. usually a goddess of war such as her would be in the polis and #not so far out where only farmers live. but now she is here. reserved and quiet for a while before asking if she knows of a man. maybe one #who might have been mischevius enough to trick her at some point. maybe someone who had gona through the underworld twice but only came out #once. and persephone recalls before turning back to her and joking saying that yeah 'he has tried to escape again.' she smiles. #'and to the court he said. he only wishes to say goodbye to an old friend.' #ancient greece #man i need closure #i would say dionysous would also be approached but he would also be too drunk to remember—

[nonuggetshere]

I need to draw something with PK and Hornet there's not enough of these two together in my art

#thylacines can talk #in my au specifically she used to be SUCH a daddy's girl but then she grew up and grew bitter and resentful over her role in life. the #reason for her birth and the way her pwn sibling has been treated. She actually drifted away from both of her biological parents because #her being bitter about being concieved for a specific purpose and already having all of her life planned out for her is a big part why she #grew distant with her father and step mother so naturally it also applied to her mother. but she grew apart way more from PK and WL because #she had more grievances with them than just that one thing. Plus PK could sometimes be a little too smothering and overprotective. He truly #loves his daughter and maybe showers her with more love than usual because of what he did to his other kids but at times he doesnt know how #to reel it back. he got worse when Hornet pulled away because he was terrified of losing her which ironically made the drift bigger. #eventually they reconcile and grow closer again but they'll never be as close as they were when she was little. Or maybe they're just close #in a different way and that's alright. I don't see Hornet as an overly affectionate person so being smothered with love bugs her. She loves #her father and step mother of course she does. But she has a different way of showing it which took a little while for them to understand #and adjust to. They eventually grow close just not in that very affectionate little kid way #She actually grew closer to Vespa during her teen years as she was her teacher and mother figure and Hornet clung to her when she grew apart #from her two mothers and father. #oh a funfact. Hornet doesn't really call WL step mother. When she was little Herrah was mummy and WL was momma and now that she's older #they're both mum but she comes up with increasingly more ridiculous ways to differentiate them. She only really calls WL 'step mother' when #shes angry with her. or 'your mother' if she's talking yo her siblings. A very cheap shot that would make WL feel really shitty but makes #Hornet feel better for a while. #faaf au

[flamboyant-king]

You know me. I like barely ever show any NOT SAFE FOR WORK drawings on here. So instead, I'm sharing drawings of my face AS I was drawing each NOT SAFE FOR WORK thing.

And the subject is right there, smack dab in the middle. Being tormented by the sins of the egg. (I drew him really cute but I can't share the rest.)

ALSO, I'd like to state that it's not corngraphic except like two maybe, it's more so like violent. We are all just having fun beating this guy up. Like, step right up and stomp on his face type shih. I never ever ever draw violent stuff, unless it's lewling related, so this is like cathartic.

This uhh feeling will fade after Halloween hopefully and we'll go back to our regularly scheduled wholesomeness and cammypus.

#i looked in a mirror 20 feet away as reference because im like NYAHAHA WHAT EVILS HAVE I COMMITED #and i see my own smug face in the mirror like 'yes this will get me hunted down' #sketches #i do comedy slapstick violence but ya know doing more darker jokes and adult humor feels nice like im not censoring myself #i mean i still am by not showing you guys a lot of the bloody or even H O RN Y stuff but ya cant expose everything #like for those of yall who have followed me for years id say were all legal here for more than my usual 13+ content #i just want ro be appealing to a broader audience IN CASE i ever did make it somewhere but haha its been what #8 years since i started this blog. any credit i had died off with teeny taku fhjdjsksajsk #ive got no image to uphold. i have nothing im trying to promote anymore. i do but ive lost the plot ya know #im just having fun and im glad you guys are just ...letting me? like i looked at my old stuff #with the cookies the pokemans the fehs the ocs. and yall just let me go freaking wild and thought #yeah ill give that a like. bless yalls hearts. bless ya souls. ive got thousands of posts on here and yall just let me run wild #and thank you for that. ya never pit pressure on me. kts me outting pressure on myself. #i do wish there were folks that did look forward to some actual tangible content instead of me shitposting with no cohesiveness #but thats just hard with adhd. and try as i might with medications and alarms and deadlines and what have you. its just. difficult #like even the tags here are derailing. but i hope that alongside me just having fun doing my thing. i hope i can get on course #where there is a clear line to follow in my life but i dont lose sight of it as i trail off #but for now. im just drawing experimenting and straight up goofing around. have fun you guys #i may not show you everything but just know im having fun too.

[byanyan]

byan disappears for two days but instead of emerging strung out and skittish like usual, their hands and arms are covered in paint and ink stains and they're a little distant but hungry as hell

#byan occasionally hiding away to work on a piece of art from beginning to finish to limit outside distractions #bc they have something in their head that they desperately need to get out #and if they lose focus at any point they'll never come back to finish it #it's probably no surprise to hear that these pieces are usually tied to their trauma #they get it in their head that if they get the vivid imagery out onto paper they'll be able to stop thinking about it (they won't) #but if they take a break at any point or get distracted and stop... coming back later is hard #oftentimes they end up destroying the unfinished piece when that happens bc now that they've had some distance #they don't want to relive the event again just to finish it #it's a coping mechanism they don't use often - at least not on this level #their sketchbooks are full of pieces like this but those are smaller and less elaborate - ones they finish in hours rather than days #sometimes certain pieces call for being bigger and more detailed... it just depends on how it looks in their mind #just smth that's been in my head for a couple days now that I've been mulling over idk #I think sometimes there's a little substance abuse that goes on at the same time too... #but not to the same level as the abuse when they disappear specifically to fuck themself up #it's more to like. make things flow and make it a little easier to sit in that memory for a prolonged period of time #so overall still not the most healthy coping mechanism :/ but it's not their WORST so. there's that. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made. #drug use cw

[rahabs]

I have given up entirely on my birthday this year after today.

#text #chey.txt #Mmm less than a week away and I'm already like. Cool. Better than getting my hopes up for another year only to have them dashed I suppose #So we won't be doing anything for it as usual I assume #We are just curled on the couch miserably #With nothing to look forward to but bills and bills and more fucking bills as the cost of living in this shithole country soars #My sisters gets gifts and dinners #I get told it's 'too expensive' #I know it's stupid to whinge it's not that I never get things in general but #My birthdays have been shit since I turned 19 #And I was left writing exams while my family had the trip of a goddamn lifetime to Disney World. #It's been ten years of shit ever since. #And they didn't mean to leave me there they just #Forgot that university exams were in April; I'm the oldest child #But still. #My birthday has been forgotten in other years since #I'm just like. A little. #Upset. #That on top of having to pay for the new dishwasher and to fix my fireplace etc etc #Which is nearly $2000 #I'm being told I have to repay my parents for other things #While they drop 2k on dog collars for my younger sister.

[miserye]

man i usually avoid manga adaptations for manga's i've read like the plague but they did the apothecary diaries so good i'm like actually losing my mind

#hey. there's a wall of tags here. be warned. #chatterye #everyone is as they should be #they adapted it wonderfully #actually one of my faves #i'm a either book or movie person #i don't do both #this however. this is different #also usually i like the first op better than the second but the second one is superior imo #i love the images they use so much more for the second one i think it's much more fitting for the show #i didn't like how they spoiled maomao's beauty literally immediately ??? like that took away from the show #anyways i thought it was over because i've been seeing a lot of clips about it #but it's not so now i have to keep up w it which is fine because it's so fun #i will say it does go slow so this series is a 2x for me #and that's okay. #anyways i'm so excited #also i ate waayyyyyyy too much for dinner and i'm regretting life #blaming suspected pms #WASHHSAKJHSFKJHAKSJFHLJKAEHFJKAE it was so fun #gosh they did maomao so good and i love her w everyone #she's so cutie pie ASJFHKJSDHFGKJSADHGKJ i love her w gaoshun they're so funny #and also i like how they kept the chinese names #WAHHHHH #it was everything i wanted and more #i haven't been so zoned into an anime like that for so long #and maomao is so fresh AHHHHHHHH i love her and all the beautiful ladies #they're so beautiful it's crazy #and well i guess jinshi is there too #i need a new tag for anime i like #anime rye is very normal about

[sortanonymous]

Life as a Truex fan these past 22 race weekends

#of course it was because of a late caution #of course it was after dominating the race #of course it was due to getting beat on pit road #and of freaking course it was losing to hamlin (jumping the restart at that and getting away because refs love him more than tom brady) #fire james small #i don't know if he was as much to blame as usual but just get his butt out of there yesterday #i genuinely can't blame truex for just rage quitting at the end there after how these past seven months have gone #genuinely a little impressed he didn't lose it back at martinsville last year #please tell me this entire season won't just be this ugh #martin truex jr #nascar #nascar richmond #nascar cup series #toyota lovers 400 #steven universe meme #steven universe future meme #nascar memes #like it appears that life for truex fans has been a nightmare since martinsville 2018 #(i only started watching in '21 ftr) #but man not to risk sounding insensitive or anything but it really feels like all his luck died with sherry #i don't want to speak on his behalf or anything but i certainly wouldn't blame him if that fall in general just drained him completely #i need a nap #and maybe truex does too poor guy

[robotic-maid]

How things are going again… update I guess? Still can’t figure out how to read more on mobile. I’m just typing this out so it can leave my head.

#nights are really hard for me #mornings are also really hard for me #I think my jobs burning me out #and I haven’t been able to sleep very well much at all #I’ve only been getting 3-5 hours if I’m lucky because my nightmares are really bad so I usually just stay awake #I mean I have to get up at 4am anyway so what’s the point #do you know how it feels to be in pain but you can’t cry because your body’s grown so used to it? #so it feels like crying because it’s Wednesday again #which I can’t justify because tommorrow is Thursday and that is your new normal #your new normal is working so hard you don’t have the time to see your dog and your cars ac is out and you spend all your money on the room #you sleep in 15 minutes away from the office you are stuck at more than 11hoirs a day #you ask your job to adjust your schedule and they say they can’t without cutting your hours and you need the money to survive #it’s too much #but feeling this way or not feeling this way won’t make a difference because the only other options will make your living situation harder #I’m so tired but I don’t have any better options right now so I have to keep waking up and working #I feel horrible spending time with me friends because I get tired after an hour and I worry that I’ve become #too flaky or something #I can’t stay up late and I’m already stressed out so I just can’t keep up with everyone and I don’t want to be a drain #I wish my heart would just stop some times #my meds stop me from hurting myself or crying or sleeping too long but these feelings always come to me when I wake up #I’m disappointed I woke up again #I don’t want to keep doing this I don’t know how long I can keep going #my body is breaking down like my car is breaking down #I don’t want to keep doing this I need more than a day off work a week I want to see my dog I don’t want to be poor but I don’t want to #wake up just to spend all day in an office getting yelled at while my coworkers come in and leave before me #I know I can do this I know I need to keep doing this I know there’s nothing better for me than this #I shouldn’t say these horrible things out loud because they’ll just wear me down faster #there’s nothing that will help me I need to help myself #this is en endurance test and I need to keep it up because if I fail I will lose so much more than I have #I wish I could cry I wish I could break down and scream but what would be the point? it won’t help it won’t fix anything m

[kittlyns]

Gotta say, nothing will ever motivate you to throw literally everything away quite like finding a bed bug @ 12:30am on a Sunday night

#I've accumulated so many things. and I just don't throw them away or give them away bc there's always some weird thought attached to it #'oh I can't throw that torn skirt away I could probably fix it' (hasn't tried once in well over a year) #'I can't donate that humidifier my mom gave that to me' (hasn't been turned on in over 2 years) #so many crafts I've picked up and gave up on. so many bits and bobs I've been given that I've never even touched. #I'm always like what if I'll need this someday! 😶 girl be fr #sighhhhhhhh #anyways I have an exterminator coming over to inspect on Tuesday #fingers crossed that they find nothing and I don't have to find $2000 to pay for this to be fixed #and I can go forward being more cautious and way more grateful for my usual way of living #the day I can put sheets and comforters and more than one!!! pillow on my bed. god. tearing up just thinking abt it #the bug place receptionist was so sweet and she was like 'don't burn your stuff!' I was like girl you are too late for that. #I'm going scorched earth on my room rn

[fictionadventurer]

For the ask game:

Title: As Falls the Midnight Moon

Genre: fantasy (any sub-genre)

As Falls the Midnight Moon by Jodie Akres

In the secret-filled city of Verram, knowledge is power. Restia, the unassuming caretaker of the city's archives, knows this better than anyone, so when a thief gets away with a secret that could bring down an empire, Restia takes to the dark and winding city streets to track him down. Her journey entangles her with ruffians, gamblers, smugglers, and some of the most powerful men in the city, but she will do whatever it takes to track down the document before the moon sets.

#imaginary books recs #answered asks #firefletch #i've summarized this one badly i'm sorry #how can one capture the atmosphere without giving away all the secrets? #such a lovely twisty political intrigue plot #a touch darker than i usually go for but not too dark so it was a fun read #one of the few modern traditionally-published fantasies i've actually enjoyed #didn't know they made them like this anymore #(out of character apologies) #(this has been here a ridiculously long time) #(was one of the favorite titles i received) #(but i couldn't settle on a premise that lived up to it) #(i finally made this moodboard months ago but it remained vibes instead of plot) #(but now i got back into an imaginary book recs mood and decided i just have to go for it) #(i wanted to add more specific details and characters) #(but this is all i got for now) #(sort of an imaginary book rec of an imaginary book rec)

[dromaeo-sauridae]

yall i feel bad. BAD bad. i dont know why

#idk why im telling tumblr this #these people have been setting me off more than usual #everything feels More. too much. everything they say makes me want to scream #ive been thinking about my family. i miss them all so much #i cant get a job and i want my dad #i feel like a failure. i feel like im trapped in a cage. #i get in my car and drive into a town i hate to get a drink and make myself feel better for a moment #then i come back here. to hell #to my own personal purgatory #it feels like ive been living every moment in waking dread #my anxiety hasnt gone away its just shifted. im not scared for myself anymore #my paranoia used to be so self centered #now i check my phone sick to my stomach hoping my friends are okay. hoping theyre safe. #my mind never stops moving and never stops imagining horrific things #im so tired. im so tired. #vent tw